15x22 - Head Over High Heels

[bunniefuu]

♪ I think that I like you, ooh, ooh ♪

On average, our heart beats times per minute.

- ♪ Like you, like you ♪
- ♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

♪ I think that I like you, ooh, ooh ♪

In the same -second period,

we blink between and times,

swallow once,

and take up to breaths.

[INHALES SHARPLY] Okay, you can't fall asleep here.

The kids.

You have to go, please.

Right.

Go, go, go. Come on.

- Okay.
- Please.

I'm up. [SIGHS]

♪ Shake that sugar, show me what you're made of ♪

What are you lookin' at?

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

♪ Make me want some more, oh, mi amore ♪

[CHUCKLES]

- ♪ Dance with my flamingo ♪
- [SIGHS]

- Bye.
- Bye.

♪ Give you all you want and a little more ♪

Bye.

Tip-toe.

Don't forget to tip-toe.

Quiet as a mouse.

Our hearts b*at...

[DOOR CLOSES]

...our lungs breathe,

our bodies keep us alive...

♪ I think that I like you ♪

...and most of us barely notice.

♪ Ooh ♪

Oh, hey... Zola.

Uh...

- ♪ I think that I like you ♪
- [SIGHS]

We just take it all for granted.

Um...

♪ I think I like you a lot ♪

[INSECTS CHIRPING, DOG BARKING IN DISTANCE]

What did she say?

- Did she ask you what you're doing here?
- No.

What is she doing up?

I-I-I don't know.
She was thirsty, I guess.

I mean, my kids know you as the sad guy from the couch.

Embarrassing chapter in my life, yes.

Have I apologized for that recently? I'd like to.

I mean, I had a whole plan for telling my kids about us with ice cream, and they could talk about their feelings, and now it's just blown.

[SIGHS]

What? Why are you smiling?

You were planning on telling your kids about us?

[SIGHS]

Okay, okay, I'm sorry.

- Um, what can I do?
- Don't be sorry.

You can just go. Quietly.

- Bye.
- Bye.

Wait, wait, wait, let me check, make sure the coast is clear.

♪

[WHISPERING] Okay, coast is clear.

Okay.

- Bye.
- Bye.

♪

- [LEO CRYING]
- Yes, yes, yes, Megan,

I'm gonna be there. I said I'm gonna be there, so...

[SIGHS] What do you mean I might throw up?

What kind of therapy is this?

[GROANS] Okay, yes. Yes, yes, yes.

It's okay. It's okay. Shh, shh, shh, shh, shh.

Listen, listen.

- Oh!
- [PHONE CLATTERS]

Lis...

I'm gonna be there, okay?

Just... I-I'll call you later.

[CRYING CONTINUES]

- [SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE]
- No. No.

I never told him to call Ben "Dad."

T... Y-Yes, I'm aware that you are Tuck's father.

And please do not raise your voice at me...

Hello? Tucker?

M...

[SIGHS]

My ex-husband overheard our son call Ben "Dad."

And now Tucker's hurt, Tuck feels bad, and Ben is oblivious... Thanks... and, somehow, it's all my problem.

Are you asking my opinion about all of this?

I would way rather give my opinion about your life.

Hmm. In that case, how did you tell Tuck when you started dating Ben?

Is this about you and DeLuca?

Oh, I see everything, Grey.

I am the chief.

Uh-huh. He told you.

Who? Richard?

[CHUCKLING] Well, the man's very chatty.

[CHUCKLES]

So, Zola actually saw him last night at the house before I had a chance to talk to her, so it was...

She's back.

- Oh.
- What?

Jo's back. She's here.

Oh, and here, I thought she might be dead, or...

Don't do that. Don't give a speech about how you thought she was dead or lost a limb or left me or whatever, all right?

She's not okay, and I don't know why.

Just don't be Bailey about it, please.

MEREDITH: [GASPS]

[SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE]

Dr. Karev.

Welcome back.

[SIGHS]

I'll be in the lab.

♪

That was way worse than if you had been Bailey about it.

Mnh. Mm-hmm.

WOMAN ON P.A.: Dr. Bashine to the OR.

Dr. Linda Bashine to the OR.

Is it ready?

It's ready.

- So, it's happening?
- It's happening.

Can we tell them?

W-We can tell them, but try to contain your wagging tail because this could be nothing and could do nothing.

We don't want to bait them with false hope. It's cruel.

Right. Just hang on.

What?

I need to wag my tail for a second out here.

[EXHALES SHARPLY]
Man, I hope this is not nothing.

[CHUCKLES] Me, too.

[SIGHS]

So, wait, you're saying my mom might be able to use her arms again?

We're saying there's a clinical trial with stem cells being directly injected into the cervical spine.

That's turning quadriplegics into paraplegics.

That's... That's what you said.

In some cases, yes.

We just need your approval, and then we can get started as soon as the stem cells arrive.

Mom?

Yes. Yes, please.

♪

Are you nervous?

I throw up before every job interview.

I just ace them.

So arrogant. I love it.

But why San Francisco?

My fellowship year is almost up.

- I have to interview at places
- No, I'm saying there's a lot of

- before I...
- excellent jobs right here.

And I hear the weather is worse in San Francisco than it is in Seattle, and the rent is triple.

And... hills.

You're on my vertebroplasty today, right?

I'll see you there.

♪

And the sports teams!

Seattle has better sports teams!

I'm guessing.

[GROANS]

It's a bowel obstruction.

I know the symptoms. I have IBD.

I've had three obstructions and three surgeries.

All right, what are your symptoms?

Pain, bloating, cramping... bowel obstruction symptoms.

Ow!

Okay, I'd love to take your word for it,

- but I have to get you a... Get a CT.
- Yeah, I know.

Can you just order it, please?

It really hurts.

Okay.

Dr. DeLuca?

DELUCA: Yeah?

♪

- Uh, I have a patient who's...
- [GASPS]

- Are you a doctor?
- Uh, I am, yes, but I'm gonna need you to check in with her first, okay?

I-I just had a little trouble puttin' on my shoes.

- Oh. Oh.
- [GASPS] Oh.

Yeah, maybe you should help her first.

♪

I see a small pericardial effusion.

GEMMA: The shoes were new.

I went dancing.

A little underground club I was supposedly too old for.

Had a few sh*ts too many.

And I took off my shoes to walk up the stairs to my apartment, and... that's all I remember.

MAGGIE: You slept like this?

Oh, crap.

Gemma?

RICHARD: Uh, excuse me. You two know each other?

Um...

Through, um, a mutual friend.

Well, Ollie isn't around anymore, so thank you for your concern, but, as you can see, I'm... I'm all set here.

Gemma, how did this happen?

I think you and I both know how this happened.

♪

Josh Sterman, , has hereditary osteoporosis that caused a compression fracture at T- to T- , scheduled for a percutaneous vertebroplasty.

I'll inject cement right here into the vertebral body to restore its integrity, then you'll be good to go.

You'll be out of here in time for dinner.

Pop-Pop?

Dr. Bailey!

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

Josh, you remember Dr. Bailey?

She's the one who takes out part of my bowel every few years.

[CHUCKLES]

Uh, recurrent diverticulitis.

Now, the last time I saw you, you were, what, a foot shorter and studying for the SATs.

He aced 'em!

- Aww.
- And thanks to you,

I saw him graduate from high school and get into Udub.

Next stop, business school.

I can't finish those applications until my back stops hurting.

- He's getting a vertebroplasty today.
- Oh.

- Did I say that right?
- [CHUCKLES]

I thought we'd be seeing Dr. Lincoln, the fancy sports guy?

Oh, well, Dr. Kim is Dr. Lincoln's fellow.

He's being wooed by the top hospitals and some pro-sports teams.

You're lucky you've got him while he's still here.

Thank you, Chief Bailey.

So, I will, uh, check back a little later.

[CHUCKLES]

Pressure's on, man.

[MONITOR BEEPING]

Wow.

Which one is that one?

The Arc de Triomphe.

From Paris?

The golden plate represents the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier.

Hm. It's cool.

Be back in a second.

WOMAN ON P.A.: Dr. Ruta, please contact the lab.

Dr. Ruta, please contact the lab.

Any word from the rare blood organizations?

Well, I'm waiting on that call from Amsterdam.

He's getting weaker. I need that blood.

I've called Cristina. I even called Marie Cerone.

Thanks.

[SIGHS]

What about Jo?

She said anything yet?

Not at all?

It's happening again. [SIGHS]

- It's not.
- No, they're happy for a while...

- It's not happening.
- ...then they break...

- She's not broken.
- ...and then they leave me.

Listen to me.

You have to trust her.

She isn't Izzie.

She isn't Ava or Lexie.

She isn't your mother.

And she's not broken, and neither are you.

She's going through something.

And she's been through worse and come out on the other side fine.

She's just not ready to talk about it yet.

I've been there.

You give me space. You give me me.

I've been there. Right?

Okay.

It's not happening again.

♪

[SIGHS]

♪

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

Wow.

That's a lot of journals.

Oh, you got binders, too. Great.

Yeah, this is the lab where boring things go to get more boring.

Bailey's really piling it on now that she's chief again, huh?

Yeah, didn't help that I was out for a while.

Mm-hmm.

Okay, well, I don't want to bother you, then.

Bother me how?

Oh, nothing.

I just thought maybe you could help me with my spray-on skin research, but you seem pretty underwater, so...

Wait.

That sounds way better than any of this.

Then again, so does a root canal.

Well, that's just the winning attitude I'm looking for.

[CAR HORNS HONKING]

- So, you're a licensed therapist?
- I am.

'Cause I don't believe in, you know... alternative... whatever...

You know, holistic... voodoo stuff.

No voodoo. Got it.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

Well, Megan swears by this... whatever this thing is that you're doing, so...

Neuro Emotional Technique.

Mm.

It's a psycho-therapeutic modality in which I use muscle testing to determine where in your body you might be holding on to unresolved patterns of stress,

- like trauma, physical injury... Hmm.
- Muscle testing.

Is that like when you, uh, get weak when you're lying?

Because that... that is a party trick, not science.

[CHUCKLES] You're right.

It's not the most precise system of diagnosis, but, often, when your mind is trying to hide something from you, your body will still throw you under the bus.

Well... [CLEARS THROAT]

This helped Megan with her trauma, so...

And she was held hostage in Iraq.

For a decade. Presumed dead.

So I figured, if it helped her, then what the hell?

[SMACKS LIPS]

Megan is convinced that I am incapable of allowing joy to exist in my life due to some unprocessed trauma that your weird voodoo therapy is supposed to help me with, so...

Do you think she's right?

Ow!

This is worse than it's ever been.

I-I know it's hard, Avi, but I'm gonna need you to hold still for another little while.

Okay? You're doing great.

[TELEPHONE RINGS]

- Hey, you paged?
- Hey.

Uh, yes, I have a
-year-old patient with IBD.

She presents with severe abdominal pain.

She thinks it's an obstruction, but, I mean, she's in way too much pain.

- I-I think it might be a perf.
- Ow.

- Yeah.
- Okay.

I'm... I'm waiting for the images to come up, so...

Okay.

How was, uh, Zola this morning?

She freaked out? [CHUCKLING] Traumatized?

I mean, I don't think so, actually.

I think she was kind of normal-ish.

I mean, it's hard to hear her over my own tell-tale heart.

Right?

I mean, why... why do we feel so guilty?

We're not doing anything wrong, right?

Well...

Do you even like kids?

What?

Well, we really haven't talked about it, and I do have three of them.

I have first cousins, age to .

The -year-old, Tony, always calls me about girls.

- He's been doing that since he was .
- [CHUCKLES]

The -year-old, Sonia, she attaches herself to my leg when she sees me, and I basically wear her like a leg brace.

- [LAUGHS]

The -year-old, Nicholas, likes to put things in my hair and then dig them out.

[LAUGHS]

Your problem's not gonna be that I don't like kids, Mer.

Your problem's gonna be that your kids might like me more than you.

- You think?
- Mm-hmm.

- Oh.
- Scans are up.

Okay, Avi, your scans are up.

We're almost done here.

Oh, my God.

You didn't run a pregnancy test?!

No, no, no, Qadri said she ran standard labs and then a CT.

What... Oh, my Go.

You guys, I'm not pregnant.

I just have... Oww!

Avi, you are pregnant, and you are in labor,

and it looks like you're crowning.

What? What?

- Let's page OB and page the chief.
- Yep.

- [AVI BREATHING HEAVILY]
- [DIALING]

Uh, Dr. Pierce, can you excuse us?

I-I'd like a few minutes alone with Gemma if there's time.

- Of course.
- No.

- Gemma.
- No, I don't want him in here.

[SIGHS] Dr. Webber...

Gemma, don't be ridiculous.

- You are not my doctor.
- No, I'm your friend.

And I owe it to Ollie to check on you.

Ollie is dead.

I don't want you in here preaching at me, praying at me,

- pretending you relate.
- Except I do.

No, you don't. You got a wife.

You got kids.

I had a sponsor. I had Ollie.

And now I got a stiletto in my chest and a bottle of tequila waiting for me when I get home.

And I don't want to hear what you got to think about any of it.

So get out of my room before I call security.

Oh, for God's sakes, Gemma.

Get out.

Um, you better run a tox screen, make sure she's not still drunk.

You arrogant son of a bitch!

Get out! Get out!

- Gemma, please calm down.
- Get out!

- Please... Gemma, please hold still.
- Get out!

- Get out!
- Dr, Webber, get out! Please.

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

[AVI GROANING]

Did you page OB?

DELUCA: Yeah, it's a busy delivery day, apparently.

Oww!

Okay, Avi, good, push!

How do you give a pregnant woman a CT?

Qadri ordered the CT.

'Cause I had my period yesterday.

This makes no seeeense!

Bear down, Avi. Good job.

Oh!

Oh, my God.

Two wombs!

- What?
- Ah!

Oh, look at this!

It's a u-uterus didelphys!

Look at this, Grey!

I'm a little busy right now, Dr. Bailey!

What the hell is uter... Aaah!

You have two uteri, but you're only pregnant in one!

Oh, my Goooood!

- Good job, good job, Avi.
- [SCREAMING]

You're almost there.

DELUCA: Head down, okay? Come on.

- [INFANT CRYING]
- Okay.

Okay.

Here's your baby boy.

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

♪

[SIGHS]

So, did you ever follow through with the whole... birth-mom thing?

Have you been talking to Alex?

Not about that, no.

- Well, you were right.
- About?

You know what?

Y-You said that you needed me to help you with spray-on skin, so can we just get to it already?

It's a process.

Right now, we're focused on aerosolization and coverage.

I was wrong.

This is a lab where boring things go to get more boring.

Mm.

Injecting cement.

♪ Your grace ♪

♪ Your grace ♪

♪ Your grace ♪

Is that it?

Just because I made it look easy doesn't mean it was.

♪

Do you have them?

The... The stem cells? Are they here?

Uh, not yet.

Now we just have to get some blood samples from your mom before the procedure.

I can't quite breathe.

I-I mean, I can't get a deep breath.

And I think it's because I'm so aware.

I'm aware of my hands.

I'm aware of my legs.

My fingers.

When I walk... every step... I'm aware.

I'm in awe.

We're anxious and we're depressed and we mope and we worry about an extra five pounds or our... our stupid job.

Since the accident, all I can think about are my feet and my hands and how grateful I am for them.

♪ Way too close to color your comfort ♪

♪ All dressed up but kept undercover ♪

And I want them for my mom.

[VOICE BREAKING] I want her hands back.

I want them so badly, I can't quite breathe.

♪ All dressed up but kept undercover ♪

All right, we need to suspend the patient's breathing for about two minutes while we inject.

Lucky for everybody, I can do a lot in, uh, two minutes.

Y... What?

Oh.

You miss your boyfriend.

Who?

Ortho Barbie. [CHUCKLES]

Shepherd, I can't believe you have a thing with a jock!

It's not... Shut up.

Is it weird having sex with a cartoon character?

Does he drip ink on you when he sweats?

- [CHUCKLES]
- Okay, I made you laugh. Come on.

Spill. I need deets, and you, obviously... you need advice.

Fine.

Yes, he looks like a cartoon god, and the sex is athletic, and there is eye contact, and nobody cries after, and he's funny and fun and easy to hang out with, which is just confusing to me because it's [LAUGHING] so not my type.

Oh! Okay.

He's your Altman. Hm.

My Altman?

Yeah, you know, somebody so good and unbroken and kind that they just seem wrong for you, but, really, I mean, you... [CHUCKLES]

You've never been happier.

So, yeah, he's your Altman.

Oh, Tom.

You poor guy.

So, you came home from Germany, and you got back with Amelia.

But that wasn't what you wanted.

OWEN: It was.

Amelia was... perfect.

I mean, if there was... there was no Teddy, then...

- There is a Teddy.
- No, there's not.

I mean, she and I, we just...

[CHUCKLES] we have bad timing.

But the timing was right in Germany,

- and still, you blew it up.
- Accidentally.

Was it an accident?

It's the opposite of what you went to Germany to do, Owen.

So why would you blow it?

You're not stupid.
You don't like hurting people.

Why would you do it?

Uh, I...

I don't know.

Well, it seems like you might be caught in a pattern.

And if we can find the original event that started that pattern, we can just stop it from replaying.

That's it.

And that's your E.N.T. thing?

It's N.E.T., but whatever.
[BREATHES SHARPLY]

Are you up for that?

[CLEARS THROAT]

Does it involve electric shocks of any kind?

[BOTH CHUCKLE]

I'm on my way to a consult, but I wanted to make sure everything went okay.

Josh was awesome.
Access site looks great.

How do you feel?

- No more stabbing knives in my back.
- [LAUGHTER]

- I think we're better than okay, Chief.
- Good.

Hey, what's the over/under on the bathroom situation?

- Ooh, ooh.
- Do I need to continue to lie here?

- You can go.
- I'll stop by later.

All right, coming down.

Ooh.

NICO: Good, careful, careful.

- Any tightness?
- No, no, I'm good.

Ah, so, what's your number one?

UCSF, apparently.

[CHUCKLES LIGHTLY]

Well, I have a Skype interview with them later, actually.

Blow it off, man. Hospitals are boring.

Find yourself a hockey team, you know?

Fights, skates to the face, busted shoulders.

It's a real money-maker right there.

[GASPS, GROANS]

Josh? Josh? Josh?

- Call a code!
- Oh, my God.

We need a gurney over here.

- Oh, my God. Josh.
- [ALARM BEEPING]

- What's... What's happening?
- We need help.

Take him outside. Get a crash cart now.

What's happening? Oh, my God, Josh!

- Get me cardio.
- Josh!

Start bagging him and get an ABG now!

[MONITOR BEEPING]

How's she doing?

I just need to make sure that her heart isn't affected, and then I'll do a pericardial window.

It's pretty simple.

You really shouldn't be here, Richard.

The last time I saw Gemma, she was taking a cake for years' sobriety.

Then Ollie d*ed, and I stopped going to meetings for a while, and I guess Gemma did, too.

But you didn't drink.

No, no.

I took a baseball bat to a bar.

And if I didn't have a lot of money to settle with the bar, I would've lost my license.

I could've gone to prison.

I was a dry drunk, Maggie, and I was angry, and it was painful, and... if it weren't for Catherine, I...

[DOOR OPENS]

Dr. Pierce, we have a page for cardio from ortho.

Altman's in surgery, and so is Roberts.

Oh, go, go. I can handle it.

She doesn't want you on her case.

Look, I'll talk Qadri through it.

- Go where you're needed, Maggie.
- Okay.

♪

DELUCA: Hi, Avi.

How you feeling?

[BABY COOS]
- Hey.

- AVI: Look at him.
- Hello.

Look at what I made.

[GASPS] Yeah.

[CELLPHONE RINGING]

[GROANS] It's Tucker.

Again.

I mean, really.

There are worse things than to have two good men who the boy feels close to.

So you'd be cool if Tucker got remarried and Tuck called his new wife "Mom"?

Now, why would you say a vicious thing like that?

I'm just saying, I just...
Can we please talk about me?

How did you tell Tuck that you were dating Ben?

I... You know, on some level, Tuck already knew.

Look, all you have to do is show up, make it clear what's happening, answer her questions.

All she wants to know is that you're there for her, and you're not going anywhere no matter what.

[BABY COOS]

Okay, so, apparently Qadri did do a pregnancy test, but she didn't wait for the results because Avi was so sure she knew what was going on.

Okay, I'm gonna say a thing, if only to spare you the humiliation of your girlfriend having to say it.

- Trust, but verify.
- Trust, but verify!

I heard about this morning, too.

You're really batting a thousand today.

Oh, it... [SIGHS]

- It was in the middle of the night!
- [CHUCKLES]

[SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE]

Let's go back to Germany, and just... to when you said

- the thing to Teddy.
- Mm-hmm.

Just focus on what you were feeling in that moment.

- Okay.
- Just be there, and hold your arm strong.

[SIGHS] Okay.

And...

Okay, there it is.

- So, now, just let that go.
- Mm-hmm.

Think about something else, anything else, and let's check the concept of nervousness.

Of despair.

Feeling of distrust.

Feeling of distrust.

Sensitivity to someone else's distrust.

Your distrust.

Okay, so, it's yours.

That's crazy.

Do you feel distrustful of Teddy?

No.

Can you remember a time in your life when you felt that way?

Uh...

You know what? That's a broad question.

Let's just check when it could've happened.

Conception to five.

Listen, w-why don't we just skip to the Iraq w*r,

'cause if we're talking about trauma, that's where it started.

- So...
- Okay.

[SIGHS]
- Was it during the Iraq w*r?

No, it's not the w*r, then.

Five to ten?

Five? Six?

Seven? Eight?

Nine? Ten?

Do you have a memory of feeling distrustful when you were ten?

No.

I don't know.

Okay.

- Do you remember feeling joy at ten?
- Probably. I was ten.

[BREATHING DEEPLY]

Don't look too hard.

There's probably a memory sitting right there.

Just the first thing you think of.

I won an award.

There was a Science Bee at school.

And, um, lasted three days.

All grades.

I b*at everyone at the school.

How'd you feel about that?

Great. Proud.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

Best that I've ever felt.

It doesn't sound like it.

So you told him to go to Germany.

Because every time I looked at him, I could see him thinking about her.

And he went, and she rejected him.

He went to Germany, declared his love, and she declared it back.

She loves him, Tom. She always has.

And... And now there's a baby.

I was kind of hoping she was a one-night-stand-between-friends baby.

Nope, she is definitely a love baby.

Except for the salty brunette who keeps showing up back in his bed.

Tom, I'm telling you this as a friend...

Owen and Teddy are inevitable.

Hey!

Stem cells are here.

OR is prepped.

My man!

- See you in there.
- [CHUCKLES]

Yeah. Ah. Mm!

- Shut up.
- Shepherd.

[GLOVE SNAPS]

We're about to perform an experimental procedure in which we might give a paralyzed woman the use of her arms.

"Inevitable" doesn't scare me.

[SIGHS]

[MONITOR BEEPING]

MAGGIE: Let's go off bypass.

NICO: I-I was careful. I...

I don't know if you used the wrong amount of pressure or if the cement was too liquid, but the pulmonary artery is destroyed.

I pieced it together, but the graft is barely holding.

What can I do?

This is a temporary fix at best.

We could consider putting him on the transplant list.

- Transplant?
- If you can think of a better way to save your patient from dying, I'd love to hear it.

- [MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY]
- Damn it. Schmitt, suction!

The repair didn't hold?

There is nothing here to hold onto.

- Clamp!
- [LIQUID SUCTIONING]

Flap!

Suction!

[SIGHS]

I ran home after school.

I had this big certificate with a seal.

You know, like, uh, foil. [CHUCKLES]

I remember that.

And, uh, my mom was waiting for me in the kitchen.

And I was about to show her it, and then she said, "Owen, sit down."

So I sat down, and... she told me that my dad d*ed... that day.

- So...
- I'm sorry.

What about the prize? The certificate.

What?

Oh. I-I didn't tell her about that.

I didn't tell anybody.

I was, um, you know...

I was ashamed that I was so proud, that I was so... happy when she was so sad.

And my dad was, um...

Owen, I think you've been reliving this moment ever since.

No, no, no.

I think you don't trust joy.

I think you stop it before something terrible happens,

- before the bad news comes.
- [BREATHING HEAVILY]

But it's not coming anymore.

That moment is over.

It came, and you're okay.

So let's stop the replay.

How?

Okay, I want you to...

I want you to put your hand on your wrist like this, okay?

And then put your hand on your forehead.

♪

And just sit and breathe.

[BREATHES DEEPLY]

♪

[SOBBING]

♪

♪

WOMAN ON P.A.: Dr. Franco, please call extension .

Dr. Franco, please call extension .

You don't quit, huh?

You bring a "Big Book"?

You planning to read to me while I'm too weak to stop you?

I just wanted to update you.

Dr. Pierce had an emergency with another patient.

So... she didn't do your surgery.

I did.

Oh.

[CHUCKLES]

So I can sue you.

Buy me a new pair of shoes.

You do whatever you want to.

Although it would make you a serious ingrate, seeing how I saved your damn life, you stubborn drunk!

[SCOFFS]

[LAUGHS]

[SCOFFS]

[CHUCKLES]
- Ow, ow. Hurts.

Hurts when I laugh.

Well, it ought to hurt.

You punctured your heart with a shoe.

Heh.

That's a new bottom if I ever heard one.

[BREATHING DEEPLY]

I had years.

I know.

I want 'em back.

[MONITOR BEEPING]

The years don't matter, Gemma.

Just today.

It's just... It's just one day at a time.

You start your count all over again and tell me that.

Well, not long ago, I almost did.

I slid my chip across a bar, traded it for a line of sh*ts.

You did what?

It was a very bad day.

Tell me more.

You stubborn drunk.

[CHUCKLES]

[INHALES SHARPLY]

[RESPIRATOR HISSING]

AMELIA: Thank you for finding this study.

Thank you for inspiring me to find this study.

I'll thank you both to stop before I vomit into an open spine.

Okay, suspend her breathing.

[MACHINE BEEPS]

Okay.

♪

[MONITOR BEEPING]

BAILEY: I know you love Ben and I know you didn't mean to, but it hurt your father's feelings, so you just have to say you're sorry and go back to calling Ben "Ben."

Wait, hold on.

Pop-Pop.

♪

Hey, what happened? Something went wrong.

- They took him.
- What? Josh should be out by...

Dr. Bailey, something went really wrong.

Okay, uh, I'll find out, okay?

I'll be right back.

♪

[FLATLINE]

No.

[FLATLINE STOPS]

How?

Massive pulmonary artery embolism.

The bone cement...

Okay, wait, I don't want to hear it from you.

I want to hear it from you.

The cement leaked, causing a blood clot.

He went into cardiac arrest.

Dr. Pierce tried to repair the pulmonary artery.

We tried everything we could, and we...

You made a mistake on a healthy -year-old man.

And that man is now dead. That's what happened.

♪

[DOOR SLIDES OPEN, CLOSES]

♪

Schmitt, you close.

And you... you are gonna stand right next to me and take in every moment of that grandfather's grief.

And if you're a good surgeon, you'll remember it.

And you'll never make this mistake again.

♪

♪

[CLEARS THROAT]

Look, the way I see it is we can keep working in awkward silence until it's time for you to go home, or...

- I vote that.
- ...or you can tell me what you meant by "I was right."

'Cause I could, maybe, help you feel, I don't know, one drop less crappy.

You told me not to go looking,

[SIGHS] and you were right.
That's all, so...

Jo, I told you not to go looking if everything was okay.

You went looking, so maybe everything was not okay.

Maybe you needed that.

No, no. You know what? I had everything.

I had a marriage and a job and...

Yeah, Alex is right here.

You got a great job right here.

[CHUCKLING] You're doing it right now.

I'm spraying water on a paper towel, and Alex is anything but happy.

'Cause he's worried about you.

He's trying to help. Come on.

I knew it. I knew it.

- He sent you here.
- No, he didn't.

Jo, that's not what this is.

Then what is it?

The guy's worried, okay?

He's wondering.

Why don't you just communicate with him?

'Cause it would only hurt, and it won't help.

[SIGHS]

You don't know that.

I had all this happy, and I just... tossed it aside like it would always exist.

I mean, we... we see it all the time.

We diagnose patients with terrible diseases or we tell someone that their husband dropped dead of... of a heart att*ck, and all they can say is they were fine yesterday, and they were.

They were fine.

I was fine.

And I took it for granted, and now it feels impossible to get it back.

[SYRINGE CLATTERS]

It was Mer.

It was Meredith that asked me to look in on you.

She knows how our parents can screw with our heads.

I'm here, okay?

I'm working.

You came to work drunk, Jo.

You're still drunk.

I can smell it.

I'm thinking vodka in the water bottle.

I'm glad you had the decency not to see any patients today.

That's nice.

You don't know what you're talking about.

You're in a lot of pain, and you're trying to numb it. I get that, okay?

It's not gonna work.

I'm telling you.
You're gonna ruin your life.

Jo, don't leave.

Just talk to me for a second.

I'm trying to help you.

♪

You set foot in this hospital drunk again, you're not gonna be met with compassion.

♪

[DOOR SLAMS]

[KADIATOU'S "SAY SOMETHING" PLAYS]

♪

[DOOR SLIDES OPEN]

[MONITOR BEEPING]

♪ Say something, I'm giving up on you ♪

The surgery went well.

I see that.

Yours?

Did not.

I'm sorry.

♪ I'll be the one, if you want me to ♪

BAILEY: [VOICE BREAKING] And Dr. Pierce did everything she could, but...

[SOBBING]
- ...the damage was too extensive.

I'm...

You said we'd be lucky to have that doctor.

- You said Josh would be in good hands.
- [BREATHES DEEPLY]

- [CRYING] What happened?
- I know. I know.

[SOBBING CONTINUES]
- Oh.

I'm so sorry.

[SNIFFLES, CRYING]

♪ And I... ♪

My boy.

♪ ...am feeling so small ♪

♪

[BREATHES DEEPLY, CRYING]

♪ It was over my head ♪

[BABY COOING]

♪ And I knew nothing at all ♪

Hey.

Yeah, it's nice to meet you.

♪ Say something, I'm giving up on you ♪

Hey.

[COOING CONTINUES]

♪ And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you ♪

Okay, now all we do is wait.

I hope we didn't get their hopes up for nothing.

Oh. Thank you.

How do you feel about sushi burritos?

♪ I would've followed you ♪

That sounds like a culinary abomination, and I need one immediately.

Could you give me one minute, though?

♪ I'm giving up on you ♪

[CLEARS THROAT]

[INHALES SHARPLY]

Look, I know you think you're being brave by fighting for Teddy, but that's not what's happening here.

Y-Your hopes are up. They're way up...

And hope scares you.

And that's why you're, uh, hiding behind a very pretty, very decent guy to cover the fact that you're still hung up on Owen Hunt.

Mm-hmm. [CHUCKLES] Yeah.

A thing I've learned is that life is a series of choices.

And that sometimes, there is an easier, softer way.

- H-He is uncomplicated, yeah.
- Mm-hmm.

And it so refreshing.

- Oh.
- It is like diving into a cold pool on a hot day.

Ah.

Am I hung up on Owen?

Sure.

Maybe I always will be.

But am I using Link?

No.

I'm just choosing an easier path.

You might want to try it.

♪ Say something, I'm giving up on you ♪

♪

[SIGHS]

♪ Say something ♪

[KEYBOARD CLACKING]

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS IN DISTANCE]

LEVI: Hey.

I was looking all over for you.

Thought you might've tried to postpone.

Can't just postpone a job interview.

Yeah, I know.

But they could make an exception, you know?

Because of what happened today.

Oh, you mean 'cause I screwed up so completely that someone's dead?

Oh, yeah, sure, let me just call up the hiring committee and fill them in, Levi.

So, you think you're in the best condition to interview for your dream job?

Just e-mail 'em, okay?

Then we can get out of here.

No, you don't get it!

'Cause you let failure hold you back your whole life.

It's basically your entire identity.

But it's not mine.

[SKYPE TONE RINGING]

So much of the world operates

without us ever thinking about it.

Dr. Kim, it's nice to see you.

Your application is tremendously impressive.

Hey, Dr. Hogans, thank you for making the time to talk to me.

I've wanted to be a part of

- your program since I...
- [DOOR SLAMS]

...since I first, uh, chose ortho as my specialty.

MEREDITH: We expect it to work out in our favor,

and, most of the time, it does.

[SIGHS]

Let's just go home, order in.

I have to go to my place and get some clean clothes.

I'm so tired, I might just crash there.

Move in with me.

What?

I love you, Maggie.

I don't want to take it for granted.

I don't want to miss it.

Yeah.

Move in with me.

♪

We worry about the future and think about the past.

[OWEN SNORING]

- [CELLPHONE CHIMES]

Oh...

[GRUNTS]

Okay.

Hey, come here.

Come here, come here, come here.

Hey.

[CELLPHONE KEYBOARD CLACKING] _

[CELLPHONE BLOOPING]

Teddy. Look.

_

- [SCOFFS]
- [LEO BABBLES]

_

Okay.

[SIGHS]

And we so often miss what's right in front of us.

WOMAN ON TV: It's a tiny field outside Lake...

♪ Somewhere past tomorrow ♪

ALEX: You were drinking at work?

♪ Is better than it seems ♪

- Jo, I'm done.
- The field...

You hear me? I'm done.

I need you to hear me.
I need you to talk to me.

♪ If you're ever broken... ♪

I love you, Jo. I love you, but I...

If you love me, you will let me...

No, no, no, no, we're not playing that game anymore.

We're not playing that "if you love me, you'd leave me alone."

You went to Pittsburgh, and we were good.

- Stop.
- We were good, and then you come back, and you won't talk to me, and you're drinking at work.

Please.

So how about I just go to Pittsburgh and find out what the hell happened to my wife?!

♪ Know you're bound for glory ♪

Huh?!

We take what's good and easy and working for granted...

♪ Sometimes it takes darkness... ♪

I will talk to you when I'm ready to talk to you.

And if you ever thr*aten to go to Pittsburgh again, I will leave you.

♪ So get up off your knees ♪

Are we clear?

♪ Hope is still alive ♪

If you ever come to work drunk again,

I'll tell Bailey.

♪ I know you'll find ♪

Great.

We have a deal.

...until it's no longer good and easy and working for us.

It's normal, but we can do better

because there are tiny, beautiful gifts

we're given every day.

Here we go.

So, the reason why you saw Dr. DeLuca here the other night was because he and I have been spending more time together.

Is he your boyfriend?

He is.

What's that mean?

Well, that means that I like him a lot.

Not more than you, but a lot.

Are you gonna kiss him?

Probably.

- Ew, gross!
- Oh, gross!

- Is he gonna sleep on the couch again?
- [GIGGLES]

No, he won't be sleeping on the couch, but he may be coming around a lot more, so...

But I'm not going anywhere.

You're stuck with me.

Can he leave his guitar at home?

[LAUGHTER]

And it's up to us to appreciate them to the fullest

while we can.

♪