02x14 - I Might as Well Die, Then...

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I don't have many memories of Rin
from when we were younger.

Other than seeing her during New Years,

I only saw her when she tagged along
when Haru visited.

She would always sit in silence
by herself in the corner.

Then she would stand up and say…

I'm sick of this. I'm going home.

I remember vaguely wondering
why she came in the first place.

But…

What? Grandfather collapsed?

Well, what is his condition?

Calm down, Tohru.

He just strained his back.

He's resting now.

Oh, he's well?

He is.
Though, he won't be moving for a while.

Don't underestimate a strained back.

Now, isn't your parent-teacher
conference soon?

Oh, yes. It's coming up soon.

Does that mean I must go?
With your grandfather in this condition…

No! Please don't worry about that!

Actually, may I go visit…

Hello? You're now speaking
to Shigure Soma.

Yes. Yes, that's right.

-Shigure…
-Oh, not to worry.

-Did something happen to your grandfather?
-Ah, yes, that's right.

-Yes, he strained his back.
-Oh? If that's so, I would be glad to.

-I see.
-Yes, that sounds perfect. Goodbye, now.

Shigure, don't just hang up!

What? But everything's set.

Tohru, she said you can go visit
your grandfather tomorrow.

What? Oh, okay…

As for your parent-teacher conference,
I'll be going instead.

What?

Yes? Up to something stupid again.

What's this? You're fed up with me?

No gratitude for me?

Well, but I had no intention

of making you go through
something so troublesome for…

Relax. It's no trouble at all.

I'm so excited to see Mayu's look
of pure loathing when she sees me.

I can't wait!

Anyway, that's how everything worked out.

You worked it out like that.

So I'll be there. Okay, Tohru?

Thank you so very much!

Is he a human worthy of
Honda bowing her head to him?

Welcome back, Kyo.

What are you all doing over there?

Parent-teacher conferences are soon,
but her grandfather strained his back.

So Shigure will be attending instead.

But is it really all right?

Of course, it's fine.

It's an important meeting
about your career plans, after all.

I'm going to sleep.

What? Okay.

Good… night…

Yuki.

Yuki, did you already talk to your parents
about your conference?

There are still various problems
that burden me.

I need to start cleaning them up…

Settling the issues and
understanding what I need to know.

Oh, no. Your gramps hurt his back?

Hips are everything to a man.

What? Is that true?

Honda, just ignore Haru's random jokes.

Oh, right. Where's Kyo?

Oh, Kyo is probably on the roof.

He's been somewhat down recently.

It's the man blues.

Haru!

That doesn't mean
you have to be down too, right?

Have a drink! Let's go buy some drinks!

Okay!

You two come too!

Okay, coming.

Momiji is an air purifier.

Haru, how did it go with Rin afterwards?

Nothing happened.

-No progress. Why?
-What drink would you like?

-Nothing really.
-Iced cocoa!

Well, Rin seems pretty stubborn.

I thought it might be tough
to talk to her.

Oh, yes.

But the more time passes,

the more I think that
she really meant what she said.

I don't need you anymore.

I'm tired of you.

Rin has a sharp tongue.
She doesn't mince her words.

But Rin doesn't say anything
to protect herself either.

I don't know anymore.

She might have really meant it.

Maybe I'm just getting scared.
I think I'm hurting pretty bad.

Machi.

See you at our next
student council meeting.

Okay.

She's the treasurer, right?
She's in my class.

What? She is?

How's the student council?

What can I say? Lots of unknowns.

That's good for you.

Yuki! Haru! Hurry up!

Right, coming!

We have various things that burden us.

SOMA

Dear, me! Welcome home, Yuki!

Welcome home.

If you had told us you were coming,
your mother would have stayed home.

She should be back tonight.

It took me a lot of effort to come here.

She's never at home, as usual.

Here. I'll contact her again,
but please pass that to her.

Why, you won't wait for her return?

Yun!

What are you doing here?
You're not here often.

Kagura. On your way back from school?

No, I ditched today. I was out for a walk.

Perfect timing.
Rin lives at your place, right?

Yes.

You think I could see her
if I waited a bit?

Well, I'm not sure.
She doesn't come home a lot of the time.

She doesn't go to school that much either.

I see…

Why? You two aren't too close.

I just need to talk to her
about something.

Right. Did something happen
between you and Kyo?

Why do you ask?

He's been down since
he met up with you the other day.

He's been kind of distant.

Even to Tohru?

Welcome back. Would you like dinner?

-I don't need any.
-Oh, okay…

Really? That's not nice.

I'm already dealing with
the pain of heartbreak.

It makes me feel guilty,
like it's my fault.

But it's fine. I'm okay.

Having feelings for someone
is so illogical.

No matter what you think with your brain,

if you have the thought of
liking someone, it's too late.

Fervently thinking of someone.

Sorry--

You make me envious.

Because it doesn't seem like
you have a speck of uncertainty.

You're not uncertain like I am.

Even with so little time left,
you so fervently…

Rin!

Rin, wait!

Rin!

Rin, what are you doing here?

Rin! Wait, I need to talk to you!

Rin, were you serious
when you dumped Haru?

He told me you two were dating.

Rin, I remembered something.

Remember you used to come visit with Haru
when I was still in that room?

You would always say, "I'm going home."

But I feel like someone else would
almost always come to my room

after you said that and left.

Thinking back, Akito wouldn't have
allowed anyone else into that room.

But Haru came to visit me.

Rin, you were protecting Haru,
weren't you?

You constantly stood watch so that
we'd know if anyone came near.

So that Haru wouldn't get into trouble.

But Rin doesn't say anything
to protect herself either.

I didn't realize it back then.

But aren't you trying to protect Haru
from something this time too?

This is what you wanted
to talk about? How idiotic.

Do you expect me to remember
something from so long ago?

And I really don't care
what happens to Haru.

You're so annoying about this "something."

I told you that what I do
is none of your business!

It's not like talking to you about it
would do anything anyway.

You're just an ignorant idiot.

Do you even know why
you were able to live at Gure's house?

Haru begged him to get you out of there.

He begged him to save you!

Want to come live with me?

That's when Gure jokingly said,
"I will if you call me 'Mr. Soma.'"

But Haru still diligently
calls him that like a moron.

It's pretty good you can
go live at Mr. Soma's, right?

What? Haru, did you always
call Shigure "Mr. Soma"?

Yes. Because Mr. Soma is Mr. Soma.

But you're the biggest idiot.

Go and have a carefree school life
or whatever like the idiot you are!

Don't bother me again, assh*le!

An assh*le?

It's not nice to call people "assh*le"…

Rin.

Haru. Why are you here?

I came over to hang out at Mr. Soma's.

You dropped your bag, Yuki.

Oh… Thanks.

Don't come near me.

Don't touch me.

So you really don't need me.

I see. I don't care anymore, then.

I might as well die, then…

I was obviously lying about dying.

Rin, did I not understand anything?

I thought I knew everything about you.

But did I…

did I not hear your most important voice?

Are you still as you were back then,
unable to rise up…

on your own?

Rin!

She had cried so much, though.

Haru, shouldn't you go after her?

No. I can't catch up if she goes all out.

Because she's a horse.

You don't seem worried.

No, that's not true.
I've come to my senses.

By the way, sorry you caught
the sharp edge of Rin's tongue.

Sharp tongue?

Oh, it's fine.

Do you even know…

Yuki.

I'm the one who has to
get it together and take care of Rin.

You don't have to worry about her.

You have to get it together
for other things, right?

Like student council stuff.

I think it's really good that
you're doing new stuff like that.

Really?

Is it all right?

Is it actually okay for me
to prioritize myself?

Aren't there other things
that I should be prioritizing?

Haru begged him to get you out of there.

He begged him to save you!

I can't even rise up on my own strength,

but you want me to
choose myself over others,

even though I've given nothing back yet?

Why do you hesitate?

Yuki, you're weak.

Yuki, you're kind.

I really value the weakness

and kindness that you have.

Don't hesitate.

Go find the place
where you truly wish to be.

You're too nice to me, Haru.

Maybe we're long-lost sisters
in our past lives.

What?

What the heck?

I have a feeling that
someone who understands

and looks for this side of you…

is waiting for you.

Keep up the fight.

I can't rise up.

I can't keep going
on my own strength alone.

Can't go forward on only my own strength…

Did you come all the way to see me?

What a delight. Thank you.

Is everything okay with
the parent-teacher conferences?

Yes, it's fine.
How do you feel, Grandfather?

I'm fine. Other than my back,
I'm as spirited as ever.

All I do is sleep, I'm nearly rotting.

I saw Katsuya and Kyoko in a dream
for the first time in a while.

How very nostalgic it was.

Katsuya and I didn't get along
in the past, you see.

And Kyoko acted like
an intermediary for us.

Katsuya himself had some peculiar habits,

so I was worried that
he and Kyoko wouldn't get along.

But they turned out to be
so happy with each other.

Why did they both have to pass away?

I want to see them once more.

I don't care if they're ghosts,
I want to see them.

I want… to go see them…

Please don't say--

I want to go see him.

Please don't say such things.

Cheer up.

I'll do anything. Ask anything!

Don't go! Come back!

Don't…

Don't take Mom away too!

What's wrong?

You don't feel good?

Tohru?

Hey, are you okay?

I'm… fine.

I feel fine. I just remembered
something from the past…

I thought I shut it away.

You surprised me, Kyo.

I thought a heavenly being
descended from above.

What? The heck does
that suppose to mean? Idiot.

Well, don't push yourself.

It's normal to be worried
when a relative is ill.

Right. You want to head home?

What? But, weren't you
on your way somewhere, Kyo?

You plan on sitting there forever?

You're so skinny.

And so puny.

What? I am not!

What, so you want to grow like Uotani?

What the heck is she going to do
if she grows to ?

Become a model?

That would be so cool. How marvelous!

Mr. Soma. Rin came earlier, didn't she?

What? Yes, what if she did?

Why can't you say it straight out?

This is why you're single.

I know.

How nice to be young like you guys.

Clumsily living your lives.

Struggling so hard to stay afloat,
though you'd float if you just relaxed.

Isn't that the life you get

after you've struggled
with everything you've got?

I like that.

Then, go ahead and struggle, Haru.

-We're home!
-Go and ask her directly.

Isn't she's your ex-girlfriend?

Did she make you swear not to tell?

I have to keep my promises to some extent.

Will you tell me if I call you "Honey"?

Sorry. That's way too gross.

Don't relax just yet, Haru.

Keep trying and struggling.

Isn't that your job as the young folk?

"See You Later."