04x18 - Time Will Tell

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Previously on felicity...

- I can't just move.
- You've decided?

I have been following you for
four years! It's your turn now.

Do you ever wonder what
would have happened if you and i...?

Never.

Bye, noel.

- What are you doing here?
- You were right.

It was my turn.

Dear sally. It's me, felicity.

I know it's been a while,
but something's happened

And I think that you're the
only one I can talk to about it

Because people I've
told think I'm insane.

You probably will, too.

First of all, I'm in my old
college room, which is so weird.

And if I told you how I got here, you
wouldn't believe it, so let me go back.

I'll start with the saddest
and most important thing.

Elena's funeral.

It was six months ago.

And she was in a car accident
up near columbia university.

The idea that one
of us was gone,

That you can lose
someone you love so much...

It changed everything.

I'm gonna miss her so much.

It feels like we
should do something.

Like what?

I don't know. It just feels like
everything could disappear.

Just like that.

Yeah.

That wasn't what I was feeling because
instead of holding on, I pulled away.

Actually, I think I became
pretty hard to live with.

I'm not sure if I ever told you that I
started studying pre-med in palo alto.

Ben was studying there too.
That's where all our trouble began.

- Hey, let's go do something.
- What?

I don't know. Let's go
outside. It's really nice out.

You go ahead. I
want to finish this.

Okay.

It was around that time
that claire showed up.

She was also a student
in the pre-med program.

It was weird. She'd been
at uny the same time as us.

We'd just never met.

Apparently, she was even
in some of ben's classes.

They just never spoke.

For a while it was the three
of us, studying, hanging out.

Then it became the two of them.

I remember it because it was the day I
got the invitation to noel's wedding.

I went to go show ben.

And that's when I
found them together.

Needless to say, we broke up.

Are you kidding me?
That son of a bitch!

- I don't know what to do.
- Get your ass back here,
that's what.

I can't. I mean, it's
noel's wedding.

I can't go like this. I'm a
mess. I can barely breathe.

Yes, you can.

I remember when I was first
getting to know meghan.

She just seemed so shocking.

But the most shocking thing about
her is what an amazing friend she is.

Hey!

Hey.

- Thanks. Don't tell anyone about...
- No, not a word.

- It's noel's wedding and...
- Sh. Nothing.

- Here you go.
- Thank you.

Go ahead.

Hi.

- Hey. How are you?
- Good.

Oh, it's so good
to see you guys.

I see your picture every day on
employee of the month plaque,

But you are much
better looking in person.

- Stop it.
- What the hell's this?

- Oh, a party favor
for the wedding.
- Is that you in the background?

This was the best photo
of them that I could find.

So where's benjamin,
the love of your life?

- Uh...
- He has exams.

- He's not coming?
- But he has to come.

Who cares? They hate
each other anyway. God.

Hey.

- Can I come in?
- Sure.

I brought so much stuff.

You'd think I was staying for
a month instead of a weekend.

- You okay?
- Yeah. Yeah. I just, uh...

I can't believe that I'm getting married
and I feel like I'm about to throw up.

You're just nervous.

Incredibly nervous,
yeah. I mean, feel my hands.

They're...

- Noel! Oh, my god.
- I know.

Noel, it's gonna be great.

Seriously. You and zoe, you
guys are perfect together.

And it's totally normal to be nervous.
Remember how nervous elena was?

Yeah.

- I miss talking to you.
- I miss it, too.

Do you remember at the end of
college when I took you to the airport

And you asked me if I ever
wondered, you know, about us?

Yeah, and you said "never."

Well, obviously I was lying.
I wondered all the time.

I actually thought that at
some point maybe we'd be...

Doing what zoe and I are doing.

Tomorrow.

Oh, my god. That sounded
like I was hitting on you.

- No. I knew you weren't.
- Yeah?

Yeah.

It's just weird. I mean, zoe's
great. I love her, I really do.

But it's just weird how things don't
work out the way you thought they would.

Yeah.

And that's when I
started thinking,

Probably unfairly since he
was just about to get married,

That maybe I had made a mistake.

Maybe it was noel I should
have been with all along.

♪ Can you become

♪ Can you become

♪ A new version of you

♪ New wallpaper

♪ New shoe leather

♪ A new way home

♪ I don't remember

♪ New version of you

♪ I need a new version of me

♪ New version of you

♪ I need a new version of me ♪

So, sally, here's
where it gets weird.

You know how I told
you meghan does spells?

- What is that smell?
- I'm putting a hex on your ex.

- You're still doing spells?
- Yeah. I'm a black belt now.

Especially with this
new kick-ass book.

Mystical incantations part ii.

There isn't even a part i.
That's how mystical it is.

The author,
korsakoff, is a genius.

There are things in this book
I've never seen. Give me the nutmeg.

This one?

What is this spell
gonna do to ben?

It's a tripping spell. I just can't
decide on a flight of stairs or a curb.

I don't really want him to
trip down a flight of stairs.

Curb it is.

- You're not gonna
get back with him?
- No.

- Even when he comes groveling?
- We are finished.

- You sure?
- Yes.

- You're an aires, right?
- Scorpio.

- Even better.
- Ow! Jeez!

There. He just tripped.

It was the night before noel's wedding
and we all got together to celebrate.

It was excruciating.

Well, so anyway...

The n-man's getting hitched.

Saying adios to
the singles scene.

Leaving me on my own.

I promised myself
I wouldn't cry.

Just give me a sec.

- You need a tissue?
- No, I'm good, man.

- Okay. Where was i?
- Noel's getting married.

- Damn it.
- Anyone else uncomfortable?

I guess I just never thought...

I never thought
the day would come.

I thought he'd carry his
torch for felicity forever.

Oh, god!

Would you take it easy?
Zoe knows everything.

I'm not telling tales
out of school here.

I should let phil
collins do the talking.

You two have got a
groovy kind of love.

Cheers.

- Cheers.
- Thank you.

Okay, sally, I haven't been to
many of these dinners in my life...

But I know there's probably one
rule that applies to all of them.

Unless you're the bride, you
shouldn't covet the groom.

I think that night I was
definitely breaking that rule.

- Felicity, you're up.
- Oh.

Um...

I don't really know what to say.
Um... I'm so happy for both of you.

Um... I...

Zoe, you are so lucky

To have such a
great guy like noel.

And, noel, you're so
lucky to have found zoe.

Um... You're both just so um...

- Lucky?
- Well, yeah.

And I wish you both all
the happiness in the world.

- Cheers.
- Here, here.

- Hi.
- Look who it is. Dr. Covington.

- Hey. Did you pass your exams?
- Uh... Yes. Yes.

- Hi.
- Hey.

- Congratulations. Sorry I'm late.
- I'm just glad you're here.

Hey, ben. What happened
to your forehead?

Oh. I just tripped.

- Hi.
- What are you doing here?

- I want to talk to you.
- Now? It's noel's wedding.

- Later.
- When are you guys
getting married?

- I don't know.
- We haven't talked
about it in a while.

- Oh. I thought
you were engaged.
- Yeah. For, like, a day.

You guys have to get
married. It's the greatest.

Every night's like
a slumber party.

If I'm gonna have a slumber party I'm
gonna have a different babe each time.

Huh? You know?

- Thank you, guys.
- Bye.

So I'll see you tomorrow?

Yeah. I hope so.

Your last night apart forever.

Anybody want to
share a cab uptown?

Are you kidding? A chance to ride
with the bride-to-be? Somebody pinch me.

- Bye.
- See you.

- Noel, are you coming?
- Actually, I'm gonna walk.

I'll walk with you unless
you wanna be alone.

- No, no.
- I guess I'm gonna
talk to you later.

- Yeah. I guess so.
- Okay.

Thanks for coming,
man. See you soon.

- We're still going
to the strip club?
- No, we're not.

- Come on. Felicity can come.
- If you already have plans...

You heard the woman. First
lap dance is on me. Let's go.

- So to speak.
- Richard, see you tomorrow.

All right.

- No, you don't.
- Yes, I do.

- How was the walk?
- Good.

Well, I'm gonna
go up on the roof

And ponder the
end of my single life.

I say that as if it's been so great.
Anyway, I'll see you guys tomorrow.

Good night, noel.

Can we talk about this?

Okay. I don't know what
there is to talk about, but...

I'm sorry.

What happened...

It was a mistake, it was stupid.

It was me reacting to
what was going on with us.

- It didn't mean anything.
- It didn't look that way to me.

I know. I know I made
a mistake. I know that.

I talked to claire

And I told her that it's over and we're
not gonna see each other anymore.

Anymore?

- I mean,
you know what I mean.
- No, I don't.

Was this like an ongoing
thing with you two?

Oh, my god.

- How long has
this been going on?
- Not long.

No. I mean like a week,
a month, six months?

Ben, tell me how long.

- About a month.
- A month?

You've been seeing
claire for a month?

- Felicity...
- Oh, don't!

- I should probably
stay somewhere else.
- Yeah. Probably.

I mean, I thought it was one time
and now I find out it was a month.

Oh, I can't believe him.

You should have let me send
him down a flight of stairs.

After everything that
we've been through.

You know what I wish? I wish
I could go back to that night.

On the roof. The night
that I slept with noel.

Oh. That night.

That was my chance.

And I blew it.

If you had it to do over, you
know, if you could go back...

What would you do differently?

Everything. I'd pick noel.

I think I made a
mistake. A big mistake.

Hindsight, you know?

Screw hindsight. We've
got something better.

We've got korsakoff. And
korsakoff kicks hindsight's ass.

Unfortunately, a spell
is not gonna fix this.

Hey, you saw ben's
forehead. This works.

Meghan...

Okay. You got forward in
time, you got backward in time.

You wanna go back.

I wanna go lie down. I
feel like I'm gonna pass out.

I'm doing this spell.

Where did I put
the oil of cloves?

- What are you doing?
- This'll just take a sec.

- God, the ceiling's
spinning. Ow!
- It's for the spell.

Goodnight.

Um...

Noel?

Um... Noel?

- Hey.
- What happened?

I don't know. I
guess we fell asleep.

But how did we get up here?

Well, I was here and
then you came up.

Are you all right?

- I don't know. Did we just...
- I'm pretty sure, yeah.

- Oh, my god!
- What?

Noel, it's the night
before your wedding.

Felicity, are you okay?

I don't remember coming
up. I must have blacked out.

Wow. That's a
confidence booster.

Noel, I'm serious.

Did you take something last
night? Some dr*gs or something?

Meghan and I were drinking,
but... This isn't what I was wearing.

Okay. You just need
to relax, that's all.

I need to get out of
here. What if zoe finds us?

Zoe?

Hey, who's zoe?

Sally, I didn't know if I was
going insane or if this was a dream.

To be honest, I still don't.

Hey. Have you been here
this whole time? I'm sorry.

I thought you were
going to a hotel.

What? No.

Look, about before with
the printer... I'm sorry.

This whole pre-med thing
has kind of got me freaked out.

What are you talking about?

I'm talking about the
fight we had before.

Anyway, I was a jerk.

It's just hodges kind of
makes me nervous. So I'm sorry.

- Hodges?
- Yeah.

- Is this like a joke?
- No. I'm trying to apologize.

Hey. I didn't know you guys were
here. I was just up on the roof...

Hanging out.

- Oh, my god.
- What?

What's the matter?

I'm gonna go find meghan and
she doesn't live here anymore.

Meghan, wake up. I
need to talk to you.

- Go away.
- Meghan, it worked.

Congratulations.

You did a spell on
me and it worked.

I wish I had a spell
to make you shut up.

It was a time-travel
spell from that book.

I woke up on the roof. It
happened all over again.

Just like that night
I slept with noel.

- You slept with noel?
- Yes. You know that.

I do?

Meghan, I don't
know how you did it,

But we're back in time.

Okay.

That must have been the greatest
sex ever because you've lost your mind.

You have no idea what
I'm talking about, really?

I came back in town
for noel's wedding.

Noel's wedding?

Oh, my god. This is the
greatest thing ever.

You've officially gone insane.

Not to mention you've a
mammoth hickey on your neck.

- What's going on here?
- Felicity has lost her mind.

Oh, my god. Elena.

- Oh, my god!
- See what I mean?

- I can't believe it.
- What?

- You're here!
- I live here.

How are you?

I'm getting married in two
days. I need to get some sleep.

That's right. That's right. You
were supposed to marry tracy.

- Supposed to?
- She said it, not me.

Where are you going? I
have so much to tell you.

Tell me tomorrow
because I'm going to bed.

- She's supposed to be dead.
- She's engaged. It's the same thing.

You know who's gonna be dead? Noel.
Ben's gonna k*ll him when he finds out.

I think I should tell him.

Wait a minute. Do you
want to be with noel?

I think so. I mean, that's
what this is all about.

Oh, this is amazing! Senior
year is gonna be so good.

Sally, I couldn't
sleep at all that night.

I mean, who knew where I
would wake up? Or when?

All I really did know was that
this was my chance to do it all again.

And this time I was
going to do it right.

- Hey.
- Hey.

- Is anybody else here?
- Uh... No.

Good. I just wanted to come
by and see how you were doing.

I'm fine. Thanks.

You were acting sort
of weird last night.

- Oh, it was, uh...
- Oh, my god.

Did I do that?

Yeah, but don't worry about it.

Are you kidding? It's huge.

- It's fine.
- No, it's not. What if ben sees it?

- What if he does?
- He's gonna wonder
who gave it to you.

And I'll tell him.

You're thinking about telling him
what happened? That's a bad idea.

I know what happens if I don't
and it's worse. It comes out anyway.

If we decide not to tell
him he's not gonna find out.

- Trust me.
- And I live with the guy.

Noel, it's gonna be bad
between you no matter what,

So of all of our options
this is the best one.

You seem sure and
it's freaking me out.

I know. Just go with it.

Okay. As long as you promise
me you'll think about it.

Okay. I promise.

The truth is I had no idea
what I was gonna say to ben.

But I couldn't
avoid him forever.

I mean, technically,
we were still going out.

Yeah, yeah. Okay. No problem.

- Is ben here?
- No. I don't know where he is.

Come in and leave a note.

I gotta go and see this fortune-cookie
maker with a zero sense of humor.

- Right. For elena's wedding.
- Right.

Maybe it'll actually
happen this time.

What?

- Um...
- You okay?

Yes. I'm sorry. Yes, I'm fine.

Okay. See you later.

You've reached blumberg
productions. Leave a message for sean.

Oh, noel and ben live here too.

Hey, ben, it's janet.

I was just thinking about you. I
drove by our motel yesterday.

It made me sad you
weren't still here.

I really miss you.

Anyway, that's why I'm calling.

My transfer was approved. I'm
starting at columbia in two weeks.

- Hey.
- Hey.

Hi.

I slept with noel.

- What?
- I slept with him.

And I felt guilty about it
forever, but I don't anymore

Because I was upset and I was lonely
and he was there for me and you weren't.

I... I, uh... I don't
understand.

It's actually all pretty clear.

- Why are you doing this?
- I'll tell you why. Claire.

Claire? Who's claire?

Okay. Janet, whatever. I
can't even keep track. It's okay.

Janet? What are
you talking about?

- I heard the message.
- Janet's a friend of mine.

I know. Nothing happened at the
motel. I don't even believe that anymore.

- Felicity, I don't understand.
- I know you don't, but I do.

So this thing with noel, when
did this happen? This summer?

No. Last night.

- You're serious?
- Yes.

Last night?

So you wanna be with him now?

Yes. I mean, I think so, yes.

Well, that's kinda crazy.

Ben, I'm sorry.

Trust me. This is for the best.

This is for the best? I really don't
see how this could be for the best.

Wait a second. What am I
doing? Why am I getting upset?

The thing is you broke my heart.

How did I break your heart?

- You won't understand,
believe me.
- Tell me how.

Ben, I'm sorry.

So you really wanna break up?

Yeah. I think we should.

I guess I should go then.

Sally, I knew that
this was what I wanted,

That it was the
right thing to do.

But watching him
walk away like that...

I just had to keep reminding
myself. "Claire, claire, claire."

Hold on.

Hey.

- I told him.
- What?

- I told ben.
- You were gonna think about it.

- I know. And I did. I thought about it.
- How could you just tell him?

- I had to,
so we could have a chance.
- "We"?

Us. You and me. I
think we should try it.

I'm gonna sit. Do
you want to sit? Sit.

Noel, I know how this
must sound to you...

- You do?
- No, actually I don't.

Okay. Obviously you're going
through a lot of stuff right now.

That's understandable.
Senior year, your future...

My future's fine.
I'm gonna be pre-med.

- What about art?
- Forget art. I know what I want.

I think that's great that
you know what you want,

But I'm trying to
figure things out.

And you will. We need a
chance to be together.

That's what last
night was about.

What about ben? He was
all you could talk about.

- I am over ben.
- You're over ben?

Okay. Noel...

The thing is, I know in the
past when I've had the chance

I've always chosen ben over you,

But I'm telling you now
that that was a mistake.

- Wow.
- I know. This is sudden.

But I think it's right. It
feels right. Don't you think?

- You really wanna do this?
- Don't you?

- Yes.
- Yes.

Yes, yes. Uh... Yes.

So... Um... What do we do?

Well, we could
just start slowly.

I mean, we could just
go to dinner tonight.

Okay. Good. No, no. We can't.

We can't. Tracy and
elena's rehearsal is tonight.

- We could go to coffee before.
- Perfect.

- It's a date.
- Okay.

Okay.

- Oh. Finally.
- Sorry I'm late.

Sorry only counts in
horseshoes. I have to go.

I forgot to book a place
for the rehearsal dinner

And if elena finds out she's
going to serve my head for brunch.

- Hey.
- Hi.

I'm just going to
head out front.

Wait a second. Can I
talk to you for a second?

Sure.

- I don't want to break up.
- Ben...

I'm not excusing what you did.

But you're right. I
haven't been there for you.

I was away all summer and I wasn't
around when your dad was here.

Ben, it's not that.

If I've broken your heart I'm sorry.
It's the last thing I ever wanted to do.

I guess what I'm saying is that
maybe we can get past this.

If you want.

I...

I just don't think that we can.

I gotta go. Can you tell...?
Just... Tell javier something.

I don't know if this is
the real world or not,

But it feels real.

I mean, it hurts a lot.

Breaking up with ben? Of course
it hurts. What did you think?

I guess that it would be easier.

A little unrealistic,
don't you think?

No. Not given what's
going to happen.

Oh? And what's that?

Ben is just... He is not
the right one for me.

And noel is?

I can't believe this.

You're the one saying
"look in the drawer."

Noel is in the drawer.
I know that now.

I don't know where you got
this drawer thing, but I like it.

I just... I wanna make sure
that I'm doing the right thing.

Forget about doing
the right thing.

Make sure you're
doing what you want.

What do you want?

I wanna be with noel.

I just wish it didn't have
to hurt ben so much.

Like I said, it's unrealistic.

I was thinking we could
go away for a weekend.

To the berkshires or cape
cod or something like that.

It doesn't have to be this weekend. Just
before it gets cold. What do you think?

Wow. I think um...

I don't think this
is a good idea.

There's no rush. We
can go away anytime.

No. I mean... This.

Us. You and me being together.

I don't understand.

When you, uh...

When you came to me and said
that you wanted to give us a chance...

That was incredible.

I mean, I've waited to have
that conversation for so long.

- But?
- But...

I just... It doesn't...
It doesn't feel right.

It seems fast. It
seems too fast.

That's how things
happen sometimes.

Which is fine. I'm just...

I'm just trying to keep up
and keep my head together

And get my life in order.

- I don't even have a job.
- But you will.

You keep saying that and I love your
enthusiasm and your confidence in me,

But I don't have it.

I don't know that
everything's gonna be fine. So...

We're going through a lot and
we're gonna need each other.

- Exactly.
- As friends.

I'm afraid that if we get together
that'll destroy our friendship.

And I'm not willing
to take that chance.

So...

You're saying you just
wanna stay friends?

I think it's the best thing.

Is this going to be
awkward for you?

Yeah. Incredibly.

I know. Me too.

- What's going on?
- The question is
what isn't going on.

I hope it's worth all this.
I hope you two are happy.

What are you guys talking
about? Where are elena and tracy?

The wedding's off,
man. Thanks to her.

All that work for
nothing but heartache.

- What happened?
- Elena and tracy had a fight.

- Over you?
- What?

It's all true.

Apparently, elena was
defending your decision to...

Cheat.

No offence, man.

Yeah. So tracy freaked out

And elena came to her senses
finally and called it off. Thank god!

- Is she okay?
- She'll bounce back.

That tyler's one tough broad.

- Man, is he wasted.
- Who? Ben?

Yeah. He had a little
too much to drink.

Trying to drown out the sorrow.

I'm gonna go talk to him.

- For that final
twist of the Kn*fe.
- Richard, shut up.

Ben?

Can I get you anything?

No. You can't get me anything.

Ben, I am so sorry about
everything that's happened.

I can't do this.

- Noel and I are not even...
- It's not noel and you. It's not that.

It's this stupid pre-med thing.

I failed my first
test. I studied...

And I studied and I
studied and I still failed.

- Ben, you can totally do this.
- No, I can't.

Listen to me, and I know this for a
fact, you're going to do really well.

You can't give up, okay?

- I have to get out of here.
- Okay. Let's go home.

No, no. I mean I have to go
back to the way things were.

- Oh, god, not this again!
- You have to undo this spell.

- The one that sent you
back in time?
- Yes!

Ben is a mess. He might
not even be a doctor.

- Ben a doctor?
- Yes.

Elena and tracy aren't
even getting married...

Oh, my god. That means
you're not gonna marry sean.

- Uh... No.
- But you were supposed to.

When elena and tracy don't
do it, you propose to sean.

Okay. Two words, fat chance.

But you should. You guys were
really happy. You have to undo the spell.

Listen to me. I didn't
put a spell on you.

Not yet, but you will and it
changes everything. Please help me.

- Okay. Fine.
- Really?

- Yeah.
- Thank you. Meghan, thank you.

Now you have to stop wigging out
because you're scaring the hell out of me.

Okay.

- Are you sure
it's the right name?
- Yes. Korsakoff.

You said it a million
times. Try it with a c.

- I did. There's nothing.
- There has to be.

Okay, but there's still not.

Oh, my god. I just
realized something.

You didn't travel back in time?

No, I did. If the book is from the
future, maybe it hasn't been published.

Maybe it hasn't
even been written.

- So the library's
out of the question.
- Oh, my god.

I could be stuck here forever.

Okay. Are you sure you're okay?

Because you could go talk
to somebody. Like a shrink.

- You know what? Just forget it.
- Felicity...

I've um... I thought
it was the book,

But I was wrong.

I've just been
feeling weird lately

And I probably just have
the flu or something.

So I'll be feeling
better tomorrow.

Dear sally. It's me, felicity.

I know it's been a while,
but something's happened

And I think you're the only
one I can talk to about this

Because people I've
told think I'm insane.

You probably will too.

Wow. You still make those tapes?

Uh... Yeah. I know
it's kinda stupid.

No, it's nice, you know, that
you have someone to talk to.

Yeah, it is.

- Can i...?
- Sure.

Yeah?

I wanted to make sure
you were all right.

I'm fine. Thanks.

I've really made a
mess out of things.

- You didn't do it alone.
- Yeah, I did.

No, you didn't.

The truth is I said no to
you because I'm petrified.

- I don't wanna
lose you as my friend.
- Noel, you won't.

Ever.

So what does this
mean? Are we...?

Yeah.

♪ ...imagine what it's like

♪ To be in heaven

♪ Floating high above the ground

♪ Where you can finally
spread your wings ♪