07x18 - Song Beneath the Song

[bunniefuu]

Callie! Callie! Callie!

The brain is the human body's most mysterious organ. It learns ... it changes ... it adapts. It tells us what we see ... what we hear. It lets us feel love. I think it holds our soul.

Callie! Oh, Callie! Help!

Help! Somebody, call 9-1-1! Help!

Oh! Oh, no. What should we ... Go! Help me! Help! I need an ambulance ... But now matter how much research we do ...

no one can really say how all the delicate gray matter

inside our skull works.

And when it's hurt ...

when the human brain is traumatized ...

well ...

that's when it gets even more mysterious.

♪ Nobody knows where we might end up ♪
♪ Nobody knows ♪

Dr. Sloan, are you almost done here?

I'm good in two seconds. What's up?

Um, I-I'll wait.

I rocked this mandibular repair.

You'd never know this guy's jaw was broken in five places.

I'm somewhat of an artist.

Not Picasso, because then his jaw would be on his forehead.

I'm like, uh, Chagall, Michelangelo.

I'm Michelangelo.

There. Done.

What do you got?

What the hell happened?

Car versus truck. That's all we know.

And her injuries? What ... the baby?

We don't know yet.

Well, why the ... why the hell don't you know?

Someone get me a trauma gown.

Mark, you need to sit this one out.

I'm not sitting this one out. That's Callie.

That's my kid.

Which is why you can't.

I'm sorry. You can't be a doctor on this one.

Screw you.

Sloan.

Screw all of you.

Look at me, Sloan. Look at me.

Look, maybe I don't understand what you two have, how you have it, but I understand this, she is your family.

Callie Torres and that baby are your family, and the best way that you can help your family is to step back and let the rest of us do what you can't rationally do ... save their lives.

Okay?

Mark.

I'm in the room, you hear me?

Okay.

I'm in the room.

Okay.

Hunt, you're in charge.

All right, everyone. Multiple blunt trauma protocol.

Let's go.

Tachycardic and hypotensive en route.

Obvious head and chest injuries.

Callie? Callie.

We've got you, you hear me?

Everything is gonna be okay.

She's hemorrhaging.

Wait. Hold on. Is that blood coming from her chest?

What?

Calliope means ... means music.

Oh, j ... uh, honey, we're gonna fix you up just fine.

Don't you worry.

She went through the windshield.

Seat belt? Airbags?

She took it off.

♪ We'll do it all ♪

She lost a lot of blood, too.

♪ Everything ♪

Make sure she gets lots of fluids.

Callie, can you blink for me?

♪ On our own ♪

Extraocular movement's intact.

Pupils equal and reactive.

Set up a chest tray.

I'm on it.

Let's get the fetal monitor set up.

I need to hold pressure.

Let's go! Come on!

♪ We don't need ♪

Out of the way!

♪ Anything ♪
♪ or anyone ♪

What the hell happened?

It came outta nowhere. I ... I asked her to marry me, and truck came outta nowhere.

♪ If I lay here ♪

Out of the way! Move!

♪ If I just lay here ♪

Get out of the way!

♪ Would you lie with me and ♪
♪ just forget the world ♪

Torres, you stay with me.

You got that? You stay with me.

♪ I don't quite know ♪
♪ How to say ♪
♪ How I feel ♪

One, two, three.

Get those I. V. S up.

♪ Those three words ♪

And make sure her lines are patent.

Depressed skull fracture with a probable bleed.

♪ Are said too much ♪

I'll do a trauma ultrasound.

Tell C.T. to get ready for her.

No obvious spinal deformities.

Hang two bags of O neg.

♪ They're not enough ♪

But she's A positive.

Yeah, no, she's A positive.

Scratch that. Type specific, A positive.

Is there a fetal heartbeat?

No breath sounds on the right. Set up a chest tube.

I'm on it.

Lucy is there a fetal heartbeat?

Lucy!

Give me a minute.

You two need to back up.

I want an answer!

♪ If I lay here ♪

Against the wall and silent. You hear me?

Left upper quadrant's looking clear.

♪ If I just lay here ♪

I need those drapes to prep her chest.

♪ Would you lie with me ♪

Sterile drapes and betadine.

Check Morrison's pouch.

♪ And just forget the world ♪

Temp's 35 degrees.

Keep giving warm fluid so she doesn't get hypothermic.

Should we start mannitol?

♪ Forget what we're told ♪

We'll hold off for now.

♪ Before we get too old ♪
♪ Before we get too old ♪

Hold on. Blood in the right upper quadrant.

You gotta push that L. R. in faster. Bailey, where are you?

♪ Show me a garden ♪

Uh, rapid infuser.

She needs a central line.

I'll do a subclavian.

♪ That's bursting into life ♪

I need a central line kit and sterile gloves.

Come on. Come on. Come on.

Call upstairs and tell 'em to prep an O.R. Where's that blood?

♪ Let's waste time ♪
♪ Chasing cars ♪
♪ Around our heads ♪
♪ I need your grace ♪
♪ To remind me ♪
♪ To find my own ♪
♪ If I lay here ♪
♪ If I just Lay here ♪
♪ Would you lie with me ♪
♪ And just forget the world? ♪

This monitor's not picking up.

Doppler's here.

Okay, let's switch.

♪ Forget what we're told ♪

Derek, please.

How are we doing with the heartbeat, Lucy?

Systolic's down to 72.

Get some heparin to flush the line.

♪ Before we get too old ♪

If I'm gonna find a heartbeat, I need everybody to shut up for a second.

Everyone, quiet. Right now

♪ Show me a garden ♪
♪ That's bursting into life ♪

There it is. Fetal heartbeat.

V-fib!

She's crashing.

Start bagging her.

Come on. Get her on her back.

♪ All that I am ♪

Starting CPR.

Okay, get me an intubation tray, please.

Ready to intubate. Hold in-line stabilization.

♪ All that I ever was ♪

I've got cricoid pressure for you.

♪ Is here in your perfect eyes ♪
♪ They're all I can see ♪

Charging to 120. Clear.

Still in V-fib.

♪ I don't know where ♪

All right. Charge the paddles to 200.

♪ Confused about how as well ♪

Charged to 200.

Clear.

♪ Just know that these things will never ... ♪

Sinus tach.

She's back.

♪ Change for us at all ♪

Get the ambu on.

Let's move. Here we go. Everybody, ready? Grab that. Grab it.

All right. Go, go, go. Let's move. Go.

♪ If I lay here ♪
♪ If I just lay here ♪
♪ Would you lie with me and ♪
♪ Just forget the world ♪

I asked her marry me, and a truck came outta nowhere.

C.T. shows a large epidural and subdural.

I need to get in there. Is she under?

We're ready for you.

All right. I'm going in. I need a 10-blade.

Bipolar to Dr. Grey.

Bovie.

Wait. Wait. Stop. Her anesthesia's too light.

Oh, I can fix that.

Oh, my god.

Damn it, Knox. We're on the run here.

People.

Take a breath, everybody. I mean it.

Stop what you're doing and every one of you take a breath and center yourself.

There no need to rush in there. We rush, we make a mistake, so, everybody ... take a breath.

Hey.

Just breathe.

Callie, relax. We've got this.

It's under control. Just breathe.

♪ 2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake, ♪
♪ "Can you help me unravel my latest mistake? " ♪
♪ I don't love him Winter just wasn't my Season ♪

Someone needs to keep an eye on Mark.

Little Grey.

Eyes on Sloan.

♪ Yeah, we walk through the doors ♪
♪ So accusing their eyes ♪
♪ Like they have any right ♪
♪ At all to criticize ♪
♪ Hypocrites, you're all here for the very same reason ♪

Did Dr. Sloan come by here?

♪ Cause you can't jump the track ♪
♪ We're like cars on a cable ... ♪

I need some more lap pads in here.

More, please. More.

There's your subdural.

Let's zip the dura, get her decompressed.

I've got bleeders everywhere.

Let's get control with this liver lac ... More lap pads.

Before she gets unstable.

Body temp's dropped to 32 degrees.

She's getting hypothermic.

She's contracting.

More lap pads.

♪ And breathe just breathe ♪
♪ Breathe ♪
♪ Just breathe ♪

I need a retractor in here.

Her pressure's dropping.

If you're not needed, get out of the way.

She can't take much more. We need to get out.

She's not clotting well.

You need me?

Contractions have stopped. Go.

♪ You'll just make them again ♪
♪ Only try turning around ♪

She needs time to recuperate.

If we don't pack her and get out now, she's gonna bleed to death.

Let's, uh, get set up for a temporary abdominal closure.

So-so what happens now?

We get her up to the I.C.U.

and see if she lives for the next 24 hours.

If she makes it, we go in again.

I want a doctor with Torres at all times.

Dr. Fields, what's your plan here?

My plan?

Yes, a plan. What if Torres starts contracting again?

What if she has preterm labor?

What if, god forbid, you have to deliver this baby?

I may be a little out of my depth here, sir.

♪ However you want to ♪
♪ Cause you can't jump the track ♪
♪ We're like cars on a cable ♪
♪ Life's like an hourglass, glued to the table ♪
♪ No one can find the rewind button now ♪
♪ Sing it if you understand ♪

You don't have to do this. I know you hate me.

I don't hate you.

♪ And breathe ♪
♪ Just breathe ♪

What do you need?

♪ Oh, breathe ♪

I could stitch up that nasty cut you got goin' there.

I'm okay. I'm ... ♪ Just breathe ♪

I'm fine.

♪ Oh, breathe ♪
♪ Just breathe ♪

She's my best friend.

She's my best friend.

This is humiliating. He's benching me.

I've been benched.

She's the best there is.

He wants the best for Torres.

Yeah, it makes me look like a complete moron in front of my colleagues.

They're not thinking about you. They're thinking about Torres.

I'm sorry, but suck it up.

What's her status?

She's in S. V. T. I gave her adenosine and some diltiazem, But ... Go. Take a break. I got it.

Dr. Montgomery, uh, there's a chance the baby could survive if we deliver by C-section while Callie is stable.

No, there's not, because not only did you fail to stop her contractions, you didn't give steroids to the baby to help mature her lungs, so you can go, too.

Go.

Oh, sweetie.

I'm so sorry.

But don't you worry. We got this.

The attendings, we are all gonna meet and we are gonna come up with a plan.

I promise you. We're gonna make a plan and we're gonna figure out what to do.

It's gonna be all right.

You're gonna be okay.

She has got a hole in her heart.

She needs bypass to fix it, and she needs it now.

Bypass would mean a lot of heparin.

It is a setup for a rebleed.

The hypothermia would k*ll the baby.

Traumatic V. S. D. S can close on their own.

Which is why we should wait to repair the heart.

She's not stable enough to wait.

No, damage control ... This is Callie, okay?

Look, yelling at each other is not ... ♪ Calm down ♪
♪ And get straight ♪
♪ It's in our eyes It's how we operate ♪
♪ You're true ♪
♪ You are ♪
♪ I'd apologize ♪
♪ But it won't go very far ♪
♪ Please come here ♪
♪ Come right on over ♪

Yesterday we were at her stupid baby shower.

I take it back.

You can be Callie's baby's godmother.

If there's a baby to godmother.

The only way to save the baby is to save Callie, and the only way to save Callie might end up k*lling the baby.

You've got a hickey on your neck.

What? Oh.

Oh. Oh, Karev's turning all red.

Are you in love? Are you a lover?

Shut up.

Lover.

Shut up.

Lucy is the first girl that he's really liked since ... Big deal. She works here at Seattle Grace Mercy death, so I'm sure she's pretty much gonna go crazy or get cancer or sh*t by a gunman or hit by a truck.

So don't get your hopes up for Karev's big happily ever after.

Seattle Grace Mercy death.

He's got a point.

♪ Turn me inside out ♪
♪ And upside down ♪

So you think that she'd have a better chance if we took the baby out now, electively?

Well, Callie's cardiovascular status could possibly be greatly improved, but we just need to know ... What we want to do.

No, what Callie would want us to do.

The baby's barely viable.

Why are we even talking about the baby?

Did-did you just say that?

No, I'm saying, we give Callie the best sh*t she can get.

All right ... But Callie wants a baby.

Arizona ... Callie wants to live.

Well, we all want her to live, but what's her life gonna be like if she wakes up and her child is gone?

What's her life gonna be like if she's dead?

Oh, god. It's not that simple.

It is. I don't like it.

♪ Wait ♪

It's horrible, but it is that simple.

We can have another baby.

♪ Wait for the dawn my dear ♪

We can't have another Callie.

Oh, so you're just gonna screw my girlfriend again?

Oh, for god sakes. Get over it. We screwed.

♪ Wait till the sun gets here ♪

Big deal.

It is Mark. It is a big deal.

♪ And you will wait too long ♪

Well, if that's what it takes to make another child ... my child ... we'll screw again.

♪ He will be gone ♪

No, you won't.

Yes, we will.

You are out of your mind.

Just because you're too much of a man-whore to make any relationship work ... ♪ Wait, wait till the sun shines through ♪
♪ Wait till the sky is blue ♪
♪ And you will wait too long ♪
♪ He will be gone He will be gone ♪
♪ He will be gone ♪
♪ He will be gone ♪

They have a plan?

Torres goes back to the O.R. tomorrow.

Now the big question is whether or not to deliver the baby first.

They're waiting for Robbins and Sloan to decide.

How is ... how-how are they doing?

You mean Sloan?

I think he's okay.

You want to go home tonight or sleep here?

I don't know. I-I might need to ... I-I ... I get it.

It's Mark's kid.

♪ He will be gone ♪
♪ He will be gone ♪

Derek.

She suffered massive head trauma.

I fixed all the bleeders I saw, but ... She could have permanent neurological damage.

She may not come back.

Even if they manage to save her body, her brain may not come back.

Mark was standing there.

You have to tell him.

I can't do that. I'm not ... I can't.

Okay, come on. You need to sleep.

♪ He will be gone ♪

A baby born at 23 weeks risks encephalopathy, R. O. P. , cerebral palsy, developmental ... I know the risks.

No, do you? Because you're acting like you don't care about the baby.

I'm thinking about Callie.

You don't think I care? !

This is my baby!

You're not being rational.

Oh, you never wanted this. You never asked for it.

Why the hell are you giving us some opinion on what you ... No, no, no! You know what I didn't ask for?

I didn't ask for you, Mark. Because you know what you are.

You're basically a sperm donor. I mean, this is me and this is Callie, and we're together, so I say ... No! You don't get a say.

This is my family. I'm the father.

I'm the father.

You're not anything. You're nothing.

♪ Wait till you doubt no more ♪
♪ Wait till you know you're sure ♪
♪ And you will wait too long He will be gone ♪

Wait.

Oh, this is bad.

Mark just found out Lexie's with Jackson. He's freaking.

I thought we were getting away from Mark for the weekend.

There. He's gone.

You know what? Just get it

'cause he's not gonna stop.

Oh.

You're gonna ask me to marry you.

What? No, I'm not.

In a few seconds, you're gonna ask me to marry you, and then we're gonna ... run into a truck.

Well, then you better put on your seat belt.

I didn't answer you because

I don't-I don't know.

Put on your seat belt.

I mean, is this what love is supposed to feel like?

Is this what love feels like for other people?

You know, I don't really care about other people right now.

I mean, other people can do it ... Meredith and Derek, Cristina and Owen, Bailey's got Eli, Karev's with Lucy.

Even Teddy's got that tumor patient husband.

Put your seat belt on.

I want that.

I want us to be like that, 'cause I love you.

I do.

Put on your seat belt.

♪ Girl, you got me trippin' on sunshine ♪
♪ God knows you just made my day ♪
♪ Since you came around, no ♪
♪ I just can't slow down, no ♪
♪ I want to see you walkin' my way ♪

All right.

♪ Girl, you got me thinkin' 'bout diamonds ♪
♪ Gettin'own on one knee, maybe two ♪
♪ Ooh, love People may stop and stare? ♪
♪ But I don't even care, no ♪
♪ Just as long as I am with you ♪
♪ You got me runnin' on sunshine ♪
♪ Ain't no clouds gettin' in my way ♪
♪ I must be runnin' on sunshine ♪
♪ Ain't no rain gettin' in my way ♪
♪ Girl, you got me actin' real crazy ♪
♪ Chasin' tail like some old dog ♪
♪ Ooh, I got this rocket ♪
♪ In my front left pocket ♪
♪ Ready to explode like a b*mb ♪
♪ Somethin' tells me your name is Lucy ♪
♪ 'Cause everything keeps shakin' around ♪
♪ We can cop a room ♪
♪ Makes these walls go boom ♪
♪ We can do this right here and now, now, now ♪
♪ Runnin' on sunshine ♪
♪ Ain't no clouds gettin' in my way ♪
♪ I must be runnin' on sunshine ♪
♪ Ain't no rain gettin' in my way ♪
♪ Hey, just get over yourself ♪
♪ This ain't too good for your health ♪
♪ Hey, just get over yourself ♪
♪ Hey, just get over yourself ♪
♪ This ain't too good for your health ♪
♪ Hey, just get over yourself Self, self, self ♪

Okay.

♪ You got me runn' on sunshine ♪
♪ Ain't no clouds gettin' in my way ♪
♪ I must be runnin' on sunshine ♪
♪ Ain't no rain gettin' in my way ♪
♪ No doubt ♪
♪ No doubt about it ♪
♪ And there ain't no clouds in my sky ♪

Paralytics are off.

♪ No doubt ♪
♪ No doubt about it ♪
♪ And there ain't no clouds in my sky ♪

Callie.

Callie.

I know it hurts.

But we're going to lower your sedation and check on your neuro function.

Don't fight the intubation. This won't take long.

Can you follow me with your eyes? With your eyes, okay?

Can you squeeze my hand?

What about one finger? Can you move one finger?

I'm gonna put her under.

It's too soon to tell anything.

She didn't respond?

She opened her eyes and, um ... Look, it's just too soon to tell.

Derek, did she follow commands?

Anything else?

Uh ... No, nothing else.

These are Dr. Burke's ex-patients.

Both s*ab wounds to the chest, both presented after their initial surgeries with D. O. E.

Now he fixed both of them percutaneously, which drastically reduces the amount of heparin needed.

So we could avoid the brain rebleeding, and we don't need hypothermia, so the baby would have a better chance ... Callie has a cardiac contusion, not penetrating trauma.

This is different.

Yeah, but I read cases where it worked in blunt trauma.

Well, I have seen every cardiac structure sheared off by the wire in the loop in that procedure.

Dr. Burke uses a technique that doesn't require the formation of a loop.

By placing an extra-stiff wire deep into the pulmonary artery, we avoided that complication.

Even if that's the case, there's embolization and hemolysis ... Which all could be avoided with a meticulous delivery technique.

It's genius.

No.

What?

I'm saying no. It's too risky in this case.

The chances that we could puncture her heart are too high.

No, I did the surgery with Burke.

I mean, he taught me. If you're unfamiliar with the technique, I can show you operative reports.

This discussion is over.

Owen?

I am head of cardio, not your husband.

I am not asking my husband.

I'm asking the person in charge of Callie's case.

Dr. Hunt?

I'm sorry, but ... if Dr. Altman says that it's too risky, then ... Cristina ... Mark's kinda right, you know.

I'm nothing.

I mean, legally I'm ... no one.

Which is kinda crazy, 'cause I feel like your wife.

I feel like our baby's mom.

Can you just ... Can you live?

Can you live ... for me?

Please ... live for me.

♪ You know there's no need to hide away ♪
♪ You know I tell the truth ♪
♪ We are just the same ♪
♪ And I can feel ♪
♪ Everything you do ♪
♪ Hear everything you say ♪
♪ Even when you're miles away ♪
♪ 'Cause I am me ♪
♪ The universe and you ♪
♪ Yeah, yeah ♪
♪ Oh, yeah ♪
♪ And when you're on your own ♪
♪ I'll send you a sign ♪
♪ Just so you'll know ♪
♪ That I am me ♪
♪ The universe and you ♪
♪ The universe and you ♪
♪ I am the universe and you ♪

Why don't you go in there and make peace?

You both love Callie.

There's nothing left to say.

What happened?

Her pressure's bottoming out.

Belly's tight as a drum.

Flash pulmonary edema. Her lungs are full of fluid.

Abdominal compartment syndrome. She's bleeding out.

Alert an O.R. that we're on our way down.

♪ I'm on my knees ♪
♪ Only memories ♪
♪ Are left for me to hold ♪
♪ Don't know how ♪
♪ But I'll get by ♪
♪ Slowly pull ♪
♪ Myself together ♪
♪ La la la ♪
♪ La la la ♪
♪ I'll get through this ♪
♪ La la la ♪
♪ La la la ♪
♪ There's no escape ♪
♪ So keep me safe ♪
♪ This feels so unreal ♪
♪ Nothing comes easily ♪
♪ Fill this empty space ♪
♪ Nothing is like it seems ♪
♪ Turn my grief ♪
♪ To grace ♪
♪ I feel the cold ♪
♪ Loneliness unfold ♪
♪ Like from another world ♪
♪ Come what may ♪
♪ I won't fade away ♪
♪ But I know I might change ♪
♪ Nothing comes easily ♪
♪ Fill this empty space ♪
♪ Nothing is like it was ♪
♪ Turn my grief ♪
♪ To grace ♪
♪ Nothing comes easily ♪
♪ Where do I begin? ♪
♪ Nothing can bring me peace ♪
♪ I've lost everything ♪
♪ I just wanna feel your embrace ♪

We should say a prayer.

She'd want us to pray.

I haven't stopped praying since yesterday.

Definitely got some new bleeding.

Remove the abdominal packs carefully.

They may be stuck. Irrigation.

I'm starting to cannulate.

Slowly push the heparin.

We've got blood!

Damn it.

We gotta go back in.

It's the heparin.

Dr. Altman, we can still do the percutaneous repair.

It'll work. I know it will.

Dr. Yang, the decision's already made.

Get me more lap pads. Got a lot of bleeding down here.

The baby's having decels.

This is not working. Yang is right.

We need to reverse the heparin and try the percutaneous repair.

What? No.

I can do this.

I just need ... damn it.

Get me a percutaneous catheter kit.

Flip on the echo. I am going up through the groin.

No. I said I've got this.

Avery, can you assist?

Dr. Altman, stabilize the heart and step back.

No, I can get it. I just need to ... damn it.

Dr. Altman.

Dr. Altman, step away.

You can do this.

One step at a time.

One step at a time.

♪ Step one you say we need to talk ♪
♪ He walks ♪
♪ You say sit down it's just a talk ♪
♪ He smiles politely back at you ♪
♪ You stare politely ♪

Removing the needle over the guidewire.

♪ Right on through ♪

Catheter.

♪ Some sort of window to your right ♪

Forceps.

Suction to Dr. Grey.

♪ As he goes left and you stay right ♪
♪ Between the lines of fear and blame ♪
♪ You begin to wonder why you came ♪

It's going in easy. Get the T. E. E. ready.

♪ Where did I go wrong? ♪
♪ I lost a friend ♪
♪ Somewhere along in the bitterness ♪
♪ And I would have stayed up ♪
♪ With you all night ♪
♪ Had I known how to save a life ♪

Still got some active bleeding coming from somewhere.

Well, then let's recheck the retroperitoneum.

I've got access.

♪ Let him know that you know best ♪
♪ 'Cause after all you do know best ♪

Forceps. Give me some suction.

♪ Try to slip past ♪

Clamp and give me a tie, please.

♪ His defense ♪

Brain is decompressing. Balloon is advanced.

♪ Without granting innocence ♪

Extra-stiff guidewire, please.

Brain bleed has been controlled.

♪ Lay down a list of what is wrong ♪

Okay, the occluder's in. Turn on the doppler.

♪ The things you told him all along ♪
♪ And pray to god he hears you ♪

Minimal residual V. S. D. flow.

Good. Then we're done here. Pulling out.

I got a lumbar vein avulsed in the vena cava. Two allis clamps.

Idioventricular rhythm.

♪ Where did I go wrong? ♪

Damn it. She's bradying down.

Pressure's down. 55 systolic.

Push one of atropine.

♪ And I would have stayed up with you all night ♪

C. V. P. and pulmonary artery pressures just went up.

It might be an air embolus.

Pull back on the P. A. catheter.

Hang more F. P. and factor VII. We're losing her.

We've already replaced her entire blood volume.

Starting cardiac massage.

Push one of epi.

Find whatever's bleeding and shut it down.

How about an amp of bicarb?

♪ As he begins to raise his voice ♪
♪ You lower yours and grant him ♪

Push 3 of epi and another atropine.

♪ One last choice ♪

Richard, you have one minute to get her heart back, ♪ Drive until you lose the road ♪

or I'm taking the baby out.

♪ But break with the ones you've followed ♪

Come on. Come on!

♪ He will do one of two things ♪
♪ He will admit to everything ♪
♪ Or he'll say he's just not the same ♪
♪ And you'll begin to wonder why he came ♪
♪ Where did I go wrong? ♪
♪ I lost a friend ♪

Is she breathing?

Her color's bad.

♪ Somewhere along ♪

Stimulate and suction and get some access.

♪ In the bitterness ♪
♪ And I would have stayed up with you all night ♪
♪ Had I known how to save a life ♪
♪ Where did I go wrong? ♪
♪ I lost a friend somewhere ... ♪

I'm not getting a heartbeat. Dr. Karev, I could use a hand.

Go.

♪ Along in the bitterness, and I would have stayed up ♪

Get those monitors on. Ventilate. Apgar still zero.

♪ With you all night had I known ♪
♪ How to save a life ♪

Come on, baby.

There it is. Torres is coming back.

Systolic 70 and rising.

Getting no chest rise with the bagging.

We should intubate.

Okay, do it.

Tube's in. Starting ventilation.

Move.

Continue compressions. Suction through the tube.

Got it. The bleeding's controlled.

I. C. P. 's stable for now. Push 9 cc's of L. R. , point 0. 5 cc's of epi, and . 5 of bicarb.

I need another 2. 0 vicryl. I'm almost done.

I have a heartbeat.

Mom's heart is strong.

♪ How to save a life ♪

We've done everything we can.

Now we just have to wait for her to wake up.

And the fact that she barely responded when you weaned her off the paralytics before?

Could mean she wasn't ready to wake up.

Or?

Or it could mean her brain has been compromised, and she's not going to wake up.

You're not nothing.

We have a kid together.

You're a mom.

I'm a dad.

I'm sorry.

She's gonna wake up.

She has to wake up.

Yesterday at the baby shower ... I was jealous of Callie because she got pregnant ... without trying.

And we try.

I get sh*ts, I take my temperature, I put my legs in the air, and nothing.

The universe says "Screw you, Meredith,"

and gives Callie a kid ... and then puts Callie through a windshield.

I mean, what the hell is going on?

What's the point?

I mean, is there a reason for this?

Because if you can think of a reason, any reason at all, why the universe is so screwed up ... and random and mean, now would be an amazingly good time to tell me, Because I really need some answers.

I know. I know. I know. Come here.

I know.

Listen ... I will make sure we have a baby. I promise you.

One way or another, you and I will be parents. I promise you.

Okay?

She's-she's really small.

But she's strong.

She's 1 pound, 1 ounce of ... strong.

Fighting against all the ... complications.

She's got beautiful black hair, Calliope, beautiful hair.

She's-she's beautiful.

She can't open her eyes yet, but I can tell ... she's looking for you.

Okay?

She's asking for you.

♪ All of these lines across my face ♪
♪ Tell you the story of who I am ♪
♪ So many stories of where I've been ♪
♪ And how I got to where I am ♪
♪ But these stories don't me anything ♪
♪ When you've got no one ♪
♪ To tell them to ♪
♪ It's true ♪
♪ I was made for you ♪
♪ I climbed across the mountaintops ♪
♪ Swam all across the ocean blue ♪
♪ I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules ♪
♪ But, baby, I broke them all for you ♪
♪ Oh, because even when I was flat broke ♪
♪ You made me feel like a million bucks ♪
♪ You do ♪
♪ And I was made for you ♪

We sleeping at home tonight?

Look ... I am not the kind of guy that waits around for the girl who's still in love with someone else.

I'm just not.

Jackson ... Let's go home.

And let's put her on a low dose of dopamine.

Oh, Dr. Altman.

Um, is there ... Did you have anything you wanted to add?

I can't teach you anymore.

Wh-what?

If you refuse to learn, if you won't listen, I can't teach you.

I'm-I'm sorry. What ... Find someone else to learn from.

♪ You see the smile ♪
♪ That's on my mouth ♪
♪ It's hiding the words ♪
♪ That don't come out ♪
♪ And all of our friends ♪
♪ Who think that I'm blessed ♪
♪ They don't know my head is a mess ♪
♪ No, they don't know who I really am ♪
♪ And they don't know ♪
♪ What I've been through ♪
♪ Like you do ♪
♪ And I was made for you ♪
♪ All of these lines across my face ♪
♪ Tell you the story of who I am ♪
♪ So many stories of where I've been ♪
♪ And how I got to where I am ♪
♪ But these stories don't mean anything ♪
♪ If you've got no one ♪
♪ To tell them to ♪
♪ It's true ♪
♪ That I was made for you ♪
♪ Oh, yeah, well, it's true ♪
♪ That I was made ♪
♪ For you ♪

Yes.

Yes. Yes.

Oh, oh, my god.

Oh, my god. Callie.

Callie.

Y-yes.

What? What?

Yes.

I'll marry you.

Yes. Yes.