02x10 - Traveling Alone

Episode transcripts for the 2014 TV show "Kingdom". Aired October 2014 - August 2017.*
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"Kingdom" is centered around a gym called Navy St. Gym in Venice, California and its struggling owners.
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02x10 - Traveling Alone

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Big fight, man.

You and me. Bringing home two belts.

I'm gonna move to San Francisco.

Have the baby there.

Why the f*ck would you go to San Francisco?

Because of this.

What?

Giving 30 thousand dollars to Chapas?

You f*ck me on this, I'm gonna k*ll you.

You'd have to find me first, m*therf*cker.

Hey, dad. What happened?

Renal failure. Irreversible.

I'm not gonna be able to be at your fight, really wanted to be there.

I'll get somebody to film it, and then I'll come over here, we can watch it after.

Don't get sucked in.

She is what she is.

You're not gonna change her.

I'm not trying to change her.

I'm trying to help her.

Hands up!

Ryan Wheeler, I'm coming for you.

Come on, mom.

Jury's still out on Ryan.

He was lackluster in his previous fight.

Either way, it's gonna be a fantastic night for fight fans.

[Man vomiting, spitting]

[Vomiting continues]

[Toilet flushes]

[Water runs]

[Spits]

[Door bangs]

Hey. Come on, man.

It's time. Let's go. Come on.

Ryan, get your ass off the f*cking floor and get out there.

They're calling for you.

I'm not going out there. I don't want to fight.

Oh, it's too late, man. f*cking tickets have been sold.

Money's been spent. f*cking contract's signed.

f*ck 'em, man. They can f*cking sue me.

I don't care.

Oh, they'll f*cking sue you.

You can't afford it.

Alvey, I lost that last f*cking fight.

Aw, will you stop f*cking thinking about that?!

I f*cking suck, Alvey!

You won! You f*cking won.

And you were sick.

No, no, no, no.

I'm a f*cking poser, dude!

I told you, I don't have it in me, man.

All right, I can't do this every f*cking time, bro!

Because you weren't listening!

I hate this sh*t, man.

I don't want to f*cking fight!

You'll f*cking fight!

I don't want to fight!

You are f*cking fighting, so deal with it, m*therf*cker.

You're f*cking fighting.

What do you need?

Do you need to hear some magical f*cking words?

No, no, no, no.

You need to hear that?

You're the f*cking champ, bro.

You're a f*cking god. You are the Alpha f*cking wolf.

p*ssy comes from miles to watch you walk in that f*cking cage.

How's that? Does that feel f*cking good?

You feel strong? Get up. Come on.

Come on, man.

I'm fine with local p*ssy, too.

Local p*ssy ain't f*cking fine with you if you don't have a job.

Ryan...

Please.

Look at me.

This is your f*cking moment.

Right now.

You have clarity of purpose like you may never have again the rest of your f*cking life, son.

I'm telling you, this is a rare privilege.

Enjoy it.

'Cause it will f*cking end.

It is going to end.

Alvey, this is the last time I'm ever f*cking doing this.

Done. Ever.

Never again.

I'm serious.

I'm serious!

I'm serious.

I'm serious. I'm gonna get you a nine-to-five in a f*cking cubicle pushing f*cking dashes and zeroes, bro.

f*cking data processing.

Wake me up.

Data processing!

f*cking wake me up, Alvey!

Who's the f*cking champ? Who's the f*cking champ?

Come on, m*therf*cker! Come on, m*therf*cker!

You can't be b*at, m*therf*cker!

[Screaming]

[Both screaming]

Come on, m*therf*cker! Go! Go!

[Cellphone buzzing]

Yeah! Yeah!

Let's go! Come on. Come on.

Will you call mom?

Now?

[Yelling]

She's not picking up.

I'm not f*cking calling mom right now, Jay.

Ryan: Hey... sh*t. Nate.

Dude, I need you to, uh... To tape this for my dad okay?

All right, all right. Hang on a second.

He wants to see everything... Crowd...

He will, he will, he will, he will.

Come on. Focus.

Come on! Hang on a second!

Point it at me. Is it pointed at me?

Okay, okay. Hey, dad! What's going on?

I'm 'bout to walk out right now.

I'm feeling good. I'm ready.

It's gonna be a good night, and I wish you were here.

Got it.

Good.

Turn it on back when the music comes.

All right.

Focus.

I'm ready. I'm f*cking ready!

Focus!

Okay!

Can you call her?

Mom?

I'm not f*cking calling mom, Jay. What the f*ck?

[Cellphone rings]

Chapas?

You m*therf*cking c**t.

What the f*ck is going on? I've been looking all over for you.

Nate: It's fine. We're good.

Is he on his f*cking phone?

No.

Alvey!

No, no, no, no.

Alvey, I'm walking out right...

Just f*cking wait.

What the f*ck, Alvey?!

No. f*cking text me where you are.

Alvey!

Just don't f*cking move.

What the f*ck?

f*cking text me where you are. Don't move.

Jesus, Alvey!

Focus! Focus!

Go, go, go!

♪ You can run for a long time ♪
♪ Run for a long time ♪
♪ run on for a long time ♪
♪ sooner or later, god'll cut you down ♪
♪ Sooner or later, god'll cut you down ♪
♪ Go tell that long-tongue liar ♪
♪ Go tell that midnight rider ♪
♪ tell the rambler, the gambler, the back biter ♪
♪ Tell 'em that god's gonna cut 'em down ♪
♪ Tell 'em that god's gonna cut 'em down ♪
♪ Oh, my goodness gracious, let me tell you the news ♪
♪ My head's been wet with the midnight dew ♪
♪ I've been down on my bended knees ♪
♪ Talkin' to the man from galilee ♪
♪ He spoke to me in a voice so sweet ♪
♪ I thought I heard the shuffle of angel's feet ♪

All right, gentlemen, first round!

You ready to fight? You ready to fight?

Hit it!

[Bell dings]

[Crowd cheering]

Get up! Get up!

Stop it! You got to defend!

Pressure! Pressure!

Pull it over, Ryan!

Pressure! Pressure!

[Cheers and applause]

Go!

The finish! Go for the finish!

Come on!

Get out of it! Get out of it!

Get out of it!

Let go of the fence! Let go of the fence!

Ryan: You f*cking bitch. f*ck you, bitch!

Smart!

Man: Defend yourself! Defend yourself!

Finish it! Finish it!

[Bell dings]

[Cheers and applause]

Ryan: Thank you to Navy Street!

♪ You can run on for a long time ♪

[Crowd chants "Navy Street"]

[Shouts indistinctly]

♪ Run on for a long time ♪
♪ sooner or later, god'll cut you down ♪

[Bell dings]

Ring announcer: Ladies and gentlemen, the official time, 4 minutes and 33 seconds of the very first round, your winner by knockout, and still the... Lightweight champion of the world, Ryan Wheeler!

All right. I am here with your winner, Ryan Wheeler.

Ryan, emphatic victory. Vicious knockout, man.

What were you looking to prove here tonight?

I mean, I'm not here...

I'm not trying to prove anything, man.

This was just straight, professional v*olence, Kenny.

I mean, it's not... You know, it's...

I don't come in here to f*ck around, man.

I'm in here to inflict maximum damage and just... I mean... dude, it's a violent business, man.

And business is pretty f*cking good right now.

You came into this one way more aggressive than your previous fight.

Uh, was that the strategy for this one?

To... to kick his f*cking ass? Yeah, it was.

I mean, that's always... It's always the strategy.

Coach Kulina preaches that.

It's how we train every single d...

I mean, I came in here with a messed-up rib.

That's just how we f*cking do it at Navy Street, right?

Well, you certainly proved your point tonight.

Congratulations.

I-I want to thank my dad.

Uh, dad, I know you wanted to be here tonight.

You're with me all the time.

Greatest man I've ever known.

I love you, dad. And, uh...

[Chuckles] And Jay Kulina!

I heard you, bro. I heard you.

You're a brother, but it's just f*cking business, baby.

It's just business.

It's just business.

[Cheers and applause]

[Crowd chanting "Navy Street"]

So, I'm thinking Alvey will go first, and then Jay, and then Ryan.

Okay. And while we're here, I'd love to get Nate, as well.

[Laughs] I'm sure you would, Kenny.

Alvey.

Hey. Not now.

I can't do it right now.

It'll take two seconds. I'm really sorry.

Kenny, I am really f*cking sorry.

Come to the gym. I give you anything you need.

I promise. I love you.

It will take two seconds.

I love you. I'm sorry.

Alvey!

I'm sorry. I love you!

Sorry!

[Sighs]

[Engine shuts off]

[Rap music playing faintly]

[Knock on door]

[Yells]

Aah! You f*ck!

You m*therf*cker.

[Woman screams]

Shh!

Shhh.

Shut the f*ck up. Shut the f*ck up.

Shut up.

Stay down. You f*cking stay down.

This what you do with my f*cking money?

That's what you do with my money?

No, man.

Calm down.

Calm down?

Gah! f*ck.

[Laughs] m*therf*cker.

That's funny? That's funny, right?

Yeah, boo. You lost a little power.

Did I?! f*cking did I?!

f*ck.

[Breathing heavily]

You f*cking ripped me off.

What'd you do with my money, m*therf*cker?

What'd you do with my money?

f*ck!

You f*cking c**t.

Where's my f*cking money, bro?

This is gonna be a long... f*cking night for you.

Mom?

Mom?

Whaaam!

Ohh...

Nate: Jay!

Come here.

Mom?

Hmm.

One for you, one for me.

[Glasses clink]

Gracias.

Ahh. De nada.

[Belches]

It was a great f*cking fight.

I was very impressive.

I'm gonna go check on mom.

Hey, hold up. Hold up.

I want to... I want to say something.

Come here.

I want to say I'm proud of you.

I know what you've done for me.

My whole f*cking life.

You've taken a lot of sh*t so I didn't have to.

I'll never forget that.

[Sniffles]

[Scoffs]

b*tches and money.

[Object thuds]

What's that?

To b*tches and money.

To b*tches...

And money.

Waah!

[Crowd shouting]

It's good.

Good escape.

Nice. Very nice.

Very nice.

[Bell dings]

Great fight.

Great fight.

Thanks.

That ought to shut some people up.

Yeah, well, they'll still find something to sh*t on, but they always do.

How you doing?

Pour us a drink, huh?

Yes, sir.

[Chuckles]

You talk to your mother?

Not in a couple weeks.

She's afraid to bother you.

Call her.

Yes, sir.

I'm going to have to move to a facility.

Why?

Dad, you got everything you need here.

We don't have the money.

Your mom and I discussed it.

We're moving me next week.

Dad, do you want to stay here?

That's irrelevant.

I can help out. I mean, I...

Ryan, this is how it goes.

Let's not piss into the wind, huh?

Mom?

Mom!

Mom?

Mom? Mom?

Mom! Mom!!

Mom! f*ck! Mom! Hey!

Hey, wake the f*ck up!

Mom? Hey! Hey, breathe, mom!

Come on! Wake up.

Nate: What happened?

Will you please f*cking breathe?

Jay, what the f*ck happened?

Mom!

f*ck! She f*cking D.D.'d, Nate!

Can you get her to breathe, please?

For a second. Come over and help.

Hey! Wake up, mom!

Come on, come on, come on, come on, mom!

Hold her head up, dude, and talk to her, and try to get her to f*cking breathe or something right now, okay?

Where are you going?

Just do it.

What the f*ck you doing?

f*ck, just do it, dude!

Get her breathing! Talk to her!

Mom?

♪ I'm so lonely ♪

Jay, what do I...

Is she breathing?

Should I call an ambulance?

Dude, just stop for a second!

Is she breathing?

Barely. I don't know.

Get her f*cking head up, dude, and get her breathing.

Just get her breathing.

Mom! Mom, stay f*cking with us!

Please, mom!

What'd you get? What the f*ck is that, Jay?

It's narcan from Mac.

What are you doing?

Hold her f*cking head steady.

What?

Get her... f*ck. Get her head back!

Get her head back so she doesn't choke!

♪ I need a voice, a hand, a friend ♪

Come on, mom. Come on, mom!

Come on, mom, breathe!

Mom, f*cking wake up, please!

Mom?

♪ I'm so lonely ♪

Mom, wake up!

♪ I'm so lonely ♪
♪ you're close... ♪
♪ I'm so lonely ♪

Breathe.

[Slurring] What are you doing?

Yeah, mom, there you go! Hang on. Whoa!

Up, up, up. Get up, get up, get up.

It's us. Breathe. Breathe.

Breathe, ma.

Breathe. We're good. You're good.

You're gonna make it.

You're gonna make it.

I was really f*cking scared.

It was so f*cking...

It's okay. It's okay.

[Exhales deeply]

[Coughs]

[Chuckles]

[Sighs]

Alvey: Where's my money?

[Chuckles, sniffs]

Don't f*ck with me, Chapas. I'm not that guy.

Oh, yeah, that's where I f*cked up.

See, I thought you were that guy.

I picked the wrong mark, huh?

Where's my m*therf*cking money, dude?

Your money?

Yeah.

Ah...

Sorry, brother. You made a bad investment.

Oh, oh, did I?

I'm gonna make you whole, Alvey.

Oh, yeah? Uh-huh.

Whoa, whoa, whoa. What... Where you going, playboy?

There's a bag behind the fridge.

May I?

Slow.

Don't be stupid.

Son of a bitch.

Sit down. Sit down.

[Sniffs]

That's not your money.

Oh, that's not my money?

No.

That's some other m*therf*cker's money.

Your money is spread among several other m*therf*ckers.

[Chuckles]

What the f*ck are you into?

Not a g*dd*mn thing anymore.

May I?

What did I invest in?

You invested in me not getting my head chopped off.

I owed a lot of money to some very serious people.

I was doing well, Alvey.

I was... I was making money.

I was.

But then I overextended.

[Sighs]

A couple deals didn't go through.

Man, sh*t got ugly really fast.

And I thought I could dig out.

I thought I could dig out.

So I started bringing in some people, you know, to cover my debts, and then I brought in some other people to cover them, and [Sighs]

You know, just typical Ponzi sh*t.

[Scoffs] f*ck.

Jesus Christ.

Mm-hmm.

[Sighs] I couldn't do it to you, man.

I couldn't hang you out like that.

This for me?

Yeah.

[Sighs]

Look, take a little bit of f*cking money, all right?

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, buddy, that's...

Chapas. Chapas, I'm not gonna let you get f*cking k*lled, okay?

Listen. Listen.

I'm gonna... I'm gonna disappear, clear the deck.

It's a f*cking relief, man.

Look at... Look how I been living.

[Chuckles]

Why do I want to hang around here anymore?

[Lighter clicks]

[Rustling]

[Snorts]

[Toilet flushes]

Well, I think we'll be staying in tonight.

She okay?

Yeah, I think it just scared the hell out of her.

Scared the hell out of me, too.

So, Mac gave you that?

Yeah, when mom moved in.

You're gonna need more of it.

'Cause this is gonna happen again.

You know that, right?

I just don't understand why you think it's gonna change.

'Cause... It's not.

What else we supposed to do?

Well, you can't watch her all the time.

I can try.

You got no idea, Alvey. You don't know.

[Scoffs] I don't know what?

What it's like to have nothing.

You don't think I know?

No, I mean what it's truly like to have nothing.

You know, no place, nothing in front, nothing behind.

No one to see if you're all right.

What the f*ck happened to Misha?

You know what happened. She O.D.'d.

No, m*therf*cker. You said...

The night that we got f*cking busted, you said it was your fault.

Some sh*t like that.

I said that?

Yeah.

I was taking so many f*cking pills.

She... she was just trying to keep up.

That's what I meant.

Uh-huh. That what you meant?

[Scoffs] I got to go, man.

You are one f*cked-up dude. I want you to take this.

I want you to f*cking disappear, you understand me?

No, no, no. Alvey... Alvey.

Listen, I... I got a plan.

I got a plan. It's okay.

Don't worry about me.

And you...

You're a good friend. You know that?

Alvey.

I'm sorry, man.

[Glass thuds]

I'm sorry I put you through this.

Me too.

Good luck, bro.

Aah! Aah!

[Sighs]

You're not gonna sh**t me, man.

It's money. Here. You want the f*cking money?

Take the money.

It's okay.

Bro. Take the money.

Take the money. I don't want the money.

Don't do that.

Aah!

[Gasping]

Oh, f*ck.

Oh, you motherfuck.

No, no, no. You didn't do this to me.

You f*ck.

Oh, you f*ck. Ah, f*ck!

Okay. Okay, okay, okay.

[Sighs]

[Breathing heavily]
[Mid-tempo music plays]

[Sighs] You know, Nathaniel, I'd say we hit bottom.

But I had a great fight.

Everyone's alive.

We're together.

Got this bottle of Tequila.

By the pool.

I mean, on paper...

We look pretty g*dd*mn good.

[Chuckles]

We're k*lling it.

[Bottles clink]

[Sighs]

Your toast.

Earlier.

It was hard for me to hear.

I'm sorry for having emotions.

No, it's, um... I should've never let you take that fight.

I knew it was a mistake. I should've stood up.

I should've said something.

You got to stop.

It's just that I had my head so far up my f*cking ass from the weight cut and Laura...

I took my focus off of you.

I think you're right, though.

About Fresno.

It was a really big f*cking mistake.

Might surprise you to learn I, too, have made a few mistakes.

[Chuckles] Ahh.

And check me out now.

[Chuckles]

Can I join you?

Yeah, mom. Of course.

You okay?

[Sighs]

Hey.

What are you doing here?

I came to drop off my key.

You could've left it at the gym.

Where have you been?

Alvey, what's wrong?

What's wrong?

Chapas is dead.

What?

He sh*t himself in the head right in front of me.

My g*n.

Oh, my god.

Wh-where?

Some f*cking motel.

He owed a lot of people money.

I b*at the f*ck out of him, lise.

I got it all back.

All $30,000.

Every f*cking dime.

But it was your g*n.

Yeah.

And where is it now?

I f*cking cleaned it off and I left it there.

What do you mean you cleaned it off and you left it there?

It comes back to me, I say...

Alvey, do you know how easy it is to trace that back to you?

I say he f*cking stole it.

The guy's a f*cking thief, right?

He committed su1c1de. He did it.

You should've f*cking seen him, too.

He smiled right at me.

He smiled.

Like he solved a problem.

f*ck.

[Glass clatters]

Sometimes I think maybe you guys are better off without me at this point.

I missed all the years I could've made a difference.

Mom... [Stammers]

We need you in different ways now.

Do we?

Yes.

Can you think of one thing you've done for us today?

Hey.

What?

I can't.

Can you think of one thing you've ever done for us?

[Chuckles]

You're absolutely right.

We don't need you.

Hey.

Still, Jay sh*t himself full of your heroin...

Nearly f*cking k*lled himself...

Just to try to get through to you.

Did that even bother you?

It broke my heart.

Yeah.

Not enough to stop.

It I enough.

Well, then f*cking do it.

Or get the f*ck out of here.

'Cause I'm not gonna lose my brother over you.

Kenny's coming by for the interview tomorrow.

And I have some things to pick up from the office, so I'll be there.

Alvey, what the f*ck are you gonna do about that g*n?

I'm gonna figure it out.

Don't go.

What?

Just don't... don't go.

I want you to stay. We can... we can work this out.

We tried.

Not hard enough.

I'm not giving up.

You should.

Just listen to me.

There's nothing more to say.

I'm going.

Just stop.

Stop. Stop.

Alvey...

No.

Sit down. Please.

Please.

I'm gonna be completely f*cking honest here, okay, because why the f*ck not? This is it.

You told me you were pregnant.

It scared the sh*t out of me, Lise.

I'm too f*cking old.

I'm gonna f*ck this up.

And you know who I am.

When I get scared, I-i-i get nuts.

I'm all over the place.

And that scared the hell out of you, too, because you've never done this before, and I've never done it well.

We need each other.

This baby is a gift.

I want to see you chasing this baby around the gym.

We'll get married. That's what I f*cking want.

That's a real f*cking life.

It's right in front of me, and I'm not running away from it.

From now on, all that matters is you and this baby.

That is it.

I swear to you. I promise.

Don't leave me.

I don't want to be without you.

Is there anything else?

Yeah.

Yeah, you know, what do you think about that?

What do I think?

I think you saw your friend k*ll himself, and you're in shock.

I think you're thinking about your own death.

No.

No, that's not what this is about.

That's exactly what this is about.

No, wait. Just wait.

Just... just sit down.

What do you think is gonna happen right now, huh?

You think we're gonna pile on the couch and feel the baby kick?

I'm telling you how I feel.

I don't give a f*ck how you feel.

You don't give a f*ck how I feel.

Everything you just said was about you.

It's about us.

No, it's about how me and this baby can save you.

Well, you know what? I don't want that job anymore.

I'm not f*cking interested.

[Door opens]

Oh, and if you want to be a part of this kid's life, then start getting your sh*t together.

'Cause I'm not gonna let you f*ck him up.

[Door slams]

[Moaning]

Dad?

Dad. What's wrong? What's wrong?

What's wrong?

A-anxiety pill.

Anxiety...

Please.

Yeah, yeah.

I got it, I got it, I got it, I got it, I got it.

Okay. Hold on. Hold on, I got you.

I got you, dad.

[Pills rattling]

Ready? Ready? Ready?

[Gulps]

There we go. There we go.

g*dd*mn att*cks. Every... every f*cking night.

Shh. It's okay. Hey. That'll work. That'll help.

It'll work in just a second, okay?

It'll work. It'll work.

Ryan. Ryan...

Don't leave me like this.

[Chuckling] I ain't going anywhere, dad.

I'm right here.

I'm not going anywhere.

I can't take it anymore.

You're doing good.

Let me go.

[Crying] k*ll me, Ryan.

What?

Let me go.

What? No, no, no. Dad, what?

Ryan, f*ck. [Gasping]

No, no, no, no, no.

I'm in pain.

I can't f*cking take it anymore.

Dad. Dad.

I'm ready.

I want to die.

No, no, no!

No! f*ck no! No!

No! No, no, no, no!

No!

Ryan... Ryan...

No!

We're good.

We're good. We're good. You and me are good.

Dad, shh!

Ryan?

Shh. No, no, no. No. No, no.

We're... we're good.

You and me... You and me, we're good.

Dad? Dad! Wha... no, what are you even...

I forgave you. Do this for me!

What are you asking me to do?! No, no, no, no!

Do this for me, Ryan. God damn it, please, Ryan!

[Sobbing] Ryan, god damn it!

What the f*ck?!

Ryan!

[Breathing heavily]

Please, Ryan!

Okay.

Ryan!

f*ck you!

f*ck you!

f*ck you!

f*ck...

Ryan!!

f*ck you...

You...

[Gasping]

[Sobs]

[Sighs]

[Line ringing]

Jay: What is up?

What's going on? What are you doing?

I'm eating and drinking.

[Laughs] Where are you?

I'm at home.

Already?

Yeah, dude. It's like...

It's 3:00 in the morning.

Oh, sh*t.

Where are you?

Uh, I'm at my dad's.

Did you show him the fight?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Uh...

What'd everybody do tonight?

Um, Jack sh*t.

We stayed at home.

Why?

My mom.

f*cked up.

Oh.

Dude, I'm sorry.

That sucks.

Man, I want to get so f*cked up right now.

[Chuckles]

[Breathes deeply]

How 'bout tomorrow?

Done.

May peace be with you.

And also with you.

Bye.

Love you too. Bye.

[Sobbing]

[Chair creaks]

This is f*cking weird.

It's super weird.

I don't like it.

Hey, I got you something.

[Chuckles]

"Mama."

I love it. Thank you.

We're gonna talk all the time, 'cause you're gonna have a ton of questions.

Yeah. I'll try not to bother you too much.

No, you better f*cking bother me.

I'll miss you.

You too.

All right. You should go. You're gonna hit traffic.

Yeah.

Hey.

Can you, um, water my plants for me?

Every day.

[Engine turns over]

[Music plays]

♪ Oh, maybe a frightening combination ♪
♪ Of the fact that I don't wanna go ♪
♪ And tell you that I love you, dear ♪
♪ Got to send me your love ♪
♪ you've got to send me your love ♪
♪ You've got to send me your love ♪
♪ You've got to send me your love ♪
♪ You've got to send me your love ♪
♪ You've got to send me your love ♪
♪ You've got to try ♪

This one is deluxe.

"While based on a 12-step program, we offer a variety of evidence-based treatment modalities, including but not limited to yoga and meditation, acupuncture, art therapy"...

I don't want art.

f*ck art.

Art's off the list.

"Dialectical behavioral therapy."

Very cutting edge.

Sounds expensive.

We can't afford any of this.

We're just browsing.

But why? We're broke.

I don't have insurance.

You're not backing out of this.

I will find the money.

This is going to happen.

[Sniffles]

We're not gonna live like this anymore.

Oh.

Yeah.

You're gonna like this.

"Psychodrama.

Reclaim your natural human emotions."

Sounds right up my alley.

♪ Sometimes I talk too much ♪
♪ but I gotta get it out ♪
♪ but I don't want to talk ♪
♪ I only want to listen ♪
♪ but, baby, talk soft ♪
♪ my ears are always ringing now ♪
♪ Humming a sad song with... ♪

Man: Side mouth, side mouth.

Woman: Got it.

♪ You gotta be alone ♪

Hey.

Yo.

Did you get with Lisa?

Yeah.

Can you handle it?

For a while.

I'm gonna be training, so you're gonna have to find someone.

Close the door. Have a seat.

[Sighs]

How you feeling?

I'm all right. How you feeling?

Oh, I'm great.

[Chuckles]

What's next?

You're the coach.

You tell me.

What do you want?

I want to start training.

I want to heal up and fight again.

Long term, what do you want?

You ever think about getting married, having a family?

[Scoffs] No.

No? You're 23. How do you know?

I just do.

Thought about going to school?

I'm training all the time.

Why can't you do both?

I'm not going to school. Why are we talking about this?

I want you to think about your future.

What your life's gonna look like when all this is over.

Yeah.

How long do you think you're gonna fight?

I don't know.

Stay healthy, 10, 15 years, maybe.

Pfft! 10 years, you're... You're a miracle.

15 years, that's... forget it.

You did it.

I was born to do this sh*t.

I did it too long.

You can't count on more than three.

Three years, d*ck money, you're broke before you're 30.

Thanks for the advice.

Can we talk about my next fight?

You're a great athlete, Nate.

Thanks.

I don't know if you're a great fighter.

Because of two losses?

Because I know you.

And the difference between good and great is immense.

It's... it's a f*cking hundred miles.

I could b*at anybody in this gym right now.

f*cking anybody in here.

I'm not talking about ability.

It's a mind-set.

It's a mental f*cking illness that I don't see in you, son.

You're not that animal.

I've been injured.

You're missing my... [Sighs]

You're missing my point, Nate.

Yeah, what's your f*cking point?

What's the point?

Because right now, all I'm hearing...

You don't think I can fight?

I'm on the good side of this.

Most guys my age are broke or dead.

I want more for you. Okay?

Yeah, you could fight.

You don't have to.

Do better than me.

Yeah.

I'm gonna go train now.

[Door slams]

Alvey: I tell my guys to identify their fear.

Seek it out. Run straight through it.

Take its power, make it your own.

And then move on. Direct confrontation.

It's the only way to survive.

Kenny: Fear's a k*ller.

I used to hate being backstage before the walkout.

That's when the nerves would hit.

That's 'cause you think you have a choice, Kenny.

When that cage door closes and that bolt drops, life gets real simple.

You got to fight.

Now, you may not win. You may take a b*ating.

But that's just pain, right?

The fear is gone. You have clarity of purpose.

That's a beautiful thing.

So, you've won as a fighter, you've won as a coach.

Which is more satisfying to you?

Oh, man. Fighting. You kidding me?

Really? Not even close.

Even after all these years?

Yeah.

I mean, you're talking the difference between experience and observation, right?

You got guys out there like Jackson.

He loves the puzzle and the theory of it, right?

Always looking for new ways.

That's a demon that he's chasing.

And I respect that.

Me, I want to be in the pocket, man.

'Cause when you're fighting, you're on a higher plane.

And that's when instinct and flow takes over.

You overcome the panic of anxiety.

And your mind goes really, really quiet.

Not still.

Just quiet.

I chase that every f*cking day.
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