02x09 - Time Stands Still

[bunniefuu]

GARY: You never know who will come into your life and change it forever.

That really spoke to me, man.

I've had days like that, when I couldn't breathe.

Make you feel like you belong.

Gina, I want a baby.

I want a happy ending.

So where do we go from here?

So when they do Why haven't you told Maggie you were fired?

My bosses weren't thrilled with how much time I took off this year.

you hold on tight.

She applied for some fellowship at Oxford.

EDDIE: I am making the decision to be the best father I can be for Charlie.

That means being honest with my children.

I will not let you hurt my kids.

I'm a good lawyer.

You do not want to go up against me.

- Question is - Jon left you money.

- We don't want it.

- Mitch.

I don't want my son finding out I've been lying to him his whole life.

- what happens - ROME: Jon is PJ's father.

when you lose your grip?

The DNA test that was under the bed, it's gone.

PJ's Barbara Morgan's son?

Why didn't you tell me?

[THUNDER CRASHES]

[GEARSHIFT CLICKS, ENGINE SHUTS OFF]

[CELLPHONE VIBRATING]

[CELLPHONE BEEPS]

[SIGHS]

[THUNDER RUMBLES]

Delilah, PJ is Jon's son.

What?

Jon's?

No.

- He is not.

- He is.

He did a DNA test.

It was a match.

[WHIMPERS]

Why do you think he left her all that money?

Because he felt guilty for not being on that plane.

Is that what he felt guilty for?

[CRYING]

Why did Jon make her that video?

JON: I'm sorry, Barbara.

I left you just when you needed me most.

FEMALE VOICE: Your call has been forwarded to an a*t*matic voice message system.

[BEEP]

Hey, PJ.

Uh, I didn't mean for you to find out like that.

I was planning to tell you before my mom Just call me back, please.

No, Mikey, I don't know.

Barbara and I are worried.

We haven't seen Patrick since yesterday.

Yeah, I-I was supposed to pick him up, and he didn't show.

I-I don't know.

12 hours, maybe?

Yeah, I don't know.

He stormed out of here upset.

He's been in his own world, hanging out with a new group of MITCH: Hey, pal, what are you doing?

Is that the girlfriend you were telling me about?

PJ: Uh yeah.

Yeah, that's her.

Hey, Mikey, when you stopped Patrick on his way to his girlfriend's house, where was that?

- [KNOCK ON DOOR]

- Coming.

I'm coming!

Patrick.

[SIGHS]

I didn't know where else to go.

MAGGIE: Oh.

Wow.

I know you haven't heard from Oxford yet, but [LAUGHING]

What is that?

[BRITISH ACCENT]

What, this old thing?

[LAUGHS]

[IRISH ACCENT]

I got it for, uh, a sixpence when I bought you the wig.

Your, uh, your British just went Irish.

Really?

Are you quite sure about that?

Yeah, Bono, I am sure.

[CLEARS THROAT]

[BRITISH ACCENT]

Please, have a seat, m'lady.

[IRISH ACCENT]

Top o' the breakfast to ya!

This is very, very sweet.

[COCKNEY ACCENT]

I'm sure you'll be gettin' great news - from good ol' Oxford - [LAUGHS]

in a queen's biscuit.

[CLEARS THROAT]

God, it's like I'm dating the chimney sweep from "Mary Poppins.

" Forgot the marmalade.

It's making all of my childhood dreams very confusing.

Or do they just suddenly make sense, there, Mary?

[LAUGHING]

Are you okay?

[NORMAL VOICE]

Ah.

I'm really not.

[LAUGHS]

That looked painful.

There he is with the mayor.

Is that Is that Cam Neely?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Jon knew everyone.

You know, there is something I want you to have.

And full disclosure It's broken.

Jon was late to everything, and he used to say he was wearing his excuse.

"What do you mean I'm late?

According to my watch, it's 9:15 in the morning.

" It's a $20 watch.

It never worked, no matter how many times he tried to get it fixed.

But he loved it.

It was his dad's.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

You're You're family now.

You should have it.

Why do you think he never tried to reach out to me?

I don't think he knew, PJ.

There's a lot about Jon I didn't know, but he was a good dad, and he would've wanted to know his son.

[VEHICLE APPROACHES]

How did Rome know I was here?

I texted him.

He was worried about you.

PJ, I think you should talk to your parents.

- No, there's nothing - I know they lied to you, but maybe they had a good reason.

[SIGHS]

Or maybe they're the reason he never got in touch with me.

Maybe he tried and they stopped him.

EDDIE: Thanks for meeting me on such short notice.

Your paralegal said you were swamped.

Ah, no problem.

And, hey, congratulations on getting the house.

[CHUCKLES]

That is hard to pull off.

Uh, usually, the wife gets it, especially when there's kids involved.

I've heard stories about her in court, but I don't need to tell you.

You've seen firsthand how horrible she c Hey!

Katherine!

- Hey, Brian.

- Hi.

How are you?

I'm good.

Thank you.

Um I'm sorry.

Didn't you ask me here about custody stuff with your kid?

Yes.

Different kid.

Oh.

Different woman.

Oh.

You mean the woman that you Ohh.

PJ: You should've seen all that stuff that Delilah had.

All those memories that I could've been a part of.

H-How am I supposed to go in there and have a rational conversation with the people that lied to me my whole life?!

[SIGHS]

Sounds like I'm going in with you.

- [SEAT BELT CLICKS]

- No, no.

- I-I need to do this myself.

- [SEAT BELT CLICKS]

All right.

I'll be right here.

[EXHALES DEEPLY, SIGHS]

Still can't find your passport?

Oh, no, I did about half an hour ago.

But I re-hid it because the feeling of finding it was so gratifying.

[LAUGHS]

You know, if you just put things back where they belong You know, can we skip the TED talk about "a place for everything and everything in its place" and just move on to the part where you show me where Boom!

- Is that my passport?

- No.

It's my passport, and I know exactly where it is.

Why is this so new?

And why do you even have a passport if you haven't been anywhere?

I don't need to go anywhere.

I've got everything I need right here in Boston.

What about Italy?

- You love pizza.

- Do they have cheese in their crust?

Next.

[LAUGHS]

All right.

Um You love "Crocodile Dundee.

" You ever thought about going to Australia?

Don't need to.

Paul Hogan brought it to me.

[AUSTRALIAN ACCENT]

That's not a stapler.

That's a stapler.

[SCOFFS]

Okay, but you could go hang out with all those animals.

How cute are kangaroos?

[NORMAL VOICE]

Super cute.

But I don't trust them, and neither should you.

They box with their heads tilted back.

How do they know to do that?

Don't you have to go to work?

'Course I do.

I'm an essential part of the machine.

In fact, I'm gonna take this just in case I need to leave the country.

- Hmm.

- I'll be back tonight, and I suspect you'll still be right here, - looking for your passport.

- Mm-hmm.

Hilarious.

Whoa.

Hop.

[CHUCKLES]

All right.

Bye, Roo.

[AUSTRALIAN ACCENT]

Bye, Dundee.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

[SIGHS]

[DOOR CLOSES]

Ohh!

[SIGHS]

PJ, where have you been?

We've been so worried about you.

How could you do that?

How could you do that to me?

Whoa, whoa.

What are you talking about?

Just stop it!

Just for once, tell me the truth.

You are not my dad!

Hey.

Did PJ talk to his parents yet?

He's still inside.

And he was really, really upset.

And I can't blame him.

I mean, his his folks kept this huge secret from him his whole I'm sorry.

So it's okay if you and Gina keep a huge secret but not if other people do?

D.

D, it's not like that.

Yeah.

You're right.

And for the record, what's happening with PJ is different.

I have to go.

[CELLPHONE BEEPS]

Please, just sit down.

No, no, I'm not gonna sit down!

Just tell me the truth.

[SIGHS]

All right.

You're right.

When I met your mom, she was already pregnant.

But she and I agreed that I would raise you - as my son - My God.

Just say it.

Just say that Jon is my father.

What?

No.

Patrick, you got it wrong.

It's not Jon.

Your mom had a boyfriend in college.

They met sophomore year.

- His name was David - Oh, my God.

She lied to you, too.

You don't even know, do you?

What are you talking about?

I did a DNA test.

Jon is my father.

- Didn't you - What?

ever wonder why he left her that video?

Why he left her all that money?

Yeah, I know about the money.

The money he left her because of me.

No, she told me that he left that money because - he felt guilty about - No, I get it now.

The reason she didn't want me to know, is because she didn't want you to know.

[SIGHS]

[DOOR OPENS]

[DOOR CLOSES]

[BREATHING SHAKILY]

Come on.

Let's go.

What happened?

Are you okay?

No.

M-Maybe we should go back inside Please.

Just drive.

Please.

Gary.

It's been three days.

You have to tell Maggie you were fired.

Be careful what you push for, Enid.

Your house has never looked better.

Come on, what what are we doing here?

No!

[CHUCKLES]

Bennett was the same way Very particular.

I can't tell you how many times we had to drive back to the house to make sure that the garage door was closed.

- It's good to check.

- [CHUCKLES]

He would do this thing where the volume on the car radio always had to be set to an even number never odd.

Do you do that, too?

I do now.

[SIGHS]

[BOTH LAUGH]

Sorry.

[LAUGHS]

- Ohh - Yeah, I guess, uh I've kind of become a creature of habit.

I've been told, uh, I'm not good with change, which is unfortunate, because lately, it seems like everything's changing.

[WESLEY WHINES]

- What's with you?

- Nothing.

I'm just I'm so happy you got your dog back.

It was very sweet of you to find Wesley.

- Oh.

- I really appreciate it.

I'm just a man.

And I didn't want to say this to you, but he's not my dog.

What?

- He isn't.

- No!

No.

Enid, come on.

Come on.

I think it is.

Look at this big ol' face!

This is definitely, definitely a Wesley.

[LAUGHS]

What's wrong with you, huh?

How could you run away from Enid?

Gary.

This isn't Wesley.

But you know what?

I love him just as much.

Sometimes, change can be good.

Right now, I should let you know that, legally, financially, you are on the hook for nothing.

Nada.

So, before you go and give away what could be a small cottage in Nantucket, I should let you know that I pay a lot of money for a kid that I see two months during the summer.

Brian Right.

Well, listen, as your attorney Who's paid by the hour I'm very happy to go over your legal options, but a-are you sure that there's no way to resolve this without going to court?

I've tried talking to Delilah.

Katherine's tried talking to her.

She just doesn't see it our way.

Right.

But, counselor, with all due respect, this isn't about two companies going at it.

These are people.

And you should know, once you go down this road, it could get very ugly.

[PANTING]

[CHEERS AND APPLAUSE]

GARY: Maggie!

- MAGGIE: I don't think I can do this.

- It's okay.

It's okay.

- I'm in.

- You're in.

I love you, Gary Mendez.

TOGETHER: Three, two, one!

[CHEERS AND APPLAUSE]

I made us a little something to drink.

Family recipe.

Whoa!

- Is this lemonade?

- Mostly.

- Heh ha!

- [CELLPHONE VIBRATING]

Uh, excuse me.

- [CELLPHONE BEEPS]

- Ed.

Uh, did I catch you at a bad time?

Just unintentionally day-drinking.

What's up?

Just this paternity stuff.

Delilah and I aren't seeing eye-to-eye, and Katherine and I were hoping you could talk to her before we have to get lawyers involved.

Lawyers?

I don't know what else to do.

If Delilah isn't willing to sign the forms voluntarily, then, legally we have to get a blood sample from Charlie to prove that I'm the father.

That seems a bit extreme, don't you think?

I know.

But that's why we want you to talk to her.

She listens to you.

You're like a brother to her.

Oh, am I?

Because I don't have sex with her?

Is that how we found that dynamic?

Dude, this is why you do not crap where you eat.

You know how hard it's been for all of us to navigate what you two did?

And now, what, you're asking me to choose between my best friends?

[DOOR CLOSES]

Hey.

I got your text.

Is Patrick okay?

Patrick?

- Where is he?

- Gone.

What do you mean "gone"?

He left.

All these years, you've been lying to me.

What What are you talking about?

I'm done falling for it, Barbara.

I know.

Patrick is Jon's son.

He told me everything.

W-What?

He was right.

I am such an idiot.

You're lying to me right now.

He did a DNA test.

It's all right here.

This says that PJ's DNA matches Wh Hai Hairs found Found on what what sweater?

This one.

Oh, my God.

It is so nice up here.

You ever, uh You ever barbecue?

Sometimes.

I gotta say, you're taking this a lot better than I thought you would.

Yeah, actually, this is This is the best I've felt in a long time.

The truth is finally out.

I know who I am.

Okay, then.

I guess I'm happy for you.

Yeah, me too.

And as hard as it is to not have known Jon I mean, I'm I'm family now.

Hey, D, uh, call me.

I just want to make sure you're okay.

- Um, I know it was a lot of - MAGGIE: Gina?

Um, just call me.

Maggie, what are you doing here?

Is everything okay?

- I needed to talk to you.

- Okay.

- Maybe I shouldn't.

- Okay.

- No, I need to.

- Okay.

Uh, has Gary mentioned anything to you?

I'm gonna need a little more information.

Um Has he told you a big piece of news that I haven't found out about yet?

He has.

And I promised I wouldn't say anything.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

So maybe you say something?

I found the ring.

Oh.

Oh!

Yes.

The ring.

Yeah, don't get me wrong It's beautiful.

I mean, I don't know if you helped pick it out, but it is beautiful.

But it's just such a weird time to be doing that.

I mean, I might be going to Oxford for a year, and he said he could come with me, but his job, his life.

How can he just leave everything behind for me?

[DOOR CLOSES]

I Delilah, there you are.

Did you get my message?

Hi, Maggie.

Hey.

Is everything okay?

I don't know.

Gary texted me saying he wanted to meet me here with Katherine and Eddie.

Wait, Gary's coming here?

Yeah.

Seems like a lot of people are talking about me behind my back.

I'm gonna I'm gonna give you guys a second.

Oop!

Turn around.

Trust me, turn around.

You know, when you asked me to help move all this stuff, I kind of imagined us doing it together.

- What are they doing here?

- I don't know.

They were waiting by the door when I came downstairs.

MITCH: Patrick, please.

We're here 'cause we need to tell you the truth.

I didn't tell you about PJ because I was looking out for you.

I was waiting to know for sure that it was true.

Well, knowing whether it was true or not didn't seem to stop you from keeping information from me about my life!

No, I-I'm telling you, PJ, Dave is your father.

He and Jon were best friends.

No, the DNA test.

Jon is my father.

I tested the sweater.

No, honey.

[SIGHS]

When Dave d*ed, that sweater was the only thing of your father's that Jon wanted.

No.

No, I Baby, sit down.

- Let me explain this to you.

- No, no.

I don't want to hear it.

- Please!

- Hey.

Patrick!

I said I don't want to hear it.

- [DOOR OPENS]

- Let me talk to him.

[DOOR CLOSES]

Thank you.

GARY: Can I buy you a drink?

Hey.

What is that look?

- Um, uh - What are you doing here?

Uh, Regina and I were just discussing Gary, hey.

How'd it go with D?

Is she willing to correct the birth certificate?

MAGGIE: What?

I haven't talked to her yet.

Well, then, what are we doing here?

You asked me to fix this, Ed.

- This is me fixing it.

- DELILAH: Stop telling me what to do!

I'm not trying to tell you what to do, D.

- I'm trying to help!

- Well, you're not helping.

This is my family!

It It doesn't involve you.

Maybe it should involve her.

Of course you think that.

She's on your side.

Oh, D, I'm not taking sides.

- [SCOFFS]

- The fact is, you had the affair, you kept this a secret, and now you are angry at anyone who doesn't share your opinion.

- All right, everybody, stop talking.

- You know, Gina?

I get that you think you know what's best, but you don't have kids.

So how can you possibly know what's best for mine?

Stop!

Just stop!

You three need to talk.

We've tried.

Well, try harder.

I cannot believe that it's come to this.

You're really gonna take legal action?

Come on.

Legal W-What?!

Yeah.

That's right, D.

They want you to sign a form that proves that Eddie is Charlie's father.

I-I can't believe you would do that.

I can't believe any of you would do any of this!

You're better than that.

Least, I thought you were.

- We just want - I know, Ed.

I know.

You want what's best for Charlie.

Everyone wants what's best for their family.

Well, what about this family?

My family.

Because what you're doing is ripping us apart.

Ever since Jon d*ed, I am trying.

I'm trying to keep us together.

Man, I took you in.

I agreed to be the guardian of your kid.

And, D I held you in that driveway.

I told you he was gone.

And I promised that I would be there and that we would still be a family.

I have stood by you through everything, even when I didn't agree with you, because you are like a sister to me.

I've spent so much time helping people through cancer and depression and divorce that here's an interesting little fact.

I lost my job!

But I would do it all over again if it meant keeping us together.

Because I can get another job.

But I cannot get another family!

Look where we're standing.

This This was Jon's last gift to us.

You think this is the someday he imagined?

It's not!

And it's not the one I imagined, either!

So clean it up!

[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]

[DOOR CLOSES]

Hey.

I know it's a lot, man.

No, you don't know.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

You don't get it.

For so long, it didn't make sense.

It just didn't feel like Mitch was my father.

[SNIFFLES]

[VOICE BREAKING]

'Cause we're so different.

I We're so different, and I just I I-I blamed myself for not being like him.

And then I-I finally had an answer that explained everything.

And And I got to know them, and And I liked them.

And they liked me.

Now I'm I'm more alone than ever.

You know what?

Let's talk about this downstairs.

Come on, let's go - Let's go downstairs.

- No.

No!

Stay back.

It's It's not fair!

PJ.

You are not alone.

I am!

- I-I am.

I - [CELLPHONE BEEPS]

Let's just have a glass of wine and talk.

Yeah.

Mitch.

Barbara.

What are you doing here?

- [INDISTINCT TALKING]

- PJ: I'm tired of trying to explain it.

- Rome?

- You got to come down off of this roof, PJ.

We are going to talk about it.

- Guys.

- [CELLPHONE BEEPS]

I'm done talking!

Talking is what got me up here.

- Oh, my God.

- PJ!

- I don't think I can do this anymore.

- They're on the roof.

No, PJ, we can We can talk to Maggie.

W-What do you say we We come down from this roof and we talk to Maggie?

I don't want to talk to Maggie.

- I don't want to talk to anyone.

- Wait, wait, wait.

Wait, wait, wait!

- Wait!

Stop, stop.

- What the hell are you doing?

- Open the door!

- We can't go out there right now.

What are you talking about?

My son is out there!

I am a psychologist!

Rome is with him, and he trusts him.

He is upset, but he doesn't want to die.

We do not want to escalate this.

These last few weeks, just spending time with you and Sophie and Delilah, I I felt like I finally had a family.

I don't I don't have that anymore.

Okay, look, PJ, what does it mean to be family?

Huh?

You helped me bury my mom.

You stood right next to me and Eddie and Gary and my brother because you are my family.

Family's not just the people who had you.

Family's the people who who raise you, the people who love you.

You don't think Mitch loves you?

He lied to me my whole life!

You heard your mom.

This guy wanted to be your dad.

He stepped up.

And he he might not show up in all the ways that you want him to.

Hell, neither does my dad.

But these two men are our fathers!

And they are trying to love us the best way they can.

And you know what?

Sometimes [SCOFFS]

we can be a little hard to love.

No, it it's just, for as far back as I can remember, there's been this this weight, and I didn't know why.

And then I found out a-about Jon and his depression, and I thought I finally figured out the reason.

I thought I finally figured out why I feel this way.

But I was wrong, and I don't, and I God, no matter what I do, it's just [BREATHING HEAVILY]

- PJ!

- It's never gonna go away.

PJ, don't!

No, wait, wait, wait, wait!

Wait, wait.

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

Well, there's just an empty space What are you doing?!

Same thing you're doing.

Just the memory of your face Now take a look at me now A year ago, I was right where you are.

Wasn't a rooftop.

It was a mouthful of pills.

Just like that script you read.

Yes, man, there are some dark days!

[VOICE BREAKING]

But there's also tomorrow.

And I'm here for you!

We are all here for you.

I will not lose you.

[CRYING]

I will not lose you.

Take a good look at me now 'Cause I'll still be standing here And you coming back to me I got you.

I got you.

I got you.

Take a look at me now Mm-hmm.

Okay.

Thanks, John.

We're just glad you're safe.

So, I got ahold of my colleague Dr.

Pratt.

He's gonna meet you at admitting.

All he's gonna do is talk to you and decide whether or not you have to stay the night.

We're gonna get you the help you need.

Thank you.

It's okay.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

He's okay.

BARBARA: I was just trying to protect you.

[VOICE BREAKING]

I'm sorry.

I should've told you.

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

D.

What are you doing here?

Here's the form you wanted.

I-I signed it.

It says that you're Charlie's father.

Katherine, maybe Maybe you can file it in the morning.

Thank you.

W-We're doing the right thing.

I know, just I don't know how I'm gonna handle it if they don't take it well.

We'll handle it the way Gary said.

As a family.

- [COLIN GRUNTS]

- GARY: Let's go.

Get up there.

- MAGGIE: Mm.

- [SIGHS]

Hey.

[COLIN PANTING]

How's the kid?

Is he okay?

Mm.

Yeah.

I mean, he will be.

He's been through a lot.

How's Rome?

Mm.

He was incredible.

Good.

[SNIFFS]

- I see you found your passport.

- [CHUCKLES LIGHTLY]

I was starting to think you weren't a citizen.

I had a whole birther thing going on in my head.

[CHUCKLES]

Hey, uh, listen.

After everything that's happened today, I feel like you and I should talk about stuff.

Yeah.

Absolutely.

Uh I'm sorry I didn't tell you about my job.

But I'll get another one.

Maybe in England.

Um Gary, when I found my passport, um, I also found this.

Whoa!

In the [LAUGHS]

No.

No, no, no, Maggie.

Uh [CLEARS THROAT]

This, uh, I got for you [SIGHS]

when you were sick.

[CHUCKLES LIGHTLY]

And I wasn't sure if you were You know.

No.

No, no.

This This is from before.

[EXHALES DEEPLY]

- Whew!

[CHUCKLES]

- Yeah.

[SIGHS, CHUCKLES]

[CHUCKLES]

Wow.

No, it's just - It's just a lot.

I mean - It's just that you thought I was gonna propose.

And that was your reaction.

Gary, we've known each other less than a year.

[LAUGHING]

That would be crazy.

Would it?

I mean, a little bit, right?

[CHUCKLES]

- What?

- Um When you were sick, we had this this way.

And now I feel, um Let me ask you something.

When you were lying in that hospital bed, when you looked at me and you told me that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me did you say that because you thought the rest of your life was only gonna be six months?

[SIGHS]

[VOICE BREAKING]

I don't know.

- Oh, my God.

- Gary, you said it yourself.

You got that for me when I was sick.

I'm not sick anymore.

Things have changed.

Yeah, but not for me they haven't.

Well, that's the problem.

You're acting like I still have cancer, like you have to drop everything to save me.

But I'm I'm not there anymore.

You gave me a post-it that said "I'm in.

" And apparently, you didn't mean that.

That's not fair.

No, what's not fair is that I I would give you this right now if I thought you wanted it.

But you don't.

Gary, you gave me a life that I didn't even think I was gonna have.

I'm not saying that I don't want to spend it with you.

I am saying I don't know what it is yet.

It's this!

It's all of this!

It's me, willing to give you everything!

- I'm in love with you!

- And I'm in love with you!

But before I can say that I can be half of us, I have to figure out what my half is.

And I'm not saying this to hurt you.

I'm not.

That's the last thing I want.

But I know that between losing Jon and your mom, - you have a lot of prob - Stop it.

No, stop.

You don't get to do that.

No, no.

And not in a conversation where you are not willing to commit to me, you don't get to bring up my mother.

This is about you and me and you not willing to commit.

You keep saying that you need to know who you are without cancer.

I get it.

[SIGHS]

While you're doing that maybe I need to figure out who I am without you.

Is that really what you want?

- You want us to end this?

- No.

What I want is for you to want us the way you used to.

But you don't.

So go.

[SIGHS]

[CRYING]

[SNIFFLES]

Your dad and I met at Ground Zero.

MITCH: She had lost Dave, and I'd lost my whole battalion.

[GOO GOO DOLLS' "IRIS" PLAYS]

[SNIFFLES]

[VOICE BREAKING]

We had both lost what was most important to us.

And somehow, despite it all Or maybe because of it all we fell in love.

Dad wanted to raise you as his own.

He wanted to adopt you.

I wanted us to be a family.

And I'd give up forever to touch you 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to Heaven that I'll ever be And I don't want to go home right now What's going on?

What is it?

There's something we need to talk about as a family.

Is this about Dad?

It's It's about Charlie.

And me.

And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am Gina.

Everything that I have put you through today must have been hard to see, but I am not I am so proud of you, babe.

I almost lost you eight months ago.

But today you were strong, confident, unafraid.

I don't know about unafraid.

Oh, I do.

You were willing You were willing to risk your life to save PJ's.

The way you were with him today, that's what a parent should do.

Part of the reason I wasn't sure I could be a mom was because I didn't have that growing up.

But I look at you and your mom, and I realize what a great job she did.

And I want to do that for someone.

Are you Are you s-saying I'm saying I want to adopt a baby.

I want to save someone, too.

[LAUGHS]

[TAPE RIPPING]

And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand [KEYS JINGLE]

When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am [SOBBING]

Hey, pal.

There's something we want to talk to you about.

[THUD]

What was that?

[THUD]

I don't know.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't comin' Or the moment of truth in your lies MAGGIE: No, I understand.

[INHALES DEEPLY]

Yeah.

I would love to be considered in the future.

Thanks for letting me know.

- [CELLPHONE BEEPS]

- That was Oxford.

I didn't get the fellowship.

Oh, Maggie.

I'm so sorry.

Me too.

When everything feels like the movies - Yeah, you bleed - After you.

Just to know you're alive Thanks for doing this.

I didn't know who else to call.

You know, 'cause everyone else I know in town, I know through Gary, and I'm not ready to tell them yet.

Just in case [SIGHS]

I'm just not ready.

Yeah.

I get it.

[CLEARS THROAT]

[CELLPHONE VIBRATING]

Hey.

What's up, buddy?

Yeah, I'm I'm helping her move right now.

[SIGHS]

I'm gonna tell her.

Now is just not the right time.

Okay.

[THUD]

[WOMAN GRUNTING]

[THUD]

- [WOMAN SHOUTS]

- [THUD]

[THUD]

You spoke at his funeral!

You were his friend!

[GRUNTS]

I trusted you!

And I don't want the world to see me - I am so sorry.

- Don't.

When everything's made to be broken [VOICE BREAKING]

I hate you.

I just want you to know who I am - I just want you to know who I am - [SOPHIE YELLS]

I just want you to know who I am