02x05 - Lungs

[bunniefuu]

♪ ♪

[exhales]

- This is it.
- Yeah.

Hopefully this is
the right Alejandro Diaz.

Yeah, I don't want
to hug another stranger.

Here we go.

[door opens]

[Becca] Mom!

We found you.

What are you doing here?

Camila, it's okay.

[man] Who is it?

Oh.

[baby cooing]

[Becca gasps]

Welcome, little Alejandro.

♪ ♪

If someone adopts you,
tell them to adopt me too.

I'll be a good brother.
What do you say?

Alejandro. Keep moving.

More babies need to be held.

♪ ♪

What are you doing?

Seeing if this spot
would feel good to a flower.

Ah.

Does it?

I think so.

Hmm.

There's a baby in there.

That's right.

This one is only for you.

Take good care of it.

Thank you!

[children laughing]

Are you sure about this job?

I always thought you would
want to work with children.

You're such a sweet boy.

The pay is good,
and they provide housing.

Also, please...

don't tell the other guys in the
oil field that I'm a sweet boy.

[laughing]

Okay. I won't.

[glass shatters in distance]

Good luck, Ale.

We'll miss you.

♪ ♪

[coughing]

[all grunting]

♪ ♪

[phone beeps]

[line ringing]

[exhales]

[Camila] Hello?

Hello? Who is this?

I'm...

I'm Alejandro.

I'm your son.

If it's weird, I get it.

I can hang up right now.

I know it's weird...

No, please.

I just thought my information,
that it was sealed.

I unsealed it.

Sorry if...

No.

I'm glad you found me.

You are?

Yes.

I'm just surprised.

Right.

I'll be in Mexico soon
to visit my family.

I'd like to meet you.
If you'd like that.

I'd like that.

[knocking]

♪ ♪

[exhales]

It's good to...

meet you?

[both chuckle softly]

You're so...

grown up.

Come in.

I bought you some cookies.

Thank you.

Sit.

Your room is nice.

Sí...

It's good not having
all those pesky walls

breaking up the space.

They just get in the way.

[chuckles]

You joke around
like my daughter, Alma.

I have a sister?

Two, actually.

Alma and Becca.

I always wanted to be a brother.

Wow, they're so cute.

If it's okay,

I'd like to meet them someday.

Someday. Maybe.

[coughing]

Are you all right?

Yeah.

There's just a lot of dust.

This job doesn't seem very safe.

Have you thought about
something else?

I heard computers pay well.

I could pay for training.

Thank you, but you don't
need to do anything for me.

That's not why...

I'd like to.

It's something I can do.

I'll think about it.

You can take the whole tin,
if you want.

I will take the tin,
but I'll leave you the cookies.

And then next time,

I'll come back with the tin full
of something homemade for you.

How does that sound?

That sounds nice.

[phone ringing]

- Hello?
- [Camila] Alejandro?

It's me.

I'm glad you called.

I can't wait to show you
my new apartment.

It has so many walls.

You're going to love it.

It's great that the new job
is working out.

Listen...

I can't call you
from my house anymore,

and you can't call me.

Do you understand?

Is everything okay?

My husband asked
about my calls to you,

and I can't explain it to him
right now, so...

Oh, okay...

I understand.

[Camila] Happy birthday,
my love.

I hope this year is fantastic.

Merry Christmas.

May the holiday spirit
be with you.

Happy birthday.

- I hope you have another wonderful year.
- [sighs]

[knocking]

You made it!

Come in.

I'm sorry it took so long.

I do want to visit more often.

I made you cookies.

You remembered.

Yes.

Happy birthday.

Merry Christmas.

Happy birthday.

[coughing]

I hope you like brownies.

I'm glad you could make it.

- [Camila] Feliz navidad... cumpleaños...
- [coughing]

navidad... cumpleaños...

I've never made peppermint
bark before...

[coughing]

You're warm.

Yeah.
They think it's bronchitis.

I feel like you've had
this cough for years now.

- I know.
- [Camila] So when

are you going to get a wife
to take care of you?

I don't know.

Maybe never.

Never?

Why not?

I'm not... interested in women.

Ah.

Men?

Then a husband?

[laughs]

I don't know...

I'm pretty shy
about relationships.

Why?

You're so wonderful.

I want to be my best self when
I approach someone seriously.

I think you're perfect
right now.

Thank you.

But if I were your son...

You are my son.

If people knew I was your son,

would it be so easy
to accept me?

Yes.

Of course.

I would be proud.

I am proud.

♪ ♪

I left you messages and emailed.

I'm in town.

Actually I'm...
outside your house.

Alejandro, I'm sorry,
but you cannot

just show up to my house
like this.

I'm in town for a work
conference.

I just wanted to see you.

I've been busy
with Becca's wedding.

The whole family is here.

I haven't had time. I'm sorry.

I know this is complicated
for you.

But I need to talk to you.

What is it? What's going on?

They found scarring in my lungs.

From the silica dust... when
I worked in the oil fields.

They want to remove lung tissue.

I should have gotten you
out of that job earlier.

Could you come and stay with me?

Help me?

It's difficult for me
to get away right now.

Yeah.

Okay.

[Camila] That's my daughter.

Please, you have to go.

Can I meet her?

Not now.

She just got married.

I can't surprise her like this.

Just admit it,
you're ashamed of me.

No! That's not it.

I'm ashamed of me.

I'm ashamed of what I did.

This thing you did... it's me.

I'll send money for the surgery.

I'm sorry.

[door closes]

[Camila] Becca,
what are you doing here?

- [car horn honks]
- No, Alejandro.

You need to go. Now!

[engine starts]

[deep breathing]

[knocking]

[door opens]

I brought you some things.

Why did you change your mind?

You ask so little of me,

and my family asks so much...

You shouldn't
have to go through this alone.

I panicked.

Please forgive me.

- Okay.
- Okay.

Here.

Thank you for being here.

I'm happy to be here.

[knocking]

[groans softly]
[door opens]

- [Becca] Mom!
- [Alma] We found you.

[Camila] What are you
doing here?

[Jacob] Camila, it's okay.

[Alejandro] Who is it?

Oh.

[baby cooing]

[Becca gasps]

♪ ♪

Hey, you okay?

What is going on?
Why are you here?

We tried calling you.
You didn't answer.

[Alma] But it's okay.

It's all gonna be better now
because we know everything.

This is the worst time.

No, this is okay.

Hi, I'm Alma.

I am your favorite sister.

- How are you?
- Hi, I'm Alejandro.

I'm your only brother...
that we know of.

- [laughs] Got you, Mom.
- [Alejandro] Please.

Eh, come in...
Please, come in.

I'll make tea.

No, no, you rest.

I'll make the tea.

Okay. Thank you.

[Alma] Alejandro,
we're so excited to meet you...

I wish you'd told me about this.

I'm sorry you felt
that you couldn't.

[ignitor clicking]
[flames whoosh]

[sighs]

Did you just hear me apologize?

I can't talk about this
right now.

I take it that's not weed, huh?

[chuckles]
It's medicine for the lungs.

So it is weed.

- [laughs]
- [coughing]

Oh, my God.

I am so sorry
for making you laugh.

It's really hard for me
not to be this hilarious.

You'll learn that about me.

- [Alejandro] It's okay.
- [Alma] So, Mom?

How come you never
told us about Alejandro?

I... I... couldn't.

I was young.

My mother already disowned me.

I had nothing.

How could I take care of a baby?

I felt when I lost you...

I lost half of myself.

I tried once

to put the two halves
of me together.

I thought once I was
pregnant with Alma,

you would be okay
with another child.

With my son.

I even went to get
the paperwork.

I gave you a plant that day.

This one is only for you.

Take good care of it.

Thank you!

I was going to show you
the papers.

I was going
to tell you everything.

But I...

couldn't.

That was you.

You came,
and you didn't take me.

Why?

What can we do about the past?

It's not important anymore.

It's not important?

This is my life.

Everything could have
been different,

and you won't tell me why.

- [Alejandro wheezing]
- Are you all right?

Calm.

Calm.

I need you to go.

[Camila] Okay.

Alejandro needs you to leave.

- He needs to rest.
- [Alejandro] No.

I don't want you here.

I'm tired of being
what you're hiding...

what you can't let
be part of your life.

No, I want to stay.

[tea kettle whistling]

I'll bring the tea.

I'll get it.

Please...

...just leave.

Okay.

[door closes]

[Camila] How could you
do this?

How could you inv*de
my privacy like this?

What happened
to make you change your mind

about adopting Alejandro?

[Becca] Alma, stop.

I didn't want
to complicate your lives.

I didn't want
to burden our family.

I did it for you.

To be a good mother
and-and wife to you.

So this is our fault?

But you never even
gave us a chance.

You never
talked to me about this.

Your mother told me
it was a mistake.

That I shouldn't burden
my family with my past.

That I needed to leave
that version of me behind.

[faint sobbing nearby]

- ...for our family, I was wrong.
- Becca.

- I don't know what you want me to say.
- The door, it just appeared.

It's got to mean something.

- You talked to my mother about this?
- [Camila] We were close.

She was a mother to me when
my own mother refused to be.

- I trusted her.
- [Jacob] But you didn't trust me.

When did this happen?
When were you close

- with Geraldine?
- I used to visit her in the mental hospital.

And that's when she told you
not to adopt Alejandro?

I hoped he would have
a better life.

That he would be adopted.

You think it's easy
to be wrong about this?

Stop it.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry it all happened
like this.

Camila, please, don't walk away.

What are you doing?

Why didn't you go
into Mom's memory?

Because searching around
is just making it worse.

We know about our brother.
How is this worse?

He doesn't want anything
to do with us.

And we've wrecked
his relationship with Mom.

And Mom and Dad
won't stop fighting.

Don't you see
what's happening around you?

When Mom was talking about
Geraldine, that door appeared

in front
of Alejandro's apartment,

and I heard
the crying child again.

- Crying child?
- Yes.

Behind the door,
there is a crying child,

And I believe that's Alejandro.

This feels insane.

What if all we have to do
is go back

and stop Geraldine
from telling Mom

not to adopt Alejandro?

There's no way it's that simple.

Can we just give it a sh*t?
I mean, what do we have to lose?

You have nothing to lose.

I'm the one
that collapsed doing this.

Just try and get us there.

I can fix this.
I've done it before.

Yeah, you know,
speaking of that,

what is this other life
that you and Dad changed?

- I can't talk about that.
- Oh.

- Mm-hmm.
- He told me not to.

Will you just trust me?

You want to go on some quest
to be the big family hero?

Then, fine.

[muffled voice] Mm-hmm.

Becca...

you accessed Mom's memory
without her even here.

Come on.

I'm not going.

Then I'll do it myself.

Good luck.

[The Bell Sisters: "Baby
Count Ten (The Counting Song" plays]

♪ One ♪

♪ Baby count one... ♪

Wait, this is...

♪ With someone else,
don't come around... ♪

Becca?!

Becca, come back.

You sent me to the wrong time.

Hey!

You need to calm down.

[Alma stutters]

Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey!
No, no, no, no, no, no

no, no, no, no, no, no.
You don't understand.

I'm not supposed
to be here, sir.

Sure. Never heard that before.

No, no, no!

[grunting]

No, no, no, no, no,
wait, wait, wait!

[grunting]

- [pounding on door]
- No!

Becca!

f*ck!

♪ One ♪

♪ Baby count one ♪

♪ While you're having fun
with someone else ♪

♪ Don't come around ♪

♪ Two ♪

♪ Baby count two ♪

♪ But when you're all through
with your romance ♪

♪ Leave me alone,
three and four ♪

♪ Four and five, six,
and tricks that you try ♪

♪ To catch my eye ♪

♪ Never work out ♪

♪ I'm onto your game, seven,
eight, nine, you're fine ♪

♪ But you'll never be mine ♪

♪ 'Cause I am a real girl,
tried true and blue gal ♪

♪ Ten ♪

♪ Baby count ten ♪

♪ But when you've the yen
to count me in ♪

♪ Count me out ♪

♪ Count me out ♪

♪ One, two, three, four, five,
six, seven, eight, nine ♪