05x07 - Your Girl Jazz Has A Boyfriend!

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Previously on "I am jazz"...

-You ready for your reading? -Yes.

Love is something I've been asking for a while.

I haven't really ever been in a relationship.

I haven't even had my first kiss.

Jazz: knowing that I'm gonna be in the body

That I've always wanted to be in

Makes it more of a possibility sooner than later.

-Be strong in there, all right? -Yeah.

Dr. Ting: can we have some local?

Jazz: the surgery was going so excellent,

But now, all of the sudden, it just, like, changed.

I'm just thinking about when we first came to this hospital,

How happy and excited I was.jeanette: I know.

Greg? Things went really bad.

He was bleeding.

Jeanette: my mom calls, crying.

My dad is fighting for his life.

[ Crying ] you need to be there for my mom.

Greg: okay. I will. I'll come.

This is a lot of progress.

As far as going home, I mean, I think you can go now.

She's healing, but we're not out of the woods yet.

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Greg: do we have any orange juice to go with breakfast?

-Kombucha. -Okay.

-Who's making the toast? -I'm making toast.

Jazz: I've been back home from new york for three weeks

Recovering and healing from the two surgeries that I've had.

This process has been challenging and exhausting.

We've experienced so many complications,

But it's been worth it.

I definitely feel a new level of confidence.

It feels amazing to be in the body that I've always wanted.

Jazz: mom, nemo's missing.

Did you shake treats?

-No. -Well...

It's in the basket to the right of the front door.

There's treats.

Jazz: I have no idea how long this recovery is gonna take.

We have been sending dr. Ting and dr. Bowers progress photos,

And I have an upcoming call with dr. Bowers.

This call is really important because even though I'm healing,

At this stage, anything could still go wrong.

Has anybody seen nemo? He's missing.

He responds to this.

Jeanette: so much has happened

Since leaving new york three weeks ago.

We took jazz to the philadelphia trans wellness conference,

And she was in a wheelchair, and that was just overwhelming.

Meanwhile, my dad is in recovery still from his heart procedure.

And then I come home, and I have a full house here

Because ari has moved back home.

Ari being home means she wants her room back,

Which means sander is going back into the boys' room

And living with griffen, which is not a good thing

Because they are at odds with each other.

Oh, my god. Greg, this is getting worse.

-What's getting worse? -The ceiling falling in.

Jeanette: I'm exhausted at this point.

I am so over the summer.

I'm done, and I want it to be the fall.

Hey, the queen is here.

Why are there donuts here?

Jeanette: we're using them to lure you out of the bedroom

Since you don't come out of the bedroom.

All right.

Well, I should be taking it easy after surgery.

When you do think you'll be allowed to ride the bike?

Oh, I don't know.

Riding a bike is, like, a very vag*na-involved activity.

Jazz, griffen hasn't heard anything about philly.

He doesn't know anything.

Well, I did meet up with someone in philly.

-Name? -A boy.

[ Laughing ] you said a boy.

There's a boy in the picture now.

-What's his name? -Take a guess.

Jazz: his name's ahmir.

I don't get it.

I've been in college for two years,

And I can't even find a girlfriend,

But she just gets out of surgery and comes right out.

It makes me question my game.

Jazz: well, basically, what happened was,

I created a new e-mail address for my youtube subscribers.

The day I created the new e-mail address,

I received this e-mail from this guy,

And I was interested in the message he sent.

Something compelled me to reply,

And he just seemed very sincere in the message,

And it all just blossomed from there.

We kept talking, and he just seemed like a really good guy,

And one of his instagram photos was tagged in west philadelphia,

And I'm like, "do you live in philly?"

And he's like, "yeah." And I'm like, "oh, my god.

I'm going to philly, like, tomorrow."

So get to the point.

Okay, so, in philly, we ended up meeting up together.

He's very sweet, but, like,

Jazz is diving right into this quickly.

Jazz has talked about being in love for so long,

And right after her surgery, she's found a boy.

It seemed like it happened overnight,

And we're all kind of, like, shocked.

If jazz wants to develop a relationship with somebody,

That's great.

But do I have concerns? Yeah.

I mean, this is somebody that's not from here.

You know, they met on the internet,

And so, you know, I have my reservations about it.

So you met up with a guy that messaged you.

Then you facetimed him,

And then you met up with him in philly?

So the real question is, is this, like, a one-time thing,

Or do you want to see him again?

Jazz: I mean, we're still talking.

Jazz has never really gotten past

The first or second date with someone,

So it's really surprising to me

That she is so into this new guy, ahmir.

♪ Jazz has a boyfriend ♪

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There she is.

Guys, these donuts look so good!

Hi, girls.

Kaci and jay are my best friends,

And I haven't seen them since I've had the surgery,

And I want to be able to catch up with them in person

And tell them everything that went down.

I cannot believe jazz has a vag*na.

I mean, like, I never really noticed

That she didn't have one 'cause she's my best friend,

So I always saw her as, like, a normal girl,

But now that she has one,

I just see her so much happier than she was before.

I don't know. I feel bad 'cause I haven't

Been able to see you guys in a while.

I've already had two surgeries, and, like,

It's already been such a journey.

Can you explain why you got the second surgery?

'Cause I don't, like, fully understand why.

Okay, basically because all my stitches, like, came apart.

I woke up, and you could see flesh

And just, like, blood bubbles popping up.

All the stitches were coming apart,

And everything was just too tight,

So it was all breaking.

It was awful. It was so bad.

It's healing now. It's looking better.

Look. I mean, the scar...yeah, yeah.

...i have that on both sides. It's, like, crazy scar.

One side's healing, and then the other side,

It's just, like, that's where all the problems were,

On my right side.

It's just not healing as well as it should be.

So it's been -- it's been a lot.

Jazz: I am curious to hear what dr. Bowers

Is gonna say on this upcoming facetime.

Every part of this process has been unpredictable.

I know you told us about a guy you met,

But you didn't really tell us, like, how you met him

Or anything much about it.

Mm-hmm. So...ahmir.

[ Laughing ] I'm scared.

He's really cool. I like him a lot.

Makes me feel good about myself.

He's smart. He gives good advice.

I enjoy talking to him, and we hung out for, like,

A couple days at philly,

And we just got to like each other a lot.

That's crazy.

I cannot believe that she actually has a boyfriend.

Like, I've known her for so long,

The thought of even talking to a boy, she's like,

"No, why? Why would I do that?"

And now she has a boyfriend.

I'm just like, "girl, what?"

Just make sure you don't take it too fast.

Like, really, really get to know everything about him because...

Yeah, just take time.

Yeah. I don't know. I'll have to see.

I've never really done the whole relationship thing,

And it's just gonna be an experience.

Like, being transgender, it's also a big issue.

You have to have a guard up, always.

Like, jay and i, of course, have a guard up,

But with you, it's, like, extra.

As much as you are a normal girl,

Like, there's still...

-I'm not a normal girl. -...like, there's always that.

-I just feel... -And you have to worry, always.

Kaci: jazz getting into a relationship is harder

Because she is transgender.

Jazz is a normal girl, but people may not see that.

Kaci: we just want you to be safe.

Like, if he tries anything, we're gonna tag team him.

We'd be really mad. Like, we're...

Straight up, she said it.

We're gonna tag team him. He's not gonna like it.

So do you guys think I should invite ahmir here to florida?

-Yeah. -Yes.

Jazz: I really, really want to see ahmir again.

Last time I saw him was in philly,

And I was still healing and in a wheelchair,

And I just want to be able to hang out with him

Now that I'm more recovered.

You guys can meet him,

And we can fall in love in florida.

Oh, slow down. Slow down.

The second I said that, both of you were like, "wait."

[ Laughing ] he definitely has to go through us first.

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I came out to clean the pool.

I thought that's what you were doing.

Do people really care if the pool's not clean?

Absolutely.

There's leaves all over the pool.

The boys want to have a blowout end-of-summer party.

I'm ultimately okay with it

Because I think this is a good opportunity for them

To put their differences aside

And go back to school on a positive note.

I heard you found us a waterslide?

I did. I think it could go right here.

I don't think it'll be too fast. People dive on in.

It's gonna be sick.

Sander: nothing has really changed in mine and griffen's relationship.

We've kind of put our differences aside

And focused on jazz and our grandpa

And haven't had really any time to talk

About anything that's going on between us.

Isn't it crazy, though, that we're about to be juniors?

It's a huge year.

So it is a huge year for hanging out with alexa

Or hanging out with me?

I'm gonna hang out with you,

And I'm gonna hang out with alexa.

Sander and I have made numerous attempts

To relieve the tension between us,

And it hasn't really worked.

Why can't you hang out with me?

We talk things out. We fight things out...

You want to punch me in the face? Here.

...bicker things out.

I guess I've matured a little bit, and...

And I haven't?

And we don't really get anywhere.

I think we just need to look each other eye-to-eye,

Talk face-to-face, find the balance

In our relationship that we used to have.

Oh, it's just that easy.

What do you want from me?

When I say that you make me feel like

I really don't matter, I mean it.

My summer has been a roller coaster and a half.

I thought --both of our summers have.

But in general...

Two of the most important people in our lives had surgery.

What I'm saying is, I felt like

I couldn't go to jazz to talk to.

I couldn't go to mom to talk to because mom's stressing.

The one person that I've always had to open up to things

When it comes to family during the most difficult summer

For both of us was you,

And I haven't been able to come to you about anything.

I don't have someone to tell my feelings to.

You were always that person.

I just don't really think you're there for me anymore.

I've been struggling, straight-up, with all this.

Well, sometimes I don't realize things.

Well, it's about time you start realizing things.

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Jazz: ahmir and I keep in touch every single day.

We either text, or some days we facetime.

We have a lot in common.

We are both artistic.

We both think a lot and are always in our heads.

He just gets me, and I get him.

[ Cellphone rings ]

Helloooo.

Jazz: and I just can't stop smiling.

Ahmir, ahmir, on the wall.

[ Cellphone rings ]

Helloooo.

Ahmir, ahmir, on the wall,

Who is the most yellow of them all?

Nice yellow shirt.

So you said you're gonna draw me?

What are you gonna draw me?

Like, with pencil?yeah.

Jazz: ahmir and I met in philly

At the transgender health conference.

He's cisgender. And since then,

We've just kind of formed this bond.

We are talking and keeping in touch every single day.

You love when I call you your girl.

When you say that you're my girl, yeah.

You're my boy.

Jazz: it's just easy to talk to him.

Just got lucky.

You got lucky.

I melted right then and there.

Aw. I made you melt?

[ Laughs ]

When we met in philly, it was just, like, all exciting

For, like, just a short period of time.

We were, like, just starting to build momentum,

And then it was like, "all right. Bye.

Got to go." [ Laughs ]

Right.

I can't wait till you come down to florida,

And then we could create art together

And just chill and relax and pick up where we left off.

I want to convince my dad to, like, let you stay in the house,

But he would be, like, flipping out

'Cause he thinks I'm gonna be, like, some sexual being,

But you know my libido's like a zero out of .

I like the pace we're going at now.

-Okay, good. -There's nothing wrong with it.

Me, too.

I mean, I'm willing to try sexual things, oh, oh...

[ Laughing ] no, I'm kidding.

Jazz: because this is my first real interest in a boy,

I want to know what all of the hype is about.

It's just that, right now,

I don't have those sexual desires and instincts,

But I'm excited to figure it out.

All right. Well...

I really do need to get you down here in florida,

And then you could see your girl.

Yeah.

I'd be there right now if I could.

I'll try to talk to my parents, figure out

When we could get you down here 'cause if my dad likes you,

Maybe he'll let you stay here for a little while.

We'll make it happen. We'll make it work.

Jazz: I am so excited. I want to make that happen.

However, I am worried that my parents may not want him

To come down because we just formed this relationship,

And they don't really know him,

And it's kind of weird, so I don't know.

I'm just hoping my parents don't say no.

All right. I'm gonna go.

All right.

-Bye. -Goodbye.

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Jeanette: the house is a wreck.

The air conditioning's broken, and my cats have fleas.

Greg: leo! Why do you have fleas?

Those poor girls have to sleep down here.

Jazz's friends are having a sleepover.

Don't sweat the small stuff.

What are we supposed to do about the big stuff?

'Cause we don't have any small stuff.

I don't think you understand.

Well, it says, "don't sweat the small stuff,

And it'sallsmall stuff."

I would take that book and burn it.

When greg says, "don't sweat the small stuff,"

I'm not sure what he's referring to

Because there was nothing small about this summer.

Having been alone with jazz right after her surgery

And being her main caretaker -- it took a major toll on me.

What do you mean, "it's all small stuff"?

You got to chillax.

No!

-Everything gets resolved. -No.

I've just been through the worst.

Hey! Look what the cat brought in.

Oh, yeah. The air conditioning is not working upstairs.

Anyway, I actually came down here

'Cause I wanted to talk to you guys about something.

You know how I'm talking to ahmir?

Jeanette: maybe you should sit down, greg.

Okay.

You have my undivided attention.

So I kind of have some big news.

Ahmir and I -- we kind of made it official today.

What does that mean? You made what official?

Your girl got a boyfriend. He asked me.

He's like, "are you my girlfriend?"

Like, he asked me like that, and I'm like, "I don't know.

Do you want to be?" And then I asked him.

I'm like, "want to be my boyfriend?"

And then he's like, "sure."

I really think we're building something special.

I didn't expect that to happen to me,

Like, right after surgery,

But with him, something just feels right.

Jeanette: jazz is really into this guy.

I've never seen her actually like a boy.

And I know she's feeling better about herself.

She feels whole now, and I think that's what made it

So easy for her to accept somebody into her life.

Jazz: his dad lives in fort lauderdale,

So I want him to come down to florida,

And he might be here a lot at the house hanging out with me.

Is that cool?

Do you feel like you're diving in

A little too deep on a first real relationship?

Just 'cause he's flying down here doesn't mean

We're diving in or, like, it's a huge step.

Can I ask some questions about him?

Yeah.

He lives in philadelphia, right?

Lives in philadelphia.

And how old is he?he's .

Did he graduate high school?

Yes.

Is he working right now?

No.

Is he in college right now?

No.

I'm trying to motivate him to go to college, though.

Admittedly, I'm not sure where the commonality is

And what's making this click so positively for jazz,

But, ultimately, we can't stop him from coming to florida.

I mean, he's not sleeping here.

He's staying at his dad's house.

No, no. He doesn't have to sleep at the house, but maybe...

I mean...

What "maybe"? No, no.

No, some nights, would you ever let him sleep at the house?

No.

I think we're just gonna have to make sure

We have a couple house rules, like no sleeping over.

Okay, and no locking the door?

No locking the door. Make that a rule.

Okay, but the door is allowed to be closed,

And if it's closed, that usually is a sign of something.

No.

This is not our first rodeo.

We've been through this with ari.

We've been through this with sander.

We've been through this with griffen.

But this is different than the other three kids

Because, number one, you know, she's transgender.

Number two, she just had the surgery,

And, number three, ahmir is a stranger.

So, you know, as parents, you just are protective of that.

Any parent would be.

Plus, she's never had a boyfriend in a sexual way,

So this is new territory for us.

I don't know.

Like, even though I have a low libido

And I don't have those desires all the time,

I want to still be able to explore sexual things.

If I try it, and I like it,

Then maybe that'll create desire within me, you know?

What if I do it, and I'm like, "oh, yeah, that was amazing."

Hey, jazz.

What?tmi, actually.

I'm not saying I'm gonna have sex.

Jeanette: get a hotel room.

I'm not gonna have sex, guys.

Like, I'm waiting for marriage.

-Hey, jazz. -Yeah, you're not allowed to.

Aren't you in a healing process right now? I mean...

-You have to wait months. -I know.

But I still want to be able to, like, learn how to kiss

And do other things that people do in relationships.

What?

I just never heard these things come out of your mouth before.

Why? I could fall in love.

Jazz: my parents are fine with ahmir visiting,

And I am so ecstatic.

I can't wait to call ahmir and tell him the good news.

Greg: the upside of ahmir coming to florida is that

I get to meet the young man.

I'm curious to know what it is

That she finds so appealing and so interesting.

I'll give him the benefit of the doubt,

But I'll form my own opinions.

-Healing is coming along. -Yep.

It doesn't look like what I wanted to see.

Jazz: I try to stay positive,

But this news is just really devastating.

Greg: we are really anxious.

Ahmir's coming to town today.

He's here.

[ Squealing ] he's here!ahhhhhh!

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Jazz: all right. You guys want to set up the blow-up mattress?

-Sure. -Sure.

-Is that right? -That is so pathetic.

[ Laughter ]

-It is. -It sounds like it's dying.

Tonight, jojo, lynn, and noelle are staying over,

And this is the first time

That I have seen these girls since philly.

This is actually the most mobile I've seen you...

-Really? -...since you got the surgery.

Even in philly?

You don't have that, like, hunch to, like, your upper...

Yeah, you were waddling the entire time.

Yeah, I'm waddling less and less. Look.

Okay, that was a really bad idea.

I shouldn't have done that.

Before the sleepover tonight, jazz was just laying down,

Getting other people to get her drinks,

Just kind of lounging around all day,

And now I'm seeing her pick up her cat,

Spin in circles, jump over things,

And it's good to see her this mobile.

Today, I was like, "my penis," and then I was like,

"Oh! I don't have a penis."

I think about that.

You think about her not having a penis?

No, just, like, waking up the next day, you're just like,

"Wow. It's gone."

Is everyone here gonna get the surgery?

-Yes. -I'm getting it.

Next summer. -Next summer.

You don't have yours scheduled, or do you?

Not scheduled, but I have a consult next thursday

For breast augmentation.ooh!

How does it feel, taking hormones, though?

'Cause I always, like -- I've always wondered that.

Jazz: it's really weird.

One morning, you wake up, and you're just --

Every morning, I feel like I touched my boobs

To see if I felt anything, and one morning,

You'll just suddenly feel, like, this little seed.

It's like a mosquito bite, I call it.

You should feel that within the first month,

About a month out.

And, slowly, that pellet just grows and grows.

Now my pellet's, like, this big.

I can touch the whole pellet.

It's like a baseball.

Telling my friends about my transition is so weird

Because before my surgery, I talked to skylar

And listened to what she had to say about her experience.

Now my friends are listening to my experience.

It's weird being on the other end of it.

I can't wait till you guys all join the vag*na club.

Until then, I'm the supreme. -New group chat.

That's what we'll name the group chat --

The vag*na club. [ Laughs ]

Jazz: so I think my brothers are throwing

A pool party this weekend.

Are you guys down?

Lynn: oh, yeah. I'm always free. I'm down to go.

But you could only wear bikinis. That's the rule.

You're joking about the bikini parts, right?

Yes, I was joking. You don't have to wear a bikini.

Do you guys want to do the face masks or no?

Wait. Let's read the directions.

"How to use..."Put it on your face.

"Gently unfold mask and apply to clean skin.

This is so moist.

-Ugh. -My eyeballs are burning.

-What? -That's not...

[ Laughter ]

The mask is absolutely horrible,

But for comedic purposes, it was awesome.

Jazz: [ laughing ] oh, my god. It's foaming!

[ Laughter ]

It tastes so bad!

This is what real women look like.

I'm not happy.

My face is warm, and my lips are now numb.

But that means it's working.

I could not take any of us seriously.

[ Sighs ]

[ Laughter ]

How are your parents feeling about ahmir?

Jazz: he's coming to florida.

Jojo: I'm pretty sure, if I met someone off of the internet

And then announced that they're coming to my home,

My mom would have my neck in a choke hold.

If my family and parents don't feel comfortable with him here,

Then he'll have to go or something.

Jazz: I don't know how my parents are gonna react to him,

But I do want them to like him.

Are you afraid to do anything just 'cause

You're kind of, like, closed for business in some parts?

Well, obviously, I can't do too many sexual things

For a little while, but now that I have a vag*na,

Once I'm fully healed, like,

If I'm still in a relationship with ahmir,

And it's, like, serious enough, and we get to that point,

Your girl could be losing her virginity

Faster than she thought.

[ Laughing ] okay.

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Greg: I'm curious about ahmir.

I know that he contacted jazz.

Was it on instagram?

His brother had just showed him jazz's video.

So he had never tried on social media.

He didn't know who jazz jennings was.

And then he wrote to her.

Whatever he said worked.

[ Laughing ] I don't know.

Anyway, I just sent marci a picture of jazz's progress.

Okay.

So when we speak to her, she'll have a reference.

Jeanette: we've been sending pictures every few days

To dr. Bowers and dr. Ting of jazz's progress.

She is healing beautifully,

But one side seems to be healing quicker than the other side,

And I don't know what that means in the big picture.

-Hey. -Hi. Good morning.

Dr. Bowers: nice to see all those beautiful faces.

-Nice to see you, too. -How's it going?

Feeling good.

I've been walking around more.

I can walk without a waddle now.

Are you okay? Not getting bleeding?

No bleeding. It's perfectly fine in there.

That's fantastic.

So healing is coming along,

But it doesn't look like what I wanted to see,

And that has to change.

What do you think about

The actual vag*na area and the shape,

And how do you think that's gonna heal?

It's gonna need some work.

Does that require another skin graft?

It's gonna require another skin graft, yes --

One surgery, probably two,

To get it to be where we have more definition.

There is a timeline where we have to get the graft there

Before the scar becomes more difficult to cover,

And so their feeling is probably sooner rather than later.

How soon?

Could be as early as two or three weeks.

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Dr. Bowers: healing is coming along.

But it's gonna require another skin graft --

One surgery, probably two.

Jazz: how soon?

Could be as early as two or three weeks.

I feel like this is the never-ending journey.

Like, we just keep going and going,

And there's no destination.

Greg: my main concern is that we're gonna be back to square one.

If jazz is going back to have another skin graft,

That's really part of the initial procedure that was done.

And where will that skin graft be from?

Dr. Ting has talked about the back of the thigh, possibly,

But I'm always conscious about more scarring,

And then getting that graft to be something --

That's gonna be the second aspect of it.

Jazz: I knew it was gonna be a long process,

But I didn't think it was gonna go down like this,

And that I would need this third skin-graft operation.

You never know how hard or how painful

The recovery process will be.

I try to stay positive,

But this news is just really devastating.

So after all of that, how beautiful do you think

My vag*na will end up looking?

You know, it's a series of compromises from here,

But I have assurances that we can make that

Look much, much, much better.

-Okay. -But scar-free? No.

Yeah.

Jeanette: this skin-graft news has me worried

About a million different things.

I'm so not prepared to go back to new york

For another surgery.

I haven't even gotten over what happened the last time.

I'm not sure greg can appreciate how difficult

That month in new york was for jazz and me.

There's no way I'm doing this alone again.

How long do you expect

I would stay in the hospital for and in new york for?

My sense is that it will be

Possibly be another week in the area or two.

Yeah.

Jeanette: but if I'm feeling this way,

I can't imagine what jazz is feeling.

She's been through so much already,

And to have this happen, it's just not fair.

Like, give the kid a break.

All right. Thank you.

-Thank you, dr. Bowers. Bye. -All right.

-Thank you. -Oh, I love you so much.

I'm sorry that this has gone this way.

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[ Doorbell rings ]

Jack: are you gonna get the door, honey?

-Hello! -Hi.

Wow. Let me look at you.

-Hi. -Hiya.

Let me feel you. Oh!

The last time I saw grandpa jack and grandma jacky

Was when they left new york,

And that was before all of the complications

And the second surgery,

So I'm excited to catch up on life.

-You okay? -Good to see you guys.

-Oh, look at you. -You did get some color.

-Did i? -Yeah, you got a little. Yeah.

My dad's been in rehab for about two weeks now,

And he was in the hospital before that,

So I'm really happy he's finally back at home.

Did she get taller, or did I get shorter?

Jacky: I said the same thing.

I think you're still growing, or I'm shrinking.

How are you, jazz?

Jazz: I'm doing well.

Physically, I mean, I'm getting better and better

Every day for sure.

Externally, there's just a drastic improvement

From what it was.

The underlying plumbing was fine.

Everything works.

I have a clitoris that's functioning.

Good.

And I have a vag*na that is / inches deep.

Jack: I don't understand all of what's going on down there,

But I do know one thing.

The most important part of the surgery,

Establishing a vaginal track, is over with,

And the rest is all cosmetic, as far as I'm concerned.

She's really come along, and that's a great relief.

Jeanette: we facetimed with dr. Bowers,

And she said she needs to come back to new york

Within the next few weeks.

-Next few weeks? -To do what?

Another skin graft.

-How do you feel about it? -I don't feel good about it.

-Honestly, I started tearing up. -I'm tearing up.

And then, five minutes later, I was like, "okay."

Just another loop on the roller coaster.

You are unbelievably miraculous.

-Yeah, I feel the same way. -You just blow me away.

Jazz: enough of me.

I want to hear how you're doing and what happened to you.

Well, it's important to take care of atrial flutter.

What they do is, they put a catheter in your heart,

And in the process of putting the catheter in,

They penetrated my heart,

And I developed a pericardial effusion,

Which means blood was leaking around the heart.

What did they do?

They called in a cardiac surgeon.

He threw one patient off the table

That was gonna have surgery and put me on

Because I was an emergency.

And he took care of it in no time at all.

How close to death were you?

Pretty close.

Did you see the light or anything?

-There was no light. -It was black.

-It was lights out. -Okay.

Well, you know how some people say they, like,

See the light, and then they...

The only thing I had was black,

And I woke up in the intensive-care unit,

Wondering, "what the hell happened to me?"

If you're a physician, you've seen a lot of people

Spending their last days, but when it happens to you,

It's a completely different thing.

I feel more vulnerable than I ever did before.

That's the big "v" word.

That's what I lost -- my lack of vulnerability.

Jazz, you know, I'd like to take a little walk.

Would you like to give it a try and see what we can do?

-Yeah, sure. -Okay.

Jeanette: my dad absolutely loves jazz,

And I know he's been waiting to see her

Because it's been so long,

And I think it's good medicine for him

To finally have his youngest grandchild with him.

We could go, like, a pretty leisurely pace.

Let's both not push ourselves.

Let's, like -- when either of us needs to stop, we need to stop.

I'll take your advice, doctor.

[ Laughing ]

This is serious, what you went through.

Like, it was actually a near-death experience,

Basically, and it could have been the end.

Do you fear death?

I fear not being,

And I fear the pain and illness that may come with it.

Yeah.

It's not that I fear nothingness,

But I don't want it right now.

-Of course you don't. -I have more to experience.

But I want to know more about what's happening in your life.

Well, I don't know if mom has or hasn't told you yet,

But I have a boyfriend now.

[ Laughs ]

Somehow, during all of this, I got a boyfriend.

Isn't that weird?what's his name?

-Ahmir. -Ahmir.

And tell me about ahmir.

He's a really cool person.

How old is he, first of all?

He's .

All right.

That means he's finished school, high school.

-Mm-hmm. -And what's he doing?

He was gonna go to the air force,

But that's not even what he wanted to do,

So now he's not going to the air force.

What makes him special?

I mean, I think it's really cool that he was able to

Just not care that I was transgender.

I mean, most guys that I've talked to

Couldn't even overlook that basic fact about who I am.

Jack: I'm concerned about jazz having a boyfriend

Because she's transgender,

And I understand that her new so-called boyfriend is not.

She's a valedictorian of her class.

She's probably gonna get into most of the colleges

That she's interested in.

Jazz is gonna be very difficult

For any guy to keep up with.

Jack: my opinion may count for very little

Because there's nothing like your personal attraction

To someone versus what your grandparents think.

Emotionally, how do you feel about him?

Emotionally, no, I know I really like him a lot,

And I care about him.

I mean, I wouldn't say I'm in love with him,

But I don't know.

Him coming to florida -- maybe it could get to that stage.

Then I'd like to meet him.

It will be interesting to see who you are attracted to.

I want to know more about him.

You'll get to meet him.okay. Sure.

Do you want to go back inside, or...

Yeah, let's go back in.

I think we've had a good discussion.

It was great.

♪♪

Come golf with me.

[ Laughing ] I was gonna put my arm around you,

But you went the junior-high route

And grabbed my hand.yeah, I'm in junior high.

Greg and I -- we don't get date nights like we used to,

And we really need them so we can get away from the kids

And all their drama and just focus on ourselves,

Which we haven't really been able to do since new york.

I like this place.

Greg: I don't know if we've ever been here without the kids.

Let's not keep score.okay.

That way we don't have to worry about it.

-Yeah, let's not keep score. -Hit it.

Bong! All right.

Take your time. Ha!

You -- oh.

I'm trying to distract you.

[ Laughs ]

Mwah!

Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha.

So, I'm going back to new york.

Well...are you gonna come?

Oh, it sounds like you and jazz need to go back.

I would like to go if I could arrange it.

The problem is, I don't know how long you're gonna be there.

Jeanette: I never like confrontation,

But I really feel it's important for me

To let him know what went down this summer.

I want him to appreciate why I'm still kind of on edge.

I want him to know that I don't want to do this alone.

I just came through the most traumatic summer ever.

I don't want to do this without you again.

Like, I just came through the most traumatic summer ever.

I don't want to do this without you again.

Any time I left her, I felt guilty

'Cause I knew that the nurses weren't doing the wound care

And the bandage changing and all that.

-Yeah. -That was on me.

It really tested me as a human being and as a mom,

And, you know, I just felt so helpless at times,

And then I didn't have you, and you're the guy

I go to and cry to at the end of the night.

I didn't have that.

So I just kind of kept swallowing it.

I was about this close to just rock bottom.

I'm really glad that jeanette told me

That she was having some struggles

Dealing with things in new york with jazz.

I didn't really realize how much emotional support

Jeanette needed from me.

I know it was really hard on you.

I know it was difficult to have to do this without me there.

I don't know.

If there's gonna be another procedure,

I promise you I'll go.promise?

I just don't know how long I could stay

If there's gonna be a lengthy recovery.

I'll hold you to that promise.

Better not be a lengthy recovery.

I never, ever want to sleep in the hospital room

On a floor on the air mattress again.

Jeanette: I'm really satisfied that greg heard what I had to say.

I feel much better now that I let him know what I was feeling,

And I don't think he realized how much pain I was in.

You really were an amazing mom.

You stood by jazz.

You took care of her.

[ Laughing ] there's no crying in golf.

[ Laughing ] I don't know why...

Come on. Let's finish.

♪♪

[ Shrieking ]

Yo, whoever wants to be a part of the cannonball competition,

It's going down right now.

-Ugh! -Oh!

Sander: this end-of-the-summer party is going pretty well.

Everyone's having a good time.

I would say it's a big hit.

This party is popping off.

Me and griffen definitely have some tension,

But I won't let it stop me from having a good time.

Are you guys excited for school to start?

Yeah.

She's in gainesville right now.

They have sorority recruitment.

-Oh, already? -Yeah.

Hi, sander.

I can't swim.

My friends and I are crashing sander and griffen's pool party,

And the truth is, we just want the food.

[ Laughter ]

Oh!

Jazz: I'm hoping that this pool party

Gives sander and griffen the chance

To just talk to each other and realize

That they'll always have a special bond.

You're not more tan than me, though.

I never said I was.

But there's a definite chill in the air.

I think he just thinks that forever and always,

That we're just gonna be attached at the hip,

And I don't necessarily think that that's necessary.

I think getting our space a little bit is good.

And I think their friends are starting to notice it.

They need to sort it out.

Greg: I definitely didn't go into the party

Expecting to have a really important talk with my brother,

But it's time to end the bickering

And end the bs between sander and i.

Life is short, and I don't want our life

To be filled with us fighting, us bickering,

And it feels like it's slowly come to that.

After our talk the other day in the pool,

I didn't really get to say what I wanted to say.

I want to apologize because I've been kind of oblivious.

I might not have been there for you as much as you'd like,

Probably because I was in a new relationship.

Love is new to me. It's all brand-new.

I just didn't realize it was affecting you as much,

And I'm sorry for that,

But I do want to make the effort to be closer

And to be best friends like we always have been.

Sander: griffen seemed sincere,

And hopefully he becomes the brother

That I always used to love

And then just started not to like anymore

But now I love again.

Griffen: I'm very optimistic about our relationship going forward.

There was just a lot of tension, but I know it can improve,

And I know it will improve after having this talk with sander.

♪♪

-Where does this go? -Give me that.

The house must look perfect.

So I've met ahmir, but you haven't.

I can't wait to see the way you react.

We are really anxious.

Ahmir is coming to town today. We're gonna meet him.

Jeanette: you're definitely more anxious than I am.

I really hope that I like him.

Are you gonna grill him?

-Should I grill him? -Yeah.

You want me to make him feel uncomfortable?

No. I just want you to ask him a lot of questions.

You know, he lives in another state, far away.

This isn't normal, like, boy-next-door crap.

Well, we'll see.

She probably is gonna want to get out of here

As quick as possible.

No, I don't think she wants to be anywhere near you and me.

I'm interested to see how she is --

Whether she's, like...

I want to see if they're pdaing.

I want to see if they're like this or not.

We used to be pdas.

Jazz: hi.

I thought you were going to wait outside for ahmir.

Well, he's about to be here any second.

He's texting me when he's gonna come.

Are you anxious? Are you nervous?

No. You guys just be nice.

He's probably more nervous than you are or I am.

I'm sure he is.

Jazz: considering I've never had a boyfriend

To bring home to my parents,

I don't really know what to expect.

I think my dad is a lot harder to please than my mom.

I don't know. I just hope they both see him

The way I see him and that they like him.

Greg: did you shave your legs?

-No! -Have I ever?

-Oh! -Cannot believe you.

-That's just... -Are you kidding?

Look how much more disgusting yours are.

Look, mine are...are you trying to compete?

Yeah.[ Laughs ]

Yours are times more disgusting.

Oh, my goodness.

Since the surgery, she's a feminist.

At least she still uses deodorant, so that's good.

You're so immodest.

Just around, like, with him...

Look, mom, I'm wearing a bra.

That's the best you're gonna get from me.

[ Cellphone chimes ]

I just got a message.

He's here.

[ Squealing ] he's here!ahhhhhh!

Okay, bye.we're gonna act --

Go in here and act like nothing's happening.

♪♪

♪♪

Ahhhh!

Hey.

Jazz: when I see ahmir step out of the car, I get butterflies.

I'm nervous.

Like, it's such a weird situation,

And I'm like, "good to see you again."

It's really exciting, and it is nice to see his face.

How's your day of traveling? -It was long.

-It was long? Are you tired? -Yeah.

[ Laughing ]

Are you excited to meet my parents?

-No. -Don't be nervous.

My dad -- he's, like, the coolest dad on the earth.

He really is.they all say that.

Like, he's protective, and he, like,

Is definitely gonna want to probe you a little bit,

But he's very -- he's awesome.

Come on. Come on.

Jazz: I'm not really sure what ahmir expects

When it comes to meeting my family.

I told him how incredible they are and open and loving,

But I don't really know what my parents will think of him.

Jazz: ready to meet them?

Next time on "I am jazz"...

-Is that him over there? -Yes.

Jazz: I can finally introduce ahmir to my friends.

Like, what are your intentions?

I want it to go far.

Like, what are your, like, goals?

Honestly, it really worries me that he doesn't have a plan.

But you can't sit here with no job and, like, nothing.

I brought you here because I felt like this

Would be the perfect place to ask you the proper way.

Look at that!

Is that a reminder that our th anniversary's coming up?

Yeah.

Jeanette: greg likes to see me in sexy lingerie.

Oh, that's what he likes.

-Look at this. -It goes way cleavagey.

-Ooh, nice. -[ Laughs ]

That'll work. [ Laughs ]

Happy th. I love you.

Years. Love you, too.

[ Cellphone chimes ]

I'm afraid to look.

Wait. Jazz is missing.

I can't track jazz's...

She was with ahmir, or...

Yeah. I'm calling ari. I'm sorry, guys.

Jeanette, not on camera. Get off the camera.