04x09 - Moving On

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Previously, on felicity...

Sometimes I'm so depressed,
I can't get out of bed.

I'm not... I'm not depressed.

Hi, dr. Pavone.
This is noel crane.

The reason I'm
calling is because I'm...

I was hoping to get a referral.

I love you.

If this had happened a year
ago, I would have understood.

I would have felt like I
deserved to be cheated on.

But I don't.

I don't deserve it.

Hey, I'm sorry I'm late.

That's okay.

I'm sorry. Can I help you?

- Yeah, I asked for 2% milk.
- That is 2%.

No, it's regular.

- I made that one myself...
- Yeah, with regular milk.

Excuse me. Is there a
problem? I'm the manager.

I asked for a latte with 2%
milk, and this girl used regular.

- I can't have that. I'm on a weight-loss program.
- Ah, really?

- I can taste the fat globules.
- Fat globules. That's not good.

No, it's not.

All right. Why don't we do this.

Why don't I give you
back your four bucks,

And you can go buy your
2% latte somewhere else?

I'm not coming here again.

Okay.

Thanks.

Sure.

Hey, hey, I've been
meaning to talk to you.

I should have called you.

It's okay.

No. I said I was gonna call
you, and I didn't. So I'm sorry.

How are you?

I'm good.

Good. I'm glad.

I'm glad you're glad.

Do you want to get together and
maybe get something to eat and talk?

Uh, yeah. Yeah.

Why don't you come over?
We have so many leftovers.

Okay.

Okay, good. Then
I'll see you there.

- Okay.
- I mean, I'll see you here.

You know.

Hey.

Hey.

Look, I don't think
that's the best idea.

I've been thinking a lot, and...

I think we need to move on.

Oh.

Okay.

I think it's the best
thing for both of us.

Right. Okay.

Okay, I'm gonna
get back to work.

♪ Can you become

♪ Can you become

♪ A new version of you

♪ New wallpaper

♪ New shoe leather

♪ A new way home

♪ I don't remember

♪ New version of you

♪ I need a new version of me

♪ New version of you

♪ I need a new version of me ♪

Oh, that couch is gonna
make a hunchback out of me.

Oy!

What's wrong with you two?

Ben wants to move on.

What does that mean?

He wants to get a new apartment?

He wants to see other people.

Oh, mother mary and joseph.

I'm gonna tell him he needs
to find a new chemistry tutor.

Don't. He needs your help. I
don't want him to do badly.

Look at this. Her heart is
breaking into tiny pieces,

And she's still an angel.

If I was an angel, none of
this would be happening.

This might not help, but
when tracy and I broke up,

I kept busy so I
didn't think about it.

Yeah, I'm gonna go
to the studio today.

And you're seeing streetcar
with me tonight, right?

I don't know, javier.

What do you mean?

You have to come protect
me against miss lonelyhearts.

This widow in my theater
class has a huge "crunch" on me.

She does?

Okay, I don't like your tone.

For your information, a lot of women
like gay men more than straight guys.

Right now, I do.

The class is going.
What if she asks me out?

- Say no.
- I can't.

She's so sad, like a puppy dog
with one of those big cones.

You have to come. Please!

Okay, I'll go.

Oh, good. And wear
something alluring.

All right, I'm gonna
go to the studio.

- See you later.
- Bye.

- Ciao. Bye.
- Bye

We have to do something
about her and benjamin.

- I know. Like what?
- I don't know.

I can't sit here like a bump on
a frog. I have to do something.

Oh, god. I wish I
could have that.

Okay, so I'll just put
the check in your box.

Well, perfect, great.

Yeah.

No, thank you so much.

Okay. Okay, bye.

- Guess what?
- What?

- I just extended
the lease on my sublet.
- Really?

I am officially, well, for the next
three months, a resident of new york city.

That's great.

I really feel like it's
the right thing to do.

Just leave my old life
and my ex and start over.

What?

- Nothing.
- You think I'm running away?

I don't think you're running
away. New york is great.

But?

But I was thinking,
after we see my dad,

Maybe you would
have dinner with me.

Do you mean a date?

No, I don't mean a
date. I mean dinner.

What?

How old are you?

I'm... Look, I've dated
older women before.

So it is a date?

I've had dinner with
older women before.

Okay.

So, what time did you
want to pick me up?

- I can pick you up
whenever you want.
- How about 7:00?

- Pick you up at 7:00.
- Okay, 7:00.

I can do that.

Bet your father's
back in his room.

Yeah, he probably
is. Let's go upstairs.

- What time is it?
- It's noon, actually.

I've been waiting all morning
for you to get up. Listen.

When is noel
getting out of here?

Huh? I don't know.

Comfort cologne.

It's cologne for men,

And it smells like
their favorite foods,

Like mac and cheese,

Brisket, lasagna.

Didn't he say he'd
be out a month ago?

This is really good, right?

What?

Oh, that's good. That's great.

I want to hear your idea, but all I can
think about is that I haven't slept in a week

Because noel is up
watching nick at nite reruns.

He is? I love nick at nite.

So do i, but not at
4:00 in the morning.

Either we're putting
a wall up in our room,

- Not happening.
- Or we're getting rid of noel.

- What? No, we're not
asking noel to leave.
- Why not?

I'm not taking ben's side,

But the fact is noel
is the interloper.

The one who lopes, leaves.
Duh. Everybody knows that.

What is he still doing here,
besides keeping me up all night?

- Hey!
- Relax. I'll be out in a week.

- Uh, look, noel...
- What? She's right.

I mean, what am I doing here?

What's the matter with you?

He said it himself. I'm right.

Wow.

Hey. What are you doing here?

I was worried about you. It
looks like with good reason.

That's dark.

Well.

You want to go to lunch?

Yes. Um, just hang on.

What is it?

A painting.

I know that. I mean, what is it?

Is it an oil spill, or is it your
emotions running around?

Um, it's not an oil spill.
I don't know what it is.

I guess I'm still trying
to figure that out.

It's really good.

That's what I keep telling her.

She won't listen to me.

Who's that?

Owen.

Who's owen?

He's the grad student who
t.a.'S the class before mine.

He's really cute.

He's annoying. I've asked
him 5,000 times to clean up,

And he never does.

He obviously likes you.

He does not.

- You should ask him out.
- What?

I'm serious. He's adorable.

You ask him out.

Hey, owen.

Yeah?

Do you have a girlfriend?

No.

Why?

Felicity was wondering.

God. Okay, we're going to lunch.

- Bye, owen.
- Bye.

I'm gonna k*ll you.

Hey, benjamin. Ah,
yes, we need to talk.

What's up?

You know, last week
I was señor rude.

You weren't. You were fine.

Okay, well, I'm going
to make it up to you.

You and I are going to go to the
off-off-off broadway production of

A streetcar named desire.

Oh! Tonight?

Yes.

I can't go tonight. I got plans.

- What, like a date?
- Yeah, like a date.

Man, you move fast.

Okay, look.

The truth is,

I'm dying without samuel,
and I can't be alone.

Javier, I can't go.

Dying.

Look, you're almost a
doctor. Do something. Help me.

- What?
- Go to the play.

Otherwise, I may not
make it through the night.

All right, javier. Maybe
I can change my plans.

Yes, break that
date. Right away.

I said maybe.

Okay, okay, but
you're gonna go, right?

I feel like I'm falling.

And the things I used to grab onto,
the things that used to hold me in place,

Like, like work,

And friends,

And home,

They're, uh, they're
snapping like twigs.

That sounds frightening.

Yeah, it is.

I can deal with it. I mean...

I just don't even feel
like myself anymore.

You want my opinion?

Uh, yeah, I guess.

I mean, that's what
I'm paying for, right?

Right.

Well, given what you've told
me about the past few weeks...

- Months, actually. Months.
- Right.

And your family history,

And the insomnia and anxiety,
it sounds like a mood disorder.

What's a mood disorder?

Like depression.

Uh-huh.

So what I'd recommend
is therapy and medication.

dr*gs?

Yes. They're extremely
effective for symptoms like yours.

You don't understand.
I don't... I'm not sick.

I don't have symptoms. Okay?

I have problems.

I've been going
through a lot lately,

But it's all outside stuff.

It's not inside of me. I'm fine.

If you'd been through what I've been through
the past couple weeks, you'd feel bad, too.

You're probably right. I would.

Noel, I'm just here to listen

And make some suggestions.

I feel like you don't know
me, and you're already

Recommending medication, though.

Just feels a little
extreme to me.

It's just a suggestion.

I know.

Man, that sucks.

What sucks?

You didn't even notice.

Notice what?

Well, somebody cleaned up.

I mean, the floors, you could
practically eat breakfast off of them.

Oh, my god.

I cleaned your brushes, too.

Thanks.

So, what was that about before?

I mean, your friend, she was...

Oh, elena. Yeah. You know what?

She's, uh, just a
little out of control.

Out of control.

That's funny.

So you're not looking?

No, I'm not looking.

That's good to know.

Yeah.

I actually have
to get going, so...

Big date?

No, I am meeting a friend,

And I'm going to see a play.

Have fun.

Thanks.

Hey, listen, um...

Thanks for cleaning
up. I do appreciate it.

Sure.

All right, I'll see ya.

Bye.

Hey.

Hey, what are you doing here?

Javier invited me.

What?

Oh, my god. What is he doing?

I don't know.

Do you want to just go in?
It's supposed to be really good.

Hi, you have the tickets?

Um, no, I don't know.

Oh. Felicity, hi.

Hi, hi. I was meeting javier.

- Aren't we meeting javier?
- Yeah.

Yeah, you know what? Javier
probably isn't showing up.

Why don't we see if
they've got more tickets?

No, you know what? Take mine.

- No, no.
- Please, please.

- It's supposed to be
really good.
- Thank you.

Sure.

Um, you know, I'll
see you guys later.

Okay.

- Are you okay?
- Ah...

Yeah, I'm all
right. Let's go in.

- Are you sure?
- Yeah, I'm fine. Come on.

Javier?

Hey, do you know
where javier is?

Um, he's taking a bath.

Are you okay?

Javier, are you decent?

I'm coming in.

How could you do that?
It was so embarrassing.

Oh, you're back already?

Oh, it's not even intermission.

You made both of
us look like idiots.

I was just trying to play cupid. I thought
stanley and stella would be inspirational.

They're so passionate and
in love like you and benjamin.

Ben and I are broken up.
We are broken up, okay?

I don't understand.

Are you trying to
make this worse?

Meghan's psychotic
at thanksgiving,

Meghan's always psycho...

And you're asking guys I work
with if they have girlfriends,

And you're acting like some
weird, covert matchmaker.

Of anyone, you guys should
understand how hard this is for me.

- We were just trying to help.
- We want to see you happy.

- We're sorry.
- Yeah.

No, I know. I'm just...

So, what happened?

He brought lauren.

Lauren? Thanksgiving lauren?

Yeah. I mean, I guess she's the one
he's moving on with, or whatever.

The chances of that
happening are zero.

I don't know. There was a
definite vibe between them.

Okay, did I say zero? I
meant less than zero.

This is it.

It's nice.

- It came furnished.
- It's a nice place.

Ahem. Have a seat.

Okay.

Um, a drink?

Uh, yeah, sure.

I have water.

Water's good.

Here.

Thank you.

Um...

About what happened
before, before the play...

Oh, the little uncomfortable
reunion on the street?

Yeah. I'm sorry about that.

That's okay. Your friend javier
was just trying to play yenta.

Yeah. Yeah, I guess so.

Um, anyway, I am really sorry.

That's okay.

I had a really
nice time tonight.

Yeah, so did i.

Good.

It's lauren in new
york. Leave a message.

Hey, it's me.

- You there?
- Sorry.

Pick up the phone.

Hey.

Uh, yeah, you know
what, I can't talk...

Because I have somebody here.

Did you want me to go?

No.

Okay. Well, no,
we've gone over that.

Do we need to talk
about this right now?

Uh, just hold on a
second. I'm so sorry.

It's okay. I'm gonna go.

Tomorrow night. I'm
not doing anything.

Okay, okay. Don't worry.

- I'm sorry.
- It's okay.

I've never had so much trouble
swallowing food in my life.

Looking at that girl's
face and the empty chair.

Stella.

It's gonna be all right after she
goes and after you've had the baby.

It's gonna be all right

Again between you
and me, the way it was.

Do you remember the way it was?

The nights we had together?

Honey, it's gonna be sweet when we can
make noise in the night the way we used to.

And get the colored lights going

Without nobody's sister
behind the curtains to hear us.

Talk about animal magnetism.

- Where?
- No, you.

Oh, my god, javier. I could
literally feel the heat.

I'm telling you, you put
marlon brando to shame.

Oh, well, if only I looked
that good in a tight t-shirt.

No, I think you look better.

Okay, I gotta go fix my dryer.

- Oh.
- Yeah.

You know, you haven't told
me what happened last night.

I missed you.

Oh, yeah, um...
Sorry about that.

Uh, I had to do an
emergency love connection,

Or as it turned out, love
catastrophe, for a couple of friends.

Well, if you want to see
it again, I'll go with you.

No, I don't want you to do that.

I'm just going to...
To rent the movie.

I could, um,

Bring dinner and
watch it with you?

Okay, look, rita.

You are very nice and a
very woman-like woman,

- But...
- I'm not your type.

I'm sorry.

No, that's okay. You
know what? I understand.

I'm not a lot of people's type.

I still think you're
very talented, javier.

I'll see you later.

Thank you.

Hey, are you okay?

Yeah, uh...

I should have called you.

Why? What happened?

Um, just my ex.

Is that the guy that
called yesterday?

Yeah.

He wants to get back together.

Oh.

Is that... Is that good?

I don't know.

We don't have to hang out.
We can hang out another time.

Yeah, I think probably
I should be by myself.

Okay.

Did you talk to your dad?

No.

I think he's getting
his ct results today,

And I'd like to
know what they are.

Yeah. Are you okay? Are you
sure you don't want me to stay?

No, really, I'm okay.

- Um...
- That's okay.

- I'll call you, okay?
- Okay, okay.

Hey.

Oh, my god. I was just
thinking about you.

- Really?
- Yeah.

I haven't seen you in forever.

I know. It's been a while.

Are you okay?

Yeah.

Yeah, I'm great.

You know, I'm just
going to the studio,

If you feel like having a
cup of coffee or something.

No, I'm just gonna head back.

- So...
- Okay.

Hey, if you change your mind,
you know where to find me.

Yeah.

Seriously.

I mean... I miss you.

I miss you, too.

I'll see ya.

I thought you'd be here.

I brought you
some hot chocolate.

That's... Thank you.

That's really sweet.

There's whipped cream
on there. I hope that's okay.

Yeah, that's amazing.

Thank you.

So, you're pretty intense, huh?

What do you mean?

Just the way you are.

You always want
the studio clean.

You're here late
at night, working.

Alone.

Yeah, I mean, I like
it here at night.

I know.

Intense.

I mean, look at that.

It's swirling...

Pain.

Oh, yeah.

Looks more like an oil spill.

Look, I don't know anything
about your personal life,

And it's certainly
none of my business,

But this is college.

You're allowed
to have a little fun.

Yeah, I do have fun.

Just making sure.

Hey, owen?

Yeah?

Do you want to go out sometime?

You mean, and have fun?

Yeah.

Yeah, I'd love to.

- Thanks.
- Sure.

- What floor?
- Eleven.

You already got it.

God.

Wear a skirt.

That'll look like
I'm trying too hard.

And you're not trying now?

Well, okay, this looks stupid.

Why am I doing this?

Because you're tired of suffering,
and it's the right thing to do.

Yeah.

So you think a skirt, huh?

Yes.

- Perfect.
- Oh, god.

Are you...

Here to see felicity.

Oh.

God, this is so weird.

Who cares? You look great.

Coming!

- Hey.
- Hi.

Hey. Um...

Owen, this is ben. Ben, owen.

- What's up, man?
- How you doing?

Oh, we were supposed
to study, weren't we?

Yes.

- It was nice to meet you.
- You, too.

You look great.

Are you ready to
go? We should go.

Yeah, yeah.

You have a coat or something?

Yeah, my coat. Yeah.

Okay.

- So, you ready to study?
- Yeah.

I've read all this
stuff on depression,

About how it's a
disease, like diabetes,

And about how it's hereditary.

Uh, about the symptoms.

Self-loathing and hopelessness.

But I'm not that guy.

I'm the hopeful one, the one who
solves other people's problems.

I mean, I was an r.a. I'm
a guidance counselor.

I bet a really good one.

Yeah, I am.

People come to me.

Who do you go to?

Me?

You tell me your brother was
here over the holiday, right?

And he told you
about his depression.

Yeah.

Do you go to him
when you need help?

Yeah, I do. He's great.

Exactly.

See, noel, having depression
doesn't mean you're a weak person.

If anything, it means you're
a more empathetic one.

Well.

It's just, uh...

Growing up, my brother
used to go through, uh,

Through this phase...

Where it was like he didn't
seem to hear anyone around him.

You know, it was like
he was looking up at you

From the bottom
of a swimming pool.

He was older, so
at the time, I just...

I thought that I was boring him.

And now?

Now I realize that he could have
drowned while we were all talking at him.

So, this medication, how
long would I have to stay on it?

I don't know.

Forever?

Maybe.

Noel,

I'm not gonna let you drown.

Good. I don't want to.

So, do we talk about
the guy at your door,

Or pretend like
that never happened?

That... Yeah, that, um...

He's my ex-boyfriend.

Sorry about that.

Recent?

Uh, yeah, I guess. Yeah.

So, I'm potential rebound boy.

- No.
- That's okay.

I've been rebound boy before.

It's actually much
better than it sounds.

Were you in love with him?

You ask a lot of
questions, owen.

A guy's got to know
his competition, right?

Um, well, ben is seeing
someone else now, so...

Oh. What a pig.

He's a total jerk.

Right?

No, ben's good. He's great.

He really is.

You broke his heart.

It was complicated.

I guess it usually is.

Yeah, I guess so.

Maybe you just weren't getting
what you needed or something.

No, no, no, um...

Ben really is great. It
was my fault, completely.

You're right. Sometimes
I ask too many questions.

We could move on to hobbies.

I have completely
mastered snowboarding.

And, um, I can play the kazoo.

Really? You can?

Yeah. Who can't, really?

Hey, it's me.

Just... I don't know
why I'm calling.

Just to say hi, I guess. So, hi.

Uh, you don't have
to call me back.

If you want to, you can.

Um, but you know, if you
don't, or you're out late,

Uh, then don't.

Uh... Whatever.

I'll... I'll probably
talk to you later.

Okay, bye.

I really had a fun time tonight.

I'm glad.

I mean, that was
the goal, right?

For you to actually have fun.

Yeah, and I did. So, thank you.

You're welcome.

Okay?

Um...

No?

I'm just, um...

Not ready.

No.

I mean, I had a really
good time with you.

I understand.

I know it may not
seem like it right now,

But you're gonna
find someone else.

May not be me, but
it's gonna happen.

Yeah, I know.

And promise me something.

What?

Tomorrow morning, in
the studio, don't feel weird.

We had fun. This
was fun tonight.

Yeah, it was.

Good night, felicity.

Good night, owen.

- You ready?
- Just play it.

- Hey, it's me.
- Guys are all the same,
the second you move on.

I don't know why I'm calling.
Just to say hi, I guess.

So, hi.

He has no idea what to say.

You don't have to call me
back. If you want to, you can.

- He's dying.
- Shh.

But you know, if you
don't, or you're out late,

Uh, then don't.

He wants you back, and
it's really pissing him off.

I'll probably talk to you later.

Yeah, he's pissed,
at his sorry self.

- What are you doing?
- I'm gonna call him back.

No, you're not!

- I'm not?
- No!

- Make him squirm.
- I don't want to.

Girl, that's how
it works. Trust me.

Hello?

Hey. It's lauren.

Oh, hey.

You busy?

Uh, no. What's up?

Nothing. Um, I don't
know. Just walking.

I bought a tea,
but it's too hot.

So I just thought maybe I should
just chuck four months of sobriety

And get a chilled martini.

Where are you?

Uh, three blocks away.

Do you want to come over?

Yeah.

Okay.

Javier.

I wanted to give you something.

It's a lint brush.

Oh, that's great.

Well, you said your
dryer was broken.

That happened to me once, and I
had lint everywhere, so I really...

Okay, listen, rita. I got
to tell you something.

I'm a lot like blanche, okay?

You know how, in the play, she hides the
truth to protect herself and other people?

Oh, javier, we're all
a lot like blanche.

That's why tennessee
williams was such a genius.

Okay, I'm a lot like him, too.

- You're a genius?
- I'm gay.

Oh, yeah, I know.

- You do?
- Well, it's pretty obvious,
isn't it?

Well, I don't know
about that, but...

How come you want
to go out with me?

Javier, my husband
is never coming back,

But I'm not looking
to replace him.

It's just, don't you
ever get lonely?

Lots.

I lost my husband, too.

I mean, he's still
alive, but I miss him.

So, maybe we can miss
our husbands together?

Oh, that would be sad and nice.

So, let's do it, huh?

You swept me over. You
and your little lint brush.

That was my plan.

That was a good plan.

You must have read that
art of w*r by that sun sun.

- Hey.
- Hey.

- How you doing?
- Okay.

- You all right?
- Yeah.

Can I get you
something? More tea?

Oh, no, thank you.

All right. Come sit down.

I'll just throw my stuff...

Yeah, throw it. That's fine.

So, why don't you
tell me what happened.

Um...

Well, about a week
ago, I e-mailed him.

Right. And that's when
he started calling you?

Yeah. I just got thirsty
for him, you know?

Yeah.

And our relationship
is, it's like drinking.

I mean, one sip, bam,
you're off the wagon.

- You know?
- Yeah.

Now he wants to get
back together with me.

And I can't.

It is so bad for me.

I just...

I don't want to feel this hole
in my heart anymore, you know?

I know.

Yeah, I know.

I just want to
forget it for tonight.

Just one night, okay?

Just tonight.

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I got your message.

Um, and...

Well, I'll be up for a little
while if you want to talk.

Uh, otherwise, um,

We'll talk later.

Okay. Bye.