01x06 - Motherlode

[bunniefuu]

- ZACH: Happy birthday.
- [ZOE GASPS]

HEATHER: I heard a noise.

ZOE: Yeah, I guess
I was just talking to myself.

LARS: Okay. Was it just me
or did anybody else

dream a tad more vividly last night?

Whatever is in these, Dee,
keep 'em coming.

- I'm not gonna make it.
- You're not gonna make it where?

To the end of the week

- The end of the year.
- Don't you look at me like... like...

Don't stare at me
like I'm a f*cking psycho.

We are on the precipice
of something great.

Stay with me. Stay together.

- Mom! Mom!
- [GASPS AND SCREAMS]

[THEME MUSIC PLAYING]

♪ You've got this Strange effect on me ♪

♪ And I like it ♪

♪ You've got this Strange effect on me ♪

♪ And I like it ♪

♪ You make my world seem right ♪

♪ You make my darkness bright ♪

♪ Oh, yes, you've got ♪

♪ This strange effect on me ♪

♪ And I like it ♪

♪ And I like it ♪

♪ And I like it ♪

[PEOPLE SINGING IN RUSSIAN]

Mmm.

[BREATHES HEAVILY]

[SPITS]

[RATTLING]

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

MAN: ♪ Money makes the world go around ♪

♪ The world go around
The world go around ♪

♪ Money makes the world go around ♪

♪ It makes the world go round ♪

♪ A mark, a yen, a buck, or a pound ♪

♪ A mark, a yen, a buck, or a pound ♪

♪ Is all that makes
the world go around ♪

♪ That clinking clanking sound ♪

♪ That makes the world go 'round ♪

Who are you? What did you...

♪ Money, money, money
Money, money, money ♪

♪ Money, money, money, money, money ♪

Can you believe you gave me $ , ?

Ooh! I bet you feel dumb.

[FRANCES GRUNTS]

sh*t.

[BREATHES DEEPLY]

[EXHALES DEEPLY]

[MAN SINGING DISTANTLY]

[WHIMSICAL MUSIC PLAYING]

Son of a...

MAN: ♪ Money, money, money ♪

[WHIMSICAL MUSIC CONTINUES PLAYING]

- [FRANCES SCOFFS]
- PAUL: Ari was never my son.

He's my cousin's son.

♪ If you happen to be rich
If you find you've been left ♪

♪ By your lover, though you moan ♪

♪ And you groan quite a lot
You can take it on the chin ♪

♪ Call a cab and begin to recover ♪

♪ On your -karat yacht ♪

You're a small man, Paul Drabble.

♪ Money, money, money
Money, money, money ♪

♪ Money, money, money
Money, money, money ♪

- ♪ Money, money... ♪
- [PAUL GRUNTS]

- [TOILET FLUSHES]
- [FRANCES LAUGHS]

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

- BOY: f*gg*t.
- [YOUNG LARS GASPS]

- What did you call me?
- He said f*gg*t.

ALL: f*gg*t, f*gg*t!

f*gg*t, f*gg*t! f*gg*t, f*gg*t!

f*gg*t, f*gg*t!

f*gg*t, f*gg*t! f*gg*t, f*gg*t, f*gg*t!

[GASPS AND BREATHES HEAVILY]

MASHA: Shh.

What are you doing here?

I hate bullies.

How do you know what I was dreaming?

MASHA: I use a little
auditory subliminal stimuli.

I put in a chemical catalyst, and...

I can see your past trauma with bullies.

What exactly are you giving me?

What I'm giving you is a story.

This is going to be yours.

It's not connected to the internet,

but the camera is working just fine.

So I want you to document
all of the events

that you see today.
I want you to record them,

to write them down.
I want you to do it all.

- Why? What's about to happen?
- [MASHA SIGHS]

Well for starters...

You are about to happen.

Your whole life
has been about tearing down.

You target the bullies.

Destroy them.

The question is...

have you ever nurtured anything?

- No.
- No.

Have you ever been a vehicle for growth?

No.

I am gonna offer you
the chance to build something.

Something extraordinary.

So...

you came here to boost your career.

Instead, you get a legacy,
you get the chance

to be the one who told the world.

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

Wait. So, what do you mean,
she controlled your dream?

I've heard of it
being done with hypnosis.

She does it with dr*gs and audio.

Like brain entrainment.

So she knew you'd be having a butt baby?

I'm sorry. Was I talking to you?

No, but you were talking loud enough

that I could overhear your conversation.

And by the way, it's my baby too, Lars.

I know my rights.

Okay. Let's not be the Bickersons today.

We had this lovely party last night.

You know, we... We all sang and danced.

- Hi, good morning.
- ZOE: Good morning.

- So, what'd I miss?
- TONY: Oh, apparently

Masha's been manipulating Lars' dreams

with mind control or something.

- dr*gs and entrainment.
- TONY: Whatever.

FRANCES: She's
controlling our dreams now?

- That explains a lot.
- Why, what happened?

MASHA: Hello, everybody.

How are you all doing this morning?

Uh, not... not great. I...
I'm not sure what you're doing,

dosage-wise,

but I had some kind of hallucination

or dream last night where Paul Drabble

was like the size of a, you know,

- like a garden gnome.
- Oh.

FRANCES: I know it's maybe offensive
to talk about someone's size,

but he's an offensive, tiny little man.

- So he... it's fine.
- What was he doing?

He was singing a song from Cabaret.

♪ Willkommen, Bienvenue... ♪

No, not that one. The...

♪ Maybe this time I'll be lucky ♪

- ♪ Maybe this time, maybe... ♪
- FRANCES: No.

I don't even know that one.
The, um... uh, it was...

- ♪ Money, money, money... ♪
- FRANCES: Yes, "Money." "Money."

He was singing, "Money, money, money,"

across the floor, by my bed, and then...

inside my toilet.

And I mean, I did not come here

to have a Lilliputian-sized
internet hustler

sing show tunes to me from the toilet.

- That must've been terrifying.
- Well, it wasn't a good show.

- [LAUGHTER]
- TONY: Yeah.

How did the dream end?

I... I flushed him down the toilet.

[LAUGHTER]

MASHA:
Now, if I had told you from the start

that you will gonna flush Paul Drabble
down the toilet,

- what would have you done?
- I would have paid you double.

[LAUGHTER]

We are all experiencing new things here.

Zoe. Zoe beautifully expressed
her sense of family to you last night.

Ben, Jessica rediscovering each other.

Tony. How about you?

What were you feeling?
It looked like tenderness.

You are okay being a little vulnerable?

No. I'm okay.

[MASHA CHUCKLES]

So we're making progress here.

And now we are gonna build
on that progress.

We have a slightly higher dose.

I mean, you don't have to take it,

it is up to you, but if you do,

there's a couple more rules,

no climbing, no going near water.

We will also employ the buddy system.

So the Marconis, Ben and Jessica,

Carmel, Lars, and Tony, Frances.

- Love it.
- MASHA: It's your choice,

but it is safe.

Sounds safe to me.

- Cheers?
- L'chaim.

Hey, buddy.

Here's mud in your eye.

- Mm.
- BEN: Down it.

Et tu, Brute?

And then fall Napoleon.

MASHA: It's gonna be a glorious day.

[ALL SIGH]

[CLEARS THROAT]

[MASHA CHUCKLES]

Masha?

Uh, can I see you in private?

My concern is about how this psychedelic

might affect or react, you know,
with other medications.

I'm on a few psychotropics.

Um, I was afraid,

um, I might not be accepted here
if you knew.

- So I didn't...
- MASHA: Yes.

You're on psychotropics, we know this.

We did your blood work.

It's all right. You're fine.

- Nothing to worry about.
- [SIGHS] Okay.

Well, good. Thank you so much.

But I am gonna need
to tell you something, um...

so we can move forward to the next step.

I know...

I know why you came here.

- I'm sorry?
- It wasn't a coincidence.

You came to a retreat,
this retreat, because...

I had an affair with your husband.

- Oh my God, am I in trouble?
- No.

- I'm in trouble.
- No. Of course, you're not in trouble.

I mean, unless you're trying to k*ll me.

- What?
- MASHA: Are you?

Somebody is sending me nasty threats.

Somebody wants to scare me.

Really? Not... no, it's not me.
I... I came here to know you.

To see what he saw, to...

To see the...
the what and the... the why.

The why...

MASHA: Finish that.

Well, it's just that you... [CHUCKLES]

You were the catalyst for it all.

You... You...

opened his mind to the idea
that there were beautiful girls

out there to be had...

including the pretty
little bimbo he's with now.

Did you know we were in love, Masha?

Masha, he was crazy about me.

We were... we were in love.

So you came here to confront me?

I came to study you.

To... to study you,
in the hopes of... of...

of becoming you.

And then he... He might want me back.

- Oh.
- CARMEL: I'm sorry.

No. I should apologize to you.

I was a different person then, Carmel.

May I ask what was he to you?

You're not gonna like this answer

but he was nothing.

He was a placeholder.

I was consumed with work.

I... I had affairs with married men

who wouldn't get
attached and that was it.

I would never ever hurt you now.

So if you knew my story,
why did you accept me?

I want you to heal.

I want you to get all of this hatred
out of your heart.

I wanna say I'm sorry to you.

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

Yeah. Yeah. Come, come.

That's right.

Oh, lapochka.

You can trust me.

You're safe with me.

I would never hurt you.

You take the medicine.

- I trust you.
- Just trust me.

Okay.

[MASHA SIGHS]

[INSTRUMENT HUMMING]

YAO: Twist to the right...

Now towards the sun,
and you come down gently.

Just hip level.
Gently come up, keep breathing.

- Are you okay?
- Hmm. Wobbly.

We have that in common.

Masha, why are you pushing
this protocol so fast?

- Because the time is now.
- Is it now or never?

What are we, out of money?

We're not out of money.

Well, I-I know that this lawsuit

was a big... pretty big drain.

We're not out of money.

DELILAH: [SIGHS]
I saw you last night, eating sugar.

The cake?

- That was you?
- Mm.

It was actually kind of sweet.

You actually...

[CHUCKLES] You actually seemed
kind of mortal.

Like the rest of us.

Giving in to temptation.

I was trying to connect
with the little girl within me.

- DELILAH: Did you?
- Not yet.

[INSTRUMENT HUMMING]

Tony.

[ECHOING]: Tony.

Your buddy.

[INSTRUMENT HUMMING]

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

[RETCHES, VOMITS]

- Oh, Leon.
- ZOE: Dad?

Oh. Uh, it just, uh,
erupted out of me, huh?

It's normal, it's...
That's a great thing.

- That's not normal.
- [CLAPPING HANDS] Wow. Okay.

Mount St. Napoleon onwards.

You sure you're okay?

NAPOLEON: Oh, perfect. Better than ever.

Wow. Uh, maybe a little water. Yeah.

[FRANCES CHUCKLES]

You're a pretty little thing.

- [INSECT BUZZING]
- [GASPS]

Hey. What are you doing?

Gallivanting off like that
without your buddy?

Sorry.

- How's your head?
- I don't know.

It's kind of...
It feels like a puffy cloud...

- Mm-hm.
- ...little bit, you know,

like a cumulus cloud,
pretty with a chance of rain.

[FRANCES CHUCKLES]

Anyway, you shouldn't
really go off like that

and stuff, you know.

FRANCES: Oh, right.
Because of the buddy system.

- Yeah.
- We're buddies.

[LOVE ON THE BRAIN BY RIHANNA PLAYING]

Right? You and me?

Yeah.

♪ What you want from me ♪

Oh, my God, he's going in.

- What?
- What?

- What'd you say?
- I didn't say anything.

You did, you just said,
"Oh my God. He's going in."

- Did I say that out loud?
- Yeah.

[STAMMERING] I thought it.

I didn't think I said it out loud.

These... oh, these mushrooms
are like a doozy...

What does that even mean though?

"Oh my God. He's going in."
What does that mean?

You had a...

A look on your face
like you were gonna kiss me.

So...

Were you thinking that?

Yeah, I mean, I was thinking it.

And?

I remembered that
everything I ever touch

I hurt.

Especially the people I love.

I don't wanna do that to you, Frances.

I don't wanna hurt you.

Is that why you didn't kiss me?

That and it would involve leaning

and I don't think
I could do that right now.

I'm pretty dizzy.
I'm afraid I'm gonna fall.

I'll catch you.

God, I've written this scene

like a million times,
I'm sure Paul would say like

it's a very gimmicky scene, but...

Can w just forget
about Paul for a second?

Yup.

Okay.
Full disclosure, I'm a terrible kisser.

So when it is awful...

Just lay it on me.

I'm not gonna make the first move.

I'm gonna make the move.

- Are you?
- Yeah. Here it comes.

It's kind of funny
you're this big football,

you know, guy.

I mean, he... like cute...

♪ Must be love on the brain ♪

♪ That's got me feeling this way ♪

♪ Feeling this way ♪

♪ It beats me black and blue ♪

♪ But it fucks me so good ♪

♪ And I can't get enough ♪

♪ Must be love on the brain yeah ♪

♪ And it keeps cursing my name ♪

♪ Cursing my name ♪

♪ No matter what I do ♪

You weren't kidding. That was terrible.

- Thanks.
- [BOTH CHUCKLE]

If that was terrible,
I can't even imagine

- what the good one is like.
- Oh my God, I'm going in.

- [MOANS]
- [FRANCES GRUNTS]

[LAUGHS] What are you doing?

You said you were gonna catch me.

I can't catch you,
I have no upper body strength.

[LAUGHTER]

How you doing? You feeling okay?

I feel nothing. I can't feel my legs.

[LAUGHTER]

Help. [SQUEAKS]

[LEATHER AND LACE BY STEVIE NICKS
AND DON HENLEY PLAYING]

[SIGHS DEEPLY]

HEATHER: Sweetheart.

You okay?

Yeah, I barely feel anything.

Well, it hits people at different times.

I'm absolutely bonkers.

It's just really
just a matter of perspective.

It's, you know, trick of the mind

because everything
you think you are is a story

you tell yourself about yourself, right?

- The vomit was real.
- NAPOLEON: Yeah, it was.

I'm gonna go for a walk.

HEATHER: No, I think
we should stick together.

I got high once at a
Fleetwood Mac concert

and... and I went wandering
and I got lost for hours.

I'm gonna be okay.

♪ That you won't be
walkin' out the door ♪

♪ Still I carry this feelin' ♪

- ♪ When you walked... ♪
- Zoe.

NAPOLEON: Oh, boy. Look at that.

Oh, wow.

♪ Lovers forever ♪

♪ Face-to-face ♪

♪ My city, your mountains ♪

- ♪ Stay with me, stay ♪
- [HEATHER LAUGHS]

♪ I need you to love me ♪

♪ I need you today ♪

♪ Give to me your leather ♪

♪ Take from me my lace ♪

♪ You in the moonlight ♪

♪ With your sleepy eyes ♪

♪ Could you ever love a man like me? ♪

TONY: Can I ask you something?

Yeah.

Do you ever think about not going on?

What do you mean?

What do you mean, what I mean?

What I said, do you ever think
about not going on?

Jesus, that's, um, a bit of a buzzkill.

I've thought about it a lot, of late.

Before I came here.

Just everything, you know, uh...

my career ending, my marriage...

my girls.

It's kind of felt like the...
The bottom-bottom.

And Lars said that thing about
her picking us.

And Masha made that comment
about desperate people that...

I mean, Frances, she picked nine people

who needed to be in a place

where they would try
anything she wanted.

I mean, every one of us
drank the Kool-Aid this morning.

Every one of us.

Except this morning,
I didn't drink out of despair.

I drank out of hope.

Because of what she's already given me.

Because of what you've given me,
Frances.

When I woke up this morning,

this morning,
you know what I thought about?

Painting my house.

Maybe getting a dog.

Definitely taking you out to dinner.

That was, um...

If I ever do write romance again,

I'm gonna steal that.

So you're basically stalking her?

Well, in a way.
I don't know, studying her.

I mean, I just...
I came with a lot of hate.

Like she was the reason
that I lost my family

or at least the precipitating
factor which...

you know, it probably isn't true.

I mean, in many ways, it's actually...

- just the opposite.
- What do you mean?

CARMEL: I just feel like in many ways

she's given us family.

You know, you saw the way
we all were last night, dinner.

We danced. [LAUGHS]

[INHALES DEEPLY]

Listen. Um...

full disclosure
'cause you're my buddy, right?

Right.

I just... I... I'm just...

I'm a little freaked out that
Frances hallucinated her ex.

'Cause should that happen to me,
I mean, that... that...

I think that wouldn't be pretty.
I att*cked my ex with a fork.

What if suddenly, I mean, I don't know,

you should look like him to me?

I... I don't think that would happen.

No?

Okay.

But what about you? I mean...

you just broke up with, uh,
your partner, right?

I mean, do you ever get
any visions of him,

this Ray guy?

No.

Wow, you are...

lucky, I guess.

Maybe.

Maybe not.

[EXCLAIMS] I knocked your camera over.

That's all right, we're done.

How do I look? Look at the tape.

- LARS: Beautiful.
- Yeah?

[LARS LAUGHS]

- Let me see.
- Like a young Gloria Gaynor.

- Oh! [CHUCKLES] Oh, gee.
- You like that?

Yeah.

[ENFANT PLAYING]

We're good. We're good.

You look cute.

[CHUCKLES]

Ew, what is...

What is that?

[HORROR MUSIC PLAYS]

[GRUNTS]

[GASPS]

Oh my God.

What? Wha...? Why?

Oh my God! [SHUDDERING]

[SCREAMING]

BEN: What? What? What?

- What? What? Jessica...
- [SCREAMS]

- My nose! My nose is gone!
- What is wrong? What? Look!

My nose! [BREATHES HEAVILY]

- Your nose is literally...
- Look at me!

- I'm looking at you don't...
- Look at me!

g*dd*mn it. Your nose
is on your face, okay? Shh...

- My nose. My nose.
- Look, look in the mirror.

You see that? You see your nose? Relax.

You're gonna pass out.
Your nose is on your face.

You see that? You see it?

It's here. It's on your face.

- It's okay.
- Of course, it was.

- Nobody's just gonna steal your nose.
- It's on my face.

And it's back, okay?

If somebody took it, it'd still be gone.

But it's here, right?

- Now breathe.
- Do you have it?

It's on your face.
You have it. We have it.

- We good?
- Mm-hmm. We're good. Okay.

Okay.

MASHA: Hey. Is something wrong?

- I heard screams.
- Oh, perfect.

Hey, did you give us mushrooms?

You was only supposed to give us E.

Yes, you specifically asked for it.

Well, not to make my nose
fall off of my face.

You have your nose.

You're fine, look.

- BEN: Told you that.
- You're fine.

[LAUGHTER]

I told her it was still on her face.

Hey, where she come from?

I don't know.

[BREATHING HEAVILY]

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

Hey.

Hey!

- ZACH: What are you doing?
- [GASPS]

What am I doing?

Yeah. Spinning around like that.

What are you doing?

I thought I saw something.

HEATHER: What?

I'm not really sure.

What do you think you saw?

I don't know.

What? What's going on? Huh?

- HEATHER: Did you see Zach?
- What?

Oh, my God. Did you? Honey?

Did you see him? Here?

You saw him here, right?
Yeah? Zach, Zach.

Zachary, Zachary, Zachary.

Zach. Zach.

Zachary?

I see him! I see him! He's right there.

- ZOE: Where?
- I see...

He's right...

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

I did. He's back.

I saw him.

I saw him. I did. I saw him.

Oh, Zach, Zach?

Hey, Mom. What is with the shrooms?

I guess the zero tolerance policy
is out the window or...

I mean, you should've told me,
I might've stuck around.

[LAUGHS]

I missed you so much.

Oh, my God. Oh, I...

Look at your face.

Oh, come here.

Oh!

Look at you.

- Honey?
- ZOE: Shh.

- What?
- I think she's with him.

HEATHER: My boy. Oh, hello, my boy.

Oh.

I wanna believe this is real.

Oh, please, let this be real.

I know.

[WHISPERS] I love you.

But I want you to tell me why.

You know why, Mom.

Oh, no, I don't. How could I?

How could you?

It's kind of your job, don't you think?

My job?

I don't know what you mean.

Your asthma?

You hung yourself.

The medication.

No, I... honey, I'm not following.

I don't understand.

ZACH: It was all listed.

The side effects, you read the pamphlet.

Side effects: Blurry vision,
shortness of breath,

blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,
nausea, blah, blah, blah, blah.

Suicidal ideation.

Ding, ding, ding, winner.

What do you mean suicidal ideation?

ZACH: Mom, come on.

You underlined it.

Right there.

Oh. I didn't... [STAMMERS]

What are you talking about?

I... No. I didn't...

Oh, no! No, I... No, I didn't know! No!

No! No, no! No! No!

- Mom?
- [SCREAMS] No! No! No!

- Mom.
- HEATHER: No, no!

NAPOLEON: Honey, Heather calm down.

[SCREAMING]

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

[MUFFLED INDISTINCT CHATTER]

DELILAH: Okay.

[INAUDIBLE]

DELILAH: You wanna get up?
Come on, let's get you up.

Let's get you up. Come on.

- Dad?
- NAPOLEON: Yeah?

It's gonna be okay. She's gonna be okay.

Oh, yeah.
It's gonna be fine, sweetheart.

YAO: Heather?
If you can follow the light

with your eyes.

All right, let's...

Where... Where has he gone?

- MASHA: It's okay.
- Where is my son?

- Where's my...
- It's okay.

Honey...

Where's my...

- MASHA: It's okay. It's okay.
- [HEATHER CRIES] No.

[CRIES]

No.

Oh, no. [SOBBING CONTINUES]

- [SCREAMS]
- It's all right. It's okay.

It's okay.

[HEATHER WAILING]

YAO: It's gonna be okay.
Just a pinch, okay? Okay.

- It's all right.
- Look at me.

Look at me.

Rest. It's all right.

It's all right, darling.

Darling, it's all right.

All right.

All right.

Napoleon, Zoe, come.

She, uh, had another panic att*ck,

but she has, uh, had a sedative
and she's resting.

YAO: She'll be out
for a couple of hours.

- NAPOLEON: Yeah? She's okay, though?
- She's gonna be fine.

Absolutely fine. Delilah,
can you go check on the others for me?

- Masha?
- Mm-hmm?

I think we're a little out
of our depths here.

Please D, please do this, yes,
thank you.

NAPOLEON: Hey.

She was seeing Zach.

- Yeah. Yeah, we all did.
- ZOE: Yeah.

You all saw him?

NAPOLEON: Yeah.

- Zoe, you...
- Yeah.

Saw stuff I really wish I hadn't.

- And you saw him as well?
- Yeah. He's a...

He was, kind of, flickering in and out,

all static-y.

Heather's the one who saw him the most,

it was like they were together
having a conversation.

What was the conversation about?

Um, we heard her say asthma

and then something about his medication.

Suicidal ideation.
She said suicidal ideation.

Zach had just started
a new asthma medication.

Perhaps that was
one of the side effects,

I don't know.
I... I never read the pamphlet,

but...

she would have.

Dad?

I am sorry for this.

But this needed to happen.

She had to have this memory come back.

It...

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

Oh. This feels so good.

I'm usually a beach guy.

It's Ray that loves the pool.

Oh. Is anybody else
still wearing their shoes?

[LAUGHTER]

I still have my shoes on.

- TONY: She said no water.
- FRANCES: No, no, no.

- The water is so nice, you'll love it.
- JESSICA: It's fine.

No. This is dangerous.
She said no water.

She was very specific.

It feels overwhelming, dangerous.

[PANTS]

Oh, f*ck.

No, it's... it's amazing in here.

You'll love... you love the water.

I can't get out of this throne.

Where's Zoe? She'd love this.

- f*ck.
- Hey, come on in.

Come on in, it's so nice.

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

TONY: Okay.

[GROANS]

Oh, yeah.

Oh, yeah. Oh, you're right.

It feels amazing.

See?

[MOANS IN CONTENTEDNESS]

Water.

Who knew?

Okay. Everybody, out of the pool.

f*ck! I told you!

DELILAH: It's okay.

Are you all staying hydrated?

- Yes.
- DELILAH: No, no, no.

Not... Not that water, Ben.

That's filled with magnesium,
potassium, and Himalayan salt.

LARS: We're all together.
The Marconis should be here.

- Oh yeah.
- LARS: Yeah, right?

Yes. We must summon them.

Can you summon them for us, please?

Not just now. Heather's, um,

Heather's having a rest.

LARS: What sort of rest?

Okay. Please, let's get you all up
to your rooms, okay?

- That's right.
- Is... Is Heather okay, first?

She's fine. She's with Yao and Masha.

Okay.

Everybody out.

- LARS: Hey.
- [GASPS]

I'm sorry, just don't... don't...

Don't touch me, I just...
I don't like that.

LARS: It's okay, Carmel.

Come on.

Let me take you to your room.

Come on. It's okay.

Everybody out!

- [BIRDS CHIRPING]
- [BREATHING HEAVILY]

ZACH: Hey!

What did you say to Mom?

Have you ever known me to lie?

Just answer my question, shithead.

What did you say to her?

I can only tell people
what they already know.

Like, I can tell you,

you hurt, that you'll be okay.

[OMINOUS MUSIC PLAYING]

Zach?

[OMINOUS MUSIC PLAYING]

MASHA: She's awake now.

You can talk to her.

Frankly, I don't really know
what I would say.

[CHUCKLES]

You know...

couples rarely survive these things.

These kind of tragedies.

People's lives go on, but...

not together.

I've read everything there is
to read on the matter.

The little bud of malignancy...

is blame.

When a child dies...

and there's blame to be had...

That's why I thought when, uh...

When I thought it was me...

- Hmm.
- When I'd overslept

and I thought maybe
I could've made a difference.

I was so afraid...

that Heather would
blame me and leave me.

And I was convinced of it
because if the shoe

were on the other foot,
I'd probably leave her.

Who wouldn't?

Well, you know what,
now the shoe's on the other foot.

She scours the label
of every food product

before she puts a morsel in her mouth.

God forbid she come in contact
with a bit of sugar or gluten.

Either she read about the side effects

in that pamphlet or she didn't.

But either way...

Hmm.

I'm a pretty forgiving man. I've...

I've had to learn to be, but, uh...

Yeah. I don't think I can forgive that.

She's the love of your life.

It doesn't matter.

It's not enough.

What do you want, Napoleon?

What do you want...

most?

[SIGHS]

I just want my son back.

Suppose I can arrange that.

I'm not saying I can bring him
back for real,

but I am saying
that reality is a perspective.

- "Reality is a perspective."
- MASHA: Mmm.

What does that even mean?

I k*lled my son.

Oh, Heather. Heather...

I k*lled him.

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

And I am talking

about bringing him back for you.

As a f*cking hallucination.

Psychedelics can be used
to achieve an alternate reality.

The science is here.

And in that alternate reality,
Zachary can exist

because what happened today
was incredible.

All three of you saw Zachary.

It's called shared psychosis
hallucination.

It's... It's very rare.
It's very powerful.

There's usually a dominant player,

a primary inducer.

And there was, it was Zoe.

I don't know what you're saying.

If you let me guide you, help you...

you can see Zachary

and you can interact with him,
talk to him, you can.

Via psychedelics?

- MASHA: Yes.
- Right. Yeah.

I'm sorry.
That just sounds like madness.

But it's not madness.

It's dangerous if it's not
managed correctly,

but it is not madness.

This is why we're here.

This is why you chose us.

Because I wanna help you.

I don't want you to have this pain.

Think of all the people that are living

with this unbearable grief and pain.

Think of it.

If this works...

imagine what we can offer them.

Because what we can do
is we can offer them

the chance to relieve past trauma.

We can offer them the chance
to come to terms with it,

to share those terms...

with the object of their grief.

Like Zachary for you.

Mm-mm. No. I go back to madness.

Heather.

I know pain.

I know it.

And I also know healing.

Put yourself in my hands
and under my care, my control.

I will try to give you your son back.

[EXHALES SHARPLY]

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING]

CARMEL: Well... you found my spot.

Guess that makes two of us
that had a wildly original idea.

CARMEL: Yeah. [LAUGHS]

[SIGHS] Wow.

A crazy day, huh?

Definitely strange.

CARMEL: Yeah.

How you doing?

Oh, you know.

I actually do.

I think... I think we're a little alike.

Yeah.

Like when you had your vision
of your... your mini-man.

Like Masha said,

the heart hurts, but our heads,

you know, getting...

played for fools.

It... It... It's not so much

that... that they stopped feeling...

for us or... or that
they never felt that much

to begin with.

It is how they made us feel...

about ourselves.

Have you noticed that...

the other people are starting
to feel better,

you know, in their own way.

I mean, I think I'm even
somewhat improving,

although incrementally.

[OMINOUS MUSIC PLAYING]

I just... I just worry that

it seems like you may be getting worse.

DELILAH: She is gonna try again
with the Marconis.

YAO: How do you know?

I overheard them talking about it.

Heather just had
a fully psychotic episode.

They... They are in no position
to make that kind of decision.

Set aside the legal exposure,
you saw what happened last time.

It won't work.

It might. It almost did last time.

But it didn't.

The Connollys are still stalking Masha.

They're still threatening her.

We don't know that it's them.

Then who is threatening her?

It is a huge risk.

It's the risk that we take.

Look, I believe in what
we're building here.

And you did once too, all right?

The protocol got you well,

it'll be the same for the Marconis.

This is not mindfulness or yoga or...

Or even microdosing.

I don't care.

I don't want to be complicit in this.

And I don't want you
to be complicit in this.

We need to get out of here.

♪ Round like a circle in a spiral ♪

♪ Like a wheel within a wheel ♪

♪ Never ending or beginning ♪

♪ On an ever spinning reel ♪

[HEAVY BREATHING]

♪ Like a snowball down a mountain ♪

♪ Or a carnival balloon ♪

♪ Like a carousel that's turning ♪

♪ Running rings round the moon ♪

♪ Like a clock whose
hands are sweeping ♪

♪ Past the minutes of its face ♪

♪ And the world Is like an apple ♪

♪ Whirling silently in space ♪

♪ Like the circles that you find ♪

♪ In the windmills of your... ♪

[PANTING]

♪ Mind ♪

♪ Like a tunnel that you follow ♪

♪ To a tunnel of its own ♪

♪ Down a hollow to a cavern ♪

♪ Where the sun has never shone ♪

♪ Like a door that keeps revolving ♪

♪ In a half-forgotten dream ♪

♪ Or the ripples from a pebble ♪

♪ Someone tosses in a stream ♪

♪ Like a clock whose
hands are sweeping ♪

♪ Past the minutes of its face ♪

♪ And the world Is like an apple ♪

♪ Whirling silently in space ♪

♪ Like the circles that you find ♪

♪ In the windmills of your mind ♪

♪ Keys that jingle in your pocket ♪

♪ Words that jangle in your head ♪

♪ Why did summer go so quickly ♪

♪ Was it something that you said ♪

♪ Lovers walk along the shore ♪

♪ And leave their
footprints in the sand ♪