03x04 - The Same as Air

[bunniefuu]

[ELEVATOR MUSIC PLAYING,
FLOOR INDICATOR BEEPING]

MAISY: Excuse me, Doctor.

Do you know where I can find
Elliot Dixon?

- He's my grandson.
- I love Elliot.

We're all so proud...
first doctor in the family.

- Ariel!
- Hey.

It's great to see you.
This is Elliot's grandmother.

- Could you help her find Elliot, please?
- Sure.

- Are you...
- Caitlyn Quick?

I get that a lot.

It must be the glasses.

That is totally Caitlyn Quick.

, a steel beam failed...

me and my nephew were framing
a townhouse in the marina.

Two holes in my stomach...
That's real pain.

Torn ACL... It's my only
-out-of- injury.

- I was a dancer...
- She was a dancer,

and she was onstage on pointe...

took out the white swan.

You spend enough time with someone,

you hear every story... twice.

Yeah, well, my story this time is

"I got my hand caught in a rivet g*n."

Take this to the pharmacy down the hall.

It's Oxycodone,

but I bet you only need ,
big, tough guy like you.

Thanks, Doc.

- Dr. Dixon?
- Yeah?

You're Dr. Elliot Dixon,
born November th, ?

I am.

Well, then, son, [INHALES]

You've been served.

You all have a nice day.

Wait, she's not your grandma?

What happened?

Elliot just became a man.

LEANNE: Listen up, everybody...

We're gonna have multiple
victims coming in...

road rage, hit-and-run on the freeway.

Medevac's on the scene.

Dr. Leighton.

I will alert the O.R.

[UPBEAT MUSIC PLAYS]

Hey, kids! Come with me!

[INDISTINCT RADIO CHATTER]

[SIRENS WAILING]

- You okay?
- My husband... Is he alive?

Come to me.

Strong pulses. What's his name?

- Richard.
- Richard, can you look at me?

There was a motorcycle...
He was chasing us.

- He cut us off.
- Okay, you relax.

[SIRENS WAILING]

- Help! She's not breathing!
- My girls!

- Put her down!
- Put her down!

WILLIS: Give me a C-collar.

Scalp lac looks worse than it is.

Stridorous, agonal breathing.

Intubate her.

Paramedics can't intubate
children... county policy.

Stupid policy.

You got a ped kit?

I'll do it.

Get her on the rig.

[HELICOPTER BLADES WHIRRING]

FIREFIGHTER: Need a medic...
He's still alive in here!

- You good?
- Yeah.

♪

Hold me steady! I have to intubate.

W-What's wrong with her?

She's choking on something,
and I can't see what it is.

- O-Oh, God. [GASPS]
- Okay.

Keep talking to her.
She needs to hear your voice.

Jolene... Jolene, I'm right here
with you. You're gonna be okay.

NANCY: Danica! Danica!

Stay with your sister!

Danica!

Can't reach it.

She's stopped moving!

What's wrong with her?

[VOICE BREAKING] Jolene!

Jolene! Jolene! [SOBS]

[SAW WHIRRING]

FIREFIGHTER: The car's on fire!
Pull her up!

Get her out of there!

Stop pulling!

No, no! No!

[SOBBING]

♪

Get me a -gauge angiocath
and a cc syringe now!

Breathe, Jolene!

What are you doing?

Your sister's got an obstruction
in her airway.

I have to get below it to get
some oxygen into her lungs.

FIREFIGHTER: Hurry up down there!

All right.

[SOBS]

I need you to be strong
for your sister, okay?

All right? She needs a warrior right now.

Jolene...

Can you be a warrior?

Yes! Yes, I'm a warrior.

- You're a warrior.
- Yes.

FIREFIGHTER: Get her out of there!
This is out of control.

Stop pulling! I almost got it.

Strong breath sounds.

Let's get her to Angel's.

Okay, he's intubated!

Okay! Get in! Get in!

ROX: The driver of the other car
is hanging in there.

- How is she?
- Stable, but her airway's still blocked.

- Jolene! Jolene!
- Hey!

Listen, we don't have any room!
I'm sorry.

But I don't want her to be alone!

She's not gonna be alone.
I'm gonna be with her.

Is he gonna die?

Look at me. What's your name?

- Danica.
- Danica, I'm Ethan.

I'm gonna take her back
to Angel's Memorial.

You get a ride with them.
I'll find you there.

♪

Noa. [SIGHS] I was trying to
get away from you.

[TOILET FLUSHES]

Yeah. Don't care.

[DOOR OPENS, CLOSES]

"Dr. Elliot Dixon,

who portrays himself
to be a capable doctor

in the eyes of society,

contributed to the death of
L.A.P.D. officer Javier Gomez

[SIGHS] with his negligence ""

We all know you did everything you could.

You know you did, too.

- [PAPER RUSTLES]
- It makes me sound like a fraud.

You're not a fraud.

♪

Cliff! Hey. Hey! Cliff!

JESSE: Okay, come on, little girl.

- I still can't see the obstruction.
- Come on!

Okay, he's got significant
facial instability.

- How'd you get him intubated like this?
- Talk to Rox.

RISA: Blood pressure down to / .

One, two, three.

- Found his phone.
- Okay, find his emergency contacts

and get his next of kin in here now.

[SIRENS WAILING]

- Jolene?
- My daughter, Jolene... she's .

She's already here.

- Are you having trouble breathing?
- Yes.

Where's Jolene? Is she okay?

She was hurt! She wasn't breathing!

- Nancy!
- Where's Jolene?!

We already told you... She's here.

- Did you catch him?
- Richard, you know where you are?

He was on a motorcycle!
Did you catch him?!

Repetitive questioning.

Complete neuro exam.

Incoming!

Ultrasound, please... head CT next.

LEANNE: Chest X-ray, possible pneumo.

Jolene? Jolene!

- Jolene, are you alive?!
- JESSE: Hey, hey, it's okay.

Is she okay? J-Jolene!

I see the obstruction...
it's on her vocal cords.

- What's your name?
- Danica.

- I need you to stay back here.
- Please, I-I-I don't...

No, no, no, no, no. I don't...

Listen, you can stay behind
this orange line.

You'll be okay here. You can
watch right here with me, okay?

MARIO: Follow my finger
with your eyes. That's it.

That maniac must have been doing .

- He swerved right into us!
- Settle down.

GUTHRIE: We got positive FAST.
Page Dr. Campbell.

Is that him?! Was he on the motorcycle?!

That's not him! He was in
the other car! Stop!

- Richard, calm down. I can't breathe.
- LEANNE: Quiet.

MARIO: Get him out of here and
up to radiology for a head CT.

- Come on.
- Okay, we've got a small pneumo...

no blood, only air.
Heimlich valve, please.

- NOA: Watch your backs... coming in.
- What do you got?

Found him overdosing in the men's room.
We need Narcan.

-year-old, came in with a hand
injury, just discharged him.

- What's he on?
- Oxy.

He's an addict,
and you gave him Oxycontin?

He seem like an addict to you?

His hand was busted.
How could he fake that?

Hey, I asked you a question, doctors.

His pain was " -out-of- ""
And you believed him?

I signed off on the prescription.

Did you do a full history?
Did you check to see

if he was already in the system?

Hard to get an accurate history
if he's lying.

His hand was fractured in three places.

We had to reset it.

People will go to
whatever lengths they need to

to get a fix,
including hurting themselves.

You got to be smarter than them.

Do your homework.

[GASPS]

Oh, thank God.

[GASPS]

Okay.

Let's get her to Sides.

No! No. I want to stay
with my daughter, please.

The doctors are taking care of her, okay?

And we need this space for
someone else's daughter or son.

DANICA: I'll stay with her, Mom.

NANCY: Danica. Watch your sister.

I'll stay with her.

I can't pull out the obstruction.

So we got to push it out from behind.

Inflate it.

Got it.

Good job.

That's what I'm talking about.

Okay.

Come give your sister a hug.

- [LAUGHS]
- Okay, easy.

Easy.

♪

- What was that?
- What was what?

- You covering for Dr. Kean.
- [SCOFFS]

You were being a little harsh on them.

Are you actually defending
your girlfriend right now?

- Because if you are...
- No. Come on.

I've seen over , patients.

I think I've earned the right to...

Not yet you haven't.

You're a third-year resident,

which makes you Dr. Kean's superior,

and I am director
of the residency program,

which makes me your superior.

Act accordingly.

Thanks for getting me in here

and for being so chill about it.

Yeah, well, if you had gone
to West Harbor,

the valets would've tipped off
the paparazzi

before they even parked your car.

I-I could've just come to you.

It looks busy out there.

It's always like that.

[SIGHS] Why'd you finally call me?

Oh, my God. I've been puking for days.

This isn't food poisoning... it's worse.

I checked WebMD,

and they said it could be
appendicitis or cancer.

- I just wanted to be sure.
- Of course.

Also, my social media guy says
to check for babesiosis,

which sounds like some cheesy line,

but it's actually something
I could've picked up

on my East Coast tour.

Well, I will get
a full set of labs started,

including blood and fungal cultures.

I'm gonna get an ultrasound
of your abdomen, make sure...

Also, I need an MRI and a CAT scan.

That's not too much radiation, right?

No, it's safe. I'll get GI
to do an endoscopy, as well.

Oh, God. That's the one
that goes up the...

- No. Goes down.
- [SIGHS]

You're a VIP, and we're gonna
take the best care of you.

[VOMITS, COUGHS]

You should probably get this tested, too.

- Yeah.
- [EXHALES SHARPLY]

Okay.

- CAMPBELL: Keep up.
- ANGUS: My legs are shorter than yours.

Then move them faster.

And name the vascular structures
of the kidney.

Renal artery, renal interlobular artery,

arcuate artery... um...

- Nope.
- I was thinking.

Should be second nature
for an O.R. resident...

like walking, talking, like breathing.

- [SNAPS FINGERS]
- Segmental arteries!

- Stay here.
- Mm. [EXHALES SHARPLY]

Hi, Will.

I need to talk to you.

- Is there somewhere we...
- Nope.

Why are you here?

Because I knew this was the one place

you wouldn't make a scene.

I won't be the one making the scene.

Security will.

- I want to see Emily.
- It's not gonna happen.

She's my daughter, too.

God, it's been years.

When are you gonna stop punishing me?

You left.

I made a terrible mistake. I know.

That's right.

And you get to just jump
right back into her life,

like nothing happened?

- Will...
- Dr. Leighton, let's go.

[INDISTINCT CHATTER, MONITORS BEEPING]

WILLIS: You were involved in an
accident with a mini-van?

That was no accident... The son of a
bitch tried to run me off the road.

They're saying the same thing about you.

- [GROANS]
- Let's get him to triage.

BP's / , sats in the s,

upper left leg pain, possible fracture.

Guy swerved, and he ran me
into the center divider.

I sped off. I was afraid, okay?

And then my leg started singing,
so I called for help.

- Oh, my God.
- RICHARD: It was you!

You're the guy who cut us off!

- You almost k*lled my family!
- WILLIS: Hey, hey, hey! Whoa, whoa!

- Hey, hey, hey, hey!
- RICHARD: Hey!

You're going to jail, man!

[GRUNTING]

- [GROANS]
- [SCREAMS]

You could have k*lled me!

[GROANING]

God, my leg!

Ahh! You broke my leg!

- Hang on, cowboy.
- [GROANS]

My kids were in the car!

Please, Richard. Calm down.

Don't tell me to calm down!

You saw him! He was in my lane
and everybody else's!

Would you please stay still?

[GROANS]

Those are $ leathers!

WILLIS: Oh, boy.

I need a tourniquet! Hold him down!

[SCREAMS]

How you doing over there?
What do you got?

Compound fracture... The femur maybe
punctured the femoral artery.

Need an ultrasound.

The best $ you ever spent...
Those pants saved your life.

If they weren't as tight, you would
have bled out before you got here.

- Let him bleed!
- Richard!

Don't tell me to calm down.

Mama, can you come over here
for a minute?

I need you to take Mr. Fields up
for another CT.

You got it, Daddy.

You ready to take a ride?

Let's go.

Uh, excuse me, uh, Doctor...?

- Leighton.
- I'm Felicia, Will's ex-wife.

Yeah. Should I go get him for you?

Because it went so well earlier?

Look, I'm... I'm sure you've heard
some horrible things about me.

That's not his style.

Would you please give him this?

It's a wedding invitation.

I'm getting remarried,

and I want my daughter to be there.

I really think you should
give it to him yourself.

I tried that. Come on.

You work for him... you understand.

Yeah, he can be tough.

Yeah, I could never live up
to his standards.

Nothing I did was good enough.

He's this amazing father, amazing doctor,

man of steel.

I hate myself for how weak
I was for leaving,

but it was like I wasn't
allowed to have feelings

about Emily being sick.

I-I'm sorry. I really
shouldn't get involved.

Do you enjoy working for him?

Of course you don't.

When he's coming down on you,

making you feel like
everything you do is wrong,

don't you ever just want to walk away?

Sure.

But we don't have a daughter together.

[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

Hey.

- Hey.
- There you are.

Where else would I be?

Oh, I wasn't talking to you.

I was talking to [INHALES]

This Time magazine from .

It's a classic.

Um, how are you feeling?

Why?

It's just, um...

Are you sick?

- Are you a doctor?
- No.

- Nurse?
- Dude.

Are you wearing a training bra?

No. Right... Is that none of my business?

I saw you at the chemo room.

Stalker.

Forgot your magazine.

Melanie, these are the two surgeons

- that will be operating on your husband.
- Dr. Campbell.

[VOICE BREAKING] I need to see him.

Your husband sustained
multiple facial lacerations

in a car accident.

[GASPS, WHIMPERS]

We need to get him to surgery.

I'm here, Grouchy.

He has internal bleeding.

We have to find the source and stop it.

Go away.

That's the last thing I said to him

before he got in his car and left.

How awful is that?

I've heard worse.

We need to get him to surgery now.

[STRETCHER CLICKS]

I love you.

[VOICE BREAKING] Love you.

[BREATHES UNEVENLY]

Would you like some water or something?

Yeah.

You okay?

Can I get a wheelchair? Come on.

Okay. Settle down. We got you.

ROX: The suburban dad didn't go Mad Max.

And everybody blames the motorcyclist.

You mean the donorcyclist.

Yes, 'cause they're all crazy.

Am I crazy?

Of course. You ride.

And I'm also a better driver

because I don't have four doors
and a roof to protect me

when things go south.

Huh. Korean for breakfast?

Hard pass.

Watch it, or you'll offend my emo.

- Who?
- Emo. It means "Auntie" in Korean.

But I know... we look more
like sisters, right?

[CHUCKLES]

Twins.

Uh, Dr. Willis, meet my aunt Jae Eun.

It's a pleasure.

- He's so handsome.
- [CHUCKLES]

Would you like some kimchi?

It's fermented cabbage.

Uh...

It tastes better than it sounds.

Could be worse... could be an MRE.

Well...

- That's delicious.
- [CHUCKLES]

Same as air.

Kimchi... It's the same as air.

You need it to live.

In some villages,
the punishment for a crime

is jail or no kimchi.

Everyone wonders which is worse.

- What is it?
- Mm.

I'm just thinking about something
the girl, Danica, said...

asking whether her stepdad was gonna die.

People ask us times a day
whether someone's gonna live.

Well, that's a different
question, isn't it?

I'm gonna take a rain check.

Could you put that in a box
or something for me?

I like him.

[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

You can look it over all you want, kid.

The words ain't gonna change.

You ever been sued?

I lost track after .

Yeah, something goes bad,
they always looking

for somebody to blame.

Don't worry about it.

Worst thing you can do
is let it distract you.

Hey.

Don't listen to him, bro.

This isn't just another lawsuit,
all right?

This is a dead hero cop and his
devastated telegenic widow.

You need a lawyer.

You have one?

My family's got a guy on retainer.

We did the right thing
with that cop, didn't we?

He refused the CT.

I don't know, maybe we didn't
make it clear enough

what the consequences could be.

We?

That's on you, bro.
I'm just a first-year.

Doctor, my arm is k*lling me.

Uh, let me guess... out of ?

Yeah.

I don't know how much you remember.

You smash your own hand to make
sure you get a prescription?

- It's a good hustle.
- Well, you do what you got to do.

When can I get out of here?

Not for a while.

You have something called
infective endocarditis.

It's common with addicts who use
dirty needles to sh**t up.

We need to wait for cultures to
come back to refine your treatment.

But in the meantime, maybe I can
refer you to a program.

Yeah, I'm not interested in that.

Just give me something for the pain.

- I can give you an NSAID.
- [LAUGHS]

As good as it gets for a junkie.

Dr. Savetti.

You think you got
all the answers, Doctor?

I know you better than you think.

I was clean, too, for a couple years.

I worked the program,

I got my life back, I started a business,

and then some teenager
on his phone rear-ends me,

and they give me pain meds in the E.R.

I didn't fill up the script
for three days,

but the pain was bad,

and this little voice in my head said,

"What the hell? After all this time"...

If you get fired or, hell,
you get a promotion

or your girl leaves you,

some kid talking on his phone
rear-ends you...

You may think you're better than me,

but you're one life event away
from being where I am.

[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

[SNIFFLES]

She's lucky to have you as a big sister.

She needs me.

And why is that?

LEANNE: Can you take a breath for me?

Why did you move my husband?

It was a safety issue.

That other man hit him first.

Your husband assaulted another patient.

Is everything okay with your stepfather?

Yeah.

You don't have to be scared.

NANCY: Excuse me.

Please don't talk to my daughter
without me present.

Danica, come here.

[SIGHS] Can you move us
to his room, please?

I... Jolene should be with her father,

- and I should be...
- He's not her father.

[SCOFFS] I'm not doing this

- with you again.
- He's not!

Okay, just because you married him

doesn't make him our father.

Look at her, Mom.

Look what he did,
and y-you don't even care!

Danica.

Thank you.

"Grouchy"?

That's a funny nickname.

We're a couple of malcontents.

He calls me Oscar, I call him Grouchy.

- Cute.
- It wasn't always.

We've been going to couples therapy.

What's that like?

Uh...

It's okay.

Um, it's hard work.

Therapist said whenever things
were gonna boil over,

one of us should go for a drive.

[INHALES SHARPLY]

[VOICE BREAKING] That's why
Todd was on the road.

You always think you're gonna
be able to say you're sorry.

[EXHALES SHARPLY]

Say what you feel when you feel it

while you can.

- He knows.
- He needs to wake up so I can tell him.

NANCY: Is her husband okay?

He's still in surgery.

Jolene's lungs sound good.

We should be able to extubate her soon.

One day, Danica was
my little princess, too.

And then suddenly, all she cared
about was Instagram and memes.

[CHUCKLES] The divorce was hard on her.

She's still having trouble
accepting our new family.

You understand.

I understand that teenagers
are a lot smarter

than we give them credit for.

What the hell is a meme, anyway?

If pop culture were
a communicable disease,

a meme is the common cold.

[LAUGHS] You have a teenager?

I do. She's .

I'm learning that teenagers
can shoulder a lot,

but they're still just kids,

and it's our job to let them enjoy that

for as long as possible.

I'm doing the best I can.

Does Danica know that?

WILLIS: You should be proud.

The only reason we saved your sister

is you got her out of the car.

When seconds were the difference
between life and death,

you stepped up.

I have a feeling you've been
doing that for quite some time.

It was Richard's fault.

He switched lanes without looking.

The guy on the motorcycle caught up to us

and started flipping us off.

Richard went crazy.

I mean, he has before,
but never like this.

He tried to run the guy off the road.

[VOICE BREAKING] I thought parents
were supposed to protect their kids.

They are.

Sometimes they're just not strong enough.

But you're strong.

You're stronger than you know.

You're a warrior.

Okay, so, I'm looking at your lab tests,

and it seems that
everything's all good...

to see you, Dr. Guthrie.

Glad you found time
to consult my patient.

Is that hot sauce?

CAITLYN: This man is a miracle worker.

I haven't felt this good in days.

Well, it turns out
that your friend here...

Oh, uh, he's not my friend.

I met him at a party in the Hills,

and he told me to call if
I ever needed a private doctor.

Did he, now?

Well, uh, Doctor,

turns out that your private patient here

is suffering from
cannabinoid hyperemesis.

The, uh, capsaicin in the
hot sauce is a natural remedy.

Y... Y-You didn't tell me you smoke weed.

Uh, marijuana's not a part of her brand.

Aww! You're a fan!

Are you kidding me?

I've been a fan of yours since
you were Caitlyn Kippinger.

Girl, anybody who can
do justice to Mavis Staples

is all right in my book.

- Oh, my God. I love you.
- Oh! [LAUGHS]

Seriously, I am in the market
for a private doctor,

so if you want the gig, it's yours.

Well, thank you, but, uh,
I'm gonna have to pass.

- Look, I'm... I'm always available.
- I'm good.

I'd be glad to help you find
somebody discreet...

and a little more qualified.

Excuse me.

Hey! I was gonna get approval
for the tests.

- I just needed...
- You know,

there's a sense of entitlement
about you, Dr. Avila.

But you should know
it's not gonna fly here.

Save the Yoda speech, all right?

Son, I can teach you how
to be a better doctor.

I'm good at that.

But I can't teach you respect.

So if you want the former,

you're gonna have to learn the latter.

[MONITOR BEEPING]

This is my first ex-lap incision.

Then you should focus.

He'll be under in about seconds.

Dr. Leighton, why were you
talking to my ex-wife?

S-S-She was talking to me.

I... was mainly just listening.

Well, don't.

Right... not my business.

Not your business.

She wanted me to give you
something... an invitation.

She's getting remarried.

But, yeah, I-I didn't take it

because it is totally not my business.

He's out.

But for what it's worth,
she seemed very...

Let's see a nice, clean
incision, Dr. Leighton.

Right.

Open the peritoneum.

Scissors.

I need suction.

Where is all this blood coming from?

- [ALARM BEEPING]
- Everywhere.

Let's hang another four units of blood.

Let's go, people.

No physical abuse, she says.

Not yet, but what happens

when one of those girls pisses him off

as much as that biker did?

Well, the emotional abuse is worse...

'cause they don't have
bruises to point to,

so they rationalize his behavior
and blame themselves.

What did the mother say?

RICHARD: Excuse me!

- "Everything's fine""
- Where's my family?

How do you help someone
who doesn't want to be helped?

Why do I feel like I'm being ignored?

Because you are.

We moved you after the altercation.

- Why?
- For everyone's safety.

Why don't you move the
other guy? He started it.

Because we moved you. Calm down.

I'll calm down when you call
the cops on that other idiot!

Hey!

Calm down.

I just want to see my wife.

I want to see my girls.

Yeah, well, that's not happening.

Okay. We'll let your family know
you're awake.

- I want them in here now!
- Don't make this personal.

- Y-You have no right
- I'm not.

To keep them from me!

- They're my family!
- I got this. You go on.

- Do you hear...
- [MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY]

Let's get him to Center Stage.

[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

What's this?

Cliff's chart from a year ago.

- I prescribed him the pain meds.
- You couldn't have known.

I don't need you covering for me.

Like you were covering for me
in Center Stage?

- This is different.
- How? I made the same mistake.

I should know better.

Why? Because you're a third-year?

Because I've been there, Noa.

- [MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY]
- I sent him down that spiral.

RISA: Doctors!
Your patient... He's crashing!

Bilateral breath sounds.

- No blood in the abdomen.
- NOA: Coming through!

We didn't get to the
endocarditis soon enough.

What's his status?

Normal O sats... He's hypotensive.

He's febrile. Temp's . .

He's septic.

What's your treatment algorithm?

Uh... Um, blood cultures,
antibiotics, and IV fluids.

What else, Dr. Kean?

Imaging to look for
vegetation on the valve.

- Bingo.
- Let's do it. Let's go.

- Pupils asymmetric.
- Epidural hematoma.

It's probably from the
motorcycle helmet to the head...

not that I blame the biker.

Fluids coming in.

He's posturing.

We need to relieve pressure.

- I got it.
- Burr hole kit!

I need a robe, please.

More fluids.

Oh, God.

Come on, Cliff. Come on, Cliff.

[MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY,
INDISTINCT CHATTER]

Sats are dropping... we got to drill.

What's taking so long with
that central line, Dr. Kean?

- I can't find a vein.
- I'll get the ultrasound.

No! No ultrasound. Do it with landmarks.

Around here, we learn how to
hike without the GPS first,

so find the trail with the anatomy.

His veins are all collapsed.
I can't find a thing.

Got to go, Leanne.

MARIO: He's in V-tach arrest!

Come on, Cliff.

[GRUNTING]

Go. I've got this.

Come on, Cliff!

Dr. Kean, get ready to defibrillate.

- Come on, come on.
- On my go.

[PADDLES WHINE]

Not today.

Clear.

Mario, she said "Clear."

Charge.

- [THUMP]
- [GROANS]

Weak pulse back.

All right. How 'bout that
central line, Dr. Kean?

I got nothing. I'm right next
to his sternocleidomastoid.

I still got nothing.

Elliot, hold the head
to the contralateral side

so she can see the anatomy better.

Go, Noa.

I'm in the vein. I got it.

[DRILL WHIRRING]

Let's call the O.R.
He's gonna need a crani.

Let's stabilize his ETT.

Excuse me. Um, my husband is in there.

Is he okay?

I can go ask a doctor, if you want.

- Please.
- Okay.

[SOBBING] No! No!

♪

[MELANIE WAILING]

I don't want to talk to you right now.

Let me do all the talking.

I like you, bro.

I think I might even respect you.

If I was in your position,
I'd be blaming me

for this whole L.A.P.D. lawsuit.

I mean, it's half my fault,
anyway, right?

Right.

[LIQUID POURS]

Look, I've been told I have
a raging sense of entitlement.

I can take the fall for this, man.

Look, my dad can send lawyers and money.

Truth is, I'm Teflon.

- I'm not a fraud.
- Dude, I'm not saying you are.

I was his doctor.
He is my responsibility.

- No.
- That's your final answer?

- [PACKET TEARS]
- I'm usually not this generous.

Well... could you give me
the name of a good attorney?

In my sleep, bro.

[LIQUID POURS]

Is this your idea of an apology?

I learned this too late in the game,

but now I'm teaching you.

See, we see death in the O.R.,
and we can't unsee it.

But we can fight it back,

b*at it out of us.

[BAG JOSTLES]

But you have to decide to fight
it, actually take the punch.

Huh? It's never a*t*matic.

I've seen death in the E.R.
I know how to deal with it.

- Ow! Ow!
- Oh! Oh, oh, oh.

Okay, hold the bag right here. Okay.

It's all in your legs, all right?

You got to step into it.

[GRUNTS] Right?

This is real.

You got to connect the mental
with the physical.

All the suffering that
we witness, it just...

it just creeps up on you.

And you may not think that
you're internalizing it,

but then one day...

it just all explodes.

[GRUNTING]

There's an exit door
down here, but don't worry...

nobody's gonna spot you.

- Thank you, Dr. Guthrie.
- [LAUGHS]

- Oh, great acoustics in here.
- Yeah.

You know, Mavis Staples once
recorded in a song in a stairwell.

Really? I didn't know that.

[CHUCKLES]

♪ You're not alone ♪

♪ I'm with you ♪

♪ I'm lonely, too ♪

♪ A broken home ♪

♪ A broken heart ♪

♪ Isolated and afraid ♪

♪ Open up, this is a raid ♪

♪ And I wanna get it through to you ♪

- ♪ You're not alone ♪
- Mom.

But he'll recover at home?

Mom, let's go. I want to leave.

Hey. What's the rush?

Warrior.

Could... could you wait outside?

No, I want everyone to hear this.

I don't want you to come home.

Not in a week, not ever.

You watch your tone, young lady.

Do you even know what happened
to that woman's husband?

Do you?

He's dead!

Y-You did that! Okay, you...

I-I never want you
in our house again, ever!

Your house?

You can't talk to your father
that way, you little bitch.

Who do you think you are?!

[CAITLYN HUMMING]

She's my daughter!

You k*lled someone today.

♪ A broken home ♪

[VOICE BREAKING] You're not coming home.

♪ A broken heart ♪

You're going to jail.

♪ Isolated and afraid ♪

- ♪ Open up, this is a raid ♪
- I got you. It's okay.

- ♪ And I wanna get it through to you ♪
- You are safe, okay?

It's okay.

♪ You're not alone ♪

Warrior.

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

♪ You're not alone ♪

Hey, come with me.

Why?

♪ I stand in your place ♪

Wait up!

♪ Ohhhh ♪

♪ Every tear, every tear ♪

♪ On every face ♪

It stopped at : .

hours ago, time ended for me.

It would feel better if it did. I know.

You have to carry on.

I got your bloodwork back.
I know why you collapsed.

You're pregnant.

I tested it twice to be sure.

You're six weeks along.

♪

[VOICE BREAKING] We tried
for so long, and it didn't...

So we thought...

He left you a part of himself...

[INHALES SHARPLY]

...to love and to cherish
as much as you did him.

It's... It's... It's hard. I know.

It's : .

Time started again.

♪ Every tear, every tear ♪

♪ On every face ♪

♪ Tastes the same ♪

When do we go upstairs?

Should have a bed within the hour.

There's something about addiction.

When it's about the people we care about,

we call it an illness.

When it's about someone we don't know,

we just look at them like criminals.

I'm supposed to know
it's always the former.

We... have a disease.

But...

it's a disease we can treat.

That's my five-year
Narcotic Anonymous chip.

I'm more proud of that than my MD.

I want you to have it.

There's something else you should know.

I was the one that prescribed
you those pain meds a year ago.

♪ A broken home ♪

I'm sorry.

♪ A broken heart ♪

I didn't have to take them.

♪ Isolated and afraid ♪

[INHALES SHARPLY]

♪ Open up, this is a raid ♪

♪ And I wanna get it through to you ♪

If this is our disease,

will you help me get better, Doctor?

♪ Ohhhhh, you're not alone ♪

I was just waiting for you to ask.

♪ Every night ♪

I know this place. It's, uh...

♪ I stand in your place ♪

Are you sure this is cool?

I know a guy.

You know a guy?

Yes, I know a guy.

Well, you're eating all the marshmallows.

The marshmallows are mine.

Oh, really? The sick guy

- doesn't get a marshmallow?
- No.

Look, I'm sorry about asking you
about your personal business.

And I'm sorry about
the training bra thing.

We shall never speak of that again.

Agreed.

Here. Have a marshmallow.

LEANNE: Ariel.

What are you two doing?

[CHUCKLES] Eating ice cream?

[BOTH LAUGH]

I am not amused.

Free pass.

Excuse me?

Free pass.

I have cancer.

♪ You're not alone ♪

Yeah. He has cancer.

♪ No, no, no, no, whoa ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

There's a secret stash of
strawberry on the bottom shelf.

♪ Ohhhhhhh ♪

[BOTH LAUGH]

♪ No, no, no, no ♪

Emo. I was born in...

- Yeah?
- Hey. We're making kimchi.

He's doing the cabbage. Here.

So you cut it lengthwise,
remove the stems,

- and you bag it, salt it.
- [PAPER RUSTLES]

[CLEARS THROAT] I know
how to make kimchi.

Well, then help him salt.

- What's this?
- That's kimchi sauce. It's spicy.

- Mmm. What's in it?
- You don't want to know.

- ♪ There's no need to be afraid ♪
- Uh-huh.

You don't have to pound the kimchi

like you're doing compressions.

Let him pound!

He can pound the way he wants to pound.

You do it your way,
let him do it his way.

Everything gets mixed together, anyway.

Don't worry.

Did you know that kimchi
is the same as air?

Shut up and salt.

♪ I wanna get it through to you ♪

[VOCALIZES]

♪ You're not alone ♪

♪ No, no, no ♪