03x12 - Best Laid Plans

[bunniefuu]

The... range of movement is amazing.

You think that's good. Hey, Pete.
Go on. Toss it to Colin.

Come on. Don't be afraid to put
a little heat on it. I'm pretty good.

- Nice catch.
- I connected the arm

directly to Colin's nervous system.

The brain thinks "catch the ball",
and the hand does it.

- The guys in my unit would freak.
- Were you in Iraq?

Afghanistan.

Feel free to use words like
"genius" or "brilliant" at will.

I don't have to cause you just did.

It was really nice to meet you,
and, good luck with your arm.

- You okay?
- No, something It burns.

Help him, or he's gonna pull out
the neuro connectors.

- You implanted a bolt in his arm?
- Osseous integration.

- It's the only way to carry the weight.
- I know what it is. It's illegal.

In this country.
I sent him to Sweden.

Okay, it's infected.
He's burning up.

We've gotta get him to the hospital.

Maya's in your office. She wouldn't
look at me in the car on the way,

now you got Sam and Naomi
in the conference room.

- Do you tell me what's going on?
- I can't. I wish I could, but I can't.

Very pregnant woman squatting
up and down in the hallway?

- Not mine.
- She's mine. Lynn McDonald.

She's committed to natural childbirth.
She's been in labor for two days.

Her water finally broke last night.

This isn't working. Do you have
anything spicy in the fridge?

Like maybe a chimichanga?

- That'll speed up the labor, right?
- Yeah, I'll order you something.

Yeah. Okay, baby, come out.

And come out.

And... Come out.

- Let's go check out your progress.
- And come out.

Okay, Addison. What's this
important case that...

Maya girl. What's up? Wait.

Did you have a half a day today?

- Was I supposed to...
- I keep the half days in my calendar.

- I keep 'em in my calendar, too.
- It's not a half day.

Maya has something
that she needs to tell you.

Maya's pregnant.

No, she's not.

How?

When did you start having s...

Wait. No. Okay. This is...
this isn't possible.

We discussed this.
Discussed birth control.

Your... two doctors.

Both your parents are doctors.
How could you be pregnant?

How could this be happening?

What were you thinking?

Where you going? Our daughter
just told us that she is pregnant.

- We need to talk about this.
- I can't.

Naomi, we are her parents.

I can't.

Saison 03 ?pisode 12
Best Laid Plans

Naomi walked away.

Our daughter is pregnant,
and Naomi walked away.

I know. She's in shock.
She's dealing with it.

I'm supposed to just wait until
she decides that she's ready?

We need to talk to our daughter now.

This isn't the first time
I've delivered this kind of news.

People need time. Give...

give Naomi some time.

Colin, you have a severe infection.

How long has it been hurting?

A month.

I thought it was normal pain.
I was afraid that if it was the bolt,

then I couldn't keep the arm.

Dr. Wilder feels the bolt
should come out.

Can't we do more antibiotics
or something?

What do you say, Dr. Wilder?
You specialize in infectious disease.

You know alternative treatments.
What are his options?

There has to be something up your
sleeve since you have two of them.

There are experimental protocols,

but the FDA hasn't completed
safety studies,

and there are reports
of severe side effects.

I'm sorry. The bolt
is the source of the infection,

and the safest thing to do is remove it
before the infection spreads.

Before I deployed, I got engaged.

We wrote letters,
we planned the whole thing,

right down to the dance
that we're going to do,

which requires me
to dip her to the floor.

Now I'm living up to my part of this.
I'm going to hold her in my arms...

both arms...

I'm going to dance with her
the way I promised.

You came back alive.
You're healthy and alive.

I know you planned for more,
but I cannot treat you

in a way that will jeopardize
your health.

Colin, this infection
could k*ll you.

I know that's not
what your fianc?e wants.

Why do they do this?

Why does the hospital keep sending me
samples? It's like

"gaslight", but with baby stuff.

"Gaslight"? Famous movie?

Never saw it.

Ingrid Bergman. Her husband
tries to drive her crazy.

When the Petermans get here,
will you put them in exam room 3?

- I'm using exam room 3.
- Actually room 3 is for pediatrics.

And I have a 7 year old
with a urinary tract infection.

It's about a marriage
that ends badly.

"Gaslight".

Marsha. Hi. Violet Turner.

Here's the situation...
I don't want any more baby stuff.

So no diaper cream samples.

I've called, I've e-mailed, I've
mail-mailed for the past 6 months,

the hospital just keeps sending it.

Most new mothers appreciate
our little freebies.

- I am not a new mother.
- How old is your baby?

That's not what I meant.

I am not a new or an old
or any kind of mother.

I don't have a baby anymore.

Oh, my God.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

They're God's littlest angels,
the ones we lose.

- Could you just get the form?
- Of course.

I'm sorry, too, for your loss.

- No. It's just... I was just...
- You don't have to explain. I get it.

I lost my wife

- today.
- Oh, my God.

A sentence you never think you're
gonna have to say, you know, "I lost...

I lost my wife".

And, every time you say it, you think
you're not gonna be able to breathe,

and it's like somebody sh*t you
or something.

And then I... I hear that you lost
your child... Your baby... and it's...

It's like, gives it perspective,
you know?

It helps me to know
you lost your child.

And I know that's a horrible thing
to say to you.

My wife's dead, and I've offended you,
and I'm sorry...

- For your loss.
- No. I'm sorry for your loss.

They gave me this bag with her...
belongings.

It's funny. I thought there'd be more
to take home.

Do you need...

Can I help you?
Is there anything I can do?

No. I'm just waiting.
A friend's picking me up, so...

It was nice to meet you.

- I'm Nathan Pilsman.
- Violet Turner.

It's nice to meet you,
Violet Turner.

Not nice, but... it's nice.

You can't walk.

You're black.
What game are we playing?

The day that you found out...

When they told you that,

your legs... that you would...
never walk again,

that must have been
the worst day of your life.

How did you deal with it?

Why would you assume that
that was my worst day?

Losing my legs changed my life,

but, it certainly didn't ruin it.
There's a period of adjustment,

You deal with it.

You're full of crap.

What are you doing here?

- What are you doing?
- What's going on?

Naomi, what is going on?

I need you to give Maya an abortion.

What?

- No. I don't want an abortion.
- I don't care what you want.

But, mom...

Give her an abortion.

I can't believe I slapped her.

- I hit my child.
- You were upset, clearly.

- It's not an easy thing to deal with.
- I know, I know, but I...

I can't... I lost it.

But can you believe her?

Can you believe her saying no to me?

- What?
- You ordered her to have an abortion.

So putting aside the fact that
you are personally against it...

You can't make someone
have an abortion, Nai.

No. This is...
not up for discussion.

- I think it needs to be.
- You know what?

If you're not gonna do it.
I will find another doctor who will.

I don't even know who I'm talking
to right now. This is not you.

It's the opposite of you.
You give people babies,

whether or not I agree with your stand
on this issue, this isn't you.

Don't do something now
that you will hate yourself for later.

Do you hate yourself for your
abortions? Either of you?

No, I don't hate myself.
But I do think about it.

It stays with you even if you do it
for the right reasons,

and it is not a casual decision
that you can make for Maya.

This is my family.

You do not judge my family!

- We're not judging. You know that.
- This has hit you hard,

that can make you change
what you believe...

Stop it. Stop acting
like you understand,

because you don't.
You don't. This is my child.

This is my child
we are talking about, my child...

Who I've done everything
in my power to raise and protect.

And now she's gone
and done something stupid...

That's gonna ruin her life,
I'm not gonna let that happen.

I am her mother. I am her mother.

You have no right.
You have no moral high ground.

You walked away from your child.

If you can live with that,
I can live with this.

- She's just upset. You...
- I know.

I know this is a bad time, but my
patient. I could really use your help.

Please. Tell me she needs surgery.
That I can do.

Don't need your help opening a door.

You're not very good at taking help,
are you?

Actually, I am. Your idea
about experimental protocols?

I contacted my friend at the FDA,
got the info, went with it.

You're not taking out Colin's bolt?

You might be afraid to take a risk,
I'm not.

I assumed Naomi brought you in

cause you were just as cutting edge
as everyone else around here.

I didn't realize you were
the safe alternative.

All right, you know what?

You can't just say something like that
and roll away.

Can't hear you
over the noise of my chair.

Maya is pregnant.
Sam needs to drink. You in?

Lynn's in a lot of pain.

She shows no sign
of fetal distress, but

- her labor isn't progressing.
- I thought after my water broke...

I can give you oxytocin
to speed up the labor

- something for the pain.
- My birth plan says no dr*gs.

Lynn has a birth plan.

Many pages... and

small font.

I want to experience
my child's birth.

I did my homework, okay?

I understand that there are procedures
that, may become necessary,

but except in a case
of extreme emergency,

I want to be given the opportunity
to accept or...

Or refuse any procedure.

And as long as the baby's okay,

all right, I want to have
a natural childbirth.

So to get the labor going,
I'm willing to try walking

or castor oil
or nipple stimulation...

It's a little more involved.
If you fail to progress in your labor,

you might want to consider
a C-section.

I know this can be disappointing...

I've been in screaming pain
for hours.

I'm not worried
about being disappointed.

I married a great guy.
You know, I wanted to have kids.

He wasn't ready... ever.

When the divorce was final,
I decided to let loose.

You know, having a baby alone,

being pregnant by some guy
that I met at the tequila bar,

is not every girl's dream,

but this is what's happening, okay?

And I am having this baby.

So is it too much to ask that one thing
goes according to plan?

Naomi has lost her mind.
I don't even know who she was today.

- Do you want Maya to have an abortion?
- That's the point.

I'm a guy. It's... not my choice.

- Right, but do you want her to...
- Do I... I want her

to not be pregnant
in the first place.

I want her to never have had sex.

I want her to live in a world

where there are chastity belts
and convents

and little boys by the name of Dink
don't exist.

That's what I want.

So don't ask me if I want...

My baby girl to have an abortion.

Don't ask me that.

Because the answer is probably yes.

But it's not my choice.

You know, it's not Naomi's either.

Just be glad you and Charlotte
don't have a kid.

Once you have a child with someone,
you are tied to them

forever,

even if they go nuts.

I'm... I'm sorry. I didn't...

I didn't mean that, man.

My daughter's pregnant.

I'm still here.

But then, so are you.

Well, I left and I came back.
I thought about you and I was worried.

You don't have
a friend coming, do you?

I'm not ready.

The thing is...
I can't leave without my wife.

Obviously, I can't leave with her.

So I can't leave.

- Can I sit with you for a while?
- Sure.

Did you feel this way

when you lost your child?

Yeah, walking out that door
was the hardest thing I ever did.

Yeah, I did feel this way.

I have this tingling

in my stump, in my shoulder
and my feet.

It's like they're asleep.
I can't wake them up.

- What is it? What's happening?
- A side effect of the antibiotics

is neurotoxicity... nerve damage.

Is this what Dr. Wilder
was afraid of?

No. I'm gonna lower the dosage
on the antibiotic.

That should lessen the effect.

We'll give it a sh*t.

This is how today
should've gone down.

When we found out at
our daughter was pregnant,

we should've cried
on each other's shoulders,

we should've listened to what
our daughter had to say,

and then the two of us, together,

should have discussed
how to handle this.

That's not what happened.

Talk to me.

- Deal with this.
- I don't want to talk about it.

And I am...

dealing with it. Maybe not the way
you want me to, but...

It's the only way I can.

I'll do it.

I'll have the abortion.

- Her.
- Yeah. That's grief.

Definitely.

Dead husband?

Dead kid?

It's dead kid.

It's her face.
She's got dead kid face...

Like you.

- I'm sorry. That didn't come out right.
- No, it's okay. It's all right.

What do you mean about my face?

It's your eyes.

You've been someplace that

most people have never been.
You've survived something

that no one would have wanted
to survive. It's your eyes.

They're, I don't know,

empty.

Well, I mean, that could be just...

Doesn't have to be dead kid.

It could just be...

bad life.

It's dead kid or dead something.

What about me?

Your face?

I know you don't know me,
but do I look

different?

You look like you're in shock.

You look like
something bad happened.

It's really nice of you to sit here,
but you don't have to stay.

I'm sure that you have
some place to be.

No, actually. I don't.

Sorry.
I thought you'd be at the gym.

I just came to get
the rest of my stuff.

I bought the latex jumpsuit.

For me. You bought it for me.

What, are you gonna have
some other woman wear it?

So should I give it to you so you
could wear it for some other guy?

We can do this.
We liked each other once.

Actually, we didn't. We disliked
each other, and then we had sex,

and then we fell in love.

We never liked each other.

I guess you're right.

I think you should leave
the practice.

- What?
- I'll take out a loan. I'll sell my car

I'll do whatever it takes
to buy you out.

No. I'm building a business.

I don't care if you were there first.
I belong there just as much as you do.

I'm not going anywhere.

Useless, stupid love.

- What?
- Useless, stupid love!

Wasted time.

Just take your latex jumpsuit.
Find another woman.

- Have a blast with it!
- I will! I can't wait.

That's my towel you're wearing.
I want it back.

You're doing great, Lynn.

I feel great.

We could change the music.

We haven't listened to
"chirping birds" yet.

I just wanted this
to be beautiful, you know?

All my books said that

the way a child comes into the world
shapes them for life.

I just want to give him
the best chance

that he can have, you know?

I don't want to shape him
to be some angry or...

or scared...

Damn it.

I want him to have a good life.

No matter how today works out, even if
you decide you can't take the pain,

you're still gonna have plenty of
opportunities to shape your child's life

Can I give you something
to help with the pain?

Just give me the chirping birds.

How many have you done?

More than I can count.

- And they've all...
- They've turned out...

Well, "fine"
isn't the word I'd use, but

without complications.

My daughter's having
an abortion tomorrow.

That in and of itself
is a complication.

Sam, is it weird that it's me...

Doing it? Would you
prefer that I get a...

- I'd understand if...
- No, you do it.

You do it the best you have
ever done anything.

Do it like your life depends on it.

It's Maya.

Colin, what happened?

Something's wrong.
I told 'em to call you. I...

I know you wanted
to take the bolt out.

You told me
the antibiotics too risky...

- This isn't even the right dosage.
- Dr. Fife lowered it. It was...

He said it was damaging my nerves

and he said that his arm
wouldn't work and...

Damn it. The infection is spreading.

Get me a central line kit.

- You have got to get that bolt out.
- I'll take it under advisement.

This is his life, and you are
so concerned with your invention.

- It's what Colin wanted.
- It's what you sold him.

Naomi was right about you.
You're full of crap.

You don't want to fix his arm.
You want to fix your legs.

I already tried, and I can't.

Is that supposed to make me feel
sorry for you?

I'm not doing this for me.
I've accepted what I lost

and I'll accept it for Colin as well,
but not yet.

- You just don't want to see it.
- Maybe,

and maybe there is something out there
that we haven't thought of yet.

Look, I'm not good at asking for help,
but I'm asking.

My patient wants to pick up
his life were it left off.

It may not be what you would choose,
but it's what he chooses.

So do it for him.

You did not just see that.

Isn't that what you
were wearing yesterday?

Helping out a friend.

- Want me to loan you something?
- Did you move all your stuff in here?

I sold my place.

I know. It was a rookie mistake.

Giving it all up for a guy,
moving into Cooper's apartment,

moving into the practice
where he worked.

I changed my life to be with him.

I went all-in on forever.

- Does Cooper know that?
- No point now.

He wants me out.

He wants to pretend we didn't
happen, that I don't exist.

He thinks that's gonna make him
feel better.

But it won't.
It'll just make him feel...

alone.

I know the feeling.

Me, too.

Do you want to wear slutty
or professional?

This is a big one!

Still?

So we're here.

- Is everybody, sure about this?
- Just... do it.

I couldn't stay upstairs.

- Charlotte?
- She won't leave.

And then Sam and Naomi...
I feel like I should...

I should do something for them, like
I should send food or something...

Nobody's sick.

Sending a tub of soup
isn't gonna help.

I know. What am I supposed to do?

About Charlotte? Accept it, move on.
There's nothing you can do.

Sam and Naomi?

I don't know, man.

Maybe that's why people send soup.

Nothing you can do.

Do you remember the day
Maya lost her first tooth?

It fell out in the yard.

We spent about four hours
looking for that thing

because without proof,
the tooth fairy wouldn't pay up.

And then there's today.

You know,
we're gonna get through this.

Once this whole thing
is over and done,

we're gonna get back there.

Say something!

Anything!

What do you want me to say?

You want me to say that I did
the wrong thing? Okay.

I did the wrong thing.
Do I believe that I'm going to hell

for forcing our daughter
to have an abortion?

Absolutely.

Do I regret
doing what I had to do? No.

I would do anything,
I would give my life

to protect her, and if it means
that I'm going to hell, then fine.

I'm going to hell.

I failed, Sam.

I failed...

First in our marriage,

and now at being a mother.

This is on both of us.

I thought I taught her
right from wrong.

But she didn't listen.

It's like nothing I did
made any difference.

I failed.

You're gonna experience
some discomfort

and some bleeding afterward
for about a week.

The entire procedure
won't take long.

I'm gonna use this instrument
attached to suction

to remove the pregnancy.

You'll have some cramping,

just for a few seconds.

Do you understand?

Maya, it's really... It's important

that you tell me whether
or not you understand.

- I don't understand.
- Okay.

Ask me.

Anything you want to know.

All my life, my mom told me
that she would never...

never do this,

that from the second
they're conceived, a baby is a life...

a gift from God...
and that abortion is wrong...

That it's m*rder.

That's what your mother believes.

What about you?

What do you believe?

I believe

that until a

fetus can survive on its own

outside the mother's body,

that it is not a life.

I believe that life begins at birth.

You think my mom was wrong before

and that she's right now

- because she wants me to do this?
- I think

that your mother and I
think differently.

That doesn't help me.

I can't help you with this decision.

I can and will give you an abortion

or I can offer other options and
see you through this pregnancy.

But I can't help you decide.

I'm 15 years old.

Which is why you shouldn't have
been having sex

in the first place. And I say that
as your aunt Addie, okay?

As your doctor,

since you already have

had sex and

because you are pregnant...

I know this is hard.

I know that this is...

an unimaginably difficult,
grown-up decision,

and it's not fair that you have to
make it. But you did a grown-up thing.

And now you are in
a grown-up predicament.

So now it doesn't matter what I believe
or what your mother believes.

What matters is what you believe.

- It's up to you.
- But my mom said I...

Until the 24th week of pregnancy,

what a woman does with
her own body is her business.

It's law. It's the law, Maya.

And of lot of fine women
fought a long time

to give you the right to do
what you think is best.

Your body, your choice.

Maya, you know what you want to do.

In your heart,

in your gut, you know
which way you want to go.

I've done this enough to know that.

You know what you want to do.

Okay? You just need to tell me.

I know you're tired,
but on this next contraction,

- I'm really gonna need you to push.
- I can't.

- You can.
- It hurts.

Come on. This is what you wanted?
You can do it.

I was wrong, okay?
My birth plan is stupid.

It's not working. I've been
awake for three days.

I feel like I've been
run over by a train.

Okay, just turn off
the hippie-ass flute sic

and give me some dr*gs, now!

- I can't give you dr*gs.
- But I want dr*gs! Okay?

You said I could change my mind!

Okay. I know it hurts,
but we're almost there.

And that's why I can't give you
any dr*gs.

- Please stop saying that.
- Okay, listen...

You had a plan,
and you've stuck to it,

and not everyone can do that,
but you did.

And I am here with you, and we are going
to get through this. I promise.

Now push.

Obviously the results
weren't what we hoped.

I know it was just metal.

I swear, when I caught
that tennis ball, I could feel it.

It was fuzzy,
just a little bit of give.

We have to remove the bolt
and a margin of tissue

to make sure the infection is gone.

And we may need to remove
the rest of your arm,

possibly all the way up
to your shoulder.

That's one option. It would
definitely save your life.

- But...
- But what?

There's been some success with
biodegradable antibiotic implants.

It's risky.
It requires surgery.

We'd have to implant the antibiotics
directly next to the bolt site.

Give you the life you want,
let you dance at your wedding.

You guys ready?

Okay, slow down.

We never had kids.

My wife wanted kids.

I think we should leave.

You have lost someone here
who's very important to you.

And you're afraid that if you go home
and walk into an empty room,

- that'll mean you're really alone.
- I will be alone.

I'll go with you.

I didn't do it.

- What?
- I'm not having an abortion.

Stop. What are you doing?

If you're coming in,
you better be taking pictures.

Is that what you want?

I am not gonna let you ruin your life,
little girl.

You think you know what you want?
You have no idea.

You have no idea what you want.
Look at that. Look at that.

But look at that.

Mom.

I can't. I'm sorry. I can't.

This isn't the end of the world.
You will get past this.

- I need to get outta here.
- Don't do this.

You don't want to turn your back
on your child.

You just shut up!
Just for once, just shut up!

For a minute, for now, shut up!

This is fun.

It's fine.

Bet you'd be a great date.

If my wife hadn't just d*ed,
I'd ask you out.

That was funny.

Let's try walking through the door.

We thought she had a cold.

A few years ago, we were supposed
to go on a skiing trip,

and we thought she had a cold.

But it never went away.

Cancer.

And I knew it was coming.
I knew it. So I slept there.

I slept in that hospital
with her for months.

This house...

It was the last time
we were happy together.

One step at a time.

I thought...

I thought it would k*ll me.

Stepping back into this house,
I thought it would...

I thought it would
make her more gone.

She's here.

She loved it here.

And we were happy in this house.

Thank you.

That dead kid face?

It's not my son.

My son isn't dead.

It's me.

I walked away from my son.

I gave him away.

So... I don't have
a bag of his stuff or

a last place where we were happy.

He never got to see me happy.

He's only 6 months old,

and now I've let a total stranger
believe he's dead.

I have a son...

and his name is Lucas.

Was I too nice to you, huh?
Is that what happened?

You thought I was a nice guy, huh?

Shut up. Shut the...
You shoulda been afraid of me.

You shoulda been terrified.

My face shoulda been in your head
every single moment you were with Maya.

So look at me right now.

Look long and hard
and remember me saying,

you will never hurt Maya again.

You got my daughter pregnant.

- So help me God, if I could...
- Wait...

Maya's pregnant?

You didn't know.

I love her.

Did you ever find your shoe?

No. Finish helping that friend?

Yeah, I did.

I want to punch him.

I didn't want a relationship, damn it.
I was fine being alone.

You know what I miss? Your martinis.

You sure do know
how to change a subject.

No, I was just thinking that
you have nowhere to go,

and hotel rooms are...
Cold and empty, and,

I just don't know how
to make a good martini.

You're inviting me to stay with you?

You know, just until
you get things sorted out.

You're not gonna get all talky
about feelings or hair...

I just want a martini.

Evening.

What, you're not gonna make
some warm-hearted comment

about me being in a wheelchair?
I thought we were on a roll.

Sorry.

You okay?

My 15-year-old daughter is pregnant.

And I tried to force her
to have an abortion.

And I don't believe in abortion.

I've gone over the edge...
and I don't know what to do.

This never happened.

Damn right, it never happened.

I don't know if what happened...

Or what didn't happen today was...

The best thing or...

or a mistake.

I don't know.

How can you know?

I mean, you make a choice.

You do what you think
is right at the time.

I mean, the plan is...

Meet a guy, fall in love,
have a family.

But you have to be specific.

Be older than 15,
meet the right guy,

stay in love.

Stay in love.

I knew I forgot something.