04x02 - Birthday Wishes

[bunniefuu]

[pop music playing]

♪ You don't wanna know the person
I call myself ♪

[Tiffany snoring softly]

-♪ You don't wanna know ♪
-[knock at door][/i]

♪ What's hiding in someone's head… ♪

Tiffy?

Hey, Tiff.

Your date is over, sweetie.

-Okay?
-[/i][Tiffany] Mm-hmm.

-♪ I just wanna get your attention ♪[/i]
-[Tiffany chuckles][/i]

[all] ♪ I really wanna be[/i]
All up in your head [/i]♪

-Hey!
-[snapping fingers]

-♪ But I wanna, gonna get some ♪[/i]
-[laughing][/i]

♪ I really wanna make you my wife, ow! ♪

-[April] Really? Wow.
-[Chelsea] ♪ So I said hey, hey ♪[/i]

♪ Hey, Daddy, hey, hey ♪

♪ Hey, Daddy, hey, hey ♪

-♪ Hey, Daddy, hey, hey… ♪[/i]
-Let's go back. Let's do it.[/i]

-[Chelsea] Are you good, baby?
-What do you need?

Okay. Here's your shoes.

-[April] I'll grab your stuff.
-[Chelsea] Can you give her some water?

-Is Brett still here?
-[Chelsea] No.

-[gasps] Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
-[Chelsea] It's okay. It's okay.

It's all right.

No! I feel so bad.

-[pop music playing]
-[vocalizing]

♪ Say something ♪

♪ Won't you say something? ♪

-♪ Oh, yeah! ♪
-♪ You'll be true ♪

♪ Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh… ♪

I truly believe
that everybody's gonna end up

with the person
that's for them, regardless.

It's just hard.
There's so many great people.

It is, yeah.
Josh checks off all the boxes.

And Marshall. He's a great person.

They're neck and neck right now.
I can't be too mad.

I've been here a week,
and I call it the accelerated program.

People are falling in love here.

My connections are Marshall,

and my other connection is with Josh.

I love them both. We both vibe so well.

Marshall's sensitive. Marshall is smooth.

He's sentimental. He's so calm and giving.

The opposite energy of what I am.

What's your favorite thing
you discovered about me so far?

My favorite thing
that I have discovered about you

is that you are authentic to yourself.

You remind me of home.

-The home is where the heart is, right?
-Oh, stop. You're making me blush.

And Josh is, like, a smack talker.

Josh is the same level as me.

Like, his vibe is just, like,
strong and masculine and tough.

I live by myself, and I'm, like, really,
like, paranoid at a certain time

that I'm just, like, looking at the wall--

Girl, you know you don't have to worry
about that with me.

[Jackelina] Good, fight demons
that try and come and get me.

If Candyman comes,
just know I'm a little bit faster.

-Wow, look at you, first daddy.
-I am first daddy.

[both laugh]

If you're my person, tell me.
Keep it real.

We're in the ring right now.

Like, we got Evander Holyfield
and Mike Tyson,

but we just don't know
who's gonna win it first.

[Kwame] Who was your number one?

-Jackie. Jackie.
-Oh, Jackie. Right, cool.

[Marshall] Jackie and I for sure
have a strong connection.

-We're here for one person.
-Yeah.

Ever since I can remember,
I have been bullied by [/i]my emotions,

and bullied for[/i] my emotions.

In the pods, right off the bat,
I can be sensitive, and it's accepted.

-I'm coming, baby!
-[pop music playing]

♪ Just wanna feel this way… ♪

My innermost hope
coming out of this process

is everlasting love, and damn. [chuckles]

Uh, that's crazy to say just "forever,"

uh, but I'm-- I'm ready for it.

[Jackelina] Can I tell you something?

Tell it to me.

I have a Roomba.

And guess what his name is.

Marshall.

-[laughs]
-What?

I totally forgot about that.

I named him Marshall with two L's.

Dead-ass.

Jack, that is crazy.

[Jackelina] That is crazy.
It was meant to be.

I got a human named Marshall,
and I got a robot named Marshall.

I'm Marshalled out.

-Not yet.
-[Jackelina laughs]

Not yet. I want a little Marshall Jr.

Oh, wow! Oh.

[laughs] I would be a good mom.

But I just don't wanna
raise my kid too hard. You feel me?

Yes.

[Jackelina] That's one thing about me.
I was raised strict as sh*t.

And I'm like,
I don't wanna raise my kid too strict,[/i]

to where my kid feels like
he can't trust me 'cause…

There's a lot of things
I don't tell my parents

because I feel like my parents are so,
like, hard, you know.

[Marshall sighs]

Uh, I am afraid that I will…

I'll raise my kids,
like, how my dad raised me.

[Jackelina] Hmm.

Honestly, I was raised with a lot of love.

Uh, but my dad was not very nurturing in…

[gasps] …many ways.

-[Jackelina] Mm.
-I was never good at math.

Never.

My sister and I,
we would sit at the kitchen table,

and… [sniffles]

…he would berate us.

"You don't know how to do this.
You don't know how to do that." [groans]

Keep in mind, I'm a kid, right?

He would say, uh,

"You're gonna be on the side
of the road begging for change."

-"And I'm not gonna stop to give you any."
-[Jackelina gasps]

Oh, no.

[Marshall] And…

[gasps]

[sighs]

[Jackelina] Oh, honey.

[Marshall] That did a lot to my psyche.

From that day on,
I had anxiety going into math class,

and I would make stupid mistakes

because I just had that
in the back of my mind.

It's not his fault.
He did what he thought was right.

He thought that was encouraging,
but it wasn't.

It was the complete opposite.

But I can't blame him for that.
He's human.

[Jackelina] You have to give
yourself grace too.

You got a good job.
You're-- You're a good man.

You're not on the side of the road
begging for change.

And if you were,
I would give you a dollar.

[exhales]

I'd probably put you in my car. [chuckles]

I'd be like, "You wanna go for a ride?"
You'd be like, "What the f*ck? No."

-"Let's go get some chicken."
-[Jackelina] "Let's get chicken wings!"

No, I promise, like, you're gonna do fine.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ I want you… ♪[/i]

[Marshall] I can't comprehend, uh…

saying that to my kid one day.

You won't. I swear you won't.

Just because, like,
that's how you were raised,

you have the option. You have the choice.

We all have the option,
and we all have the choice.

-You just have to give yourself grace.
-[sniffles]

Give your-- Oh, f*ck, man. [sighs]

[sniffles]

[crying softly]
You have to give yourself grace.

[Marshall sighs]

Jackie, I wanna share my life with you.
Good, bad, ugly.

And I wanna lift you up.
I wanna receive you for who you are.

[exhales] I know you do.

I have to break up
with my other boyfriends now.

You better kick them m*therf*ckers
to the curb.

Oh, man. Okay.

I'll do that. I'll do that for you.

Hey, hey, tell 'em kick rocks.

[Jackelina laughs]

Tell them Marshall sends love.
Kick rocks, m*therf*cker.

[both laugh]

Oh, my gosh.

[sighs] Mmm.

I came in here stonewalled, hard.

And in this pod,

Marshall on the other side,

he's getting all of me and the real me.

The me I don't tell nobody.

-["Catch Me" playing]
-♪ Catch me… ♪[/i]

Okay. Bye, hon.

[Marshall chuckles] Bye.

[Marshall sighs]

That's a walking quality man right there.

And I haven't even seen his face.

♪ Oh! Oh, yeah! ♪

♪ Catch me 'cause I'm falling for you… ♪

[Tiffany sighs] Okay.

I am in love with Brett.

I see my life so clearly with him in it.

Last night, I…

wanted him to know how I truly felt
and not have any reservations.

-I fell asleep on that man.
-[exhaling]

But his voice was so soothing,
and it was a long day.

But, man, I screwed up.

[panting]

I feel

like crap, to be honest.

I have all the explaining to do,

so I'm hoping that he hears me out,

and he forgives me.

Brett Brown?

-[Brett] Tiffany Pennywell?
-[gasps] You're here!

Brett, I was so worried. I was so worried.

Okay, so I accidentally fell asleep.

[Brett] Fell asleep?

You know, I passed out
because I was listening to your voice,

and it is so soothing.

I don't know what you said to me.

I woke up, and then I felt really bad.

Because I was just like,
"Did I just mess everything up?"

I'm just really thankful that you came
into my life at the right time.

I feel like I am ready
for someone like you.

I feel like you are
the person that's gonna make me better.

I'm great right now.

But, man, you inspire me so much.

And I-- I really think it's you, Brett.

I really think it's you.

[pensive music playing]

[Brett] It's-- It's great
to hear your voice.

Um, but yesterday, when I realized
that I didn't hear your voice

on the other side, it just--
it kind of just punched me in the gut.

[Tiffany] Oh, God.

But…

I think at the end of the day,
It's gonna be a small moment

and a funny story, um,
of our journey together.

-Are you still there?
-[Tiffany] Mm-hmm.

I've just enjoyed
getting to know you so much.

You get me.

I feel like you understand me,
and you want me to be a better man.

[Tiffany sobbing]

[Brett] And I truly feel your support

in who I am and the man
that I wanna become.

Absolutely. Oh, my God.

I feel like we would bring
so much happiness into each other's lives.

And so…

Will you marry me?

[squeals]

[pop music playing]

Yes! [laughing]

Abso-freaking-lutely, Brett!

I will. I freaking will.

Yes, yes, yes, yes, I will.

You got it? Yes?

-I hear you. [laughing]
-[Tiffany shouts]

[gasps]

[shouts] Oh! I'll see you soon, Brett.

-Bye.
-[Brett] Bye.

[Tiffany] Oh, sh*t. Oh, my God!

[Brett chuckles]

Thank you, Jesus. [laughing]

-Jesus!
-[chuckles]

-[women shouting]
-I got engaged! Oh, my God!

♪ Let me go ♪

[Kwame] You know,
there are people that I am dating

that are incredible human beings.

With Chelsea,
I see this very ride-or-die person,

who would not ever
allow you to feel unwanted,

um, but at the same time,
like, I'm very, very set on Micah.

And I'm ready to propose to her,
but there's a lot of uncertainty

when you feel as though you are ready
to take that next step

to really make things go all the way.

And-- but I really,
really want validation from her.

Tell me, like… you could see yourself
spending the rest of your life with me.

Like, tell me how you feel about me.

I wanna be like,
"Damn, she's ready, and I'm ready too."

-["I Wanna Love You" by J-Swift playing]
-♪ I wanna love you ♪[/i]

♪ Day in… ♪

-Hello-hello.
-[Micah] Hello-hello.

How are you?

[Kwame] I'm doing fantastic!

It is a new day.
I feel refreshed. How about you?

My day's been good.

Um… [sighs]

I feel like…

We have both been, like,

you know, each other's, like…

[chuckles] …favorite person
through a lot of this.

Yes.

And, like,
I wouldn't want it any other way.

[soft pleasant music playing]

I feel so strongly about you as a person.

But I feel like,

um, that maybe, like,

the slow burn is how it's supposed to go.

I think that we should
explore other connections.

[pensive music plays]

Okay, cool.

That works for me.
Well, uh, thank you for taking your time,

for listening.
It was fantastic getting to know you.

And I hope that works out for you
to the best of your ability.

I truly wish you the most luck.

Uh, thank you for being transparent
with me, um, and, hey, it's been real.

Have a great rest of your night, okay?

Okay.

-Cool. Have a good night. Bye.
-[Micah] Bye.

[clears throat]

[melancholy music playing]

That's kind of f*cked up, isn't it?

I can't be the only one
that thinks that. That's…

It's kind of f*cked up.

♪ Not who I came here to be ♪

♪ You're still the weakness deep in me… ♪

[Josh] You done already?

Yeah. [clears throat]

f*cking hell.

[clears throat, sniffles]

[exhales]

I'm just having a tough time.

[sobbing quietly]

[sniffles]

[sobbing]

[sniffles]

♪ Yeah, I told myself I'd never lose ♪

♪ Lord knows what we've been through ♪

[sniffles, continues sobbing]

♪ And my weakness is you ♪

[laughs]

-[laughs] Irina.
-[Irina] Hmm.

Hey, wake up and talk to me. It was him.

-[Irina] Who?
-Kwame.

[Irina] How'd it go?

I, like, ended it.

-[Irina] Okay. What happened?
-[Micah] Bad, not because he reacted.

Just because, like, he didn't.

It was very weird.

Like, I wasn't expecting it to, like,
be like that. Not in a bad way.

He's like, "Okay, I wish you the best.
Like, I gotta go. Bye."

[Irina] He literally wanted
to marry you, like, yesterday.

So, how is Paul still in there with Amber?

He's supposed to be ending it
with her now.

[Irina] Wait. He's supposed to be what?

Ending it with Amber.

-[Amber] Oop.
-[Paul] Hello.

[Amber] Oh, I was hoping it was you!

-[laughs]
-Yeah.

[Amber] I'm happy. I'm happy to be here.
I'm happy to be here talking to you.

[Paul sighs]

[Amber] Like, my expectations
have been exceeded time and time again.

-[Paul exhales] Amber, Amber, Amber.
-What?

[Paul] Um…

I, uh…

So…

[Amber] I can't really hear you.
You're kind of mumbling.

Uh, I've gotta tell you.
We have to… [clicks tongue]

Yeah, uh…

Yeah, well, I can't-- we can't, uh…

[chuckles]

[Paul] Um…

You what?

[Paul] I want you to know
I really do believe that

what's… what's best for me
is also what's best for you.

Of course. Yeah, you're everything
I would want in a partner.

[Paul sighs]

[sighs]

[slow dramatic music plays]

[Irina] Wait, why is he taking so long
to end it with Amber?

[Micah] I know. I'm literally
about to freak out. It's been a half hour.

Wow, that's really bad.

It took me two seconds
to end it with Kwame.

Dude, what the f*ck
is going on in that pod?

Amber, I want you to know that, like,

the connection
that I have with you is real,

and I do love the person that you are.

Oh.

[Paul] I don't know.

-[Amber] What? What don't you know?
-I don't know.

I don't know how to say it,
but, um, I think

there's only so far
that you can take it with two people.

And I think that I have to go with,
um, another… another connection.

[exhales]

I really was not expecting this.

[Paul] I know. f*ck.

[exhales loudly]

I think I started to just believe
that I would finally find,

you know, my person, and--

[Paul] I'm really sorry.

I don't like empty platitudes.
So, I'm not gonna say good luck.

[chuckles] I'm not gonna say
I wish you the best,

because I just really
don't feel that right now. [inhales]

Nothing-- nothing I said was a lie.

f*ck you, Paul. [sobbing]

[Amber sniffles, continues sobbing]

I'm really having
really bad anxiety right now.

Maybe I got played like a fiddle.

-Do you wanna get back with Kwame?
-Shut the f*ck up. That's not the point.

Why the f*ck would they still be in there?

[Irina] Well, you should walk in there
and be like, "What the f*ck, Paul?"

[Amber sighs]

Bye, Paul.

The feeling of, you know,
not being picked is painful.

My previous marriages
didn't work out because it wasn't…

it wasn't with my person.

You can be in love with people,
and it doesn't work out.

I'll be okay though. I really will.

[chuckles] It doesn't sound like it,
but I will be.

-["In Line" playing]
-♪ If your heart is still open ♪[/i]

♪ Then I hope you show it tonight ♪

♪ Oh, oh ♪

♪ I know I'm not the one ♪

♪ That you're going for ♪

[Amber] I need a minute.

Will you sit with me?
I cannot be on that side with her.

-Okay, that's fine. Where do you wanna be?
-[sighs]

One side of me is so happy,
like, relieved maybe.

Maybe more relieved than happy.

She actually looked like she was hurt.

Like, she's actually hurt.

[Kwame] We feel dumb as hell.

[chuckles] It is what it is, bro.

-[Josh groans] You cut it off?
-[Paul] Yeah.

Can't really talk right now. Yeah.

[Kwame] Yeah,
it's a tough f*cking night, bro.

[sighs] f*cking hell.

Ah, yeah.

Man, to hear somebody come
into a conversation so happy,

so full of love and joy,
and then to have to k*ll that.

We, like, we envision ourselves
in the future with this person.

With a person. Yeah.

We create a reality in the future.
When it's in your mind, it's in her mind.

-Yeah. Yeah.
-And it exists in a timeline somewhere.

And if it breaks, if it dies, you have--

It's a death.
You have to mourn that death.

-So, it exists in some capacity.
-[Paul] Definitely, yeah.

-And then, it f*cking dies.
-[Paul] Yeah.

-Like that.
-[snaps fingers]

-And you're f*cking miserable.
-[Paul] By your own hand, at that.

If it dies by someone else's hand,
at least you have a villain,

but if you're the villain
of your own story, it's like, "Oof."

That's a tough pill to swallow.

Yeah, it is a tough pill to swallow.
It is tough to swallow.

-Can I tell you something?
-Yeah.

It does f*cking suck.

You know something
about being the villain?

If someone else is the villain,
you realize that

you don't have control of everything.

Mm, mm-hmm. Yeah. Definitely.

Lacking control
is a f*cking painful moment.

It's tough to be the villain
in your own story.

[chuckles] It's really funny because…

with no intention at all, in that moment,

it did feel like
he was the villain in mine.

["Chop Me to Pieces"
by Guesthouse playing]

♪ But I was not ♪

♪ I wasn't what you want ♪

♪ Tear my heart out, apart ♪

♪ You turn me up a notch ♪

♪ And then chop me to pieces ♪

[Amber sniffles] Ah!

I want it so bad, you know. I really do.

And… [sniffles]

Ah! It was not what I was expecting
when I walked in there. [sniffles]

-[Micah] Is she crying or laughing?
-[Irina] How do you--

-She crying or laughing?
-[Irina] Crying.

-What's she saying?
-I don't f*cking know.

-[laughs]
-Go stand by the thing and listen.

No, but don't be obvious.
Don't let them see you.

[laughs]

[Amber] That's not what he wanted,
and that's okay.

But I'm just like, you know,

you could have been
a little bit more forthcoming

about where you were at
instead of just telling me

what I wanted to hear
because now I feel like a f*cking idiot

because I believed you.

-When-- When's it gonna be my turn?
-[Chelsea] I know.

[Amber] How many times does your heart
have to be broken, you know?

It figures that,

[sniffles] …you know…

[Irina laughing] Abort. Abort.

-[Josh] You were with Micah?
-Yeah.

-[Josh] Did you end it with her?
-[Kwame] She ended it with me.

[Josh] Hmm.

Bro, at first sh*t, like,
I heard this girl's voice,

and I was like, "That's my soulmate."

-[Josh] Mm.
-Day one. [chuckles]

-[Josh] Yeah.
-Yeah.

I remember you talking
about her every day.

[laughs] Yep.

I thought… [chuckles]

That sh*t is hard.

Don't ruin what you have
with this next girl

because of what happened here.

-You know?
-[Kwame] Yeah, listen.

I think the simplest way
to put it is, like,

I had my best date

with Chelsea.

I did.

But it doesn't make it any easier.

-No, no, not at all.
-You know?

[laughs]

[Irina] Do you think Kwame is gonna leave,
or do you think he's gonna stay?

[Chelsea] Stay, you little villain.

[Irina] I wanna be nicer.
I'm, like, not nice at all.

Why don't you, then?

-What?
-Why don't you, then?

I don't know.
Because I'm, like, feeling real emotions,

and it's just like,
it's always a lot, dude.

-Yeah.
-It's true. It is.

[Chelsea] People that talk bad
about one another

is because they're not cool
with themselves, you know.

-Yeah.
-This is a game, dude.

-["Slayer" by Sinikka Monte playing]
-♪ You're such a baller, what a shocker ♪[/i]

♪ Shadows on your face ♪

♪ Life has left a trace on you ♪[/i]

♪ You're such a slayer of love ♪

[slow-tempo music playing]

[Tiffany] Every single guy that I've dated

that has said, like,
"It's not you. It's me,"

they brought me closer to this man
that is so perfect for me.

I was looking for my soulmate.

Somebody that I feel
my most authentic self with. And it's him.

And this is why
I don't care what he looks like.

This is my person.

Uh! It's my person.

♪ My heart's racing… ♪

[exhales]

♪ I'm not scared… ♪

It's a great feeling knowing that someone
has, you know, chosen to spend

the rest of your life with you
purely based on who you are as a person.

Tiffany's amazing. [laughs]

Just all around, just, like,
a genuine, beautiful person.

[exhales]

[sighs] Whoo!

He doesn't have
these expectations of me physically.

He just knows the woman that I am.

[sighs] That is a good feeling.

That is a great feeling.

No matter how I look,

even when I take all of this off,

this man is still gonna see me.
He's still gonna support me.

He's still going to love me
because he loved me first here and here

before he saw this.

I don't even know
if I'm his type, but hell,

he loved this and this,

so I'm good.

I am so good.

Now let me go get my man. [chuckles]

[gasps]

Ooh! [chuckles]

[sighs]

[exhales]

[sighs]

[both gasp, chuckle]

Brett!

[laughs]

[Brett] Hello.

[Tiffany] Mmm!

["For Me, For Life" by Dan Godlin playing]

Mmm!

-[Brett, muffled] This is the most…
-Oh, my God! [laughs]

Oh, my gosh.

[both laugh]

-Baby, look at you.
-[Tiffany sighs]

-[laughs]
-You're perfect.

-Thank you.
-Seriously.

♪ And it feels like ♪

♪ You were made just for me ♪

♪ You were made just for me… ♪

[Tiffany] Mmm!

♪ And it feels like… ♪

Oh,[/i] my goodness. Look at you.

-Look at you!
-You look so fancy.

I was, like,
trying to put the voice with the face.

And then it all came together.

About two minutes, and I was like,
"Oh, sh*t. That is[/i] Brett."

That's my boo. That is my boo.

I'm normally a private person.

And I didn't think this would be for me.

I honestly didn't.
And I'm so glad that I said yes.

Oh, God. [chuckles]

[exhales] Oh, boy, this is a lot.

Anticipating seeing you…[/i]

and, like, now that you're here.

Oh!

Oh, boy.

-You are absolutely gorgeous.
-[sighs]

-Inside and out.
-Thank you.

You're so cute.

-Look at these dimples.
-Oh, God. Yeah.

Look at these dimples. Oh, my gosh!

-[pop music playing]
-♪ Get over here and put your love on me ♪[/i]

♪ Kiss me like they do
In the old movies… ♪

She is the reason that I came here.

Like, stars align to meet someone
to change your life.

-[both sigh]
-Brett.

And this is it.
Like, this is the stars aligning.

-[gasps]
-Tiffany Pennywell, will you be my wife?

-[Tiffany] Yes, absolutely.
-[mutters]

[laughing]

I'm never gonna forget this moment.
I'm never gonna forget it.

Bye, Brett.

You the b*mb.

Bye, Brett!

-[both laugh]
-[Tiffany] Oh! Oh!

Why'd they do that to me?

[Brett] Mm!

♪ Ooh, ooh! ♪

[panting] That… is… the one.

["All I Think About is You" playing]

♪ This is love… ♪

[Marshall] Boys, we dating.

-[all laughing]
-[Marshall imitates heartbeat]

Let's go.

I'm coming, baby!

I wake up in the morning

wishing that I could just explain
to Jackie my dreams or my nightmares.

♪ 'Cause all I think about is you… ♪

-I wake up with her on my mind.
-[Jackelina] Hello.

I feel like I wanna write ballads
and sonnets and plays.

"Fear has no place in the w*r of love."

"And warriors of the heart must fight
an endless battle of thankless victories."

Ooh! Okay.

I wanna be creative

because… she inspires me.

[Jackelina] That should be,
like, published.

[Marshall] Thank you so much.

Look at us.

-Right? Look at us.
-Simping. Simping.

Well, that's mostly you.

-I've been hard, actually.
-[Marshall] Ah!

-[Jackelina] I've been a big dog. Feel me?
-Big dog. Big dog.

-[sighs]
-But it's good to be, like, emotional.

The only time I'm emotional is with you.

You're the one that, like, tries

to get all up in my--
my feelings and stuff.

[Marshall] Yeah, I want you to know
that you're safe with me.

Yeah.

It's been many years
since I've allowed that.

Since I've, like, wanted to, like,

give somebody, like, a real-deal chance.

That is how I know that I love you.

Because you have inspired
this side of me to, like, come back out.

Mm! Mm. Mm-mm-mm!

Jackie, I am in love with you, girl.

Aww.

Oh, my gosh.

[sighs]

Take your time.

-I had a date earlier.
-[Marshall] Mm-hmm.

And, um…

he told me he had packed up
all his stuff because he was like,

"If it's not you, then it's nobody here."

Oh, is that so?

-[Jackelina] That's what he said.
-Hmm.

And he was like, "When I hear,
like, Marshall talk about you,

I kind of get sick to my stomach."

And I just feel so bad

because I never want nobody
to feel like that, you know.

I just couldn't end it with him just yet,

because he was, like,
really going through it.

And I just wanted
to be transparent about that

because I-- I was scared to tell you.

[sighs]

I feel like I just ruined the moment.

I know what we have.

But you're bringing this up for a reason

because you do feel connected
to this person.

So, um,

like, it wouldn't be
a thing if you didn't.

So, that is also making me,
like, a little,

uh, a little hurt by that too.

[Jackelina sobbing] I just feel like
you're mad at me.

I'm not.

I feel slighted
that someone has been listening to me

bare my f*cking soul for days.

Then talking about…

[deep voice] "Oh, I'm packing my stuff up.
I'm going home if it ain't you."

[normal voice] Be a man and talk to me.

[Jackelina sobbing]

I feel like I'm gonna throw up.

-[exhales]
-[Marshall] Okay, head back to the lounge.

-Take all the time you need.
-[sighs]

I know what I need to do.

["w*r" by Mala playing]

-[sobs]
-♪ I hear the blood cries in the ground ♪[/i]

♪ There's only dust between us now ♪

♪ Are we going to w*r? ♪

[Marshall] If it ain't Jackie,

then they're packing their bags,
and they're leaving.

You need some help?

I'll-- I'll be the bellboy.
I'll take your sh*t downstairs.

♪ Are we going to w*r? ♪

I'm in utter shock.

I am disgusted.

Which one of these fools is
in here talking some sh*t?

I'm ready to scrap.

♪ Are we going to w*r? ♪

♪ Or are we going home tonight? ♪

-Now Marshall's so pissed. [sobbing]
-[Irina] Mm-hmm.

[Jackelina] I told him… I told him
that I had a date earlier today.

[Irina] Mm-hmm.

[Jackelina] I didn't tell him who,
but I had a date with Josh.

He's like, "I just
don't wanna be with nobody but you."

And I just couldn't end it,
because I just felt like…

I like Josh, and I like Marshall.

But Marshall told me
he was in love with me,

and I didn't even know what to say.

[sniffles]

[Kacia] What?

[laughing]

My friend is hurting.

Oh, my God.
Oh, I didn't even see you there.

Do you have a headache, or is it men?

[laughing] It's a man.

I feel so bad.
I just feel so bad that I hurt him.

[sobbing]

[whispers] Look, it's crazy.

[Kacia] Didn't do anything wrong.

You were doing
what you were supposed to be doing.

-[Jackelina sobbing] I f*cked up.
-[Micah] That sh*t can f*ck you up.

Wow.

[men laughing]

Someone's playing mind games in here…
with Jackie.

[Brett] We all know
how this is gonna end here.

Just let it ride and say, "This is
somebody I thought I could trust."

"And they showed their colors. And…"

"I got the girl. They didn't,
and now they're gone. I'm here."

If you ever need someone to talk to here,

that you feel that you can trust,
you can come to me.

Thank you.

Marshall, are you talking about me?

Depends. You had a date with Jackie?

-Yes.
-Okay.

-What did you say to her?
-Is that all right? What?

Did you say that you packed,

and you were gonna leave
if it wasn't with her?

I'm not saying anything

because I've heard people talking,
and it's deterred me.

-Mm-hmm.
-But I have-- I have caught feelings.

I'm very competitive.

I'm not shy from a little competition.

I love the game.

I feel like there could be a potential
for you to be heartbroken.

I mean, it can happen.

It doesn't feel good knowing
that you are competing

with somebody else for somebody you love.

But I'm hoping I don't lose
when it comes to her.

So we'll see what happens.

-["There Will Be Fire" playing]
-♪ There will be fire ♪[/i]

♪ There will be fire ♪

[vocalizing]

[pop music playing]

-[panting]
-♪ Here we go now [/i]♪

-[panting]
-♪ Start the show now ♪[/i]

♪ No more waiting ♪

♪ So amazing ♪

When Micah said
that she was ending things with Kwame,

I was ecstatic.

But it's still hard to hear that

he's sad about it.

I know who I am. I have a lot to offer.

If my future husband doesn't see that
and appreciate that and respect that

for all that I am
and all that I have to give…

he's not it.

It's so hard to not…

at any f*cking point in time, be like,
"Is there something wrong with me?"

I know.

-[sniffles] You know?
-Well, yeah.

It's hard.

And there's not anything wrong with me,
and I know that, but it's--

-You're making me cry a lot.
-It's f*cking frustrating.

You can't force someone to love you.

I'll wait till I'm 50 if I need to,
to find the right person.

God damn, I f*cking hope not.

-[laughs]
-[Bliss] Look, I'm just saying.

-Don't want our eggs to dry up.
-[chuckles] Yeah.

It's a lot of money to freeze your eggs.

-[sniffles] But I've looked into it.
-[Bliss] Me too.

[sighs] My God.

I literally will wait until I'm 50,
if that's what I need to do.

And I'll have kids by myself, you know.

-I know. That's what-- I say it too.
-I'll just figure it out.

We can have our babies,
and they can share a nanny,

and then we'll just,
like, you know, rely on each other.

[laughs] That's perfect.
No, I heard best friends are doing that.

-Yeah.
-They're getting duplexes.

-They're living in houses together…
-[both] …and having their kids.

-Yeah.
-That's gonna be you and me for sure.

["Don't Wanna Lose Myself" by Uwagboe,
Palmer, Van Cleef and Ware playing"]

[Bliss sniffles]

Me and Micah were aligning in everything.
I was like, "Oh, my gosh."

Like, "This girl was made up
in a f*cking factory."

I wanna be real here,

in that some parts of me

are still hurting from that

because I thought
we were such a good connection.

She was great all the way up
until she really had to prove to me

how great we would be together.

And the thing about Chelsea is,
like, she reinforces every single day

why we should be together.

You know, and that's--
That's really tough.

The most important thing
I think about this experiment is

you start to realize that

it's not just that you want to be loved.

It's… how you want to be loved.

How are you?

[Chelsea sighs]

Uh, it's…

It's hard.

It was-- It's…
Like, I've been so happy with you, Kwam.

Like, I really have been
so happy with you.

Yeah.

Um, what happened yesterday,
like, with your other connection,

like, I hate that it, like,

took a little bit, like,
of the happiness away.

I've been so confident in it.
I've been so good every f*cking day.

[grunts]

You've been incredible. [exhales]

And I just like… [sighs]

[breathes deeply]

[Chelsea sighs]

Oh, the strong girl, like,
can only be strong so long, you know.

[groans]

You have had an overwhelming
amount of weight on your shoulders.

-[Chelsea] It's not fair. It's not fair.
-I know.

I'm so sorry for what
you have had to go through.

-And, like--
-Yeah.

If I could right now,

I would just hold on to you,

'cause, like,
that would heal me too, you know.

[Chelsea sighs]
Yeah, it's all I f*cking want.

[sobs] It's all I want right now.

Why does it always
have to be a f*cking climb?

-Like, Mount Everest. Like, life.
-[Kwame laughs]

f*cking getting a husband.
Like, my f*cking career. [groans loudly]

[Kwame] Yo, if it was easy,
everybody would do it.

[Chelsea] Nothing is worth having
comes easy.

The life you're imagining.
The exact things that you want.

I know. I can taste it.
I can see it. Can you?

[Kwame] I can.

I'm so grateful
that you led the way that you did.

Yeah, but I can't lead
our entire marriage like that.

Hey, I said I'm grateful for you
doing that to start our relationship.

So, let me take a bit--

Let me take some of that weight
off your shoulders right now. Yeah?

[sighs] Yeah, it feels lighter.

[laughs]

-[pop music playing]
-♪ Well, could you be my, my love… ♪[/i]

You're cute. You know that?

[laughs]

♪ Or could you be my, my love? ♪

♪ My, my love ♪

♪ Would you be my, my love… ♪

-Those pants are player.
-[Paul] Comfortable.

-I'm saying--
-[Paul] Gurkha.

When a good ole Southern boy
throws on some pants like that,

he means business.

-He's not messing around with those.
-[Paul] I love it, man, yeah.

[JP] You put those on
two times in your life?

-[Paul] No, this is the first.
-See? That's what I mean.

-[Marshall] Hey, you look good, brother.
-Thanks, man. Thanks.

-[men shouting]
-Let's f*cking go, Paul!

["Feels Like Love" by Cartledge,
Norton and Jewson playing]

♪ Giving it all our love… ♪

-Hello.
-Hello.

-Hey.
-Hey.

How's your morning been?

[Micah] It's been good.

I woke up today and was like,
"Wow, I feel so relieved."

And just, like-- I felt
really good about, like, everything.

-[Paul] Yeah.
-I can't believe how that all played out.

Like, how everything ended with Kwame.

Yeah, yeah, it's a lot. It's crazy.

-What about you?
-[Paul] Um…

I don't like knowing that I,

you know, hurt somebody,

but the right thing happened, and…

I don't know. I, uh, feel like…

Yeah, I feel like
I've made the right choice.

I really-- I really believe that.

-[Micah] Mmm. Cute.
-So, yeah, I'm happy. I'm happy.

Um… [clicks tongue]

So, I think what
I kind of wanna talk about, um,

when I'm in the presence of a true love,

I, uh, I feel like
I'm standing in the sun,

and I just feel the warmth
filling every inch of my body.

And I think that when you find somebody
who makes you feel like this,

you need to keep them close.

So, this is me asking you to stay close.

Will you marry me?

[both laugh]

Oh, my God. Oh!

Um…

[sighs] Um…

I feel like, um, I feel like
we've had a really slow burn, and…

[Paul exhales]

And I feel like outside of here
and inside of here,

I wanna continue to…

burn with you…

for the rest of my life.

-So, yes, Paul. I'll marry you.
-[exhales]

-Oh, my God. Don't drag it out like that.
-[Micah laughing]

[laughing]

Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Yes, finally.

Oh, my gosh, I'm actually so happy.
[laughs]

I'm, like, so excited
to see you and hug you.

-I am too. Wish I could hug you right now.
-[Micah] I know.

I know. I feel so confident about this.

It's gonna be a zesty life
that just, like, feels so fulfilled.

And, like, that's probably the thing
about you that, like, makes me feel alive.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ I am wonder… ♪[/i]

[laughing]

[laughing] I'm engaged.

No, I can't… [laughing]

I really can't stop smiling.

[gasps] I can't.

[chuckles] I don't know.

I didn't think it was possible
to love someone through a wall,

but Paul is just kind of,
like, my twin flame.

Like, he makes me feel so,
like, excited and nervous.

I feel like he's gonna keep me

on my toes for the rest of my life,
and that's what I've always wanted.

-I can't wait to see you.
-[chuckles] Yeah. Me too. Let's start.

Can we-- [snaps fingers]

-When's the next plane? Let get out.
-[laughs] Let's get this going.

We got places to be.

Love you. Bye. [laughs]

I love you. Bye.

-[laughs] You're so bad.
-[laughs] I know.

Oh, my God. [laughing]

-[chuckles]
-[Irina] What happened?

-I'm engaged.
-[shouting]

Hello, boys.

[shouting]

[laughing]

-[Josh] Congratulations, brother.
-[JP] Oh, yeah!

-[men laughing]
-[man] Let's go! Let's go!

Hell, yes.

It was honestly so scary.

She, like, drug it out, and was like--
I thought she was gonna say no.

I really did,
the way that she was phrasing it, but--

-[JP] Like, after you'd asked her?
-Yeah, yeah.

Like, her response,
but she was just f*cking with me. [laughs]

-I'm so excited.
-[JP] All right, drinks.

[Paul] I feel like I'm gonna explode, bro.

-[JP] You all right? You're shaking.
-[Paul] Hey, look--

-Let's show that shake a little bit. Yeah!
-[laughing]

-Bro, hey. Cheers to Paul.
-Take it all.

Hey! To Paul and Micah.

-To Paul and Micah.
-[JP] Let's go.

-[man] You gotta see what she looks like.
-Whew! Yeah. [chuckles]

That's, uh, that's gonna be interesting.

-We'll see.
-[JP] Oh, sh*t.

["Run This Town"
by Skirts and Shorts playing]

[exhales]

Okay. Two cups of that.

♪ My mama told me
About the birds and bees…[/i] ♪

[exhales]

[chuckling]

♪ What a girl gotta do
To get a boy like you to take her home? ♪

Two cups of sugar.

-Whoa, look at you! You look so sweet.
-[both laugh]

[Bliss] Some cupcakes for Zack's birthday.

He's pretty much gonna melt. [laughs]

-[Bliss] That's sweet.
-[Micah] It is. Yeah.

I hope they turn out okay. We'll see.

I know that me and Zack have,
like, a really great connection.

I know what happens in that room
and what I feel,

and I'm confident in that.
Very confident in that.

[chuckles] But I'm watching Bliss
make a f*cking cake for him today.

Or cupcakes, whatever.

I'm like, "She's so wifey." [laughs]

But I do feel horrible that
I didn't get anything for his birthday.

I have a huge favor,
and if you wanna say no, you can say no.

Okay.

-[Irina] Can I have one of your candles?
-What?

[Irina] I'm not gonna make anything,
but can I have one of your candles?

-Um, did you think of something yesterday?
-[Irina chuckles] No.

-I have a date. That's fine.
-Well, I feel like that's just icky.

[Irina] Yeah, yeah, yeah, fine.

I really don't wanna talk
about him, honestly, with you.

-I hope that you respect that.
-[Irina] I 100% respect that.

Okay, I feel like that's
a little awkward that you asked me that.

-But not one of mine.
-[Irina] Okay.

[chuckles] Whoops.

-Oh, girl, I'm just trying to--
-[Bliss] Yeah. I know.

-She's causing drama by doing that.
-[Monica] I know.

Don't worry about it though. Shake it off.

What did she get out
of asking you for a candle

other than making you feel like sh*t?

[Bliss] She needs
to not f*cking talk to me.

[Monica] Mm-hmm.

[Bliss] She was like, "I would never
tell him that you're making cupcakes."

[Monica] I don't believe anything
that comes out of her.

[Bliss] She is gonna ruin the surprise.

-Dude, she's got no boundaries.
-[retches]

-I know. I know.
-I'm gonna f*cking puke.

Don't worry about her.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ I hit the ground but I still want you ♪[/i]

-First of all, happy birthday.
-Thank you.

Second of all, I'm so sorry that
your room is not filled with balloons.

-And a cake from me.
-What?

I literally feel so horrible because
I think birthdays are so important,

and I think you're really special,
and, like, I feel so shitty

that, um, I didn't get
a chance to make you feel special.

Um, but yeah, I hope you feel
celebrated and loved today.

That means a lot. Thanks, Irina.

Of course.

Well, I'm-- I'm gonna be honest.
I completely forgot it was your birthday.

So, I'm a bad-- I'm a bad friend.

No, you're not.

I hope that I can
make it up to you sometime.

[Zack chuckles] Okay.

I have so much anxiety
coming into this room. [sighs]

I know that you have other relationships,
but yeah, it's obviously tough.

Like, I'm in a room with the other girl,
and I feel like…

It's so uncomfy in there.

Like, I think I'm okay.
But I don't know how she's feeling.

And I don't think
I have to worry about her,

but it doesn't, like,
feel the best in there,

like, the tension and stuff.

[clicks tongue] I really like you,
and I really care about you.

And I really just want honesty from you,
and I feel like if there's ever a point

where you don't see yourself with me,

or you start, like, developing,
like, really heavy feelings for Bliss,

from, like, the bottom of my heart,

like, I ask you to tell me
and be honest with me.

I know it's nerve-racking where you're at.
I have not made a choice at this point.

-And I-- I hate this, Irina.
-[Irina laughing]

Oh, you hate having to choose
between two girls that

are absolutely falling for you?

-Well, because Ι care about both of you.
-[chuckles] Yeah.

-And Ι think you can understand that.
-[Irina] Yeah, I can.

It's this--

And that's why, like, I don't like
that it's getting contentious.

Hey, look,
I know I talk sh*t about some girls,

but I don't have any ill intent.

If I'm in the kitchen with her,
and I'm like, "Ooh, how's that tasting?"

Like, that's just me. I mean those things.
I'm not trying to be, like,

snaky or, like, mischievous.

It's just different for her.
I feel weird that she feels so weird.

'Cause I didn't know
how sincere you were at first.

But as I've gotten to know you,
it's pretty evident

that you're a very thoughtful

and caring person.

It hurts me to see
that people don't see that side of you

because you are so blunt and…

[both laugh]

And I-- I understand that
because I… I am similar.

I've just learned to hold
my tongue a little bit more. [chuckles]

I feel like a little part of me
doesn't regret anything I say though.

I feel like I make things so intense.

I feel like I almost--
that's, like, my personality.

-[Zack] It is your personality.
-Um…

[Zack] But you're real.

I just think you're really courageous.

But I see what you want to be
and who you're becoming.

[Irina] Yeah.

And I find it incredibly attractive.

I see our lives aligning so well.

-["One and Only" playing]
-♪ There's something magic ♪[/i]

♪ In the things you do ♪

♪ You're gonna be mine ♪

♪ You're all that I want… ♪

[laughs] Don't get on my bad side.
I'm just kidding.

Let's go bake some cupcakes.

♪ You're my every dream ♪

♪ Be my one and only ♪

Oh.

-Bliss!
-Happy birthday!

Wow. Thank you very much.

[Bliss] I baked you cupcakes.

I know. I see that.
I'm a very big sweets fan, so--

No calories count on your birthday.
You're allowed to do whatever you want.

I was just thinking in my head.

-My first birthday, uh, in my 30s.
-Mm-hmm.

I was stuck in a jail because
my client had to have a psych eval done,

and they didn't realize
it was my birthday.

And now, I'm trapped in what is
essentially a very large warehouse

while I talk to a woman behind a, uh…

-Wall.
-[Bliss] Door.

Like, I'm scared. What's gonna happen
to you next year? [laughs]

Aliens. I will be abducted.

-[Bliss] I'm sorry.
-No, this is very sweet, Bliss.

-Thank you so much.
-Aww, you're welcome.

Oh, my gosh.

-[Bliss] How has your day been?
-[Zack] Good. How have you been?

[Bliss] I had a really hard time
this morning.

Like a really hard time.

But I really tried to,
like, control in, like, myself.

And, like, I've grown over the years

to, like, try to, like,
not be so reactive to things.

But I don't know. It was hard.

Like, I definitely, like, kind of, like,

lost it a little bit
in a way that I did not want to.

[Zack] What do you mean by that?

[Bliss sighs] Like…

I'm trying not to talk about,
like, other people in here, you know.

-[Zack] Yeah.
-Like that or--

[Zack] Are you talking
about conflict with you and…

-[Bliss] Yeah, just like--
-[Zack] Yeah.

[hesitates] I am not the person
that caused the problem.

-[Zack] Okay.
-I am trying very hard to be respectful.

I don't know
if there's jealousy or insecurities,

and I'm sure that there is.

Like, everyone is feeling that way,

but you can choose to act differently.

You get to choose how you react
to your feelings, most of the time.

And when that's handled really meanly

or, like, sabotagely or, like, icky,

then, like, that's not-- I'm sorry, no.

That's bad character.

[sighs]

[Zack] Honestly, Bliss, I could
see myself marrying either of you.

[Bliss] This is, like, a test for me too.
Like, does Zack have good judgment?

Can I trust, you know, like,

your ability to, like,
truly, like, judge someone?

[Zack sighs]

I don't know if I've ever met somebody
who I feel like I understand

like you.

[Bliss] Me too.

[Zack] I feel like every time
we come in here, we get closer.

And…

And I can feel it.

I feel a strong connection
with her as well,

but it's a different type.

-Mm-hmm.
-[Zack] But I mean…

Trying to figure out that
is what I'm weighing.

It's a little overwhelming.

-[pop music playing]
-♪ Shake these voices out my head ♪[/i]

[vocalizing]

♪ Shake these voices out my head ♪

[pop music playing]

♪ Spend my whole life dreaming… ♪

[Paul] It took me a long time
to be ready for marriage.

I didn't think that
there was someone that, like,

in existence that had been born,

that I wanted to spend the rest
of my life with.

Like, they just didn't make 'em.

But apparently, they make 'em. [chuckles]

And it's Micah. [chuckles]

♪ Shine on me… ♪

Gosh.

I can't imagine life without Paul,
and that sounds so crazy.

I cannot believe I did not know
this person for, like, the last ten years.

Like, that's how it feels.

[chuckles] It sounds so crazy to say.

[exhales]

Paul, he kind of,
you know, had this, like, X factor.

And it was like this spark

that was just, like, undeniable,

and my brain is, like, not computing

that, like, how I feel is real,
but it just is.

I don't know.
This is, like, crazy. [chuckles]

I feel like such a dork,
but good thing Paul's a nerd. [laughs]

I feel like I'm gonna pass out. [exhales]

So, I had a dream about Micah last night.

And I saw her, but I didn't see her.

And I… I felt her,
I guess, more than anything.

All of the things
that she made me feel in the pods,

just nerves, excitement,
like, love, like, comfort,

and, like, you know,
all of these things combined.

I just felt embodied in this, like, weird,

like, vague, amorphous,
like, figure in my dream,

and I just held her, and it felt so nice.

It felt so good.

Um, but I think,
hopefully, my brain left enough

low-resolution imagery
for reality to fill in the gaps

without seeing this disparity
that leads to shock.

And I think-- I hope that is true.

[dramatic music playing]

I just need blood
in my brain. [clears throat]

[sighs] God.

-["Vertigo" by Raphael Lake playing]
-♪ Oh, no, the vertigo's coming ♪[/i]

♪ Can't keep me on my feet ♪

♪ God knows I'm trying to be someone ♪

♪ My vision's failing me ♪

♪ I live like I'm dying tomorrow ♪

♪ God gave me one last chance ♪

♪ To take all the time
That I've borrowed ♪

♪ To make a new man ♪

♪ Feels like I'm burning out ♪

♪ Wondering why it changed ♪

♪ Wish I could turn around ♪