06x13 - Strong Enough to Bend

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Previously on Nashville...

These images, they come back in my head.

- They're already back.
- I know.

And you're gonna talk about it.
It's gonna get better.

- Hello, Deacon.
- What does he want?

I don't know. Don't care to know.

I hoped in spite of
everything that there was

a chance we could start over.

Once that show has control over you,

you're not really going to
have much say in anything.

I'm just afraid that he's
going to exploit you.

Gonna have to trust me.

You know, I give a little,
you give a little.

I just hope your interest in me

is entirely about the music.

The tour is off.

Juliette? Oh, my God!

- I... I didn't mean...
- I'll go.

- Juliette, what...
- It's fine, it's fine.

I just need to see the baby.

No, no, no, just wait, wait, wait!

Hi. I'm Juliette.

- Alannah.
- Hi.

Um, I...

I just need a minute, okay?
One second, okay?

Alannah, I can't believe this!

It's okay. Just go be with her.

I don't know what to do.

I have to make sure she's okay.

I'll call you in a little while.

- You don't have to.
- Hey, hey, hey, I want to.

It's okay. You can, uh...
You can wake her up.

All the times my mama woke me
up in the middle of the night

just to say she was sorry.

God, what have I done?

Juliette, why... why didn't you call me?

Why didn't you say you were coming?

I'm sorry.

I just needed to get home.

God, what happened?

You look like you've been through hell.

I have.

I shouldn't stay here.

What? Wait, wait. What do you mean?

- Where are you going?
- It's fine.

I understand.

I'm too tired to deal
with anything right now

so I'll call you tomorrow and

we'll figure out what's going on.

Wait, Juliette.

It's your house.

[CELL PHONE RINGS]

Is he okay?

He won't go to the VA.

He doesn't have to tell
them what happened.

He won't listen.

He thinks they're gonna
take the baby away.

I told you they don't do
that. It's confidential.

Will you just talk to him?

Please?

Yeah, sure.

I knew I had them somewhere!

So this is from the day

- I married your grandmother.
- Aw...

Is she not the most beautiful woman

- you ever laid eyes on?
- So beautiful!

Dad, I can't believe how
much you look like her!

Don't tell me you've
never seen a picture

of your grandmother before?

Not that young.

All right, ladies. It's
getting a little late.

Why don't we start packing it in, huh?

What's wrong with a little family time?

Oh, my God, Dad!

- Dad, you're so cute!
- Oh, my God, look at you.

Thick as thieves, those two.

Has your father ever
told you about the time

they decided to go
joyriding in my new truck?

Actually, Beverly decided to
go joyriding in your truck

and she ran it up a tree and
she called me for help.

So that's what...

That's not the story she told me.

Well, we both know how
Beverly would wrestle

with the truth, huh?

And you didn't?

Hey, Daph, Mrs. Jacobson emailed me.

She says you're running behind
on a couple of assignments.

Well, we know how Miss Jacobson

likes to wrestle with
the truth sometimes.

[LAUGHS]

We had a deal, right?

You were gonna do your work

- so you could do the show.
- Yep.

- Then do your work, please.
- Geez.

Thank you.

That's a lot of pressure
to put on a little girl.

I got it, Dad.

Thank you.

Oh, my God.

Hey. I'm sorry.

I could have gone somewhere else, but...

No, no. Come in, come in.

Thanks for this.

I got out of there with
literally nothing.

I still can't believe this.

I know.

It's horrible the way they treat people.

They kept me prisoner.

They took everything away from me.

I was such an idiot.

You can't say that.

Avery knew it was gonna be a disaster.

Why didn't I?

Because they were helping you?

Yeah, they did help me.

That's the weird thing.

I don't know that I could've
gotten out of there

without the understanding
that Darius gave me.

Every moment, I knew who I was

and what I had to do.

How can something be so helpful

and so harmful at the same time?

You mean, like most of life?

I love you.

You're not so bad yourself.

What?

Avery.

I've lost him.

Who is burning my toast?

Oh, stop. It's perfect.

You were trying to burn it.

I know your kind.

And you with the bacon.
What are you doing?

You still skinning the pig?

You wanted crispy bacon.
I'm giving you crispy bacon.

- I didn't say charred.
- Look at your waffles!

Now, see? You two were distracting me!

Here. Make yourself useful.

When did you start cooking?

There's a lot you don't know about me.

Oh, damn it!

Y'all sit down. I forgot my pills.

- No, let me get 'em. I'll get 'em for you.
- No, no.

Probably the only
exercise I'll get all day.

What?

He's so cute.

I'm confused. You said he was mean.

Yeah, well, he's a bit different
than when I knew him.

How so?

Now's not the time, sweetie.

Well, it's been a long time.

Aren't we supposed to
forgive and forget?

I'm trying, baby, all right?

Sometimes that can be
harder than other times.

- Okay.
- My advice, girls, is never get old.

Pills for this, pills for that.

Now they got pills for the pills.

So, Dad, I was thinking about going

with Jonah on his European tour.

Europe?

- Yes.
- How long?

Um, six weeks.

Italy, France, Greece...

- Six weeks.
- Czech Republic...

- Oh, there's an adventure.
- I know.

Don't you think that's a little long?

I mean, don't you have work to do?

I mean, I can write when I'm there.

Yeah, but you won't. That's the problem.

That's unfair to say.

Let the girl see the world.

Yeah. I mean, think of all
the history I'll learn.

Kids these days with their
heads in their phone,

let her have a real
experience for a change.

You don't know a single
thing about the situation.

But you got this big
opinion on it? Is that it?

I have no opinion

on your wonderful trip to Europe.

Okay, no peeking. You're
gonna ruin the surprise.

You ready?

And open up!

Mommy!

How's my baby!

Oh, look at you!

How'd you get so big?

Oh, I love you so much.

I missed you.

Did you miss me? Yeah?

Let's play. Come on.

I'm gonna eat you.

[CHUCKLES]

Thank you.

Hey, sweetie.

Come here a sec.

Guys, no, enough. Leave us, please.

Let us talk.

You wanna win this thing, right?

Yes, of course.

All right, then you're gonna have
to start doing something different.

'Cause your vote totals,
they're dropping.

I thought they added up over time.

Well, it's nothing to worry about.

We just wanna get out ahead of it.

It is something to worry about.

You're incredibly talented
but you're hiding it.

How am I hiding it?

We think it's time to lose the guitar.

My guitar is how I express
myself as an artist.

- I...
- No, the guitar...

- [CELL PHONE RINGS]
- The guitar is not the artist.

You're the artist.

Remember that, will you?

Just, hey, listen to
what she has to say.

Yeah?

It's about your heart.

You know, it's not about the instrument.

You have to tell the story
with your whole self.

Owning the stage.

You can't do that just
hiding behind a guitar.

You mean, like dance?

Not dance. Just move.

Be your true self.

Once you do it, it'll
feel so liberating.

This is my true self with my guitar.

I know it's scary.

Daphne, hey, I've been there.

We'll look at film together.
I'll demonstrate for you.

And once you see it, you'll so get it.

Really, it won't be so bad, okay?

This is a waste of time.

The VA can't help me.

Okay, then we're gonna
find somebody who can.

I am sorry I scared you.
But I am fine now.

You're not fine.

Nobody's fine the day after
they try to k*ll themselves.

- I didn't try to k*ll myself.
- Okay.

Well, you scared the
crap out of everybody.

And honestly, I can't
take responsibility

for this on my own.

You need somebody qualified to help you.

We played for like minutes

and she literally collapsed.

Which I wouldn't mind doing myself.

Well, why don't you?

'Cause I don't think I should stay here.

Well, that's ridiculous.
This is your house.

Yeah, but I've been gone

and you've been taking care of her.

Things are just different now.

Well, I'll stay someplace else then.

You should stay here.

So this is someone you're...

What? Someone I'm what?

- You're into...
- I don't know what it is.

But it's something.

Look, Juliette, you left
without saying goodbye.

You refused to come back.

You refused to communicate with me.

What did you expect me to do?

I didn't have any expectations.

And I don't have any now.

I'm just trying to understand what is,

that's all.

What is is that...

I can't do this any more.

You know, following you around.

Picking up the pieces.

Waiting for the next disaster to happen.

You really didn't give me any choice.

I know I didn't.

_

_

_

What's your problem?

This is a disaster.

What do you mean? Everybody loves you.

No, they don't!

My votes are dropping

and they said they want me
to do something different.

Different how?

Perform more.

Okay.

- "Own my body."
- What does that even mean?

I don't know. But I have to do it

in front of millions of people.

Like be sexy?

I don't know. I don't know
what they want me to do.

Okay. Well, just know
that you don't have to do

anything that you don't wanna do.

Can we just go?

Yeah.

Will you sit down?

This is what it's like.

Stratton?

Stratton?

Excuse me, sir. I'm so sorry.

We've been waiting five hours

and he still haven't seen a doctor yet.

What's his problem?

He has PTSD. He's in a pretty bad way.

Did you make an appointment
with mental health?

I tried. They said days.

He doesn't have that long.

We see patients as quickly as possible.

- Someone will see him.
- When?

'Cause he really needs help.

All these people need help.

And we're doing the best that we can.

I don't understand.

These people sacrificed
so much for our country.

How do they get treated this way?

Ma'am, I served two tours in Iraq.

I assure you I care about
them as much as you do.

We do the best that we
can under the conditions

that are given to us.

Call Washington. Maybe
they'll listen to you.

I'm so sorry.

I apologize.

I know it's not your fault.

I'm just really scared for him.

What's your patient's name?

Sean. Sean McPherson.

I'm so sorry. I will bring
him right back in here.

Sean!

Sean, please don't walk away from me!

I told you I cannot take on
this responsibility on my own!

You don't have to.

What is that supposed to mean?

I'm fine. You helped me.

Well, that's garbage and you know it.

Listen, I can't be here, okay?

It's like...

It's like being back there.

I know they do good things for people

but I start shaking
before I even get inside.

Okay. Well, there are lots
of other organizations...

I'm not your project!

I never said you were.

You just wanna make yourself feel better

by thinking that you're
helping somebody.

Would you take a second

and just stop feeling sorry
for yourself all the time?

I feel sorry for you!

That this is the best
that you can come up with

to do with your life.

Get professional help or I'm out.

♪ Let love in ♪

♪ Let love in ♪

♪ Let it take you ♪

♪ To a place you've never been ♪

♪ Let love go, let love go ♪

♪ Set it free so it can find ♪

♪ Its way back home ♪

That song is gonna
change peoples' lives.

Oh, come on.

I mean it. Look at me.

I'm a mess.

How's your girl?

Oh, she's amazing.

We had the sweetest moment.

She saw this prism of
light dancing on the wall

and to her, it was like magic.

Could have stayed in
that moment forever.

What?

It's just... You've been through hell...

Go on.

And I've never seen you more at peace.

It's a beautiful thing.

And I'm sure that Avery will see it too.

No, I think it's... it's too late.

I don't believe it.

You're just gonna have
to have some patience.

[CELL PHONE RINGS]

I'm not ghosting you.

Okay.

It's just...

it's hard.

I know. Look, I am so sorry
about what happened.

Not your fault.

Listen, I'm moving out,
okay? Don't worry.

You don't have to.

Look, I'm as shocked by
all of this as you are.

I mean, I'm gonna get a
place as soon as I can.

Say something.

What do you want me to say?

That you're gonna give me a chance

to figure all of this out.

It's just too complicated, Avery.

What are you gonna figure out?

Whether to keep betraying your wife

or your best friend or both?

I'm not betraying anyone.

You think because you're being honest

that you're not betraying anyone.

And you're over-simplifying
this whole thing

because you're scared
and I don't blame you.

I'm not scared. I'm...

I'm sad.

You've got a daughter whose
mother just came home

and now she might lose
her father instead.

I know what that's like.

That was me.

Listen to me.

She is not going to lose her father.

I can't be the one that
breaks up your family.

No, Alannah, please. Look...

I'll talk to you later.

So you want me to keep my mouth shut?

No. I didn't say to keep
your mouth shut, all right?

I'm just asking you to respect
the fact that I'm the father.

And I have to do the parenting.

- That's it.
- I completely respect that.

Yeah, until you're
inciting them against me

with some little inside
joke or something.

Come on! I can't have fun with them?

You don't get to do that anymore.

- And what is it I'm supposedly doing?
- You don't get to act

like nothing is happening
when something is happening.

You don't get to act like
nothing happened back then

when something happened, all right?

I have no idea what
you're talking about!

Seriously? You don't think I remember

what fun used to be for you

when you would throw me into a wall?

Or you'd throw Beverly into a wall

then you come back in like
nothing ever happened?

They don't get to see that, do they?

I'm sorry!

- Sorry doesn't cut it, all right?
- I don't expect you to believe it.

But there were times, many times,

- I think most times...
- What?

When what you're saying didn't happen!

Don't say that to me!

That's what I'm talking
about right there!

I understand that's how you remember it!

Sorry we're late.

Good evening, ladies.

I'm gonna leave you to have
dinner with your Dad tonight.

I.. uh...

I wouldn't want to be the
cause of any... fun.

Go wash up.

♪ Stay beside me ♪

♪ On my way to find me ♪

♪ And I'll pray you'll guide me ♪

♪ Without warning... ♪

I'm sorry. This just feels so wrong.

If you could see it like me,
you'd feel differently.

It just doesn't feel like me at all.

I look like an idiot.

I would never let you
look like an idiot.

Okay, you're scared.

You're being way too hard on yourself.

Daphne, you have so much potential.

You may not see it yet, but I do.

That's why I've fought so
hard to have you on my team.

You know that, right?

Let me show you. Maybe it'll help, okay?

Okay, music.

♪ Stay beside me ♪

♪ On my way to find me ♪

♪ And I'll pray you guide me ♪

♪ Without warning ♪

See?

It doesn't have to be much.

Just connect to the poetry
and feel that song.

That's not fair.

What's not fair?

You can't take my song

and do something I could
never possibly do with it.

I was trying to...

How do you expect me to sing
it after you doing that?

I don't want you singing it like me.

I want you to sing it like
you. I was just trying...

- I gotta go.
- Oh, Daph, don't walk away.

Come on!

Hey!

Well, hey, look who's here?

Can I talk to you for a minute?

You can talk to me for
minutes. Morning, girls.

- Morning!
- Hi, Brad.

So how do I make this work?

Not sure I quite
understand the question.

Well, when I signed,

a lot of things were promised to me,

and I know things can take time.

I just wanna make sure
that there isn't anything

getting in the way.

Met with the team yesterday. We
spent a half hour just on you.

What did you come up with?

Need those songs.

Well, I just sent you four new songs.

Yeah, you did, and they're great.

They're just...

Not great enough.

We sent you songs, too.

Well, I didn't think they were me.

And I don't think you're equipped

to make that decision yet.

About my own identity as an artist?

Whoa! Ouch! Wait, no.

Too many... Too many big words. No.

About what will get radio
stations and advertisers

and brand influencers to start
talking about Alannah Curtis.

'Cause when Alannah
Curtis gets air time,

then Alannah Curtis can explore her,

what was it, identity as an artist.

Okay.

We're your friends. I'm your friend.

And I help my friends.

That's just the way the
world works, you know.

I'm sorry to tell you.

Are you my friend, hmm?

Hey.

[LAUGHS]

- Guess this was bound to happen, right?
- Yeah, I guess so, yeah.

- Hi.
- Hey.

How's Jake? How are things going?

- I think things are a lot better, yeah.
- Better. Good.

Brad dropped the whole custody thing.

Amen.

But he's still planning to
send Jake to boarding school.

So, you know, we'll see.

I don't even know what
to say, you know...

I know. There's nothing to say.

Let's just hope that karma exists

so that Brad can get his someday.

- That would be nice.
- Yeah.

And what about you? How are the girls?

They're good. Maddie's in love,

- it seems like.
- Wow.

- Yeah, yeah, and Daphne's...
- A sh**ting Star!

It's amazing. We're watching and voting.

- You are? Yeah?
- Yeah, of course.

Miss you.

- Maybe I shouldn't say that...
- I miss you every day.

Yeah, I'm sorry if I made things...

No, no, let's not start
that whole thing again.

Listen, Deacon,

I've been meaning to
say something to you.

I...

What?

I'm just so grateful

for your kindness and
your honesty and...

- No, no, no...
- No, really, listen.

I was living under a cloud of Brad

that was so toxic.

and... I don't know.

I feel like I'd forgotten that people...

that men could be...

decent and good.

And you gave that to me.

Well, you know what you gave me.

I don't know. A headache?

No, stop. Seriously...

What?

I was in a dark cave.

You helped me come out.

Thank you.

An oil rig?

What? I thought you were a carpenter.

In those days, you did
whatever you got hired to do.

So were you there when
the oil like sprayed

a million feet in the air and
came down all over everyone?

[CHUCKLES]

No. I'm afraid that's in movies.

I just serviced the
diesel that ran the pump.

Not very romantic, I'm afraid.

I don't know.

I'm really glad that you came.

Your daddy raised two
wonderful daughters.

Can I ask you something?

I know what you're gonna ask.

It's just so hard to see
how it was that bad.

People change.

I don't make excuses for the way I was.

I've had a lot of years
to think about it.

I just wish...

- Hey.
- Hey.

Grandpa worked on an oil rig.

- Is that right?
- Yeah.

I did not know that.

The oil gushed like a mile into the air

and sprayed all over him.

- [LAUGHS]
- It's crazy.

I'm gonna have to watch this one.

Guess there's a lot about
Gramps that we don't know.

What's going on?

You were right. That's what's going on.

- Hi, Grandpa.
- Hello, child.

Sweetheart, what is it? What's going on?

I should have never done the show!

You're right! You happy now?

Why would that make me...

- I'm going to bed!
- Daphne!

Ilse?

- Yeah.
- Hello.

- Hey. Thanks for seeing me.
- Oh, absolutely, yeah.

Yeah. I hope I'm not
interrupting anything.

No, no, not at all. It's nice
to finally meet you, actually.

- I'm a big fan.
- Well, I'm a big fan of yours too.

For more years that I
care to count. [CHUCKLES]

Well, then, let's don't count.

No. That's okay.

So I kind of had to pry it out of her

but I think I got a handle
on what's going on.

Well, I'd feed real bad
if she thinks that

I'm trying to force her to
be something she's not.

Yeah. I think she is a little afraid

what you're asking of her.
Might be a little young.

Oh, I'm sorry, but I think
she's got it in her head

that I'm asking her to
be sexy or seductive.

It's not like that at all, no.

Well, good. What is it then?

Well, she's hiding and
it's understandable.

I hid when I was her age.

I think every -year-old kid does.

But she entered into this competition

and I think she really wants to win.

And she won't win if she doesn't
engage with an audience.

You know that. And I'd say
that if she were six or .

Okay, yeah, I'll talk to her.

And the thing is, is
that she did not show up

for rehearsal this morning.

Oh, boy.

I'm worried for all of our sakes

because it's not gonna be
good if she doesn't perform.

He comes over to me.

And then he says,

"I help my friends. Are you my friend?"

Hmm. I swear the next
time I see that guy...

Oh, forget it.

Well, you should at least
report him, you know.

Get it on record.

I'll handle it.

How are you gonna do that?

Make him an offer he can't refuse.

What does that mean exactly?

I'll let you know when I figure it out.

Hey, listen,

I'm not taking her back.

I can't keep having her upend my life.

I deserve to be happy.

It's just complicated
because of Cadence.

She's been with me
full-time for months now.

And I just, I don't...

I don't want her to be hurt
any more than she has to be.

You're a good man, Avery.

You want everybody to be happy.

I'm just not sure life
works out that way.

[KNOCKING ON DOOR]

Hey.

Hey.

Come in.

I just made tea. You want some?

Yeah, thanks.

Didn't think I'd be
seeing you any time soon.

Hey, listen. I'm...

I'm really sorry for the
way I spoke to you.

It's okay.

It's not my place to tell
you how to run your life.

I'm gonna get help, I promise.

That's actually not why I came by.

I'm trying to understand
something about you.

[CHUCKLES] Okay.

So you went there to help people

and that's amazing,

but it was different with me.

I hoped at first maybe you liked me.

But we know that ain't true.

Oh, cut it out.

And if I were a mechanic
or if I were a teacher,

I don't think you would've
looked twice at me.

No. I looked twice at you

because you're an incredible person.

See, that's it. Even if that
were true, and it ain't,

you couldn't have known one
way or the other about me.

Not when we first met.

There's only one thing you did know

and that's the reason you picked me.

Is that I played music.

- That's not true, though.
- Yeah, it is true.

It's what you care about,
Scarlett, whatever you say.

And all this about trying
to get me back to playing,

the person who needs to
be back onstage is you.

Well, that ain't happening.

Why not?

Just ain't.

You know, this really smart
person, she once asked me,

"What do you gain by giving up the thing

that you love the most?"

That's easy for you to say.

You can't be afraid to speak your mind.

And if he doesn't like it, tough!

It's your life, not his.

- Hi.
- Hi.

What's going on here?

Nothing.

Doesn't sound like nothing.

Listen, Daphne, I got a
surprise visit from Ilse today.

Said you didn't show up to rehearsal.

Yeah, I'm sorry. I wasn't feeling well.

That's the first I heard of that.

Don't you believe her?

Listen to me, sweetheart.

I got to say it really does
seem like she cares about you.

She definitely expressed an
interest in you doing well.

Then why isn't she listening to me?

Is she not listening?

Or do you just not like
what she's saying?

Why are you taking her side?

I'm not taking her side, baby.

I'm on your team all the way.

And, believe me, I respect
you as an artist.

I'm only saying that, you know,

maybe there's some value
in what she's got to say.

I don't agree with you.

All right. That's your choice.

But I do have to say,

and I hate talking
about stuff like this.

But if you don't show up tomorrow,

you are in breach of contract.

- You understand what that means?
- That's a lot of pressure

- to put on a little girl.
- You need to stop.

I never said I was
quitting. I'll go back.

Why do you have to be so hard on her?

How dare you!

How dare you!

Has this world gone
upside down or something

when you, of all people,
come into my house

and tell my daughter to talk back to me?

- Dad...
- When that would have got my nose broken?

- You gonna do that?
- What are you talking about?

Well, I heard you, Dad! I
was standing right there!

- Dad...
- You're gonna come back

after all these years
you're gonna waltz in here

and act like you ain't the one

that slit our family in pieces?

- Is that it?
- He wasn't talking about you!

He was talking about Brad!

I was telling her to speak
her mind to that jackass.

I'm sorry, Dad.

I'm a U.S. citizen,

I was held against my
will by U.S. citizens,

and this woman is in
danger by U.S. citizens!

And if the State Department
can't be bothered

to handle this, then tell me who can!

Okay?

Because this is not gonna stop here!

All right, thank you.

I will await his call.

I'm sure she'll be grateful.

Yeah, if I can get her out and her son.

I'm sure you will.

Don't move out.

I think it's best for now.

Do you love her?

- Please don't.
- It's okay.

It's too early to tell.

Fair enough.

Well, cut it out. You
know you're pissed.

So let's just... let's just have it out.

I'm not pissed. You're pissed.

You know what the problem is?

I'm beyond pissed. I wish I were pissed.

If you could have seen me
at the airport with Cadence

holding flowers when you
didn't bother to call

and tell us you weren't
coming home, that was pissed!

"Watch for Mommy", I said,

like an idiot.

I'm sorry. If I could take
it all back, I would.

Do you understand that
I literally don't know

if you're just gonna turn around

and go back to those people?

Are you crazy? I'm suing them!

And I'm gonna free everybody
who's down there,

if I can!

I should just...

- I gotta get my stuff.
- Wait.

Avery, please.

I'm not asking anything of you, but...

Please keep talking to me.

I'll try.

That's all I can say.

This new animation?

Oh, yeah. Oh, wow!

Oh, that's super cool. I love that!

- Kendall, you're a genius!
- Thanks.

- Hey, Daphne. Hey.
- Hi.

I'm so glad you're here.

I'm so sorry that I
didn't come yesterday.

I know that was really unprofessional.

I just felt like I needed

just a minute to figure things out.

I understand. So what did you come to?

I just can't be something that I'm not.

Then we'll do it your way.

Is that all right?

Yeah, that's all right.

I mean, I'm on your team.
Don't forget that.

Whatever you wanna do, I'll support you.

You just don't think
I'll win if I don't?

I don't know. Nobody knows.

I just wanted the audience
to get to know you as I do.

That's the only reason I
asked you to step out

from behind your guitar.

I just don't think I can.

Then you won't. It's okay.

Okay?

Well, it's been a minute
since I was here last.

See, despite all the unimaginable things

that have happened, I have been sober

a little over five years.

So I come to think maybe
I was doing okay.

Maybe I'd gained a little
control over myself.

Then my past came knocking.

My dad...

who was a terrible man.

Now he's back and he's laughing
and joking with my daughters.

Saying he's changed, saying he's sober.

And that he's sorry.

I don't know if it's him
or me, but it's just...

I'm so mad at him

that I can't even think straight.

You know, every little thing he does,

it just drives me out of my mind.

And then I think of all the
people that have forgiven me.

You know, shown me grace
when I needed it.

So I know I should forgive him.

Maybe I just don't want to.

Why do you think you don't want to?

'Cause the people that he hurt
aren't here to speak now.

If I forgive him,

then there's no one left

to be a witness to what he done to them.

And to me, to that boy I was.

That boy that could not defend himself.

I guess I feel like
it's my job to remember

'cause if I don't, then,

hell, he just gets away
with it. [CHUCKLES]

But why do you need to forgive him?

The hatred I feel for him is like

this armor I've been wearing for

as long as I can remember.

So long that I swear to
God I don't even know

who I'd be if I took it off.

But I know when I look at
my daughters and I see them

looking at me, that if
I don't take it off...

Then I'm the broken one.

♪ When you're down ♪

♪ Looking up at the ceiling ♪

♪ Feels like you're starting
from the beginning ♪

♪ It's all right, cause sometimes
you gotta fall, fall ♪

♪ Fall to fly ♪

- [APPLAUSE]
- Miss Jenny Lee, folks.

Let's give it up.

Thank you. Thank you so much.

All right!

Time to bring out our
little secret w*apon!

Daphne Conrad, get out here!

[APPLAUSE]

What you gonna sing for us tonight?

An original song that I wrote
called "Without Warning".

All right. Well, I
can't wait to hear it.

Um... I'm actually not gonna use this.

Thank you.

♪ I've been adrift like
a rudderless ship ♪

♪ I rely on the pull of the moon ♪

♪ Oh, I'm in no hurry ♪

♪ The ride is the journey ♪

♪ And I'll know where I'm headed soon ♪

♪ Every new change ♪

♪ Is a blind leap of faith ♪

♪ And I hope that I make it with you ♪

♪ Stay beside me ♪

♪ On my way to find me ♪

♪ And I'll pray you'll guide me ♪

♪ Without warning ♪

♪ Lose all senses ♪

♪ I'll choose how we end this ♪

♪ With the blue ♪

♪ With the blue of the morning ♪

_

♪ Oh, come when I go ♪

♪ I need you by my side ♪

♪ And, oh, come when I go ♪

♪ Lose all senses ♪

♪ I'll choose how we end this ♪

♪ With the blue ♪

♪ With the blue of the morning ♪

Yeah!

[APPLAUSE]

We'll be right in, girls.

Okay.

I just want you to know I'm trying.

I appreciate that, son.