21x01 - If Walls Could Talk

[bunniefuu]

MEREDITH: On average,

a healthy person can hold
their breath for up to a minute.

I could have all of you
replaced by tomorrow.

What about me?

Can you replace me?

After that, carbon dioxide in your blood

starts to dramatically rise.

Do you know how many doctors
I have replaced in my career?

Your rejects can stay,

but your salary will pay for the lawyers

who will fix their mistakes.

You're done here, Dr. Bailey. Goodbye.

♪

- No.
- Get out of my office.

I refuse to allow my job to be taken

by someone who only
operates on spite and greed.

You don't see faces. You see dollars.

That's because this
hospital and your leadership

is costing me money!

This profession is a
calling, not a business.

When was the last time you
actually stepped into an OR,

saved a human life with your hands?

I was doing penis transplants

while you were
knee-deep in the sandbox.

[SCOFFS] You strut around
and straighten Richard's tie

while the rest of us do the work.

No, I do the work.

They do the work.

You don't get to fire me.
You don't deserve to fire me.

You think you're God's
gift to this hospital?

Please. It won't even notice the
second you walk out that door.

You're just another doctor.

♪

- Eventually, a reflex is triggered.
- [GASPS]

And if you resist the
urge to let it all out...

- You had the dream again?
- ... you pass out...

- What happened this time?
- I slapped her.

... and you don't know all the damage

you could have caused.

[PROTESTORS SHOUTING INDISTINCTLY]

♪

♪ You said that you believe in leavin' ♪

♪ I do too ♪

[INDISTINCT SHOUTING CONTINUES]

Yeah, we're gonna be here a while.

They shut down the whole
bridge for the protesters.

[EXHALES SHARPLY]

- You okay?
- Yeah. I'm fine.

- You sure? You look... weird.
- Thanks?

So...

[SIGHS]

... I Spy or m*rder podcast?

♪

Actually, there is something
that I should talk to you about.

- So, um...
- MAN: Save our planet!

Solutions, not pollution!

Is that trash?

Hey! Stop polluting! Start living!

[CHUCKLES]

- What? They're saving the planet.
- By throwing trash

and risking their lives bungee jumping?

Well, these events always
attract a few rogue players,

but it's the overall
message that's important.

[PROTESTORS CHANTING INDISTINCTLY]

Just do your thing already.

Do you know what global warming has done

to the insect disease vectors?

The tick population has exploded.

Do you want Lyme disease, Jo?

The 10 hottest years have
happened in the last decade...

- [CAR HORN HONKING]
- Well, we're late in eight minutes.

♪

- Who are you stalking now?
- No one.

Adams has to give his decision today.
About Chicago.

Oh, Dr. Fox didn't
change her mind about him.

- Why wouldn't he go?
- Because... Griffith.

You know, at this point, we
should just fire ourselves.

Griffith tried that already.

- Well, Griffith's right here.
- Just...

if you told him how you
feel, he'll change his mind.

She staged a coup on his behalf.

- How does that not say...
- Still here.

Because it's Adams.

[PROTESTORS CHANTING INDISTINCTLY]

[HORN HONKING]

Okay. You know what? Here.

Hi! Hi, yeah. We compost!
Can you let us through?

We love trees!

♪

- Where is Simms Memorial?
- Spokane, I think. Why?

A recruiter says
they're interested in me.

No, it's in Eugene, Oregon.

That is far, but a job is a job.

- I will commute.
- I just wish you didn't have to look.

Dr. Meredith Grey?

Check the third floor.

Your picture's in the hall.

Not for long.

It's an injunction
from the Fox Foundation.

If you don't respond, you could be
held in contempt of the court.

- Okay. Do you want to go to jail?
- [CELLPHONE CHIMES]

Because I really, really don't.

- [GASPS] Oh.
- What?

NYU pulled their funding.

Fox Foundation sent a Cease and Desist.

Well, that's the second institution

that has dropped us in... a week.

- Mm-hmm.
- What are we gonna do?

We're gonna keep packing.

I still don't have
any notes for Thursday.

I swear to God,

if somebody doesn't
find my damn cellphone...

Hi, baby!

- Hey, Mama.
- Oh!

Coffee, Ingrid. Mwah!

Alright. How was London?

When you texted me about Meredith,

you failed to mention you
fired Hunt and Altman, Mom.

Well, don't forget about
Shepherd and Bailey.

- Really?
- Oh, come on. I kept the interns.

Richard reminded me that if I didn't,

we'd lose our government
funding for the program.

And Lord knows we can't
stand to lose another dime.

These are top surgeons
we're talking about.

If they can't respect the foundation,
then they shouldn't work for it.

End of story.

What about Meredith?

You at least try to talk
to her since she quit?

I wouldn't talk to that
entitled fire starter

if we were the last two
remaining people on this earth

and it was the only way
to save civilization.

Okay. Did you read
their abstract, at least?

- Of course I did.
- Okay.

- Data seems pretty incredible.
- [CHUCKLES] Yeah.

That's why we're not gonna
stop until we get it all back.

Mm-hmm.

WOMAN: Elena Bailey Clinic.

- How may I direct?
- [SIGHS]

Ms. Nevins needs an updated...

- Prescription. I got you.
- Thank you.

I know volunteering at the clinic

isn't exactly what you had
in mind when you left SFD.

I am helping people and you.

But, uh, it might not
be for much longer.

Residency director at Seattle Pres

can squeeze me in for
an interview next week.

Uh, what about Grey-Sloan?

I'm not applying to any Fox hospitals.

- Your loyalty isn't necessary.
- Catherine let you go.

- You.
- [SIGHS]

I don't trust her, and
you want to slap her.

- And then...
- Then... ?

What?

[EXHALES SHARPLY]

I heard a rumor that the new
residency director starts today.

Oh. Well... good.

- You're okay?
- [SCOFFS]

I'm in my clinic.

I've got more time for the kids,
opportunities to pursue research.

Never been better.

I wish the new person... best of luck.

They'll need it.

Mm-hmm.

WOMAN: 1335 West.

1335 West.

Whoa! Sorry.

It's all good. [CHUCKLES]

Nervous?

A-About the new boss.

Right. N-No.

Yasuda said today is the deadline.

Yeah. End of day. I haven't decided.

Both places have their pros and cons.

SYDNEY: The energy is so warm in here,

it reminds me of a mother's womb.

[LAUGHS CHEERFULLY] Not that I remember

being in one, but...

Hi, I am Sydney Heron.

I am your new fearless leader.

I mean, not new new.

You know, I did my residency here.

So think of me as one of you guys, okay?

Who's ready to heal with love?

Uh, shouldn't we be
getting our assignments?

- While moving quickly?
- Uh, no.

The better I know you, the
better surgeon I can make you.

So, name? Nickname?

Novel you've always wanted to write?

Who wants to go first, huh?

[CHUCKLES]

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

Hey, you two, congratulations...

on... making it to work
through the traffic.

- You drive electric, Schmitt?
- I ride a bike.

Even better. Hey, you're with me today.

- Meet me downstairs in 20.
- Okay.

I keep trying to tell him,
and then everyone got fired

and it felt weird to
celebrate... something.

[TELEPHONE RINGING IN DISTANCE]

And I'm scared of how he's gonna react,

and I'm scared of how I'll
react to how he reacts.

- [SIGHS] Okay.
- What?! I don't make fun of your fears.

It's literally what our
entire friendship is based on.

Oh, whatever.

He thinks the world is
gonna end tomorrow anyway

from melting ice caps, so
maybe none of this matters.

Maybe it doesn't matter
if you don't have a baby,

because I won't be a peds
surgeon that can take care of it.

- Why does my baby need surgery?
- That was a hypothetical.

No, your peds fellowship
is a hypothetical.

I'm actually pregnant.

You don't think that that
is minimizing my fears?

I have to throw up.

You can't just use that as
an excuse to not answer the...

♪

Ndugu, I saw that you
put my name on the board

for the Ivor Lewis this afternoon.

You need to find someone else.

I need help upstairs.

Thanks to your wife, my
department's down Altman,

and I'm running Owen's service.

And I'm the interim chief.

Are you avoiding the OR after
what happened with Garrett?

Once his aneurysm ruptured,
he had a high mortality rate,

no matter what we did.

Yes, it was a bad outcome,

but that's just what it was.

Not a sign of anything else.

I didn't ask your opinion.

I'm not scrubbing in
on complex procedures.

[TIRES SCREECHING IN DISTANCE]

IAN: No! No, no, no!
Don't die! Don't die!

♪

Is he dead?! Is he dead?!

Is this simple enough for you?

♪

Jackson! Hey.

I read your article on
salvaging compromised flaps.

- I don't know how you...
- Where is she?

Uh... Welcome back.

You know, you're supposed
to respond to these, Mer.

You have a lawyer?

- Can you recommend one?
- Meredith.

Can you tell Catherine to stop sending

Cease and Desist letters to everyone

who's interested in a
potential Alzheimer's cure?

Your abstract broke the field.

- What do you expect?
- Right.

And now a lot of people
want to work with us.

Those people aware of
your misuse of funds?

Breach of contract? That
you signed a non-compete?

I'm not here to make
things easier for you.

I was also the source of those letters.

Something you would know if you
answered any of my calls or texts.

[SIGHS]

♪

Look, I need a crash
cart under C-collar!

Adams, fire department's on
the way. Can you feel the pulse?

Uh, I'm trying, but he looks pretty...

- [GASPS]
- Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. There's a pulse.

Diminished breath sounds bilaterally.

Abrasions. No apparent deep lacerations.

I'm Dr. Adams. Can
you tell me your name?

- C-Charlie...
- Charlie? We're gonna get

you out of here, okay?

I think you're gonna be okay,

but we need to get you inside.

- I'm gonna be in so much trouble.
- It was an accident.

I don't even have my license yet.

I snuck out with the car
to go get boba, and then

I was somehow... I
was in the wrong lane,

and then I was on the freeway,
and then there was a couple guys

hanging from the bridge.

And then suddenly one just
fell into my dad's car.

- What the hell happened?
- Bungee jumper off the bridge,

his cord snapped.

[Charlie vomits] LUCAS: Damn it!

WINSTON: Hold on. Nobody touch the car

till we can secure his airway.

- He gonna be okay?
- RICHARD: Kwan, get the kid inside.

Protect his airway.

He'll be impossible to
intubate in this position.

Insert this all the way
to the back of his mouth.

Alright. How do I know
when it's all the way in?

You'll feel resistance.

- Okay.
- Good.

How's she doing?

She's okay.

SIMONE: Wanda Gallagher, 67.

History of DVT, currently on warfarin.

Sustained blunt trauma to the neck

- after being struck with an object.
- A police baton.

I wasn't struck with it.
I kind of ran into it.

Because you were resisting
arrest from the Seattle Police.

She was protesting,

even though she promised me
she was done with all that

after I bailed her out
last year for vandalism.

I wasn't resisting arrest.

I was trying to separate
myself from the disrupters.

They ruin it for the rest of us.

Also, last year was a misunderstanding.

Mm-hmm. Passion so
important in one's life.

Dr. Yasuda? Plan?

I don't see any hard
signs of vascular injury,

but we should run labs to check her INR

and do a cervical CT angio

since she is at high risk for bleeding

because of her blood thinners.

Bleeding? Mom, this sounds serious.

You know what's also serious?

The effect of wildfire
particles on the young person's

respiratory system.

Might as well have them start
smoking in elementary school.

I'm fighting for my grandchild,

which is more than
their mother is doing.

I'm growing it.

And where was this concern
when I was growing up?

You worked for one of the biggest oil
companies in the world.

I need to go call Michael
and tell him what happened.

Excuse me. Unreal.

[INDISTINCT ANNOUNCEMENT OVER INTERCOM]

[EXHALES SHARPLY, GASPS]

Bailey!

- You back?
- Shh! Shh.

- And... no.
- [WHISPERING] Then what are you doing?

- None of your business.
- Mm.

Okay, wait. I heard the new
residency director started.

- Have you seen them?
- [GAGS]

What... ?

SYDNEY: You remind me of myself

- when I was an intern, Dr. Miller.
- It's Millin.

Inquisitive, you know,
direct, air of mystery.

Always important to... to keep
that sense of wonder and awe.

[GASPS] Miranda Bailey! Come here!

- [GIGGLING]
- J... Uh... Mm.

Sydney.

Oh, isn't this fun?

Having a new generation of lady doctors

alongside our generation
of lady doctors,

all working together to make
the world a better pla...

You know, oh, Dr. Bailey and I

were co-residents back in the day

and quite competitive, am I right?

We... had our moments.

Uh... Oh! Look at that.

A 911 at the clinic. I better get back.

Clinic? Look at you doing
the clinic thing again.

Good for you.

You know, I cannot imagine
being out of the OR,

but, you know, if it works for you...

great.

So, uh, where were we?

Um, oh, yeah.

And I'm the one that brought you in.

I rearranged whole
departments, I fundraised.

I hired Nick and Amelia.

Well, I was never officially hired.

No one asked you to hire Nick.

Nick could have gotten a job anyway.

Oh, that's not the
point, and you know it.

Okay, this is not just
about you and my mom.

I brought you in so that I could
be a part of groundbreaking work.

If it were just you, that would be okay.

- But it isn't.
- You have no idea

how much you two are alike.

Catherine broke more rules in all of us,

but she was strategic about it.

She understood how to play the game.

I don't have time for games.

Give Amelia, Owen, and
Teddy back their jobs.

I'll sell a percentage
of my shares of Grey-Sloan

and I can pay you back everything.

This isn't about money. Not anymore.

I don't know why her ego
should inhibit this work.

What about you?

You know how many people

are desperately waiting for help,

and progress takes money.

We have it.

What are you suggesting?
You want my first born?

Worse.

Apologize.

♪

Charlie Scott, 29, fell headfirst

- 30 feet into the windshield.
- How is he alive?

Oh, X-rays show a
displaced clavicle fracture,

rib fractures, buckle
fracture of the sternum,

bilateral hemothoraces,
and a hand injury.

Looks like somebody shattered
a crystal vase inside his chest.

Alright, Adams, what's our next move?

Bilateral chest tubes and
pan-scan him from head to toe.

You got it. Let's prep for
bilateral thoracostomies.

Well, it looks like you have
all your bases covered. Okay?

With all due respect, he has
multiple traumatic injuries,

and we're short surgeons.

We need all hands on deck. Chief.

♪

Where's his right index finger?

Severed on impact. Adams,
do we have the finger?

- I have no idea.
- Then find it.

As a surgeon, you should
know how important a digit is.

Give me gloves.

♪

Your heart rate's elevated.

Last time I snuck the car
out, I dented the bumper.

I was grounded for two weeks.

They'll never trust me
behind the wheel again,

which means I'll never
pass my driver's test.

Well, there's always ride-shares.

You shouldn't be driving
without a license.

But you didn't cause that wreck.

It was an accident.
Happens with the best of us.

Do you have any idea
what it's like to be

in your dad's car all
by yourself one moment,

then all of a sudden,
bam, someone just shows up,

completely blindsiding you?

Have you called your parents?

You have your phone, right?

It's in the car still.

Look, I can't go back in there.

We're so sorry, Ms. Gallagher.
Radiology is backed up.

The protests brought
in a surge of patients.

- How was your pain?
- Oh, barely feel it.

- Uh, where's Lacey?
- On the phone, in the waiting room.

She was always closer to her dad.

Hey. I worked at a pipeline
company for 20 years.

Helped get her to college,
but the hours were long.

Didn't allow for a lot
of mother-daughter time.

- Do you still work there?
- No. I quit 10 years ago.

I've been an activist ever since.

I worked in the PR department

After the eighth oil leak,

I decided I can't write
another press release.

You know, if our hearts
were really going out

to the community,

we'd stopped spilling the damn stuff.

That's why I'm on the
front-lines fighting.

My daughter will never
let me meet my grandbaby

if I get arrested again.

Hey, do I have time to go to
the bathroom before my scan?

Uh... Sure. I'll show you where it is.

- Thank you.
- Mm-hmm.

So, you can't imagine doing
good things for people?

Then you don't get to be a doctor.

I'll tell you what you need to get...

Where are the damn urinary cups?

Uh, Bed 4's all checked in.

Should I tell her that you'll be there

after you take your anger
out on these gauze pads?

Her philosophy is "to heal with love."

Love does not heal. Science heals.

- Medicine and trained doctors heal.
- 100%.

- What are we talking about?
- [EXHALES SHARPLY]

Richard replaced me with Sydney Heron.

Sydney Heron. We were in
the same residency class.

She took my interns when I was pregnant

and slowed them down

with positivity and smiles
and... and butterflies.

Sounds... evil?

I am the one that got those
residents back in shape.

I went on to be chief resident

and I stayed to be an attending here

while she took a job in Florida.

- Florida!
- Yeah, but you've got your clinic,

your research ideas.

Don't throw my words
back at me, Ben Warren.

Ndugu's doing a quick
consult. He'll meet us in CT.

Okay. I'm surprised to
see you with us, Schmitt.

You've been spending most of your time

- with Dr. Beltran.
- Um, right.

Uh, I actually might
be reassessing peds.

Reassessing?

I might want to keep my
options open for a bit.

Maybe stay in general surgery like you.

Schmitt, you're a fifth
year and a chief resident.

You need to be clear on what you want,

or no one's gonna take you seriously.

Understood. Sir, I just
want to make sure that...

[MONITOR BEEPING WILDLY]

Left chest is full of blood.

He's getting more
hypertensive and tachy.

We're gonna take him straight to the OR.

I'll page Ndugu on the way.

♪

[TOILET FLUSHES IN DISTANCE]

Excuse me. There are two police
officers in the exam room.

They want to speak to my mom.

After she's done in the bathroom,
we'll take her to radiology.

- They can speak to her after that.
- Did her results come back?

According to her labs, her
blood is clotting too slowly,

so we would like to
admit her for observation.

And she should really
speak to her primary doctor

- about managing her blood thinners.
- [SCOFFS] Good luck.

My mom is more concerned
with Puget Sound

and its population of
zooplankton than her own health.

She's not wrong. It's
what the salmon eat.

It's like a whole
thing. I read about it.

How long has she been in the bathroom?

♪

Mom? Mom!

- Are you okay?
- SIMONE: Ms. Gallagher?

She couldn't have just... disappeared.

Or... maybe she could have?

She climbed into the ceiling.

Your assistant isn't at her desk.

I'm sure she'd call security.

- I'm here out of respect for Jackson.
- [GROANS]

Catherine? Catherine!

Damn it! Catherine!

Catherine.

Catherine!

Why aren't you in the OR?

Because I'm looking for our
patient's finger... index, right hand.

I can't believe the
guy who lost a digit

scored higher on the ABSITE than me.

I didn't lose it.

Our patient did when he
busted through the windshield.

- Help me look.
- Can't. Looking for Ian's phone.

- Finger trumps phone.
- I'll give you a finger.

Have you always been an ass,

or did it start when that girl left you?

- What are you talking about?
- Your fiancée.

Molly, right?

Ex-fiance. And she didn't leave me.

You know what? Forget
I ever said anything.

[SIGHS]

Aha!

[CHUCKLES]

Bye, loser.

We tried to track all
the different routes

she could have taken, but
security will only allow

maintenance in the ceiling, so...

So are they in the ceiling looking?

What exactly is the protocol?

Patients usually stay on the ground.

Lacey. Lacey. I want... Okay.

- I want you to try to stay calm, okay?
- Mhm.

Okay? Let's keep
that baby safe, right?

So what they're trying to
say is there is no protocol

'cause this has never happened before.

Which is strange because
odd things often happen here.

But we will find her.

So take a seat. Deep breaths. Yep?

[BREATHING DEEPLY]

Good. Great.

[INDISTINCT ANNOUNCEMENT
OVER INTERCOM]

Okay. Now...

We're gonna keep looking.
I think I'm gonna go to the left.

I swear, we had no idea...

Whoa, who else was nervous
about her going into labor?

It's just what we need, right?

A baby in the lobby and
Grandma in the ceiling.

So I'm gonna forward you the
hospital blueprint I received.

And also, I issued a
hospital-wide alert, so...

That... that's it?

You're not gonna get mad or yell at us?

Yell? Oh. How silly. No. Hop to it.

- Preferred yelling.
- Obviously.

[MONITORS BEEPING WILDLY]

LEVI: I don't see how
gluing yourself to a train

or... blocking a bridge will
save us from climate change.

You tell that to the
people who marched across

the Edmund Pettus
Bridge for civil rights.

GIA stapler, Bokhee.

That is a compelling
point, and I apologize.

LINK: Research has shown that
a lot of childhood diseases

could have been caused by some
kind of environmental exposure.

Contaminants, pesticides, solvents.

We have the solution to
prevent pain and loss,

but instead, we just
keep making it worse.

- I apologize again.
- WINSTON: Alright.

We stapled the lung bleeders,

ligated the intercostal
artery, even clamped the hilum.

Still bleeding. Where's it coming from?

It must be venous. Coming
from above. The subclavian?

No, that's too far north.

The displaced clavicle
fracture could have injured it.

Alright. Fine. Let's check.

Okay, Schmitt, let's retract
the lung out of the way

so we can see, okay?

Ah, that there. See
that break in the pleura?

Now, it must be the subclavian vein.

Alright. Um, clamp. Let's ligate.

No, no, no, you won't
get enough access here.

You're gonna have to do a
subclavian incision higher up.

The patient's bleeding out.

I'm not doing another
incision. Clamp. Now.

♪

Damn it. I can't get full visualization.

Like I said, it's impossible
from that approach.

♪

Alright, I'll do a subclavian incision,

but we need to move fast,

and I need everyone's help
resecting the clavicle.

So let's pack him and reposition.

♪

[GROANS]

Are you in any pain?

What happened?

You collapsed.

CT shows subacute Budd Chiari syndrome.

You have a blood clot in
your hepatic vein and IVC

due to the hypercoagulable
state of your cancer.

- Did you call Jackson or Richard?
- Not yet.

Okay, then.

I need to start you
on anti-coagulation.

I want to start a heparin drip,

and we'll run some tests
and do some more labs

and see if you're a candidate
for a TIPS procedure.

You'll do heparin only, nothing more.

I'm not pursuing any
invasive treatments.

I know. You could go into liver failure.

What about the tumor on your spine?

Do you know about that?
I saw it on your scans.

I do know about it.

But Richard and Jackson don't.

And you are not going to tell them.

♪

Hey, uh, Heron paged
me, said you needed help

looking for a patient.

It's okay.

- I get it.
- What?

Chicago.

You should go.

Whatever you and I are or... were...

Security thinks she went south.

Not-Bailey said a patient
was in the ceiling.

Please tell me there's
a translation for that.

There is a patient in the ceiling.

I've spent my entire day
looking for people and fingers.

- Millin probably digs Heron.
- Why would you say that?

Well, she heals with
love. Probably meditates.

- She's untraditional.
- No, she touched my hair.

No one should touch hair. I miss Bailey.

- Me too.
- Adams got us into this mess.

Bailey was standing up for him.

No way. She was standing
up for all of us.

And I never asked anyone to do that.

- Ah, well, Griffith did.
- Can everyone just shut up

and find the patient?

It'll go faster if we split up.

Get brooms.

♪

♪

Griffith, I've worked with this hospital

long enough to know hardly
anyone uses this closet,

and nothing I'm taking will be missed.

- We lost a patient.
- Well, losses come with the job.

No, no, no, she's... not dead.

We literally don't know where she is.

[SCOFFS] Not my problem anymore.

It should be.

♪

Why aren't you fighting for your job?

Is it that easy to
leave after everything

you've been through with us?

Why aren't you banging on doors?

Yelling? I thought you believed in us.

- I thought...
- [BANGING]

- [WANDA, MUFFLED]: Hello?! Excuse me!
- Oh, my God.

- Oh, hell no.
- Hello? A little help, please?

- Security is on their way.
- What'd they say?

- They mostly laughed.
- [WANDA, MUFFLED]: I'm so sorry.

I just... I saw the
police, and I got so nervous

and I thought that it would
lead straight to the next room,

but then I fell over
something in the dark,

and I landed, trapped between the walls.

Okay, we're getting help,
Wanda. Just hang in tight.

Okay. I just... I really need to pee,

and it's getting harder to breathe.

- Oh, are you claustrophobic?!
- She could be bleeding.

- Her neck is...
- What?

She sustained blunt trauma to the neck.

She had a small contusion.

She disappeared before
we were able to scan her.

She's on blood thinners
from a history of DVT.

Okay. Expanding neck hematoma
could be closing her airway.

- [LOUD THUD]
- Wanda? Wanda?

- JULES: Did she collapse?
- Say something.

- Oh, my God.
- Oh! Damn it! Oh! Hey, Millin.

Uh, get a crash cart.
Yasuda, get maintenance now!

- What is... ? Oh.
- Wanda?

- No. Uh...
- Wanda, can you hear me?

[GASPS] Oh, good, good,
good. Okay. Get out of the way.

Out of the way!

[BANGING]

You know, you really don't
have to wait with me, Dr. Grey.

Okay, well, then I should
just go tell Jackson

to watch your heparin drip.

Richard should know, too.

I'll tell them when I'm ready.

When will that be?

- When your liver fails?
- [SCOFFS]

Or when you need a transplant?

What late-stage cancer
patient gets a new liver, huh?

Which is why you should consider

letting me do the surgery for this clot.

Could we just let the heparin
have a chance to work, please?

It would not hurt to think ahead.

Do you know how much work
planning for your own death is?

And I'm not just talking
about picking out a casket

or making out a will.

I'm talking about
taking stock of your life

and making sure you've done everything

you wanna do with it.

I think about this every day,

and when I do, there's
two things that I know.

My family is perfect,
especially my grandbaby...

and I'm not ready to
sit on the sidelines.

Catherine Fox, you have
had an extraordinary career.

- What more do you want?
- What more do you want?

The more surgeries and
invasive procedures I get,

the more they define who I am.

I want people to remember
my name because of

the advances I've made in medicine,

for the risks that I've
taken to save lives,

for the firsts that I have achieved.

I would think you of all
people would understand that.

- So keep your mouth shut.
- And what if I don't?

Then you and your friends
will never get your jobs back.

You're threatening me over your health?

I've blackmailed people...

over far less.

[BANGING]

SIMONE: Can you see her yet?

I've got the crash cart.

Oh! I see her!

Ahh, she's unconscious.

Okay, okay, we gotta go.

Come on, come on.

Alright, we're coming, Wanda!

Maintenance is here! Come on, let's go.

- Hi. She's down here.
- [TOOLS WHIRRING]

♪

Is he okay? The guy, is...
is his family here yet?

I'm not sure, but I can check.

I... just made the junior
varsity tennis team

and we have a match on Wednesday.

Sophomore formal's on Saturday.

This guy might not live, and, I...

I can't do anything
ever again if he can't.

You can. You'll pick up the
racquet, put on the suit,

or get behind the wheel again,

and you'll put one foot
in front of the other.

And it'll suck for a while,

but...

eventually it'll suck less.

Look, I know it sounds
cold, but it's life.

- You really think that?
- I... do.

♪

♪ Yeah, I know what you're feeling ♪

- ♪ I can see it in your eye ♪
- Good. Thank you.

Pulse is weak, but it's there.

Okay. She needs an airway
right now. Tube please.

JULES: On it.

- Alright. Thank you.
- There you go.

- ♪ I know it haunts you ♪
- Good, good, good, good.

Ahh, come on, come on. Damn it.

It's too much compression.
I won't be able to get it in.

We need to decompress the hematoma.

Millin, betadine. Griffith,
be ready to pack the wound.

Yasuda, oxygen.

- ♪ If your fire burns out ♪
- Scalpel. You ready?

♪ I'll keep it smoldering
on this side of town ♪

♪ And I'll walk with
you on your way out ♪

Oh, goodness. [EXHALES SHARPLY]

- Hit her. Pack.
- Okay.

We need to get her to an OR.

WINSTON: He's getting too
hypotensive. We need to move fast.

LINK: Alright. Removing the clavicle.

♪ Then I'll be right
here when you come around ♪

Alright, alright. I see the injury.

- Clamp.
- ♪ Yeah, I'll be right here ♪

- There we go.
- ♪ I'll be right here ♪

Alright, bleeding's stopped.

We've got proximal vascular control.

- 5-0 proline.
- ♪ Yeah, yeah ♪

Dr. Webber, you caught the bleed.
Why don't you do the honors?

No. Go ahead. You're already there.

No, no, I insist.

♪

♪ So, feel it and feel
it go ahead and give in ♪

You want to stay in
general surgery, Schmitt?

- Time to step up.
- ♪ ... not something you're given ♪

Let's do it.

I found the finger! Uh,
well, Kwan did, but it's here.

- Keep going, Schmitt.
- It's too late.

- ♪ And if your fire burns out ♪
- Let's go.

Hey, uh, we had to
decompress the hematoma.

Her sats have been increasing
over the last three minutes,

but she needs a formal neck
exploration and closure in the OR.

- Okay, we are headed straight there.
- Yep.

Special thanks for helping
my interns, Miranda.

Yeah, you can go now.
Yeah, I got it from here.

♪ And if your fire burns out ♪

♪ Then I'll be right
here when you come around ♪

♪ Yeah, I'll be right here ♪

I'm sorry about the planet.

Sorry about your ABSITE.

Damn it, Jo.

Kyler Murray, ninth overall
pick in the 2018 draft

by the A's... top left fielder,

but also... the number one overall
pick for the Arizona Cardinals.

Cardinals is football.

- Okay.
- Okay, um...

take Quidditch. Harry, he's the seeker.

But there's no reason he
couldn't also be a chaser.

They all fly brooms. They
all train the same way.

He might not even know
yet if he has the skills

to try a different position.

You're gonna be a good dad.

[CHUCKLES] I already am.

That's what I meant.

[TELEPHONE RINGING IN DISTANCE]

Hey, were you able to reattach it?

Uh, it had been too long.

Lincoln just closed
the wound with a flap.

She saved me.

Molly.

When... when my mom was sick,
I was drowning in grief,

and... she pulled me out of it.

One day, we got into an ugly fight.

And... before I knew it, she drove away.

S-She didn't even
make it to the highway

before she was hit by reckless driver.

And... just like that...

I was a stranger.

And I...

I... I couldn't stay.

♪

I'm sorry.

Yeah.

Me too.

♪ I know you won't admit it ♪

♪ But there's a rip in the page ♪

♪

♪ A pause in the rhythm ♪

♪ A story in the space ♪

- Is she gonna be okay?
- She is.

We found the source of the
bleeding and stopped it.

We'll go over her recovery
with her in the morning,

- if you'd like to join me.
- ♪ You're gonna hurt me ♪

♪ Trying not to hurt me ♪

You almost got yourself k*lled. Again.

You climbed into a ceiling?

♪ I already know ♪

I don't wanna talk about this right now.

Of course you don't. [SCOFFS]

You march on bridges and scream
at CEOs and fight fossil fuels,

but you won't even talk
to your own daughter.

♪

I know you're trying to make
up for what you did in the past,

but that should include me, too.

You want a relationship
with your granddaughter.

[CRYING] Well, I wanted a
relationship with my mother.

♪

♪ If you're scared
of the message ♪

♪ Let go, you're safe ♪

♪

Wanda's in the ICU.

Her wound explanation was simple.

We irrigated, ligated, and...

Dr. Heron let me close.

How nice.

♪

And I did fight.

Putting my job on the
line for all of you?

That was me fighting.

What happened, it's not your fault.

You can't carry everyone else's
choices on your shoulders.

♪ You're keeping
me at arms length ♪

- Hey.
- ♪ When I already know ♪

You always know where to find me.

♪ You're keeping me at arms length ♪

♪ Keeping me at arms length ♪

♪

♪

What's with the urgent text?

Uh, I wanted to go
over Charlie's surgery

with you again, step by step.

Well, did something
happening? Is he okay?

No, he's fine. He's still stable.

- Sorry. I should have led with that.
- No kidding.

Look, I gave the
vascular repair to Schmitt

because I didn't feel up to it.

And I haven't decided anything
about my future in the OR yet,

but I just don't have it in me

to do a skills assessment tonight.

Well, this isn't for
you. This is for me.

We both know I was trained by the best,

but I've been taught to operate

within a very specific specialty.

And today, when something
outside of that field went wrong,

I didn't step back to
look at the whole picture.

I want you to take me
through it all again

and show me what I missed and
why we fixed it the way we did.

Well, they taught surgery quite
differently when I trained.

This could take a while.

I got all night.

- Show me what you have.
- Alright.

Ahh. Oh, here you all are. [CHUCKLES]

In the best room in the hospital.

The room for improvement.[CHUCKLES]

Get some rest, and I will see you

bright and early tomorrow
morning, 6:00 a.m.

The early bird does get the worm!

- [GROANS]
- [SIGHS]

I need a drink. Anyone?

I need to make a call.

I don't want to get stuck in a wall.

[CHUCKLES]

Is that your way of saying

we need to talk about what happened?

- What almost happened.
- Okay, what almost happened.

- I think a patient died.
- Mm-hmm.

- We were upset.
- Mm-hmm.

And... we had a moment
where we felt terrible

- and we were just trying to...
- Not feel terrible.

- Exactly.
- Yeah.

Friends?

♪

♪

♪

[EXHALES SHARPLY]

♪

[LAUGHS]

♪

I almost told him twice today.

You have to tell him, I'm not
raising this baby with you.

- Shut up!
- [SIGHS]

I've been puking all day. It's all gone.

All the crackers and fluids and dignity.

- It's all down the toilet.
- Okay, we need a safe word

for the next nine months
for when you get too graphic.

Or mean. Like "jelly beans"
or "disinfectant" or something.

We need to put a limit
on how much you can talk.

Why are you in a good mood?

I need you to be miserable
with me. Think about peds.

No, I'm gonna think about Quidditch.

- Huh?
- I might find a new path. Or not.

For all I know, I might be some
other specialty's secret w*apon.

Quidditch? What?

♪

[CHUCKLES] Thought that
dude was eyeing Schmitt.

- Good for him.
- [GROANS]

You're turning down fries and...

wine?

♪

Are you... ?

Are we... ?

♪

♪ I see the moon
and the stars tonight ♪

[LAUGHS] Oh, my God!

♪

MEREDITH: If you do the work,

you can train yourself
to hold anything inside

without negative consequences.

♪

My shift is over.

If you need something,
I can help you inside.

I've spent the past few years
putting together memories,

trying to rebuild my life
so I can know who I am

and who I'm supposed to be.

But after everything...

I've always felt like
something was still missing.

♪ Ooh ♪

No, it...

- ♪ There's beauty ♪
- This is you.

♪ In the darkness ♪

But most people don't have
that discipline or time.

♪

They just bury it inside
and hope it stays there.

- ♪ Dance on the edge and I'm unafraid ♪
- Hey.

You should apply to Grey-Sloan. Mm-hmm.

I built a world-class program,
and you deserve to be in it.

♪ Run through the fire...
it's all a game ♪

- Even without you?
- No.

'Cause I'm getting my job back.

♪

- Don't do it.
- [LOUD KNOCKING]

Let it out. Be loud.

- Yeah! I'm coming! I swear to God...
- ♪ And into the light I go ♪

♪

- Hi.
- Hi.

Is everything...

♪ Ooooh ♪

♪ There's beauty ♪

- ♪ In the darkness ♪
- I'm staying.

- You're not going to Chicago?
- I'm not going to Chicago.

♪ Ooooh, I know that ♪

♪ We can find it ♪

♪ Ooooh ♪

Make everyone hear you.

- Because if you don't...
- How'd it go?

Good. Good.

Where the hell were you?

- You talk to my mom?
- I did, yeah.

Uh, she said you will
stop the injunctions

and the Cease and Desist letters,

and everyone can have their jobs back.

- Oh, thank God!
- And you'll continue the research?

Yes, I will.

But not here.

Not here?

I thought you said we
could have our jobs.

You can.

You should take yours in Seattle.

♪

And, uh, the research will just
go in a different direction.

♪

... it will eat you up inside.

♪

_

♪

♪

♪