04x04 - Milk

[bunniefuu]

[screaming]

Stop!

[g*nsh*t]

[train horn blaring]

[June and Janine panting]

[June whispering]

Stop.

[Janine]

Oh.

[June]

Okay, hold still.

[Janine]

We should wait maybe.

[June]

It’s gonna work.

[Janine]

June.

[June]

Look.

Almost.

[grunts]

Okay, come on.

June, I think that maybe we should probably go back and see what happened to them.

No, no.

We have to go.

No.

Janine‐‐ They may be okay and just… Come on!

…try to find them.

Janine!

They’re dead!

They’re dead, okay?

No.

Yes.

They’re gone.

[whimpers]

They’re gone.

[both crying]

[June]

They’re gone.

Here’s what we’re gonna do, okay?

We’re gonna go West.

Okay.

We’re gonna follow the tracks.

Mmm‐hmm.

And we’re gonna be okay.

All right?

Mmm‐hmm.

We’re gonna be okay.

Okay.

Okay.

[both panting]

[Janine whispering]

Which one’s going to Boston?

[June]

We’re not going to Boston.

[Janine]

But we know people there.

I told you, we’re going West.

Keep fighting and find Mayday.

What if‐‐ Quiet.

Shh!

[vehicles approaching]

Come on.

[soldier]

See this here?

Let’s stack it, strap it down.

They need this stuff in Chicago.

That one.

The one with the soldiers?

Yeah.

That one’s going to the front.

June, why would we go to the front of a w*r?

Because that’s where they’re still fighting.

Chicago is still Chicago.

They’re not giving up.

People die in wars.

They get their arms blown off.

I won’t let anything happen to you.

Okay?

Okay.

[soldier 1]

Give me a hand.

[soldier 2]

Yeah, hang on.

Ready?

Yeah.

Go!

[train horn blowing]

Come on.

You first.

[both panting]

Janine, follow me in.

[gasping]

[coughing]

[gasping]

It’s milk.

sh*t.

June?

It’s okay.

Come on.

Janine, you have to jump.

Come on, it’s okay.

Are you sure?

Come on, hurry!

Come on!

[panting]

[Janine yelps]

[gasping]

f*ck, f*ck, f*ck!

It’s freezing.

I know.

[gasping]

June!

I know.

It’s okay.

[Guardian]

Let’s go!

Close that up!

[Janine gasping]

He’s coming.

He’s coming.

Shh!

Shut up.

We have to hide.

Okay?

Ready?

[footsteps approaching]

[hatch latches]

[Guardian]

All clear.

[both gasp]

[coughing]

[train rumbles, horn blowing]

[breathing heavily]

[June]

sh*t.

We need something.

We need something.

There has to be a drain.

[gasping]

[both gasp, cough]

June!

[both continue gasping]

I feel something.

[thuds]

[Janine]

June!

I found it.

I found it.

[milk draining]

[breathing heavily]

[train horn blaring]

[children chattering in distance]

[Moira]

Ah!

[Rita]

There you go.

[Moira]

Oh, God, you shouldn’t have bothered.

But, thank you.

This… this is incredible.

Well, you’ve been very kind.

There’s no record of your sister or your nephew in any of the refugee camp databases.

I’m sorry I don’t have more concrete news.

It’s all right.

I appreciate you checking.

I’ll keep looking.

The Catholics were really good at forging passports.

They could’ve entered under assumed names.

May His light guide their souls.

Is there something else?

[Moira]

I heard from the court.

And, um, there’s been a request from Serena Joy.

She wants to know if you’ll see her.

Why?

I do not know.

She must know that I’ve been deposed.

I told them everything.

I’m sure she’s furious.

Let her be furious.

She’s in a cell where she belongs.

She’s only there because she wanted to be with Nichole.

I don’t know.

Being able to say your piece to her face?

Lotta girls I know would k*ll for that kinda closure.

Or you could let her f*cking rot.

[door clanging in distance]

[keypad beeps, door unlocks]

[Serena]

Rita.

Praise be His blessed mercy.

Ma’am.

Thank you for coming.

Please, sit down.

[door closes]

I try not to be on my feet for too long.

I’m sure you’re wondering why I asked you here.

Yes, Ma’am, I am.

I don’t understand.

[chuckles]

God is truly great.

I didn’t believe it either.

It’s a miracle.

[both laugh]

I didn’t think the Commander could.

Well, Gilead’s clean water and clean air and God’s grace.

It’s what we always wanted.

What we always prayed for.

He must be beside himself.

I haven’t told him.

And I don’t intend to.

There is a reason why God chose this moment, when Fred and I are separated and… but now you’re here.

To help me care for this little boy.

It’s a boy?

It’s a boy?

It’s a boy.

Can you imagine?

No.

Toy trucks and scraped knees.

No.

Catching frogs.

[laughs]

Oh.

Praise be.

I have missed you.

My lovely Rita.

You were always such a blessing.

Thank you.

No, that’s for you.

So you can look at him whenever you want.

It’s nice to have a friend.

Would you pray with me?

Yes.

[Serena]

God, we thank you for your true and purest gift.

[train rumbling]

[train horn blaring]

Janine.

Wake up.

You can’t fall asleep when it’s this cold.

Okay?

You’ll get hypothermia.

No.

That’s concussions.

You can’t sleep with one of them.

No, it’s both.

I think it’s both.

Janine, wake up.

[murmurs]

[voice shaking]

I hate it.

I hate it in here!

[June]

I know.

Me too.

We’re okay.

We’re gonna be okay, so… How is this okay?

Because we can get there and we’re gonna… we’re gonna find them.

And we’re gonna find Mayday.

They’re gonna help us.

You keep saying that, but you don’t know.

Do you have some secret, brilliant plan?

What is it?

What’s the plan?

Well… Well… I’m not a mushroom.

I’m not!

Okay.

So you can’t keep me in the dark and feed me lies and sh*t and expect me to just be okay with it!

I don’t do that.

Yes, you do.

You don’t… you don’t know where we’re going, you don’t know if we’re gonna be okay.

I’m keeping us alive.

They were the nicest.

Alma and Brianna.

Maybe that’s why.

What?

Why God wanted them.

And not us.

At least not you.

No.

Hmm.

That’s not how God works.

Well, I think he does!

When we were at the farm?

When we were hiding?

Alma said, “We have to wait for June.”

She made sure we waited for you.

‘Cause she loves you.

Loved you.

They all loved you.

Like… like a real, real love.

I know that.

Did you tell the Eyes where to find us?

We didn’t tell anyone where we were going, just like you said.

They had her.

They had Hannah.

Okay?

You saw her?

And I didn’t know what they were gonna do to her.

And I didn’t know if they were gonna hurt her.

‘Cause she was really scared.

So, yes… I told them where you were.

Okay?

Okay.

You would have done the same thing.

You don’t know what I would have done.

[scoffs]

All right.

Maybe I would’ve done something better.

Something smarter.

Like what, huh?

Like what, Janine?

Something stupid and dangerous, and then I would’ve had to save your ass again.

This is stupid and dangerous!

We’re going to the front of a w*r in a refrigerator!

I wouldn’t have told them where we were.

You know that’s why they’re dead.

I should’ve left you a long time ago.

[train horn blowing]

[Abby on phone]

I need you here.

You’re supposed to work the double.

Uh, yeah.

I can’t, I texted you.

Um, I got Linda to pick up my shift.

f*cking Linda?

Sam won’t let me change the schedule once I’ve posted it.

You know how he gets.

He’s a douchebag.

Yeah, I know.

I’m sorry.

How soon can you get back?

Um, I… I can’t, um… You know, I’m gonna pick up a shift tomorrow.

I just… I really need the time off.

It’s a doctor’s appointment, right?

Just reschedule it.

Um, it’s time sensitive.

Okay.

Sorry.

f*ck it.

I’ll deal with Sam.

Seriously?

Yeah.

Oh my… thank you so much.

This… it just… it won’t happen again.

Believe me.

Better not, Janine.

[Darla]

I started volunteering here at the clinic about a year ago.

With all the insanity surrounding the birth rate, I figured pregnant women need all the help they can get, right?

[chuckles softly]

Yeah, thanks.

Um, is the doctor gonna be a while?

Depends.

But first I just want to talk through all your options.

That’s for you to keep.

There’s some really good information in there.

So, Janine.

You’re considering abortion as your first option?

Yeah.

Yeah, that’s why I made the appointment.

[Darla]

Why is that?

It just wasn’t exactly planned.

Sure.

I get it.

Does the father know?

Um, no, I haven’t told anyone.

Is he your boyfriend?

Sometimes.

You know, fatherhood can be transformational for young guys.

Maybe he’d want to raise the baby with you.

Um, yeah, no.

I don’t think that’s a good idea.

Are you religious?

Um… What does that have to do with anything?

Just trying to understand your life a little, so I can help you make the best choice.

Um, okay.

Well, my mom, I think she’s Methodist.

Um, but we didn’t really go to church or anything.

Well, what I think is someone up there chose you for this.

Uh, yeah, the condom fell off.

That’s what happened.

That doesn’t mean you can’t have this baby.

Abortion is dangerous.

I don’t want you to go through with it if you don’t have to.

Uh, well, I want to go through with it.

That’s why I’m here.

Well, we don’t do them here.

What?

Well, why the f*ck would you have me come in here?

What is this place?

Somewhere we can help you understand what happens when you choose abortion.

[sighs]

They insert a tube into you and use it to tear the baby apart.

Jesus Christ.

They pull it out piece by piece.

And if a tiny piece is left inside, like a toe or a finger, the infection makes you infertile.

Your body was made to keep that baby, not get rid of it.

All women regret doing this, Janine.

You think you’ll be fine.

But no one’s fine after k*lling their baby.

You don’t know sh*t about me.

I know you’re used to being underestimated.

You think you can’t do this, but you’re strong, you’re smart and you’d be a great mom.

You have no idea how much you would love this baby.

You don’t have to rush.

You have plenty of time to think, to make the right decision, okay?

Okay.

[knocking at door]

[Rita]

Mr. Tuello.

I hope I’m not disturbing you.

No, not at all.

Uh… Please, come in.

[Mark]

Thank you.

[door closes]

Is everything okay?

Yes.

I just came to drop this off and answer any questions you might have.

And what is this?

Interview prep materials from Mrs. Waterford’s defense attorney.

You weren’t expecting this?

No.

I… What is this?

Um… Mrs. Waterford’s attorneys claim you can corroborate that any action she took regarding June Osborn’s pregnancy was a result of extreme duress inflicted upon her by her husband.

She wants me to blame the Commander.

That seems to be their strategy.

[Rita]

Mmm.

Apparently she was very moved by your visit.

She believes the two of you share a strong bond.

Did you know in Gilead I was officially considered property of the Waterford family?

I did, yes.

Hmm.

Registered and everything.

Like my old Nissan Altima.

[door beeps, opens]

[Rita]

Hello, sir.

[Commander Fred gasps softly]

[Commander Fred]

Rita.

I hardly recognized you.

How are you?

Are you with your family?

With respect, sir, I… I’d rather not say.

Of course.

You’re free to do as you please.

Yes, I am.

It’s nice to see a friendly face.

We aren’t friends.

No.

I suppose we’re not.

Why have you come?

You deal with your family.

It’s not my job anymore.

And I thank God for that every day.

I was never cruel to you.

I’ll pray for your son.

[train engine chugging]

[train horn blowing]

[loud thud]

[brakes screech]

[Janine]

What’s that?

What the hell was that?

I don’t know.

[metallic thud]

[g*nshots]

[men]

They’re armed!

sh*t.

[man screams]

[June]

We should get out.

What?

f*ck that.

No, If they’re attacking a Gilead train, then it’s not Gilead.

So what?

So that’s what we want.

What‐‐ [man 2]

Let’s go fast!

Come on, give me a leg up.

Um… Janine.

Okay.

[June]

Okay?

Okay.

[grunts]

[woman]

Take it off!

[grunts]

[man]

Take the weapons first!

[man 2]

Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go!

[woman]

Two minutes, two minutes!

[woman 2]

Hey!

[g*n cocks]

Who the f*ck are you?

My name is June.

Please, we’re not armed.

[woman 2]

We?

[softly]

Come on.

[Janine grunting]

Hi.

It’s just us.

Down.

[woman]

Come on, let’s go!

[indistinct chatter]

It’s okay.

[Janine]

Okay.

[June]

Let’s go.

[man]

Come on, come on, come on.

Search them.

[June]

Hey, I told you, we don’t have anything.

[woman]

Hustle!

Come on!

I need this!

Someone!

We need your help.

We’re trying to get to Chicago.

You have owners, right?

Are they looking for you?

No one knows where we are.

We’re just trying… to get somewhere safe.

[man]

I got ’em.

Looks good.

Steven.

Jesus Christ.

[man]

Get in the truck!

Let’s go!

They wanna come with us, but they’re walking targets.

Hey, we’ve gotten this far without anyone finding us.

You can trust us.

And I should believe you?

[man]

Drop that bullshit!

We don’t need it!

We’ll do anything you say.

We need you.

Get them in the truck.

[woman 2]

Steven, how can‐‐ [Steven]

Everyone, right now!

We’ve been here too long.

[man]

Let’s go!

Come on, go!

Hey.

Are they Mayday?

I don’t know.

They’re mean.

They’re on our side, and you’re coming.

[man]

Ride over with him.

[woman]

Okay.

Where else am I going to go?

Okay.

[jet engine roaring]

[car door opens, closes]

Get them inside.

[indistinct chatter]

[helicopter hovering]

[chatter continues indistinctly]

[Steven]

How did you escape?

I heard they kept you in chains.

Not exactly.

Actual f*cking sex slaves in America.

We weren’t in America.

[Steven]

Yeah, I guess not.

Well, welcome back.

It’s a f*cking disaster.

Hey.

It’s okay.

I’m okay.

You okay?

Mmm‐hmm.

She hasn’t eaten anything.

[woman 2]

Get used to it.

We need a place to stay.

Come on, we need some food.

[Steven]

This isn’t a charity.

Whatever we pulled off that train is all we’ve gotten in weeks.

[June]

We’re not asking for charity.

You have no idea what we’ve done.

We can be useful.

Theresa will get you some clothes and some food.

Thank you.

Okay?

Okay.

Okay.

[Steven]

Which one of you is staying with me?

What?

Either one of you is fine.

That’s not what I meant.

It’s what you’ve got.

Nothing’s free here.

Not her.

Go on.

Go with her.

I’ll be fine.

[Janine]

Are you sure?

Yeah.

Please get her something warm.

It’s fine.

We’ll see you soon.

Go on.

[Steven]

Guess you’re used to this.

[breathing shakily]

Hey.

I’m not gonna force you.

You guys can just go.

[sighs]

You’re not Mayday, are you?

What’s Mayday?

[jet flying over]

[Janine]

Hey.

Theresa said clothes are what they have a lot of, since the stores were full‐‐ We can’t stay here.

What happened?

Did he hurt you?

No.

We’ll go someplace else, okay?

Okay.

We’re gonna find someplace safe.

I promise.

We’ll be okay.

Okay.

We’ll be okay.

Um, well, you should change first.

Okay.

It’s okay.

[muffled upbeat music playing in distance]

[footsteps approaching]

[Janine]

Caleb!

[chortles]

Hey, you.

Come here.

I got you.

[chuckles]

Oh, you.

You’re supposed to be in bed.

You silly.

Okay, here we go.

Let’s go, Squirmy.

[Janine humming]

[music box playing quietly]

♪ Singin’ sweet songs ♪ ♪ Of melodies pure and true ♪ ♪ Sayin’ ♪ ♪ “This is my message to you Whoo‐hoo” ♪ ♪ Don’t worry ♪ ♪ About a thing ♪ ♪ ‘Cause every little thing ♪ ♪ Is gonna be all right ♪

[knock on door]

[doctor]

Janine.

Hi.

I’m Dr.

Thomas.

It’s nice to meet you.

You too.

So how are you doing?

You’re feeling okay?

Yeah.

I know that it’s not easy to be here.

Did the nurse get a chance to go over all your options with you?

Um, yeah.

Yeah, she did, and look, I know I could probably keep the kid.

I… I know that I just… I already have a son and it’s just me, and I have a job, but it’s barely enough for the both of us, and I was thinking about enrolling in school next semester because he’s finally old enough‐‐ Hang on.

Do you wanna be pregnant right now?

No.

And you’re comfortable with your choice?

You’re making this decision yourself?

Yes.

Then the rest is none of my business.

I am required by law to tell you that an abortion procedure can lead to an increased risk of breast cancer, infertility and depression.

And not by law, I’m also gonna say that that’s a bunch of crap.

The other place made it sound like something really horrible would happen.

Did you search abortion clinics online and end up there?

They’re called “crisis pregnancy centers,” and they lie to women to convince them to keep unwanted pregnancies.

I’m sorry you had to go through that.

You take one now, and four tomorrow morning.

You’ll have some cramping and bleeding.

Maybe some fatigue and nausea.

But if your symptoms last more than two days, I want you to call me.

That’s it?

You already did the hard part.

Thank you.

You’re welcome.

Amen.

Here.

We can stay.

It wasn’t so bad.

He thinks my eye patch is cool.

[chuckles softly]

[helicopter blades whirring]

I’m sorry.

It’s okay.

Eat.