Okay, so I was miserable.
And I stayed
miserable for about a year.
And then I decided
that I was bored
with being miserable.
I mean, after a while,
how much can you
enjoy your own misery?
It's time to stop.
The only way I knew
how to get out of it
Was to leave
where I was from.
Leave the house
I was miserable in,
Stop looking at my
miserable mirror,
In my miserable bathroom,
in my miserable house,
Get on a plane
and fly to New York city.
Change my life,
change my place,
Go back to the place
I was from before
all my misery started.
Start anew,
start a new life,
and I did.
New year's Eve,
I got on the plane,
The redeye
from Los Angeles
to New York.
I arrived early
in the morning,
exhausted.
♪ it's a most unusual day
♪ feel like
throwing my worries away
♪ as an old
native-born Californian
would say
♪ it's a most unusual day
♪ oh, this weather's amazing,
they say
♪ there's a most unusual Sky
♪ not a sign of a cloud
passing by
♪ and if I was to sing
♪ throw my heart in the ring
♪ it's a most unusual day
♪ there are people
meeting people
♪ there is sunshine everywhere
♪ there are people
greeting people
♪ and a feeling of spring
in the air
♪ it's a most unusual time
♪ I keep feeling
my temperature climb
♪ if my heart won't behave
in the usual way
♪ well, there's only
one thing to say
♪ it's a most unusual
♪ most unusual
♪ most unusual day ♪
Oh, Jesus.
[knocking]
[knocking at door]
Winona: Okay!
God.
Who is it?
Drew: Hello?
Winona: Who is it?
Yeah?
What are you doing
in my apartment?
I live here.
Is this 3c?
Yeah.
I'm, uh, moving in.
Oh, I'm sorry.
We're moving out tomorrow.
We're here
through the 1st...
Yeah, I've got
the place from the 1st.
No, no, we're here
through the 1st.
Yeah, I've got this place
starting the 1st.
No, no,
it must be a mistake.
We have it through
the 1st and then...
No, I have it on the 1st.
We have it through the 1st.
What do you mean,
you have it through the 1st?
I have it on the 1st.
This is the 1st.
It's the 1st.
Happy new year.
Well, happy new year.
This is stupid...
Well, is there
some super or somebody
we can check this with?
Don't wake him up
at this hour.
He's real surly.
Just--just, just come on in.
We'll figure it out.
What do you mean,
we'll figure it out?
I've got...
I didn't sleep.
I just got on the redeye
from Los Angeles.
I didn't sleep either.
I know.
Just come in and we'll have
some tea. I can't do anything
without tea.
That'll make you feel better.
We'll figure it out.
Did my stuff arrive?
Yeah,
the furniture's great.
What do you mean,
"the furniture's great"?
It's nice.
You have wonderful taste.
Come on. We'll have some tea.
Ginger tea.
It'll fix anything.
You okay?
Yeah.
The kitchen's here.
Look, can I leave this
somewhere?
Just anywhere is fine.
Drew: My God,
it started to snow.
Winona: Just, uh, sit down,
take your coat off.
Um, you know,
get comfortable.
I think maybe I
should find a phone.
Take off your coat, relax,
and I'll make us some tea.
Some ginger tea.
Everything will be...
No, no, ginger I don't eat.
I don't eat ginger.
Ginger tea.
I don't eat ginger.
Ginger is one of three things
that's really good for you.
Ginger and garlic and onions.
I don't want it.
Ginger tastes great.
I don't want ginger.
I don't like ginger.
It's good for your heart
and for your bloodstream
And for your
immune system.
I keep a pot on
all winter long.
Who are you?
I'm Drew. Hi.
Hi.
And when you do that,
you don't get sick.
You're sick?
I'm a little sick.
I think I'm a little tired.
It's cold in New York.
I just got off the plane.
I'll make two kinds of tea
and you'll try ginger.
When are you guys
going to be out?
Annie: Tomorrow.
Lucy: Who are you?
Oh, my God, another one.
Why is everybody up?
How many of you are there?
Oh, my God.
What've you been up to?
You people look like...
We were up until 5:30
talking about life
And what we're gonna
do with our lives
when we get out of here.
When I don't get
enough of sleep,
My body aches,
and I don't
function very well.
Not that I function so well
when I'm not tired.
I don't feel
too good, either.
You know
what you should do?
I'll tell you.
You take a lemon
and peel the yellow part
off of the lemon,
And leave the white.
And then
you put it in quarters
in a very hot bath,
And then you get in the bath
and you drink it
while you're in there.
Look, this is all
very nice. I have to--
I have to go to sleep.
I'm hungry.
Why don't you eat?
It's not about food.
Where is the phone?
Hello?
Yeah. I'm sorry.
I want to make phone call
and call a hotel
And get a reservation
and go to bed.
I've gotta go to sleep.
Will you be out tomorrow?
What is this stuff
doing here still?
It's... We hadn't moved it,
yet.
We didn't know
what to do with it.
I can't take it with me,
neither can the girls.
It's...
I don't want it.
I mean, what am I
gonna do with it?
Well, it's perfect
in this room.
Think about it.
It's really
perfect in this room.
You might wanna keep it.
I mean, you might like it
in here. It works.
I'm moving in with a family,
so I really
can't take anything,
And Annie's place
is gonna be really small.
What about the other one?
The third girl?
Lucy's...
Lucy's moving to la.
It's kind of far to drive
anything like this, so,
You know,
if you want anything here,
let me know, we'll talk.
The phone's right there.
You can, uh, make
any calls you want.
That's my couch.
That's my--my chair.
Yeah, it's nice.
You--you got any kids?
Kids? No.
Oh.
I'm gonna go get...
Put some clothes on.
I'll be back in a bit.
Snow. It's a good omen.
Lucy: Yeah.
White.
It might be my cue
to go to warmer weather.
No.
Yeah, uh,
Manhattan information,
please.
I'm gonna give up
everything that's bad
for me this year.
I'm gonna give up
caffeine,
I'm gonna give up
alcohol, sugar.
Mmm-hmm.
Grass.
I already gave up
grass last year.
So I don't have
to give up the grass
this year, thank God.
I'm gonna give up men.
I know what you're giving up.
You're giving me up.
I'm not giving you up.
I'm giving New York up.
And I'm giving up men.
I'm gonna go to Los Angeles,
and then I'm not going to let
One more creepy assh*le
into my life.
I'm gonna give
up diet candies.
Reservations, please.
You don't have anything?
You don't have
to go to Los Angeles
just to give men up.
You can give men up here.
I can't.
I mean, a lot of
people give...
Women give men
up in New York.
You don't have
to change a city
to give up a man.
I can't give this man
up in New York.
That's most ridiculous thing
I've ever heard of.
It's not, Annie.
I've tried this already.
Reservations, please.
Yeah, do you have any rooms
for tonight, please?
Not tonight?
You don't have
to go away.
I have to go.
I have to go.
Well, no, you don't.
I mean,
that's something that
you want to do.
So maybe you should
come with me.
Oh, very funny.
I really don't wanna do this.
It's gonna be okay.
I'm just...
I'm just completely
terrified about it.
It's gonna be okay,
Annie.
No, I know
it's gonna be okay.
I mean, I absolutely know
that this-- that this is
going to be fine
And that this is
a really good idea,
I just hate change.
I just hate any
kind of change.
Reservations, please.
What do you mean
they're closed
for New Year's?
Who do I speak to
about reservations,
then?
I don't want
a toll-free number.
Christ.
[sighing]
Oh, God,
there's no hotels.
[telephone ringing]
Lucy: Coming, coming,
coming.
Hello?
Hi, mom. Yes.
No, I'm out of breath
because I ran
from the kitchen.
What? Yes, I know.
So the new tenant can put
a phone in the kitchen.
I'm so glad this
whole period is over.
What whole period?
This whole it.
You know, this whole period.
This--this last two months
From New Year's, Christmas,
Thanksgiving.
A week before Thanksgiving
is when it all starts.
I'm up because I've
got a hundred things
to do and--and...
But it's early.
What? Yes.
Well, this guy is here.
No, I would
still be sleeping.
Lucy.
Yes, mom. Yes, mom.
I will, I will, I will.
Yes, I will
remember everything.
I've got a packing list.
Yes,
like a very good girl, I do.
I mean, it doesn't help
that I start eating sugar
around Thanksgiving
And then I usually eat sugar
from Thanksgiving
All the way
through New Year's Eve.
So it's biological
depression as well
as a psychological depression
And it lasts
until January 2nd.
Hold on a second.
Um, the mayflower hotel,
please.
Lucy!
Yeah. What?
You don't have
anything at all?
I can't hear another
one of these things.
I can't.
And now it's January 1st,
and I'm starting
to come out of it.
Well, I'm glad for you.
I just felt bad
'cause I think it was
A sort of
semantic misunderstanding
or something.
What did you tell him?
I mean, I thought
we were supposed to be
here through the 1st.
It said through the 1st.
In my understanding,
through the 1st
Is through the 1st.
That's what I thought.
This is the day
we were cut off on...
Anyway,
it doesn't really matter.
I think he'll be okay.
I feel so strong.
I feel so hopeful.
I'm completely determined
That I'm going to do
everything that's good
for myself.
I was looking
at this Guy
I sh*t last week.
Mmm-hmm.
Some stuff.
Anyway, he was
flirting with me a lot.
I mean, he might be...
He's cute.
...Volunteer material.
Oh, stop.
I don't know.
I'm just looking.
I mean, look at-- look at
the genetics, you know.
You cannot pick a father...
They'd be
beautiful kids, though.
He's an actor.
Well, yeah, I know.
I'm not happy...
I mean, trust me,
You don't want him.
But I'm not gonna have to,
you know, live with him.
I'm just talking
about a donor here,
and I mean...
You might not get along
with this person.
This would be
a beautiful combination.
It will be a beautiful baby.
You can stay here
with us, can't you?
Where can I stay with you?
We'll all be here together.
It's big.
It's just for another day.
[sighing]
you're sick anyway.
You shouldn't...
I don't feel good.
Can't be worried
about these things.
Yeah.
I'm trying to--
I'm trying to think
of another hotel.
Lucy: We polished off
a lot of champagne.
Winona: A lot of champagne.
Yeah.
Yeah.
I don't know what to do.
I can't find a hotel.
There's no hotels.
They're all booked
because it's New Year's.
Stay. This place
is huge. Just stay.
We're gonna be
gone tomorrow.
Thank you, but I just...
Where would I sleep?
You can sleep anywhere.
I mean, I'll sleep
on this couch.
I'm gonna be packed,
I'm gonna be
out of that room
Soon, I hope.
What do you do?
What do you girls do?
I work in an art gallery,
public relations.
You do public relations?
Well, I have dinner
with the artists.
Dinner as in drinks.
What about you?
I'm a photographer.
Oh.
I'm having a baby.
This time, next year,
I will have
a child in my arms.
[women chuckling]
Drew: Who's the lucky guy?
I don't know, yet.
I will find something
genetically perfect,
or close to perfect,
Something
genetically suitable,
And, uh,
and get knocked up.
I'm going to find a man
in the next three months
and have a baby.
She'll do it.
What do you do?
Uh, well, right now,
I--I do, um, I do voices
for cartoons.
Voices for cartoons?
Mmm-hmm.
I do all
the female character voices
for--for, uh, some cartoons
And I do some
male ones, too.
It depends on
what the job calls for,
you know what I mean.
What do you do?
I'd like to go
to the bathroom,
if I could.
I will see you later.
Oh, God.
Annie: Who is this guy?
He's so weird.
Winona: Really?
I think I'm gonna
give up my room.
Yeah?
Because he looks
like he's in a panic.
Yeah.
Yeah, he's panicked.
No more panicked
than me
but panicked.
Oh, honey.
[stammering] no,
no, I'm not panicked,
really.
Not really.
We're all panicked.
I have to pack.
Yeah.
No.
Yes. Wanna help?
No. No.
Please?
Oh, my God,
there's so much stuff
in that room.
I know.
[sighs]
[phone ringing]
Mom, it's fine.
I'm gonna be fine.
We've discussed this
40 times now.
Come on.
What?
I just feel really abandoned.
Don't feel abandoned, honey.
Goodbye. Okay?
Okay, goodbye.
We don't...
Okay, I will.
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.
I just feel
really abandoned.
Don't start.
And I feel
completely betrayed.
[sighs]
Goodbye. Okay? Goodbye! Yes.
Goodbye. Yes, I love you.
Goodbye. Okay.
[sighs] fine.
You know,
you make connections
with friends,
And you live
together for four years,
and then it's over,
And relationships change.
[toilet flushing]
[sighing] hi.
Oh, hi.
Hi.
What'd you
decide to do?
About what?
About where
you're gonna sleep.
I sleep right here.
Oh, okay. That's okay.
No, I'll-- I'll sleep
in that couch out...
I don't know.
Oh, I'll sleep
on the couch.
It's not a problem.
No, I don't wanna make you
sleep on that couch.
What are you watching?
It's a tape of me
swimming with dolphins.
You swimming
with dolphins?
Yeah. I went to this great
place in key largo.
Oh, God, that's amazing.
Wasn't it scary?
No, it's not scary
once you get over
the initial shock
Of how enormous they are
and how much
they look like sharks
When all that's sticking out
of the water is the fin.
You're hanging out
in the water
with the dolphins
And they sort of
decide what to do.
They just swim you around
and they'll sort of
show up next to you
And you grab on to their fin,
and they'll take
you down to the bottom
And show you around.
It's great.
That's fantastic.
It's really great.
He followed me
everywhere I went.
He followed you
everywhere you went?
Uh-huh. Yeah.
Did they ever get
sexually excited?
They're a Randy bunch.
Everything
you've heard is true.
They are indeed.
How do you deal
with that?
It's-- it's funny,
actually.
It's not
threatening or anything.
It's pretty amusing.
It's different.
They're only interested
in your knees.
Your knees is what
they like?
It's the corresponding area.
If your feet were a tail,
then your knees...
If your feet
were a tail...
Ah, so they're going
for the equal area...
It's what they're
after. Yeah.
...But it happens to
hit you in the knees.
It's like there are
electrical charges
going through the water.
When you're
underneath the water
You can hear them
all around you.
You can hear sound
all around you
even if you can't see them.
And it's like this clicking,
sort of crackling sound
And it sort of travels
from one side
Through your head
and out the other.
And when they're
out of the water,
they sort of go...
[chirping]
Like that.
I see. And what is...
What about these--
these guys here?
That's a chimpanzee...
I can see that.
...That I taught
for a while.
I taught him
how to speak sign language
for a couple of years.
You taught this guy?
This is all
the same chimpanzee?
Yeah, at different stages
of development.
That's you.
That's me at a different
stage of development.
That's right.
It was a little you.
Yeah. It's a little me.
How long did
you live with him?
For two years, on and off.
You're kidding.
How do you know how to
speak sign language?
I learned to teach him.
I helped to raise him.
I was involved
in a project
in order to see
Whether chimpanzees
had the--the capacity
for sentence structure.
And I just, uh, offered
my services. I don't...
I said, "I don't
care what you're doing,
"I don't care why
you're doing it.
"I'll do anything.
I'll, I'll change diapers,
"I'll clean your kitchen,
I'll do anything."
And so I did.
I miss him.
I bet.
So you...
We've got dolphins
and chimpanzees?
Some of the best
company you're gonna find,
basically.
You don't like people
too much, I guess.
No, I like people.
Every once in a while,
it's nice to
Hang out with a chimp,
you know?
Well, I'm not a chimp
and I'm not a dolphin
But I need
a place to sleep.
Well, you can
certainly sleep...
Right here?
...In whatever room
in this house...
Right here?
...Suits your fancy.
Yes.
Will you join me?
I'll take the couch,
but feel free
to have the room.
Did you ever sleep
with the chimpanzee?
He didn't sleep
in bed with me,
But he would have
nightmares periodically
And climb in
in the middle of the night
and sort of go...
[imitating chimpanzee]
Sort of like that.
If I do that,
then I can jump into bed?
We'll see.
Okay.
[imitating chimpanzee]
You're a very weird mixture.
I don't quite know
how to integrate you
With these other
two people I see here.
They're nice but they're...
They're very sweet.
Sweet,
but they are a little...
They're sweet.
They're different, right?
They're different, yeah.
I've had training.
At dealing with
the different? Oh, I see.
At dealing with
the different, yeah.
Uh-huh. Chimps.
Chimps, dolphins.
Dolphins and roommates.
And lots of weird roommates.
Yeah.
I'm just gonna go
to sleep right here,
if you don't mind.
Well,
how about if you go hang out
in the living room and then
When I'm cleared out
of here, it's yours.
No.
I just...
I've got to pack.
I can't stand that sound.
Please I'm trying to...
I really...
Okay.
Could you take this stuff
and pack it somewhere else?
Yes, I'm gonna take it
and pack it out of this room.
Okay?
Let me just...
Can I pile it
up and take off?
[both shushing]
Sleepy.
I'll run out of here, okay?
Two more seconds.
You're very nice.
I'm sorry.
No, I understand.
I understand. I understand.
You're sleepy,
not feeling well.
It's freezing in New York.
I'm going.
Good night.
Good night.
Pleasant dreams.
And I'm sorry.
See you later.
No, no, it's okay.
It's okay.
Bye.
Bye.
So what am I gonna do?
What else in here is mine
that I need to take?
I've got this.
I've got
my bathing suits.
This black bathing suit,
where'd you get it?
I want one like it.
Keep mine.
Really?
Yeah.
I love you.
I love you, too.
Lucy:
What else have I got here
that I have to take?
[doorbell rings]
Hi.
Lucy: Oh, mother,
please let's not talk
about this again.
I've made a New Year's
resolution.
It's gonna be
very different now.
I'm not gonna call you.
I'm gonna leave you
totally alone.
I'm gonna let you
be your own person.
I know I've been
a pain in the ass.
I've been calling you
every morning.
I won't do that anymore.
You know that
when I make a resolution,
I stick to it.
I stopped smoking.
I stopped drinking.
Just stay here until
you line something up
And you know
what you're doing.
What's the point
of going to la...
Mother, it's gonna be fine.
...And going to that jungle?
You know,
it's just ridiculous.
Thank you.
I'll remember that.
I'll wear my pith helmet.
Please don't wear
that ribbon. It's really...
It's just so wrinkled.
Enough with this ribbon.
It's fine.
I wear it all the time.
And I don't have any...
It looks it.
Thank you.
I know. I'm glad you're...
You want to do me a favor?
Stop wearing the fur.
I'll stop wearing the ribbon
if you stop wearing fur.
Well, I'm not buying
any more furs after this.
That's good.
I wasn't gonna say this
Because I don't think
it's fair to say this,
but you're my only child
And I don't think
it's fair of you to leave
the city that I'm in
And just leave me
here alone.
You gotta be
kidding me.
Mom, I'm not leaving you
here alone.
You've got 40,000 friends.
I mean, come on.
That's not the same thing.
That's not the same thing.
That's totally unfair.
If I-- if I promise
that I'm not going to
bother you...
This not about
your bothering me.
This is about my life.
But you're so wonderful
at what you do.
I mean, I--I watch
those cartoons
all the time.
They're
absolutely wonderful.
That one about
the dog and the cat.
I mean, you're brilliant.
You're absolutely brilliant.
Thank you.
I'm glad you like it.
They'll be in reruns
before you know it.
Just because I go
doesn't mean
the cartoon...
But you've made
a name for yourself.
You have a career.
You have
an absolutely brilliant,
wonderful career.
Why? Why spoil it all?
You'll come back here
not...
You won't be able
to find a job there,
possibly.
You'll come back here
and they won't
take you back.
I would appreciate
some support.
You know how competitive
this field is.
I would appreciate
a little bit of support.
Don't tell me
I'm not gonna get
anything done there.
That's not what
I need to hear.
I didn't say you wouldn't.
I said you
possibly might not.
Well, thank you for
possibly might not.
[doorbell rings]
mom, can we stop now?
I'm never, never gonna
bother you again.
Someone ordered the food.
No one ordered this food.
This is apartment 3c?
I don't want this food.
I'm sorry,
I just don't want
the food here.
Ma'am, someone
ordered the food.
We got the phone call
and someone
ordered the food.
There is no one here
that could
order this food.
I don't want this food here.
This food is driving me nuts.
Just wait a second.
Wait a second.
I'll tell you who
ordered it, okay?
Hold on.
"Richards. Apartment 3c."
is there a Richards here?
Lucy, why would you
order this food
And t*rture me like this?
So there is a Richards here?
No, I don't want it.
Listen...
It's a $124.87.
I won't be able
to reach you.
Oh, my God.
You don't know
what could happen
at my age.
Oh, my God.
I'm begging you,
please take the food away.
All right, just calm down.
Just calm down.
Please. Please.
Take it easy, okay?
I'm sorry,
I can't take the food back.
Why not?
Because someone ordered it.
We prepared this
stuff for you guys.
There's a tray
of pasta salad in here,
There's a tray of
tuna salad in here.
And there's a tray
of zucchini salad
And there's two
boxes of cookies,
a box of...
What you see
is what you get.
I'm having
a complete anxiety att*ck
over this food
And I'll do anything
not to have this food here!
Ma'am, just calm down.
Just get it out of here!
Okay. Take it easy.
Take it easy.
It's not worth
getting me this crazy.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
Now just get it out.
Just take it...
I'm sorry, okay?
I just...
I said I'd make good on it.
Just get rid of it!
Well, call the person.
Call Richards.
Where's Lucy?
Forget Lucy. Forget Richards.
She made a mistake.
She just...
Well, where is she?
Let her tell me, okay?
Where is the kitchen at?
Just tell me
where the kitchen is.
I'm just gonna put
this in the kitchen.
You get Lucy
and give me a check,
okay?
Jesus Christ.
[sighs]
Hey. How you doing?
I'm okay.
Do you mind that
I'm here?
What are you doing here?
I just came to see you.
I heard,
heard you were moving
to, uh, to the west coast.
Yeah, I am.
Yeah.
Thanks for telling me.
I appreciate it.
I didn't wanna tell you.
Well, anyway,
I brought you some stuff
that...
What is this?
This is all the stuff
I have that's yours.
Well, don't do this here.
Don't do this here.
I think
you should just take it.
You know what this is.
What is this? Just stop it.
This is yours.
And this is
a little worse for wear
but it's yours.
Well, thank you.
Keep it and...
Take it. Take it all.
Please don't do this here,
damn it. Stop!
Billy, I don't think
there's anything
to talk about, really.
Well, what can I say?
What can I say?
I don't know
what you can say.
I don't think
we need to talk.
I don't think
we need to be here,
And there's people
coming over...
Look, anything--anything
that I say is just...
I just have to act now,
you know?
My actions are gonna
be what you see.
So anything I say,
it's just gonna
be bullshit, you know?
Well, I don't know.
So you have to
give me some time.
I mean, if you have
something to say to me,
you should say it.
You have to give me
some time. If you go,
I don't have any time.
What am I gonna do?
Call you on the phone...
You had a lot of time.
...And get it
together that way?
You had a lot of time.
I didn't have any time.
Two months, you know,
we took off. So?
Before two months
we had a lot of time,
And I think I've seen
everything that there is
to see with this.
But it's like, you know,
the guillotine is over you.
Now I know.
Now I know
what's important.
So now,
can you give me the Chance
when I know what's over me?
It's seemed like there...
What is gonna be in la?
I'm going to be in la.
Right.
I'm gonna be in la
away from you.
Then I'll call
you every day then.
Well, I may not
talk to you.
Well, then I'll call you
twice a day.
Lucy?
Yeah.
Just look.
I see you.
I see you.
I know everything
that there is
to know about us.
I don't think
there's any reason for us
to do this again.
Do you know how many times
you f*cked around on me
And left me sitting there,
and lied to me,
And treated me
as if I was the one
who was mistaken?
Do you know what
that feels like?
You don't know
what that feels like.
Yeah, I do.
I know what it feels like.
Nobody does that to you.
You've done it to me.
If I've done that to you,
And I admit that I have,
I guess I have.
Because by the end
of this g*dd*mn thing,
We were both doing
the same thing, Billy.
We were both
doing the same thing
And that's why I'm going.
I know.
Because that's not me.
And all of a sudden,
I'm turning into you.
And I really don't believe
that's who you are, either.
But I can't play
that game anymore.
I can't wait around
for my theory
to be proven true.
I just need
one more Chance,
all right?
Just one.
You're what I want now.
Okay, just stay.
There are people
coming over,
and you can just stay
And we'll talk
about it later.
Just stay, okay?
♪ you finally found
a family of friends
Do you want to talk?
I don't want to talk.
Okay.
♪ don't lose heart
♪ it's the beginning,
not the end
♪ it's just a start
♪ you've found
a family of friends
♪ don't lose heart
♪ and I'll be back with you
again ♪
What can I tell you
about me?
Why you're going
to Los Angeles.
Really why you're going.
I'm leaving things
that I think
need to be left behind,
And I'm hopefully
moving on to
some things that
I can look forward to.
What do you want
to get away from?
A no-win situation.
Do you mind my touching
your knee this way?
I don't know.
Why are you touching
my knee that way?
I don't know.
I found myself
touching your knee.
It's a nice knee
and it's touchable.
Thank you.
I'm glad you like it.
It's purely affection
at a very safe distance.
That's fine.
Stay there,
and my knee will stay
where it is
And that'll be fine.
Oh, don't.
I have no interest
in approaching children
With any sexuality
whatsoever.
Fine.
I'm looking for
adults in life.
Nothing personal.
No, I don't take
that personally at all.
I know this is
a hard rejection
for you, but...
I can't take it!
No, it's fine.
I know, it's hard, isn't it?
Really,
I don't have a problem
with that at all.
I'm sorry
But I just can't
accept your kind offer
of sexual favors.
[chuckles]
So, why'd you come here?
To New York?
To not be
in Los Angeles.
To not be alone
in my house.
In our house, the house
that was an "our" house
and is now a "my" house
In Los Angeles.
A house that
I've been living happily in
for a long time
And now I am not in
with the person
I was happy with.
So I come back to the city
that I'm from
Thinking that I can
maybe start my life
over again here
And find a way
to be happy again here
like I was before
Before.
But what I think
I probably have
to come to terms with
Is the fact that it's
too late to do that.
You get to
a certain point in life
And, um, you...
You can't start again.
Oh, I don't agree
with that.
Well, whether you
agree with it or not,
It's very sweet of you
to say you don't agree
with it,
But you have no way
of knowing yet.
I do know.
You don't know.
There's no reason
why you shouldn't be
able to start again.
How do you know? You...
There's no more reason
That you shouldn't
be able to start than
That I shouldn't be
able to start again.
[whispering]
no, I suppose not.
One generation
is about the reason,
different.
When you start
and you've got this
Entire future thing
to look forward to
And it hasn't
happened yet,
It's totally different
than when it's happened
And it didn't work,
and then you're
supposed to start again
And it's a very hard thing
to imagine doing.
And I think probably
the grown-up
thing to do finally
Is to come
to terms with the fact
that it's too late.
I don't think giving up
is the grown-up
thing to do in life.
I wasn't talking
about giving up.
It sounds to me like
you're giving up.
I'm talking about
giving in to reality.
I'm talking about giving in
to the truth of the fact
That reality is that after
a certain number of years,
You can't
suddenly begin again
as if you were...
What are you,
25, 26 years old?
You can't do that
when you're 45
or 46 years old.
It's a totally
different kind of a thing,
And you can't
suddenly pretend
That you've got
that same span of life
coming in front of you,
And the same time
to go out there and hope
to meet the person,
And to find that
balance between
all the things necessary
In order for you
and that other person
To get together
and to start
a life together.
And especially,
if like with me,
You haven't had
children yet,
And you want desperately
to have children
And you don't think
there's any way to do it...
What?
It's like a very
dangerous dream
To hold on to, so maybe
it's better and grown
And--and more
in touch with reality
to acknowledge the fact
That this is what it is.
That, you know,
you are who you are.
It is too late.
And find another
level of life,
Another level of
enjoyment in life
Other than expectancy,
other than romantic hope,
Other than dreaming still
of meeting somebody,
Other than placing your--
your entire fantasy level,
Your entire hopefulness level,
your entire happiness level
On a dream that--that, uh,
Is appropriate for
somebody of 25
and not somebody of 45.
Well, maybe
the next relationship
in your life
Will exist
on another level.
Yeah, and maybe not.
Or maybe that other level
will be some kind
of compromise level.
A level where it's nice
but it's not everything,
And it's okay
but it's not total,
And it doesn't satisfy
what really has to be done.
[doorbell ringing]
Hi.
Happy new year.
Happy new year.
Thank you.
Winona, I'd like
you to meet my friend,
Dr. Stadthagen.
Dr. Stadthagen,
nice to meet you.
Hello, happy new year.
Come on in.
Let me take
your umbrella.
Please.
I can see it's wet out.
I believe that everybody
has the possibility
to start again,
To start somewhere
in their life again.
To have children
late in life,
to have love late in life.
Late in life?
And you're not late. I knew.
How did I know? When I looked
at your face as I said that.
Late in f*cking life...
I didn't... You're talking
like you're at the end
of the g*dd*mn road, mister.
What is this?
"late in f*cking life."
it's your words.
I never thought about it
but this is...
I'm responding
to your attitude.
I have...
It has nothing to do
with late in life.
You're early in life.
It has everything...
Yeah, sure.
You just...
Look, let's not...
And I'm, I'm prenatal,
according to you.
So just look at
where you are.
You're only just beginning.
Yeah.
Yes.
I'm feeling strangely
like the older man.
I guess that comes
to everybody
at one moment or another,
Feeling that you're
the older man.
I always was
the youngest one.
I always was the young one
and everybody else was older.
So it's very weird
to suddenly wake up
one day,
And that's exactly
how it seems.
You wake up one day
and you find
yourself playing a part.
I'm playing the role
of the older man.
That's a little weird.
Where are you
playing this role?
Well, with your knee
right then.
With my knee.
Knees.
Happy new year.
Happy new year.
A little drink.
[doorbell ringing]
[doorbell ringing]
Hi there, Lucy.
Dad, what are you doing here?
Listen, honey,
I want to talk to you,
baby,
About this
California thing,
okay?
But I can't do it
right now.
What do you mean?
I mean,
I can't do it
right now.
Well, it has to be
right now, honey.
You're leaving tomorrow.
No, wait.
Why don't I just
call you in about an hour
or something?
We can get together...
No, honey,
I don't trust...
I can't do this now.
No, I don't think
it's gonna happen
in an hour.
It will. I swear,
I'll call you in an hour.
Why, you got somebody here?
What's going on?
Please.
There's a couple
of people here,
But I've got
so much stuff to do
and you didn't call.
You didn't say
you were coming.
Well, honey,
I don't have to call.
I'm your father, you know.
Honey, is there a place
we can we talk?
No, there is no
place we can talk.
Ten minutes is all I want.
I can't do it now.
I can't do it, daddy.
We must do it now.
This California thing,
honey,
I've thought about it.
I gotta talk to you
about it.
I can't. Please.
I cannot let you
go to California
just like that!
All right, fine. Fine.
You're not going.
Ten minutes, okay?
Ten minutes.
Ten minutes.
Right now?
That's all I'm giving you
And then you'll go?
Right now?
You promise me you'll go?
I'll go as soon as
we're through talking.
15 minutes.
Ten minutes, daddy.
But, honey, I'm your father.
I might die tomorrow.
I may never see you again
as long as I live.
You're not going
to die tomorrow.
Fine,
you got 10 minutes, okay?
But don't do it
with an attitude.
[sighs]
Honey,
life is like a TV sitcom.
You gotta know
where the laughs are,
And always remember,
when things get emotional,
You know there's
a commercial's coming up.
Oh, God, dad.
Honey, I know these things.
I haven't spent
years writing them
for nothing.
You know what I mean?
This... Pearls of wisdom.
I really appreciate
the visit.
I don't know
that I would have
been able
To make this trip
without that advice.
Have you made
any New Year's
resolutions?
Uh-huh.
Yeah?
Giving up all my
compulsive behavior.
All of it?
I was a hit.
I left a hit.
You don't see me out there.
Well, fine.
I have to go there
and be a hit.
And get hurt?
I have...
I can handle
being hurt, okay?
You're gonna...
I'm gonna get hurt
wherever I go.
I'm going to la.
Honey, it's like walking
into a strange party.
You don't know
anybody there.
I'm not there anymore.
Fine. All right.
You know what I mean?
You think it's easy?
No, I don't think...
You know what
that place is like?
Honey, do we have
to talk out here?
It's like, I feel like
I'm in a...
I can't come up
with biggies now.
You got my philosophy,
now here's my advice.
And take it, please.
Do not go to la.
Don't go.
I'm going to
give up answering
the personal ads
In the New York
review of books.
[doorbell rings]
Lazlo.
I came to wish
you bon voyage.
Oh, no. I don't want
to go.
Listen, this one is cold.
Uh-huh. So we'll drink it now.
And...
And this one, this one
you have to put in
the freezer. It's warm.
Okay, so come with me.
I'm lonely.
The radiator's been
banging and banging
And making all
this horrible noise.
Well, this is the last day.
You won't have
to complain
about that now.
All right.
I won't complain.
The new tenant is here.
He showed up a day early.
You want to meet him?
He seems like a nice guy.
What did you wanna
talk to me about?
Well, I can't talk her
out of going to la.
I've tried everything.
I mean, the kid's
so determined.
I don't know what to do
anymore, honey.
Brooks, you gotta
let her go.
It's not about me
letting her go.
It has nothing
to do with that.
She's gonna get hurt.
She's gonna get
hurt out there.
She's a grown-up person.
You have to let her
get hurt and learn
on her own, Brooks.
No, come on.
Oh, little white dove.
Why do you always
call me that?
That is the lullaby.
Little white dove
is flying
And she meets
God's little Angel.
And the Angel asks,
"where are you going,
human soul?"
And the soul says,
"I'm trying
to reach Heaven.
"I'm trying to reach Heaven."
Hmm.
Heaven.
[chuckles]
Lazlo: I never told you
the English words?
Annie: No.
You're her father.
Whatever you say,
at this point in her life,
she's gonna resist.
Let her learn it.
I mean, if it's that bad,
she'll find out.
Oh, find out. And then
it's too late, Jimmy.
Like,
go into combat and die
and then we'll be sorry.
You went there.
Yeah, I hated it.
You had the experience.
Oh, God.
There's not gonna
be anybody like you
in California.
Come on.
There's not.
I'm gonna get in
some tiny apartment,
Some girl in gym shorts
is gonna live
in the building.
And she'll be like,
"oh, hi. Oh, you need
something?
"oh, what can I get you?
Oh, really?
"I don't think
we have that here.
"I think they don't
even sell it in la."
The brain cells die
the minute you hit lax.
I'm not kidding you.
I'm serious.
It's not a place for her.
That's a cliché.
She's a young, vital person.
Who made these spots
all over the walls?
I don't know.
Not me. Not me.
They moved
all that furniture in
and everything.
Well, it... Oh, my God.
I'm gonna miss you so much.
This really hurts.
Me, too.
Listen, the reason
I feel I could talk
to you about this,
You're a little more mature
than the other girls
And, frankly, uh,
I'm attracted to you.
Does that bother you
if I say that?
No, Brooks.
But because
I always have been,
you know?
Remember
when you helped me
that night?
Do you remember?
Well, don't mention that.
No, because I came in
and I was really upset.
I was in shock.
Yeah, but you took me
into your bed
And you held me,
and you also...
But it didn't work.
Do you hear that?
Do you hear that?
Stop.
That's nothing to brag about.
Jesus Christ, I...
I'm not bragging.
But, why... You know,
I should have a rain check
for that night.
You know that?
You can have a rain check.
Oh, yeah?
Uh-huh.
Well...
[doorbell rings]
Marjorie: Happy new year.
Tell me,
what--what usually
men say when,
You know, as an excuse,
when they can't perform?
What do they say?
Yeah. Yeah.
What do they blame?
They say...
They say they've had
a lot to drink.
Yeah?
They say
they're really tired.
You know,
boring stuff like that.
Yeah?
But, I mean, nobody
ever believes them.
They say their mind
is elsewhere.
Did I say anything?
No, you...
That was the best part.
You didn't say anything.
We just...
[stuttering]
why do you think I...
I, you know, didn't...
Why it didn't work?
Yeah.
I don't know,
but I didn't care
because we just...
We just held
each other all night.
Of course,
I have one for you.
Oh, great.
You like it?
Oh, that's a nice one.
I'm so sad
all of a sudden.
Yeah, you see?
Yeah, I don't wanna
leave you.
We don't wanna go.
We're never gonna
get to be
like this again.
Yeah.
[sniffing]
Yeah. You both
smell good.
Okay.
Okay.
And what do I have to do?
Now, you make your wish
while I'm tying it on.
Oh, I know what that is.
Are you wishing for
a boy or a girl?
A girl.
A girl.
Okay.
That'd be nice.
[imitating chimpanzee]
I--I don't think
I want to do it.
Why?
Well, because
what if I make a wish
and it comes true?
I'd-- I'd just...
I mean, I don't
even know what I want.
I mean, what if
I wish for something
And it's like
the wrong thing,
And, and I get it,
and I'm not ready...
Marjorie: You make
a New Year's resolution
And you make
a New Year's wish.
You stop something
and you start something.
Annie:
Yeah, but I don't even
know what I want.
I don't even know
what to wish for.
Wish for
something really simple,
something really nice.
Yeah?
Yeah.
Okay.
So make your wish
while I'm tying it on.
Hi.
Hi.
God, there's so many
people out there.
I know.
Annie:
I don't want you to go.
Lucy: I gotta go, Annie.
It's just kind of sad,
isn't it?
It is sad.
But it's gonna be great.
It's gonna be great for you,
it's gonna be great for me.
[shushing]
[people chattering]
Lucy, I need to talk to you.
I don't care, daddy,
I don't wanna talk.
Brooks: But I have
to talk to you.
I mean, this is
such a major thing.
Why don't you just give me...
Lucy: I'm fine.
Since when are you
so concerned?
You came out of
my wife's womb.
What do you mean,
why am I concerned?
Honey, you're my daughter.
Well, this is new, this
father-of-the-year stuff.
I'm fine. Okay?
There's like a lot of
pretty girls here.
I'm sure you
can find somebody
to talk to.
I'm fine, daddy.
Okay? I'm fine.
I can talk to them anytime.
Lucy, come on.
As of today, no more sex.
Unless I know every woman
the guy has been with,
That I wanna be with,
I'm not f*cking him.
The therapy I do
with women
Entails their sexuality
and the problems
related to it.
And I found
the perfect system
to overcome the problem
Of many psychiatrists
getting involved
in the advantage
Of the relationship
they have with women
And then seducing
or otherwise
having sex with them.
What I do is imperative
that I have sex with women
Before there's even
any hint that I perform
therapy on them.
I don't feel like
dying from sex.
Oh, give me a break.
What, I'm supposed
to get tested now?
Then having that
out of the way,
there's no obstacle
And it's a free situation
for me to engage in therapy.
How do you know
where he's been?
Well, how do you know
where you've been?
You got tested?
Yeah, I got tested.
I don't believe this.
Oh, come on.
You've gotta be kidding me.
I did. I did. I got tested.
Come on.
Excuse me. You are a...
Psycho-sexologist.
Oh, I see.
Stopping sex is so bogus.
I need to stop dr*gs.
That's why I do
profess to some expertise
in this field.
Nothing will ever
go up this nose.
Yeah?
That's right.
You think you can keep to it?
Yeah, I know
I can keep to it.
You know,
I have to tell you standing
next to you, excuse me,
But besides just
that it's completely
inconsiderate
To smoke that smelly thing
and have disregard
for people like that,
It also shows something
very unfortunate about
your sexual character.
Today is the first day
of the rest of my life
With a clear nasal passage.
That's it.
If you can imagine
the shape of that thing
And what you're trying
to substitute it for...
Hey.
Hey! How are you?
Subconscious
or unconscious fear of
impotency on your part.
Is everybody okay?
Oh, yeah,
we're talking about life
and death and dr*gs.
So you're absolutely
sure it's over
between you and Lucy?
It doesn't matter.
She's sure.
She's sure
it's over.
But what do you want?
I don't know
what I want.
Do you want anything?
No. Okay.
A cranberry juice
in a vodka.
Okay. A cranberry juice.
Let me get it.
Great.
Okay.
I'm going to la, man.
So you're giving up New York?
Go to la. That's right.
Well, you listen.
Everybody out there
is bisexual.
Maybe you'll make a wish.
What is this?
It's a wish bracelet.
A wish bracelet?
Yeah.
That works fast.
Where'd you get those?
Marjorie: I made them.
Billy: Let me order a dozen.
[doorbell rings]
Lucy:
Oh, thank God it's you.
If I ever needed
to talk to you, it's now.
My father's driving me
out of my mind.
For the first time
in my entire life
He's playing
father knows best.
He's got so much advice
I don't know
what to do him.
I can't shut him up
because he doesn't
want me to leave.
And the girls.
I mean, Annie
is so g*dd*mn depressed
And she's making me feel
guilty for leaving
Because if I leave,
her whole f*cking life
falls apart.
I gotta get out of here.
William's
in the g*dd*mn fire escape
f*cking around with Marjorie.
I mean, this is...
It's outrageous.
He comes over here.
I think I'm going,
you know.
I mean, I've gotten him
out of my life
And I don't wanna
talk to him,
And he shows up here
and he says to me,
"don't go. Don't go."
you know.
And I start thinking,
"okay, don't go.
"you're wrong.
You shouldn't go.
"you shouldn't leave
somebody who you love.
"you shouldn't leave
a relationship
"that you think
is gonna work, you know."
And I put so much
g*dd*mn time into this.
Maybe I'm nuts, you know.
Maybe I'm nuts to walk away
from this whole thing.
And what the f*ck
am I gonna
do in California?
You know, it's Hollywood,
for Christ's sake.
I love this guy.
I mean, I love him.
I may be an assh*le
but I love him.
And then I watch him...
I watch him do this sh*t,
you know.
And he--he makes
these promises to me
and I start believing him.
I start believing him again.
I think he means it
this time.
He really means it
because he's
a good person,
And he's got a good soul,
and he's got a good heart,
And he really loves me,
you know.
I mean, I know he loves me.
And I know he loves me
more than any
of these people
That he can't keep
his g*dd*mn hands off of,
you know.
That he has to go for
because they're going
for him.
But I know
it's more important.
What we have is more
important than that.
And maybe I'm an idiot
to walk away from it
and to stop fighting.
What am I doing?
What if I go out there
And I realize
what a mistake I've made,
and he's off just
Neck-deep in some
other relationship
'cause he can't stand
to be by himself?
And then I don't know
who's gonna be more unhappy,
him or me.
You're listening
to the wrong voices.
You have to listen
to your voice.
It's a hassle now
but it's a temporary hassle.
All of that nonsense
goes away.
You have to remain.
And the you that has
to remain
Has to be stronger
than what's here now.
And it can't be stronger
unless there's
a little bit of trouble.
It looks like it's so big,
it's so enormous,
But it's no match
for any of the dreams
you have.
It's no match for the talent,
it's no match for
any of the strength.
The strength is inside.
Those people
matter in a certain way,
but not in any way
To equal the power
of what's inside you.
You gotta keep dreaming.
Think of all of
the phenomenal things
That we talked about
your being able to do.
You can do it.
So what is this
bullshit about, huh?
What bullshit?
Your bullshit.
What is your
bullshit about?
You have to be
more specific.
What kind of bullshit?
You don't know what
your bullshit is?
I know what
some of my bullshit is.
Well, what is the bullshit
that you know about about?
What makes you interested?
Bullshit is my life.
Did you ever, like,
make a wish
When you blew out
your candles?
Oh, yeah.
Did you ever tie a string
around your finger?
There's
something very disturbing
about what's going on here.
And you--you manifest
the disturbance.
Now, that doesn't mean...
Embodiment.
You embody the disturbance.
That does not mean
that you are
what is disturbing.
Right.
Uh, it does mean that
the disturbance
rests in your body
And in your bullshit.
Yeah.
And your bullshit
is considerable.
Well,
this is coming from someone
who knows, I assume.
I do recognize
something about it
obviously.
Uh, and...
Something familiar?
Something familiar.
Use that word.
Yeah, I can say
it's familiar.
But the difference is,
and this may be
just chronological.
Yeah?
But I doubt it.
The difference seems to be
that underneath my bullshit
Is a reality that can
come to the surface
When it is engaging
another human being.
Underneath your bullshit,
there seems to
be more bullshit.
When I tie it
around your wrist,
you make a wish...
Okay.
...To yourself.
And you wear it
until it falls off,
And then your wish
will come true.
Underneath your bullshit,
is there somebody
real under there?
There's somebody real
who happens to think
The bullshit is
so interesting
that he can't get rid of it.
Oh, you've learned that
this bullshit is interesting?
So you don't trust...
Imaginative bullshit
doesn't smell as badly,
huh?
Oh, don't be cute with me.
Okay.
You don't trust
that underneath
your bullshit
What you've really got
is interesting,
That anybody's gonna really
give a sh*t, right?
Look, I have to
bite this off.
Bite?
Tell me about Lucy.
It's private.
I'm interested in what
you're doing to Lucy.
Why do you do this
bullshit with Lucy?
I don't know.
I don't know.
It seems to me that
you're saying to me,
If I understand
you correctly,
That you're afraid
that if you let
people see who you are,
They're gonna see
that nobody's there
Or whoever's there
isn't worth anything,
Or isn't a very
interesting...
That's more like it.
Not that nobody's there.
I'm sure somebody's there.
Okay.
That the person
that's there is corrupt
and somebody that is bad.
You think you're bad?
[sighing]
I don't know bad but...
Yeah, maybe it's bad.
Maybe it is bad.
You really believe
you're bad in some way?
Yes.
What way?
What are you afraid
will show underneath?
You're saying something
negative will show.
So essentially
negative...
Dark.
Dark.
I think so.
It's obviously very appealing
on a certain level,
to women, that darkness.
And you know that
and you use it.
But it seems though,
when women are attracted
to me,
It's not for the darkness.
It's for what they
consider to be light.
But they're not seeing you.
Right.
That's...
I think that has
something with why
There's so much mistreatment
going out from me
To people that
I feel misunderstand me,
or don't understand me,
Or aren't getting
what I feel myself to be,
So I punish them.
Does that have anything
to do with the reason
she's going to California?
I imagine it does.
Whether
she wants to tell me that
or not, it's up to her.
Has she told you that?
Yeah, she's told me that.
So that has something
to do with it?
Well, sure. I mean,
what did you think?
I don't know.
You just thought
she was being wild?
I don't know her.
I just walked
into a situation here,
I don't know.
I'm seeing something
very fraught
And I'm trying
to understand it.
Do you mind
my asking you
these questions?
Not really.
I mean, I don't know
what you're getting
out of it, you know.
I don't know,
why do you care if
you're just moving in?
I don't know. I'm trying
to understand myself.
I mean,
these people are gonna be
out of your life in...
That's right.
So why do you have
to understand?
I'm a writer.
So I like
to try to understand
human behavior.
Okay, I understand now.
She's an extremely
talented girl.
And more than that,
she's approaching the time
When she really is
gonna need
all the support necessary
To make a decision
to have a career
And not do this
Mickey mouse business
that she's been doing.
The little voices
are great.
She's making about
a grand a week.
When I talk to
a man like you...
Yeah. Yeah.
If you're nice to me
or give me something...
Yeah.
I wanna give you
something back.
But it's gonna be
a pat on the back,
or a book,
Or a beer,
or something like that.
When a girl is nice to me,
I wanna give a kiss
or sometimes sex.
That's the way I learned
how to pay back.
It's a ner...
It's a nervous reaction.
Kissing somebody
is a nervous reaction?
In a way.
I don't know
the word for it.
It's a-- it's a confusion,
you know.
No, I don't.
Where do things go further?
How do you--
how do you get closer?
When do you stop talking?
When do you keep talking?
I see.
Do you see?
You still think
it's bullshit.
I can tell because,
you know.
Well, yeah, a little bit.
I think...
I think you may
think it's real.
I think you
maybe in more trouble
than I realized.
What do you do?
I write, too.
You write, too?
Mmm-hmm.
No kidding.
What do you write?
Well, I've written poetry
and now I write fiction.
Sensitive poetry
which you give to women?
Sensitive?
To show them
how much you care?
As seduction?
Poetry seduction?
Yeah. Yeah.
You've done your share
of poetry seduction,
haven't you?
That has been used,
yes. Yes.
Best...
What?
Best said. What?
No, no.
Don't give me bullshit.
No, no. You're doing bullshit.
You're giving,
then you're withholding,
then you're giving...
What is that? Tell me?
It was a line.
What? What was it?
It was a seduction.
Best poems are
in the barrooms.
Who were you seducing
when you were giving me
that line?
You.
I thought you don't
seduce men.
In a different way.
How?
Without the kiss.
Yeah.
Winona:
I gotta show you this. Okay?
See?
That's my wish picture.
Harland:
It's a nice picture.
That's what
I want to look like
with my own child
In a year-and-a-half.
In a year-and-a-half?
Well, that baby's
about six months old,
So a year-and-a-half, yeah.
I need your support,
as my big brother,
if I'm gonna do this.
You didn't tell me.
You got--
you got a boyfriend?
No.
I'm gonna do it on my own.
Let me see if I got this.
Listen to me
and tell me if I got this.
Okay?
Yeah.
You're angry at them
because they don't see
Who you really are
underneath.
Therefore you don't
show them who you are
underneath
As a punishment
against them
Not being able to see
who you are underneath.
Something like that
but not
that chronologically.
Tell me about your mother.
Tell you about my mother?
Yeah.
Tell me about your mother.
Tell me about
your relationship
with your mother.
This must start somehow
with the mother, no?
Well, sure.
How?
Doesn't yours?
We're not talking about me.
I know.
It's bothering me a little
That we're not
talking about you.
You wanna talk about me,
we'll talk about me next.
You really wanna talk
about you, don't you?
Tell the truth.
Sure.
Okay. We both wanna
talk about you.
So we're in agreement.
Tell me about
your mother.
Tell me about
your mother.
I can't wait anymore.
I gotta do it.
I just have to do it.
The relationships
aren't working out,
And I can't wait around
for one to try to happen.
I'm just...
I'm gonna do it
on my own.
I gotta be a mom.
My mother is
very overprotective.
Yeah.
She's still
very much in my life,
which is a problem.
Mmm-hmm.
I--I'm not...
I'm not able to
make the transition
From being an adolescent
Or somebody who is sheltered
by their mother,
Into a relationship
where I can
Treat her as a friend
or as an adult.
And we're both
guilty of not being
able to do this.
And it seems to me that
it's f*cking up
my relationships with women.
Nowadays most
families divorce,
And they're single parents
and with a lot of strife,
you know.
This way it would be
a single parent
from the beginning,
Without the divorce
and the mess
in the middle.
Well, don't forget
what happened to us.
Mama left when I was 10.
I know.
That wasn't fair.
Papa was not
a good mother.
[laughs] I know. That's why
I'm such a good mother.
And you know I had
to take up the slack
but we did okay.
We could have
done better maybe
if she'd been around.
That's true.
You know, maybe
this child should, uh,
Have a real father
instead of some
kind of mystery man.
Well, he'll have
his uncle Harland.
Yeah?
Yeah, okay.
Are you seductive
with your mother?
I imagine I am, yeah.
Is she seductive
with you?
I think so, probably.
I think that all sons are
seductive with their mothers
and vice versa.
Are you dark
with your mother?
Yes, I show her
only that side.
You only show her
the dark side?
Yeah.
How does she respond?
I guess she approves of it
and I guess
that's part of it.
My mother reads
darkness as depth.
If you're-- if you're down,
if you're brooding,
Then it's-- it's perhaps
a profundity.
Brooding,
at least she'll give me
The benefit of the doubt,
you know.
[exhaling]
My spiritual teacher told me
That I can either
be in love
or I can be in fear.
And which is it?
Well, right now
I'm in fear.
You know when you see
somebody breaking
A cement brick
with their hand?
They think right
through the pain.
So you have to do exactly
the same thing.
It'll work out,
but you have to have
Confidence enough
to get through it all.
And tonight
you should enjoy yourself.
It's a party.
Take a drink.
See me in the morning.
I meet people.
I meet people
on the street.
I meet people but...
You mean, if I stopped you
on the street,
you would talk to me?
I might.
You might?
I did in 1983
on 57th street
And--and, uh, and then
I went to Europe.
He sent me
a round-trip ticket.
You know what I'm also
gonna get rid of?
What?
Call waiting.
Call waiting?
Yeah. Yeah.
Why?
It's a dependency.
I mean, it's...
It's... It...
It puts my life
in--into different, like,
strange priorities.
But what if you have
an important call
and you're...
There no such thing
as an important call.
Why did you get me here?
Because I don't
want you to be angry.
I mean, I wouldn't even
have done anything
If you hadn't told me
that the two of you
weren't together.
Oh, come on, Marjorie,
give me a break.
You know about William and I.
You know how long
we've been together
and how long we haven't.
That's ridiculous.
That's a totally
useless argument.
What do you mean
it's a useless argument?
It's absurd. I mean,
how could you
do this to me?
You're supposed
to be my friend.
I am your friend.
Oh, you have a very nice way
of showing it.
I appreciate it.
I need more friends
like you.
You know who you look like,
don't you?
No.
You know Louise Brooks?
Silent film star,
Louise Brooks.
I have heard of her,
yeah.
Yeah, you look just like her.
Do I?
Yes, you do.
True, you were born about
50 years too late,
But that, for me, is perfect.
Yeah.
Lucy, just forget it.
Okay? It's over.
It won't happen.
It's... Yeah, well.
It is not over.
It's already happened,
my dear.
What I want to do,
why I came here,
Is to give you
a wish bracelet.
Keep your
f*cking wish bracelet,
my darling,
Or give it to somebody
that you care about.
What?
He's sitting over there.
Well, I'm happy
to hear it.
Brooks: Still I think
that's like...
No, only that big...
Oh, I see.
'cause the two
of you together
It's like the odd couple,
you know.
I don't see this as...
It's so hard
getting...
I mean, I don't mean to...
How'd you meet this stud?
I don't care about sex.
You should believe in it.
You should understand
that's just it,
that you don't care.
I don't care about sex.
I mean, I don't wanna
know about sex.
I'm not even
interested in sex.
I know. I know.
Why do you think
I'm interested in doing
therapy to you?
Exactly for that reason.
Because I'll have
the pleasure of seeing you
appreciate sex.
I don't want sex now!
And your problem
will be completely cured
And I'll go on with
another case of mine.
You will? What do you do?
You have sex with me,
you cure me
then you leave me?
You abandon me?
I answer the personals
is what I'm trying to say.
He put in a personal?
Yes,
he did and I answered it.
It would immediately
solve your problems.
It would be like
one of those quick things,
Not those drawn-out,
nonsensical
introspective therapies.
A quick, direct-action,
directive therapy.
How long would it take?
I'm taking
an ad out tomorrow.
Don't kid me.
Are you serious?
Look, I don't wanna--
I don't wanna
jerk you around.
I delivered the groceries.
I work for the grocery store.
Did you bring a rubber?
A what? What?
Anthony, don't bullshit me.
Did you bring
a rubber or what?
Did I bring a rubber?
Is there an echo in here?
No, I didn't bring a rubber.
All right.
Are you kidding?
So, we'll stop
on the way home.
I'm going home with you?
We definitely do
have an echo in here.
Yeah.
It's just that I'm not
used to someone
Being that forward
with me, you know.
Oh.
I just didn't...
Didn't I ask you
what you were doing
after this?
Yeah, I just thought
we're gonna hang out
And have another
drink or something.
A literate, intelligent...
Illiterate?
Literate.
Oh, a literate gentleman...
A literate,
intelligent, cultured...
That's me.
...Gentle.
Yeah, that's me.
Gee whiz,
I could take an ad out.
And...
Come on, let's start
the New Year's
off with a pop.
You serious?
Hi.
Hi.
Oh, hi, Dr. Stadthagen.
I see you know my name,
And as a matter of fact,
I heard my name
being mentioned.
You did.
We were talking.
I'm fascinated
by the story
about how you met.
I've never heard of that.
What?
Yes.
And you always tell me
not to tell
people about that.
Well, it's a great story.
Do you realize
how valuable you are
to me?
Why do you think
I'm paying you
what I'm paying you?
No, I do. It's not that.
I know I'm valuable to you.
But some people
are very ashamed
to admit it, you know.
I met one man
through the personals
Who only agreed
to meet me,
uh, in a place,
Where then he could
say afterwards,
If anybody asked us
where we met,
We would say at we met
at the Carnegie hall
box office buying tickets.
You're a lovely woman,
you know that?
I mean,
you ever done this before?
Is this like...
Oh, yes,
I've done this before,
But I certainly
haven't got the ordinary
reason for doing it.
You excite
the hell out of me.
I do?
Yeah.
Really?
I look forward
to coming to work.
Really?
I have fantasies
that maybe
we'll have an affair.
Really?
Yeah.
What do you think
about it?
Why do you say that
it's not the ordinary reason
for meeting people?
You want to meet people
because you're lonely.
We want to meet people
because we're lonely.
We want to have a partner.
I most certainly...
I'm surprised
that you don't know me
well enough
To keep this illusion
about my being lonely.
I'm not lonely
in the least.
That has nothing...
You're never lonely?
Well, in fact,
it had nothing...
Let me feel your hand.
Does blood run there?
I like you.
I mean, I think
you're a very nice person
and everything but...
[clearing throat]
I don't want to
hurt your feelings.
Look, you've got the job
Whether you have
an affair with me
or not.
I couldn't possibly have
an affair with you.
I don't have affairs
with men.
If I believe
completely contrary
To the classical
psychoanalytic
point of view,
That you don't
detach yourself
from the people's lives
But that you attach
yourself very much
To the people
you give therapy to.
But I don't want
to be like these
false psychiatrists
Who gain control over people
and then have sex with them.
So instead I have sex
with the women first
And then,
if they're suitable,
I have therapy with them.
Do you like kids?
Kids?
Yeah.
Yeah, I suppose. Yeah.
You want them sometime?
Yeah, I definitely do.
Definitely?
Stadthagen:
I need to put in these ads.
I need to continue
to have sex
with these women.
It has nothing...
I know you need to.
Yes,
but you don't know why.
It has nothing
to do with my wanting
to have sex with them.
It has nothing
to do with anything
emotional or physical.
It has to do
with the fact
That that has to be
gotten over with
So there's nothing
interfering with the therapy
working properly.
Woman: Right,
like your heart, huh?
Like your heart?
Why are you talking
irrelevant subjects here?
I'm talking about
a rational system
I have.
Yeah, that's right.
Rational system.
Rational system,
all up here.
The idea is to get this
going a little bit more,
too, you know.
You're just
in a very primitive
and childish way jealous.
And that's so preposterous
even to think
that you'd be jealous...
Yes, I am jealous.
I am jealous.
But there's nothing wrong
with being jealous.
I'm a passionate woman.
There's nothing wrong
with being jealous!
How tall are you?
6'1".
Yeah?
Why?
You're really over 6-foot?
I'm 6-foot. I can never
find anybody tall enough.
That's... That's encouraging.
Tall enough?
Yeah.
Woman 1: Listen,
how many actors
do you know out there?
Woman 2:
I never f*cked actors.
You better haven't.
How about models?
So, you make a resolution,
or what?
Well, you know,
What I want for this year
and for every
year from now on,
Is I want God
to stop saying,
"not yet."
He says this to you?
How old are you?
Twenty-three.
Twenty-three?
Yeah.
Young.
I guess.
No, it's young, believe me.
Okay.
Yeah, it is.
You're really cute. Yeah.
Do you ever go out
with older women?
Yeah, I do.
Would you like
to go out with me?
It would be a new
experience for me
Because I always go
out with older men.
Okay, let's do it then.
Yeah, really? When?
Um, it really depends on...
I gotta look at my book.
Oh, you gotta look
at your book.
Yeah. No, it's...
I don't know.
What's your wish
for the new year?
I want to get
back into television.
I left too soon.
Fees started going up
astronomically after I left.
All my friends are richer
than me 'cause they stayed
in television.
So I figured if I get
back in television,
I can make enough money
to not worry
about doing TV.
Want to sing me a lullaby
one last time?
[singing in Czech]
What're you doing in my room?
What are you doing
in my room?
I, uh, just didn't want
to be out there anymore
With all of the stuff
going on out there.
What do you mean?
Your friends are
totally insane.
Everybody seems
nuts out there.
And, uh, something
depressing about it,
too.
I don't know what that is.
Something made me
moody and weird.
Why is it getting you
moody and weird?
I don't know.
Why you're susceptible
to some of them?
One of them?
Why does that get you moody?
I don't know.
Maybe because
I think you're worth
more than that.
Thank you.
What did you
come here for?
Escape.
Come on, escape.
I should escape, huh?
Is this where
I should escape to?
This is pretty nice.
Hi.
Hi.
So why are you
susceptible to this Guy
you're susceptible to?
I don't know.
I don't know.
I just am.
You are, huh?
Not so much anymore,
really.
Oh.
I'm okay.
Billy: What did you want
to talk to me about?
Hand me the bear.
Hand you the bear.
The bear or the mallard?
The mallard.
[laughing] the mallard.
There you go.
What?
This day's been
weird for me,
I'll tell you that.
Why?
Well,
I thought I had forgotten
certain feelings,
And I thought I was never
gonna feel again.
And then I begin to think
Perhaps I can feel
some of those feelings
again.
Not that I'm feeling
those feelings about you,
But it's feeling stuff.
As I'm never going
to see you again,
I wanted to tell you that
I find you very
sexually attractive,
That I get all
kinds of feelings...
Really?
...Mm-hmm, around you.
I always have.
I feel that way about you.
Yeah?
Yeah.
You happen to be
The source to which
this stuff is directed,
But it is not about you.
I know it's not about you,
And you know I know
it's not about you.
It's not about me.
So, uh, it's still
very nice
to be reminded
That one can feel
certain stuff
Even if it's toward
a weird baby like you.
The--the reason
I never did anything
is because of Lucy.
That would be stupid.
I was...
I never sh*t
where I eat, you know.
I was always taught that.
So you don't have
a real good sense
Of what you're
worth then, huh?
Maybe not.
Well, I can tell you,
it strikes me
That you're worth
a great deal,
A really great deal.
And it seems insane to me
That you don't go
for somebody who knows
how much you're worth.
You know, that that
doesn't get reinforced
In any kind of relationship
you should have.
Well, soon.
Soon?
Yeah.
Maybe now.
Maybe now?
What does that mean?
When I was a little girl,
I had these
same kind of feelings
about my father.
That you have for me?
Only I was a child.
But I knew that
he didn't like my mother
So I grew up with
this, uh, sense of shame.
About?
Liking him that way.
Sexually?
You liked
your father sexually.
So maybe it's just better
to get my own apartment
And not have to be
around all these men
anymore
And deal with
all this stuff.
And feel ashamed.
I feel that way, too.
You do?
A lot, yeah. About sex.
There's something,
even in the beginning
of it,
I already feel
ashamed of what hasn't
happened yet sometimes.
I'm sorry.
Oh, it's all right.
I can't do this.
Oh, sure you can.
No, no, I can't.
Oh, come on.
I'm sorry. I really can't.
Of course you can.
No, no, I can't.
Of course you can.
What are you...
No, you don't get it.
I really can't.
No one's ever
made me feel sexually
desirable before.
I get these feelings
around you.
They're very strong.
I hope it's not because
you're Lucy's boyfriend.
No.
Sit here for a second.
Come on. Come on, seriously.
Drew, I can't do this.
Will you please give me
one more moment?
I'm serious.
One more moment
means one more moment.
I can't do this.
It doesn't mean one second.
No, that's all I got.
That's all the time I got.
Wait a minute.
I'm sorry.
It wasn't... It... I'm sorry.
I don't know what
made me do this.
I really don't.
That's okay.
Okay?
Yeah.
So...
[shushing]
Don't get nervous.
It's okay.
No, I'm nervous.
I shouldn't have
done this.
I just ran in here
and I did this.
And I've had
too much to drink
and I'm really sorry.
[shushing]
It's okay.
It's good for me.
I'm sorry.
You think?
Maybe.
You want to sit
down here?
I'll move over.
Oh...
Here we go.
Here we go.
But I, really, this is wrong.
[yelps]
what...
Yes, I swear to God.
I know,
you must think I'm crazy.
Do you realize
the incredible pain
my arm is in?
I'm sorry.
Let me fix your arm.
Let me work on your arm.
No, really, I'm sorry.
What is... What is...
Are we talking about a kiss?
What are we talking about?
A kiss.
A kiss that you got
already.
I'm sorry and I shouldn't
have given you.
Come on now.
What is this?
I mean,
you're making me feel
like I'm 18 years old.
No, I don't mean
to do that. I just, I...
Which is both
a good and bad thing.
Oh, good.
Okay, we'll stick
with the good.
This part of it was the bad.
I don't want to go back
to this part of 18.
Okay.
So...
So forget
this ever happened.
Okay?
I've got these
sensations along...
[shushing]
Forget this ever happened.
Will you...
I didn't come in here,
I didn't do this,
And I have like a whole
group of people out there
That I have to go
deal with.
'cause I thought
there was nobody
in here.
I thought I was just coming
into my room and everything,
And here you were,
and I don't really know
why I did that.
My God,
you're a baby,
aren't you?
I'm a four-year-old,
I swear to God.
I'm a total four-year-old.
Okay. Okay. All right.
All right.
Let me just hold you then.
Okay, you can hold me.
Okay.
For a minute.
For a minute.
Okay.
A minute-and-a-half.
But then I have to...
There are many,
many things I have...
You have people out there.
[shushing]
business, I have people.
Okay.
Okay.
Okay.
Okay.
Okay.
Oh, my God. I fell asleep.
[shushing]
I gotta go.
Why? What's going on?
I just gotta...
I've gotta go out there.
Take care of stuff. Okay?
Okay.
Okay.
Just go to sleep.
Okay. It's okay, you sleep.
[moaning]
Oh, God.
Get out of my house.
Get out. I want you out.
Hold on a second.
Get out.
Just wait.
Out of my house.
Come here.
Just wait. Just come here.
I'm not gonna...
I need my...
Get out, damn it!
I need...
Get out! Go!
I'm not gonna get
out of here like this.
Go! Get out!
Lucy, you don't understand.
Look. Look, there's
an explanation.
What is the explanation?
I don't even wanna hear it.
The explanation is
we were just
sitting there talking...
Look, it was not me.
It was not me.
Get out of my house now!
Look, I'm naked.
Don't throw me out like this.
Yes, I'm throwing you
out like this!
It's cold out there.
No. Get out!
Come on.
Give me a break.
Come on.
Get out!
Get out.
Lucy, don't close...
Just give me my pants!
Let me talk to you.
Please, Lucy.
Lucy,
just give me my pants
then I'll leave.
[banging on door]
Lucy.
Lucy, I love you,
come on.
I can't believe this.
I wouldn't let you
kick me out.
You're gonna do this?
Please give me my pants,
all right?
Come on, give me my pants!
Annie, open the door.
Lucy: Annie, let me in!
I wanna talk to you.
Damn it. Annie, please.
I'm not gonna hurt you.
I just wanna talk to you.
Don't do this!
I wanna talk to you!
I wanna talk to you!
What's going on?
Damn it. Open the door.
Annie, please?
Come on.
What is it?
Annie, what are you doing?
Annie,
what's the matter with you?
Drew: What's going on?
Coffee. Go get coffee.
It's in the kitchen.
Annie, what did you do?
What did you do?
I did nothing.
What did you do, damn it?
What did you do?
I just took a few pills.
What did you take?
I don't-- I don't know.
What do you mean
you took a few pills?
What do you mean?
What does that mean?
What kind of pills?
What did you do?
Man, I'm so depressed.
I don't even
know what I took.
Well, what are we
supposed to do?
I mean, do you want me
to go call a doctor?
What do I do?
Do you have to throw up?
Do you wanna
get up and throw up?
Come on.
No, I don't wanna do anything.
Annie, you gotta...
I just want to calm down.
You can't calm down.
What did you take?
What did you take,
damn it? Talk to me.
I just... I just wanna
not be depressed.
Oh, fine, Annie.
We'll get you
not to be depressed
But you're gonna
have to get up.
You got to get up, damn it!
No, I'm fine.
Get up.
Please, get up.
No, really, I'm fine.
Annie, please get up.
I want you to drink coffee
and I want you
to walk around. Get up!
How many pills?
I need to know,
damn it!
I need to know.
There were just
a few pills left.
Why did you f*ck Billy?
Why did you f*ck Billy?
Why?
I'm so tired.
Why did you f*ck him?
Please tell me.
What are you doing?
Please kiss me.
Annie, I can't kiss you.
What do you mean
kiss you?
Just once.
Annie,
what's the matter with you?
Just kiss me.
What do you mean?
Don't ask me to kiss you.
What are you talking about?
Why are you doing this?
Please, Luce.
Annie.
Luce.
What is the matter with you?
Why are you doing this?
Please explain this to me
because I don't understand.
I'm just so miserable.
Well, what is the matter?
I mean,
you gotta talk to me.
I can't deal with this.
I can't stand the fact
that you're leaving.
I mean, I don't care
about Billy.
And I...
It was like being
you with Billy.
It was a way of
getting close to you
being with Billy.
You don't know that
I'm in love with you?
All these last four years,
you don't get that?
I mean, you've never like
even thought about
That that's maybe
what was wrong?
And I just care about you,
and it just hurts.
It really hurts to be
so much in love with you
And have you going away.
I mean,
it didn't matter before
when you were here
And we could be together
all the time.
I just don't feel connected
to anyone else but you.
I mean, no one.
I just don't want
to lose that.
Please,
just please understand.
Please, Luce.
Let me kiss you once
before you leave.
Make me feel better. Huh?
Yeah?
Come on, a real kiss.
A real kiss?
Yeah.
Just once.
Annie.
Just once. It'll be fun.
Come on. Come on.
I love you, too, ann. I do.
Lucy: What happened to Winona?
Annie: She left with
that red-headed guy.
Who's that red-headed guy?
I don't know.
I thought you knew him.
You're gonna be okay, huh?
Is she gonna be okay?
She is gonna be okay, yes.
She just...
There were only
a few pills left
In the bottom
of that bottle
and she took them.
How many?
Just a couple, actually.
I--I thought
she'd done something
really stupid but...
What do you mean
a couple?
There was a whole bottle.
No, there were just
a few left.
It's been around
the house forever.
She's all right now.
She's resting.
But she doesn't have to go
to a hospital or anything?
No, she's fine.
What a day!
What are you gonna do?
I'm gonna go to la
and find a place to live
and...
Find a place to live?
You don't have
a place to live?
Not yet.
Where--where are you
gonna stay?
I don't know.
I'm gonna look around
And find an apartment
somewhere.
Why don't you stay
at my house?
What is it?
The keys to my house.
Stay in my house.
Really?
Yeah, till you get settled.
I--I really would
like that.
Are you sure?
Sure I'm sure.
Then I'll know where you are
and you'll know where I am.
Yes, I will.
And will you call?
I will call.
You don't have to write.
Okay, good, but I'll call.
Drew: You know,
when you look at the light
of a star in the Sky
What you're seeing
isn't the star existing
as it is right now.
You're seeing something
that hasn't existed
For millions and millions
and millions of years.
The light
from that star is coming
toward you from the past.
That star has ceased
to exist by the time
that its light gets to you.
You're seeing it now
in your present
But that star
has ceased to exist
Millions of years
before you were born.
And by the same token,
if somebody
on another star,
Somewhere millions of years
into the future,
Is looking
back at us with a telescope
powerful enough to see us,
They could see us right now,
at this very moment,
But what they'd be seeing
is the light
from our present,
Which is their future,
But we've been dead
for millions of years.
We're gone and yet
they're seeing us
right now.
Past, present, future.
It all depends
what star
you're standing on.
♪ for the first time
in my life
♪ I've taken to deep water
♪ from the shelter of the cove
♪ I've gone sailing on the sea
♪ and I will always be there
♪ sailing deep upon the water
♪ and you will never, ever
♪ see the last of me
♪ don't lose heart
♪ it's the beginning,
not the end
♪ it's just the start
♪ beautiful family of friends
♪ don't lose heart
♪ and I'll be back with you
again
♪ you've finally found
♪ a family of friends
♪ I've taught you
all my tricks
♪ now you have taken
to deep water
♪ and like I always told you
♪ we will sail
just like a dream
♪ and I will always be there
♪ sailing deep upon the water
♪ and you will never, ever
♪ see the best of me
♪ don't lose heart
♪ it's the beginning,
not the end
♪ it's just a start
♪ you've found
a family of friends
♪ don't lose heart
♪ and I'll be back with you
again
♪ you've finally found
a family of friends
♪ don't lose heart
♪ don't lose heart
♪ it's the beginning,
not the end
♪ it's just a start
♪ you've found
a family of friends
♪ don't lose heart
♪ and I'll be back with you
again
♪ you've finally found
a family of friends ♪
New Year's Day (1989)
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