04x06 - Vows

[bunniefuu]

[Moira] June?

June!

June?

Mimosas do not pour themselves, June.

[slow music playing]

It is really coming down out there.

Looks like we’re gonna be stuck here all day.

Oh, damn!

And all those errands we were gonna run.

Cheers.

[chuckles]

[cell phone buzzing]

[buzzing stops]

Thank you.

Mmm‐hmm.

[sighs]

[laughs]

[Moira] June?

June.

June?

[man] Get back from there, it’s not stable!

[woman screams]

Holy sh*t. June, it’s me. Moira.

[indistinct shouting]

Your friend, Moira.

June, do you… Do you remember me?

Moira got out.

What?

No. I’m right here, I’m okay.

Janine?

Huh? June?

Janine!

[Moira] Janine?

Hey, June. June.

June! You’re bleeding!

You… You need to go to the hospital.

She may have gotten hurt. We have to find her.

Janine!

No, June. You’re hurt.

You need help.

Janine!

No. Hey, hey. Listen, listen, listen.

You need to… Listen, Janine‐‐

Janine!

June? June, June, June…

We have to find her.

Just wait, okay? Listen, listen!

Janine!

Hey, hey.

I think I know where she is. I think I know where she is.

If she’s hurt, she’s gonna be in the medical tent.

Okay.

Okay?

And it’s that way.

Okay.

Okay?

Okay.

Let’s go.

We have to find her.

We will. We will.

And maybe when we get there, you can get checked out too.

Will that be all right?

Yeah.

Okay, well, let’s go get her.

We have to find her.

Let’s go find her.

[woman crying]

Okay, we got to go that way.

[man screaming in pain]

[car alarms blaring]

[Pierre] Ladies, we’ll be back in about two minutes, okay?

Hang tight, two more minutes.

All right.

Who else haven’t I seen?

Hey, can you take a look at my friend?

[squealing in pain]

Please?

Okay.

Look at me, please.

In the eyes.

Good.

Did you black out?

Did you throw up?

What?

[groaning in pain]

[Pierre] Sir, please, try not to move.

Hey, hey!

Is she going to be okay?

[Pierre] She’s likely concussed, whether it’s a mild or severe TBI, I’ll only know when we get back to the tents.

[man groaning]

Let me take a look at that.

We’ll take you somewhere where you can get some help.

Okay?

And you’re gonna be okay.

Okay?

Moira?

[voice shaking] Hi.

Hi.

Hi. Hi. Hi.

It’s me.

No.

No.

What?

No, no, no, no. Why are you here?

No, hey, hey, hey. Shh. I came back.

What are you doing here? Why?

I came back for you.

It’s not safe.

I came back to help you, and I f*cking found you.

It’s not safe, Moira.

You shouldn’t be here.

I f*cking found you.

What are you say‐‐

I f*cking found you.

You’re so crazy.

You shouldn’t be here.

Now that I’ve found you, I’m gonna take care of you.

I got you.

I got you.

[sighs in relief]

[people clamoring]

[Oona announcing indistinctly over PA system]

[man] Come on, come on.

[Oona] This area is not secure!

The aid center has been closed for your own safety!

Please leave the premises immediately!

Do you see Janine?

Hey, I’m gonna go look for her.

[jet engine roaring]

[indistinct shouting]

Can’t we just leave everything for them?

No, they’ll k*ll each other for their supplies.

Oona! What’s going on?

Why are we leaving?

Word is, they’re gonna start bombing again.

Pack up. We gotta go now.

I found June.

She’s here.

Oh, my God.

That’s amazing.

Yeah, so I‐‐ Hey.

Look, I know what the rules say.

Moira, it’s great to know she’s okay.

She saved all those kids…

When we get back, we can work on trying to get her out.

No! No, f*ck that!

I don’t have time for this.

Oona, she’s hurt.

She’s not gonna last a week here.

Look, I get that this is hard.

No, it’s not hard.

It’s life or death.

For everyone, not just you, and not just her.

She’s my best friend, Oona.

Gilead finds out we took her, no more missions, no more food, no more medicine, nothing, for any of these people.

You think June is more important than every one of them?

[alarm blaring]

I’m sorry.

[alarm blaring]

CERA staff. Clear out!

Pack up all provisions!

[clamoring]

Don’t leave us. Please, please, please.

We got to go. Come with me.

Keep your head down.

[man 1] Hey, hey, hey!

Don’t go.

I’m sorry.

My kids are starving. Please!

[man 2 speaking Spanish]

[in English] I’m sorry.

You’re just gonna leave us here?

[man 3] We can’t take you with us, but we’ll be back.

[shouting indistinctly]

[man 4] No! You’re k*lling us!

I’m sorry.

[continues shouting indistinctly]

[exhales]

Good.

You did good.

You did good. Okay.

Now you gotta get ready to run to the boat.

[ship horn honking]

Okay?

What?

I’m gonna get you out of here.

All right? You ready?

No.

June.

No, we have to find Janine.

Okay, hey‐‐ What? Hey.

For f*ck’s sake, we’re not gonna find Janine!

She’s probably dead.

And if you stay here, you’re gonna die too.

June. Boat!

Now!

Moira, no!

No‐‐ [straining]

No!

Don’t make me leave you again!

Don’t f*cking do that to me.

You can’t do that to me!

Please! You’ve got to go with me.

You’ve got to come back.

[clamoring]

You can’t make me leave without Hannah.

Hannah?

You can’t make me leave without her, Moira.

Where is she?

You can’t make me leave without her.

I don’t know.

Hannah?

I don’t know,

but I have to get back to her.

You don’t know?

What… What do you mean you don’t know?

How are you gonna get to her? Huh?

Look at you!

You’re f*cking b*at to sh*t, you don’t even know where she is.

How are you going to find her?

They took her because of me.

She was so scared.

She was so scared.

Then she’s safer without you.

They’re gonna k*ll you.

They’re gonna hunt you down and they’re gonna k*ll you.

And they’ll k*ll you in front of her.

Do you want to help her?

You leave her the hell behind, and you come with me.

You wanna fight them? You fight them from Canada.

We will help you.

The Canadians will help you! The American government, whatever f*cking left of it is in Canada, and will help you.

I’ll be there.

Luke, Emily, Rita… everyone who loves you is there.

Nichole.

Nichole is there.

[sniffles]

Is she okay?

Yes, she… She needs you.

She needs you, she’s growing up and she’s amazing but she needs you because you’re her mother.

You’re her mother, okay?

Come on, June. Come on!

[clamoring continues]

Come on! Let’s go! Let’s go!

You’ll come back for her, all right?

Let’s go, let’s go! Hurry!

Come on! Hurry up!

Go, go, go!

[clamoring continues]

You’ll come back for Nichole.

Come back for your baby daughter.

Okay.

Okay. Okay.

[ship horn blaring]

All right, come on. Come on.

[clamoring continues]

[ship horn blaring]

Stay here. Don’t move.

[door closes]

[jet passing by]

[breathing unsteadily]

[people screaming]

You know, technically, that couch is also mine.

Technically, this couch is Lisa’s, and you were supposed to watch it while she went to go study abroad.

Well, I will leave it to you out of the kindness of my heart.

Luke hates it.

Luke hates it.

[chuckles]

It’s not gonna be that different, you know?

I mean, I’m gonna see you all the time.

It’s not really gonna change that much.

My mother made me promise I would keep my own last name.

Oh, phew.

Do you really think this is a good idea?

Which part?

All of them.

All the parts.

[sighs]

[refrigerator door opens, closes]

Wait, so you think marrying Luke is a bad idea?

Look, I just, um, think it would be a lot easier to end an engagement than a marriage.

And you know this how, because of all the marriages you’ve ended?

Never mind.

No. No, no, no.

No, I’m curious.

Tell me exactly why you think I shouldn’t marry a kind, smart, loving man who has a good job and nice shoulders.

Because he cheats on his wives and he leaves them when they can’t reproduce.

Oh! Wife.

One prior wife. And I’m not Annie.

Not yet.

Our marriage is not going to be like that marriage.

They fought all the time about all kinds of stuff.

We never fight.

[Moira] That’s my pitcher.

Fine, take it.

I don’t want it.

[Oona] Hey.

Hi.

How are you holding up?

Seeing all that up close.

I’ve seen suffering up close before.

The hardest part is when you’re the one with the power.

I’m so sorry we couldn’t bring her.

Yeah.

Look, we’re nearly home.

After his port inspection, it’s only about [chuckles] ten more hours to Canada.

Port inspection?

Before we leave their waters, they’re gonna come aboard, they’re gonna check the boats stem to stern.

Oh.

It shouldn’t be that bad.

I mean, once at this checkpoint in Aleppo, we had‐‐

Oona.

I need to tell you something.

[Oona] They’re gonna be here soon.

I have the utmost respect for June Osborn.

She pioneered Angels’ Flight. She’s a hero.

But we’re in a really bad situation, which sees our NGO and all of our future missions put at risk.

Now, I’m the team leader, so what happens next is my responsibility, but I want to hear from all of you.

It’s my fault.

I’m the one that forced June to come.

She didn’t even want to.

So it’s me we should be talking about right now, not her.

[Oona] You’re right, Moira. It is your fault.

And I know you love your friend, but we all have people we love in Gilead.

I think we should turn her in.

What?

[Oona] Let him finish.

Say more about that.

[Pierre] If they find her, all of our future work is f*cked forever.

We can’t let that happen.

She’s Public Enemy Number One in Gilead.

Which means they’ll be even angrier we took her.

[Oona] It’s true.

If they find her, they won’t let us back into Chicago, they won’t let anyone in, and that will affect all the people there.

I think we should keep her.

I know she broke the rules, but she’s here now, and if we turn her in, they’ll k*ll her.

[Chris] I think we should turn her in.

Okay. Jesus.

There’s got to be another option here.

I mean, we can’t just turn someone in to certain death.

This is supposed to be a humanitarian mission.

Humanitarian missions are about people.

Not one person.

There has to be somewhere we can put her.

I mean, we can hide her in the floor or, uh… we can put her in one of the lifeboats on the side.

They’ll search those.

How do you know?

You ever escape Gilead before? Then shut the f*ck up!

Children will be hurt by this. Children who did nothing wrong.

[Oona] Not just the children, their parents‐‐

[Moira] I get it. I’m just saying there has to be another way.

[Oona] What other way is there that doesn’t put the entire crew on risk?

[Moira] Make her look like one of the crews.

[Elena] No, that’s not what I’m saying.

[Moira] One person who’s sitting right there!

Just turn me in.

Jesus! Don’t listen to her.

My life isn’t worth more than anyone else’s.

[ship horn blaring]

[siren wailing]

I’ll tell them I got on the boat myself.

No one helped me.

Thank you.

[Moira] No, no!

[Oona] Okay, everyone on deck.

June!

[Oona] Let’s get through this.

You can’t do this, June.

That’s it?

After everything you’ve been through, after every battle you fought, you’ve just given up?

Look at me!

[sirens approaching]

Please?

Oona.

Elena, print her an ID.

Clean her up, get her a vest.

Make sure she doesn’t f*ck this up.

Thank you.

[siren chirps]

Come on.

[siren chirps]

[soldier 1 on radio] Found any contraband?

[soldier 2] Narcotics in evidence

but likely classified as medical supplies.

[indistinct chatter over radio]

[soldier 1] Let’s clear the boat as quick as possible.

[soldier 2] The boat is 70% searched.

ETA 20, 25 minutes.

[soldier 3] Name?

Elena Choi.

Next.

[soldier 3] Name?

Moira Strand.

Where are you from?

Toronto. Born and bred.

[soldier 3] Next.

Name?

Name.

Rachel Smith.

[soldier 3] Something happen to you?

[soldier 4 over radio] Private Tennyson, are we all clear?

Sir?

I repeat, are we all clear?

[soldier 3] Not quite yet, sir.

What happened to you?

She got knocked to the ground in…

In all that chaos back there.

She hit her head pretty hard.

Man, it was crazy. Did you see those bombs hit?

Lucky you were safe out here.

Unless you got family and stuff back in Chicago.

Um, really hope they’re okay.

All right. Next.

Let’s get the hell out of here.

You made it.

We’re goin’ to Canada.

Ooh, beautiful and strong.

Must be your, uh, Swedish lineage, just…

[June] Just so you know, I’m never moving again. Ever.

Deal. I’ll put it in the vows.

Oh, yeah. We should definitely put it in the vows.

Did you and Annie write your own vows?

Oh. No. It was not that kind of wedding.

Oh. What kind of wedding was it?

Uh, just a normal…

Yeah.

Like at a church?

Uh, yeah. Yeah.

That kind of thing was important to her.

Oh.

So “for richer or poorer, sickness and health, better or worse,” like all that kind of thing?

Babe?

Yeah?

What’s going on?

Nothing.

No?

‘Cause, you know, that marriage is not gonna be our marriage.

Yeah, I know.

Can you be careful with that, please?

That’s fine.

What’s in it?

It’s a cocktail pitcher, okay?

That I stole.

What is your problem?

[giggles] Don’t you dare.

I don’t know. What if I can’t get pregnant?

What?

You and Annie had a hard time having kids.

[hesitates]

What if that happens to us?

You are not Annie, okay?

And I’m a very different person than I was back then.

Yeah.

But, I mean, you don’t know what’s gonna happen, right?

What if I end up disappointing you?

Go… Come on! Come here.

Look, I don’t know if we’re gonna be able to have kids, but either way we’re gonna be okay.

You really want kids, though.

Yeah, and I really want you.

Like…

You’re not gonna disappoint me.

Well, I mean, you don’t know that.

Well…

Everyone has a line, you know, something that’s unforgivable.

What if I’m not who you think I am?

Then I’ll just love whoever you turn out to be.

[Oona] You snuck her in behind my back and you lied to me!

I mean, what did you think was gonna happen?

[Moira] But you’re the one who decided to save her.

[Oona] Because you put me in a position where I had to either save her or k*ll her.

Well, you couldn’t have expected me to leave her behind.

You don’t think I’ve ever had to leave anyone behind?

Every mission, you don’t think I’ve had to make hard choices?

Choices that keep me up at night, that I regret every single day!

I’m sorry.

I wish this didn’t have to be about us.

Let’s not make this last longer than it has to.

But we can still talk at the office?

There’s not gonna be an office after this.

[softly] f*ck.

[door opens]

[door closes]

What the hell?

Hey, are you trying to take this lifeboat?

Can you help me?

No!

f*ck you! I’m not helping you. Where the hell do you think you’re gonna go on a lifeboat in the middle of the night?

I have to go back.

Are you f*cking insane?

I have to get her.

Stop it!

You’re gonna die in the water or you’ll sail back to Gilead and die there!

That’s your plan?

Fine.

You wanna go back, I’m going with you.

We’ll die together.

Stop it.

No.

Yes.

No!

I did not bring you all this way just to leave you behind.

I told you I needed to stay for Hannah, and you manipulated me.

I didn’t manipulate you. I saved your life.

You tricked me into leaving my daughter!

I’m sorry.

If I don’t go back now, she is gone forever!

Hannah is gone forever.

What happened?

[sobbing]

With Hannah.

You said they took her. What happened?

I’m not gonna force you to stay. I just wanna know.

They showed her to me.

I saw her.

But there was nothing I could do. For her.

There was nothing I could do to help her.

She didn’t recognize me.

She didn’t know who I was.

She was scared of me.

Oh, God.

Everything that has happened to her, it’s because of me.

No.

No, that is not true.

How can I go back without her?

No one‐‐

How can I show up without her?

June, no one expects you to have her.

They’re waiting for a person, not a superhero.

Even if you did get all those kids out.

But not her.

Not my Hannah.

I didn’t have her.

I tried. I really did.

I did everything I could, but it wasn’t enough.

I was supposed to save her.

‘Cause I’m her mommy.

I’m her mother.

It is my job to protect her.

And I failed.

How can I face him?

How can I tell him that everything that has happened to her is because of me?

No. That’s not true.

And that’s Gilead talking. You know that’s not true.

No, he is never gonna forgive me.

He’s never gonna forgive me.

All these years, he has waited for you.

And he has never given up on you.

You need to have a little faith now too.

I know him.

I know him. I know what he can take.

How ’bout you find out?

Yeah.

Come here.

[June sobbing]

Hey, Junebug.

Hey.

[exhales]

There’s a baby.

Well, it’s, uh… I’m pregnant! We’re having a baby.

And I was gonna tell you inside, and I put all these candles out, but…

[both laughing]

We’re having a baby! We’re having a baby?

Yeah!

Hey! We’re having a you!

And we’re gonna love you so much.

[laughing]

We’re having a baby!

Shh!

We’re having a baby!

[horn honks]

I… I love you so much.

I love you, too.

[screaming indistinctly]

[June laughing]

[Hannah laughing]

Some more artistic ones, please.

[inaudible]

Yeah.

[June] I think that’s fine.

Ooh! Look at that method!

[door opens]

[door closes]

You okay?

Mmm‐hmm.

[footsteps approaching]

You know, we can stay here as long as you want.

I’m okay.

I just need a minute.

Okay.

I’m okay.

[door opens]

[door closes]

[breathing unsteadily]

[exhales]

[Luke] Where… Where is she?

[footsteps approaching]

[breathing unsteadily]

[breathes deeply]

[breathing unsteadily]

I’m sorry I don’t have her.

‘Kay?

I’m sorry.

[sobbing] I’m sorry it’s just me.

I’m sorry it’s just me.

I knew it would…

No, no, no, no.

I’m sorry.

No, no, no, no.

I’m sorry.

Mmm‐mmm.

I’m so sorry.

[murmurs indistinctly]

[sobbing]

I’m sorry.

[exhales]

You’re okay.

[inhales deeply]