03x10 - Outside World

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Previously on Van Helsing...

Vanessa!

I need to make sure you live!

- What?!
- You're my sister! I love you!

If you love me then come back!

I have to do this on my own.

Sam.

Go find him.

You don't need me now.

You can do it on your own.

I've seen you before.

In the beginning.

When I was a kid.

When your rage first began.

You get a kick out of that?

Scaring little kids?

I come to those who show promise.

Promise of what?

I think you know deep inside you.

Who are you really and what do you want?

I'm a seer.

A messenger.

A caller to the chosen.

You look like an Elder to me.

Or worse.

You thr*aten me with
your blade of steel.

You cannot destroy
that which you harbour.

And what's that?

Your seed of thirst.

Anger.

Rage.

Now the seed has taken root.

Fed by the blood of a sacrifice.

What sacrifice?

You drank blood before but now,
now you have k*lled for it.

Savoured it.

That runs inside you.

It won't happen again.

You say no but the blood burrows deeper.

Feeds the seed.

I can control it.

Yes.

Perhaps.

But why?

Nurture the darkness
and you will find yourself.

I'm a Van Helsing.

That's who I am.

Be who you really are.

Spawn of the darkness,
holder of its blood.

And I will find that last totem
and I will raise the Dark One.

Yes.

Release him.

And then I will carve out
his heart and leave it to rot.

But will you?

Can you now?

Do you have the light left
to fight the dark?

One act of good can tip the scales,

or topple them.

If you have something to say, say it.

I see your path.

It's not straight.

Nor clear.

Hangs in the balance.

Hangs.

It hangs.

And it begins.

Hey.

Don't move.

I'll make this quick and painless.

Mohamad?

Mohamad, it's-it's me. Vanessa.

I'm not gonna hurt you.

It's me.

You know me.

Vanessa.

Yeah.

I thought you were dead.

I can help you.

I can try to turn you.

Mohamad!

Mohamad!

Mohamad!

Mohamad!

Mohamad!

Mohamad!

I'm just trying to help you.

Stay still!

I need to bite you.

- No.
- Listen to me.

Stay down!

Stay back!

Ok, you wanna do this the hard way.

sh*t.

You're not getting away that easy.

Just stay still!

Stay back!

I don't have time for this bullshit!

Wendy says hi.

John?

But I guess you never really
met Wendy, did you?

Watching her get m*rder*d by that marine

doesn't really count I guess.

You're dead, I k*lled you.

Believe me, I remember.

Well, you got yourself
in a bit of trouble there.

That's gonna leave a mark.

Must feel strange, stuck like that.

Weak, helpless.

Sorta like you're human.

I am human.

You think?

And I think maybe that uh,

I think maybe that hook must
have nicked your heart.

Maybe your heart doesn't heal up
like the rest of you does.

Makes a lot of sense if you ask me.

Anyway...

I guess I can't really blame you
for what that assh*le Axel did,

not letting me out to look for my wife.

He didn't try to help, just
sh**ting her in the head.

It was his decision not mine.

Still, it's not like you helped.

I cut her down.

I carried her to you
so you could say goodbye.

You didn't hand yourself
over to Julius's thugs, right?

All they wanted was you.

I tried.

You stopped me, remember?

Right.

You let G.I. Joe run rampant

'cause all you gave a sh*t about
was who you loved.

Who you'd lost. I-I understand that.

What do you want?

Maybe you should ask yourself
that 'cause I'm pretty sure

I'm just a figment of your
crumbling psyche or whatever.

A manifestation of guilt, maybe.

Of shame.

The witch sent you.

Who knows?

Maybe.

I gotta tell you, all bets
are off then, right?

'Cause I could be capable of anything.

Helping you, hurting you,

wreaking a little revenge, maybe... Huh?

Go on.

Try it.

Nah.

Nah.

I think I'll pass for now.

Maybe just let the strength
leak out of you a bit more.

Always such a gentleman, John.

Still bleeding, huh?

I wonder if something like this
could actually k*ll you.

Even vampires die, right?

- I'm not a vampire, assh*le.
- Yeah, sure.

Just keep telling yourself that.

You know what I really wanna know?

The real reason I'm here?

Why you m*rder*d me in cold blood.

Huh?

I thought you were the k*ller.

Everyone did.

You thought I strung up that
girl Cynthia in the stairwell?

You thought I stabbed whoever
that guy was Doc was working on?

You thought I cut off their fingers,

stuffed them in my pack? Bullshit!

Yeah? You didn't exactly have a
glowing reputation at the time, John.

Attempted r*pe?

It can give people the wrong impression.

It wasn't attempted anything!

I kissed her, she kissed me back!

Then she pulled away.

I tried to stop her
and she screamed, ok?

I panicked.

I choked her a little to shut her up.

So what?

You really have no idea
what an assh*le you are.

Panicking isn't a capitol offence.

I was drunk.

We all were, remember?

Oh...

So that means you can just
get away with anything?

You sound like every guy I've ever met.

You just think any excuse is ok.

That's the reason you jammed
a Kn*fe in my throat.

You never bought I was
a k*ller, not really.

Not totally.

- You know what I think?
- I don't give a sh*t, John.

Oh, what am I doing here then?

'Cause I'm really leaning
towards the manifestation

of your guilt angle.

Really?

Huh.

'Cause I don't really feel guilty, John.

I wanted to do it.

In fact, I enjoyed it.

And I'd do it again.

I have no doubt.

None.

'Cause I know when you dig

past all that stuff
about saving humanity,

doing your best in bad
times and all that crap,

deep down in you it's just black
right at the core.

And I think you know that, too.

Let it out.

It might help, you know.

Hey, tough guy. How's it hangin'?

Sorry, I couldn't resist.

Julius.

It's good to see you.

Wow, this kinda sucks, huh?

Yeah, a little bit.

Listen, that guy from before?

The guy you were talking to?

I don't know who he is
or what his problem is

but you were bang on
on the assh*le part.

Well, I did k*ll him.

And he deserved it.

- But there are others.
- Come on.

Who do you think you're talking to?

If there's anyone that has
to live with the things

that they have done it's this guy.

It's different. You were turned.

- It's not your fault.
- Isn't it?

I have done a lot of things
before as a human

that I am not proud of.

I know you, Julius.

You're good to the core.

And so are you.

I'm not so sure anymore.

I am.

What the hell was that?

I don't know but I think
my time here is almost up.

Listen, you saved me.

You saved a lot of people
and I know in my heart

that you're gonna get out
of this and save us all.

I don't know.

You do know that.

I believe in you and I know
you believe in your heart.

Believe in your heart, Vanessa.

If you've still got one.

What is at your core, Vanessa?

Nothing as rotten as yours.

So much delicious blood
poured out of you.

Such a waste.

Help yourself.

A change might do you good.

You know all about blood now.

How it eats at you,

and wanting in your belly.

Coursing through you.

Ah!

How it makes you vibrate with life.

You'll never shake the need.

It's in you and you know it.

Dig deep. It's there.

The hunger.

More craving.

More lust.

I've lost the taste for it myself.

You and I are the same.

We are both K*llers by nature.

John.

Before that, his wife.

You can still hear the screams,
can't you?

Don't blame your murders on me.

How much blood is on your hands,
Vanessa?

Not as much as yours.

Yeah.

Yes, that we know of.

That we know.

But your last one...

Your last one, that one put
you on the right track.

Give in, Vanessa.

Give in.

I'd rather hang here and rot.

And that you will.

You have always been one to suffer.

You love to suffer.

You could have saved
your daughter, but no.

You love the pain too much.

I did everything I could.

That's a lie.

Dylan.

Why didn't you feed me, mom?

All I needed was blood.

What kind of mother are you?

You won't hunt for your own.

Dylan I tried.

No you didn't.

I'm sorry.

I'm so sorry.

You can still join her.

Be with her.

You know what you have to do.

Dylan.

Dylan!

The darkness is calling.

Feel the relief.

Dylan! Dylan!

Everything that you've lost
can be yours again.

Get away from me!

Dylan.

You really sure that's good for you?

I have to admit,

I fed on a couple dogs back
in my vampire days but bats?

Is it really you this time?

Who else would I be, hmm?

I am who I am.

Just like you.

I don't know who that is anymore.

Yes you do.

I k*lled a man for blood.

You should feel shitty about that.

But you can't let that get
in the way of who you are

and what you have to do.

You're stronger than that.

I don't know about that.

Yeah you do.

And you have to dig deep
right now and know it, too.

It's the only way out.

You're so sure.

Mmmhmm.

I know you.

I love you.

And love always wins.

Liar.

She lies.

Get away from her.

No. No.

No.

Don't hurt her.

I already did.

Shouldn't I again?

Why did you do these things, Sam?

I k*lled Susan because she was weak.

Because she was suffering.

- That's not true.
- Yes.

She was so strong.

No.

She was filled with pain,
just like the others.

She was in the way of the strong.

I k*lled her to clear the way.

You k*lled her because
you're a sick piece of sh*t.

See?

See her cower.

See the truth.

She's like most of humanity.

Pathetic.

Undisciplined.

I'm better than that. I am more.

Don't listen to him, Vanessa.

- Shut him out.
- I'm not sick or crazy or psycho.

I understand life.

I see the truth.

You're a monster.

Me?

Aren't you a monster?

Don't let him get into your head.

Why did you not k*ll me in those woods?

Why did you cr*pple me
and leave me there instead?

Because I wanted you to suffer, Sam.

I wanted you to suffer
for k*lling all those people.

- For k*lling Susan.
- Hmm.

You deserve to suffer.

See?

I k*ll out of compassion.

I put the weak out of their misery.

That's bullshit.

You maimed me to inflict
pain and suffering.

- You did that.
- And you don't?

What about Felix?

What about that sick t*rture
you put him through?

I gave him the opportunity
to grow and he did.

He became better.

God, you really believe that?

Don't you?

Late at night and alone, aren't
you drawn to become better?

To rise above these feeble humans,

when the voice of truth
whispers in your ear...

it is time.

You are the darkness.

Don't let him in.

Silence!!!

The humans have lost.

The world is no longer theirs.

They deserve to lose.

Vicious, ignorant beasts.

You should know.

So should you.

You k*ll for blood.

I was weak.

I gave in.

I own that.

Oh, you did not succumb.

You emerged.

You saw the truth.

The truth of life.

The truth inside you.

No.

You did not falter.

You thrived.

Don't listen to him, Vanessa.

You will save us all.

Enough.

Leave her alone!

She's nothing, you know that.

You always wanted to drink from her.

No. Susan.

From the very start.

Don't hurt her, Sam!

That was your real craving.

Ahhhh!!! Sam!

You need more time...

to reflect.

Susan!

See who you really are!

She was right.

Shut him out.

Dylan.

You need to save your
strength for the real fight.

Look at you.

You've grown.

You're so beautiful.

I miss you.

I never really left.

I'm always with you.

No one ever really leaves.

You taught me that.

It's ok, Mom.

Everyone dies, even me.

I should have tried harder.

I'm so sorry.

I should have done more
to keep you alive.

It wasn't your fault.

You tried your best to save me
and it didn't work.

That took a lot of courage.

Look, I know there's darkness in you.

It's been true since before all this.

But you can do anything, Mom.

Nothing can stop you.

You're unstoppable.

I hope you're right.

I'm always right.

Look.

Look what you have.

Keep it.

You'll need it.

You know what you have to do now.

Vanessa.

You have to change him.

Yes.

Don't go.

Use what you have left of me.

The light you have inside.

You'll find a way.

Vanessa!

You want a piece of me?

Come to Mama.

Come on.

Yes.

I know you're hungry, Mohamad.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on.

Come on, Mohamad.

Aren't you hungry?

Yeah, you're hungry.

Come on.

Come on.

Keep coming.

Come on, Mohamad.

Keep coming. That's right.

That's right.

Yep.

Come on.

Come to Mama.

That's right.

You're almost there.

Yeah, come on.

Come on.

Come on.

Yeah.

Does that smell good?

Yeah, come on.

Come on, baby.

Come on.

Come on.

Mohamad, come on.

Vanessa?

Oh my god, what happened to you?

You have to get me off this thing.
The chair.

Get the chair, the chair!

Oh, Jesus. I've healed around the hook.

You have to help me.

- Ok, ready?
- Yeah.

Ahhhh!!!!!!

You have to-you have to feed.

No.

You don't really have that much
of a choice, Vanessa.

You're gonna die if you don't feed,
you know that, right?

- Take some blood, here.
- No. Not anymore.

Just get me outta here.

Ok.

Alright, let's go.

There we go.

Ok.

Yeah.

Slowly.

There you go. There you go.

You ok?

Yeah.

Ok. I'll get you better.

Maybe get some food?

Some water?

Yeah, in a bit.

Ok.

You're ok.

Yeah. We're ok.

You sure you're ok?

You don't wanna rest up for a bit?

- I mean, I could use the rest, too.
- I'm fine.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

So when were you turned?

Back in that field where I left you?

Nah, it was way after that.

Flesh saved me and...
I got taken after that.

Taken, by who?

By Sam.

- Sam.
- Yeah.

So he's still alive.

Yes, he is.

He bit me and left me to die.

Why?

Because I didn't want to be
whatever he wanted me to be.

So he switched me out for another kid

and left me in a bunker.

Felix.

I got out and got away.

I really don't remember much
but I remember hunting,

feeding...

I- I really don't wanna remember.

Yeah, don't.

You're back.

Yes, we are.

Back together again
and back on the road.

Oh, Mohamad, you-
you can't come with me.

The hell I can't.

Not where I'm going, ok?
It's too dangerous.

Wherever you go I go, too.

Not this time.

Ok, look. I need to know that I at
least saved one person in all this.

So after everything I've done

you wanna make sure that I am safe?

I know that everything you did

you did out of love for your sister.

And I get that.

Turns out I have a sister, too.

- Wait, what? Seriously?
- Yeah.

Damn.

This is a crazy ass world we live in.

I saw some people camping out
over there in the woods.

Find them.

Take care of them.

Do it for me.

Don't follow me.

Promise.

I promise.

'Cause I will kick your ass if you do.

Yes ma'am.

I mean it.

Stay alive.

You too.

As if I'd leave you on your own.