04x10 - Little Boy Blue

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The L Word - x - Little Boy Blue


So it's start the game, from here, around the track.

We sit here and drink champagne as our horse crosses the finish line.

Here.

And you're sure about this.
I've never gotten a better tip.

In The Pink's trainers told Miles they were holding her back to improve the odds.

So it's a sure thing?
As close as you can get.

If you think about crew's exciting, the horse races will blow your mind.

You can double the money you made in Majorca.

So...

Are you in?

Yes.

I'm in.

Excellent.

I booked us a private room in the restaurant, but we should spend the whole day there, sitting in the stands.

Experience the collective rush.

Why don't you invite some of your friends?

We can do some business on that website.

I've already told Alice I'm in for grand.

Oh, and invite the little dark twisted one.
She amuses me.

You know, she's talking about getting a monkey.

Of course she is.

You were kissing a mouse on the lips?

I mean, I found her into the house, and then I live into kiss it and this little fucker bit me.

In the whole way to the doctor, my sister Sioban kept trying to tell me I had rabies.

That's so mean. She was torturing you.

We definitively tortured each other.

I used to kick open the door in the bathroom and take polaroids of her to pass round at school.

I would have tortured you too.

I haven't seen them even in years.

This wasn't the best idea, Grace.
They are your family.

Yeah.

No, it's not a caterer.
It's just a cookdiner and a server.

That's all. I mean, I haven't had a diner party in a long time.

Eleven people...

Eleven people at a diner party does not a force of nature make.

I've never met anyone like you.

I've never met anyone like you.

The one problem is I haven't heard back from Kit.

Yeah.

I think she thinks I'm protecting Angus.

No, Bette, please stay.

f*ck you!
I f*ckin' did my best!

f*ck...
Get out!

It was really just... too fast for me.

It seems like it went really well.

I'm happy to see you, Max.

It's not that I didn't want you to come.

It's just I knew it would freak anyone out.

You know how dad feels...

About what?

About queers.

Those are his words, actually.

When we were growing up, he was always there saying on and on about...

waps, queers, n*gg*r*s, faggots...

I mean, you name it, he had a word for it.

It sounds charming.
He's not a bad guy.

He's just...
He's ignorant.

And he's sheltered and he's afraid of anything that's different from him.

I didn't come here for him, Maggie.

I came here for mom.

She's my mom too.
Then why did you disappear?

Why didn't you tell her about what you're going to?

I didn't think she could handle it.

It would have been too hard for her.
You don't know that.

You just assumed that everyone would hate you.

I don't hate you.

You've called me twice since I told you I was transitioning.

How many times have you called me?

Dad...

I couldn't get the mahogany one, Maggie.

I had to go with the plain pline casket.

But everything else would be exactly the way she wanted it, the rest of the funeral.

I'd like to pay for the mahongany casket.

Hi...

Hi.

We were on our way to school, and Jared was talking about missing Shay.

And he said, "If I miss Shay this much, Shane must really miss him".

So we decided to take an impromptu holiday and...

Here we are.

Hi, Shane.
Hey, Jared.

Come on, ask her.
How are you?

I'm okay.

I'm sorry for disappearing on you.

I'm glad that you showed up on my doorstep.

It's good to see you, guys.

Do you miss Shay?

Yeah.

Yeah, I do.

Me too.

It's... it's tough.

Well, we were gonna go to breakfeast, and we're wandering if you'd like to join us.

Now, it's the Jared's choice day, so he gets to pick what we eat...

Ice cream!

Alright.

Why don't you enter, I'll go change.

I came to pay my respects.
Have you lost your mind?

You run off and you show up after she's dead like this.

Dad, stop.

You're f*cking disgusting.
Shut up, Sioban.

You shame me.

You shame your mother's memory.

You and your friend need to leave now, Moira.

Yeah.

Mom told me on her deathbed that she thought you should have been born a boy.

But look at you, you're a freak now.

I'm glad she's not alive to actually see it.

How is that breakfeast of champions?

I'm glad you came out with us.

Yeah, me too.

Listen, I'm sorry I never called you back.

And for the way I snapped at you.

I shouldn't have done that.

I've missed you.

And I've missed our uh... our story time.

That one story in the car... that was the best story I have ever heard.

Well, I... you know... I thought of some new... stories...

If you want me to read them to you.

Of course.

Will you listen to some of mine too?
Yeah.

Yeah, I'd love to.

Listen...

Bette's having this diner party on Sunday.

Would you come with me?
Of course.

I'll uh...

just have to get a sitter for this one.

You guys took the same flavor?

What did you got?

It's green apple.
That's what I've got.

The thing I really connected to is the f*cking intensity of the romance.

It's like when Jessie meets Karina for the very first time, how overwhelmed she is...

I just so remember that feeling.

That moment should just be like visually really intense.
The sound should just like fade away

so it's only them in the world. It's just, it's just Jessie and Karina.

I kinda like that feeling when you meet someone and... your heart begins to b*at.
Your mouth goes dry.

And then the blood kinda rushes through your hands.

Yes. In fact, what you can do is you can just fade the color away, just blow it out.

In the last movie that I did, I just slowly drained the color.
Oh my God...

That scene... it was just so visual, and so sensual.

Yeah.
I saw it at the Sundance Festival.

She won the audience award.
I saw the film, Tina.

It's like a blur.
I was so nervous.

How's release in "Pandora"?
Fox .

That's fantastic.
Yeah.

I got really lucky. I got very lucky.
I met a lot of nice people up there and, and, it's, it's a struggle.

It's a struggle to try to do something that you really believe in and Right, right.
..to stay true to your vision with all these f*cking Hollywood suits trying to pigeonhole you.

Totally.
Present Hollywood company excluded.

Although you would look really hot in a suit.

Thank you.

I was so turned down by your story because I just thought...

You know...

This is me. This is uh... people I know.
People I've slept with.

You know, I'm not about bullshit.

I really am not that interested in making people feel f*cking comfortable, you know... so...

I want to make movies that say something.

I would really love to direct the film.

What do you think?

I think we've found our director.

Bette, this is...

I know, I know, but you know what?
Seating

is very important at a diner party.

It is. It's just all a part of making it flow better. That's all.

I know.

I know, I know. I am.

I'm relaxed.

I just want it to be perfect for you.

That's sweet.

Not now, I'm busy.

I'm just sorry I've dragged you here.
I'm not.

I've always need a witness in something like this.

Thanks for coming, Grace.

I've got something for you.

Your mother wanted you to have that.

Her charm bracelet... She loved that thing.

Pride and joy.

Anytime anyone went anywhere, they'd bring my mom back a charm bracelet.

She was said that she was collecting memories that she might have one day.

All the places she wanted to go and I couldn't afford to take her.

I guess it's yours now.

Thanks.

I'm just gonna step outside.

What Sioban said today...

Whenever your mother and I talked about you, we'd end up fighting, and so, after a while, we just stopped talking about you.

And I...

I didn't know that she felt that way.

I didn't know that... I wanna say goodbye to mom.

And I'd like to stay for the funeral.

There's a wake at the house tomorrow.

You and your friend can come if you want.

I want you to come by the horse races tomorrow.

It's the best rush. I can't believe how that thing makes me feel for real.

You're the first person I've wanted to share it with.

Just don't drop too much.
I know how to bet.

I plan to make a lot of money before I'm through.

What?

I just wanted to let you know I've been talking to Coach about distributing "Bareback".

They're interested.

You really didn't have to do that. Well, I'm doing it 'cause I want to. I...

I also got a couple of radio stations interested in picking it out.

Thanks.

Thank you.

I... I believe in the record.

I believe in you.

I just wanted to get you up and running.

I've been up and running since you were bare-assed streaking through a sprinkler.

Maybe it's time for you to give him a break.

Let's not go there.
He made a mistake, Kit.

Forgetting to set your alarm clock is a mistake.

Putting sugar in a salt shaker, that's a mistake.

What he did was more than just a mistake.

Are you still in love with him?

No.

Mommy'll see you on Monday, okay?

Mommy's gonna miss you so much, but Angelica'll have fun.

It was nice to see you again, Jodie.
Nice to see you too.

Okay, baby. See you.

Is that a diner party list?
I remember that.

She's done it before?
Uh... yeah.

Actually, we're having a diner party tomorrow night and... I mean, we'd love it if you and Henry could come.

Thank you.

Actually, I already have diner plans.

Well, tell Henry maybe...
It's not with Henry.

My date is with uh... Kate Arden.

She's the director of Jenny's movie.

Kate?
Kate Arden.

The film director.
I saw her movie in New York.

"Pandora"?
I loved it.

It's great, isn't it?

So, you're going on a like date-date?

No. I wish. She's fantastic.
She's talented and intelligent.

We're so lucky to get her.
You'd love her.

I could bring her...to the diner party...if you're okay with that...

Uh... yeah, sure.
Yeah, that would be great.

Great!
Yeah, we'll just...

add her to the list.

And they're out.

At first we have Perfect Chello... followed by Ipsy Bitsy.

... back and Midnight Star...

And Ipsy Bitsy... without...

Faster!

Not bad, dollars to win, huh...

Whenever I'm in a public place like this with lots of people around, I always have this compulsion to take off all my clothes.

I know what you mean.

Is there like a booby prize for coming in last every time?

Alice, you bet dollars. I mean, we'll have them back...

I like winning!
We all like winning.

You're a winner, baby.
Yeah, look at the hottie you scored!

We're in a public place, Alice.

PDAs aren't cool for me. I told you that.

Sorry. Horse races make me hot.

Yeah. Thank you.
Papi, what's up for the rest of us?

Catherine?
I don't do carbs.

I want some.

Hello! What...

One f*cking fry you leave me?
That's what you get, okay?

Don't talk to me.

Are you going to Bette tomorrow night?

I wanna go 'cause I wanna meet Jodi and so I'm gonna forgive my sister her sorry ass for protecting Angus.

Jodi looks cool. I googled her.
Last night.

Yeah, you know, big artist, she's hot.

I wonder what it's like to be with someone that's deaf.

Probably really intense, you know.

Once one sense is gone, like, the others pump up, probably, right?

But Bette said she could read lips.

Is Bette learning how to sign?

Oh, I'm sure she's all over it.

But I think she really likes her.

Because when she talks about her, she kind of glows.

Okay, ladies, that's our race.
Let's place our bets.

I just replaced the carburator and the crankshaft, but...

I haven't work on it since your mother got sick.

This time we had... to show you.

Did she suffer?
Not too bad.

She went pretty fast when it came back.

And, I had her at home, so...

But she did get... the last couple of days, she was... pretty out of it.

I had to keep her in diapers.

Jeez... Jesus! Dad, I'm sorry.

I didn't mind.

I was glad to be able to do it.
I mean,

God knows she's looked after me for years.
I never thanked her.

Let's take her for a ride, son.
She goes pretty damn fast.

Dad?

Paula Ashay is here.

Do you wanna say hello?

. $ on In The Pink.

To win.

. $ on In The Pink to win.

I'll have a $ trifecta box.
, , .

That's $.
Here you go.

You really know what you're doing.

Well, I used to come for the track, back in the day.

Kit, Kit, did you see how much money Catherine pulled out of that briefcase?

Yeah, but Helena said it was a sure thing.

There's no such thing as a sure thing.

Damn straight.

Ma'am?

Private Brown.
What are you doing here?

I was just gonna say the same thing to you.

You're the last person I expected to see at the races.

She's never been to a race before.

Hi, I'm Alice.
I'm just here with some friends.

Would you be ladies joining us in the sky box?

No, I think we might stay down here and hang out with the people.

Yeah, I'm with Kit.
I wanna smell my horse win.

Our race is probably starting, so we should get going.

Yeah, I gotta

grab my wife a hot-dog, rushing oignons.

You know how it is with pregnant women.

Yeah, women.

Ma'am.

Oh, sh*t!

What?
He's not cool.

He was totally respectful.

No, he is a born-again h*m* who thinks he should have my job.

Oh, please, he didn't see anything.
We weren't even touching.

Come on, don't even think about it.
Let's go watch the race, okay?

I'm sorry for your loss, Bon.
We're all gonna miss Fiona.

Thanks, Connie.

You know Father uh...
O'Shea.

Yes.

And this is Max.

Fiona's cousin's son from California.

Max.

Hi, Connie.
Hi.

Are Sioban and the boys coming by later?

At the funeral tomorrow.

And any word yet from your other daughter, Moira?

No.

To In The Pink.
To In The Pink.

And they're out again.

And they're followed by Royal Being and In The Pink.

m*therf*cker!

sh*t.

She's running third.

She's going to win.

Rocker Skin

Edminstir and Rocker Skin...

Oh my God!

... Royal Being.
Yes!

In The Pink is...

Rocker Skin...
She's gonna win!

... on Edminstir.

Oh my God, she's gonna win.
Come on, you've got to win!

Come on, girl, come on.
Oh yeah, f*ck!

Edminstir...

Edminstir wins.
In The Pink comes to second with...

Oh my God...

f*cking f*ck... f*ck me.

I just won.

You bet on Edminstir?
Yeah.

What?
Yeah, I liked the name.

You say that stoneface.
No emotioning, you won.

Hey guys, let's get out of here.

I'm gonna collect my $.
Let's go.

But you didn't even care.
I'm going to go get the money.

But you didn't even care.

That was exciting, right?

Actually, Helena lost a lot of money.

I'm sorry, I...

Why are you sorry?

What are you sorry about?
Well, you saw it, Alice.

In The Pink lost the race and... you lost your investment.

I thought it was a sure thing.

It's a moment 'til a reset back.

We're gonna be fine.

I thought you came to go to the funeral.

I came to pay my last respects to mom.

The moment I saw how Connie reacted, I...

I realised that tomorrow should be about mom.

Not about me.

I don't wanna be the thing that people are thinking about at her funeral.

Well, I don't know what to say.

I can't just come out and tell everyone who you are.

You don't have to, Dad.

I know who I am.
I'm Max Sweeney, who used to be Moira, Bon and Fiona's daughter.

Okay, how is this?

What?

I just, I wanna make sure

that you can see everybody's mouth from where you're sitting.

Bette.
What?

I'm going to miss things.

That's what happens when I'm around heary people.

They all know I'm deaf, right?

Yeah.
It's okay.

Why? Should I have not told them?
No, no, no.

I'm deaf. It's okay to tell people.
Of course, it's the reality.

Right.
Right.

So can we hang the lights now?

I'm gonna just...

from the tree...
Yeah.

I want you to meet my friends in New York, some time.

We'll do a diner party.
And I'll cook.

I wanna be a much more fluent signer before I meet your friends.

They're not all deaf.
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to...

I know, I know. It's okay.

The lights.

Can we do it tomorrow?
We don't have time.

We've got to get the caterer's going.

We've gotta make sure that the bar is... stocked.

Stocked.

To make sure that the bar's stocked.

And I still don't have plan settings.

Actually, I was thinking that I might do... just little place cards.
What do you think?

Place cards?
Yeah. Just subtle. Small. Yeah.

What?
Oh my God!

I love you so much.

Come here.

What?

You just said that you love me.

You know, there's just so much, and there's really...

no time at all.

Oh no!

That's not funny.

Come get it.

And here you go.

I have copies.

... and assure and certain help of the resurrection to eternal life to our lord Jesus Christ.
We command to...

Fiona Bridget Sweeney.

And we commit her body to the ground.

Earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

The Lord, blessing keeper, the Lord make his face to shine upon her.

And be gracious on to her, and give her peace.

You want red or white?

Sparkling water.

They bet like a . $ and lost it in like minutes.

It was so insane.
You know what's insane?

It's they're gambling again tonight, and Helena's not here with her friends.

Well, they obviously get off on it.

I mean, what those two were doing up in the sky box...

What were they doing in that sky box?
Kit, they were f*cking.

No!
They were.

They're like twisted together.

By the way, where were you guys?

For the...

What... what were we doing?

You know, we were just...

We were reading stories.
Oh, stories.

All day?
Yeah, it was...

kind of a whole box set of stories.

That's so sweet.
You're reading stories to Paige's son.

Really sweet, you guys.
She's really sweet.

Hi.
Hi.

You look beautiful.
This is Kate Arden.

Nice to meet you.
Hi. The famous Bette.

I've heard a lot about you.
This is for you.

I usually just take the top off ..the beginning of the party.

Oh, great, tequila. Maybe we'll get to that sometime later in the evening.

Oh, well, sure.
Welcome.

Hi.
Hey, Jenny.

Kate, I didn't know that you were coming.

Here I am.
Hello, Tina.

Hey, Jenny.

Let me introduce you to the lovely Jodi Lerner.

Hi, it's very nice to meet you.

I loved your movie.
Oh, really? Oh wow! That's great!

And I love your work.
Thank you so much.

Do you sign?
No, I don't.

That's all I know how to say that and "where are the... jeans"...

Have you seen her film?

So pretentious.
My first short film showed at the "Michigan Womyn's Music Festival".

Have you been there?
No.

You should go there. You would love it.

They interprete everything for the deafs.

Yeah, every song, every performance, even the stand-up.

And the... the hand thing.
Look at your hands.

And...

Okay. Now, if you're a d*ke, you're supposedly supposed to look at your nails like this and if you're straight...
Full proof. Total full proof.

I feel set up.

I have one. Here is my theory.

Gay girls want monkeys as children and straight girls want horses.
What?!

Please...
You made that up.

Horses?
Yeah, the pets they want, like the fantasy pet.

I mean, I wanted a monkey, but it's 'cause I saw that movie with Sigourney Weaver.
"Gorillas In the Mist".

I'm gonna go help with the wine.
I come with you.

No, no, you stay. You're staying.

Me, I wanted a horse.
My friends are here for you. You stay.

What did you want?

I think I... I got to say a monkey.

A horse, I wanted a horse.
What can I say...

See?
I think your theory is bullshit.

I don't know if Paige is gay.

Oh, drama!
Drama!

Well, I'm gonna hope she is.
Otherwise...

What about you, Jodi?

Jodi, what did you want?

I'm sorry?

She asks if when you were a little girl, did you want a monkey or a horse.

Jenny has this fantastic theory, girls that grow up wanting horses are staight and girls that grow up wanting monkeys as pets are gay.

I didn't want either.

I wanted to drive race cars.

Ah. Now that's a bona fide d*ke for you.
Yeah.

It beats your theory?

My girlfriend who used to go to the stock-car is why I always wanted to do a movie about that.

We should do that.
A girl's contemporary...

I've always wanted to make a movie about that.

A bigger movie, 'cause, you know....

That's where Emma fingers Fox just staying under the desk in the boarding school.
Oh my God...

The audience loves that.
They would just went nuts for it.

Yeah?
That was such a... Wow.

Did you like that scene?
Tina doesn't really like sex scenes.

In movies.

Well, you told me that you didn't.

It made you uncomfortable?
You remember?

I actually like the sex scene in your film.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

So you guys used to be lovers, right?

Yeah, a long time ago.

Okay.

All the way from here?
That is a very long lesbian country court.

Actually, I didn't hear on the... I... googled Tina.

RReally?
What did you find out about her?

I found out that she was responsible for some of my favorite movies, and that made me wanna work with her.

And her picture was hot.

What? What picture?

Some premiere in you had a turquoise dress on.

Oh, my God, I remember that.
That's a terrible picture.

I'd like to make a toast.
I'd like to make a toast.

I'm so happy to have all of you here, in my home.

To meet someone who is very special to me.

To Jodi.

Cheers.
Cheers.

It's nice to finally meet you, Jodi.
To meet all of you.

Yeah, it's about time.
I had to make sure she was gonna stick.

What are you doing?
What's up?

Kit, what the f*ck are you doing?

Mind my own business.

What about you?

Bette, don't.

Don't tell me what to do.

You don't understand.
My sister shouldn't be drinking.

I know.

So has she... has she been drinking all night?

Yeah, a little. Why?

Because my sister's a f*cking alcoholic, that's why.

Papi doesn't know that, Bette.

You know, Bette?

You know, it's really not your place to tell me what I should do and what I shouldn't do. Understand?

Matter of fact, a double.
Kit.

Hey, Jodi.

It was really nice to meet you.

Come on, Papi.

Take me home.

f*cking Kit!

That was hard.
Yeah, it was hard because of my sister.

No. Because you were interpreting for me.

But I asked you not to.

So, please,

don't do it again.
Are you serious?

Bette, if I wanted an interpretor at the party, I would have brought Tom.
You know that.

I was just trying to help you.
I wanted you to

feel more comfortable.
Oh, really?

Or were you trying to control everything, and interprete what you wanted me to hear and to know?

That is completely an utter bullshit.

Not to mention f*cking insulting.
You're insulted?! What about me?!

The whole evening was for you.
I mean, I threw a diner party, for you.

I... over backwards to make sure it went smoothly for you.

You can't handle it.

I can't handle what?
That communication is different with me.

That it isn't exactly how you want it to be.
Well, no, it's not exactly how I want it to be.

I feel f*cking incompetent at every turn.
But you know what? I think that I

I have worked very hard to learn to communicate with you.

And I think that we do pretty well.

I just... I didn't want it to be hard with my friends tonight.

Oh. I'm so sorry it was hard for you.
That's not what I said.

What did you say?
I sa...

I want to be in a relationship with someone who works with me.

Bette, you want to be in a relationship with someone who works for you.

What are you trying to say?
I saw you tonight.

You try to control everything.
Oh God...

I mean, you wanted to...
You tried to control Tina.

You tried to control what she said to the director.

You tried to control Kit.
And you want to be my interpreter and control how I talk to everyone.
f*ck you.

f*ck you. I was just trying to do what's best for you.

Well, how do you know what's best for me?

You didn't know what was going on half the time.

You weren't there.
You didn't even try to be engaged.

Oh, really? How the f*ck do you know?

Are you having my experience?
Are you f*cking deaf?

Jesus!

I had no idea you felt so f*cking persecuted.

It makes me feel really sad for you.

I think, though, for one minute, you should just ask yourself, "What am I experiencing? What is my f*ckin' experience?"