15x24 - Drawn to the Blood

[bunniefuu]

MEREDITH: When a patient is dying on the table,

the surgeon has to keep going, no matter what.

♪

- Prolene.

♪

When we have to pee, we hold it.

When we're heartbroken, we ignore it.

Helm, hang another unit.

We're out of blood.

When we're having a miscarriage

and our husband just has been sh**t [MONITOR BEEPING]t... well, you remember.

You promised me, Dr. Grey.

[BEEPING CONTINUES]

♪

[MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY]

The heart, Helm, where's the heart?

She doesn't know.

Get me the crash cart! Charge to !

The hope that we can fix this patient

- is what keeps us going through
- Clear!

The worst moments of our lives.

[THUMP]

[PADDLES WHINE]

- Clear!
- [THUMP]

[GASPS LOUDLY]

If you're not gonna leave, at least be quiet so I can sleep.

[BREATHING HEAVILY] Sorry.

I had a bad dream.

How long are you planning on doing this for?

Until you talk to me.

[HEARTS & COLORS' "LION" PLAYING]

♪

[GASPS]

[GASPS] Whoa. Whoa, what's...

[QUIETLY] Shh. We fell asleep.

♪ There's a room stretched out ♪

♪ In front of me ♪ [QUIETLY] So?

So we've never done that.
We've never even discussed it.

[SIGHS]

Discussed falling asleep?

Well, you can't leave now.

Not until I make sure the kids are gone.

They just found out about Mer and DeLuca.

I'm not gonna spring someone else on them.

But I have to pee.

Well, you shoulda gone before falling asleep.

♪ Still two steps back from where I wanna be ♪

♪ There's a lion in the wardrobe ♪

- [GROANS]
- ♪ And a wolf at the door

[INSECT BUZZES]

♪ I might never get to heaven

♪ But I've been there before

♪ 'Cause when she's lying in my sheets ♪

- ♪ In that new T-shirt I bought
- [BREATHES DEEPLY]

♪ Ain't no place that I gotta be ♪

♪ Still two steps back from where I wanna be ♪

[SIGHS]

♪

[ZIPPER UNZIPS]

Hey.

How you feeling?

Mm.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

I think I'm, um... What's the word?

Rested?

Mm-hmm.

[CHUCKLES]

♪ 'Cause you hop on the train like a vagabond ♪

You know you can say it.

You can say,
- "Jackson, this camping is..."

Is not hell.

[CHUCKLES]

I'll take that.

Ow. Ow. Ow.

- What is it?
- Mnh.

What is that, root or rock?

Uh, unclear.

Yeah, right. I can fix that.

♪

Can I have some more juice?

Sure.

[CELLPHONE BEEPS]
- Ugh.

- Schmitt.
- You have her? She's landed?

Okay, okay, okay.

Look, just call me the second you get in the car, please?

And... And be careful.

Don't... Don't break her and don't spill her.

"Don't spill her"?

Yeah. I found a blood donor for Gus.

She's the only match in the world.

She just came in from London, so we got to move, Zola.

Uh, yeah. Let's, uh, eat up and get out.

How much longer is Mommy staying with Aunt Jo?

Till Mommy helps Aunt Jo feel better.

What's wrong with Aunt Jo?

Okay, Zola. Let's move.

Go have a shower. I got 'em.

Alex, if anyone can help, it's Meredith.

Go.

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

[SIRENS WAILING IN DISTANCE]

WOMAN ON PA: Dr. Macriola to Pediatrics.

Dr. Macriola to Pediatrics.

[TOY SQUEAKS]

Hm? Ah.

[GIGGLES]
- [LAUGHS]

Buenos días, Gabby.

Buenos días.

Hey. I thought we were friends.

Hey. Hey. Huh? Okay.

Oh, it's a w*r now, huh? Okay.

WOMAN ON PA: Dr. Boyle to Cardiology.

Dr. Boyle to Cardiology.

Hey, if I'd have known you were coming in, I'd have waited to give you a ride.

I didn't know I was coming.

Is everything okay?

[SIGHS] Foundation business.

Dr. Bailey.

[DOOR CREAKS]

Good morning, Dr. Webber.

Well, the jury's out on that.

What's going on in there?

[LEO BABBLES]

Nothing good.

Picked a crib?

No, but I'm picturing one,

- and it won't go with [LAUGHS] that.
- W... W...

Well, I just... I want her... her nursery to be perfect.

And perfection is the absence all material objects?

What? No, I'll know it when I see it.

And you're sure no one saw you?

No one saw me because no one was home.

I could have walked around naked.

I didn't.

Kari Donnelly, injected with stem cells days ago in hopes of restoring upper-body mobility.

She's been on vanc and Zosyn for the last week for persistent pneumonia.

TEDDY: We performed a bronchoscopy to clear her lungs and her airways, but I'd also like to do a CT and just check to see what's going on.

She can't even cough.

I can't believe this.

How are we doing today, Kari?

Any pain or tingling in your arms, fingers?

Still nothing.

You said we'd know in two weeks.

I-I-Is it the pneumonia?

Is that why the stem cells aren't working?

There's still time.

Toby is such a pessimist.

I blame their father. He's a real jerk.

Hopefully, you'll be able to flip him off soon.

[CHUCKLES]

[TELEPHONE RINGS IN DISTANCE]

[MONITOR BEEPING]

Is the blood donor here?

Well, she flew in from London.
Her plane has landed.

Oh, thank God.

We had a terrible night. Gus can't sleep.

He won't build his LEGOs.

- I should get an update any...
- [CELLPHONE VIBRATES, RINGS]

Oh, hang on.

Here it is. Go, Schmitt.

SCHMITT: We are almost on the ground.

Wait. You said they'd landed.

Sorry, I meant... I meant she.

She is almost on the ground.

- Oh.
- She's just really scared.

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

Good, good, Frances. Four more steps.

Her agoraphobia is way worse than we thought.

I mean, s-s-she seems like she's afraid of the air.

Oh, dear, dear, dear.

I can't do this.

Yes, you can. I've got you, Frances.

Okay, hold on. Hold on.

Mm, yes!

- See?
- You're perfectly all right.

We're good. Eagle has landed.

[CHUCKLES]

Sir, wait right there.

- Uh, wait, wait.
- Dr. Safavi.

Something's happening.

What do you mean?

Uh, is... is there a problem?

It appears there's a question about my visa.

Come with us, please.

Oh, I... But he...
No, I'm so... I'm sorry.

You can't... He's...

It will be all right, Frances!
Keep breathing!

Uh, customs is taking her therapist.

ALEX: Wait, Schmitt, listen to me.

You need to get Frances here now.

♪

Ms. Pinfield,
- this is no cause for alarm.

Why don't we just go...
I should like to go home now.

- I have to go home.
- Wait.

W-W-Wait. Uh...

Schmitt.

Oh, she's back on the plane! I got to go!

Schmitt?!

♪

What is it? What's wrong?

The donor's still on the plane.

She's really scared.

There's some kind of mix-up with her therapist and customs.

But we'll figure it out.

We're... We're just gonna have to wait a little bit longer, okay?

That's all anyone's been saying to us for weeks... is to wait, and wait some more.

And wait and wait and wait!

[VOICE BREAKING] Look at my son!

He's getting sicker and sicker while we just sit here doing what we're told.

He's dying!

And she won't get off the plane?!

[GASPS]
- Whoa.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

It's okay.

I kinda want to smash one, too.

[CRYING]
- I've got it, baby.

[YELLS]

[GROANS]
- Whoa.

- [GROANS]
- Oh, babe.

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

Are you okay?

Ye... No!

[GRUNTS]

I don't think so.

Okay. Stay still.

[GROANS]

- [ELEVATOR DING]
- ***

*** fall and landed extremely hard on his...

It was my ass!

Can you even break your ass?
Does that happen?

Sadly, yes.

- Is this the broken coccyx?
- I paged Link.

You paged ortho.

Forget about me.
Just get that donor for my son.

Please.

- What donor?
- What happened?

The golden donor landed, but she's agoraphobic, and Schmitt can't get her off the plane.

I'd go, but I need eyes on Gus.

- Listen, I'll go.
- I'll give her a sedative.

- I'll bring a blood donor kit.
- All right.

- I'll get your blood, Karev.
- Drive fast!

♪ Wake me up before you go-go ♪
- [SIGHS]

♪ I'm not planning on going solo ♪

Frances, I am begging you.

Literally, I am begging you.

I'm sorry. The singing helps.

Dr. Safavi says it helps my mind to focus.

I'm not talking about the singing.

A kid is dying.

♪ I don't want to miss you when you hit that high ♪

Nico's covering my service.

I'll keep Toby company while Kari's in CT.

The waiting's k*lling them.

I-I think I might be wrong about Malibu Barbie.

He really might be, uh, marriage material.

What?

I thought giving each other unwanted romantic advice

- was our thing?
- It's not.

What is happening?

No clue.

But they've been in there coming up on an hour.

Hm. I once saw Catherine fire a whole cardio department in five minutes.

It's major.

Could be a new scandal with the Foundation.

Or maybe she's selling the hospital.

Don't you think you'd know if your wife was selling the hospital?

Yeah. Forget I asked.

♪

[CHUCKLES]

You know...

Hm?

I was thinking, we could... go hiking up to the waterfalls.

Or you could go hiking, and I could stay here and read.

Yeah, but... there's this spot I want to show you

I found last time I was here.

Okay. Let's do it.

Really?

Yeah. Really.

Hey, look, if I'm going camping...

I am going camping.

We're wasting time.

I already know he broke his coccyx.

He's got a textbook presentation.

"Textbook" implies certainty, which I prefer to get from the scans.

[SIGHS] Did you page me?

Oh, yeah. Are you available to take this one?

I need to be on call for Karev's thymoma kid when the blood arrives.

All right. What do we have?

The dude fell.

- [BEEPING]
- Oh, scans came in.

Wow, wow.

Would you look at that?

He broke his coccyx.

And he punctured his rectum.

That's a nasty business.

Thanks, Altman. I needed this.

You needed a punctured rectum?

[CHUCKLING] I needed a distraction from whatever's going on in the conference room.

TEDDY: Thank you for taking this one.

[BREATHES DEEPLY]

Why don't you go take a shower?

- You don't have to go anywhere.
- [SIGHS]

I told you, I don't need you to fix me.

I'm not trying to fix you.

Right.

You're here because you're too scared to deal with your own crap, so you bury your head in medicine or everyone else's lives.

Maybe the tiniest part of me is hiding out here 'cause it's easier than facing Andrew.

Because he loves you?

Because he said he loved me.

To my face.

Out loud.

And all that love staring me in the face is terrifying.

That doesn't mean that I'm not mostly here for you.

Go home, Meredith. I'm not asking.

But I promised Alex that I would stay here until you talk to me.

You come here, you sleep in my bed, and complain about all this love, and you think that somehow that's gonna help me?

My husband d*ed. Let's be clear.

♪

The "I love you" scares me because the last person I said it to was Derek.

I'm not a delicate flower.

I'm not a person who doesn't understand pain.

I get it from deep experience.

Plus my parents... they screwed with my head in more ways than I can count.

His parents, too, so there isn't anything that we can't handle or that we wouldn't understand.

Was your mother r*ped?

♪

Was your mother r*ped by your father?

Is that why you exist?

Do you look like a r*pist?

Do you wear his face?

Okay, then.

I don't think you do get this, so please go home.

♪

Oh, aren't you so glad you came?

Yeah. Yeah, I feel refreshed.

[CHUCKLES]

I'm trying.

Ah. I know, babe.

- I appreciate it.
- Ah.

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

It's kind of nice seeing you in your element.

[INSECT BUZZES]

- Ow. Ow.
- What? What? What?

Ow. Ow. Ow! Ow!

- What?
- Ow! I-I don't know.

- Um, a bee sting?
- Bite?

A spider bite? I-I don't know.

Okay. All right. Oh, God.
That's swelling up fast.

What are you allergic to? I don't know.

What do you mean you don't know?

I... I don't go camping!

Maggie, all right. Okay.

Let's get... We'll get some ice on it back at the tent, okay?

- [WHIMPERING]
- Okay, settle down.

- [BUZZING CONTINUES]
- Just stay in one place...

Just stay in one place!

Maggie, hold on! Oh!

- Aah!
- God.

All right. Okay.

[GROANS]

See, and then the picture comes up right here when it's ready.

WOMAN ON PA: Dr. Downs to the Step-down Unit.

Dr. Downs to the Step-down Unit.

Hey, Gabby. What's going on?

Hey. Just showing Gabby how the MRI works.

[QUIETLY] How's Jo?

No idea. Mer's still over there.

You've probably heard more than me.

No, I actually haven't heard from her in a while.

Well, that's why.

Ah. Maybe.

[COMPUTER BEEPS]

- There she is!
- [CHUCKLES]

She's a little scared about the MRI, so I said we'd test it on her little kitty, Perla, first.

Right? Mm-hmm.

You should be in peds.

[LAUGHS]

See? She's okay, right?

[TRAIN HORN BLARES]

I remember playing in this crappy playground when I was .

My foster brothers wanted nothing to do with me, and my foster dad... he was just screaming by the swings about I don't know what.

[EXHALING DEEPLY] And there was this girl with these freckles and bright red pigtails... and she went sliding down this yellow slide, and she just crashed right into the concrete.

And I remember her mom just ran over and scooped her up and held her, and, you know, she didn't care about the blood on her shirt or the snot running down her shoulders.

She just... She just whispered, "I'm sorry," in her daughter's ear, and she just kept holding her and holding her until she felt like it was safe to let go.

My whole life, I was convinced that, if I ever met my mom, she would do the same, that she would say she was sorry, and she would hold me until I felt safe.

♪

But that's not ever gonna happen...

♪

...because I never should have existed in the first place.

Paul? Everything he did to me?

Everything I escaped?

That was my birthright, Meredith.

That was my inheritance.

♪

Dr. Hunt?
Oh, Dr. Hunt is here. Thank God.

Frances, this is the very terrific Dr. Hunt.

- Hello, Frances...
- Did you happen to see Dr. Safavi?

He's my therapist.

Uh, I think... I think that's...

- I think he's... it's gonna take a while.
- He's lovely.

Been working with me for about two years now.

"Exposure therapy," he calls it.

We go outside, little bits by bits, to the garden, to the curb, then we did a cornershop.

Oh, so you went shopping, Frances?

No. Just stood there.

Had a bit of a panic.

Had a little fall down once, but I got to the point where I could do minutes and then go home.

And then... then I got a phone call, and they said, "You could help someone with your blood, but you have to travel on two planes across the sea to another country."

And I went to Dr. Safavi, and I said, "Do you think I'm ready for that?"

And do you know what he said?

- No.
- Nothing.

- Oh?
- Not a sound.

He just gaped at me with his mouth open, as if he'd forgotten all the words for "No," but I said, "I want to help, if I can."

And I truly did,

[VOICE BREAKING]
but it appears... I'm so sorry.

It appears that he was right.

It appears I can't. I'm so sorry.

Ma'am, it is okay.

We have this all figured out, and I...

I'm just gonna take your blood right here, and then you can just stay here...

You are not sticking me with that.

You flew all this way to donate your blood.

- What did you think was gonna...
- In hospital.

Not on a tiny, little aeroplane.

[BREATHES SHARPLY]

You could s*ab me wrong.
I could bleed to death.

- Ma'am...
- There's no one to give me any blood.

I could catch a hideous infection.

Frances...

You could send an air bubble into my brain that pops and makes my eyes go wonky.

- I read about that.
- Ma'am, ma'am, please...

- No, no, no, no, no.
- Ma'am, please...

I never should have come.
Please don't k*ll me.

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

♪ Wake me up before you go-go ♪

Scott's on his way up to the O.R. now.

[CRYING]

As bad as it sounds, it's a straightforward repair.

As long as he takes it easy and heals properly, he'll be okay.

I promise.

[LAUGHING]

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry. I just... Oh, I can't stop laughing.

[LAUGHS]

I called my mom to tell her what happened, but... but I had to hang up the phone because I was [LAUGHING] laughing too hard.

And... And I know that Scott is upset and... and... and in pain, and... and it's awful.

But, for weeks, I've just been sick about this, and for the first time, I've had minutes where

[VOICE BREAKING] I didn't have to worry about my son.

[SIGHS, SNIFFLES]

Because my husband broke his butt.

[LAUGHS]

Oh, God.

- Oh, God, and his rectum.
- [CHUCKLES]

Ah, that's got to hurt like hell.

Is he gonna have to sit on one of those doughnut thingies?

[LAUGHS]

[CHUCKLES]

- [GASPS]
- [MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY]

Oh, no!

Gus? Gus?

Oh, God. Baby? Oh, no.

What's happening?

Gus? What's happening to him?

Gus? What's happening?!

I need a crash cart in here!

Gus?! Baby, are you okay?!
What's happening?!

What's happening?!

WOMAN ON PA: Dr. Baxter to Radiology. Dr. Baxter to Radiology.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

Please tell me Kari's improving.

Still nothing.

It should be working, right?

I mean, if she's not moving by now...

Well, it still might work.

Is this the, uh, secret meeting everyone's talking about?

Yeah. People are taking bets on what Bailey and Catherine are deciding about our future.

My money's on a mountain of new funding.

How do you do that?

Just assume the best?

I mean, at a y-young and formative age, you said, "Ouch, my leg hurts," and the doctor all but gave you a death sentence.

So how do you not always assume the worst?

Because the worst already happened.

I guess I think life's got to give you some good apples along with the rotten ones, right, for balance?

I'm not sure that's how life works.

No one's sure how life works, but I like my theory.

Works for me.

NICO: Removing coccygeal fragments.

Okay, easy.

[MONITOR BEEPING]

Good.

Dr. Kim, I finished reviewing your pre-op films, removed Mr. Peña's drain, and checked on your clinic schedule for tomorrow.

Can I scrub in on the broken butt?

It's a fractured coccyx and a rectal tear.

The whole floor was talking about how his wife threw a tantrum and started chucking his toys everywhere...

Because they're scared their son is gonna die, Helm!

Uh, I'm... I'm sorry.

I-I didn't mean to...

Look, Helm. We got it covered here, so just head back out to the floor and do afternoon rounds on all my post-ops, all right?

[BEEPING CONTINUES]

- [LIQUID SUCTIONING]
- [SIGHS]

Dr. Kim, the man broke his butt.

And?

I'm saying it's funny.

And I'm saying Helm did nothing wrong.

I disagree.

Look, we have to allow ourselves to laugh at the soda bottles we pull out of rectums or... or the Judy doll heads that we pull out of stomachs.

If we don't find some lightness and humor in this darkness we face every day, no one would stay in this job.

[LIQUID SUCTIONING]

[BEEPING CONTINUES]

Thank you, sir,

- vicryl.

[BEEPING CONTINUES]

We have pills. We have sh*ts.
Simple sedatives.

But I've never taken them.

What if I have an allergic reaction?

And we're not in a hospital where you can treat it.

Listen, the chances of that are very...

Are they none at all?

[SIGHS]

Frances, I hate to suggest this, but... maybe if you put the blanket over your head between here and the car, then we can just...

I can't leave here. I can't.

- You can, though.
- I can't. I can't.

You can because you promised.

OWEN: Schmitt.

There is no other golden blood donor.

You are a unicorn, you are Bigfoot, and you said yes.

And now you can't just decide you don't want to.

Schmitt, Schmitt, come here. Come here.

Someone's going to die here.

Schmitt!

I could die!

I was taught, from a little girl, that my body is like a china cup, and I mustn't ever, ever break it.

And I know... well, part of me knows... that I'm not gonna break into pieces if I walk down to the cornershop or if I go to the cinema.

But there's another part that knows that, if I do, if I hurt myself, if I bleed, I will die, and no one can help me.

That part won't allow it.

And that part always wins.

I'm sorry.

I want to help, but I can't.

But you want to.

I came all this way.

I have an idea, something that might help.

Lori, we were hoping to operate after the transfusion, but now we'd like to wait a few days and give Gus's heart time to heal.

How will it heal?

From the blood.

Okay.

[CELLPHONE BEEPING]

Altman, wait.

It's Hunt.

OWEN: Hey, Dr. Karev. This is Frances.

FRANCES: [WEAKLY] Hello.

Can, uh... Frances would like to meet Gus.

Yeah, right here.

Frances is frightened, deeply frightened to make the trip from this airplane to the hospital.

[VOICE BREAKING]
Frances, thank you for, um...

[BREATHES SHARPLY]

My son can't talk right now because he had a heart att*ck.

[BREATHES SHARPLY]

He's only years old, but his heart stopped...

[MONITOR BEEPING]

...because there's not enough b-blood in his body.

[SOBS]

Frances, I know what it's like to be paralyzed by something that hasn't happened yet and probably won't,

but it feels so true that it's gonna end you.

But what's k*lling this little boy is very real,

- and you can fight that.
- [SOBS]

That's what you came here to do, so let me help you do it.

And you will not break.

I... I will lift you up, and I will carry you.

I served four tours in Iraq,

so there's no one better qualified

to protect you, Frances, and I will, okay?

I promise.

[BREATHING SHAKILY]

♪

♪

[SOBS]

We're on our way.

[GASPS]

[VOICE BREAKING] Oh, baby.

[CRYING] Thank you.

[CRYING]

♪

Oh, my!

- Let's go.
- [GRUNTS LIGHTLY]

♪

Jo, if you didn't exist,

Megan Hunt's abdominal wall transplant would have never happened.

I snaked that transplant from an intern.

Mini-livers would've taken years, not months.

Paul would still be hurting his fiancée, I'm sure.

Alex Karev would probably still be "evilspawn."

Alex Karev would not be the man he is without loving you or being loved by you.

v*olence isn't your birthright or your inheritance.

It's something you survived because you are the opposite of that.

You have an enormous will, an enormous heart, an enormous capacity for survival.

You've taken all this darkness and used it to help other people who are walking through the same.

You lined that hallway with women to help that woman who was hurting badly just hurt a little bit less.

[BENJAMIN FRANCIS LEFTWICH'S "GRATITUDE" PLAYING]

You've taken your darkest experiences that life gave you, and you turned it around and turned it into light.

And if the woman who gave birth to you doesn't want to see that, then that's on her.

♪

[SIGHS]

♪

You know, there was a moment years ago, I... slipped, and I fell into the Sound.

Into freezing, freezing cold water.

♪ I would not have listened, I wouldn't have known how ♪

♪ Would have b*rned down all the bridges ♪

And I thought to myself, just for one moment, I thought, "Why fight?

Why not just stop?"

♪ So nothing could be found ♪

But you fought.

No, I didn't.

I stopped.

The only reason I'm here is because the people who loved me didn't give up on me, so what I'm asking you is, is this you telling me that you just need a few more days under the covers until you can go back to work?

Or are you telling me that you want to stop?

♪ Not to waste any time like I wasted before ♪

♪ Now I know what I'm staying for ♪

♪ No more ♪

I don't want to stop.

♪ Now I know what I'm praying for ♪

[QUIETLY] And I do.

♪ Not to waste any time like I wasted before ♪

♪ Now I know what I'm staying for ♪

Okay, so then we are going to go talk to Bailey.

We're gonna talk to Alex.

[SNIFFLES] Oh, God. I don't want to.

No, I know you don't want to.

But we have to get you the right kind of help.

We have to get you a proper leave of absence so that your career is waiting for you when you come back.

Come on, Jo. I have you.

Please.

♪ Now I know what I'm staying for ♪

Come on.

All you have to do is get up and take a shower.

[SIGHS]

Are you telling me that I stink?

[SIGHS]

Well, I'm not gonna start lying to you now.

[LAUGHS]

[SNIFFLES]

♪

[QUIETLY] Okay. Okay.

[HORNS HONK]

♪ We'll stay home instead ♪

♪ Boom, boom, boom, boom ♪

DRIVER: Damn this traffic.

- ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪
- And now we've got fog rolling in.

Should we come off here?

I mean, would Mercer be any faster or...

[CHUCKLES] Funny.

♪ Wake me up before you go-go ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm not planning on going solo ♪

BOTH: ♪ Wake me up before you go-go ♪

♪ I don't want to miss it when you hit that hiiiigh ♪

[HORNS HONKING]

WOMAN ON PA: Dr. Kroner to Nurses' Station .

ALEX: All right, call me with any updates.

- Bye.
- Dr. Kroner to Nurses' Station .

They're on the highway, but they're stuck in traffic.

Oh, my God. can anything go our way, please?

His hemoglobin is . .

He has oxygen debt.

What... What does that mean?

It means if we don't get oxygen to his organs somehow, they could continue to fail.

You told me you would find the blood.

You told me you would fix him.

You told me you wouldn't give up!

♪

Hyperbaric chamber.

Altman, wait.

Get a gurney.

Hyperbaric chamber.

What's that?

It's an oxygen-rich environment.

It allows more oxygen to get to his organs.

It could buy us some time, right?

Yes. Do it. Do it.

Dr. Altman!

It's Kari Donnelly.

Her CT is back. It's bad.

- You got this?
- Yeah.

Okay.

All right, let's go.

♪

[BIRDS CHIRPING]

JACKSON: Okay.

MAGGIE: Ow. Ow, ow!

- I know.
- Ow!

I got an ice pack for you in the tent and some ointment.

Bugs find me.

You know, they just... they smell my fear, and they target me.

- Aah.
- Okay.

You know it's genetic?

Did you know that?

That there are actually genetic markers that determine whether a bug likes to bite you?

Have those markers, which, you know, I mean, maybe we just chalk this up to genetics.

- All right. Well, I'm gonna...
- [BAG UNZIPS]

...look up the insects in this area on my phone.

I mean, maybe we... we just... we let it be okay that I am who I am, and...

- Ah!
- All right, all right.

...you are who you are?

And, um, maybe we don't... we don't need to... to try to like what the other likes?

[SIGHS] Okay.

You know, because I like crossword puzzles, and I would never force you to do a crossword puzzle because you would hate that.

Maggie, you need to, uh... you need to call the hospital.

I thought we were unplugging.

Maggie.

♪

Oh, my God. Gus.

We have to go.

Yep. I'm on it.

[SIGHS]

♪

Kari, your CT came back, and it shows that you have a cavitary lesion, which I think is the source of your infection.

But I'm sorry... we are gonna have to go in surgically and remove one of the lobes of your lung.

Is that safe?

Sh-Shouldn't we wait to see if the stem cells worked?

If we wait, she could get septic.

So we're screwed either way.

Toby. Honey.

There's no living without risk.

You know that better than I do.

Up until two years ago, I had that boring job I hated so much I'd cry in my car every day at lunch, but I was too scared to quit.

And then you came home and you said, "Mom, I'm not a woman. And I'm not a man. I'm both. And I love you, but I don't care if you like it or not."

And I realized how much of my life I've lived in fear while you, my child, who I made, was living your truest, most authentic life.

Your bravery is the reason I started really living, and not once in these last two weeks have I missed that safe life.

Not once.

I got to live because of you, Toby.

Because you taught me that we have to throw ourselves in, right?

All in.

All in.

[CRYING] Okay, then.

[SNIFFLES]

Let's do the surgery.

Okay.

All in.

[SIGHS] Altman took Kari in for a lobectomy.

Of course she did because this is just one of those days.

I would stay, but Leo, uh, has a cold and Owen is on some rescue mission, so I'm gonna take him home.

Home?

Yeah. To Owen's house.

[LEO COUGHS, BABBLES]

Is this your past or your future?

[LEO BABBLING]

- What?
- Owen and Leo.

Because I was okay with the whole "This isn't a real thing, it's just pain management" scenario right up until this started to feel like a real thing for me.

But you hide me from your family.

You're still playing house with Owen.

So I'm saying, what do you want?

Is this real for you, too?

'Cause if not, I need to know.

Like right this minute while I'm taking care of a sick baby?

I don't just... expect the best out of life, Amelia.

I-I do what I can to help the best come along, so I'm not inclined to hang around in a situation which I know will for sure end in pain because I've... I've had enough pain.

So, no.

[SIGH] Not this minute, but soon.

I'll keep you posted on Kari.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

[TELEPHONE RINGING IN DISTANCE]

[WHISPERING] So, anyway, let's just see where she is, okay?

- Hey.
- Hey.

I need to talk to Bailey.
I would not do that.

They've been in there all day dealing with some kind of...

[SINGSONG VOICE] Drama.

MEREDITH: Okay, well, whatever drama it is can wait.

I need to speak to her.

No, no, no. I-I can wait.

I can wait until she's done, and then I can fill her in.

If you talk to Alex, I'll talk to Bailey.

Andrew, can you, uh, stay with Jo, please?

Yeah, of course.

Okay. Don't leave her side.
It's important.

Okay.

WOMAN ON PA: Dr. Angemi, extension .

Dr. Angemi, extension .

Do you love her?

She told you?

Do you?

Who wouldn't?

[CELLPHONE CHIMES, VIBRATES]

Oh, what's that?

Bailey.

You should go in there.

I... No. No, no.

Meredith said to stay with you. I mean...

No, I'm fine. I can wait here.

Dude, what did you do?

I don't know!

Go. Go!

[SIGHS]

Close the door and have a seat, please, Dr. DeLuca.

[DOOR CREAKS LIGHTLY]

[SIGHS] Um, on the nd of this month, you worked in the clinic.

Is that correct?

Um, I'd have to check, but, yeah.

I'm sure your records are right.

Okay. And on that day, you treated one Gabriella Rivera?

♪

Yes, we resected a part of her colon and diagnosed her with non-Hodgkin's lymphoma.

Who is "we"?

♪

I-I'm sorry. W-What is this all about?

Dr. DeLuca, these people are inspectors from the Olympia United Medical Group.

They provide your insurance and that of every employee at Grey-Sloan Memorial.

It has come to light that Dr. Meredith Grey submitted her own daughter's name to pay for Gabriella's surgery and care, which is both a fraud and a felony.

So we're going to need you to be a lot more specific.

She's more at risk to get a post-op fever, so you need to keep a close eye on her.

- Well, hello there.
- Hey.

I've just used these million-dollar hands on a nasty fusiform aneurysm, and guess what they're tackling next... an IKEA changing table, which I believe is called a "FLURRD."

You heading home, or you got to, uh, hang around for the golden blood?

Uh, no. Gus can't have surgery.

He can only handle a transfusion right now.

[SIGHS]

Are you okay?

Yeah, I... No.

I... Um, I just...

Tom, I have to, um...

I, uh, I have to go, uh, take care of something.

No big. I'll, uh... I'll meet you back at the ranch.

I'll grab some dinner. We can eat off the FLURRD.

[CHUCKLES]

[WILDWOOD KIN'S "HOLD ON" PLAYS]

♪ Hold on ♪

♪

♪ To your lights at night ♪

Hey. What happened?

Oh, hemoglobin's worse, and he's starting to have some end-organ failure.

Golden blood's stuck in traffic.

Hyperbaric therapy's our last hope.

Why are you here?

I-I brought Jo back. Is she okay?

She's fine, but we should talk.

We're ready, Dr. Karev.

Okay. I'll... I'll come in with you.

All right.

♪ Oh oh oh oh ♪

♪

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

♪

Teddy. Hi.

I'm sorry. I... I...

- Did I...
- Did I just open a time portal?

No. No, sorry.

I'm, uh... Leo has a cold.

Owen is still out in the...

Are you two back together again?

'Cause if you are, I do not want to go down that road again,

- so I just...
- No. No, no.

I'm with Leo. I'm just here with Leo.

Auntie Amelia.

Uh, come in. We're making a bottle.

Okay.

♪

So, just out of curiosity, what, uh, road are you going down?

Uh, uh...

[LEO COOS]

I love Owen, and it's scary, and we hurt each other, and it is not easy.

Uh, all things I know.

But I don't... I don't want safe.

I-I don't want to raise my daughter just to feel safe.

I want her to live, and I want her to have love and see love, and Tom Koracick... he makes me... he makes me laugh and... and feel safe.

But I don't feel passion or rage or ecstasy.

I mean, Owen is the only person who ever makes me feel any of those things.

Wait, really? The only one?

Yes.

Owen is the only person who has ever done that for me, and it's maddening, and I have to tell him, and I have to tell him before my daughter is born.

Uh, you are aware that you are leaking.

Yeah, my water broke back around "Auntie Amelia," but I just had to say all that before I go into labor.

Uh, should we... Yeah, we probably should.

- Okay. Uh.
- Ohh.

[CELLPHONE RINGING]

Oh, my God.

[BREATHING SHARPLY]

Teddy's water just broke.

So she won't be able to cover my service anymore.

You know what? Let's just go. Let's just go.

All right, we can come back for this stuff.

I'll come back for this stuff later.

[THUNDER RUMBLES]

[RAIN FALLING]

♪

I guess God's water just broke, too.

[THUNDER CRASHES]

MEREDITH: There will be no shortage of times

when you feel like giving up.

But you can't let that fear or desperation stop you.

Pressure's at . ATA, so we're stuck in here.

Is he still having ST changes?

Uh, nothing's resolved yet.

We should know soon if it's working.

[SIGHS] What the hell happened with Jo?

Did she talk to you?
Did she tell you anything?

DELUCA: Dr. Grey?

Hey, it's not a good time right now.

This can't wait.

What happened? Where's Jo?

Your patient, Gabby Rivera... I, uh... I lied to you.

What?

She didn't have insurance, and she shouldn't have been admitted, but I wanted her to get the surgery very badly.

And so, I didn't tell anyone, and I put another name down on her paperwork.

♪

Your daughter's name, Ellis.

And I'm so sorry.

Andrew, no.

It's all been cleared up.

I got caught.

I just spoke with Chief Bailey and Dr. Fox.

I wanted to apologize to you first before going to the police to let you know what I'd done.

No. Andrew, do not do that.

It's not fair to you, and it's not fair to your kids.

Who need you.

I committed a felony, and I'll likely go to jail.

♪

I'm sorry I put you all at risk.

Andrew. No, Andrew. Don't.

Andrew, do not go to the police!

Do not!

Andrew.

Andrew!

Andrew!

Even when you feel trapped.

Even when it feels like there is no end in sight.

LEVI: Is it possible we're going slower?

Can we pick it up, please?
This is an emergency.

Sorry, but if you can see better through this fog, you should drive.

- Oh, my God.
- [BREATHING DEEPLY]

I've never seen it like this.

Close the window, Schmitt.

Do you mind keeping it open?

It reminds me of home.

Mornings in autumn when the fog comes in.

Feels like everything's cushioned, softer.

The world feels safer.

Even when things are moving faster than you can comprehend.

- It's actually my favorite.
- [TIRES SCREECH]

[CRASHING]
- What the hell was that?

- Oh, my God! Oh, my God!
- [SCREAMS]

- [WHIMPERING]
- They can't see.

They don't know to stop. They can't see!

No, wait! Don't get out!

[HORN HONKS, TIRES SCREECH]

[CRASH, HORNS BLARE]

Even when every part of you is certain...

[SCREAMING]

- ...that all...
- It's okay.

- [SCREAMING]
- ...is lost.