15x15 - We Didn't Start the Fire

[bunniefuu]

[SIREN WAILS, HORNS HONKING]

MEREDITH: In , surgeons in South Africa

performed the first successful heart transplant.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

The following year,

there were heart transplants worldwide.

Problem was, the patients kept dying.

I told you I didn't want to have a party.

♪ I can already tell ♪

[SIREN WAILING]

♪ I'm under your spell ♪

So the following year, transplants fell to .

♪ And that spells trouble, trouble for me ♪

Kinda seems like people were a little too eager to celebrate.

♪ I can't get it off my mind ♪

Wow, I think that you have found every egg roll in Seattle.

Well, Mom said nothing too fancy.

- Damn it.
- What?

I was just trying to get this thing to stand up straight.

Oh. Just, um, pour some of the wax down into the bottom and then stick the candle in.

- ♪ La la la la la la ♪
- Right.

This place looks amazing.

Your mother is going to love this.

She'd better love it.

God knows she gave me enough stipulations.

No more than people, no foundation people...

- [CHUCKLES]
- ...no photographers.

"Only the doctors that saved my life and a few friends, child."

- [CHUCKLES]
- Got it!

♪♪

- Oh, my.
- [CHUCKLES]

- Wow.
- ♪ Oh, you look so good ♪

[CHUCKLES]

♪ I bet you feel good, too ♪

You know... people aren't really gonna be here for a while.

So, I don't see why we can't...

Uh, there are people working here.

They'll know.

Well, let them know.

♪ You got that oooh la la la la la la ♪

- You're coming with me.
- [CHUCKLES]

♪ You got that oooh la la la la la la ♪

Bye. [CHUCKLES]

[CLEARS THROAT]

♪ And it's just the kinda trouble ♪

♪ I've been lookin' for ♪

[SIREN WAILS, HORN HONKING]

Diagnostics, please.

Oh, good. You are still here.

- Let's go.
- T... Oh.

Do you need a ride to your own party?

It's Jackson's party.

And, no, I don't need a ride.

What I need is a drink to help calm my nerves...

...before I have to go and pretend to like it.

- A friend would help.
- [SIGHS]

What?

Okay, I have been sternly warned, by more than one person, not to aid and abet in any way, should you try to ditch.

Well, I was offering you a ride in my limousine, that has a fully stocked bar.

But enjoy going in your own car, that you have to drive yourself.

You should have led with limo.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

So, I'm not sure where it's going, um [CLEARS THROAT] if it's even going anywhere.

But seeing how half of my co-workers will be at the party and see us together, I am doing the responsible thing and letting you know that Andrew DeLuca and I are dating.

- Well?
- Are you telling me this as the chief or as your friend?

I don't know. Both. Why?

Because I want to know if I need to explain hospital rules or just laugh at you.

When is Bailey getting her job back?

Oh, why? Would you rather tell her?

[LAUGHS] Can I watch?

You know, you married a resident, and I didn't say anything.

Yes, you did.

You were mean to her for like two years.

And by the time I married her, she was a fellow.

Well, you put my resident in the hospital.

Okay, we can stop.

But as chief, I need to tell you to report your relationship to HR.

As your friend, I hope he makes you happy.

Thank you.

WOMAN ON P.A.: Dr. Lawrence to the NICU.

Dr. Lawrence to the NICU.

Chief, Mrs. Karev wants to see you.

All right, tell her I'll see her at the party.

And it's Dr. Karev, Helm.

Oh. Right. Sorry.

[FOOTSTEPS]

He said he'll meet you at the party.

[TELEPHONE RINGING IN DISTANCE]

HELEN: Oh.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

WOMAN ON P.A.: Dr. Millicent, call Radiology.

Dr. Millicent, call Radiology.

[TELEPHONE RINGS IN DISTANCE, CONVERSATIONS CONTINUE]

[LEO CRYING]

That's it.

Easy. It's only been two weeks.

- I can get this.
- Or you could not.

I could stay.

- Betty, you can do this.
- How?

I'm a drug addict with a baby and a dead boyfriend.

I have nothing in common with anyone my age, and they're all gonna look at me like I'm some sort of freak.

Because that's what I am.

I ruined my life.

That was the dr*gs.

And they tried to ruin your life, but they failed.

- [SIGHS]
- Because you are here.

And I am here, and I am here for you no matter where you live.

And you are gonna call me anytime you need to.

Day or night. You are not in this alone.

It is gonna get better, Betty.

I promise you it gets so much better.

[CRYING CONTINUES]

Can't we just stay another night, John?

And get stuck in morning traffic.

Yeah. But... But it's / hours' difference... the difference that's gonna make.

- I mean, it's... it's crazy.
- [CRIES LOUDLY]

- Well...
- Uh, uh...

[LOWERED VOICE] Sorry, sorry. Uh, just...

Babies are a lot more work than I remember.

[CRYING CONTINUES]

- [SIGHS]
- Well, uh...

[CRYING CONTINUES]

God, you're so weird.

[CRYING CONTINUES]

[DOOR OPENS]

[COOS, WHINES]

[CRYING]

Well, uh, thank you both.

So much.

For everything.

[CRYING CONTINUES]

[INSECTS CHIRPING IN DISTANCE]

She didn't say goodbye.

[SIGHS SOFTLY]

[EXHALES SHARPLY]

I'm gonna go get ready.

You're going to the party?

Yeah, I, uh, can't be in this house tonight.

[DOORBELL CHIMES]

- Hey, hey.
- Hey, hey.

Oh. You know the party's catered, right?

Well, it's rude not to bring anything.

Hey! [CHUCKLES]

I rest my case.

Hey, Pierce!

Hi... Uh, nothing. [SCOFFS]

Hi, I mean.

- Did you see it?
- What?

What? That lady you hated wrote an article about you.

I'll text it to all of you.

- Oh, what lady?
- Kiki?

- What kind of article?
- Uh, who is this person?

"How Bravery and Self-Advocacy Saved My Life."

- [CRUNCHES]
- Oh, that sounds nice.

That bitch.

Why? What'd she say?

Shh, shh, shh. I'm reading.

I thought you gave all your money away.

I could fit my whole loft inside your fireplace.

That's not how it works.

Um, I created a restricted endowment invested in a diverse portfolio for my mom's foundation to handle all the payouts.

Oh, you have ping-pong. [LAUGHS]

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

So, you got the whole place to yourself, huh?

Yes. No sisters, no kids.

First time in recent memory.

Do we have to go to this party?

[MUFFLED INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

Yes.

But we don't have to stay long.

Wait, wait, wait, wait.

[CONVERSATIONS CONTINUE]

- Okay, good to go.
- Okay.

[DOORBELL CHIMES]

There is an MRI pending for Mr. Evans in ICU .

And can you check all the labs for the : p.m. draw and get back to me if there's anything I should know?

Mrs. Karev.

It's Doctor.

Wait. What?

Hi. Mrs. Karev. Hi.

You're in Seattle.

[LAUGHS] Jo. Hi.

- Surprise! [LAUGHS]
- Um, is everything okay?

- Does Alex know that you're here?
- Oh, yeah.

But he told me to meet him at a party?

Oh. Uh... okay. Um...

Uh, we must have got our wires crossed.

Um... great.

I-I can give you a ride there.

Wonderful.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

♪♪

[ RINGS]

ALEX: You've reached Chief Alex Karev.

- Leave a message.
- [BEEPS]

Hey, Alex.

It's me again.

And your mom.

On our way to Jackson's.

See you soon. [EXHALES SHARPLY]

[BEEPS]

Did you fly here, or...

Oh, a bus and a train and another bus.

I-I thought flying might be a little overwhelming.

Yes. It can be.

You know, I, uh... I read this book recently, uh, about the Lewis and Clark expedition.

- Mm-hmm.
- And they encountered so many hardships making almost the same journey that I just did.

So I thought, if they could do that on horseback, fighting disease, then why couldn't I?

[CHUCKLES]

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

[MUFFLED INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

- Oh! Hey.
- Oh.

- Hey.
- [LAUGHING] Hey!

Sorry you had to see that, Hunt.

But she's just so damn happy.

[LAUGHING] She can't keep her hands off me.

- What? Why?
- Oh, h... he surprised me.

Yeah, with a trip to Palm Springs.

A little fun in the sun before baby makes three.

Or, uh, four.

What? You're going on a trip?

I mean, you're seven months pregnant.

Yeah, I'm aware of how pregnant I am, Owen.

It's perfectly safe for me to travel.

Yeah. First class.
She'll be in good hands.

Mm. My hands. Mm. Shall we?

[GRUNTING]

[LAUGHS]

[DOORBELL CHIMES]

- Hey!
- [CHUCKLING] Hi!

- Come on in!
- Good to see you.

- Good to see you. All right.
- Hey.

- Welcome, guys. Welcome.
- Thanks.

- Hi.
- Wow.

Come on in.

All right, you guys, uh, make yourselves at home.

M'lady, let me, uh, get you a club soda and cran.

- You've had enough vodka tonight.
- [LAUGHS]

Thank you.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

Nothing for me, thanks.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS CONTINUE]

♪♪

[LAUGHTER IN DISTANCE]

[LAUGHS]

Yes, and... and brush your teeth when Tanya tells you to, and no extra books, okay?

I love you, too, Elle-Belle.

- Bye.
- [PING-PONG BALL CLATTERING]

- You ready for another?
- Yes.

Hey.

- Hey.
- Who has the kids?

Bailey and Zola are at a sleepover, and Ellis is with the babysitter.

Wow, empty house?

Maybe I should, uh, go home with you.

- I actually wanted to tell you...
- I have no idea what is going on with Owen and me.

And why we are even sleeping in the same bed.

I mean, it's not like we're having any sex.

We went from ex-sex to bickering married couple in, like, seconds.

And now... now Betty and Leo are gone, and we're just both stuck in this, you know, giant sinkhole of sadness.

We've just been so focused on the kids, we didn't take time to assess the damage that we were doing to us.

[SIGHS]

This sucks.

I mean, I say, "us," but is there really an "us" with no sex and no family?

Can I get you another glass of wine there?

- [GROANS]
- Or anything but that?

She's got, like, a kajillion likes.

Listen to this... "I had to find the courage to find the answers I could not find."

It's clearly way too many "finds" in one sentence.

No, I barely get a mention...

It's all about the bravery and humility it took to beg me to do a radical, pioneering surgery...

These egg rolls are going like hotcakes.

Oh, are you talking about that article?

- Mnh-mnh.
- Oh, that was something!

You know, really... really moving.

You come off very well.

It's like she healed herself with the magical power of her own narcissism.

- [CHUCKLES]
- I need more wine.

Yeah. Babe, I just off...

♪♪

Have you seen my mom?

[ENGINE RUMBLING]

[GLASSES CLINK]

- Oh.
- [LAUGHS]

I could get used to this.

Yes, you can.

What's to stop you?

- Hmm.
- Well, you have money now, right?

- [GLASSES CLATTER]
- With that butt-blazer?

T-Trail-Blazer.

- It's a golden...
- [SIGHS]

...butt-cork.

And you should spend some of it.

No... I have!

No, I-I paid off my car, this year's property taxes.

Oh, yeah, and Ben and I did, uh, replace the garage door.

That's just taking care of business.

What have you done for you?

W...

- We need to talk.
- [GLASS CLINKS, LIQUID POURS]

Uh... [SIGHS]

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

♪♪

- Oh, thanks.
- No, no. This one.

[CHUCKLES]

You hate this party, don't you?

No. No, I-I don't hate this party.

No, I feel bad. I mean, it's great.

It's... It's in my honor,

"For I'm a jolly good fellow" and all that, but, uh, for you, it's like a gauntlet of awkwardness.

Baby-daddy is really not happy about our trip.

Yeah, not his best moment [SIGHS]

But, in fairness, I mean, he and Amelia had to say goodbye to both their kids.

We can go, if you want.

- I will feign diarrhea.
- [DOORBELL CHIMES]

- [LAUGHING] No, you won't.
- No, for you, I will get diarrhea.

- No, stop it. Stop it!
- [MUFFLED] I will. I will...

[LAUGHING]

Why?

[SIGHS]

- Oh. Hey.
- Hey.

Have you seen my mom?

Not your mom.

Uh, I-is Alex here?

Do you mind grabbing him for me?

Can I grab...

Um, yeah. Yeah, sure.

- Okay.
- Yeah.

Um, I'm going to update an intern on a patient just real quick.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

Mom?

[EXHALES SHARPLY]

[LAUGHTER IN DISTANCE]

[SIGHS]

What's wrong? Hey, Jo, what's wrong?

Nothing's wrong.

W... You didn't tell her to meet you here?

Uh, no.

No, it was... It was the other doctor.

- Not Alex.
- Uh, wait, w-what doctor?

What... What doctor are you talking... Jo, what's she...

I don't know.

She didn't give me her name.

All right. Mom, could you, um, could you give us a sec, please?

[FOOTSTEPS]

She was in the lobby.

- Of the hospital?
- Yeah, to surprise you.

You didn't say for her to meet you here?

- No.
- [GASPS]

[HUSHED] Do you think the other doctor's in her head?

- Why didn't you call me?
- You didn't pick up your phone!

I was playing ping-pong.

Catherine's party has ping-pong?

- [ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]
- [EXHALES SHARPLY] How did she seem?

- Did she seem hyper?
- [SIGHS]

Um, you know, seeing things?

She was, um... She was talking a lot for her.

Or, at least, I think. I...

About what?

Lewis and Clark.

Huh?

All right. Look, um...

I'm... I'm just gonna get her back to our place, all right?

Perfect.

♪♪

- Uh, Mom?
- No.

- Mom?
- No!

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

ALEX: Hey. Hey!

How many ways are there out of here?

- Why?
- Look, just... Are... Is there, like, panic rooms or any place somewhere someone could hide?

[SCOFFS] Very funny, Karev. The place is not that big.

Just tell me!

Front door. Or the fire exit upstairs.

Right. All right.

I don't have a panic room!

Not smart to announce that.

Mom?

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

[PING-PONG BALL CLACKING]

♪♪

Hey.

We're at a party.

Yep.

And you're standing out here by yourself on the deck.

You okay?

[BREATHES DEEPLY]

That looks really good right now.

You want to leave? Uh, go to a meeting? Or...

No, I'm saying...

Should I not be drinking, or...

No, t-t-that's not...

- I mean, I'm at a party...
- Owen, that is not what I'm saying.

I'm... I'm saying I'm sad, too.

I'm saying sometimes I wish

I could drink like a normal person.

And... It's not a big deal. Just finish your stupid drink.

[CLACKING CONTINUES]

Did I do something to you?

Are we fighting and I missed it?

Is that a yes?

Really?

We're fighting?

That's what you want to do the night that we said goodbye to Betty and Leo?

She didn't say goodbye.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

♪♪

Look, I don't want to fight. I just want to talk.

We have not talked in weeks.

Okay, let's talk.

Okay.

Let's talk.

Where do we start?

- How about "piss poor life choices"?
- Wow.

Or how you refuse to accept that addiction is a disease?

- I never said that.
- You may as well have.

Why do you do that?

You always throw things in my face that I said months ago.

- I hate it.
- And I hate... I hate that you have not asked me how I have been through any of this.

I've be in pain, Amelia.

Yeah, and when you're in pain, you go silent.

You... You keep it all inside.

You act like you are all alone in it, and you are not.

Yeah, because I-I-I-I haven't been able to fix it. So I just...

So... So we should just never talk about it?

We don't never talk about it.

I hate [INHALES DEEPLY] how you generalize.

You know, "You always do this, and you always do that."

Okay, you literally just did that to me.

You said I "always" throw things in your face.

[SCOFFS]

Are we trying to talk, or are you just trying to win?

Well, I wanted to talk, but it's kind of hard when you have been staring at Teddy the entire time.

- How about you?
- [LAUGHS]

[LAUGHTER IN DISTANCE]

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS IN DISTANCE]

Thank you.

- Hey!
- Hey.

Mm. Nice article.

- Really? Teddy? Was it?
- [CORK POPS]

Or was it just some puff piece on a website that may as well be called "OMG! BOYS!"

Well, I mean, I thought it was really...

No. You know, they should really read my piece that I just submitted to the Journalof Cardiothoracic Advancement, where I actually outline the procedure!

- All right, well, I'll do that when...
- No, you won't.

Because they probably won't even publish it now, because it's just the same story, only boring.

'Cause who needs science when there's pluckiness and spunk?

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

[PANTING]

Helen?

[CONVERSATIONS CONTINUE]

♪♪

I do hate this party.

♪♪

Hey. You're leaving?

Hi. I, um...

Tanya called, and Ellis is really scared, so...

Oh, oh, I can pick her up.

No. It's a party in your honor.

You can't leave. It's not really an honor when you didn't get % margins.

And on top of that, I think Owen still has feelings for Teddy.

You should have seen how he reacted when he found out that she was going on vacation with Koracick.

Teddy is always going to be in Owen's life.

Baby or no baby.

It was this way for Cristina.

It's been this way your whole marriage.

And your divorce.

It's not gonna change.

Just make peace with it.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

I'm not in a love triangle.
This is a circle.

And it just keeps going around and around.

I'm definitely staying at your place tonight.

[SIGHS]

Historians believe that Meriwether Lewis had bipolar disorder, but in the early th century, they called it, um, "melancholy."

Mm. So you're a psychologist?

- Librarian.
- Oh.

H-How do you know Catherine?

- Who?
- [EXHALES SHARPLY] Mom.

What?

[PANTING] Look, uh, DeLuca, thanks.

Yeah.

He's very nice.

- Yeah.
- Oh, thank God.

[EXHALES SHARPLY]

Oh, I worried you.

Yeah, you had us worried.

I am doing well.

I feel sturdy.

How about I give you both a minute?

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS IN DISTANCE]

I made something for you.

Oh.

When you were a little boy, green was your favorite color, but it could have changed by now, so you can just pick.

Yeah, it's, uh... it's not much of a wedding gift.

Uh, y-you don't have to take one.

- That's okay.
- No, no, no. Green is good.

It's... It's... It's great.

It's... It's lovely.

Okay, what about Jo?

Blue.

Okay.

DELUCA: Oh, Dr. Grey.

Excuse me, Bokhee, Jae.

[SPEAKING KOREAN] _

Mm.

Bokhee.

[CHUCKLES]

- Uh, I got your text.
- Yeah.

- Is everything okay?
- No. Amelia's in a state.

Oh.

So I think I'm on duty tonight.

[SMACKS LIPS, SIGHS]

[MUFFLED INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

♪♪

♪♪

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

[FIRE CRACKLES]

In the guest room? [LAUGHS]

Hey.

What?

I'm just trying to burn this image in my head forever.

Okay, but you do realize nothing is happening in the guest room of Jackson Avery's house, right, with all of our co-workers downstairs?

Okay.

[SPEAKING ITALIAN] _

[MUFFLED INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

I... Look, I don't know how long the Trail-Blazer's success will run.

It's like, what if somebody else comes along

- with something better?
- [SCOFFS]

All my checks... poof. [SNAPS FINGERS]

Bailey, that's how money works.

I mean, my grandfather made a fortune when he opened a candy store in .

- And what happened in ? Mnh.
- Poof?

My father didn't have shoes that fit for over a month.

- Oh.
- I'm just trying to tell you that money comes, money goes.

And what's the point if you lose it before you get to enjoy it a little?

So, you want me to buy myself a few hospitals?

How many to start, three?

Start slow, honey. Okay.

What is the one thing that you haven't let yourself get?

Come on. There's got to be something.

The C TurboMix in red.

[EXHALES SHARPLY]

Uh, soups, smoothies, dips, dressings, desserts...

You can make Christmas dinner with it.

And... it cleans itself.

Act of God.

What is it?

A blender.

- Oh, Lord. [SCOFFS]
- What?

Well, you should just buy the damn thing.

[SCOFFS] Look at that price.

Bailey, think about when you walk into your kitchen, and it's gleaming at you from the counter with its five programmable speeds.

The price is nothing compared to that joy...

- I bought it!
- [LAUGHS]

- [LAUGHS]
- All right!

- [GLASS CLATTERS]
- We got something to celebrate.

- Come on.
- N-No, it's almost : .

We need to get to the party.

Oh, please, I'm not going to that.

[CONTAINER CLATTERS]

Mmm. [SMACKS LIPS]

Well, this is the last of the duck sauce.

Avery, thanks for everything, but I gotta... I'm heading out.

What? No, no, no. Come on.

Listen, I'm sorry. I just...

God, I hate that guy.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

Who... Koracick?

Oh, well, yeah. He's a creep.

- What? You think so, too?
- I know so.

He took advantage of April during a pretty vulnerable time.

- You're kidding.
- He's been after Catherine

since the minute he got into town.

What is she... What is she doing with him?

I can't say I'd be thrilled if I were you.

[SCOFFS]

On the other hand, he did save my mom's life, so I don't know.

♪♪

But it's a party for you!

It's for Shepherd and Koracick.

Because they saved your life.

They did.

They performed an astonishing feat, and for that, I am forever grateful.

But [SIGHS] Miranda, if I walk into that party right now, people are gonna come up to me and say things like, "Oh, congratulations,"

"You did it"...like it's all over, like I'm cancer-free.

Yes, my tumor hasn't gotten any bigger, but it could.

- [SIGHS]
- It could.

And so I have to live in dread from one scan to the next.

For every scan.

I'm never gonna be out of the woods with this thing, and it's not something I feel like celebrating.

Hypocrite.

Excuse me?

You're all easy come, easy go when it comes to money, but you're afraid to spend joy.

What... you think you're gonna run out of it?

That dread between scans is scary.

But it's life.

And it's not perfect, but it's the one you get now.

W-What I get.

I-I have a heart that I no longer trust.

I live day by day trying to get it to not blow up again and hoping that the fix they gave me stays a fix.

And you?

You have a piece of tumor on your spine, and it could get bigger or it could not.

And you know what?

An earthquake could take us all out tomorrow.

Or a meteor. Or robots.

We don't get to know that.

[BANNERS' "GOT IT IN YOU (ACOUSTIC)" PLAYS]

But just right now, we're alive...we are still here.

And people love us, so that's cause to celebrate.

♪ Holding back the flood in this skyscraper town ♪

Hey, excuse me.

Can we talk?

What else is there to talk about?

Listen, I wasn't looking at Teddy.

I was looking at Koracick.

Okay? I don't like that guy.

I don't like that he's dating Teddy.

Because you're jealous.

No, because he's like a dog marking his territory.

And because who hits on a woman who's seven months pregnant?

That's Tom. He's available. Always.

He was available for me after the tumor.

- Wait. What?
- Why does it matter?

If you're not interested in Teddy, what does it matter?

If he's with her, then he's gonna be in my daughter's life, and I don't want that.

This has got nothing to do with Teddy.

How many times do I have to choose you, Amelia, for you to stop feeling insecure?

Insecure?

This is not about some fling from your past.

She is pregnant with your child right now because you got on a plane to profess your love to her seven months ago.

Not... Not seven years. Seven months.

So forgive me for worrying that maybe your feelings might still be lingering, and that maybe when you see your baby, you are gonna realize how deeply you are in love with her.

You and I fell back in love over children that we adored and that we no longer have.

Okay? Do you really think that, when you see your daughter lying in Teddy's arms, that you are not gonna think that maybe this is where you belong?

Because I do.

And maybe you're right. Maybe that is insecurity.

Or maybe it is wisdom.

Whatever you want to call it, it is what I believe.

And I cannot talk my way out of it.

I can't.

And I'm starting to think maybe I...

♪ Maybe you don't see it ♪

I'm starting to think I shouldn't try.

♪ But you're quicker than the world can spin ♪

- What are you saying?
- I'm saying I'm dizzy.

Owen, I'm... [SIGHS] I'm dizzy.

I need to step out of the circle.

What?

I'm saying this is an impossible situation.

And you are in it no matter what because there is a child involved.

But I'm not. I'm not in it, no matter what.

I'm saying...

♪♪

♪ When the lights go out ♪

I'm saying I'm not in it anymore.

♪ And leave you standing in the dark ♪

[BREATHES SHARPLY]

♪ No one ever told you this would be so hard ♪

Hey, uh, Dr. Lummis, this is Alex Karev, uh, Helen Karev's son.

If you could, uh, give me a call back as soon as you can... it's pretty urgent.

Please.

They're two hours ahead.

Y-You're not gonna hear from them until tomorrow.

Right. I should probably text, too.

Hey. Here. Come here. Come sit down.

Come here.

♪ You got it in you ♪

[SIGHS]

♪ When the lights go out ♪

She seems okay.

♪ And leave you standing in the dark ♪

The doctor will call.

And then we will find out what's going on.

My mom comes for a visit, and I have to worry if it's a sign she's gonna split from reality.

Isn't that how it's always been?

Well, yeah. Growing up.

But then, you could tell when things were getting bad.

I knew the signs.

I mean, now that she's doing fine, I d... I don't know what a split looks like.

[SIGHS] I want to trust it.

I want to trust it so much that she's fine.

- I really do. I swear, Jo.
- I know.

These are really nice.

She shouldn't have needles.

[VOCALIZING]

♪♪

♪ You got it in you ♪

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

[FIRE CRACKLING]

♪♪

Okay, we... we should stop now.

Why?

Because I'm going to change my mind.

Sounds good.

♪♪

[CELLPHONE RINGS]

- Ohh.
- [SIGHS]

Just answer it.

I don't care who it is.

[RINGING CONTINUES]

But someone might hear it ringing.

- [SIGHS]
- [RINGING CONTINUES]

[SIGHS] It's Carina.

[CELLPHONE BEEPS, RINGING STOPS]

Oh. Our sisters are really getting in the way tonight.

Yeah, they really are.

[BOTH LAUGH]

Oh. Uh...

Um...

This is not the restroom.

No, that's, uh... that's down the hall.

♪♪

We're not...

I...

[SIGHS] Alex knows.

W-Wonderful.

Uh, don't let me keep you.

Hmm.

- [SOFTLY] Oh, my...
- [LAUGHS]

I told you!

It's not funny! It's not funny!

[BOTH LAUGHING]

Hey. I can do this. Thanks.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

What are you doing?

Oh, I'm being normal.

- Huh.
- Will you put these in the oven for me?

I don't think this counts as normal.

Jackson hired people to do this.

- Just do it.
- Okay, you're flustered.

Yes, I'm getting flustered.

Richard just walked in on us.

Yeah, kissing.

At a work party.

So now I feel like everybody's staring at us.

No one is staring at us.

Because we're acting normal.

♪♪

And after going to many doctors, this woman found Maggie.

She was a med school acquaintance, and after that, they...

Excuse us. Just one second.

- [LAUGHS]
- Uh, excuse me for a second.

[HUSHED VOICE] Please stop telling people

- about that article, please?
- Why? It's very nice.

No, it's not. And she is not.

That was my story to tell, for doctors, in a way that mattered, and she stole it.

She is a bully who made me feel small and insignificant, and she is still managing, even from a thousand miles away, to make me feel small and insignificant!

- Maggie Pierce.
- No, no!

- You are not small and insig...
- Please, please, don't... don't say anything kind or comforting or consoling.

I'm pissed. I want to stay pissed.

I want to burn something down!

[GROANS]

♪♪

Did you know that I was the only black resident in my class?

So I was bullied, too.

Residents would take my number off the pager service...

- [WHISPERING] Oh, my God.
- ...so I'd miss traumas.

Some of the attendings would call the other residents "Dr."

But I only got "Webber."

And I was plenty pissed.

But I found out that it's no good to be pissed if you don't use it.

You know, the difference between a great surgeon and a celebration surgeon... is a little bit of what Kiki has.

A little flair for promotion.

You could use a little of that.

If someone takes your story, you take it back, and you tell it louder.

Stop publication of that piece, and rewrite it, from your point of view.

Start that fire, Maggie Pierce.

[LAUGHTER IN DISTANCE]

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS IN DISTANCE]

[FIRE CRACKLING]

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

♪♪

Hi. You want something to eat?

[SIGHS] I'm happy to see you.

It's just, uh, it threw me.

I mean, uh...

I mean, it really means a lot for Jo and me both.

Tires. No.

Tennis shoes.

- Melting tennis shoes.
- What?

- Don't you smell that?
- No.

All right, t-take it easy. Take it easy.

[STAMMERS] The... The shoes...

The shoes you had in high school, the red ones.

Remember? They were on sale.

But they're [STAMMERS] burning.

The shoe...

Alex, we are really high up.

Honestly, everybody needs to get out of here right now.

But, Mom, there is no fire.

Yes, there is! There is!

Mom, come on. Just stop. Just calm down.

Come on. Sit down. Come on. Please?

It's gonna be all right.

[LAUGHS]

I am a little hungry.

[SIGHS] What if you go into labor when you're out of town?

They have hospitals in California...

But I wouldn't be there.

Well, a flight is not even three hours.

I wanna be there.

I understand that, but I'm taking this trip.

[SCOFFS]

And what is this about, Teddy?

You want that dirtbag in the delivery room?

- Whoa.
- I mean, do you want him around our daughter? He is not a good guy.

I think he's a great guy.

And he saved Amelia's life, and he's...

- Hey.
- Uh, pickles, uh, seven almonds, pasteurized cheese.

- But one of the almonds is for me.
- Thank you.

- [CHUCKLING] Okay.
- Uh, do you mind?

Uh, we're in the middle of something.

I do mind. But thanks for asking.

[DOORBELL CHIMES]

[LAUGHTER]

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

- Mom. Hey. You made it.
- Oh.

- Yeah. Mm.
- Finally.

[SCOFFS] She's your problem now.

All right. Everyone!

- Our guest of honor is here.
- [APPLAUSE]

- There's nothing fun about any of this.
- Alex, we have to get out of here.

All right, w-we're gonna go.

- We're gonna leave.
- No, uh...

Karev. Can you just stay till after the toast?

OWEN: Do you hear him, Teddy? Do you hear these words...

Mom, come on over. All right, folks, over here.

KORACICK: You're starting to upset her. And embarrass yourself.

- Hey.
- She's seven months pregnant, Tom, so why don't you just do the right thing?

So, what... what, we're on a first-name basis now? Because I barely know you.

Wait. What was it again?
It was Oliver? Ollie?

No, no, I know you. Because any man who would prey on

- a vulnerable pregnant woman...
- JACKSON: Okay, over here.

Okay, okay, this was a blast, but I shouldn't keep my public waiting.

And I will tell you another thing, Tom.

If you think you're gonna be around my kid, then you have another thing coming.

'Cause you may be many things,

- but a father isn't one of them!
- Owen!

- [GROANS]
- [ALL SHOUTING]

- Oh, wow!
- What the hell?!

- Oh!
- Okay. I'm done.

- Owen!
- Owen, he is a father!

All right, if you're gonna punch him, you're gonna have to go through a pregnant woman.

[SCOFFS]

- I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I...
- Oh, don't be. All right.

Million dollar hand. Sorry, Avery, proceed.

Yeah. Um, anyway, as you can see,

I am so happy to be standing here with...

[GASPS] Fire!

[ALL MURMURING]

- What's that?
- It's a fire.

It's a real fire!

[SMOKE ALARM BEEPS RAPIDLY, INDISTINCT CHATTER]

Uh, all right, well, okay...

There appears to be a small situation here.

Just carefully... if you all could make your way...

Be safe.

- [SCREAMS]
- Oh, no!

[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

Come on, everybody. It's a real fire!

Come on, Mom.

[ALL MURMURING]

[SIRENS WAILING, INDISTINCT SHOUTING]

[HORN HONKS]

[WAILING FADES]

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

I told you I didn't want to have a party.

BEN: If I could get everyone's attention, please, the building is cleared for re-entry.

Everyone except the penthouse level.

The fumes are still pretty bad up there, and it should really air out for a few days.

- Ben.
- Plastic in the oven.

See it all the time.

Bad smoke but no fire.

Who put plastic in the oven?

Sometimes the trays look like metal.

Think it might've been egg rolls.

MAN: You've got access?

We don't know that that was us.

We're pretty sure it was.

[INDISTINCT SHOUTING]

- Mer!
- Yeah?

Meredith Grey... I want you to meet my mother, Helen.

Helen. It's so nice to meet you.

Meredith... you're Alex's best friend.

I am. And he's mine.

♪♪

That smoke is messing with my eyes.

Let's go. Come on. Come on.

- [CHUCKLING]
- Good night.

[CELLPHONE CHIMES]

Oh.

Amelia doesn't need to stay at my house now.

- Oh.
- [ENGINE REVS IN DISTANCE]

But maybe we should go to your house just in case she changes her mind again.

- Yeah.
- Okay.

[SIREN WAILS IN DISTANCE]

[THUNDER RUMBLING]

I didn't mean to be ungrateful.

But you know how hard this is for me, baby.

It's hard for everyone.

I know I wasn't the one that was sick, but it was hell.

You're not the only one who gets to have feelings, you know?

♪♪

Unfortunate way to meet the neighbors.

Hey, we still have the limo.

We could all go somewhere together.

And celebrate.

♪♪

[LAUGHS]

Uh, you're going to see a very expensive blender on our next credit-card statement.

Because I deserve it.

And I need a ride home.

There's plenty of room in the aid car.

Oh.

Um, and you can wear this uniform home anytime you feel like it.

Well, I think I'm gonna need to, 'cause, uh, you are fire.

[LAUGHS]

Ooh!

This Kiki person sounds like a real piece of work.

- She is.
- [EXHALES SHARPLY]

That's all right. I'm gonna tell my story louder.

I'm gonna start my own fire.

- Mnh-mnh.
- [LAUGHS]

Let's come up with a new metaphor, huh, babe?

[LAUGHS]

Am I just drunk, or is this burger amazing?

Everything tastes better in the back of a limousine.

- [LAUGHS]
- And you may also be drunk.

[LAUGHS]

Okay. From here on out...

From here on out, every scan that I get, good news or bad, this is how I want to celebrate.

In the back of my limousine, eating trashy food, drinking expensive champagne and sparkling apple cider.

With the people that I love most in this world.

- Mwah!
- Mwah!

Cheers to that.

- [LAUGHS]
- Ah!

MEREDITH: Surgeons are reluctant to celebrate.

Even in success, we obsess about

what could have been better.

Whoa. What are you...

Owen, they brought Leo back.

- Why would they...
- [DOOR OPENS]

♪ I'm walking on a thin line ♪

- [FUSSES]
- [EXHALES SHARPLY]

♪ I try not to look down ♪

Can we talk?

[LEO FUSSES]

♪ Can't stop my hands from shaking ♪

I mean, we fought her on it at first.

It just felt so crazy for us to...

giving up our grandchild, but...

We're gonna have our hands so full with Britney, you know, just helping her to adjust, to just stay sober and...

OWEN: Sure.
- A-And we've seen you with him and...

You and Dr. Shepherd.

And don't get me wrong, that self-reflection is important.

[VOICE BREAKING] You brought our Britney back to us.

We're so grateful.

And she always just talks about

you and Amelia as being his parents.

And she's right.

♪ Wind upon the water ♪

We're... We're Britney's parents, but...

♪ Storm under the sea ♪

...you're Leo's.

♪ 'Cause I know the moon's watching over me ♪

We only get better when we admit our shortcomings,

acknowledge our limits.

[LEO BABBLES]

[SMOOCHES] Yes, sweetheart.

♪ What has been will not always be ♪

Are you sure this is what you want?

♪ Steady now ♪

Yeah.

♪ Eyes on the horizon ♪

I want to be a kid.

♪ This will pass ♪

I-I want to be able to make mistakes...

You know, not, like, overdose mistakes, but, like... [INHALES SHARPLY]

...breaking curfew.

Or, um, crashing my dad's car into the fence.

♪ Steady now ♪

♪ Steady now ♪

♪ Steady now ♪

Thank you.

For everything.

♪♪

So, um, you have our info.

- [LEO COOS]
- We do.

Oh.

♪♪

Take care.

And... keep in touch.

But there are so many moments along the way to celebrate.

♪♪

♪♪

Bye.

♪♪

♪ Steady now ♪

♪ Eyes on the horizon ♪

♪ This will pass ♪

♪ And the world will keep spinning on ♪

Some of those moments are bigger than others.

- Good night.
- Yes.

♪ And on ♪

♪♪

[SIGHS]

♪♪

♪ Steady now ♪

And you really don't want to miss those moments.

So, yeah, I feel like we missed some, um...

[CHUCKLES] Serious time together?

- [LAUGHING] Yeah.
- Yeah.

This is it. [LAUGHS]

- Let me just, um, get my... out...
- [KEYS JINGLE]

[VEHICLE APPROACHES]

Hey, do you mind?

Why you didn't answer the phone?

[ENGINE SHUTS OFF]

What? Wha...

Why... What are you doing back?

[CONVERSING IN ITALIAN]

♪♪

Because believe me when I say...

♪♪

Andrea.

I tried to warn you.

Ciao!

[LAUGHS]

Uh. Uh...

Ciao. Ciao.

[CHUCKLING] Ciao.

Um... M-Meredith, this is, um, my dad.

♪♪

- Oh. Buona sera.
- Sera.

...the bad times are gonna find you all on their own.

♪♪