04x01 - Winds of Change

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Jazz: last season on "I am jazz"...

Happy birthday.

Oh, my god.

This is too much!

Jeanette: I would have to say we did a pretty good job

For jazz's sweet .

Do you think that you'd be interested

In dating trans people maybe?

Um, for sure. Yeah.

Well, I know this guy shane.

I think I'm just going to sit down, honestly.

I'll sit with you. It's okay.

Jazz: dating has always been a weird, awkward situation.

[ Shane ]

This is life.

Like, you're going to be in social situations.

It's something you need to work on.

I'm on the search for america's next top vag*na.

Oh, my god.

It's going to be difficult to do the type

Of vaginoplasty that you want.

I would like to do the surgery in two parts.

You feel like you have all the pieces to the puzzle yet?

It doesn't feel perfect yet.

To create an adequate vag*na in terms of depth and diameter,

My suggestion would probably be to use the penile inversion

Plus the skin graft from the lower abdomen.

Yay! No colons, no intestines, just the standard vaginoplasty.

Now, let's make steps towards getting a date

And getting it done.

Jazz: this season on "I am jazz"...

-Come on, jazz. -You're going to feel it.

It's a new jazz. It's a new world for us.

She's independent.

I happened to meet a girl who I think you would really like.

Wait. A girl?

This is a good time to experiment with my sexuality.

-What do you do for fun? -Oh!

The more I get to know her, the more I am attracted to her.

Is this a soul mate or a sexual mate?

I really feel like a beached whale.

Man: jazz doesn't have

The healthiest relationship with food.

In other words, she's too fat.

My eating habits are beyond my control.

Let's go. Push yourself.

Yeah.

So, bad news first.

Jazz: I feel like marci overpromised

What she said she could do for me surgically.

We can put in a tissue expander in the scrotum,

And you slowly fill it up.

We're talking, like, the size of a grapefruit.

No. No.

Man: right now, we have no evidence that people are,

In fact, born this way.

We love ourselves. We embrace who we are.

You don't like who you are.

Wish that you could embrace this, too.

You were born a certain way, and you don't love

How you were born, apparently.

Don't tell me if I don't love myself

Because I know who I love, not you.

Hurricane irma is a monster category storm.

Jazz: I am freaking out.

This is the most powerful storm

Ever recorded in the atlantic ocean.

Jazz: my entire family is right in the path of it.

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Jazz: since last year, there have definitely been

A lot of new changes in my life.

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I finally got my license, and I can just go out and drive

Whenever I feel like it,

And I like the independence

And the freedom that it gives me.

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Hello.

I'm really excited because today I am getting my hair

Dyed a different color.

I've never done anything, so it's just so different.

Oh, yeah. You're going to love it, though.

How do your parents feel about you doing this?

They do not know.uh-oh.

Partially, I'm going to dye my hair

Just because I want it to look cute,

But also I feel like I'm entering a new stage of my life.

I decided that I wanted the bottom surgery,

And after looking up countless different surgeons,

I chose marci bowers

Because she just provided the best option possible.

This year, my biggest priority

Is really just to set a date for the surgery,

Get this operation done and continue growing up.

What made you do this?

I'm just ready for a change kind of reflecting my personality.

I feel like I'm definitely evolving as a person.

Last year, I feel like I was going on playdates,

And now I want to explore going on real dates.

All right. Come on over here, jazz.

In the past, I also didn't like socializing that much,

But I'm trying to make new friends

And really engage in life.

Overall, I just feel like I'm in a good place in my life.

All right. What do you think?

I love it, honestly. You love it?

My goal was to look like a mermaid,

And I feel like a mermaid.

Yay. Beautiful.

It's, like, exactly what I wanted.

Good.

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Ooh. This candle smells so good.

What does it smell like?

Like lemon.

Is this a card for your mom's birthday?

Yep. It's blank.

That's because you're the first to sign it.

My mom's birthday is coming up,

And it's just a good time for the family to get together.

Sander and griffen are back for her birthday, so I love it.

It's no secret that I am suffering

Through partial empty nest,

And I still cry when I go by their bedrooms.

So any time the twins come home makes me really happy.

Greg: ari couldn't make it, but she's doing great.

She's in her senior year, so we're excited for her.

She's matured quite a bit.

Like, the other kids are still in that teenage phase

Where I speak and they don't hear me,

And she'll be like, "kids, you're ignoring mom."

I'm like, "whoa, somebody is sticking up for me.

This is great."

So, what's going on for your mom's birthday?

Well, we're going to go to this restaurant

That I know she likes a lot and then the big surprise.

What's that?my brother and his fiancée

Are coming in from ohio to surprise her.

Oh, okay. Yeah.

Is your brother meeting us there, or is he coming here?

He's going to meet us there.

Okay. But we're all going together?

Me, you, griffen, sander, and jazz?

Yeah, mm-hmm, our family is going.

Where is jazz?

I don't know.

You know what? Her car is not here.

The biggest change that I've seen from jazz is that now

That she has her driver's license, she's independent.

She didn't say, "hey, I'm leaving."

No, she just leaves."Can I go? Can I take the car?"

I told her not to do that anymore.

She just gets up and goes.

It's so weird because I'm like, "jazz, jazz, come here.

I need to talk to you." Gone.

So it's a new jazz.

It's a new world for us.

I've got to get the cake all set.

Ice-cream cake? Duh.

My mother only likes ice-cream cakes.

Are you going to put the number on the cake,

Or are you going to...?

No, I'm going to put candles on the cake.

Hello! Hello.

Surprise!

Holy crap.

I kind of have learned to just embrace her uniqueness.

Are you going to maintain it, though?

Because you're not, like, into that kind of stuff.

You know what? I forgot to buy color-maintaining shampoo.

Daddy has some.i think I have some.

Daddy has some for when he dyes his hair.

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Sander, griffen, can you guys help me out with something?

Well, I see a hammock right here.

Yeah, I need help with the hammock.

I see a really, really trashy hammock.

That thing is in bad shape.

Sander and I are now in our fall semester

Of sophomore year, and it's crazy.

We're living in a frat house.

The frat house has very minimal rules.

It's a rambunctious crowd.

Very rambunctious crowd.

The boys are much different now that they've been in college.

They live in their fraternity house,

Which has added a new dynamic.

He doesn't like it as much.

Greg: you're coming in awfully late.

You guys come in at, like, in the morning.

You don't follow the rules.

Let's just say that a year of college changes a person.

They came back with quite a different view

On what it is to be social, how to enjoy life,

And we're tackling that issue at the moment.

Can you let me finish tying it?

I thought you were done.

Is there anything else you need us to help you with?

No. Thanks, guys.

Have a good nap.

I think I just want to test out this hammock.

[ Laughter ]

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Jazz spends a lot of her time in her room binge-watching tv,

Eating whatever she wants,

And has been gaining weight as a result.

Jazz: I'm a very, very hungry girl.

Anywhere there's a bunch of food,

I'm going to pig out, and it's the best thing ever.

[ Ringtone playing ]

Hello?

Hi, jeanette, how are you?

I'm great now.

Since jazz decided to go with dr. Bowers,

We've connected a few times,

And we're working on getting a set date

To have the bottom surgery.

Jazz.

What? Look who I have.

Is that marci?

Hey, it's me, jazz.what's up?

How are you?

Guess what we're going to talk about.

Vaginas.

We obviously want this to really be the best surgery

It could possibly be.

Mm-hmm.

I've been considering a number of ideas

That would be beneficial, and what I would like to do

Is just have you come see me again,

If it's possible, where we can talk about some of this.

Jazz: I'm very surprised that dr. Bowers says

That she has new ideas

Because when I went on the consultation

With her a year ago,

She wanted to do the standard vaginoplasty in one step,

And she was really confident about it.

I just want to get these things on the radar

So that we have everything in order for

When we actually have a surgical date.

We're all about that.

I am totally shocked that we have to go out

To california again to see dr. Bowers.

It must be really important.

Can't wait to see you in person, okay?

All: bye.

For us to go all the way out to california is not,

Time-wise, practical right now, but you know what?

I will go to the ends of the earth to do what I need for jazz

To have her surgery done the right way.

Aw, the chip broke.

What the heck is this?

What? I'm eating.

Buffalo chicken dip should not be in a crock-pot on jazz's bed.

It's just -- that is unhealthy.

Let's just clear it out. Give me that.

I'm getting all the junk food out of here.

No. What are you doing?

I'm taking this.

Okay.

I see wrappers over here.

-Where? -In here.

Oh, my god.

Jazz, what is this?

This is all, like, takeout food.

Dad thinks I'm not mature enough to have this bottom surgery.

Greg: I've been seeing certain things

That I'm concerned about.

Hurricane irma is a monster category storm.

It could scour miami beach.

Jazz: the eye could potentially go over our house

And destroy everything.

Is this food that's been eaten, just, like, garbage,

Or is it food that you're still eating?

This is disgusting, jazz.

How long have you been doing this for?

Because I know it couldn't be that long.

It would've started to smell or something.

It's been, like, maybe, like, or months.

Or months?

Ever since I started driving and I've been able to go out,

Where I can order any food from anywhere.

Jeanette: you know, I knew that jazz had been doing

Some bad eating here and there,

But when I find the degree

To which she has gone to obtain the food

And hide the food, it's like a hoarder.

It's like garbage hoarder.

I'm speechless.

I really don't even know what to say.

Jazz: if I look at my body in the mirror,

I could clearly see that I've gained weight,

And I'm not really happy with that image.

However, just -- I love food so much.

It makes me feel comfortable and safe and happy.

Any ideas on what we can do to help you?

Do we go to a therapist?

No.

You know I love you, and I want you not to do this.

I'm nipping this in the bud.

We're going to do like we did a couple of years ago

And do the health-food kick.

I don't know if she's just super hungry

Or if there's emotional eating behind it.

Maybe it's a combination of both.

On top of that, she's not super disciplined

About working out, and that's important.

I think that's a sign of maturity.

I don't want to make you feel really bad,

But this has got to stop, okay?

All right. Bye.no more junk food for you.

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This looks really nice.

Watch how dad opens the door for me.

Aw. What a gentleman.

Hello.hi. How are you?

We're at the lebanese restaurant tonight

Because it's jacky's th birthday,

Years young,

And she's accepted and embraced the fact

That she's a senior citizen.

She doesn't, like, "oh, I'm so old. I don't..."

No, you won't hear that from her.

Hello. How are you doing?

Good.oh, look who's here.

I'm here. You didn't start eating without us.

Happy birthday.

I have an expression that the kids have grown up,

And we've grown older.

Keep the "we" out of it.

You feel you're growing older?

Oh, every day that I wake up and I'm upright,

I'm thrilled.

Who's that?

Holy moly.

Surprise. I wondered.

What a surprise this is!

Jacky: we see jonathan and his fiancée very infrequently.

He's so far away, so this was truly a treat.

This is probably as surprised as you're ever going to see me.

Before we came in, I said, "mom is going to go like this."

That's the face she was.

My better look?

She's going to do the edith bunker. That's it.

Jeanette: I really enjoy having everybody together,

As many of us as possible,

Because we're all very busy in our own little lives

And doing our thing,

And we should have more times with each other.

You know, I would rather be with my family than anybody else.

Jazz, I'm just curious, in terms of transition and surgery,

How things are going.

Basically, the last thing I did recently was figure out

That I'm going to go to dr. Marci bowers

For my bottom surgery.

When are you thinking of doing that?

You know, I was thinking about getting the surgery, like,

A little bit less than a year from now,

And then I told dad that,

And now he thinks I'm not mature enough

To have this bottom surgery.

Do you want to explain that?

Nope.

You're not putting everything in full context,

So I'm not going to go there.

He doesn't think I'm mature enough.

I'm going to be an -year-old,

And then I'll have the perfect vag*na.

Last year, we went on a lot of consultations,

And we talked about the timing of it.

I personally feel like the surgery should be done

After you finish high school, which is when you're .

But then she'll be in college.

What are you worried about?

Like, kids are doing it at, like, .

Before we actually set an actual date,

I would like to see her in a bit more control of her life.

I've been seeing certain things that I'm concerned about.

I feel like, ultimately, it's my own decision,

And I'm going to choose what's best for me.

I'm not going to do this procedure

In the middle of college because then I'll be dilating,

Which is, like, a recovery process, inside a college dorm,

And that's not preferable.

While I definitely love my dad's feedback and advice,

I feel like being at home

So I can recover with my mom by my side

Is something really vital,

And it's something that I want to do.

The bottom line is, is this family,

The support that they're providing you,

That's the big deal,

And who you are is who you are.

We're all there for you. That's a given.

As I think about jazz from the time

That she was barely walking to who she's become today,

It's been an emotional roller coaster,

But what I see now from jazz

And what I see from my family I'm very proud of.

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Get up, get up.

Jacky: it was fun to dance with the belly dancer.

Jack: she thinks I have no rhythm,

And I think she has no rhythm,

So together we are arrhythmic.

How did we create jeanette on the arrhythmic method?

Think about that one.

Happy birthday, my dear.

Oh, my lord.happy birthday.

This was a great, fun time,

And that's a nice way to get through a birthday

That you count but don't count.

I'm usually not at a loss for words,

But I have to say tonight I am.

I love you all dearly.

This is so special.

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Hello.hey.

Skylar already got the bottom surgery.

What was it like to pee for the first time?

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I wonder what skylar is going to say about my hair.

I wonder what skylar is going to say

About what's been going on in her life.

Oh, I know. I'm excited to hear about it.

Skylar is one of my friends who also happens to be transgender.

[ Knocking ]they're here.

We've been close for the past few years.

Oh, my god, your hair.

And she's always been there for me.

-Hello. -Hey. Look at you.

You're, like, the blonde.

Oh, my god.

Skylar already got the bottom surgery.

-She really should model. -Yeah, you should.

She's still the same skylar, but she just seems to be more lifted

By being comfortable in her body.

Do you want to, like, get food, or something because...

Oh, my god. I'm starving.

I'm honestly so eager to talk to skylar.

You ready for me to drive?

Oh, my god.i don't think you are ready.

I'm going to be interrogating this girl,

Asking her how her surgery went,

What happened, what was everything like.

I just want to know everything.

Please don't k*ll us.

So you lost a lot of weight, you skinny bitch.

I lost, like, I'd say, like, or pounds.

Hopefully I'll lose weight when I get my surgery

Because, like, you know, like, I'm a little pudgy.

I'm so hungry right now.

I haven't eaten anything all day.

Anything?

Nothing, but even if I did eat something,

I would still be hungry.

I literally have a problem.

Sometimes, I just eat a lot, even if I'm full.

It's like my mind is still hungry.

The worst part is sometimes, like,

I just don't even care that I'm fat

Because I look at it as, my body, as just, like,

A vehicle,

Rather than, like, who I am, because...

You don't see it as you.

I wish jazz was more self-confident

Because she seemed like

She wasn't completely there with herself.

When it comes to dysphoria, I'm hoping that the surgery

Will help that mind and body connect.

But I still need to keep my body healthy so I can live longer.

I want it to be a healthy vehicle.

Think of it as a produce truck rather than an ice cream truck.

That was so corny.

Do not enter.

It doesn't really matter.

Are you doing a charburger, too?

I'll get the charbuster, the bigger one.

Okay.

I definitely think that my eating habits

Are a real problem.

My grandpa is, like, every time he sees me

Eating unhealthy, he's like, "you know what that's doing?

The plaque is building up in your arteries,

And you're either going to have a stroke or a heart att*ck."

Let's eat.

I want to hear how skylar's been doing since the surgery.

I want to know what I'm in for.

Yeah, it's been a long road.

She's doing great now.

Like, the last, I would say, like, weeks have been good.

But I'm going to say, like, , /

To weeks was really, really hard for her.

For so long, we have been pioneers in this journey,

And it's hard.

I mean, I don't mind it, but it's so refreshing,

So nice, to have somebody

I can actually ask the questions to.

She had a reaction to any kind of topical medication

They gave her.

So any antibiotic creams or anything like that,

Her body just did not like.

Those were used, like, for infection, possible infection,

And to reduce pain?

Yeah.and then they caused more pain?

Yes.poor baby!

A lot, and I was, you know, falling apart.

It was just brutal. Like, seeing your child in pain

And not being able to do anything is really hard.

I'm nervous about the mental stuff.

Like, it scares the crap out of me.

I've seen jazz where the depression

Is causing her such pain,

And she's been like, "mommy. Make this feeling go away."

I'm definitely more concerned about jazz's mental well-being.

We can't prepare ourselves

For what she's going to be like mentally.

We have no idea.

So have you guys narrowed down your surgeon search?

Yes, we've found a surgeon, marci bowers, who's wonderful.

I hear such nice things about her.

She said all the things that jazz wanted to hear.

She really wanted a one-step procedure,

And she looked at her. She's like,

"Yeah, you know, it's small, but we got this,"

Or, as jazz would say, vaginal depth.

I could see jazz, like, dating somebody,

"Well, how big are you?"

Yeah, "I can only go inches."

Right. "Oh, you're ? I'm sorry. This is not going to work out."

Are you excited for philly?

Oh, my god. I'm so excited.

The philly trans health conference

Is a place that my mom and I go to every year.

It's the largest convention for transgender people,

Thousands come.

You know my friend noelle, right?

Yeah.she'll be there.

She's really sweet.

We have a lot of friends there.

We have a table set up where we talk about our foundation.

I love it.

I just want to meet new people.

Yeah, let's make new friends this year.

I'm tired... Like, you're not going to...

I'm tired of all y'all people.

All right. So now you have to tell me.

How's everything going with you...

Like, your vag*na?

It's good. Like I said before,

I'm pretty fully recovered by now, I think.

I'm not in any pain.

I really don't remember much of, like, the first weeks,

And my mom tells me that I actually had, like,

An allergic reaction to this antibiotic medicine,

And that's one of the reasons, like,

I was in a lot of pain, apparently, supposedly.

That's good that you don't remember it.

I'm glad I don't remember it.yeah, that's funny.

When I got home and I didn't have any of those medications,

It was really painful.really painful?

What was it like to pee for the first time?

It was so weird feeling.

But now it's normal? Does it feel like, just, regular peeing?

Yeah, regular peeing.

So do you feel different at all, like, as a person or just,

Like, physically?

You know, it's not as different as I thought I would feel,

Bu I feel complete now.

The fact that she loves her body now

And feels more comfortable in her own skin

Gives me hope that maybe I'll feel that same way too.

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Hurricane irma is a monster category storm

Slamming parts of the caribbean.

This is the most powerful storm ever recorded

In the atlantic ocean.

It just went over the island of barbuda hours ago.

Hey, jeanette?yeah?

Can you come down, and can you bring jazz?

Jazz, where are you?

...and flash flooding.

Let's get right to cnn meteorologist chad myers.

What's going on?we get that it's a huge storm.

The question is where is it going to go?

What's it going to do?

A significant change from here to here,

Notice the big, hard right-hand turn.

Could scour miami beach

All the way up even into north carolina.

You still have about miles either way

That the storm can go.

Jeanette: when I hear about a cat hurricane

That is bigger than our entire state,

So I know we're getting hit, I'm freaking out.

Right now, barbuda really took a direct hit.

At miles per hour,

There may not be vegetation left on the island.

Jazz: I've definitely experienced

Some category s and s and s

But, like, nothing as big as this.

It's really frightening.

Wait, so if it is category , can it break down the house?

Like, will the house get destroyed?

It will peel off the roof. Yeah.

What about grandma and grandma, ari, sander and griffen?

What are they going to do?

I'm always concerned about college kids.

They don't, in general, take things super serious.

I'm going to talk to them.

I'm encouraging them to go to shelters.

Ari and the twins are actually in northern-central florida,

And if the hurricane hits florida dead center,

That's where the kids are.

So, you know, I'm bracing myself for the worst unfortunately.

Well, I'm glad you guys are heading off to philly.

I feel a lot better knowing you're going to be out of town

When the storm hits, in whatever capacity it hits.

Jazz: it makes me feel a little bit guilty knowing that

My mom and I are going to be safe from the storm

At the philadelphia trans health conference

While my entire family is right in the path of it.

I was thinking maybe you should come with us

Because I don't like leaving you here alone.

Look, I think we should be cautiously optimistic.

From what they're saying on the news,

It's completely unclear where this thing is going to land.

I'm just not going to leave the house

Just because we might get hit with the storm.

You're definitely going to feel the effects no matter what

Because it's bigger than the whole state.

Look, if it appears that the storm is going to hit us

With any major force,

I need to put on the shutters,

And I want to make sure the house is secure.

Jazz: my biggest fear with this hurricane

Is that the eye could potentially go over our house

And destroy everything.

I don't want to leave my dad behind alone to endure this all.

I just don't like the idea of you sitting here alone

In a hurricane.

We're heading to

The philadelphia trans health conference

With hurricane irma on its way.

Woman: -mile-per-hour winds.

Are you guys staying at your frat house?

Yeah.

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Oh, hello.hi. Oh, my god.

You look so beautiful!thank you.

Michaela is one of my new friends,

Who I met at a pride festival,

And she invited me to this mixer.

I know. I, like, did braids in my hair.

Like, I'm always too lazy for that,

But I did it for the first time.

You put effort.

I put effort.

In the past, I felt awkward and reluctant

To jump into social situations

Because of the anxiety it causes me.

So how old are you guys?i'm .

Oh, me too, me too.

But I really want to be open to explore dating

A little bit more,

And I feel like I'm ready to impress someone out there.

Oh, that sounds so weird, but hopefully it's true.

It's an awesome turnout.

I never expected this many people to show up.

I thought it would be, like, four of us

Because of the hurricane.

Yeah, my mom is, like, freaking out

Because we're going out of town, and my dad is going to be alone.

Hey, guys, we're going to start group now,

So just open up the circle, like we always do.

Today, I'm hoping that jazz makes some new friends,

Bonds with some new people and puts herself out there

Because jazz is never going to discover who she truly is

Until she puts herself into situations

That may be uncomfortable for her.

If you guys always come to group,

You know we just always start with the go-around,

And you're going to say your name, your age,

And then the question of the day is going to be...

What is a really important quality

That you look for in a close friend?

Hi, my name is jojo.

What do I look for in a friend?

Well, loyalty and someone who can enjoy my true laugh

Because when I truly laugh,

I sound like a banshee with a sinus infection.

Jazz: as we're doing our introductions,

Everyone is saying great things.

They're talking about, you know,

What type of friend they look for,

And I agree with them on so many different levels,

And they all just seem so fun.

I just got a retainer, so I have a low-grade lisp,

And it's not the game,

But I guess it adds character to me.

I always say that I want to meet my lover naturally,

Like, in a bathroom, or we bump into each other

And the books go flying everywhere.

Anyway, I don't know if going to a mixer

Is necessarily that natural.

I just know that I'm not going to meet someone

Lying in bed watching tv.

Hey, everyone. I'm jazz.

I am years old, and what I look for in a friend

Is just someone I can dish out with.

Like, I'm brutally honest sometimes,

And I may say something, like, critical,

And I want them to be able to handle that

And say something critical back to me as well.

But I feel like my answer may have been

A little bit too harsh,

And it worries me a little bit.

So now, guys, what we wanted to do is have you pair off

With someone that you liked what they looked for a friend

And have a little conversation.

Jazz: at this point, I really hope that people

Will still want to talk to me.

Woman: don't go to your regulars.

Go to someone that you don't know.

I love you, and I'm stealing you.

Okie-dokie.

Michaela abandons me, and I feel a little bit nervous.

I'm alone, and now it's down to me to socialize.

My name is evan. So nice to finally meet you.

Ivan?evan.

Evan! Oh, I'm like, "ivan." Sorry.

I like your shirt, by the way.

Thank you. Does it make you hungry?

That's, like, my dream on a shirt, for real.

People start coming up to talk to me, and I'm really surprised.

I wanted to say what everyone else said, and then, by the end,

I was like, I just made up with something spontaneous.

Yeah, I mean, exactly.it was so negative.

I'm like, "someone I could be critical with

And dish it out with."

No, no, but, like, that's so true because you want somebody

To be, like, really, really real with me.

That's a real friend.

It kind of came off the wrong way when I said it.

Like, so, as something, like, rude.

We got it. We get it. It's fine.

We're all like that.

Everyone is so cool here.

Yeah. Well, we try.

What's up? How are you doing?good.

I think jazz feels more comfortable than usual today.

I know that she has a lot of issues being in the spotlight.

She's judged quite a bit by people who don't know her,

And so to see a group that is safe for her

Is such a beautiful thing.

We're getting ready to go.

We just wanted to say goodbye to all of you.

We're driving a long...

You should come back.yeah, I want to.

It's so much fun.it's really cool, yeah.

Either way, I think we all should, like, exchange numbers.

Jazz: today, I don't think I found a love interest,

But I learned that I can be

Pretty comfortable in social situations,

And I'm feeling really good.

I think my parents will be happy that I made some new friends.

So, win-win.

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Your mother has been glued to the weather reports.

This is -- this hurts. This is very tough.

But this is like -- you've never experienced this before.

This is my parents' first very big hurricane,

And if irma makes a direct hit, that would be catastrophic.

I really want them to evacuate,

But they want to stay in their condo,

So I'm going to check to make sure

That they are very, very, very prepared.

You've been through many of these.

This one is -- sounds...

To be honest with you, I haven't...

Pretty bad.

...really been through one this size.

I'm getting really nervous.

Jacky has always been a worst-case-scenario person.

Jack, a is coming.

A or a , that's a heck of a powerful storm.

I'm kind of lucky because I've had an airplane ticket

To go to philly for the philly trans health conference

For months and months and months.

For jazz.i mean, I have a hotel room.

I'm getting the heck out of here just in time,

But greg doesn't want to leave the house.

I don't think he realizes how large this is

And how scary it is.

I understand that he would feel better

Just guarding the house during a storm like this,

But I am concerned about greg.

He's in a two-story house with a roof

That can be blown off in a category storm.

I'm concerned about the grandchildren.

Their fraternity house, I feel like it could blow right over.

And what about ari's?

Her house is so flimsy. It's so old.

I said to them, "go to a shelter. Just go to shelter."

Will they listen to you?

I don't know.

The storm is supposed to hit gainesville,

Where the kids are going to school,

And they're really not concerned that I want them in a shelter.

Let's see what we can do here to make sure you're safe.

Let's do a tour.okay.

Let me show you what we've got here.

Look at this. That will close,

And we have one coming in from the other side.

These get pulled together.

I'm not going to pull the whole thing.

I've already bought lots and lots of water, as you can see.

Do you have canned food?

Yes, in my pantry.

Mm-hmm.

We'll show you also where your mother might consider

Getting away from things if the storm gets a little too heavy.

Okay, so where do you want to be, mom?

In her wardrobe closet here, and she'll go in there.

But that's an exterior wall,

And they say don't be near an exterior wall.

Okay.

Because something can go right through that wall.

You are undoing everything that I've tried

To do with your mother. You know that.

I'm just trying to put the fear in you a little bit.

You don't have to work hard. Are you kidding?

You don't have to put the fear in her.

No, but she wants to be in here.

That's not a good place to be.

I'm trying to take away her fear.

I'm just being cautious because it only takes one.

♪♪

Here in miami, all eyes are on hurricane irma.

She is coming right to where we are at this hour.

Woman:the red cross says the storm has already battered

. Million people.

Jeanette: it's just scary to watch the news.

Every time I turn it on, I literally start sweating.

I am leaving my whole family, you, everyone.

This is not the way I want to leave.

I just feel like we should all just get out of the state.

I am really, really unhappy about the fact

That greg is riding out the storm,

But greg is very stubborn.

And you promise you're going to put shutters

On the windows over here?

Yeah. As long as it's going to be a tropical storm or more.

Oh, it's going to be.

They showed a picture of hurricane andrew.

It was like this in the picture, and irma was like this.

It's monstrous.

It's enormous.

I understand jeanette's concern,

But we really have to watch the storm.

They haven't conclusively said it's going this direction,

This direction or this direction.

So, in my mind, now is the time to prepare.

Now is not the time to panic.

The kids are up at college.

That's good, and I'm able to get the house in order,

And I promise you, if there's an evacuation order,

I will get out of dodge.

I feel better knowing that you guys are out of town.

It's just not great. This is really bad.

I'm scared.

On the news, it went from category to category

To category again.

I'm nauseous.

My mind is spinning.

Are you about to throw up?i don't know.

I don't feel well.are you okay?

Want to give you an update on our massive hurricane.

Hurricane warnings in effect for the bahamas

And almost the entire state of florida.

Watches to the north starting to get extended

Because the winds are going to be dangerous there as well,

Knocking out power to possibly to million,

According to fema.

♪♪

We're on a plane right now heading to the philadelphia

Trans health conference,

And while we're both super excited,

We're also worried because dad is stuck at home

With hurricane irma on its way,

And we're just hoping that he stays safe.

And the kids, too, in gainesville.

♪♪

I want to call everybody before we have to go over

To the conference.

Who do you want to call first?

Do you want me to call the boys?

Yeah, let's call the boys.

It's going to be hard to focus on the conference

Like I normally do because my husband and my family

Are down there, my parents, everybody.

Hey.

How are you guys feeling about the storm coming?

It's pretty scary.

I mean, my siblings are expected to be in the direct path

Where hurricane irma is going to go,

And I'm scared for what's going to come.

Wait, are you guys staying at your frat house,

Or what are you doing?

Yeah, I think we're staying unless

We're told that it's not safe.

So, no, who's going to tell you to leave that house,

And then where are you going?

Their fraternity house is pretty old,

And, of course, my worst nightmare

Is that somebody is going to get hurt.

We know what we're going to do.

You guys go have fun at philly.

Well, I can't have fun knowing you're getting hit

By a hurricane, so stay in touch as much as you can and be safe.

-We'll talk soon. -Okay.

-Bye. -Bye.

Bye, love you.

I don't like this at all. This sucks.

Stress, so much stress.

I know.

Even though I am worried about my family,

It's important that I stay calm

Because my mom is panicking a lot.

I love you. I'm really worried.

So stay safe.

I know she just doesn't like this feeling of helplessness.

All right. Who do you want me to call right now?

Dad.dad?

How are you guys doing?

My stomach is in knots because I'm so worried.

I've been texting with the kids,

And gainesville might be getting some strong winds.

I don't know why they're not...

Yeah. I'm concerned.

I was just looking at my phone.

I got an e-mail.

Our flight's been canceled, so we don't know

When we're going to be able to get out of here.

Yeah. I mean, this storm tomorrow is really going to be

The main event in terms of,

You know, the bad hurricane weather.

I really started working on everything

And got everything in order,

So I was able to move all the furniture,

Everything in from outside inside.

You're all set.

I'm actually going to go take a peek out.

Hold on a second.

Whoa.

Jeanette: the storm already looks really bad,

And it's only going to get worse and worse.

Let's talk again, for sure, before the storm comes.

Yeah, I don't know if I'm going to lose power,

So I don't know when I'm going to be able to talk to you next.

Don't worry. I'll be okay. The house is secure.

Everything is secure.

All righty.all right.

Love you guys.love you, too.

Love you.

I'm worried.

I don't like this at all.

My stomach hurts.

I feel nauseous.

My mind is spinning.

I'm thinking all the things anybody would think

If the hurricane was headed towards your family members

And parents, like, everybody that you love.

I just want to go the restroom for a second.

Are you about to throw up?i don't know.

I don't feel well.

I'm just -- maybe it's my nerves.

Let me just catch a breath for a second.

Sorry.

I am feeling so awful right now.

My stomach hurts.

I'm doubled over.

I feel like I'm going to throw up.

-Mom? -What?

Are you okay?

I'm fine.

Did you throw up?

It's hard to assure my mom that everything is going to be okay

Because I'm really not sure if everything is going to be okay.

♪♪

♪♪

Here you go.thanks so much.

No problem.thank you.

Jazz: at this conference, we have a table set up

Where we talk about our foundation,

The transkids purple rainbow foundation.

While it may be hard to get my mind off of the hurricane,

I'm just going to focus on this conference and try to enjoy it.

Nice to meet you.nice to meet you, too.

I just wanted to say thank you to you guys.

I came out to my mom about, like, years ago,

And when I first came out to her,

She kind of, just, like, ignored it and let it go,

And then that's when a lot of your interviews came on,

And I was able to use that as a talking point

To start these conversations.awesome. Good.

And she was able to see parents being accepting,

So I really want to thank you for that.

That's awesome. That makes me very happy.

We love to hear that.

Yeah.

We are meeting a lot of people who have been impacted

By us and sharing our story,

And being able to speak to those people directly is really cool.

Are you guys twins?

We are in the soul. We're twins in soul.

Is your family with you guys up here?

No, they're back at home.

So they're going to endure the hurricane.

Jeanette: I'm pretty good at putting things

In my back pocket when I need to.

So I can put on a smiley face when I'm talking to somebody

Because there's people that I have to have serious

Conversations with, but as soon as they walk away,

I'm like, all right, phone, what's going on with irma

Because how can we completely focus on the conference

Knowing what's happening back home?

-Awesome. -Thank you so much.

Nice to meet you.

-Hey. -Hi.

-Hello. -How are you?

You guys know if our flight has been canceled?

Yes, it's canceled.

I looked on the news.

It went from category to category to category again.

Oh, my goodness.

I feel bad for, like, my dad and my brother

Because we had to leave them there.

I know. Well, that's how I feel about our family.

Are they all boarded up or shuttered up?

We have all the windows shuttered, and then we have,

Like, enough animal crackers to last a lifetime.

Oh, good. Okay.

Noelle: my dad and my brother don't want to leave florida.

They want to make sure that all of our property is safe,

And I worry about them.

They're my family, and I love them,

And I don't want to see them get hurt.

We'll catch up with you later, okay?

Okay.

See, sander texted me.

Oh, no.

Sander texted, "did dad lose power?"

All right. We need to call dad real fast.

[ Ringing ]

Turn up the volume.it is all the way up.

Hi. This is greg. You've reached my voicemail.

[ Ringing ]

Hi. This is greg. You've reached...

He always answers the phone.

[ Ringing ]

Hi. This is greg. You've reached my voicemail.

Jazz: knowing that we can't get in touch with my dad,

I realize that this is real.

This is serious.

Hi. This is greg. You've reached my voicemail.

Jazz: if something goes wrong, we wouldn't even be able to know

About it, and that's a scary thought.