15x05 - Everyday Angel

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♪ I've been tryin' to keep it low, low, low ♪

♪ Been tryin' to make it on my own ♪

- ♪ But you got something... ♪
- MEREDITH: Every day, we're surroundedby people who ask how we're doing.

So, do you want to... say the Serenity Prayer before you go in?

♪ All the things that you do to me ♪

Okay. Uh, just don't do dr*gs.

[SINGSONG VOICE]
And have a nice day at school!

♪

But when surgeons ask how you're doing,we genuinely care about your answer.

You okay?

Just thinking about all the ways I would have ditched school to go get high when I was her age.

So, what? You wanna just stay here all day in case she leaves or...?

How many heroin overdoses did you treat in the E.R. this week?
- Hm.

Let's just drive around the school

and make sure she doesn't ditch out the back.

- Okay.
- Okay.

Your answer to "How are you doing?"

tells us how good a job we're doingat taking care of you.

Mnh. That was an accident.

You're the restaurant's best server, and you accidentally spill coffee on the most annoying customer of all time?

She totally deserved it.

- [GASPS] I knew it!
- [LAUGHS]

You know, I had to pay for her stupid, ugly jacket with my tips.

As I recall, I chipped in.

Unfortunately, caretaking outside of medicineis usually more complicated.

Your triple espresso.

And I mailed in your ballot.

- Thanks.
- Yeah.

Morning, Chief.

Richie.

Lincoln.

[TELEPHONE RINGS]

- Did he just call you Richie?
- Yeah.

He says if I insist on extending his name, he's gonna shorten mine.
- [CHUCKLES]

- Rude.
- Oh, no, no, no.

He's a good guy. Mean guitar player.

Yeah. Link's the best.

You know, we go all the way back to undergrad.

Oh?

Oh, no! No, no, no. Not like that.

We just waited tables together.
He's like my brother.

Okay, I'm gonna head to the lab, but I hope to see you later.

I-I wasn't too thrilled when I found out Catherine and Koracick were... old friends.
- Can I help you?

♪

[CHILDREN SHOUTING PLAYFULLY]

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[CELLPHONE DINGS]

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[CELLPHONE CLICKING]

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[CELLPHONE DINGS]

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How did you find me?

You used to make Cristina get you coffee here every morning.

And I figured you wouldn't be stupid enough to fly, all things considered.

Pierce told you.

Well, there goes her license.

We all know you're not gonna sue Pierce.

You have bigger problems.

♪

[WOMAN ON P.A. SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY]

- Good morning.
- Morning, Parker.

What do we got first?

Cece Colvin. Post-heart transplant with secondary renal failure

- due to her anti-rejection meds.
- Mm.

Uh, did you know she's a professional matchmaker?

Oh, I know. [CHUCKLES]

I had to show her pictures of my girlfriend so she'd stop trying to set me up.

Hey.

Welcome back, Dr. Avery.

Thanks, Parker. Give us a minute, please.

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

Wasn't sure if you were reading any of my texts.

Yeah. Um...

You met a boy with, uh, scapular osteochondroma, so you pressed pause on your trip to fly him and his family here to operate.

Did you get my reply?

You mean the letter "K"? Yeah.

I thought you were a fan of brevity.

Maggie. Hold on, okay?

I know my trip was sudden.

I know this is sudden. I...

I just really miss you.

Okay? I want us to be able to catch up.

Take you to dinner tonight.

Uh... look.

You've got surgery. I've got patients.

We can, uh, catch up later.

♪

[WOMAN ON P.A. SPEAKING INDISTINCTLY]

Hey. Uh. I'm... sorry. Am I late?

Uh, no. Couldn't sleep, so I got a head start.

There is no way we will get through all of these approaches in one year.

Well, we need to narrow them down.

We'll start with molecular vectors only.

Process of elimination.

ALEX: I need you to do a surgical consult.

- We're busy.
- Look, Grey, Shepherd, and Hunt

took last-minute personal days.

So I need you to put the future on hold and take care of the patients that exist in the present.

And your consult in my office, refusing to leave.

Your husband's a grouch.

- You made him chief.
- You married him.

DELUCA: Hey, hey.

Howlin' Wolf Richie sings the blues.

Not at work? Right. Okay.
Sorry, Dr. Webber.

Helm, Schmitt, get over here.

[SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE]

Okay, Hunt is out, so it's just us in the E.R.

I'll handle the trauma. The three of you take the rest of the pit.

Report to DeLuca here.

Grey Sloan prides itself on providing the highest level of patient care.

Your colleague Dr. Roy was woefully short in that department.

I expect you to do better.

- Okay, let's move.
- Okay.

Thank you, Dr. Webber.

It's not a favor.

What do we have here?

You still owe me a drink. Tonight?

Oh, um, I don't know.
I-I might have a... thing...

WOMAN: Dr. Kim?

...later.

Okay. Well, if your thing changes, I'll be at Joe's.

♪

You turned down a date? With him?

What? [CHUCKLING] No. It's not a date.

He asked you out to drinks. It's a date.

♪

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

Oh, hey, Karev.
Have I got a present for you.

- Thought you were still on vacation.
- Not a vacation.

It was a personal leave while I figured some stuff out.

You're not at work, it's a vacation.

Searching for the meaning of life just means it's a boring vacation.

What's the present?

I've got an -year-old with an extensive osteochondroma in both scapulae, all right?

Wildest case of it I have ever seen.

- And it's pro bono.
- Pro bono?!

- I've met the family.
- How is that a present?

We're bleeding money out of every, Rafi, look who's here.
- [CHUCKLES]

Dr. Avery!

[SOFTLY] You're welcome.

Hey, buddy!

♪

[TELEPHONE RINGING]

Ms. Sullivan? Hi. I'm Dr. Bailey.

This is Dr. Wilson, Karev.
- Karev.

I'm here for Dr. Grey.

Yes, Dr. Grey is unavailable, so we are going to be the o...

Wasting your time, all right?

I've already seen an internist, two gastroenterologists, and two surgeons who ran dozens of inconclusive test before diagnosing me with acid reflux, anorexia, and anxiety, none of which are actually the cause of my stomach pain.

So I'm here to see the woman I read about, the best, Dr. Meredith Grey.

And you have both made it clear that you are not her, so no thank you and goodbye.

Okay.

Ms. Sullivan.

I'm am not Meredith Grey. This is true.

But I am the woman who taught Meredith Grey.

Grey was a lump of clay when I met her.

And I shaped her with my two hands into the surgeon that she has become.

And I helped her with the mini livers.

♪

Dr. Karev is our chief of pediatric surgery, well, right now chief of everything.

This is Rafi and Aamir.

Thank you so much for doing this.

- You mind if I take a look?
- Of course.

Hey, Rafi, can you lift your arms above your head for me?

- [GRUNTS SOFTLY]
- Oh, yeah.

Alright. How'd you guys meet?

Uh, hiking in Oregon.

We were both at the same creek, and they made me some amazing s'mores.

Rafi loves to swim, even when it's freezing outside.

And skip rocks and climb trees.

- Basically anything outdoors.
- When Rafi was years old, he was diagnosed with multiple osteochondromas.

They're benign overgrowths in my bones and cartilage.

They're hereditary.

He explains it to people about five times a day.

Tell you what we're gonna do here, is we're gonna shave your bones down and reshape them so they go from this...

to... this.

AAMIR: You're sure we should remove them now?

His pediatrician said we might want to wait till he's older.

No. I want them off now! They're weird.

JACKSON: That's okay. The risk isn't any different if we do it now or later.

And he's in good hands. Avery and I make an excellent team.

LINK: Sorry I'm late.

I had to, uh, put a pin in a tibia.

What's up, little dude?

I'm Dr. Lincoln.
But you can call me Link.

- He's on this, too?
- He's head of ortho. Yeah.

Avery didn't tell me you were in on this.

Sweet.

[FLATLY] Yeah. Sweet.

♪

Alright. Your vitals look good, but I'd like to do another blood panel and run another echo.

And?

A little birdie told me Dr. Avery's back in town.

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

It was that or talk about myself, so...

Ah. Yes, Cece. Dr. Avery is back temporarily.

He's here to do a complex surgery, and then he's off again.

So you're sad he's in town for such a short time.

Sure. Let's go with that.

I'll be back to do your echo after I finish my rounds.

What happened between them?

- I don't know.
- Parker!

[MONITOR BEEPING]

When I was ,

I got alcohol poisoning in the middle of the school day.

- Did I ever tell you that story?
- [CHUCKLES]

Um, Bailey told me there was this app you can put in your kid's phone to track them.

- Yeah. Already done.
- Oh.

I'm not proud of it.

And this app... tracks her texts.

Oh. That's a little...

Invasive? Extreme?

- Mm.
- There was this text about a bunch of kids cutting class today.

- That's why we're here.
- Listen, you're a recovering addict raising a recovering addict, and you care about her.

That's gonna make anyone a little...

Insane?

I was gonna say obsessive.

[INHALES SHARPLY] Delete them.

If I do it, I will just get sucked back in.

[CLICKING]

Okay.

- [EXHALES SHARPLY]
- [BEEPING]

All gone!

No need to know the details of her lunch...

- [CELLPHONE CLATTERS]
- ...with Rachel and Eileen.

- [SWEETLY] They're having lunch?
- Mm.

- That's good!
- Mm-hmm.

They seem like nice girls.

And it's so hard to make friends when you transfer.

[NORMAL VOICE] How did I become this person?

I kind of like this person.

DELUCA: Okay, Helm, go get some ABD and conform to dress this.

- Mm-hmm.
- Dr. Webber.

Got a small lac on the forehead and on the calf, but I just finished repairing the leg.

Hmm. Is there a problem, Schmitt?

The edges don't want to line up.

Well, I can see that.

DeLuca, you have any advice for him?

Throw a corner stitch on the apex first.

Then the rest will line up.

- Come on. You know that.
- Right. Sorry.

[SIGHS]

Look, um, Schmitt's just a little distracted.

I-I think he's got a thing for Helm.

Is that his excuse or yours?

It's not an excuse, Dr. Webber.
It's just an explanation.

Well, you could have fooled me.

You and Schmitt were on the same patient, and you didn't notice that he needed help?

Show some initiative, DeLuca.

I, uh, I-I already ate breakfast, if that's what's happening.

Oh, no. I have to make cookies for Zola's bake sale.

And they have to be homemade because, apparently, that's how you show you care.

And Zola wants chocolate.
Not chocolate chip. Chocolate.

And did you know there's a difference between cocoa powder and hot-chocolate mix?

- Not a baker?
- I just learned that you had to pre-heat the oven.

Well, you know what? You look busy.

So I'm just gonna take off.

Oh, just stay.

Make sure I don't burn the house down.

- Okay.
- See?

You'll get to do all of this soon, bake cookies, look for childcare, find a good school.

And there it is.

Look, Meredith, I'm gonna go back to Germany.

I've got a great O.B. in Landstuhl, and I'll give birth there and raise the baby myself.

And not tell Owen?

Well, I was planning to tell him, and I was going to apologize for all the awful things that I said to him, and then I came back here and found out that they were all true.

Oh. It's not what you think.

Oh...

He's not living with his ex-wife and two kids?

Okay, well, that part is true.

But he's fostering a baby, and she's helping the mom get her life together.

I just...

I-I don't see how it would work.

Then why are you here?

- You stalked me.
- No, no.

Why are you in Seattle?

And don't blame the clot because we both know that you could jump on a bus or a train if you really wanted to get out of town.

- [FORK SCRAPING RAPIDLY]
- I don't know, okay? I don't, well, I-I just, I don't know why I'm here or, or what I'm gonna do.

I've been holed up in a very fancy hotel room running an exorbitant room-service bill trying to figure it out, and I still don't know.

And it's driving me crazy and pissing me off.

And what are you doing to those eggs?!

- [SCRAPING STOPS]
- Here. Gimme.

I don't need the fork.

All right. Let's see what we got here.

[MONITOR BEEPING]

[MACHINE WHOOSHING]

Okay, here's your mitral valve.

So, why's Dr. Avery in the doghouse?

Let's focus on you, okay?

This is me focusing on me.

If something's eating away at you, I'd just as soon we get it out now before you have my heart in your hands.

It's the way he left.
He made this huge decision to go and then told me by voicemail, then barely communicated once he was gone.

Who does that?

I mean, I get having big questions.

So go. Go seek your truth, follow your heart.

Just don't freeze me out.

What are your big questions?

[SCOFFS]

When is he coming back?

Does he even want to be in a relationship?

Why does he keep texting me pictures of trees?

Not questions about him.

About you.

♪

[METAL CLANKING]

♪

JACKSON: Link, how we looking on your side?

It's coming along. Bone saw.

Brooke was telling me about your wedding.

That sounds like quite a day.

- Brooke?
- ALEX: He means Jo.

Jo. Sorry. Still getting used to that.

[BONE SAW BUZZES]

You guys knew each other, then?

School. And we worked together.

- Oh. What hospital?
- Jimmy's Crab Shack.

Hey, Avery, how was your leave of absence?

♪

[BONE SAW BUZZES]

Uh, yeah, it's going great.
I got a few weeks left.

I'm gonna head down to Santa Barbara.

Then I haven't decided between Yosemite and Zion.

- Ooh, Zion. Hands down.
- Really?

Angels Landing, it's up like , feet, and you're on this teeny little trail with a chain as a handrail.

Yeah. I want to try that.

What about you, Chief? You hike?

- I'm from Iowa.
- The path report's back.

- Thought you said it wasn't malignant.
- JACKSON: Damn it.

BAILEY: The HIDA scan and the ERCP were negative.

JO: Which rules out the gallbladder and biliary tree.

Yeah. I told you that a half-hour ago.

Okay. We know that, but this is how we work.

Yeah, yeah. Process of elimination. I get it.

We do the same thing down at my auto shop.

I'm a mechanic, and I learned everything I know from my dad.

He ran that shop for years then retired and passed it on to me... along with that lunch pail.

Which you brought for good luck?

Which I brought with me for lunch.

I'm constantly fasting for all the tests you doctors order, so I bring myself a sandwich for when I'm done.

Um, I want to run a technetium scan to rule out Meckel's diverticulum.

- It's not that.
- You've been tested?

No, but I read about it online.

Okay. The Internet does not provide accurate diagnoses.

Yeah, well, far as I can tell, neither do you.

MEREDITH: You were the one who insisted that I tell Megan Hunt about me and Riggs.

Because you were her surgeon.

Because she deserved all the information.

Is that what this is about?

You blaming me for breaking up you and Riggs?

No. I broke up me and Riggs.

But Owen is my friend, and Amelia is my sister.

Right. [SIGHS]

- Not about me.
- You're his best friend.

Well, I was. Not anymore.

- I can't be.
- Why?

- [SCOOP SLAMS]
- Because I hate him, Meredith.

I hate him so much, I want to smash his face in.

I mean, I can't even look at him.

How the hell can I raise a child with him?

[COOKIE DOUGH THUDS]

I grew up without my dad because my mother hated him too much to let him love me.

One day, your kid will go looking for their dad.

They're not gonna find a deadbeat or a drunk.

They're gonna find a good man who's devastated.

Do you hate him enough to do that to either of them?

♪

AMELIA: Stop eating all his snacks. I'm ordering food now.

- Mm.
- Morning, folks!

Jim Blomquist, Vice Principal.

The security guard said you've been parked out here a couple hours?

Yeah, uh, we're waiting for someone, a student.

- Mm.
- Oh. You're parents?

Uh, no. Yeah. Um...
Kind of hard to define.

Uh... [CHUCKLES NERVOUSLY]

Yeah. Betty Nelson, uh, lives with us, and I foster her, her baby, so...

See? There's not really a name for that.

Well, you can't loiter here in a school zone, so you're gonna have to move on, Mr. and Mrs., uh...

Uh, oh, no, no, we're, we're, well, we're, we're,

We'll just go.

Yeah. We're gonna go.

AAMIR: He has cancer?

We caught it early. That is good news.

But we had it biopsied more than once.

Yes, I understand, and things can change.

They mutate, and if the specimen is not taken from a cancerous area, then it goes undetected.

Now, I can remove the scapula entirely and take the cancer with it.

Or I can just remove the growths, which would mean he'd require radiation treatments, which can be dangerous in a child this young.

His mom d*ed in childbirth.
He's all I have.

If I remove the scapula, he is going to have severely limited range of motion.

His prosthetic's gonna have to be replaced as he grows.

But the cancer will be gone.

Okay? He'll live.

I didn't want to give you my s'more.

- What's that?
- [EXHALES SHARPLY]

When we saw you at the creek, Rafi said, "That guy's all alone. We should share."

And I thought, "I'm tired and hungry, and I don't want to give a random stranger my dessert."

But I did. To make him happy.

And now what, what you're saying is that s'more is gonna save his life?

♪

Thank you.

Do what you need to save him.

I absolutely will.

Ugh. There should be an hour every day where this whole city has to chill.

Seattle Nap Time, no one gets hurt, and we all get to go to the bathroom.

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

♪

It's not a date.

- Mm.
- I owe him a drink.

- Are you saying this...
- [MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY]

...so it's more surprising when he kisses you?

Hey, guys! Wake up!

[MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY]

What the hell happened?

Uh, M-Molly Graham.
years old. Asthmatic.

I gave her two nebulizers and a sh*t of Solu-Medrol.

- I'm monitoring her sats.
- No, you're not!

She's tachypneic.
Her sats are in the s.

She's decompensating, okay?
She's not moving any air around.

Okay, we're gonna have to intubate. Prep for RSI.

- Don't we need an attending?
- Do you see one?

I'll, I'll get Webber.

[MOLLY GASPING]

Okay. Hang in there for me, Molly, okay?

[AIR HISSING]

Let's go, Helm. Let's go.

♪

Okay.

Come on. Come on.

It's not going in. Uh, okay, get a scope.

[RAPID BEEPING CONTINUES]

♪

Come on, Molly. It's okay. You got this.

♪

Let's go! Give me that, Helm.

Okay.

Okay.

Come on. Come on. Got it.

[BEEPING SLOWS]

♪

No. Helm, I got it.

♪

She was about to code.

I didn't think you'd want me waiting for you.

You were right.

But next time, try including your intern.

This is a teaching hospital.

OWEN: So, is it like a Magic -Ball?

AMELIA: Sort of.

Except it's a lot easier to hide in study hall.

How have you never seen one?

Study hall was for homework.

We would not have been friends.

[CHUCKLES]
- Okay. So... should we stay parked out here all day?

- What do you think, Leo?
- Leo, what do you think?

[PAPER RUSTLING]

No? Nothing?

It says "yes, definitely."

[CHUCKLING] Are you serious?

This is how I picked my college.

Ask a question.

Uh, has Amelia lost it?

Excellent. Now pick a color.

- Red.
- R-E-D.

- Now pick a number.
- .

.

" %." See? It works.

[BOTH LAUGH]

Amelia. It's Betty.

Okay. What do we do?

[FENCE RATTLING]

[GRUNTS]

[WHISTLES]

♪

Okay. [CLEARS THROAT] We're staying.

Ooh. You are some kind of genius.

Well, I just followed the recipe.

- So did I.
- You know what?

That's my problem, is I just follow. I play it safe.

MEREDITH: You joined the Army during a w*r.

You don't play it safe.

No. That wasn't brave.

That was Allison.

Who's Allison?

My favorite person on the planet d*ed in the second tower, which was a month after I buried my mom and a year after I buried my dad.

She was... She carried me.

And when she d*ed, I wished that I had gone with her.

I get that.

New York was our city. I didn't how to live there without her.

So I went to Iraq, which is where I started working with this buttoned-up, brilliant surgeon who just, He didn't have any doubts at all.

He was such an optimist, which I couldn't stand.

He didn't try to fix me or tell me how to grieve.

He was just there, and he was kind, and I fell in love with him.

But he had a fiancée, and I didn't want to lose him 'cause I couldn't lose anyone else.

♪

So I played it safe.

I don't hate Owen. I...

I love him.

[BONE SAW BUZZING]

MAGGIE: Isn't that your patient?

It was, but we found a Ewing.

Caught it early, so... hopefully we can get all of it.

[SIGHS]

That's amazing.

Yeah. It's kind of a miracle I was able to... find him when I did.

You don't sound like somebody who just saved a boy's life.

[SIGHS] Yeah, it's just...

Rafi's such an active kid.

He loves to swim and climb trees and run around, and he is gonna wake up and find out he can't ever lift his own arm.

So I'm saving his life, but he's not gonna see it that way.

He's a little kid, a little kid who wants to play, and I'm the guy that took that away from him.

[SIGHS HEAVILY]

My mom used to say that, "Everything's clearer on the mountaintop."

Hmm?

Just, you know, when you can get some distance, separate yourself from your problems.

They all seem so solvable.

But then you get back into real life.

Nothing is black-and-white.
Everything is just all muddy.

"Everything is clearer on the mountaintop."

Guys, don't move! Don't move.
I'll be right there.

Radiation? I told you it'll fry his lung.

- And the bone's already out.
- Extracorporeal radiation.

The bone is already out, so we can do the radiation outside the body, crank up that dose as high as we want, basically like putting it in a microwave.

It doesn't hurt him, kills the cancer.

- And all the healthy cells.
- But that won't matter.

We replace the scapula, and the framework's there for new cells to grow back.

Exactly. It gives us a better match than any prosthetic ever could.

We re-attach the ligaments in their natural position, minimal loss of movement.

- And no more surgeries.
- Can we do this thing?

Hell yeah. Let's move.

[SLEEPING AT LAST'S "TASTE" PLAYS]

♪

♪ It's bittersweet ♪

♪ It's poetry ♪

♪ A careful pruning of my dead leaves ♪

♪ It's holy ground ♪

♪ A treasure chest ♪

♪ I'm on my knees and only scratch the surface ♪

♪

♪ We're nothing less than a work in progress ♪

♪ Sacred text on Post-it Notes ♪

♪ We only speak of a world in pieces ♪

♪ Let's make a map of what matters most ♪

♪ Where every fracture is a running river ♪

♪ Leading us back to our golden ♪

♪ C-o-o-o-oasts ♪

♪ Here's to showing up ♪

♪ To fists unraveling ♪

♪ To glass unshattering ♪

♪ To breaking all the rules ♪

♪ To breaking bread again ♪

♪ So I propose a toast ♪

♪ To fists unraveling ♪

♪ To glass unshattering ♪

♪ To breaking all the rules ♪

♪ To breaking bread again ♪

♪

♪ We're swallowing light ♪

♪ We're swallowing our pride ♪

- Attachment complete.
- Good hemostasis.

JACKSON: We are ready to close.

[APPLAUSE]

♪

♪ 'Til we're fixed from the inside ♪

Unfortunately, we've exhausted every test that we can think of.

Do, do you understand what I'm saying?

I understand. But I don't accept.

I don't accept your failure to diagnose me, and I won't accept discharge papers, either.

So I'm gonna eat my sandwich, and you're gonna go remember that you are the teacher of Meredith Grey.

Uh...

Nina, w-we've run out of tests.

Then find new tests. Invent them.

Take care of me. That is your job.

[QUIETLY] Should I page psych?

[CRYING]
- I can't keep living like this.

I can't keep being told it's in my head when I know that it's not.

I can't keep being told that I'm crazy when I'm not crazy.

If you don't help me, I'm gonna k*ll myself.

And then all those doctors who said it was in my head will be right.

But they're not right.

I know there's something wrong with m...

[GROANING]

Nina?

Okay. What is it?

- What is it?
- Stomach!

- Here?
- [GROANING]

Alright, Dr. Webber, uh, beds and are ready to be discharged, and neuro's on its way to check the CHI in bed , but I did a preliminary check, and I think he's okay.

Uh...

Bed is Helm's patient, and is Schmitt's.

[TELEPHONE RINGING]

Yeah, well, you said show some initiative, so...

Initiative doesn't mean doing everything yourself.

Look, do you have some kind of problem with me, Dr. Webber?

Oh, far from it. I consider you a friend.

A friend? You've been on my ass all day for nothing.

I haven't made a single mistake.

I picked up everybody else's slack.

So, if there's some lesson, please enlighten me.

I don't need a friend in the E.R., DeLuca.

I need doctors who not only can give patients the best possible care, but teach others to do the same.

That's what separates residents from attendings.

Don't get mad at me for thinking you've got it in ya.

♪

Ow. That hurts.

JO: I know. Just try to relax, okay?

Do you hear something?

A swooshing sound?

Like her sandwich digesting?

More like a vascular bruit.

Um, here. Let's try the ultrasound.

Sure.

[WHOOSHING]

- [GROANS]

And to the right.

I'm gonna press, Aah! Ow.
- Sorry, sorry, sorry.

Uh, take a deep breath for me.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

- And exhale.
- [EXHALES SLOWLY]

[GASPS] There!

Oh. The median arcuate ligament.

- You've got MALS.
- Whoa!

I've only read about this.

A-A ligament is wrapped tightly around your celiac artery.

It expands when you eat.

You know, no one's found it because you always fast before your visits.

We can go in laparoscopically, cut it.

Takes minutes.

♪

I knew it was real.

Oh, yeah. [CHUCKLES]
This is a real thing.

- And we found it.
- Mm-hmm.

And Meredith Grey did not.

♪

I thought this was gonna be easier.

I-I don't know how to tell him, but I don't know how to not tell him.

I feel completely out of control.

Oh, that's just the hormones.
That'll pass.

Oh, it won't pass. [SIGHS]

I mean, nothing about this is gonna pass.

Well, the "out of control" will pass.

I mean, listen, being a mom breaks you open.

It's supposed to.

I mean, is, is that what happened to Amelia?

I mean, Owen said that she didn't want to have kids, that their marriage was a wreck.

I mean, he would call me and say that, "She's moved out. She's hiding from me.

She doesn't want to be married to me."

And I-I didn't know what to say to that.

I know that Amelia had a brain tumor removed, and it, but is that what suddenly made her want to have a family and with Owen?

I mean, did she change that much?

Meredith, is she all-in?

I don't know. I'm sorry.

I can't speak for Amelia, nor do I want to try.

What I do know is that you do need to talk to him because the longer you keep this a secret, the worse it gets for everybody.

I mean, it's not like you're gonna lose him. It's Owen.

Meredith, I know that I'm not gonna lose him.

It's, it's Owen.

He is good and honorable and loyal and kind.

And when I tell him that I'm carrying his child, he will claim me.

[VOICE BREAKING] And then for the rest of my life, I'm gonna wonder whether he's with me out of obligation or if he really wants to be with me.

[DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES]

Hi, babies. How was school?

- Good.
- Good.

- Good?
- Mm. It smells so good in here!

Yeah! Look what I have.

Teddy, everything you think you know is gonna completely change once the baby comes.

ZOLA: Cookies on the table.

It's not you that you're telling him for.

♪

- Hey, you want me to take over?
- I got him.

- You think I don't?
- [CHUCKLING] No, no.

The opposite, actually.
I think you're great with him.

So, what's with the staring?

[CHUCKLES] I don't know. I just...

I keep kind of wondering, is this really what broke up our marriage?

Well, first of all, brain tumor.

[CHUCKLES] I know. I know.

And also...

Christopher.

- Who?
- My baby.

That was his name. Christopher.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

I have never said that out loud before.

Not even to myself.

But I loved him...

for every second of his life.

I loved him so much.

After he d*ed, the pain was unbearable.

And I think I became afraid that loving another baby would somehow lessen Christopher's memory.

But I'm okay.

I couldn't say his name before, and now I feel like for the first time in my life, I can talk about him, and I-I don't feel like it's gonna break me, you know?

And I can look at Leo and Betty and, and know that... they can't erase him.

Nothing can.

And that's a good thing.

♪

Oh. You found us.

Were you guys seriously out here all day?

[DOOR CLOSES]

How was your day?

Fine.

That's all we're gonna get?

Fine, and I didn't do dr*gs.

That'll do.

♪

Does Owen wear dad jeans?

[CHUCKLES]

Okay. To your car seat.

"Yes, definitely."

Alright, I'm gonna go talk to Rafi's dad.

You earned it.

Hey, could you hold up a sec, Chief?

Why?

Uh, because ever since you found out that Jo and I are friends, you've looked like you want to k*ll me.

Uh, so I just wanted to clear the air.

There was nothing between us.
She's like my sister.

Did you know Paul?

Because a good brother would have protected her.

You're twice that guy's size.
You could have leveled him.

I met him. I didn't like him.

I told her so. She didn't listen to me.

I mean, Jo was not the best listener of other people's ideas back then.

Yeah. She still isn't.

Well, I didn't like him, and he didn't like me.

Jo said he was jealous of our friendship, and she started to back away.

I-I thought I was being respectful.

I had no idea he was...

I didn't like the guy, but I swear to God, if I had known, yeah... I would've leveled him.

♪

[DOOR OPENS]

[MONITOR BEEPING]

Hey.

Well... [CLEARS THROAT]

I'm still mad at Jackson.

[CHUCKLES]
- Kind of.

But I think, uh, mostly I'm mad at me.

'Cause you're right.
I have big questions.

And I haven't been asking them because I've been wrapped up in everyone else's, which needs to stop.

So, thank you.

- So happy for you, Maggie.
- [CHUCKLES]

I don't suppose you also came in here to tell me you found a donor?

Not yet.

But I haven't given up hope yet.

And neither should you. Deal?

Deal.

♪

[SNIFFLES]

["THE THRILL IS GONE" PLAYS ON GUITAR]

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

♪

RICHARD: ♪ The thrill is gone ♪

♪ The thrill is gone away ♪

♪ Mm-hmm ♪

♪ The thrill is gone, baby ♪

♪ Mm ♪

♪ The thrill is gone away ♪

♪ Mm, mm ♪

♪ You know you done me wrong ♪

♪ And you'll be sorry someday ♪

♪ The thrill is gone ♪

[DOOR BELLS JINGLE]

♪

♪ It's gone away from me ♪

♪

♪ The thrill is gone ♪

Hey. Schmitt, you made it.

♪ It's gone away from me ♪

♪ Mmm-mm ♪

♪ The thrill is gone, baby ♪

♪ The thrill is gone away from me ♪

I may have misread the situation.

♪ Although I'll still live on ♪

Sorry.

♪ But so lonely I'll be, uh-huh ♪

Hey. I scheduled Nina's laparoscopy for first thing tomorrow.

[FLATLY] Great.

I-I know that we have a lot of approaches, but that's good, right?

The, the right one's in there somewhere.

I'm not worried about that.

What is it?

Okay. Process of elimination.

I have systematically removed stressors from my life, less coffee, more exercise, better food.

I'm still stressed.

I've taken on fewer patients.
Still stressed.

So I took the extreme measure of stepping back from the job

I have spent my entire career working for.

And even though your husband now has all that stress, I'm still stressed.

So if I'm rational, if I'm scientific, I must look elsewhere for the source of that stress.

What else is there?

[CHUCKLES]

My husband... is a firefighter.

I haven't heard from him today.

And when I don't hear from him, I don't breathe.

Okay. Ben Warren adores you.

I know his job is scary, but...

you two are good.

You two are the goal.

Good work today.
I'll see you in the morning.

Surgeons are trained to provide care for others.

♪

[EXHALES SHAKILY]

He's okay?

He's gonna experience a little pain for a while and have to do physical therapy, but, yeah, everything looks good.

He did great in there.

[EXHALES DEEPLY]

♪ That there is an ending ♪

- Thank you.
- Yeah.

Thank you so much.

♪ I know the light will always find us ♪

♪ But the shadows just remind us ♪

Some biologists believe it's human nature,the desire to help.

♪ Take it all away, we'll stay ♪

Can I kiss you, please?

[CHUCKLES]

We did it.

We saved his life... and his quality of life.

- Congratulations.
- No, no. "We," okay?

Both of us. You, it was your idea.

You know, we did this together.

Are you leaving again tomorrow?

No. No. I'm done being gone.

This is where I feel most connected to something larger than me, in the O.R., doing something that I'm great at.

I had an amazing day today, best day I've had in a very long time, and you are a huge part of that.

♪ 'Cause we're bound together ♪

I apologize for the way that I left, truly, okay?

That will not happen again.

♪ We'll find our way home ♪

I can't have dinner with you tonight.

- [GROANS]
- [CHUCKLES]

I need to work on my rechargeable hearts.

Jackson, this is, this is my mountaintop.

They may not be able to help Cece, but they're gonna help a lot of other people.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

But, yes. Please do kiss me.

♪ That won't seem to let go ♪

♪ Every day falls behind us ♪

Scientists believe we're biologicallyprogrammed to empathize.

I think it's one of the reasons our species has lasted this long.

You're coming home.

I was in an O.R. all day. I'm behind.

So, be behind. We're newlyweds.

We should be doing newlywed things.

Mm. Like what?

Um, if you can't think of anything, then I want an annulment.

[CHUCKLING] Okay. Okay. I'm coming.

♪ Try, try to shake us ♪

I heard you worked with Link today.

Yep. Seems like a pretty good guy.

[KEYS CLACKING]

♪ 'Cause we're bound together ♪

What are you doing?

♪ High, higher we'll go ♪

♪ Fight fire with hope ♪

We have an innate instinct to support each other.

♪ We'll find a way home ♪

You can only take care of yourself for so long.

- Thank you.
- I should be thanking you.

- You made them.
- No, I meant for today.

It was nice to talk to someone other than room service.

Well, I'm always here.

But I'm not the one you should be talking to.

♪ We'll find our way home ♪

♪ 'Cause we're bound together, we're bound together ♪

AMELIA: Hello? Mer? Ooh, cookies!

♪ We'll find our way home ♪

- These are amazing.
- What are you doing here?

I was just picking up some things.

I think I'm gonna be at Owen's a little longer than I planned.

Because let's face it,some problems are way too big to carry on our own.