Diary of a Sex Addict (2008)

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As a child, you spent

hours on this swing.

Why the long face?

Can I ask you a question?

- Sure.

Did you have another

love before grandpa?

He was the only man in my life.

I married because I had no choice,

but I learned to love him.

Back then they said:

"A woman without a

trade has two options:

Marriage or prostitution."

That's about the same.

What if you could start anew?

- Would Pepe be the man of your life?

- No.

If I could start anew

I'd get f*cked as much as I could.

Everyone should share your ideas.

A man who gets laid is a super macho.

If it's a woman, she's a slut.

- Sexual equality.

- Forget what they say!

If they made love more

and spoke less...

It would be better.

- It's not that simple.

What isn't?

Pay no mind, grandma.

- It's hard to explain.

- You know what you should do?

Look.

Jot down your doubts, ideas,

problems on a sheet of paper,

but interrogatively

so you can see them from

outside and understand them.

I did that at you age,

and it helped a lot.

And I still do,

but so as not to forget.

Dinner is ready.

Come on.

When you made love with grandpa,

how was it?

You're very curious.

Come, I've made shellfish

meatballs for you.

Enough for you to take to Barcelona.

I lost my virginity on

the 17th of July, 1993,

at 2:46 in the morning.

It was during a vacation period,

when I was 15.

You never forget

a moment like that.

Are you okay?

- Yes.

I remember I felt nothing,

just deep shame for

not having bled, and

that strange feeling of

having pissed in bed.

I left with the excuse

of the toilet,

with the feeling my experience

with Edouard

couldn't be like that.

A feeling that

made me go back to him.

I was lacking something.

But, what are you doing here?

- Again.

- Once again?

No, hundreds of times.

Hundreds of times.

That strange release

of energy aroused

in me a desire to communicate

through my body,

a curiosity to experience

sensations through a kiss,

a caress or the contact

of my skin.

first experience with Edouard

I live in Barcelona and still have

the same urge to experiment

through my body.

DIARY OF A NYMPHOMANIAC

My diary, it was here.

- You're writing a diary?

- I follow your advice.

- I didn't tell you to.

Just to jot down your problems

for a better perspective.

Diaries are for lonely people.

That's not true.

They have something to tell.

Because their life is different.

And they always hope that

someone will discover it,

read it to get to know the

true personality of the author.

Right, because they feel lonely.

It's the third blackout this week.

- The dark still scares you.

- This lighter doesn't work.

Don't speak badly

of me in your diary.

Of course not.

Could you write something for me?

That you're not alone,

that I'm with you.

It's about time.

I'm unbearable in the dark.

Unbearable.

You smell of fields,

of wet, recently cut grass.

Why don't you stay over?

No, I can't.

Tomorrow I have a meeting and

must prepare my presentation.

Alex, why don't you ever stay

to sleep with me? Please?

You don't want me to sleep.

No.

Don't you ever get tired?

Val, I can't keep up

with your pace.

Besides, I told you

I have a meeting tomorrow.

Come on.

Hassan.

Valerie.

Nice to hear you.

You disappeared into thin air

but I found you?

I'll be in Barcelona this week.

I want to see you?

- How about Thursday?

- Okay, I'll call you. A kiss.

- Who was that?

- Hassan.

- He's coming?

- I'll see him Thursday.

Back to my desk,

things are getting rough.

What is?

They're restructuring.

I've heard that

ever since I'm here.

Yeah, well...

I've been asked what

I feel when I make love.

It's like a mix of energy with the

other person that makes me fly

and merge with the cosmos.

The energy of my orgasm is a

small part of me that goes

and ends up mixing

with the universe.

A sidereal trip that

takes me to infinity.

In my country they say Allah

told the south wind that he'd

create the Arabian horse from it.

"So be it", said the wind.

He held a puff and tied it

to the horse's mane

so it wouldn't forget where

it came from,

but it turned out to be so fast

and cunning that no one could

ride it, and it was Ishmael,

the first faithful, who was able

to tame one of them

and called it Kuhaylan,

the Black Antelope.

You're more difficult to tame

than that first horse.

I don't know how to name you.

Are you calling me wild?

Yes.

I think I've never

f*cked you in a bed.

We can do that now, if you want.

Although... I've just had

a better idea.

Here, look.

Where are they?

You've hidden them again?

No.

Not now, Hassan, please.

I don't feel like it right now,

not today, no.

Here they are!

No, please.

No.

Not today.

Yes, yes, today.

Look, look, come on.

Good morning.

Be careful, Val, you're late again.

Want one?

I don't want to even see them,

I need coffee.

I bought a dress

for Marcos' wedding.

When I tried it on I realized

I couldn't zip it up.

So I cried like a baby and

then I called you.

You knew about Hassan.

I forgot, but I never find

you when I need you anyway.

I'm thinking of publishing

an ad to find a boyfriend.

An ad?

What do you mean?

You have to stop being obsessed.

How can you find him not going out?

I don't want just one-night stands.

You must try

before falling in love.

I need to fall in love, Val,

find a man who loves me and

perhaps buy me flowers

now and then.

I rather he fucks well.

I'll buy the flowers.

I can't stand not having anyone

to talk to at home,

to wake up alone and find

half a lemon in the icebox.

Love fills iceboxes and mine's

been empty for a long time.

I was worried. You didn't call

yesterday to say good night.

I got home late.

I had dinner with some friends.

- Did you like the meatballs?

- Yes, delicious.

I'm hanging up.

I must finish your sweater?

- I love you, I love you.?.

- Me too. Till tomorrow, grandma.

Tame me.

- What?

- Tame me.

You deserve some flowers.

I want to f*ck all night long.

I can't. I can't. I can't, Val.

- I have to go.

- What's the matter?

No, Val. Val, Val, Val, Val.

I have to tell you something.

- You have a girlfriend.

- You knew?

I imagined but, don't worry,

I'm not jealous.

Besides, I never asked you if you

were alone. It's not my problem.

I didn't think

you'd take it like that.

You wanted me to cry?

Val,

we must stop seeing each other.

I want to fly.

Val, Val, Val.

Haven't you understood?

Can't you think of anything else?

You got a problem.

You can't spend all day

thinking about f*cking.

I do, but you're an S.O.B..

Don't ever call me again, okay?

Never!

f*ck!

Alex, another man who has left me.

the loneliness, the silence.

I need some air.

What? Are you new here?

This is my turf, baby! b*at it!

Go work somewhere else.

Some days I'd spend hours in

the shower, feeling the water,

forgetting everything.

But I can't get Alex

off of my mind.

I liked him a lot.

Like him, many others

just want to f*ck me,

and I like that,

but it hurts

because, above all, I'm a woman.

Darling, I was calling

to say good night,

but I guess your out

having a good time?

You are so right!

Enjoy it while you're young?

Bye. A kiss.

It's not fair, Val, they're pigs.

You give them part of

your life, and they fire you.

Want a hand?

Forget it, I was fed up anyway.

Weren't you on a diet?

How can I be being so depressed?

You get it, I don't work here.

Yes?

So, Valerie can't attend to you,

she no longer works here. Bye.

Yes?

Speaking.

I got furious when I found

out they called you.

Thanks for coming,

but there's no need.

I got a few days vacation at work.

I'd have come anyway.

Don't look like that, Val.

I've no intention of dying so soon.

It was just a slight problem.

My heart is holding out.

Doctors always exaggerate.

- What is wrong with you?

- Nothing.

Val, I know you well.

Is it over a man?

One?

Over all of them.

Do you know what nymphomania is?

I think that's my problem.

I can't control it.

I need sex.

I see a man and I need him.

But no one understands that.

People stare at me.

It happens with strangers

that don't attract me.

I'm scared.

Scared of not being

like other women.

Scared of being hurt someday.

Of not being able to live with

one man, not having a family.

Nymphomania, a man's invention

to make women

feel guilty if they

break the rules.

Everyone is the way they are.

Never give up anything

you really long for

because you'll regret it.

Believe me.

To me,

I think that you

don't dare to live your life.

Want a piece of advice?

Enjoy life

as much as you can.

And go get my sweater,

I want to finish it.

You should rest, grandma.

I've rested enough.

Go on and get my knitting.

Go on.

CALL VAL

I've lost the only person

who understood me.

I feel absolutely alone.

I'd like to have the company

of a man to comfort me,

but I haven't the strength

to go looking for him.

I'm exhausted.

Darling, I was calling

to say good night,

but I guess your out

having a good time?

You are so right!

Enjoy it while you're young?

Bye. A kiss.

Darling, I was calling

to say good night,

but I guess your out

having a good time?

You are so right!

Enjoy it while you're young?

Bye. A kiss.

Darling, I was calling

to say good night,

but I guess your out

having a good time?

You are so right!

Enjoy it while you're young?

Bye. A kiss.

I called you a lot.

You could at least answer.

What happened?

I know that my sex life

is harming me, and that

I can't go on like this.

Although I'm sunk,

I'm looking for work.

Okay, you're the person I need.

You speak English, you

have knowledge of marketing.

We sell a lot to France,

and you'd take care of

our communications,

go with me to fairs,

and have a ham for Christmas.

- A ham?

- I give them to my employees.

You can't say we foreigners

don't integrate.

Interested?

I have another interview today.

- I'll let you know this week.

- Okay.

I see you're very observant.

You see, we're moving.

Why did you quit your last job?

they cut down on personnel,

including me, Mr...

Rijas, Jaime Rijas.

What?

Rijas and Associates,

general manager.

You're a graduate in

business administration

and applied foreign languages.

A really impressive curriculum.

May I ask you something?

- Sure.

- Are you married?

- No.

Engaged?

I think that is irrelevant.

Yes, you're right, but in this job

one must travel the world over.

there's no commitment on my part.

Would you like to ask me

anything else

on the salary, or whatever?

What perfume do you use?

Well now, you really have

a very, very good sense of smell.

It's a special lavender perfume.

Yes?

Valerie?

Yes, speaking.

It's Jaime Rijas?

How are you?

Oh, hello.

I've made a decision,

but have a problem

and would like to talk

to you in person.

What sort of problem?

I think I can speak openly to you.

Would you mind talking

about this over a drink?

Can't we do that in your office?

I'd prefer a quieter place?

My secretary

interrupts constantly.

I'm 39 and have always been

a businessman with clear ideas,

but nothing like this had

ever happened to me before.

And I thought it was important

to talk about it with someone

without prejudice,

and you're that person.

Why? You hardly know each other.

Precisely because we don't

know each other at all,

your opinion will be

more objective.

that all depends.

I met a woman at work and,

due to my status as

director general,

I don't know what to do.

I've always controlled my

impulses but his thing,

- it's getting out of hand.

- She works in your company?

Not yet.

Does she know?

She's smart and

I think she has realized

there's something more,

but she's made no comment and

I'm afraid she may not

feel the same for me.

Sorry. Did I step on you?

- The table's small.

- That's okay.

You're beautiful, Valerie.

I'd like to buy you a rose, but

I have no money.

Or do I?

I forgot to tell you something.

The job was yours until

this evening.

But from now on I don't think

I couldn't order you around.

- Good night.

- Good night.

Any relatives?

Two grown boys, but he's

been separated for years.

Isn't he too old for you?

He's the smartest man

I've ever met.

He's intelligent, polite, cultured,

caring. He's got it all.

I had never felt like this before.

When I see him my heart leaps

and his hands drive me crazy.

Val, you, in love?

As a child I'd let

my balloons go.

I liked to watch them rise.

It made me feel free.

I don't know if I'm in love,

but I like him a lot.

He's different from

all the other men.

Maybe you too were

born for matrimony.

Not so fast.

I feel a normal woman

for the first time in my life,

a feeling that fascinates me,

to be like all other women I meet.

I see Jaime nearly every day.

I realize I've discovered something

as important as sex.

The love of a man.

I have fallen madly in love

for the first time in my life.

He takes me to the best places,

and always picks me up.

In his Jaguar?

I'd like that, really.

A boyfriend with a Jaguar.

And how is he in bed?

I don't know yet.

You're in love!

Jaime, you need to use a condom.

Really? I want to feel you.

- Is it necessary?

- Yes.

Okay, no problem.

I'll go get one.

And while you're at it, take

the cat out. We should be alone.

Caress me.

Sorry I was so fast,

but I've had a tiring day.

Don't worry. It's okay.

Could you leave the light on?

You should fear nothing now,

you have me.

And tomorrow will be a very,

very special day.

You'll see.

today we finally made love.

I hardly felt anything,

like the first time with Edouard.

But I love him and he loves me.

That's the most important to me.

- It's marvellous.

- Yes.

The office. Don't look,

it's all a mess right now.

I'm living a marvellous

dream with Jaime

from which I don't want to wake.

A room with a view,

wooden floors. Nice?

the corresponding full bathroom,

and here is our bedroom.

Look, and the bathroom...

This closes completely.

Black out, really.

It's the perfect size.

Yes, our room, the office downstairs,

and another for...

Guests.

Yes, and...

the other day you said you

wanted children soon,

but don't take that

as pressure, please.

The windows are 6 stories tall.

I've always dreamed of

a view of the sea,

but it's too expensive, darling.

Don't you worry, okay?

That's up to me, and period.

And how is he in bed?

Truthfully,

nothing out of this world.

He comes too fast.

He says he works too much.

You always said sex

is most important.

Maybe because I wasn't in love.

Val, I think it's a bit soon

to go live together.

You haven't been going out long.

You said I should change my life,

and I'm doing just that.

Being with him, I feel,

for the first time, no need for

anyone else. Besides, I'm nearly 29.

Maybe I should think

about having kids.

- So that's it.

- One of many reasons.

A man who doesn't like

animals worries me.

He's allergic to cat fur.

Okay, pay no mind to me.

I'm going through bad times.

- Will you take him?

- Yes.

- Can you zip me up?

- Sure.

- What are you looking at?

- The icebox.

- What's wrong with it?

- I love it.

Do you love me as well?

With that dress on, you look

beautiful.

To you?

Are you okay?

Of course I am, but I feel

a bit uncomfortable.

You're paying it all. You spent

a fortune on furniture.

What good is money

if you can't spend it?

When you find a job,

we'll talk about this again.

See anything?

It's beautiful.

Thanks, Jaime, but you can't pay

it all and give me these gifts.

It's to say I love you.

Sorry, did I step on you?

The table's small.

What a son of a bitch!

What?

There's no need.

You f*ck well. I can tell

you've been with many men.

I don't want to think

about that now.

You're mine only.

Mine only.

Don't talk.

What are you doing?

Embrace me.

Aren't you afraid?

Not any longer.

Yes?

- Valerie?

- Yes, speaking.

- Hi, it's Harry.

- Hi, Harry.

Could I see you this morning?

Sure, I'll be there in

half an hour. See you.

I hired a girl,

but she was a disaster.

She didn't last a week.

If you're willing,

you could start right now.

Right now?

Yes, I need someone urgently.

We present the collection in

We haven't spoken about money yet.

A ham for Christmas.

Right, Maite?

- A client is waiting.

- I'll be right there. Thanks.

Don't worry about money.

We'll reach an agreement.

Coffee?

Hello.

I have very good news.

Where were you?

- I've started to work.

- What?

I called your cell phone

but it was off.

- Harry wants me to start right...

- Harry?

- They're...

- Who the f*ck is Harry?

The boss, an Italian.

I've been hired by a fashion firm.

An Italian?

He hired you just like that?

Not knowing how you work?

How weird.

Isn't that weird?

You're still young

and have a lot to learn.

What's wrong?

I thought you'd be happy

about my job.

And I am. I am happy,

but I didn't expect it,

and that's why I reacted

that way.

But I am happy.

Forgive me.

Really, forgive me.

That night, that marvellous dream

I thought I was living

began to turn into a nightmare.

I just give an account

that I did not know

the person of which

I had fallen in love.

When the catalogues?

They should be printed tomorrow.

You do it, Valerie.

Where is he?

I'm losing my patience!

- What's going on?

- I'll bust your chops!

What are you doing here?

So, you're the one who

wants to f*ck my wife?

Why is she here so late?

You think I don't know

what's going on?

You think I don't know?

Jaime,

go home. I'll be there soon.

Right away, darling. Wait for me.

I'll wait outside.

Get up. Come on, get up.

How are you?

Did you sleep well?

Darling, you know what

I've thought?

That we could both use a trip.

Forgive me, my love.

Forgive me.

Truthfully, I am very stressed.

I can't forget my problems.

We'll go on vacation,

and we'll be fine.

Don't touch me! It would

be best for us to separate.

Separate?

My darling, we can't separate.

I can't live without you.

If you leave me, I won't bear it.

My darling, my little love,

please.

You have to understand me.

Give me a chance,

I'm in bad shape.

Jaime, you're not well.

You're a compulsive liar,

your moods are unpredictable.

You're aggressive, you come

to work and show me up.

You're not acting in a normal way.

- You need to see a doctor.

- I'll do as you wish.

Whatever you want,

but don't leave me.

Please, you can't leave me.

I need you.

- When did you get here?

- Today.

You're unrecognizable.

You know what I'm thinking about?

Kuhaylan. Remember?

The first Arabian horse.

I think than man learned to tame it.

Honestly, you're unrecognizable,

Valerie. You need to be alone.

Look at me.

You know you can always

count on me.

People don't change, but I had

hopes of doing so with Jaime.

Sonia was right. I'm blind

and, what's worse,

I still love him.

I can't go on. All I want to do

is lose consciousness,

disappear from this world.

Oh, Val, Val! Why don't

you take a vacation?

It would do you well.

I appreciate it. You're right,

I can't work like this.

I can't concentrate.

And don't forget to take the ham.

Hit him with it and make it

look like an accident.

Were you not gay,

you and I would be together.

Oh, Madonna!

Yes, yes, that's it.

Do it. Don't stop.

Darling, look, I have a

Christmas present for you.

- What's your name?

- Vane.

Vane, this is Val.

Val, this is Vane.

We make up a perfect team.

Come here, my love.

Come here, love, come here.

Please, come here.

We could have a great time.

- What's your name?

- Vane.

Come, come on, my love,

come, come, come here.

Come, my darling.

What tits, huh?

What tits!

The biggest thing

you've got, bitch.

You've got a piercing, huh?

That's enough.

Get off, off, off!

Where's my money?

I have no cash, you know?

- Where are my 100 euros?

- I don't know.

I have no idea.

Jaime, we're expecting a baby.

What?

We're expecting a baby.

That's impossible.

Why is it impossible?

I don't doubt you're expecting,

I doubt it's mine.

How can you say that?

You know why I doubt it?

Because I'm sterile

for many years now.

You laid someone else and

want to dump it on me.

You're a monster.

And you are a hysterical

piece of sh*t.

I've always wanted to tell

you this. You're a whore!

You lie all the time,

like all whores!

I don't know how

I stood you so long.

And that's it,

the conversation is over.

Don't cry, you pig.

Don't cry, pig.

A baby is what I most

wanted in this world.

You did right, Val. You're

still young for having kids.

I don't know what to do now.

I quit my job,

spent my savings and,

thanks to him, I'm in deep debt.

I paid the rent for months.

Well, don't worry.

What, what is going on here?

Can't you see?

She is leaving.

What, you're clearing off?

My love,

- I beg you, baby.

- Leave her alone.

If you walk out that door,

I swear I'll k*ll you. Understand?

I'll k*ll you, you hear?

I am going to destroy you, bitch!

- You hear?

- I'll call the cops.

This is f*ckin' sh*t!

Let's go, Val, we're out of here.

I beg you.

I beg you, please.

I swear I'll change, my love.

Forgive me, my love.

You can't go, my love.

You won't get away

from me, you hear?

Whore!

No one leaves me, you know?

No one leaves me, you bitch!

You're coming to my place

until you get over that

son of a bitch bastard.

Val?

Hello.

Val.

Val, you can't go on like this.

Val, you have to react.

You look terrible.

How long have you been here?

Oh, my baby...

I'll help you clean all this up.

Look, I've brought food.

Come on.

Breaking off with Jaime

nearly cost me my life.

Seeing the depths of

the pit, I want out

and to see the light again.

After several months

without an orgasm

my body was beginning to rouse.

It was like waking from

a long, eternal lethargy.

I'm starving.

I know what I will do to

quench my appetite again.

- Hi.

- Hi.

- I think I made a mistake.

- No, it's here. Come in.

Come in.

- You're Val, right?

- Yes.

You called for the interview.

- I'm Cindy. One of the girls.

- It's a pleasure.

You'll be attended to right away.

- Cristina.

- Val, Valerie.

Valerie? A nice name. Let me

have a look, please. Thanks.

Have a seat, Val.

- Where have you worked?

- In this?

Yes, of course.

This is my first time.

Interesting. What can you do?

Everything, as long as

it's with a condom.

That's fine.

Go with Cindy.

Use more make-up.

Clients don't pay for

what they have at home.

- I think I found a job.

- Tell me about it.

For what company?

In a brothel.

Come on, Val, that's not funny.

I start tomorrow.

- Are you serious?

- Yes.

Look,

we spend most of the time waiting.

Want to see the man of my life?

His name is Migue.

He lives with my mother

near Rio.

I sent him there because

his father is a bastard.

I take all this for him,

but I can't go on.

I must whisper.

These walls have ears.

Come on, girls, let's dance.

Are you going to behave?

Cindy.

I'm Mar.

I'm Stephanie.

- What's your name, child?

- Laura.

I'm Val.

Val, I want you.

- What do I have to do?

- That's up to you,

but he's always high.

He cannot have full sex.

A good hand job

will make him happy.

A two-hour hand job?

You know, you play

a little, massages...

This is no school, Val.

The client isn't going

to gobble you up.

You look beautiful.

Hi.

You're new, aren't you?

Come on, get in the water with me.

Come here.

- You have a special smell.

- Really?

You like it?

- Let's go to bed.

- No. Let's stay here.

f*cking doesn't turn me on.

Okay, relax, we'll see

what can be done.

Well, I'm from Seville.

I work for a machine company

that sells throughout Europe.

f*ck!

Stop, girl, or I'll go crazy.

Why the f*ck did you stop?

Because you told me to.

You pay no attention to me.

Keep going, sh*t!

No one's ever done

this to me before.

- Did you go to the April fair?

- No.

You know what's happened

to me all of a sudden?

- I've fallen in love with you.

- But we just met.

That's right, love at first sight.

Why don't we get into bed?

Okay, but just because I love you.

What a nice ass you've got!

I'm sorry if I hurt you.

Slap me again.

At that moment I felt

a strange feeling.

The same as at 15, with Eduard.

I needed to know more,

to learn from this

world I just entered.

What are you doing?

The first time is tough, I know.

We have all cried the first time.

But you get used to it,

it becomes an exercise.

- Are you okay?

- Of course I am.

- Where's my money?

- Here you are.

- How did it go?

- Fine, but a bit of a pain.

You expected a cultured,

interesting man

with a pleasant conversation?

I remind you you're a whore.

You look tired.

Not at all, I'm delighted.

What do clients like?

A bit of everything.

Some want to tie you up,

others stick things in you.

You just gave me an idea.

That handsome is he!

His name is Giovanni.

He's Italian.

The other one's a pig.

They come to Barcelona often.

They're good clients.

I'll be right out.

Come on, you look divine.

It was a pleasure to meet you.

I hope you enjoyed it.

What an intense life.

I would like mine

to be that way too.

What's your name?

Valerie.

I have a strange feeling

that here, somehow,

time stands still.

You're just learning

to be who you are.

What about you?

You are the future of my past.

And me, perhaps,

the memory of your future.

It's not a difficult job,

just different.

How can you say that?

I like to do it free,

you know that.

And I get paid,

what else could I want?

- Have you ever been spanked?

- What?

Try it. You'd be surprised.

We have too many preconceptions.

And those flowers?

A present from Pedro, a client.

- They're pretty.

- Yes.

Still thinking of Jaime?

Not at all.

I have an Italian client

I like a lot.

Be careful, Val.

I've seen that look before.

- Keep it.

- No.

Don't be silly.

Yes, Cristina?

Okay, I'm on my way.

It's Giovanni.

Giovanni is different from

all other clients I've met.

I shivers when he touches me.

He makes me go to the cosmos,

see stars.

I think I'm in love with him.

Thank you.

I live in Calabria because

mama lives there.

I spend most of

the year travelling.

- What?

- Your left eyebrow.

- What's wrong with it?

- I like it.

That uncombed hair.

You know?

I communicate better with

my body than with words.

With a caress I describe things

that make me feel alive.

I'm scared, Giovanni,

I like you too much.

Your smell is irresistible.

- What smell?

- The Mediterranean,

freshness, life.

I like you too much too.

- Give me your phone number.

- I can't.

- My boss would k*ll me.

- Your boss should pay you more.

Will you call me again this week?

Do you want to know the answer?

Look,

this proves that

I will call you again.

Save it for me,

and take good care of it.

I have to go.

Your time's up.

Although I'd like to

sleep with you...

What did you say?

Nothing, forget it.

What about the money?

I'm a disaster.

What if I pay you another hour?

This one is on me.

Val, be very careful.

Don't fall in love with him.

It's sheer logic.

It's impossible for a man

who goes with whores

to be loyal.

Believe me.

Valerie, you're beautiful.

Your new job suits you.

Although I'm jealous

of the other men.

When does your plane leave?

- In 3 hours.

- Why, why don't you stay?

I have to go to Madrid.

We could order a Coca-Cola

and go to the bathroom.

I thought you dropped that.

I'm thirsty again.

I guess you'll give me

a good discount.

A Coca-Cola and an opener, please.

Don't you like it?

Of course I like this suite but

I don't want to be

your fiance, Pedro.

Val, listen to me.

I'll do whatever you want

for you to love me.

And I won't say a word

while we're f*cking.

What I want is for you to marry me.

Look,

this is for you.

f*ckin' look at it.

- You don't like it?

- No.

I was given a similar one once.

I can't accept it.

Don't give me anything.

And no flowers, I hate flowers.

Pedro, you're pressing me.

Go see some other girls.

What are you saying?

I don't want others,

I want you!

You're hurting me.

I won't marry you.

You're drunk.

- I had better go.

- Go, go?

You know what

this room costs me?

Do you know what

this room costs me?

I pay you, and you'll do as I say.

You understand me?

Here's your f*ckin' money.

Pick it up.

Pick it the f*ck up!

Stay there on all fours.

Stay there on all fours. Yeah.

- You're hurting me?

- Do you like it?

Now you'll ask me to spank you,

like you've always done.

You like that?

Bitch, you're a real bitch.

You're hurting me.

Please, Pedro.

What are you complaining about?

What?

You chose to be a whore.

You'll do as I say,

in one way or another.

Tell me you like this.

No, please!

You like this?

I love you, Val.

And you, what a view?

That night I understood,

what grandma said,

prostitution and marriage

aren't that different.

You become the property

of someone else.

And when they're like

Jaime or Pedro,

your life has no value any longer.

I thought he would k*ll me.

There are many Pedros in this.

Go, you're still in time.

After, it's difficult to drop it.

You could go to Rio and give

my son an enormous kiss.

Now go home. You look tired.

I don't want to be alone.

Hi,

you've got a client, and

there aren't that many Pedros.

I'm sorry, I can't go.

I haven't slept for nights.

- And I have a date.

- I'll go.

You're going nowhere.

Who's the date with?

You're committed to me.

I'd go if I were you.

It's the Italian, your friend.

- Giovanni?

- Yes, and his friend.

Mae and you will go right now.

Cheers!

- Hi.

- Hi, darling.

Come on, princess.

I've finally convinced Giovanni,

the 'macaroni', that

you'd be mine tonight.

Come here, beautiful.

Come here.

You've said nothing

since you're here.

What a pain of a whore!

I couldn't stop

thinking about Giovanni.

I couldn't believe

he didn't pick me.

I felt disgust while

Alejandro f*cked me.

Cindy was right saying

I should quit prostitution.

I could still do that.

But Cindy was trapped.

She owed Cris a lot of money,

and she was infatuated with her.

She couldn't stand not having her son.

What happened?

Cindy.

She foll out the window.

A su1c1de, we think.

She got a call. Seems like

her husband took the boy,

but we know nothing more.

Cindy would never leave her son.

We buried her the next day,

just the girls from the brothel.

I was devastated.

I can't stop thinking about Cindy.

We're all sorry about Cindy,

but life goes on, and the job

that feeds you as well.

I'm not going.

Yes you are, darling.

Hello?

Hello.

- Hi.

- Hi.

- I see they didn't tell you.

- That's okay.

- What's your name?

- Valerie.

I'm Inigo. Delighted.

Could you pick me up

and put me on the bed?

I could do that but

it takes me a great effort.

Have no fear.

I feel absolutely nothing.

No, you don't need to undress me.

The only place I feel

anything is my neck.

And my hands a bit.

- You smell nice.

- What do I smell of?

- Chocolate.

- Chocolate?

Could you do me a favour?

Move your fingers.

Come on, Valerie,

Move the fingers of your hand.

For you it's easy.

I am incapable of moving

a single finger.

You don't know

how many times, suddenly,

I imagine me hands and my

fingers start to move, and

I get up off the chair

and I start to run.

I can tough the flowers,

feel the velvet,

and caress a woman as

beautiful as you.

We should love ourselves more,

Valerie.

Go, you're still in time.

After, it's difficult to drop it.

Never give up anything

you really long for

because you'll regret it.

Believe me.

I know where you live.

I'll go get you.

Where are you going? Where, huh?

I don't care what

you say, I'm gone.

I do care about what is said.

Clear out! Give me the bag!

You whore!

Go on, get out of my sight!

You're unbearable!

We always realize things

when it's too late.

Since the accident,

whenever I see anyone,

I give them advice.

What advice?

To take advantage of their

life every day, but truly.

Live.

You need to be alone.

Enjoy life as much as you can.

And I can touch grass,

feel velvet.

I slowly started to caress my body.

I had finally discovered

what road to follow.

That of being myself.

Although it was pouring rain,

I decided to go out.

I wanted to share that moment with

who'd always been by my side.

What are you doing here?

I know I'm unpresentable.

Congratulations!

- Are you okay?

- Better than ever.

I wanted to thank you.

For what?

For being my friend,

for your advice.

I always follow your advice.

I've decided to leave the brothel.

I'm so happy.

I'll spend some time with Hassan.

Won't you open your present?

It's beautiful!

It has no zipper.

Now I don't have that problem.

He helps me.

This is Marcos.

We met through an ad.

- Hi, Marcos.

- Hi.

- I'm glad for you.

- Come in and change.

- No, I have to go.

- What will you do now?

Live.

I'm a promiscuous woman, yes,

because I want to use

sex as a means to find

what everyone is looking for.

Recognition,

pleasure, self-esteem and, in short,

love and affection.

What's pathological about that?

If you want to give me a name, go on,

I don't mind.

But you must know

I'm really a mermaid,

a dryad, simply a nymph.

- Hi.

- Hi.

What?

Get home?

I want to f*ck with you.

I have no money.

No matter. It's free.

It's impossible for a man

who goes with whores

to be loyal.

Valerie...

Live.