After Ever Happy (2022)

[bunniefuu]

[tense music]

[electricity buzzing]

[electricity buzzing fades]

[tense music fades]

-[screen tapping]
-[soft tense music]

[sentimental music]

[Tessa] [voice-over]
All of us have demons.

-All I want is a relationship
with my daughter.

-He's an alcoholic
and so were you.

[Hardin grunts]

[Tessa] [voice-over]
You face them.

And just when you think
you're winning,

it turns out.

they weren't your demons
to begin with.

-[moaning]
-What the f*ck?

-Oh, fu--

-Vance!

[Trish]
It's not what you think.

[Hardin] You're getting married
tomorrow!

-I was gonna tell you ages ago,
but your mom didn't want.

-Tell me what?

-Hardin is Christian's son.

-I'm so sorry.
-[Hardin] f*ck off!

[perky music]

-♪ We are family ♪

♪ I got all my
sisters with me ♪

♪ We are family ♪

♪ Get up everybody and sing ♪

♪ We are family ♪

-Hardin.

-♪ I got all my sisters
With me ♪

-It was. It was a mistake.

-Which part?

-♪ We are family ♪

♪ Get up everybody and sing ♪

-Christian told you?

My love,
if I could go back.

If I could go back, if--

[sighs]

[sobbing]
I should have told you.

-Yeah.

[Trish] Hardin!

[sentimental music]

[receding footsteps]

-♪ Just let me state
For the record ♪

♪ We're giving love
In a family dose ♪

-[Smith] Kimberly, look.
-♪ We are family ♪

[Kimberly] chuckling]
Ooh, yeah.

-♪ I got all my sisters
With me ♪

-Hi.
-[Kimberly] Hey.

-♪ We are family ♪

♪ Get up everybody and sing ♪

[drink flowing]

[thumping rock music]

-You sure you wanna do that?

I'll get one of those.

[music playing in background]

Your dad.

Ken.

You know,
we were like brothers.

-And then
you f*cked his wife.

-That's not how it was.

I loved your mum.

She was head over heels
with him.

But then when he went to
university, he wasn't there.

He was wandering around.
He was always busy.

And. she turned to me
for emotional support.

That's how it became intimate.

-[scoffs] Spare me
the f*cking details, okay?

-I had this ridiculous notion
that we'd run off together and.

[breathes deeply]

she'd marry me instead of Ken.

Then they announced
they were expecting.

And that was that.

-This is just brilliant.

And Mum, Ken and you lying to me
my entire f*cking life.

-Ken didn't know.

I think deep down
he's always suspected her.

That was when
he really started drinking.

-You could have
stopped all of it.

My entire f*cking life
could have been different

if you weren't
such a f*cking coward.

-Smith, you can
go dance with them. Go on.

-Does he know
that Hardin is his brother?

Where's Hardin?

-I don't know. He bolted.

-What?

-Maybe he needed some space.

[Kimberly] Wait, Tessa.

[sentimental music]

[Trish] [VO] [into phone] Oh,
Christian, you should see him.

He's growing up so fast.

[soft chuckles]
He's a little man now.

And so talented.

His essay got chosen
to run in a paper.

[Vance] Well done, Hardin.

Can you tell him I said that?

[Trish] He's brilliant.

He's like his father.

Look, I gotta get going.
Um, let's talk again soon.

[Vance] Yeah. Of course.

[Trish] Bye, Christian.

[book clatters]

-Hey, keep it down.

[Trish] Ken!

-Hardin,
who gave this to you?

-Vance.

[pages tearing]

-Ken! Ken!
-Stop! You're ruining it!

-[Trish] Hardin!
-[Ken grunts]

-[groans]

[Trish] [whispers]
I'm so sorry.

[Tessa] [voice-over] Hardin?

I've been looking for you.

[sentimental music fades]

-Wanna drink?

-No.

[crickets stridulating]

[sighs] Come on,
let's go back to the hotel.

-Not yet.

-[sighs]
Okay. Please, Hardin,

I'm really cold and tired.
And I just wanna go back--

-Tessa, you're not the one
who just found out

his entire life was a lie.

So, either
have a drink with me or go.

-Okay.
I'm gonna get us an Uber.

You know, I'm pretty sure

that she would have
locked it before she left.

Hey!

-[intense music]
-[door opens, squeaks]

[intense music continues]

-Hardin, please.
I know you're upset,

and I know you're angry.
And you should--

-You know,
I hear her screams

every single time
I walk in this place.

[Tessa] Okay, we need to leave.

-Years I've spent hating a man

who as it turns out, I didn't
even need to f*cking like!

Don't touch me.

[Tessa] What's the plan?
What are you gonna do here?

Are you gonna burn
your mother's house down?

-I'm gonna burn
the f*cking place down, yeah.

-So, you're gonna get arrested,
you know that? Right?

-Which is why you should leave.

-No! I'm not--
I'm not going without you.

-Tess.

"If two people love each other,

there can be
no happy end to it."

-Don't quote
Hemingway at me.

-Why are you always
trying to find

some sort of light in me,
Tessa?

Wake up.
There is no f*cking light.

I have f*cked up parents,

f*cked up past.
-Look at my parents!

-So, I have a f*cked up head
now!

-My Dad's homeless,
for God's sake.

-It's not a f*cking competition!

[bottle plops]

[tense music]

[Tessa] Hardin, please,
give me the lighter.

[fire whooshes]

Please, Hardin, can you think
about what you're doing?

[fire whooshing]

[fire crackling]

[footsteps approaching]

[door rattles]

[door opens]

-Hardin?

Oh, my God.

Hardin, we gotta get out here.

-Get the f*ck off me!

-We need to go!

All right, Tessa,
you take my car.

-I can't.
-Yes, you can. I've got him.

Come on, man, we need to go.
-Now, you wanna play hero?

Where were you?

Where were you
when she was being beaten

to a bloody f*cking pulp?

f*ck away from me!

You're too late!

-I'm sorry, all right?

-I don't care.
-I'm sorry!

Come here.

I am sorry.
I should have been here for her.

Listen to me!

I should have been here.

But you ruining your life
isn't gonna make hers better.

We need to go!

Come on!
Get out, now!

[tense music]

[door opens]

Go, go!

Go.

[tense music continues]

[siren wailing]

[tires squealing]

[engine revving]

[siren wailing]

[tires squealing]

[Police] [into comms]
Dispatches unit.

[♪♪♪♪]

[indistinct conversation]

[car door opens]

[car door closes]

-Where are we?

-I don't know where.
I just kept driving.

-Where's Vance? Is he.?

-I texted him. He's okay.

But, um.

he told the police
that he started the fire.

-He's got lawyers.

And that's not
gonna change anything.

He still lied to me
for years.

-He's your father.

-As of yesterday.

We should get back.

[car beeps]

[car engine revving]

[Smith blowing raspberries]

[approaching footsteps]

[clink of glassware]

-Thank you.

-Please.

-Just let me try to
explain myself.

-No.

[sniffles]
Not right now anyways.

[♪♪♪♪]

[Hardin] Pull over.

[car door opens]

[car door opens]

I think I should
stay here for a while.

-Why?

-[sighs]

Because.

because I just keep dragging you
into my sh*t, Tessa.

It's not fair.

-Please don't push me away.

-I love you.

Tess.

-♪ We all watch
The pain die slowly ♪

♪ But leavin' your
Stone cold by staying. ♪

-Touch me.

-♪ You leave us behind see ♪

♪ But I feel your presence
Beside me ♪

♪ 'Cause I was only ever
Holdin' on to you ♪

♪ I guess I should have known ♪

♪ This day would come so soon ♪

♪ 'Cause I was only ever
Holdin' on to you ♪

♪ I guess I should have known ♪

♪ This day would
come so soon, ♪

♪ So soon ♪

[both moaning]

-♪ So soon so soon ♪

♪ 'Cause I was only ever
Holdin' on to you ♪

♪ So soon ♪

-I love you.

-♪ I know that you love me ♪

-I love you.

-♪ So this could all finish
Our story, no ♪

♪ And the head
Of our tall tree ♪

♪ And I wish I could
Change it I'm sorry ♪

♪ 'Cause I was only ever
Holdin' on to you ♪

♪ I guess I should have known ♪

♪ This day would come so soon ♪

♪ 'Cause I was only ever
Holdin' on to you ♪

[soft music]

[birds chirping]

-What are you thinking about?

-I wanna stay
like this forever.

-[Hardin sighs]

[soft tense music]

[people chattering]

[sentimental music]

I'll get the bags.

Go check on Kimberly,
take a shower.

I'll be fine.

[smooches]

[soft music]

[knocking on door]

[door opens]

[Smith] Kimberly, Tessa's here.

[footsteps approaching]

-Are you okay?
-[Tessa] Yeah.

-Where's Hardin?

-I could feel him withdrawing
with every breath.

I'm-I'm sorry.

I don't want to
bother you with this.

You're already going through--

-No. Tessa,
there is no rule that says

only one person
can be in pain at a time.

And for selfish reasons,
hearing about your problems

makes me feel slightly
better about my own.

Talk to me.

-I feel like I'm drowning.

And I want to make it work,
but I just.

I don't know
if I can keep fighting

against the current to save him
rather than myself.

[knocks on door]

-Yeah.
-[door opens]

-Concierge brought this up.

[sentimental music]

-[sighs] sh*t.

[♪♪♪♪]

-♪ Go get free
Don't follow me ♪

♪ Go run away over there ♪

♪ Get this in the line ♪

♪ Go get free
Don't follow me ♪

♪ Go run away over there ♪

♪ Go get free
Don't follow me ♪

[song continues playing]

[knocking on door]

-f*ck off.

[soft chuckles]

-Long time, man.

[Mark] Long time.

James, look who's here.

-Oh, sh*t! Awoo!

You look just like a guy
I used to party with.

-Yeah, you look like
a guy who was high / .

-I am he.

[Mark] Yo, get comfy.

I'm just gonna make a few calls
in honor of our guest.

[soft chuckle]
-[James] Okay, come on.

Hey, sit down, man. Sit.

Look at you, bougie as f*ck.

-Ah.
you still look like sh*t.

-What've you got?
A job interview?

What's goin' on?
-[Hardin] scoffs]

Still funny as f*ck, huh, James.

-Hey, you want to drink?

-I would love a drink.

[knock on door]

-Tessa.

You okay?

[mutters] Great.

[door opens]

-I'm gonna go get him.

[footsteps]

Thanks.

[car door closes]

[phone dialing]

-[party music]
-[phone vibrating]

-Hello.

-Hi. Is Hardin there?

-Uh, Scott is
disposed at the moment.

Uh, are you gonna
come to the party?

-Um. Yeah, I just need
the address again.

It's , Warwick Street.

-Ask her if she's hot.

-Uh, my friend's asking
if you're hot.

We're running out of
ten-out-of-tens here.

-Ask her if she has friends.
-Yeah well, she hung up.

Hey.

Give that to Hardin, man.

Now, come on. Drink up.

[car door closes]

[party music]

-♪ No, no, no
Keep that same energy ♪

[music and chatter]

♪ No ways no ways ♪

♪ Keep that same energy ♪

♪ You don't wanna
Mess with me then ♪

♪ But it's different now ♪

♪ I didn't never
Checked it again ♪

♪ Didn't need to know. ♪

[people chattering]

[Mark] Hey! Have a sh*t.

Come on in, come on in.

-Thanks.

-Whoa. American.

Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm.

I'm Mark. This is my flat.

-I'm Tessa.

-C'mon, love.
Let's get you a drink.

[party music continues playing]

Hey, Scott.

Yo, give me that damn vodka.

Need to make
my new friend here a drink.

-Tessa, wha--?

-Oh, you two
knew each other?

[footsteps]

Yeah. I'm gonna
take that as a yes.

[chuckles]

[heavy footsteps]

[Hardin] f*cking hell!
Jesus Christ!

[Mark] What the f*ck?

-What? You're the only one
who gets to break things?

-You didn't tell me
you had a girlfriend.

[Tessa] What the hell
is wrong with you?

What? Do you think you're
just gonna slum it here

and you'll forget
about your problem?

-Why the f*ck
are you even here?

-I'm not letting you get away
with being a coward again.

I'm giving you one chance
to leave with me.

But if I walk out the door
without you, that's it.

-So, um, if she isn't
your girlfriend.

-Just get the f*ck away!

Tessa, outside, now.

-We're just playing about,
Scott.

-Tess, what the f*ck?

-This is bullshit, Hardin.
This isn't us.

-Us? What "us", Tess?
There is no us.

We. we keep going round
in circles, and you,

you just won't
f*cking give up.

-God! What more do you need?

You don't belong here.

You shouldn't be here.
You don't fit in here!

So just go!

-You win, Hardin.

You always do.

[car alarm beeps]

-You'd know better than anyone.

[car door opens]

[car door closes]

[loud thud]

[screams]

[♪♪♪]

-♪ I'm broken ♪

♪ Tell you I'm fine ♪

♪ But you wouldn't believe me ♪

♪ If you knew the things
That crossed my mind ♪

♪ And I'm hurting ♪

-[roar of aircraft]
-♪ But I show no sign ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm afraid
to give in ♪

♪ Break down
And waste your time ♪

-You sure you don't want help?

-No, it's just
a couple of things.

I got most of it
before Seattle anyway. So.

-Okay.

Don't say I didn't ask.

[Tessa] Uh-hmm.

-♪ Oh please come pick me up ♪

♪ From my lowest
Take me higher ♪

♪ Can you see me ♪

♪ Through the ashes
And the smoke ♪

♪ I'm lonely ♪

♪ It's been so long ♪

♪ Since I felt love to smile ♪

♪ Felt strong ♪

-[laughing]
-♪ And what can I do ♪

♪ I know I'm not friends
With my reflection ♪

♪ When I don't understand
Affection like you do ♪

[murmured conversation]

[Tessa laughing]

-Tess, please.

-♪ I'm begging you ♪

♪ To come and pull me
Out the fire ♪

♪ Come and save me ♪

♪ Like you did
When we were young ♪

♪ Oh please come pick me up ♪

♪ From my lowest
Take me higher ♪

♪ Can you see me ♪

♪ Through the ashes
And the smoke ♪

♪ You say that you'll help me ♪

♪ Tell me I'm worth it ♪

♪ But I don't deserve it ♪

♪ I don't deserve it ♪
-[Mark] Hardin.

-♪ It's easy for you
'Cause you. ♪

-Hardin?

[Hardin panting]

-Well, that was
one hell of a dream, man.

Ooh.

Are you okay?
-[Hardin] Yeah.

-Oh, f*ck.

[Mark]
Your hand looks pretty bad.

[Hardin] Ah, it's not that bad.
I'll be fine.

[James] Bro, you were
f*cking wrecked.

-Hey, that American girl?

I thought she was gonna tear
the whole place down, bro.

-She was a bitch.

[chuckles]

[tense music]

-Dad?

[crying] Dad?

Dad?

[crying]

[♪♪♪♪]

[crying]

Dad?

[sobbing]

[melancholic music]

Oh no, no!
-[Landon] It's okay. it's okay.

I got you, I got you.

-[crying]

[ambulance door closes]

[phone vibrating]

[melancholic music continues]

[melancholic music continues]

-Cheers.
-Cheers.

Strong enough for you?

[Hardin] Yeah.
It wasn't strong enough.

-[phone vibrating]
-[Mark chuckles]

-[phone vibrating]
-Hardin, your phone's ringing.

It's Landon.

Mr. Scott's very busy
at the moment.

Can I take him--
-Hey.

[Janine] Whoa-oh!

-Landon,
if I wanted to talk to you,

I would have picked up the phone
the other times you called.

[Landon] You know what? I know
you're a selfish prick.

I thought you could help,
but, you know what?

She's-- she's-- she's gonna
get through this without you.

-Get through what?

La--?

[phone dialing]

Landon? What's wrong?

Just tell me she's okay.

-It's, um.

it's Richard. He's dead.

And, uh, Tessa found him.

-f*ck.

Oh, f*ck.

Um. Where-- where is she?

-We're at her mom's.

She hasn't.
she hasn't spoken a word.

-Can you let me talk to her?

-I don't think
that's a good idea.

-Please.

Please just put the phone
to her ear.

-You know, you really shouldn't
be speaking to her.

-Then why the f*ck
did you call?

Of course,
I'm who she needs!

You know us!
You know me!

[Landon] All right, fine.

Just stay calm, okay?
Just give me a second.

Hey, Tessa.

I have Hardin on the phone
for you.

-Um-mm, um-mm, um-umm.

-Okay, okay. You don't have to.
-[Tessa] No, no. No, no.

No. No. No.
-[Landon] It's fine.

-[Tessa] Please, no!
-[Landon] Don't worry.
it's fine.
-Tess.

f*ck!

[sniffles and sighs]

[sentimental music]

[sighs] Oh!

[sentimental music]

-I mean, it's gonna be
me or your mom

and she's gonna make you eat it.

Looks pretty good.

-[whispers]
I'm just so tired.

-Hmm.

[clock ticking]

[sentimental music]

[Tessa] [voice-over] [chuckles]

[Hardin] [voice-over]
You're enjoying yourself.

-One little slip
and it could all be over.

-Are you still talking
about my shave?

-I meant the shave,

but if you wanted to
talk about last night.

-I'm sorry, Tess.

I didn't mean to
get that trashed.

[Tessa] [voice-over]
It's just with your dad--

[Hardin] [voice-over]
I'm not my dad. I'm not him.

Tess, if you don't like it,
tell me.

-I don't like it.
-Then I'll stop.

I won't drink another drop.

-Really?

[mellow music]

-[smacks lips]

What-- what are you.?

[giggling]

[smooching]

[thunder rumbling]

[rain pouring]

[roar of airplane]

[indistinct conversation]

[Carol] She doesn't want you
here.

[Hardin] I didn't fly

, f*cking miles
to argue with you.

[Landon] I don't know if she's
awake.

Let me just at least see
if she's-- Hardin!

-Tess.

Hey.
-[Tessa] No. No, no.

No, no, no.
-[Hardin] Hey, hey, hey.

-Do you want him here, Tess?

-You're f*cked if you think
I'm going anywhere.

Tess.
-No, get off me!

-Hey, it's okay.

You gotta leave.

You gotta leave
or I'm calling the cops?

-Call the f*cking cops.
Call 'em.

I'm not going anywhere!
-[Landon] That's not funny!

-I'm not laughing!
-She doesn't want you here!

You have no f*cking idea
what she wants!

-You weren't here
when she needed you!

Now, you're make--
You're making it worse.

-[in unison] Tess?

-Ugh,
she's trying to avoid you.

You're the reason she took--
-[door slams]

-I'll check the front door.

[footsteps]

[rain pouring]

[door opens, squeaks]

[Hardin] Hey, hey, Tess.

-It's not about you.

-I know.
I-- I just want to--

[Tessa] I need quiet .

Please.

[melancholic music]

[sniffling]

[melancholic music continues]

[footsteps approaching]

-I haven't always
treated you fairly.

-You hate me, Carol.

You've always hated me.

And it's fine. I don't care.

But you should know your opinion
means f*ck all to me.

And I mean that
in the nicest way.

-You're exactly like him.

That's exactly how Richard
used to talk to my parents.

-I am not him.

-All right. Well.

I only care
about what's best for Tessa.

-So do I.

-The one thing that
I thought that I taught her,

and you may not believe me,

was to not have to depend on
a man the way that I did.

And now, look at her.

She's-- she's reduced to nothing
every time you leave.

-Listen, I'm not--
-No, no. Let me finish.

Yeah, you always come back

the way that Richard
never did for us.

But you never stay.

-I don't know
what you want from me, Carol.

I love her.

I'm never letting her go.

-If you really love her, then
you'll do what's best for her.

And that is up to you now.

Because you are the only person
that she'll listen to.

That girl loves you way too much
for her own good.

But Hardin,
you and I both know

that you can't give her
what she needs.

And that is stopping her
from finding someone who will.

[sentimental music]

-I can only imagine
how you're feeling right now.

I keep thinking about
the last time I saw him.

He was eating
half my damn pizza.

He was happy.

-Just happy
he had a place to stay.

-I am so sorry
for what happened in London.

I really am.

-I thought we had a love
that was out of a novel.

And no matter how hard
or fast or tough it was,

we'd survive to tell the story.

[Hardin] Hey.

We do. And we can.
We can survive it.

-I don't wanna survive.
I want to live.

[sighs]

I can't keep doing this.

-Tess.

-You don't love me enough
to fight for me.

You gave up every time.

-I tried.

I really f*cking tried.

-[sniffles]

I'm sorry I couldn't fix you.

-Me, too.

Me, too.

[car doors close]

-Who's paying for all this?

-You don't have to worry about
money right now, honey.

-Hey.

Hey, hey, hey, it's okay.
It's okay.

-[sniffles]

Ugh. Hey, I got make up on--
-Oh. And.

And a little bit of snot.

-[chuckles]
-Just a little bit.

[Tessa's teary chuckle]

-You ready?
-[Tessa] Yeah.

[song playing]

-I hadn't seen my father
for nine years.

But reconnecting with him
was one of the greatest gifts.

Even if it was only briefly.

He had so many demons, but.

he was also so kind.

And he was trying
to be better for me.

I know that.

[sniffles]

-[sobbing]

-You need a ride? Hardin?

-I don't think I should go.

-Why? You were his friend,
kind of.

And you paid for it, so.

-Landon, do me a favor
and keep that between us.

-Sure. Doesn't mean
you shouldn't come.

So, come.

[♪♪♪♪]

[people chattering]

[door opens, squeaks, closes]

[door opens]

[door closes]

-Sorry,
I didn't know that you were.

I don't know half these people.

[Hardin] It's kind of weird.

when people go to funerals of
someone they don't even know.

-It's just especially him.

I mean,
they're total hypocrites.

No one here even liked him.

-You did.

And even I did.

-I'm really mad at him.

I'm like. I'm like pissed off.

-Hey, you have every right
to be mad at him.

Whether he's dead or not.

I saw how much it meant to you
to have him back in your life.

And I think he is an idiot

for throwing that all the way
just to get high.

But I mean, I'm one to talk,
aren't I?

I'm so sorry
it took something like this

for me to realize
how much you mean to me.

And how much.
I want to be there for you.

[sentimental music]

-I need to go back inside.

-Okay.

[retreating footsteps]

[door opens]

[door closes]

[phone pings]

Oh, come on.

[Tessa] Thank you so much
for everything.

-Yeah, of course.

-Hey, could I have a lift?

My Ubers keep canceling.

-I'm supposed
to be meeting Nora

and I'm already late, so.

-Cool.
-Yeah.

[sighs]

We'll see if this one turns up.

Do you want to come with me?

Back to Ken's.

-I should really stay here.

It's been a long day

and I've got a doctor's
appointment in Seattle.

tomorrow.

-Sure.

Vance and Kimberly back?

[Tessa] They get back
in the morning.

They're trying to work
everything out for the baby.

-[car engine rumbles]
-[phone pings]

-You know what? I'm--
I'm gonna come with you.

I'm gonna start
looking for places up there.

I'm ready.

-I don't-- I don't think--
-Tess. Tess,

it's my turn
to be there for you.

-I don't want anything
from you anymore.

[sentimental music]

-I don't believe you.

And I don't think
you believe yourself either.

[car door opens]

[car door closes]

[rain pattering]

-I'm so sorry that we weren't
at your father's funeral.

-No, no, it's fine.

Um, ugh. I wouldn't have been
good company anyway.

Uh, I was actually,

I was thinking about
moving to New York.

With Landon.

-New York? That--

[breathes deeply] Wow!

What's your plan?

Do you know where
you're gonna work, what--?

-Not really.
I. I mean, I know it's far.

I just think
that I need a fresh start.

-Tessa,
it's okay to be sad.

But if you let sadness
control your life,

you'll never have one.

-But what if I just always
feel like this?

-What you've been through
is awful.

But you are so strong,

and I know
you'll get through this.

It just takes time.

And as for Hardin.

girl, just do your best
to pretend you're moving on

and eventually,
you'll believe it.

[sighs]

[people chattering]

-Why did you stay
if you knew she wanted him?

-I loved her.

I thought that she would see
that he couldn't give her

the stability that I could.

You know, I imagine if.
if Tessa marries another man,

this is how he's gonna feel,
competing with a memory of you.

-I'm not Vance, okay?
Just because.

I'm not him.

[sentimental music]

-You are.

Okay.

So, it's-- it's true.

He's your father.

I knew it. I knew it
the first time that I saw you.

You look just like him.

I did everything so wrong.

And I couldn't stand
that you were his.

That doesn't excuse
the drinking, but.

I've loved you.

I still love you.

You're my son.

[sobbing]

I'm sorry.

[phone pings]

[keypad clacking softly]

[message tone beeps]

-Let's talk about
these test results.

Unfortunately,
the chances are very slim

that you will carry to term.

[voice-over]
There are other options.

Adoption is a route
many people choose.

-♪ You told me I would never
See you walk away ♪

♪ Said you'd never
Break my heart ♪

♪ Never leave me in the dark ♪

♪ I guess there's
Just some promises ♪

♪ You shouldn't make ♪

♪ Should've known
From the start ♪

♪ Now in the dark ♪

♪ Show a little loving ♪

♪ Shine a little light on me ♪

♪ Show a little loving ♪

♪ I'm in the dark
I can't see ♪

♪ Can't see ♪

♪ Can't see ♪

♪ Just feeling my way
Back to you ♪

♪ I can't feel ♪

♪ I can't feel ♪

♪ I can't feel ♪

♪ Reach out and show
A little loving ♪

♪ Shine a little light on me ♪

-Hey.
-[Hardin] Hey.

-♪ Show a little loving ♪
-[Hardin] Hey.

Hey, I've been trying you all
day. What's up?

-♪ Show a little loving ♪
-[sighs]

Um, I left my phone on silent.

-♪ You told me I would never
See you go astray ♪

-Is everything okay?

[Tessa] No, not really.
But. I have to go.

-♪ I guess there's
Just some promises ♪

♪ You shouldn't make ♪

♪ Should've known
From the start ♪

♪ I'm in the dark ♪

♪ I can't see ♪

♪ Can't see ♪

♪ Reach out and show
A little loving ♪

♪ Shine a little light on me ♪

♪ Show a little loving ♪
-[rain pattering]

-[Hardin] Tess?
-[footsteps approaching]

-Tessa?

Hey, Tess.

-Hardin. [groans]

-Hey, come inside.

-I had a feeling you'd come.

-Did you?
-[Tessa] Yeah.

[soft chuckle]

It's late.

-It is.

-[groans] Do you want
a baby with me?

-No, I don't want
a baby with you.

[Tessa sighing]

-I mean.

I just.

I don't want a baby right now.

-I love sleep.

My life has the tendency
to fall apart when I'm awake.

-[chuckles] Your life is
gonna be just fine, okay?

-You said it once.
There can be no happy end to it.

-[whispers]
I didn't mean that.

And I shouldn't have said it.

-I love you enough now.

What do you want to do?
-[Hardin chuckles]

-[mumbles] I love you.
-Shush. We can quote Hemingway

when we're sober, okay?

For now, just go to sleep.

[romantic music playing]

[kisses]

[whispers] Go to sleep.

-Stay.

[milk bottle thuds]

-Morning.

-Morning.

Um, [clicks tongue]
what did I say last night?

-[chuckles]

You mean,
besides quoting Hemingway?

-Oh, no, I didn't.

-It wasn't that bad.

[cup clanks]

Do you, uh.

do you want to tell me
what's been bothering you?

[dishes clanking]

-It's nothing.
It's the doctor.

[Hardin] Listen.

if you are pregnant,
I just wanted to say

that I would genuinely
be okay with that.

It really would not be so bad
having kids with you.

Or, obviously, if you're--
if you're not pregnant,

I guess maybe
after you finish college,

or I don't know, either way.

[cutlery clattering]

-I can't get pregnant.

The. the doctor said
that it'll--

it'd be almost impossible
for me to conceive.

And even if I did, there'd be
a high risk of miscarriage

so I can't.

[dishes clanking]

-Agh!

-Uh, can you say somethin'?

[exhaling]

-I don't know what to say.

-What do you-- what do you mean,
you don't know what--

you don't want kids anyway.

-No, I-I-I didn't.

Now, it just feels like
it's been taken away from us.

-Uh, no, not from you.
From me.

-Wait.

That was the wrong thing to say.
You know I didn't mean it.

Tess, wait. Please wait.

Tessa.
-[breathing deeply]

-Please just don't
shut down on me again.

I don't give a f*ck if we can
have kids or not, honestly.

-I'm sorry that you feel like
I took something from you.

-I don't.
-But you're not the one

who's just had their dreams
crushed here, you know?

Like you didn't want kids
until two seconds ago

which just came out of nowhere.

-I just want to be with you.

Kids, no kids. [scoffs]

When I was in London,

I could not stop
thinking about you.

-Right. Yeah, I'm sure--
I'm sure you saw my face

when you were sleeping
with that girl at the party.

-Who are you.? What?

Te-- nothing
of the sort happened.

And I won't lie to you.
-Shut up. You did.

-She did-- she did try
to kiss me and when she did,

I literally threw up, so.

-You literally threw up.

-I did.

-Threw up. [chuckles]
-I threw up. [chuckles]

Instant noodles, and it went
on her head. [chuckles]

[romantic music playing]

-Good.

-[laughs] Good?

-Yeah, good. [laughs]
-Good.

[phone vibrating]

[Landon] And that is why
Hardin is afraid of gerbils.

[laughter]

-If you don't stop
makin' up stories,

I'll tell Nora about that time
you wet yourself.

[laughter]

-Touché.

-All right, then.

-This is so good.
The sauce is amazing.

-It's all of Landon's favorites
before he leaves us.

-This food
almost makes me sad to go.

-So Nora, what part of New York
are you in?

-Um, East th
and First Ave.

-What she actually meant was
how far is it from Landon.

[Nora] Oh. Um.

-Like.
-Like minutes by train.

-Fifty minutes.

I'm sorry. It's just
practically long distance.

I don't know how
you're gonna make that work.

-I mean,
I have to go through there

to get to class every day.

I mean, not--
not that we'd be

seeing each other every day.
But I mean, we could

if you wanted too.

[laughter]

-So, Hardin,
graduation is looming.

-No, we're not doing this again.
I don't want--

-Have you given more thought
to--

-No, I haven't
'cause I'm not going to

walk for graduation, okay?
I don't want to walk.

-[Tessa] Really?
-Yeah, really.

-You sure?
-[Hardin] I'm sure.

-Hm.

I just thought.

I don't know. I just thought
for sure you'd reconsider.

-So you've obviously asked her

to ask me?
-[Ken] What? What?

-[Hardin sighs]

f*ck it, fine. I'll walk
for graduation then.

[laughter]

-[Ken] Yes!
-Don't make me change my mind.

[laughter]

-To walking.

[Karen] Cheers to that.

-To walking.
-[Hardin] Cheers to that.

-[Ken] To walking.
-Here we go again.

[laughter]

[muted chatter and laughter]

[Ken] Come on.

[tap running]

-Hey, I need to talk to you
about something.

-Okay.

[door closes]

-I made a decision
about something, and I didn't.

With everything
that's been going on

because of a lot of things, but.

we need time apart.

Like. like really apart.

And--

-[scoffs]

-This seems like
the only way to make sure

that that actually happen.

-Okay, why?

-Because we fight
more than we get along.

And when we make up,
it's over sex.

-That's not--
that's not really true.

-It is, and it's not healthy.

-[exhaling deeply]
How is sex not healthy?

We've been having lots of fun,
happy, consensual sex.

And it's been full of f*cking
love and f*cking trust.

-I can't keep going around
in circles like this.

-Okay, okay.
I understand.

And I do have a lot to work on.

But we have so much time.

We have all the time
in the world,

and I will work on them.

And I can come live with you

in Seattle.
-Okay. Okay.

I'm moving.

-Okay.

I'm moving to New York.

I'm gonna live with Landon.

-Landon?

What? This was his idea?

-No, no, no.
This was my idea.

This wasn't. don't--

-He's supposed to be
my f*cking brother.

-It's not like that.
It's-- no! Hey!

-[Landon] No, no.
-[Nora] I'm just gonna--

[Hardin] New York!

New York!
You didn't f*cking tell me!

[Landon] Well, it wasn't
my call.

You'd broken up with her.
What do you--?

-You've been pretending
to be my f*cking friend!

-I didn't pretend sh*t, Hardin!

I'm her friend too, and I'm
cleaning up your sh*t as usual.

Well, go ahead.

f*cking hit me, you big man.

Big piece of sh*t.

-[screaming] f*ck.

[approaching footsteps]

[breathing heavily]

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry, Tess, but.

You know, of all people,

he knows
how much you mean to me.

That you're my

f*cking lifeline,
and he didn't tell me,

and that f*cking hurts.

[exhales]
It f*cking hurts, okay?

I'm sh*t without you.

-I'm just as good at dooming
this relationship as you.

[Hardin] Is it doomed?

Is it? I feel like
we can make this work.

-You're trying,
and I see that. But I.

I can't keep doing this
back and forth.

It's-- it's-- it's
not just with you.

It's with me.

-You can't just escape yourself

by moving from one place
to another, you know.

You know that, right?

-I need to figure things out.
And. if you love me,

if you really love me--
-[Hardin] I do. I do.

-then I need you to promise
not to follow me.

-I can't do that.
-[Tessa] Promise me.

-I can't do that.

We can make this work!
-Promise not to follow me.

Give me some time

or we're gonna end up
taking everyone down with us.

-How long?

How long, Tess?

How long?

-I don't know.

I don't know.

-Okay. Okay.

[footsteps receding]

["Every Color" by Luca Fogale]

-♪ I've been staring ♪

♪ At the ceiling ♪
-I'm coming. I'm coming.

[Tessa] So I'm glad this is
the right place.

-♪ Trying to figure out ♪

-Hi. [chuckles]

-Oh. Hello. Hello.

-♪ How we end up here
Time and time again ♪

♪ Swallowed up in doubt ♪

♪ Brother,
I quit dreamin' ♪

♪ Around the time
That you did ♪
- [message alert beeps]

♪ And traded hopes
Of leaving ♪

♪ For the role
Where I'm best suited ♪

[woman] Well, I don't agree--

[vocalizing]

-♪ Do you hear me screamin' ♪

[man] Welcome to The Lookout.

-♪ Up into the sky? ♪

-I'm so excited.
-Thank you so much.

-You're welcome.
-Thank you so much.

-[indistinct] the best.

-♪ "What's the
Sense in grieving ♪

[laughter]

-♪ If nobody really dies? ♪

♪ Oh, I feel the hours ♪

♪ Slipping ♪

♪ While I stumble to the edge ♪

♪ 'Cause I seem to forget ♪

-I haven't actually
read this before.

-♪ When I get all worked up ♪

-[clears throat]

"He lived his life for himself
and then it shifted."

-♪ If you look close enough ♪

-"It became much more
than waking up

and going to sleep."

[laughter]

-♪ 'Cause I seem to forget ♪

♪ When I get all worked up ♪

♪ That you can find ♪

♪ Every color ♪

♪ If you look close enough ♪

[cars honking]

-And you don't know
what he's doing in town?

-What?

-You don't know
why Hardin's coming?

-He did not say, but uh,

I couldn't have him
staying at a hotel.

Especially with a minibar.
Is that shitty?

I know he's sober now.

-No, no. No, I get it.

And, you know, I mean,

I'm working doubles
this week anyway,

so I won't even
have to see him.

-Nora said if, uh,
it gets too weird,

you can crash at her place.

I mean it's just.
ei-- either way,

it was going to be
shitty like--

-Oh no, it's fine.
I'll be fine.

-You're doing the thing

where you go, you go--
-[Tessa] Oh, please.

-"I'll be fine,"
and you look away.

Honestly?

-Yeah.

-Wallet, keys, phone?
-Yes.

-Okay.
-Okay.

-Ciao.

[traffic humming]

[music over speaker]

-Hey, so Landon just got here,
and Hardin is with him.

They are asking
for your section.

-Uh. yeah, of course.

-You sure?
-Yeah. I guess.

-Tessa.

Theresa?

-Uh, yeah.

I put my full name
on the job application.

-Uh, Hardin wanted to eat here.

That's. that's.

-That's fine.

-[sighing]

[Tessa] Yeah, of course.

Let me seat you guys.

[Hardin] Yeah.

[Nora] Nice to see you.

[Landon] Nice to see you, too.

[Nora] Yup.

[muttered chatter]

[Landon] Sorry.

-So, you've been here
since this morning.

-Yeah,
I'm working a double today.

-When will you get off?

-Uh, one, so I should be home
around two.

-Every single day.

[tapping]

-And I'll try
not to wake you, again.

[breathing deeply]

What can I get you guys?

-[bell dings]
-[Tessa] Good night.

-I just wanted to make sure
you got home okay.

-You do know that
I walk this every night, right?

Since you're here.

[traffic humming]

-So why are you
working here anyway?

Isn't Vance opening
his new publishing house?

-Uh, I just want to do
something on my own.

I like it. Nora's here.

I make more money
than you'd think.

Uh, plus it keeps me busy while
I'm waiting to get into NYU.

-What?
You haven't gotten in yet?

-No, but I'm hoping
for the spring semester.

-Are you happy?

-Yeah.

-Are you seeing anyone?

-[chuckles] Yes.
I'm out every night

being wined and dined.

-I'm actually
not dating anyone.

I'm quite conservative
in that way.

-[Joe] Hey, girlie.
-Hey, watch it!

-Hey! It's okay.

Hey, Joe.

Uh, I brought you some fries and
the sliders that you love.

I'll see you tomorrow.

It makes me feel better
about my dad.

-Do you wanna.?

Tomorrow,
if you're not working,

I have some free time
if you wanna.?

-I'm working a double.
that I took

so I wouldn't have to see you.

[groaning, muttering in sleep]

[Tessa] Hey.

-[Hardin] [groans] Stop.
-[Tessa] Hey, hey.

-[Hardin] Stop. Stop! Stop!
-[Tessa] Hey, Hardin.

[Hardin cries]

-Hey, it's okay.
It's okay. It's okay.

It's okay.

-[breathing heavily]

[whispers] Oh, f*ck.

[song playing]

-♪ You like the rain
'Coz it means we can stay in ♪

♪ Canceled our plans
But no I'm not complaining ♪

♪ Pull the covers up
like the tide ♪

♪ Darling swim in my arms
Tonight ♪

♪ Say to me
Looking dead in my eyes ♪

♪ How long can we
Keep this alive ♪

[Hardin] Thank you.

[gentle music continues]

I miss this.

-Me too.

-♪ [indistinct] ♪

♪ Want a love that will take ♪
-[train approaching]

-♪ Only everything ♪

♪ Only ♪

♪ Only ♪

♪ Only ♪

♪ Only everything ♪

♪ Only only only ♪

♪ Only everything ♪

♪ I love the way that
Your hands find my shoulders ♪

♪ When the weight of
The world's weighing down ♪

♪ And we're all doomed ♪

♪ Got me thinking
About all the time ♪

♪ That we waste
In the mornin' light ♪

♪ Makes me not want to
Close my eyes ♪

♪ How long can we
Keep this alive ♪

-Tessa.

I'm so sorry. I got lost.

I didn't know
which turning it was.

-Hey! Hey, Joe.
Here you go.

-Stay safe, man.

-♪ Only only only ♪

♪ Only everything ♪

♪ Only only only ♪

♪ Only everything ♪

-You seem different, like.

like the same
but just different.

-[laughs softly]
I'm still me.

A fair bit of therapy,

and I'm hitting the gym more
but I'm still me.

-Do you still drink?

[dishes clanking]

-I do have the odd beer
or glass of wine

but I am never chugging
a bottle of whiskey again,

if that's what you mean.

[dishes clattering]

-[Tessa] Mm.
-[Hardin] Tess.

Well, how is it then?

-Mm.

[Hardin] Oi, Tess.

At least share it
if you're gonna.

-[Tess laughing]
-[soft music]

[dishes clattering]

-[Hardin moaning]

You know,
if I wasn't such a gentleman,

I would have you
on this counter right now.

-I thought
you weren't a gentleman.

-[chuckles]

I'm half gentleman right now.

-A half?

-Uh-huh.

And that means.

as much as I want you.

I can't be with you.

until you're really ready
to be with me.

-Or. what?

[Hardin] Come on,
grab some plates.

Let's eat.

-Tess, plates.
Now, please.

[soft music]

-What?

-Nothing.

-Good morning.

-Good morning.
-[Nora] Good morning.

[laughing]

Bye.

-[Hardin laughing]

[clapping]

Finally.

-And it feels good.

-I'm gonna go take a shower.

-Thank you, Tess.

[door opens]

Hey.
-[Tessa] Hey.

-How's work?

-Good.

[door closes]

Long.

[keys clanking]

Is, um, is Landon home?

-Uh, he's staying at Nora's.

[Tessa] [sighs]
Are you going out?

-No.

Got an early meeting tomorrow.

[unzips boots]

-[exhales]

-Give me your feet.

-[moans]

-Come sit in front of me.

[soft piano chords playing]

-[exhaling deeply]

That feels good.

-It would feel a lot better
without this.

Just saying.

-This is your idea.

-I know.

["I'll Make You Love Me"
by Kat Leon]

-♪ Give me what I need ♪

-[Tessa moaning]
-♪ Pull me in so deep ♪

♪ Take me as I please ♪
-No teasing.

-♪ I want you to want me ♪
-Says the master of the art.

-♪ Sweep me off my feet ♪

♪ Bring me to my knees ♪

♪ See you in your dreams ♪

♪ I want you to want me ♪
-[Tessa moaning]

-♪ I would fall from the sky
Cross my heart ♪

♪ And hope to die
-I haven't been f*cked

in five months, Theresa.

You are pushing every ounce
of my self-control.

-♪ Just to be with you ♪

♪ Look at what you made me do ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ Look at
What you made me do ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ Look at what you made me do ♪

♪ Look at
What you made me do ♪

-[whispers]
I have thought about this

every single second
of every f*cking day.

-You have no idea.

♪ The devil made me do it ♪

♪ Evil in the eyes ♪

♪ Caught you by surprise ♪
-Take your clothes off.

-♪ Pretty little lies ♪

♪ The devil made me do it ♪

♪ I would fall from the sky ♪

♪ Cross my heart
And hope to die ♪

♪ Turn my back
From heaven's eyes ♪

-[both kissing]
-♪ Just to be with you ♪

♪ Look at what you made me do ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ Look at what
You made me do ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ I'll make you love me ♪

♪ Look at
What you made me do ♪

♪ Look at
What you made me do ♪

♪ Look at
What you made me do ♪

♪ Careful what you wish for ♪

♪ Shattered
On the cold floor ♪

♪ Million little pieces ♪

-Please.
-♪ Fall in love and make w*r ♪

-I know.
-♪ Careful what you wish for ♪

-I know.
-♪ Shattered on
the cold floor ♪

♪ You know I did it all for.♪
-I f*cking love you.

-♪ Look at what you
made me do ♪

-So, by sleeping with me,
I think you just agreed

to start seeing me again.

-Mm. is that so?

-Mm-hm.

I love this.
-What?

-This. Us.

You know we're always going to
be like this, Tess.

-[sighs]

-I really have to
go to this meeting

so I will see you when I'm back.
-Okay.

Okay.

-[chuckles]

[bag thuds]

[VO] It was the fall
when he met her.

In his world, he was only
concerned about one thing.

himself.

He'd won every bet so far,

and this was
supposed to be no different,

although in Tessa's nearness,

he felt an apprehension
this time.

In a Darcy-inspired gesture,
he funded her father's funeral.

It was only the beginning of
what he felt he needed to do

to absolve himself.

His guilt led heavy in the call
that he hadn't answered.

The only reason he didn't
lose himself

again in darkness.
-[door closes]

.was in knowing
her dad was happy.

His death
was surely an accident.

It didn't bring him back,
but his talk of his future

and appreciating
the time off the street.

Though she was unable to
bear children of her own,

she couldn't let go
of the dream of them.

He knew that,
and loved her even so.

He tried not to be selfish.

But he couldn't help
thinking about the little
versions of him

she couldn't give him.

He hopes she will understand
just how broken he was

and see how much
she affected his life.

[door opens]

[keys jingle]

[jacket zipper unzips]

-"She stumbled

"through the room the way
that tasteless girls move

when they drink too much."

-Stop reading that.

-No, no, no,
you don't get to write my story

and then tell me
I can't read it.

-That part's not about you.

-How long have you been
writing about us?

-After we kissed.

-You. like the first time?

Are you f*cking kidding me?

You're just.

[Hardin] Tess, I'll explain

if you'll just listen.
-Oh, no.

You already have,
on every page.

-This is what I did to vent.
-Great.

-Where are you going?

-I.
-[Hardin] Tess!

-I'm done. This. we're just a
b*mb waiting to explode.

This was a wake-up call.
-What do you mean?

You're acting like I wrote that

to purposely hurt you.
-How--

how did you think
I was gonna feel?

-It was not all about you.

-You would never let me read
what you were writing in there.

And now the whole world gets to.

Stuff about me.

Stuff about my dad.

-I'm sorry. I never meant
for it to be published.

I started that journal to
figure the sh*t out in my head.

They asked me to read it
in group therapy, so I did.

And one thing
just led to another.

-You accidentally
wrote a book.

-I.

I didn't mean
for this to happen this way.

-No one
wants to read this sick sh*t.

[Hardin] I thought that too.

But there's a bidding w*r
for my book.

And that's why I'm in town.

-You accidentally wrote a book

and then you shopped it
around to publishers

without asking me?

-f*ck, this never
should have happened like this.

-No, no. It shouldn't have.

-Tess, I hated myself.

I had to deal with that
every f*cking day.

What is the point in everything
we've been through if we can't

channel that into something
that helps people?

-I don't want people reading
about my life and judging me.

-It's not your life, Tess.
It's our lives,

and it's a story
about forgiveness

and unconditional love.

It doesn't matter about
parents or addiction

or whatever f*cked up past.
It's never too late.

People can always change.

That is the kind of story
"After" is.

-"After"?

-It's my journey
after I met you.

-I think that journey is over.

[door slammed]

["I Was Only Fallin' In Love"
by RYX]

[exhaling deeply]

-♪ Coming from the cold ♪

♪ Buried under heat ♪

♪ Lay you on the floor ♪

♪ Heavy like the force ♪

♪ Between us ♪

-[punches thrown]
-[Trainer grunting]

-♪ Cut me like a rose ♪

♪ Turn me like a beast ♪
-[Hardin] Good.

-♪ Hold me on the floor ♪

♪ Heavy like the force ♪

♪ Between us ♪

[woman] Yes.

-I didn't think
I'd ever come here.

I really thought
that I had hit rock bottom

and then I'd hit it again harder
and again and again,

and I burnt down
a f*cking house.

And, uh, I guess-- I guess
what I'm trying to say is

thank you all.

Because
when I walked in that door,

I. I didn't know
how this would go.

I didn't think
it would work for me.

I never open up.

And somehow, you guys
have found a way to make me,

and I'm grateful.

I mean this--
this really helped a lot.

I'd recommend it to anyone.

I feel like I'm actually
a better version of myself

and I haven't tried to
better myself ever, really.

So thank you.

-♪ I was only falling in love ♪

♪ I was only falling in love ♪

♪ Coming from the cold ♪

♪ Buried under heat ♪

♪ Lay you on the floor ♪

♪ Heavy like the force
Between us ♪

♪ Cut me like a rose ♪

♪ Turn me like a beast ♪

♪ Hold you to the floor ♪

♪ Heavy like the force
Between us ♪

[Trish] It's been so nice
having you back in London.

[Hardin] Mm.

-[cup clattering]
-I have something for you.

[Trish] Look at this.

[chuckles]

Your name.

I'm so proud of you.

I'm so sorry.

-Mum, it's fine.
I've been going through so much.

-No, but.

I didn't know what to do.

I was young, I was.

in love and I was terrified.

None of that excuses the fact

that I hid the truth from you
for so long.

But.

everything I did,
every decision I made,

no matter how regrettable
looking back, it was.

it was done out of love for you.

-I know it was, Mum.

And thank you for saying that.

It's good, all right?

-This is amazing.

Checkout took forever.

Yes. Yes. No,
I'm on my way back now.

Sorry, yeah.

Yeah, I'll see you soon.

[door lock clatters]

-Hi. Look at you, so official.
-[scoffs]

-Hi. You have to tell me
everything.

-Hasn't been that long.

-I think it's just
since Landon

basically moved in
with Nora that.

-You're starved for attention.

-Mm. I thought
it would be easier

making friends at school.

-Yeah. The campus
is pretty spread out, huh?

-Yeah. And it's just
by the time you figure out

where to meet
and how to get there

on the subway and the buses,

it's like an hour
to do anything.

-Welcome to New York.

-[chuckles] So I hope
you like chicken alfredo.

-Er.
-What?

-I should've mentioned this.
I'm--

I'm actually doing
the plant-based thing.

-I don't know
why I didn't ask.

I should have just asked.

-No, no.
You know, let's improvise.

You got any red sauce?

-I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
-No, no, no.

Tessa. Tess. Hey.
-I'm sorry.

-Don't worry about it.

I'll order somethin' in.

Mm.
-[song playing]

-You wanna try?

-What is it?

-Tofu curry dumpling.

[Tessa] Is it spicy?

-Not-- not. just try it.

-Okay.

[laughing]

-Yeah?
-Mm.

It's not-- it's not bad.

-But.?

-[laughing] It's not good.

[Robert] Oh, come on.

So one of my classmates
invited us

to his girlfriend's
gallery opening

in the village tonight.
-[Tessa] Mm-hm.

-Do you wanna go?

-Um, yeah.
I mean, I'd love to but.

I've actually got this thing
tonight.

Can we do it another time?

-Yeah. Of course.

-Okay.

[cars honking]

[Hardin] So after she
kicked me out,

I really felt
that my entire world

was just crumbling around me.
-[door opens]

[Hardin] I was afraid
I was going to spiral.

I really had
nothing going for me.

But then I got the call.

Dowless and Sons wanted the book
to release immediately.

So, I picked up the phone
and I called.

I called my therapist.

-[crowd laugh]
-[Hardin scoffs]

And I took a breath.

and I took the deal.

And here we are.

[door closes]

Anyway, I'll, uh,
I'll stop blithering on,

and I'll actually
read something.

[clears throat]
-[sentimental music playing]

-♪ Now all I have
Is broken pieces ♪

♪ I searched through fine
And solid feelings ♪

♪ And I remember
The way we were ♪

♪ And how it hurts
Now you're gone ♪

♪ And I'm wounded ♪

♪ But who's the victim ♪

♪ Here comes the v*olence
In my heart ♪

♪ All of the
sirens and alarms ♪

♪ Like I was designed
For your arms ♪

♪ So who am I
When you're gone? ♪

♪ Who who. ♪

♪ Who am I
When you're gone? ♪

♪ Who who. ♪

♪ Who am I
When you're gone? ♪

♪ I still eat takeout
With all of your friends ♪

♪ I see your face
In the awkward silence ♪

♪ I feel your breath
On my neck ♪

♪ When I breathe ♪

♪ sh*t in hell
Think it's real ♪

♪ Then I blink ♪

♪ Here comes the v*olence
In my heart ♪

♪ All of the
sirens and alarms ♪

♪ Like I was designed
For your arms ♪

♪ So who am I
When you're gone? ♪

♪ Who who. ♪

♪ Who am I
When you're gone? ♪

♪ Who who. ♪

♪ Who who. ♪

♪ Who am I
When you're gone? ♪

♪ Who who. ♪

♪ Is it just you
Or both of us ♪

♪ Is it heartfelt
Or dangerous ♪

♪ Is it selfless
Or self sabotage ♪

♪ Who am I
When you're gone? ♪

♪ Come and help us
To get closer ♪

♪ Are we twisted or beautiful ♪

♪ Is this the ending ♪

♪ Or is our chapter
Still alive ♪

♪ Was it just you
Or both of us ♪

♪ Was it heartfelt
Or dangerous ♪

♪ Is it selfless
Or self sabotage ♪

♪ Who am I
When you're gone? ♪

♪ Is it selfless
Or self sabotage ♪

[♪♪♪]

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