04x05 - Episode 5

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Previously on The Affair...

You look just like your father, Cole.

[COLE] Always tell me
that, but I don't see it.

Your grandfather, Silas, was
a terrible person, boys.

He was a drunk. He b*at your dad.

[COLE] Oh, so that's what it was.

Dad had a rough childhood?

That's what was wrong with him?

Not the fact that he was
a stumble-down drunk?

Dad just disappeared for six months?

- What did he do?
- He went to California.

To a town with a giant rock
in the middle of the sea.

Six months later, he came
back with a surfboard.

He seemed a little lighter.

[ALISON] I think you're giving up

because we've made a mess of everything.

If you leave Luisa now, you can't
play the good guy anymore.

Then you're an assh*le, just like me.

I know I'm disappointing you.

And you deserve better.
So, what if I left?

Would you be willing to give me the time

to just go away and...

Yes.

I don't want this to end.

I just need to know that I matter.

[VIK] Do you think she even realizes
these cans are hers, not ours?

No, I don't. And she's not going to

if you keep moving 'em for her.

- I'm not getting treatment.
- That just doesn't make any sense.

I'm not gonna sit around
and watch you die.

[VIK] Believe it or not, Helen,

you don't get to make that choice.

[HELEN] Vik is very sick,

and he won't listen to me.
He's refusing treatment.

I asked you not to tell my parents,

and what did you do?

I had to. She's your mother.

I just... just please, can we...

- please make a plan?
- Okay.

Let's have a baby.

How's that for a plan?

♪ I was screaming into the canyon ♪

♪ At the moment of my death ♪

♪ The echo I created ♪

♪ Outlasted my last breath ♪

♪ My voice it made an avalanche ♪

♪ And buried a man I never knew ♪

♪ And when he d*ed, his widowed bride ♪

♪ Met your daddy and they made you ♪

♪ I have only one thing to do ♪

♪ And that's be the wave
that I am, and then ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪

♪ I have only one thing to do ♪

♪ And that's be the wave
that I am, and then ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪

♪ I have only one thing to do ♪

♪ And that's be the wave
that I am, and then ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean,
sink back into the ocean ♪

♪ Sink back into the o... ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪

♪ Sink back into the o... ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪

♪ Sink back into the ocean ♪

You have to go.

I want to do it.

Yeah, but you have to go.

[LAUGHS]

[VIK] Wait. Let me just wash my hands.

You're gonna be late.

- It's okay.
- I can do it.

Helen, it'll take two minutes.

Yeah, I know, but I know

how stressed-out you
get when you're late.

Just... It's okay.

- You sure?
- Yeah.

I'll just do my upper thigh.

- Okay.
- Okay.

Hey, Vik.

Uh, have your... have your
parents said anything?

At all?

About what?

I'll see you later today at Dr. Roper's?

- Yep. I'll be there.
- Okay.

[QUIET, AMBIENT MUSIC]

[TREVOR] Come on, hurry up.
I don't want to be late.

Mom left me your lunch,
so I'll get that for you

and then we got to go.

Bye, guys!

- Have good days!
- Bye, Vik!

[TREVOR] Hey, give me back my notebook.

[CONTINUES TALKING INDISTINCTLY]

[COUGHS QUIETLY]

[ABDUL] I'm telling you,
all the new immigrants

from Lebanon, they have it
so much easier than we did.

They go to the top right away.

Like that Amal Clooney.

She's not exactly a new immigrant, Dad.

Think she went to NYU.

Does this really work?

Yeah. It can read your
glucose values in real time.

Why do you have to change
it every two weeks?

That's so inconvenient.

Or you could just go back

to pricking your finger once a day.

[SIGHS]

[DEVICE BEEPING]

Okay. You're good.

I have this customer

- who's a doctor.
- Mm-hmm.

Have I told you about him?

You have, but he's not a doctor.

He's a physician's assistant.

Here, there is no difference.

There is, in fact.

He can write prescriptions.

What about him?

He says, in America,

there's no art left to medicine.

It's basically just machines
doing the diagnosing.

In a few years, there will be
no need for surgeons anymore.

A robot will do your job.

Things to think about.

How's the Prius working out?

It's a good car, right?

Ah...

You don't like it?

Yeah, sure, I like that it saves gas,

but sometimes I want something

with a little bit more
zip, you know. Power.

Especially here in L.A., you know.

The bastards, they cut
me off all the time.

What can I do?

I got this little putt-putt car.

Yeah, what did you want, Dad? A Porsche?

[ABDUL] Hey. What's with the tone?

You asked, I told you.

- Why are you upset?
- I'm not upset.

He's not upset. You're the
one who sounds upset.

- [ABDUL] I am not upset.
- [PRIYA] Why can't you be

more thankful to Vik
for taking care of us?

[ABDUL] Of course I am thankful.

He knows that.

I'm just saying, maybe we should

have better communication.

Look.

Speaking of communication,

there are a few details
I want to go over.

First, um, about my life insurance.

You should know, it's
about a million dollars,

and you guys are the beneficiaries.

[CLEARS THROAT SOFTLY]

I've kept my overhead pretty low

for most of my life.

Until you met Helen.

So I've got decent savings,

all of which will go to you.

Um, also...

before I get too sick,

I will make sure...

What...

Why do you have to be so cruel, Vikram?

- So heartless.
- What?

We all heard what Helen said.

Do you think we're deaf?

And now you have to go
and rub it in our faces?

[MACHINERY CLANKING AND WHIRRING]

Listen, Ma.

Helen and I are...

We're working on having a baby.

A grandchild.

For you and Baba.

Helen is too old to have a baby.

No, actually,

there are a lot of new treatments now.

Women are having children
well into their s.

And we've been seeing a
fertility doctor for weeks.

Hmm? Hmm?

[MACHINERY BEEPING]

[INDISTINCT ANNOUNCEMENT OVER INTERCOM]

[QUIET, ATMOSPHERIC MUSIC]

- How is she? Is everything okay?
- The surgery went very smoothly.

Now, Jenny's recovering.

You should be able to see
her in about an hour.

[SIGHS, CHUCKLES]

- Thank God.
- Thank you.

Let's sit, talk about next steps.

[CLEARS THROAT]

Now, I did find tumors,

which we are sending away for tests.

Wait. What does that mean?

You-you said everything went well.

Well, until we get the results back,

there's no way of knowing

whether they're malignant or benign.

M-Malignant meaning what?

Malignant meaning cancer?

We really don't know.

But I'm going to be honest with you.

Jenny could have liver cancer.

Now, I stress "could,"

- because there's...
- No!

[SOBBING]

Even if the tests confirm malignancy,

there are lots of good options.

- No, no, no!
- Dr. Mattu in pediatric oncology

is probably the best in the country.

- Honey.
- No!

We'll set you up with a
consultation immediately,

just in case, so you
understand the options.

If this is worst-case scenario,

these cancers...

No! No!

- No, no.
- Honey...

- Please!
- These cancers...

can be very specifically
targeted nowadays.

[SOBBING CONTINUES]

It's not fair!

She's just a little girl!

Honey, the doctor's saying
they don't know yet.

[SOBBING CONTINUES]

Mr. Rodriguez,

our social worker, he
is on the premises.

No! No!

[SOBBING CONTINUES]

No, no!

No!

Excuse me.

No! Please!

[MACHINERY BEEPING]

Have you been keeping
up on the injections?

Yes, I have.

Hopefully, this will all be worth it.

Let's take a look at those follicles.

[HELEN] Success?

Why don't you get dressed,

and we'll meet in my office
and discuss next steps.

[KEYLESS LOCK CHIRPS]

I'm sorry.

Please, don't apologize.

- It's not your fault.
- Actually, it is.

Stop.

- Because of your age?
- No.

I haven't been doing the sh*ts.

- What do you mean?
- What I just said.

You haven't been injecting yourself?

No. Not all the time.

Not as much as I'm supposed to be.

Helen.

This is costing us grand.

I-I know.

- I don't understand.
- Well, I can't do it alone.

You're not doing it alone.
I'm right here.

- I left work to be here.
- That's not what I mean.

Vik, a child is a lot of work.

I want to give you what you want...

I really do... But I can't

go through that again if
you're not gonna be here.

You f*cking lied to me.

I know. I'm sorry.

I told my parents we were having a baby.

I don't know what to
do about your parents.

- What is wrong with you?!
- If you want me

to have your baby, you
have to at least try

to be here with me while I do it.

Every single day, your odds

of b*ating this thing get less and less.

We cannot waste any more time.

We have to make some choices.

I gotta get back to work.

- No, you don't.
- Yes, I do.

[JENNY'S MOTHER] How is
she? Is everything okay?

[HELEN] Well, I can't do it alone.

Afternoon, Dr. Ullah. Busy day?

They all are.

[PRIYA] Helen is too old to have a baby.

[HELEN] I haven't been doing the sh*ts.

[ABDUL] Why do you have
to be so cruel, Vikram?

- [HELEN] Success?
- [ABDUL] So heartless.

[HELEN] We cannot waste any more time.

You have to at least try to be
here with me while I do it.

- Have your parents said anything?
- Dr. Ullah.

- [JENNY'S MOTHER SOBBING]
- Everything okay?

She's just a little girl!

Yeah, uh...

[SOBBING CONTINUES]

I'm such an idiot.

I forgot, I have a meeting downtown.

Okay.

Drive safely.

[CELL PHONE RINGING]

[RINGING STOPS]

[HORNS HONKING]

[TIRES SQUEAL]

How much is that Porsche?

That's the Turbo S Cabriolet.

horsepower, zero
to in . seconds,

and a . -liter engine with
very little turbo lag.

So, how much?

K.

You take American Express?

Do you want to take it
for a test drive, sir?

Nah.

Whew.

I just like it.

[LAUGHS]

[SIERRA] Vik?

What are you doing?

Hey, Sierra.

Actually, I don't know
if you've noticed this,

but, uh, most Fridays, I end
up moving your trash cans

back up into your driveway
because you somehow

don't get around to doing it before I...

Oh, my God. Is that your car?

[CELL PHONE RINGING]

Yeah. I just got it.

You know, if you ever want to see

what it can really do, I know
the best road in Malibu.

[RINGING STOPS]

How about now?

♪ "Come With Me" by Gold Star ♪

♪♪♪

["COME WITH ME" CONTINUES OVER STEREO]

♪ Chelsea Station ♪

Mmm.

♪ In ripped black ♪

♪ Friday night at : ... ♪

Apparently, this road is haunted.

No way.

Yeah.

The Indians considered
it forbidden ground.

They wouldn't set foot here.

And then, during the Great
Depression, there were

these cultists who lived here,

and they were known for wearing
black robes and hoods,

and they would tie young boys to crosses

and b*at them to death.

That's all?

And then, years later,

there was an insane
asylum, like, right here.

- Come on.
- It's true.

♪ And the silver moonlight ♪

♪ By an old bureau hall... ♪

I have a question for you.

Okay.

I need the advice of a grown man.

sh**t.

Okay, so...

I've been hooking up with this guy.

It's casual.

He's my age.

He's good-looking enough.

He's a model, actually.

But he's so immature.

And he sucks in bed.

I mean, his d*ck doesn't
even get completely hard,

and then he just finishes so quickly,

I don't even get a chance to come.

And I love to come.

♪♪♪

So you want me to recommend a urologist?

I just want to know what's
wrong with guys my age.

I mean, how... how old were you
when you learned how to f*ck?

- [VIK LAUGHS]
- I mean, like...

like, really f*ck.

♪♪♪

I have an idea.

Let's see how fast this
car can really go.

I want to get home, and I want to drink.

You want to drink?

♪♪♪

What seems to be the problem, Officer?

House burning down?

Friend here in labor?

No, Officer.

Okay, then you want to explain

what the f*ck was going on back there?

Yeah, we were just having a good time.

Got a little out of control.

Okay, well, your good time
almost got you k*lled today.

[CHUCKLES QUIETLY]

Oh, you think that's funny.

No. No, it's just, um...

I have stage four cancer, so
I'll be dead soon anyway.

That's not the first time
I've heard that, buddy.

So write me a ticket, then.

Okay.

Uh, sorry about the mess.

I live with kids.

This is pristine.

Is it your birthday?

Uh, yeah, a couple days ago.

- Well, happy birthday.
- Yeah.

Twenty-nine, no kids,
not married, no career.

Just... really k*lling it.

Looks like you had a party.

Uh, no.

This is all from my mom.

She's on a sh**t in Zanzibar.

Further away she gets,
the more sh*t she sends.

At least it's nice sh*t.

Uh, that... that is swag, actually.

"From your friends at Sony.

Happy wrap."

So, how long have you known you're sick?

[CLEARS THROAT]

A few weeks.

What kind of cancer?

Pancreatic.

That's a bad one, isn't it?

You want to sit down?

You, um... you look good.

Don't people who have cancer

usually lose their hair from the chemo?

[SIGHS]

I'm not getting chemo.

Why not?

It's not going to work.

And it'll make the time I
have left a total nightmare.

Drink.

I'm gonna open another bottle.

Where are you from, Vik?

I'm from here.

My dad's from Lebanon,

and my mom's from Mumbai.

Do they know?

I'm not sure.

What do you mean?

I told them,

but...

they won't hear that I'm sick.

Like, literally.

They seem unable to process it.

And today, I heard myself

promising them that Helen
was going to have my baby.

Really?

For them.

Not for me.

Not for her.

For them.

So I don't fail them completely.

You know, I think...

I think, when you have
immigrant parents,

you end up being responsible for them.

Like, you're the parent.

Yeah, I know that feeling.

I was the perfect immigrant son.

But I made a deal with myself...

long time ago.

I said, okay, I will become a doctor

because that's what they want.

And I will support them,

and I will make them proud.

I'll even move back to L.A.

so I can take care of
them when they're old,

but I will not marry for them.

And I will not have children for them.

I will do all that stuff on my time.

Not theirs.

And then I met this woman.

And she already had kids, and...

I think there was a part of me that...

liked that, you know?

Because I knew it was gonna
drive them f*cking crazy.

Everything...

Everything I've done

has either been for

or in reaction to them.

I'm years old.

I'm at the top of my profession.

I'm going to die.

And I haven't really made a
single choice for myself.

[SOBBING]

Guess what my mother's
favorite thing about me is.

What?

My skin.

Your skin?

Yeah, my skin.

She's obsessed with it.

Whenever I see her, she's always

touching it or pinching it.

She will never forgive me for
being younger than she is.

[QUIET, ATMOSPHERIC MUSIC]

[GRUNTS, PANTS]

[STARTS ENGINE]

[QUIET, AMBIENT MUSIC]

Hey.

Help you?

Yeah, maybe.

I mean, it's probably a lost cause,

but I'm trying to figure
out who made this board,

and I think it came from
around here in Morro Bay.

Oh.

- You mind?
- Nope. Go ahead.

Wow.

It's beautiful.

Thank you. It's my father's.

Hey, Joe.

You come take a look at this?

[MAN WHISTLES]

- Hey. I'm Cole.
- Joey.

Nice to meet you, Joey.

Let me see this.

Well, this is original, huh?

We see a, uh, lot of wooden kit boards,

but not many like this.

You, uh... you selling?

No, no. Just trying to
figure out who made it.

From around here?

Well, could be anybody.

Definitely s, though.

You got the classic nose
and the swallow tail,

a single fin, uh...

heavy varnish.

Not too many surf shops back then.

Just a bunch of individual shapers

working out of garages, but...

whoever made it had a good touch.

I recognize this.

It's not from a surf shop,
though. It's a, um...

this art gallery a couple blocks over.

- Well, good luck.
- Thank you.

Let me know what you come up with.

Will do.

Hello. Can I help you?

Gabriel.

Excuse me?

I'm... I'm so sorry.

You just...

You just look so much like
someone I used to know.

Gabriel Lockhart.

Yes.

I'm sorry. I...

I'm his son.

My name is Cole.

Well...

this is unexpected.

Nice to meet you, Cole.

Uh, I'm Nan.

- Is this your gallery?
- It is.

Maybe you can help me with something.

This is my father's board,

and it has the same symbol on it.

Oh, my God.

May I?

Sure.

Look at this.

Does it still float?

Perfectly.

[CHUCKLES]

I had no idea what I was doing.

I was so young.

You made this board?

I did.

You're a shaper?

Not exactly.

This was the only
surfboard I ever carved.

So...

what brings you to Morro Bay, Cole?

I'm not sure exactly.

From...?

- Montauk.
- Montauk.

[CHUCKLES]

Amazing.

Hi there.

Uh, I'll just be a sec.

Um, how long are you in town?

I don't know, really.

I mean, I just got here, so...

Why don't you come by tonight?

I host a weekly salon.

If you're anything

like your father,

I think you'd like it.

Sure.

I'm so glad you found me, Cole.

Thank you.

I'm sorry.

This piece over here is the
one you had your eye on?

[QUIET CHATTER]

[NAN] If these pellets are
just compressed protein,

why deplete the ocean for them?

Now, as an entrepreneur, John...

This is over my head.

[NAN] No, it is not.

Sit up and listen.

[LAUGHTER]

Oh, look. There he is.

Everyone, here stands
a gift from the past.

The son of a man I used to know.

You know, they say

time moves in a straight line,

but really, it moves in circles.

I'm so glad you made it.

Thanks for the invite.

Yep. Oh, thank you.

Very nice.

Nice place you got here.

It absorbs people.

That's what I love about it.

[QUIET CHATTER, LAUGHTER]

That's my protégée, Delphine.

Isn't she beautiful?

I'm married.

[LAUGHS]

So, being married prevents you

from forming an opinion
about a beautiful woman?

No, not at all.

Here.

Whoa. Hey, what are you doing?

It's okay.

Poor guy. You're all bound up.

Take a breath.

A deep one.

Go ahead. It's not gonna k*ll you.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

And let it out slowly.

[EXHALES SLOWLY]

Better?

What was your relationship to my father?

We were lovers.

For how long?

Oh, a few months.

It was the late ' s.

Everyone loved someone.

That summer, I loved your father.

And then?

Nothing.

He went home.

I met someone else. Life moved on.

What about the surfboard?

You know what Freud said.

Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.

Delphine.

This is Cole.

Cole, this is Delphine.

Hi, Cole.

Hi.

Want some?

Sure.

Oh, sh*t.

[QUIET, RELAXING MUSIC PLAYING]

So...

So?

You want to tell me about it?

Tell you about what?

No one drives all the
way across the country

just to see about a surfboard.

What's going on in your marriage?

Luisa and I are working
through some things.

Your father was also

going through a hard
time in his marriage

when he got here.

How long was he here for?

Not long.

Four or five months.

And the two of you were together?

For a while, yes.

[CHUCKLING]

I never really thought he
got out of Montauk much.

Oh, no, he traveled quite a bit.

I think.

Or he wanted to.

I can't remember. I just remember a...

great, big, adventurous soul.

I wouldn't describe him as adventurous.

Okay.

How would you describe him?

Drunk.

Abusive.

Emotionally absent.

Chronically depressed.

Wow.

Doesn't sound like the
Gabriel I knew at all.

How is your mother?

Cherry is fine.

Cherry's good, actually.

Are they still together?

[CHUCKLES]

No, he's dead, Nan.

What?

He's dead.

I'm sorry. I figured you
would've known that.

When?

Years ago.

I was a little boy.

Oh, my God.

Wow, Gabriel.

[TAKING DEEP BREATHS]

I...

I need some air, love. Um...

when you're ready to go to bed,

Delphine will show you to your room.

You an artist, too?

I paint.

Where you from?

Idaho.

Idaho?

Oh, man.

How long you been out here?

I met Nan at a trade show

maybe... five years ago?

And followed her to California to study.

She lets me stay for free as
long as I help out a bit.

[BOTH CHUCKLE QUIETLY]

It gets bright in here in the mornings.

Let the shower run for a minute.

It takes a little while
for it to get hot.

Okay. Thank you.

[CHUCKLES]

What are you doing?

I come with the room.

What kind of game are you playing here?

I'm married.

Okay.

Look, I don't know who you are,

and I don't know what this place is,

but I came here to find out why
my father came to California,

- not to cheat on my wife.
- Okay, then don't.

Well, I'm trying not to, but
it's a little difficult

when you got a half-naked
woman in your bed.

Ask her to leave.

I'm sure she was just trying to help.

You seem wound so tight, Cole.

To help?

I don't need that kind of help.

I can't believe I have to
even explain this to you.

Maybe I shouldn't be surprised, though.

I mean, you slept with my
father when he was married,

so clearly marriage isn't that
much of a problem to you.

Actually, your father's marriage
was my biggest problem.

What is that supposed to mean?

What is this? A love letter?

Yes.

I have a whole box of them.

When did he write all those?

We wrote to each other on and off

after he left Morro Bay.

For how long?

About ten years.

I thought you said it
was a brief affair.

I lied.

I can't believe he's dead.

There was a time I thought
he was my be'shert.

Do you know what that word means?

It means soul mate.

My destiny.

Look.

You see?

"N"...

"G."

That surfboard was his favorite thing.

We met down at the beach.

I'd seen him around town before, but...

he was such a loner.

He always kept to himself.

I asked him if I could
take pictures of him.

He was...

so handsome, so...

striking.

After that first night,
we were never apart

for four months.

He called me "Wild Eyes."

He said he didn't know women
like me existed in the world.

I'll show you.

"You asked me what I want

from you, my love.

My answer is simple.

First, your mind.

Then your body.

Then your soul."

So, why'd he leave?

Cherry was pregnant.

She wrote that if he didn't come home,

she would k*ll herself.

What?

So he left.

[CHUCKLES QUIETLY]

And then what? He just stopped writing?

No, but his letters

became more sad, bitter.

They kept having more
kids, he felt trapped,

and the thought of me was
just making him miserable.

So I devised a plan,

a way to extract me from
his heart and his head.

To forget me once and for all.

An exorcism of sorts.

Did it work?

It did.

How do you know that?

Because the last task,

the final instruction,
if he finally knew

he was no longer in love with me,

was to send my letters back.

All of them.

And here they are.

I'm sorry, Nan.

Don't be, sweetheart.

We wanted different things.

I have no regrets.

Don't worry.

Neither did he.

[LINE RINGING]

[ALISON] You've reached the
voice mail of Alison and...

[JOANIE] Joanie!

[ALISON] We can't get to
the phone right now so...

f*ck.

[SIGHS]

[WIND WHISTLING]

[WAVES CRASHING]

[CAMERA CLICKING]

How did the exorcism work?

I sent your father five final letters,

one at a time.

Each one with a task.

Every time he completed a task,

I sent him another.

Read this.

"Find my scent in nature."

Delphine will help you.

♪ I am not the only traveler ♪

♪ Who has not repaid his debt ♪

♪ I've been searching for a trail ♪

♪ To follow again ♪

♪ Take me back ♪

♪ To the night we met ♪

♪ And then I can ♪

♪ Tell myself ♪

♪ What the hell I'm supposed to do ♪

♪ And then I can tell myself ♪

♪ Not to ride along... ♪

"Task two.

Write down everything you love about me,

and then wrap the words
around my scent."

I love that she always
calls me on my sh*t.

I love how smart she is.

I love how she deals with grief head-on.

When our boy d*ed...

I couldn't admit my own grief, so...

I made her carry the
burden for the both of us.

I made her feel like
she was the weak one.

I made her feel like she was going crazy

so I wouldn't lose my own mind.

♪ I had all and then most of you ♪

♪ Some and now none of you ♪

♪ Take me back ♪

♪ To the night we met... ♪

"Number three. Build a pyre.

Imbue each stone with
something you hate about me.

Add the smell and the things you love.

And then set it all ablaze."

I hate how unforgiving you are.

I hate that you never told
me how unhappy you were.

I hate that you ran off
with Noah f*cking Solloway.

And I hate what shitty
taste you have in men.

That you are always picking
guys who don't deserve you.

I hate that you gave up on me.

I hate that I can't give up on you.

What do you want?

Before you do this, you need
to state your intention.

I want to be free of you.

♪ I had all and then most of you ♪

♪ Some and now none of you ♪

♪ Take me back to the night we met ♪

♪ I don't know what I'm supposed to do ♪

♪ Haunted by the ghost of you ♪

♪ Oh, take me back to the night we met ♪

♪ When the night ♪

♪ Was full of terrors ♪

♪ And your eyes ♪

♪ Were filled with tears ♪

♪ When you had not touched me yet ♪

♪ Oh, take me back ♪

♪ To the night we met ♪

♪ I had all and then most of you ♪

♪ Some and now none of you ♪

Didn't work.

I feel worse.

I'm sorry.

It worked on your dad.

I have to go home.

Back to your wife?

Do you want to see the final letter?

Sure.

"Now you've finished all four tasks,

and so the exorcism is complete.

If it worked...

...and you no longer love me,

send me these letters back so I know.

I remain yours... Mind, body and soul.

Nan."

[SIGHS]

Nan, my dad didn't send
these letters to you.

What do you mean?

It's postmarked two years after he d*ed.

I don't understand.

I think my mom found those letters.

And then read them, and
then sent them to you,

hoping you'd think they'd come from him.

All this time, I...

I thought he didn't love me anymore.

How did he die?

He hung himself on my tenth birthday.

Couple weeks after you
sent that last one.

[SOBS]

♪ "About Today" by The National ♪

[DELPHINE] Cole.

She wants you to take this with you.

Where are you going?

I'm going home.

Back to your wife?

No.

I tried to make it work with my wife.

She is a wonderful woman,
and she deserves more

than somebody who's just half there,

and the truth is I'm in
love with somebody else.

And I have tried for years
to get her out of my mind,

but it just never
works, and I don't want

to wake up in ten years
and want to k*ll myself

'cause I was just trying
to do the right thing.

So I'm going home.

I'm gonna tell her how I feel.

♪ What could I say? ♪

What?

She's lucky, whoever she is.

♪ I was far away... ♪

Delphine.

I'm sorry about last night.

Don't be. I wanted that.

What are you doing here?

Seriously, you're beautiful,
you're smart, you're talented.

You could do whatever you want to do,

be with whoever you want to be with.

You don't have to be Nan's proxy
for the rest of your life.

I like being her proxy.

I think Nan's a genius.

♪ Are you awake? ♪

♪ Yeah, I'm right here... ♪

Take care of your mind, body and soul.

You, too.

♪ About today ♪

♪ How close am I ♪

♪ To losing you? ♪

♪ How close am I ♪

Thanks, Dad.

♪ To losing? ♪