14x22 - Fight for Your Mind

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MEREDITH: Before surgery, we ask patients a series of questions.

"Do you have a job to return to?

Do you have a support system at home?"

We're screening for mental illness.

Anxiety, depression, delusions.

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We need to make sure you're of sound mind.

We need to make sure you know what to expect.

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But if we check patients for mental illness, why not surgeons?

[VOMITING]

Someone should really get on that.

She's in the worst part of the detox.

I can stay stay, help...

No, I'm okay. I got it.

Thank you, though.

- Okay. Well, good luck.

- [BETTY COUGHS]

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All right. Dr. Webber, we have to go.

Vik Roy and his lawyer brother are here.

What do you mean "we"? You're the chief.

And you fired him.

They say how much it would cost to settle?

No, and unlike you, we don't have millions of dollars at our disposal.

And if we can't settle, we have to make sure we were % justified in f*ring him.

I do recall his having a disrespectful attitude toward a patient who tried to cut off his own hand.

Acted as if it were a joke.

Ooh, go on.

Well, I called Dr. Carina DeLuca to tell the boy that masturbation was perfectly healthy...

Stop. I want you to imagine that sentence with "Your Honor" at the end of it.

- Yeah, never mind.

- Mm.

Avery, do you have anything helpful on Dr. Roy?

I think I do. He tried to take advantage of Dr. Kepner during a particularly vulnerable time in her...

"When he was an intern and she was an attending, Your Honor."

You know what?

- Forget I... said anything.

- [EXHALES SHARPLY]

OWEN: He spits up a lot.

I thought it was GERD or a pyloric stenosis, but...

No, they just barf.

I think it's triggered by the cleanliness of your shirt.

[CHUCKLES] Oh. The babies.

I love them like this, enjoy them like this.

Hey you, um, why don't you go get yourself checked in, okay?

Sofia got suspended from school.

From second grade?!

What, did she color outside the lines?

No, she stole the field-trip money.

- What?

- Oh, that'll do it.

- Why?

- Why? Uh, 'cause she's acting out.

[CHUCKLES] 'Cause she's sad 'cause I'm a terrible mother.

I don't know, but enjoy those babies.

Any minute now, she's gonna realize I am the love of her life.

Meredith Grey is straight.

Ever heard her talk about Cristina Yang?

Hey. Someone needs to run this bloodwork up to the lab.

Hey! You know, we're also shorthanded in the clinic today, and there is a nasty hemorrhoid in bed seven that needs to be lanced and drained.

I've got the bloodwork!

Have fun with your hemorrhoid.

I'd rather lance a hemorrhoid than be a hemorrhoid.

Great, then you got rectals in the ICU after that.

[SIGHS] You want bed sores in geriatrics, too?

Wish I could say it was nice to see you back at work, but...

Come on.

I'm gonna show you the coolest thing ever, on the tiniest patient ever.

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Don't assume the worst, okay?

The worst being my mom is roaming the street in her nightgown?

Or my mom's dead and nobody thought to tell me?

[ENGINE SHUTS OFF, KEYS JINGLE]

[EXHALES SHARPLY] Okay. I'm going.

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Mom? It's me... Alex!

You there?!

[DOORKNOB RATTLING]

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Looking for someone?

Uh, yes. Uh...

The lady that lives here. Helen Karev?

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What happened?! Is it bad?!

Oh, my God... Is it bad?!

Who's the guy?! Did he...

Does he know where she is?!

Yeah.

She's at work.

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MEREDITH: I'll talk about that in the presentation, but Dr. Wilson and I are very encouraged by the work that we've done so far.

Was any of this work funded by Harper Avery money?

The Catherine Fox Foundation. No.

Do you feel renaming the foundation is enough?

But we haven't simply renamed it.

It's a whole new foundation with a new direction, which will be exemplified here at Grey Sloan.

What do you have to say to the dozens of women denied the opportunity to do such research by Harper Avery?

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Dr. Grey? I said, what do you...

I couldn't be prouder of the work that my team and I accomplished in the face of what seemed to be insurmountable odds.

If you'll excuse me, I have work to do.

Thanks so much. Thank you. Excuse me.

WOMAN ON P.A.: Dr. Myers to Oncology.

Dr. Myers to Oncology.

- What's her problem?

- Tomophobia.

Fear of medical procedures.

She equates surgery with death.

I've heard of patients who have d*ed because they refuse treatment.

Well, it's because of her dad.

He had an appendectomy.

And they told him it was nothing, and then there were complications.

He went in for surgery, and then she... never saw him again.

She was .

What's DeLuca doing here?

Oh, I brought him to cheer him up.

And so far, it's depressing me more.

Well, the exciting part is the surgery, not the patient.

You got a golden ticket.

This is the spina bifida surgery on an exteriorized uterus.

Besides the Texas Children's

Fetal Center, we are one of the only places to do this.

Okay, people. Warm faces, library voices, and lay terms.

- [HUSHED VOICE] Yay.

- [HUSHED VOICE] Yay.

Hi. Teresa and Ed. How we doin'?

Gettin' there.

But could you go over the whole thing one last time?

- I think it helps.

- It does.

It does. It helps me to hear it out loud.

Of course. Um, DeLuca?

Teresa Benson, weeks pregnant, baby diagnosed with spina bifida with meningocele.

Lay terms.

Right. Uh...

Look, b-because your... your baby has spina bifida, the tissue around her spinal cord hasn't fully closed.

And this can cause problems after birth like, uh, paralysis, bowel and bladder problems, fluid on the brain...

Buh-buh-buh-buh!

But I will nip it in the bud.

I'm gonna make a really small incision, I'm gonna pull out your uterus and use very tiny instruments to repair the spinal defect, while she stays very safely inside.

MAGGIE: I'll give her a little medication to keep her perfectly still, and I will be there, monitoring her heart the whole time.

- Great.

- Okay.

Okay. See? It's kind of a miracle.

Mm-hmm. [CHUCKLES]

You're gonna be under general anesthesia.

I'm gonna make a little tiny incision...

No! No, no! No. God. Sorry.

I... I can't. I'm sorry. No, no. I ca...

- I'm sorry. I can't.

- All right.

Teresa, the chances of something happening to you are so, so s...

- Just knock me out.

Just sneak up from behind me when I'm leaving and sedate me.

I can't, because it's against the law.

But I have a sedative, okay?

It'll be very, very quick.

No! No, no, no, no, no!

Please take me home!

- Please take me home!

- Okay, okay, okay. All right.

Listen. We can wait all day.

We'll just... We'll give you some time.

And I can, uh, go check some other patients.

It's gonna be okay.

[BREATHING SHARPLY]

I'll give her therapist a call.

[SOBBING]

[DOOR OPENS]

[DOOR CLOSES]

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I'll with you in one... just in one s...

Hey.

Alex?

Your neighbor said you got your old job back, but I didn't think that seemed possible.

Alex.

My God.

I've missed you so much!

[LAUGHS, SOBS]

[DOOR BELL JINGLES]

- Coffee. Black.

- You got it.

- Not smart.

- Excuse me?

The coffee's terrible.

It requires copious amounts of, uh, cream and sugar.

Well, if it's good coffee you're after, there's a great cart at the hospital across the street.

No, I like the light in here.

And the smell of stale beer.

It does make a good hideout.

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You know what? You're right. Can you pass me the cream, please?

Thanks.

Are you here for the Meredith Grey presentation?

Actually I...

- am.

- Me too.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

After much soul searching on the part of my client...

BAILEY: "Brother."

...he has arrived at a request we think is more than generous.

He is willing to return to work immediately with pay for the weeks he has missed, free medical expenses for the accident, and... a formal apology... from the chief.

[CHUCKLES] That sounds more than reasonable.

We'll take that under advisement.

Thank you for your time.

- [CHUCKLES]

- [DOOR SLAMS]

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[GASPS]

The nightmares will stop. I promise.

A day into my last detox, I was afraid I was gonna die.

The next day, I was afraid I wasn't.

You just got to keep telling yourself it is not forever.

Your life must be really pathetic for you to just have all this time to sit here watching me puke.

Don't ignore me.

I'm not ignoring you.

I'm ignoring the demon.

What demon?

Your last high.

It is like a demon, and it is dying a painful death right now.

And it knows it's dying, so it's trying to push me away so that it can live.

But I am the exorcist. I'm protected.

So the demon can say whatever it wants. I'm good.

Pathetic.

None of the doctors are really sure.

Just sometimes, with age, schizophrenia burns itself out.

But that doesn't mean you're cured.

No, no.

But it's...

It's more like the volume's been turned down.

Medications have a better effect.

And, uh, I just have to be really vigilant with my routine.

Routine?

Yeah. I-I, uh...

I keep my days the same.

I-I make my tea at the same time, I take my breaks at the same time.

It just helps keep reality more tangible.

Oh. Thank you, Joyce.

Thanks, Helen.

So you're fine?

You're just... You're fine now?

You didn't tell me?

You just... You just stopped cashing the checks.

Well, you're so busy.

Uh, you deserve your space.

- I didn't... I didn't wa...

- My space?!

You're my mom.

I came here because I was worried about you.

Why didn't you tell me you were doing better?

- Why didn't you tell me that?

- I had so much to manage.

Manage? I'm not something you manage. I am your son.

I think you need to go.

- What?

- Look, I realize you were worried.

And I'm sorry I caused that. But right...

But right now I have to take care of myself.

I'm... I'm... [EXHALES SHARPLY]

I'm getting really upset, and, uh... and in moments like this, I need... I need to keep my focus, and I'm at work, so I need to do that.

Please.

[DOOR SLAMS]

What happened?

My presence is upsetting her.

She asked me to go.

- What? What'd you do?

- I didn't do anything!

I mean... [SCOFFS] She's my mom.

I came all the way out here.

I thought she was dead.

Okay, let's... let's get out of here.

- And go where?

- Just... somewhere else.

How much money was it?

Um, times $ ,

so not exactly grand theft but enough to make me feel like I've fundamentally failed as a parent.

No. Every kid steals something at some point.

I stole a lipstick from the drug store.

Not quite $ , , but...

So, what did your dad do when he found out?

He never knew. I was an excellent thief.

MAGGIE: Teresa. Teresa, wait!

Hey. Whoa! What's... What's going on?

She's checking out.

She consented to sedation, but when we tried to get the IV in...

I'm sorry. I-I will come back.

I'll... I'll try to come back.

C-Can you please tell her?

Teresa, if you don't have this procedure today, then your baby could be...

I know! She can be paralyzed!

Please don't say that anymore!

[EXHALES SHARPLY] Is that everything?

Can we go? Ed? Please.

Okay. All right.

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[SIGHS]

- Bailey.

All the boy wants is an apology.

Do you know how much worse this could be?

You know, I am a big believer in the power of words and an even bigger believer in the power of a good apology.

[BREATHES SHARPLY]

But I will not sully my belief in those two things by putting fake words into some forced apology to a person who is in the wrong!

Roy made a mistake, a grave one.

But it's... it's possible I overcorrected in f*ring him.

You did no such thing!

If he had operated under the con...

But he didn't.

But you know who has operated in this hospital knowingly under the influence?

Me.

You gonna fire me, too?

Now, that's just manipulative.

This has nothing to do with you.

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[SIGHS]

Thought you had a big surgery today.

Oh, it was canceled.

[VOICE BREAKING] Cold feet.

- Are you okay?

- [SNIFFLES]

[SOBS SOFTLY]

Sofia stole the money so that she could buy a plane ticket to New York.

And she didn't want to tell me because she...

'cause she didn't want to hurt my feelings.

[SNIFFLES]

She said that?

No.

I read it in her diary.

I picked the stupid lock.

Which... is also another gold-star parenting moment.

[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]

What are you gonna do?

[SNIFFLES]

I don't know.

Because I can't keep her against her will, can I?

You're her mom.

You can do whatever you think is best for her.

Oh.

Where are you going?

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♪ I came home last night ♪

So, are you in Seattle much?

All the time.

I like it. It's so gloomy and, you know, rainy.

You like the gloom?

Well, I grew up in Los Angeles, so I'm way over my sunshine quota. I like the rain.

MEREDITH: Well, I didn't know anybody grew up in Los Angeles.

I thought everyone just moved there to chase their dreams and then have them crushed.

No, some people, uh, grow their crushed dreams right there.

- No offense.

- No, none taken.

It's weird... Everyone that likes it already lives there.

Everyone else seems to hate it.

Something stronger?

Oh, not for me. I have a thing.

Thanks, Mark.

I'll make a fresh pot, Dr. Grey.

"Dr. Grey."

[CHUCKLES]

- You're kidding me.

- [CHUCKLING]

You could've said that.

- I could've.

- Tha...

- I knew...

- Is everything okay?

[LAUGHS]

It's just... No. Of course... I mean...

Yeah, you're... you're Dr. Grey, and of course you're terrific.

And that just makes it really hard to keep hating you.

Why would you hate me?

Because you wasted a year of my life.

♪ Yes, I do ♪

[KNOCKING ON DOOR]

You're at my house. Wh... Is that normal?

Is that... Is that a thing you do?

No. It's not normal. It's really weird.

I just... I needed to ask you a question.

If it weren't you having surgery, if it was your daughter's life at stake... and she was... and she was standing right there, and she needed surgery...

what would you do?

Would you let her have it?

♪ There is a swelling storm ♪

Can I come in?

♪ And I'm caught up in the middle of it all ♪

♪ And it takes control ♪

This is dumb.

So let it be dumb.

♪ Of the person that I thought I was ♪

♪ The boy I used to know ♪

♪ But there is a light in the dark ♪

♪ Why can't I hold on? ♪

♪ It comes and goes in waves ♪

♪ Into the flood ♪

[PITCHING MACHINE WHIRRING]

♪ Into the flood ♪

She ruined my whole damn life.

I hid Aaron and Amber from her.

♪ A feeling I thought was set in stone ♪

Failed Geometry 'cause that was the year that she decided to get up and walk out of the house every morning... no shoes, no money, nothing.

[BAT HITS BALL]

I'd spend all of first period looking for her, and there's she'd be, just laughing her ass off, or yelling at nobody on the street corner.

[BAT HITS BALL]

No friends, no girlfriends, 'cause, I mean, who the hell wants to hang out with the freak with the psycho for a mom?

But it's good that she's better, right?

Yeah, yeah. Sure.

It's... It's freaking great.

She's nice. She's... She's calm.

She's... She's working, and she's eating, and she's looking perfectly normal in her perfectly normal life!

Okay, if she's good, why are you so angry?

Why the hell now?!

[BAT CLATTERING]

Now?! Why now?!

Now, when... when nobody needs her, when nobody wants her around, w-when Aaron and Amber don't need a mother instead of me raising them?!

Why, when all the freaking damage is done?!

Now she's good? She's fine?! She's okay?!

[SCOFFS] And I can't even say a damn thing about it.

Because I have been cleaning up her mess my whole damn life.

But never once did I cause it.

And I am not about to start now!

♪ It always does ♪

You want to take a break?

- No. Load it, please.

- Okay.

- [COIN RATTLES]

- ♪ And carries us away ♪

[SIGHS]

I just know that if you put me under, I won't come back.

That I'll die.

That I'll never see my baby.

That I'll never see Ed.

I'll never come back.

I used to roller-skate.

Uh...

M-My family used to move around a lot, which was really scary.

But whenever we'd get somewhere new, first thing, my dad would...

my dad would take me skating.

And so no matter where I was in the world, that would stay the same.

And I... I felt safe.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

I did it in college, um, and I did it in med school, and then I did it when I first got my job here.

Um, I worked with kids, and so it kind of made them feel safe, too.

And then I was in an accident.

And they told me that...

that I may lose my leg.

And all I could think about was...

I'll never be able to skate again.

[SOBS SOFTLY]

And a lot of my life would change, but that seemingly tiny thing felt like...

I felt like my whole life was being taken away from me.

And that all the stuff that my dad had given me, you know, all the magic and all the safety, was just gonna be gone.

And so I made my wife promise me that she would not let them take my leg.

No... matter... what.

But then it came down to my life or my leg.

And they needed her consent to amputate.

I am so lucky...

that she and my doctors could clearly see what I couldn't.

And you know what?

I skated again.

And my worst fear was wrong.

And the only thing I really lost was my leg.

And I would've d*ed if I'd have kept it.

And I have so much joy in my life right now.

More than I could possibly imagine.

I have a... I have a healthy daughter, and I have work that I love, and I'm okay.

I'm... I'm great.

And I want that for you.

I want that for your life, too.

[WHIMPERS] I just... I...

[SOBBING] I'll die.

No.

Your dad d*ed.

And it was unfair. It was terrible.

- And it still scares you.

- [SOBBING]

But you're a mom now. You're her mom.

And you need to do what's best for her.

♪

- Hey.

- Hey.

Everything okay?

A surgery I was excited about got canceled.

What about you?

Oh, I spent all day cutting checks.

Paid $ million before lunch.

I took a break to read a hard-hitting op-ed titled "Too little too late: How Much Did Grandbaby Avery Know?"

- Yeah.

- Good stuff.

Well, it's easy, and it's lazy to sit outside a complicated situation and att*ck the people involved.

But you know what's sexy?

What's that?

The way you just keep doing you.

- Is that right?

- Mm-hmm.

You want to go find someplace private?

Yep.

- Take your mind off money?

- Mm-hmm.

You know, if we keep doing this every time I write big checks, then we're not gonna get much work done.

I'm okay with that.

♪

Hey, Betty?

Sounds like it's quieted down in there.

I know you hate my guts right now.

But will you let me change your fluids? It'll really help.

Come on, Betty. We'll play a game.

I will just sit there, and you can mean-girl me until I cry.

Betty? You okay?

[DOORKNOB RATTLES]

Betty?! Betty!

♪

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DAVID: So, I went to my team, and I said, "I have good news and bad news. The good news... the abdominal-wall transplant definitely works. Bad news? We can all go home. Meredith Grey just pulled it off."

[CHUCKLES] I fail to see how that warrants hatred.

I had no idea.

And I'm sure your work will help perfect the process in the future.

You ever hear of Pete Conrad?

No. Is he a surgeon?

- Astronaut.

- Oh.

First guy to walk on the Moon during the second Moon landing.

And one of only people in history to do that.

And no one cares.

Because he wasn't first.

You looking for an apology?

You're barking up the wrong tree, because I won fair and square.

That's just another reason I hate you.

Get in line.

b*at someone else to the punch?

Uh...

Someone tried to steal mini-livers.

A friend. Or so I thought.

Literally to my face said she was going to steal it and b*at me to market.

Sounds like there's a story there.

There is.

So... got any... [CHUCKLES] Got any pets?

That doesn't make sense. She texted me she was coming here.

So if she's not here, she's not okay!

I'm sorry, but we haven't seen Teresa since you left this morning.

She's here.

Babe, what happened, what are you...

[MOANING SOFTLY]

- We had... It's okay.

- [GROANS]

We had a little trouble getting out of the car.

And then we had a little trouble getting in the door.

But we're here. So those are some little victories.

- Mm-hmm.

- We're gonna keep going, okay?

We're just gonna keep going.

♪

[COIN RATTLES]

[CAN THUDDING]

Sorry me and my family is so depressing.

Shut up.

She had one really good year when I was a kid.

She worked at that library, and I would hang out with her there.

We'd play hide-and-seek in the stacks.

[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]

My whole life, all I ever wanted was a mom who wasn't sick.

I didn't care about toys or sports or any of that crap.

I just wanted a mom who was okay.

And she is.

She finally is.

[PITCHING MACHINE WHIRS, BAT HITS BALL]

And she doesn't want me there.

You may never hear what you want to hear from your mom.

You may never get an acknowledgment.

You may never get an apology.

But you have a sh*t at having a mom.

And that... Alex, that's...

That's something that's real.

ARIZONA: Okay, it's just sleep.

It's not dying.

You're gonna go to sleep, and then you're gonna wake up.

And you'll be okay.

[EXHALES SHARPLY] You promise?

I promise.

Easy for you to say.

If you're wrong, you're off the hook, 'cause I'll be dead.

[CHUCKLES] I promise.

♪

Don't be nervous, Dr. Schmitt.

I'll be talking with all of your colleagues.

And for the moment, these conversations are off the record.

- Okay.

- Okay?

So, how would you describe your experience

working with Dr. Vikram Roy?

Especially any mistakes or... gross incompetence you may have witnessed.

If you're asking if I think you made the wrong decision f*ring him, I don't.

It was the right call.

If the Chief of Surgery can admit to being high, so should an intern.

And I watched you. [CHUCKLES]

I watched you stare into the abyss of a patient you'd opened up, higher than a kite, for what felt like an eternity.

But you made the right call.

That is leadership, on dr*gs or not.

"Your Honor."

Hey. Got your page. What's up?

Hey.

Uh, well, this was what I was able to set aside for Harriet.

Everything I have might be up for grabs, but they can't touch this.

Thank you.

Yeah, she's gonna be okay.

Everything else is fair game? Really?

Well, the foundation has to keep the hospitals afloat, so I have decided to pay all the personal settlements myself.

People must really appreciate that.

[CHUCKLES SOFTLY] It's mixed.

You know, a lot of folks want jobs, others want lost wages.

Of course, there's a few lawyers out for blood.

But, I mean, it's really hard to quantify loss like this.

This means a lot.

And it will to her one day, too.

[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]

So, you know, there's this story in the Bible.

- Oh, yeah?

Yeah, hear me out. Hear me out.

You're gonna like this one.

About this rich young ruler who wants to follow Jesus.

And Jesus tells him to sell all of his belongings and give the money to the poor.

So for what it's worth, you are on a really good path.

Your buddy Jesus interested in buying a yacht?

[LAUGHS]

So my mother had a choice to make... follow the medicine, or her friend.

- Tough choice.

- It isn't, though.

You follow your friend. Period.

And my mother didn't.

And Marie got the short end of the stick.

So in her mind, it's okay to s*ab me in the back.

But it's totally not.

It's totally not.

And I can't even look at her.

But you still feel for her.

Which pisses me off even more.

Because I won fair and square.

And screw her.

But something terrible happened to her.

But that doesn't justify what she did.

I saw your mom speak once, on the Grey Method, ages ago.

Most inspiring presentation of my career.

It made me switch from plastics to general.

Really?

See? That's the thing.

I mean, she was hell to live with, but she really did inspire so many people... and inspired a whole generation of female surgeons.

That's... That's the dream.

That's the dream.

That's why we do what we do, right?

I mean, everybody wants their place in history.

Nobody wants to be the astronaut that no one remembers.

- Are you trying to rub it in?

- Sorry. No, no, no.

But that's what she took from Cerone.

She stole the dream.

And that's why Cerone feels that she deserves that place in history.

Because she does.

♪ Hollow one ♪

♪ With inverted tongue ♪

[MONITOR BEEPING]

♪ From whence does fulfillment come? ♪

♪ When I expel ♪

♪ From this mortal shell ♪

[LIQUID SUCTIONING]

♪ Will I die for living numb? ♪

♪ Am I vital ♪

♪ If my heart is idle? ♪

♪ Am I doomed? ♪

♪ Am I vital ♪

♪ If my heart is idle? ♪

♪ Am I doomed? ♪

♪ I feel you ♪

♪ But nobody else ♪

♪ Though you're someone I can't see ♪

♪ Yet you say nothing ♪

Alex, please. This is for the best.

Look. I don't want to mess with your routine.

I, uh... I just needed to say a couple things.

I want a library card.

- What?

- I mean, it's...

You have to be here for your job. That's part of it, right?

♪ Will you cast me ♪

♪ To the wayside? ♪

♪ Well, I feel the peeling ♪

I'm so happy for you. And proud.

And, uh, seeing you here doing so well, it...

it was a lot.

And I got mad. And...

And I know it was a lot for you, too.

So much more.

♪ Am I vital ♪

And I know...

♪ If my heart is idle? ♪

I know that I haven't stayed in touch.

But I always thought about you.

And I'm...

I'm so happy.

I'm really happy for you.

♪ So I can see ♪

♪ If I'm doomed ♪

Um...

Uh, I'm gonna go.

You want to do the stamp?

- Huh?

- The due-date stamp.

I always change it at the end of the night for tomorrow.

And when you were a little boy, you used to love to do that for me.

[LAUGHS]

It's silly. Never mind.

No, no. No, no, no.

That'd be cool.

- Yeah?

- Yeah.

♪ So I can see ♪

[CHUCKLES]

- [LAUGHS]

- These things are archaic now.

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Online, in-store or in print!

[APPLAUSE]

Thank you all for coming.

Before I get started, I have a statement I'd like to make.

My mother, Ellis Grey, did not come up with the Grey Method on her own.

[ATTENDEES MURMURING]

She did it with the help of and alongside Dr. Marie Cerone.

Due to the reprehensible behavior of Harper Avery, Marie Cerone was blacklisted.

And my mother made the regrettable decision to publish the work as her own.

I'd like to think that was a result of the time or the workplace culture, but that I can't know.

What I can do... is correct that error.

So from this day forward, I would like the method known as the Grey Method to be known as the Grey-Cerone Method.

[APPLAUSE]

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And now on to business...

[CAMERA SHUTTERS CLICKING]

The Formation of New Liver Tissue with Intraperitoneal Hepatocyte Injection.

Dr. Wilson and I are faced with a problem...

And she's okay? My baby's okay?

Oh, yeah. Yeah. I got a good look at her.

She's better than fine. She's got two super-strong legs.

And a-a great head of hair.

And a closed spine. We like that, too.

I can't believe I put you all through that.

I was so scared... for nothing.

Hey. Would you stop it?

You saved our little girl, babe.

You're my hero.

ARIZONA: He's right. You did.

You did it.

You did everything that you could for her.

I'm a mom.

You are a mom.

[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]

Dr. Roy, on behalf of Grey Sloan Memorial Hospital, I would like to tell you that I am s...

I...

I...

[BREATHES DEEPLY]

Um, I think what Chief Bailey is trying to say is that she would like...

I would like to tell you... that you are lucky.

Lucky to learn from good doctors who have given everything in the face of obstacles you cannot begin to imagine.

People that fought and bled to pave a way.

Doctors like me.

And I have made mistakes, but f*ring you was not one of them.

You got what you deserve.

That said...

I am willing to have you back for a one-year probationary period, during which time I will watch you like a hawk.

I've spent the better part of a year researching the best way to get up in someone's butt, so expect to find me up yours.

And if... if you don't screw it up, I will shape you into an amazing surgeon.

I accept your apology.

MEREDITH: Fixing your mental health isn't like surgery.

Write that up.

We can't just run the bloodwork and check the vitals.

A doctor got her high for the first time.

It wasn't a dealer.

It wasn't some random pusher from the street.

It was a surgeon. Like me.

And I took an oath to do no harm.

And I just feel like there's this epidemic going on out there.

There are these kids...

They're good kids with ruined lives and ruined families.

And it's all because somebody like me who didn't know any better... somebody like me who doesn't understand addiction... wrote a prescription in an attempt to help.

And the hilarious part is I'm so angry about it all that I am craving dr*gs!

With mental health, progress is way harder to measure.

I just hope she comes back.

And if something's wrong, we have to take action.

OWEN: You know you're the first girl I've introduced to my mom in years?

Seriously? I'm really, really nervous.

Why would you say that?

Oh, come on. She's gonna love you.

Oh. Hey. Uh, Mom, this is my fiancée, Jo.

Ohh. Lovely to meet you.

You too, Ms. Karev.

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Uh, we're getting married soon, and we would love for you to come to the wedding.

Wow. Nothing would make me happier.

[CHUCKLES]

But, uh, travel's tough for me to manage with my routine.

We totally get it.

There's a lot of uncertainty.

There's a lot of fear.

And what might be easy for one person... for someone else might take inner strength you can't even imagine.

That's my ride.

Right on time.

Yeah. We got a plane to catch.

My sweetest boy.

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My truest love.

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But we have to try.

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[BUS DOOR CLOSES]

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MARIE: Mer Mer.

Thank you so much.

Can we talk?

Marie, I think I've said all there is to say.

We have to stand up to our demons.

♪ That's privilege ♪

We have to face reality whenever possible and ask for help when we can't.

I know that you don't agree with me.

I know... I know that you think that I coddle her, but I'm her mother.

And I have to do what's best for her if I can, and in this case, I can.

Okay, then, why defend yourself to me if you don't even care what I think?

♪ Can't sleep at night ♪

♪ Can't convince myself ♪

♪ To turn it off ♪

♪ To let go ♪

[VOICE BREAKING] I just wish that what's best for her wasn't what's worst for me.

♪ w*r ♪

♪ Am I runnin' late? ♪

♪ I get overwhelmed ♪

♪ All the awful dreams ♪

♪ All the bright screens ♪

♪ Is my lover there? ♪

♪ Are we breakin' up? ♪

♪ Did she find someone else? ♪

♪ And leave me alone? ♪

♪ Alone ♪

♪

[PHONE RINGING, CLICK]

Callie, hey.

Um, so, I was... I was thinking.

Um, and I think... I think that...

I think that Sofia should move back to New York with you.

And when we do that, healing is possible.

Mm-hmm. Yeah.

And I think I need to move back with her.

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