01x09 - The Day the Music d*ed

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Previously, on The Way Home...

(chuckles)
It's a really pretty song.

I wrote it for this one.

That's where my husband d*ed,
in a car accident.

There was no other woman.

Dad spent all the money

on a private investigator.

Dad didn't have an affair, Mom.

There was another woman.

She showed up crying
to your father's funeral.

I didn't think that my heart
could hurt any more,

but your father
proved me wrong.

Crazy moon tonight, eh?

(indistinct chatter)

Hey.

Be with me.

I'm sorry. Honestly,

I don't know what I'd do
without your visits.

It's so bad at home.

Come to Minneapolis,
after graduation.

Really? Are you serious?

Yes.

We're in love, right?

I want you, with me. Always.

(sirens wailing)

Let's get you home
before curfew.

I wouldn't want to get
on Del and Colton's bad side,

right before I whisk you away.

(laughs)

(radio playing)

Jacob, maybe they found him!

El! What's going on? Is it Jake?

I don't know.
I was in the loft,

looking for the Snow Moon,
and a cop just pulled up

and went inside.

What's going on?

I'm afraid there's been
an accident.

Early this evening,
we received a call that a truck

went off the road.

(muffled voice): I'm so sorry,
but the driver didn't survive.

(muffled heartbeat)

(gasping)

Dad?

(sighs)

Morning!

Hey!

What's with the bag?

Well, I have decided
that I need to take a weekend,

just go clear my head,
and pull myself together a bit.

So, there is a, um,
there is a spa one town over,

that I've...

What?

Look, I know that look, okay?
You think that

I'm being selfish,
but I'm sorry...

No! Honestly.

I'm relieved. You and Del
have been avoiding each other

for days, and I'm tired
of being your go-between.

It's complicated.
Okay, some things were said

that I don't necessarily
agree with, and/or accept.

You two are way too similar.

(door opens and closes)

What's up with the bag?

Mom's going to the spa.

So, looks like it'll just be

us two for the weekend.

- Bye kiddo.
- Bye.

Now, wait a minute, Katherine!

Oh, so you're
talking to me now?

You know what? Never mind.

Alice and I will have
a wonderful weekend together,

won't we?

You go do your me time.

I think it'll give us
all a good break.

Yeah. And hopefully,
some clarity.

(enchanting music)

Well, hi!

Okay. I have to ask
about that bag.

Oh yes. That. Um...

I was thinking, maybe I could
stay the weekend.

Great! We're-we're
actually doing this.

Yeah, yeah we are.

Um, but maybe just like a little
time travel on the side.

Even physical proof wasn't
enough for Mom!

She still maintains that Dad
had an affair.

You don't remember some strange
woman at the funeral, do you?

No.

But we weren't exactly aware
of much that day.

- If Del says she saw her...
- No, no, no.

I will not accept that
until I see it

with my own eyes.

I have to go back.

I don't, I don't care how many
trips it takes.

We have the entire weekend.

- (scoffing)
- I have to figure out

who Dad was, in the time
that I have left with him.

Because...

we both know what's coming.

Okay.

(birds chirping)

You're heading out already?

Train leaves in an hour, Dad.

Am I ever gonna get another
weekend with my kid?

I'll be here the weekend
after next.

Brady is visiting me then.

Not exactly what I meant,
but... I'll take it.

You could come ride
with us to the station.

I'd love to, it's just, I got
a ton of stuff here to do.

Bye.

Bye.

Hey, kiddo!

(engine starting)

I'll miss you.

Ah, keys.

(eerie music)

(music playing softly)

(YOUNG KAT): Face it, Elliot. We both know
what everyone is saying

about Dad's accident.

It was a clear night,
a straight road.

There was no reason
for it to happen, unless...

Kat. Stop. He wouldn't.

Ever.

I'm leaving, El.

The University of Minnesota
takes late applications.

They have a great
journalism program.

What about your mom?

My mom doesn't see me anymore.

I'm sorry, I just...

I have to get away from here
and all of the questions.

Hope I passed.
That lab was brutal.

Um, right.

No comment.

What are you doing here?

Del had to run some errands.

And she's my unofficial guardian

while Mom's peaced out
for the weekend.

Oh, and where is your Mom?

She's at some spa, somewhere.

She needed a dose of chill,

and I needed a little
less drama.

The last couple trips
to the past have been... rough.

And it's only gonna get worse.

With Colton, I mean.

No way to avoid it,
I'm afraid.

For the first time,
it's like...

I don't want to go back.

Not even say a proper goodbye?

Well, I just...

I want to remember
the good about Colton.

I don't want to be hunted
by the bad, like Mom and Del.

I don't think I give you
enough credit.

You can be very wise
when you want to be.

Just not on this lab,
apparently.

(clears throat)
My final two cents?

I know you don't really want
to go back,

and I don't blame you.

I just wanna make sure you
don't regret anything either.

- Hey, kids.
- Hey.

- Hey!
- Haven't seen you in a while.

Yeah.

Babe, tell her about the gig.

What gig? What's going on?

You know how the new owner
of the Roxy

is doing a big
opening night thing?

- Uh-huh.
- Well, she needed a caterer...

So Spencer applied,

and he got it!
His first solo catering job!

That's amazing,
congratulations!

You must be so happy.

Okay, so, tell me what you're
thinking about the menu!

I don't know, we gotta plan!

(chuckling)

(engine stops)

(suspenseful music)

Hey. Come on in.

(breathing heavily)

(gasps)

Hey.

Are you coming in to join us?

Hang on a second.

We've met before.

Were you in my yard?

Yes. I was.

I'm so sorry. I just...
I got lost.

I moved nearby recently.

We're about to start,
so, come on, join us. Welcome.

Everyone, we have a new addition

to our grief support group.

Please, introduce yourself,

and maybe tell us a little bit

about why you've come
to join us.

Um...
(clears throat)

My name is, uh, Rose,

and I'm here because...

I lost a loved one.

It looked like you were having
a good time with your friends

when I picked you at the Point.

I hoped I didn't take you
away from them too soon.

Oh no. It's okay.

Um, they won't miss me,

they're not really
my friends, Del.

I want them to be, but I just
haven't given them the chance.

My life's been somewhere
else since I've been here.

Just too focused on what was,

and not what is.

If that makes sense.

Yeah, it does.

I think we are both
a bit stuck in the past.

Yeah. You can say that.

Hey!

I have something I want
to show you.

Come with me.

Things reminded me of John,
but...

I had Carol's voice
in my head:

"Take the sad
and make it grateful."

I'm so proud of you.

Does anyone else feel
like sharing today?

Colton?

Uh...

As you all know, uh...

The police called off the search
for Jacob,

and, uh,

the private investigator
I just hired has done the same.

Everybody's...

given up.

I don't know if I can.

I don't know if
I'm strong enough.

My wife is the strong one.
I mean, she's a rock,

she is...

She's my rock. And...

I don't know how to be
a husband anymore.

Or a dad.

My son's gone...

and so am I.

It may be sinkhole, but...

It sure is beautiful.

It's its own little world.

And you see that ice,

the pond is always
the first place

to tell me when
winter is coming.

The seasons change,
whether we like it or not.

So, I say, we take a cue
from mother nature,

and evolve right along with her.

Yeah.

Say goodbye to the past,

focus on what is.

The pond,

it freezes over
in the winter, completely?

Usually, yeah.

(sighs)

(indistinct chatter)

First session's
always the hardest.

But you found the courage
to be here, Rose,

and that's a huge first step.

This is our contact info,

and a schedule
of our meetings.

And you're welcome anytime.

Thank you, I-I really
appreciate that.

And, I should be
thanking Colton,

for bringing us a...
a new recruit.

I can't take any
of the credit.

Rose found her own way here.

But I could help you
get back home,

and give you a drive back
to Port Haven.

That would be great!

(rock music)

We're about at the road
to my farm,

where can I drop you?

Oh. Um, anywhere along here.

Oh, don't be silly.
I'd feel better

about taking you
right to your door.

No, no, no. It's...
It's fine.

Um, you know,
I'm trying to keep

this support group thing

secret from the rest
of the family, yeah.

Ah. Yeah, I know that.

Okay.

Well, if you need a ride,
um, next week to the group,

you know where to find me.

I know, it may have not sounded
like it today...

but it does help.

I'm so glad.

And, uh, thank you!

Yeah.

Oh, you're just gonna have to...

You got it.

(laughs)

Bye!

(door closes)

(birds calls)

(sinister music)

So, Colton wasn't
having an affair,

he was secretly
going to therapy.

It's unbelievable, right?

What's unbelievable
is that you sat in

on said therapy, fully visible!

No, Dad, he didn't
recognize me, okay?

And I finally got to hear
how he really felt.

I mean, he didn't feel like
he could talk to me back then,

but it's like
he's talking to me now.

I think you're playing
a dangerous game.

Not only in terms
of the space-time continuum,

but put that aside.

Befriending your dad
when you know

- what's about to happen to him?
- What is so wrong with me

wanting to spend as much time
with him as I can,

- before it happens?
- Kat...

I need to find answers.

You got answers.

- There was no affair.
- I'm...

I'm talking about the accident.

What?

Maybe I can finally find out
what happened.

- Kat...
- I mean, no, listen.

I-I refuse to accept
that it was intentional.

And from everything that
I've heard and seen

from Dad so far...

I am more confident than ever

that those terrible rumours
were wrong.

Alice told me she's ready
to say goodbye to the past.

So she'd rather remember
the good than witness the bad.

When did she tell you that?

I'm just saying,

she's not wrong.

There's a better way
to find answers

than forcing yourself
to live through a family tragedy

for the second time.

There has to be.

(knocking at door)

Alice! You're freezing.

Where's your coat, sweetheart?

I, um,

I wasn't thinking, sorry.

It's, it's really
good to see you.

You too. But Kat's
not here this weekend,

she's up visiting Brady again.

Why don't you go upstairs,
and get a towel,

dry your hair off?

Yeah, thanks.

(melancholic music)

(sighs)

_

All dry now?

Yeah.

If it isn't too much trouble,

do you think that we could play
song you taught me?

I think I know the chords,
but...

I would love a refresher.

Oh, uh...

I haven't played that
song in a while.

In fact, I haven't played...

much of anything lately.

But yeah, let's do it.

♪ Love your eyes,
how they give me a reason ♪

♪ How they change in the light ♪

♪ Hope you know you're
everything I wanted ♪

♪ In my whole life ♪

That's good!

♪ You're the reason
this garden is growing ♪

♪ You keep us calm
like a night ♪

♪ You shine like
a passage on the water ♪

♪ In the moonlight ♪

♪ In your eyes ♪

♪ There's a horizon ♪

♪ So I can find my way
back home ♪

♪ And you just know ♪

♪ When you find it ♪

♪ Then you'll never be alone ♪♪

(soft music)

(music stops)

Those words were written
in a better time.

But they still hold the truth.

You, have talent, Alice.

Keep it up.

Once a singer,
always a singer.

I will.

I promise.

(crying)

I uh, I-I can't stay.

I didn't realize
what time it is.

Goodbye, Colton.

Goodbye, Alice.

Okay, nice and tight,
my darlings.

All tucked in for the winter.

(crying)

Alice?

What's wrong, honey?

What's wrong, sweetheart?

Oh!

(sobbing)

Oh, dear. What happened?

I'm so glad you're still here.

Oh, sweetie, of course.

Elliot! Here for dinner?

Hoping to get it to go,
for two.

For two, huh?

(chuckles)
Well, it's about time.

Let me get you a menu.

(clears throat)

There you go.

(muffled laughter)

A toast!

To the class of .

I cannot believe
we made it, people!

Yeah. I just wish
Alice was here.

That makes two of us.

I still can't believe
that she just

up and disappeared,

after everything.

When do you go?

Brady comes to pick me up
this weekend.

Mom still hasn't spoken to me

since I told her I was going.

And, without Jake and my Dad,

you're the only friendly face
to see me off.

Be there, El, when I leave.

Kat, I...

I would do anything for you.
Always.

So, what'll it be?

Yeah, actually, I will...
be right back.

Hello?

Hi! Sorry.

I know it's closing time,

but can I take a really fast
look in the archives?

You're welcome to explore,
but you better make it quick.

Absolutely.

I know it's getting late.

No, I'm leaving town.

- Really?
- Yeah.

Where you head to?

Marrakesh.

I found an, uh,
an incredible riad

in the central medina.

Yeah, it'll do me good.

I don't think I'll be missed
around here much.

I needed a girls' night, Del.

Thank you, it's perfect.

Look, I, uh, I know
I'm not very good at this.

But if you'd like to talk,
I'll do the best I can.

Yeah. Well...

I don't know. I guess...

I get why you put
everything in the basement,

and why you don't talk
about the past.

It's harder to face it

and say your goodbyes to it.

You know, I think
we both need to...

stop worrying so much
about the past.

I mean, it is over,
how scary can it be?

Let's focus on who we are now,

and I, for one,
just think you are wonderful,

Alice.

I love you sweetie, I do.

I just love you.

I love you too, Del.

Grandma?

Oh.

Oh.
(laughs)

Well, that felt good.

You have no idea

how long I've waited
to hear that.

Oh!

The pond wouldn't let me go.

I tried, all day.

But it just didn't...
didn't work.

This never happened before.

It has happened, to Alice.

It just means it wasn't
the right time.

What if it was the last time?

We will find your answers
some other way.

I promise.

I trust you.

Good.

I took your hand,

the night that Dad d*ed.

Brady, he was right there,

but I took your hand

because you were the one
that I needed.

And I still do.

I need you too.

I always have.

I should have kept
holding your hand

and just... never let go.

Well...

you weren't thinking
clearly that night.

How could you have?

I mean...

how can you even be
seeing clearly now?

You have to trust me, too.

I have never...

seen more clearly.

(soft piano music)

(tense music)

(panting)

I was wondering if you
were gonna make it.

- Really?
- Sorry, you're not the only one

keeping this a secret
from their family.

I want to tell them, but...

You should.

I know that
they would understand.

Yeah.

Maybe.

Well, should we get going?

Weekly session, you need a ride.

Yes, yes, that is definitely
why I am here.

Had that dream again,
about Jacob.

I hear him crying
out for me in the root cellar.

So, I race down the stairs,
and the room is filling

with water. The waves
are crashing against the walls,

and rising up the stairs
to drown me.

And I wake up in the same
damn basement.

I just wish I could wake up
beside my wife again.

In our room.

I love her so much.

It's just not working.

And we're trying to protect...

our daughter from it.

And I know how...

abandoned...

and blamed she feels
for what happened.

And it kills me.

God, I wish...

I wish you could all
meet my daughter.

She is everything...

I wish I could be.

Everything that Del already is,

maybe more.

Rose, here, has...

has encouraged me to tell
Del and Kat about our group,

and... and I think I will.

Maybe that's the way back home.

You know, just...

talking to the ones you love,

because if I could just get
five more minutes with Jacob...

(crying)
... I would tell him everything.

Yeah, you know,
that's all I want.

Just five more minutes.

(exhales shakily)

I wish I could open up
like you did.

Don't feel bad.

You know, talking about
this stuff, it...

Well, it takes time.

Yeah, it does take time.

I...
(clears throat)

I lost my dad

in an accident.

And, uh, I wish I knew
what happened or why.

But I don't.

And suddenly, you know,
this person...

that I depended on most...

was just...

gone.

It ruined my family.

Broke everybody
that was left behind

into a million pieces.

I'm so sorry to hear that.

You know, for what it's worth,
I keep trying to tell myself,

this mess and loss,

God, it's a...

It's a weight,

it's a weight that we all carry.

And, uh,

it's gotta make you
stronger, right?

I mean, it has to.

Yeah.

And I think it did.

You know, it led me down a path

that gave me my greatest gift.

It's...

I...

I have a daughter.

I'm so glad to hear it.

Remember...

our future...

is stronger than our past,

it's our legacy.

Yeah.

(soft music)

April, May.

Where the hell's February,
Byron?

Hey!

It's nice seeing you
smile like that.

Well, to hear Dad
say those words today,

it's everything that
I've wanted to hear.

I just... it feels like
such a relief.

You've had some amazing
extra moments.

And to be in his truck,

it was like I was a kid again.

And he was just driving me home.

What's that?

The lady from the group
gave me this.

You brought that back
from ?

I didn't even know
that was possible.

Can I see that?

Yeah, but look.

Dad went to sessions
on Tuesdays,

but she also held one
on Thursday night.

Dad's crash was on
a Thursday night!

And-and, I know the drive home
from the group,

it went right past that pole.

So, Dad was driving home
from a session

the night of the crash.

So...

If the pond can take me
back the way that it did,

then I could be there
at the next session.

I can be in the car with him

to stop it from happening.

No. No, Kat.
Are we really back here?

Okay, okay, first of all,

when has the pond ever been
that predictable?

And if it is,
and you're in the car,

what if something happens
to both of you?

Kat, listen to me.

What happened
will always happen!

But what if you are wrong?

Look at Jacob.

You did research, you found him,

you brought him home,
you saw him go inside.

You did everything right,
and it still didn't work!

This is different.

No, it has to be!

I can't keep doing this, Kat.

I can't...

keep talking about the past.

I told you I needed you.
I need you here, now,

in the present.

Why can't we ever be
more than the past?

Because you're the only one
who knows what it felt like.

Well, we're not
those kids anymore.

I want to talk about our future.

Or even just a future.

I need to be more to you
than what I was!

(knocking)

Mom!

(door opens and closes)

You lied to me! Both of you.

And, you're going back,
aren't you? You just...

You're trying to change things?

Why are you helping her?
We both know this is pointless!

Alice, this is my choice.

Mom, please, just walk away

from all of this and come home,

and be with me, here, now.

I promise,
this is more important.

(sighs)

(upbeat music playing)

Where did you find this?

It was downstairs,
in Dad's stuff.

And I called that woman,
on the card.

And it's true.

Dad was going to sessions.

Therapy.

I don't need
my reporter daughter

to keep chasing this story.

Dad was trying to heal, Mom.

For you.

If that's true, I'm glad.

But you know, it's time
I do some healing of my own.

I keep thinking about poor
Danny Sawyer.

Frozen in time, over something
terrible that happened

so long ago.

But I've been just as frozen.

Until...

you and Alice came home

and forced me to face the past.

Open up the boxes.

Accept it.

I just want you to accept
the right version of the past.

I promise I'll try.

That's all I can ask.

For both of us.

Okay, I'm gonna head to bed.
What about you?

I think I'll stay up
for a while,

listening to this music.

Okay.

♪ Be mine ♪

(sighs)

♪ Be mine ♪

♪ For the rest of my life ♪♪

Delly.

Dance with me.

What's gotten into you?

You haven't listened to a record
in such a long time.

I want to win you back, Delly,

I want to win it all back.

I know I've made mistakes.

But... you're my home.

You're my home, Delly.
You always have been,

and you always will be.

- I've gotta go.
- What?

- I'm sorry.
- Why?

Tomorrow,

you and me,
we're gonna sit at that table,

and I'm going to
tell you everything.

We can get this back, Delly.

Just give me until tomorrow.

Oh, and hey!

Don't forget about
the Snow Moon tonight.

I hear it's gonna be
a real beauty.

(ominous music)

Col...

Hey.

Good night, kiddo.

Mom,

do you think that you could
sleep in here tonight?

Like we used to?

I miss that too.

As teenagers, our sleepovers.

I miss you now.

I miss my mom.

Oh, yes!

Yes, the Landry Eiderdowns.

I actually underlined
this for you.

It was a message,
and, maybe a goodbye.

"It's no use, going back
to yesterday

because I was a different
person then."

I should have known.

(chuckles)

(sighs)

Come here, baby.

I wish I could just
jump back into the pond

and go back to the start.

I really wish things
could be different.

I know.

I do too.

(tense music)

(breathing heavily)

What?

No.

No. No, no, no, no, no, no.

(suspenseful music)

(panting)

Okay.

(exhales deeply)

_

"Neighbouring farmer was
the first to report the crash.

"First Response...

"Witness claimed
to have seen two women

running through the woods."

Two wom...

Mom!

Alice! What,
what are you doing here?

Mom, you can't be here!
Okay, you can't see this!

It's not going to happen,
okay?

I can stop this.

But you have to go and let me.

Just let me fix things.

Mom, you can't!
It's not gonna work, okay?

It's just not.
It's not gonna happen.

It's not going to happen,
Alice,

because we're here now!

Alice!

(inaudible)

(low pulsating)

No, no.

Hey!

It's okay, hey.

I got you.

It's gonna be okay,
you're okay, you're okay,

you're okay, you're okay.

(breathing heavily)

Daddy, it's okay.
I'm here, Daddy.

I love you

and I always will
and you're gonna be okay.

Do you hear me?

Hey, kiddo.

I love you too.

My Katherine.

What?

What?

Daddy?

(sobbing)

(sobbing)

(distant sirens wailing)

Mom.

Mom, we have to go.
We can't get caught here, okay?

Mom, are you listing to me?

Give me your hand. Come on, Mom.

♪ I've been
a prodigal daughter ♪

♪ A lamb to the slaughter ♪

♪ Baptize me twice ♪

♪ Drown in holy water ♪

♪ Virgin Mary for sale ♪

♪ Looked like me,
so I bought her ♪

♪ Hands raised to the clouds ♪

♪ But I never found water ♪

(sirens blaring)

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Looking for,
looking for water ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Looking for,
looking for water ♪

♪ Looking for,
looking for water ♪♪