04x01 - Turn and Face the Strange

[bunniefuu]

("GHOST" BY LUC PLAYING)

♪ You keep looking over your shoulder ♪

♪ Playing back all the
things you told her ♪

♪ Maybe now she's a little bit older ♪

♪ It'll just fade away ♪

♪ And you can't sleep
and it's hard to focus ♪

♪ Got your million-dollar
home but you're soulless ♪

♪ You're freaking out 'cause
you can't control this ♪

♪ Open the door and it's cold out ♪

♪ Oh-hoo, are you gonna break? ♪

♪ Open the door and your secret's out ♪

♪ Oh-hoo, are you gonna cave? ♪

♪ You got shadows ♪
♪ No mistaking now ♪

♪ Ooh-hoo, are you afraid? ♪

♪ You can learn from
all of your mistakes ♪

♪ You're living with a ghost ♪

♪ Living with a ghost ♪

♪ Pa-pa-pa ♪
♪ Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa ♪

♪ Pa-pa-pa ♪
♪ Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa ♪

♪ Then we'll find our peace of mind ♪

♪ You and me, Bel Ami ♪

♪ Pa-pa-pa, pa-paaa ♪

ALICE: Oh, the applications
for the new loft

- are on my desk.
- Got 'em.

- And weed out any friends of Kelly's.
- Clearly.

Maybe you should dial
me into the interviews.

Okay, you put me in charge.

You need to just let go
and concentrate on your act.

How are you feeling?

I don't know. It all happened so fast.

I mean, I can't believe I'm on
the road opening for Margaret Cho.

The only bad thing is that
they usually hire locals,

so I have to pay for
my own hotel and meals.

Not complaining, though.

This opportunity is well
worth going in debt for.

It's like... a dream come true.

A dream well deserved.

Enjoy it.

And don't worry about the Coterie.

I have everything under control.

- (ALARM BEEPING)
- What's that?

- Is that the fire alarm?
- I... I gotta run, bye!

("BLAH BLAH BLAH!" BY ANNA
VOLPE AND SOULPLUSMIND PLAYING)

♪ I'm not hearing
your blah, blah, blah ♪

♪ I just wanna do what
I want, want, want ♪

Incoming!

♪ Take one step and I'll take three ♪

♪ Do what you want while I sip my tea ♪

I just b*rned my bagel.

Talk about overkill.

This place is not
burning down on my watch.

KELLY: Yet another reason why

I should've been chosen
as interim manager.

I have experience with small fires,

many of which I have started.

We needed a new toaster anyway,

and I'm thinking about
replacing that stove.

- With what money?
- I'm raising the rent on the new loft.

I appreciate you wanting me to stay.

But I have a job

and a free place to live
in Santa Barbara and...

I don't feel right living here anymore.

I can't keep putting you
out of your loft like this.

It just...

It makes sense that I go.

How much?

?

I'll take it.

Uh, well, you'll need to apply.

And why do you need two lofts?

Uh, it's for Isabella.

Oh, well, then, she'll need to apply.

I'll be paying for it.

SUMI: Well, if your credit checks out,

I'm gonna need first, last month's

and a full month's
deposit before end of day.

I have a lot of promising applicants.

I'm sorry.

Okay, who's cleaning this up?

- Hello?
- Not me.

WOMAN: Hi. Malika Williams?

- I'm Malika.
- These are for you.

Thanks.

Ooh, I wonder who those are from.

What're you doing here?

I hate my life without you.

I... I... I love you and
I want to be with you.

Just us, like it was before.

I'm... I mean, if the
offer still stands.

I...

can't do this right now.

I'm starting a new job
in the morning and...

I need time to think.

Um, yeah, it's okay, I get it.

DYONTE: Malika, have a great first day.

Slash through that red tape.

Love, Dyonte.

They're just from Dyonte,

wishing me good luck on
my first day at my new job.

(PHONE CHIMES)

Well, I should get going.

- Don't.
- I did not!

But do you have $ , ?

No, I don't,

but I need Isabella to stay.

And I can always ask Yuri for an advance

on my next commission.
It's not a big deal.

Well, it's all a big deal.

You're gonna be a father.

I heard you made a choice.

I did!

And are you happy?

I am.

But I have to go to work,

so I'll have to fill you
in on the details later.

Has the jury come to a verdict?

Yes, Your Honor.

Please rise.

Face the jury.

You may proceed.

JUROR: In the matter of The
People of the State of California

versus Thomas Sung,

for the charge of m*rder
in the first degree...

we find the defendant...

not guilty.

♪♪

(INDISTINCT CHATTER)

Congratulations.

How do you feel?

Uh, pretty good.

Do you think he got away with m*rder?

I think there's more to the story.

Why?

There was a moment in the trial,

Kathleen said something to the jury,

they looked at Tommy and he welled up,

like he was coached.

And I don't trust anyone
who can cry on cue.

Then you'll never trust my sister.

Incoming.

Where's Kathleen Gale?

Uh, should be around here somewhere.

She appears to have slipped out.

Any idea where she might've gone?

Maybe back to the office?

We're not playing games.

And you have hours

to make your client available
to us for questioning

before we issue a
warrant for her arrest.

And yours... for obstruction.

♪♪

(GRUNTS)

Journaling?

Uh, no, not a journaler.

I'm not into writing down my feelings.

It's weird. What about you?

The same, actually.

But I am keeping a pregnancy
journal, for the baby.

- That's a nice idea.
- Yeah.

Gael's mom gave it to me

just to kind of... like,
keep track of the firsts.

You know, like the first ultrasound

and the first time the baby moves...

And kicks.

And the fruit sizes.

Yes! (CHUCKLES)

What size is the baby now?

Um, a lemon.

Hmm, a lemon.

You're growing a person.

That is so crazy.

Uh, so what were you working on?

Earlier, you looked very, very serious.

So I am having a soft opening
of my food truck tomorrow night.

- I hope you'll come.
- Of course.

And I'm trying to figure
out the food costs.

Don't tell anybody, but
I might not have any idea

what the hell I'm doing.

Well, I've worked in restaurants
since I was, like, .

Do you want me to take a look?

Please.

Okay, so without a
beer and wine license,

that means you need all your
profit to come from food,

which means you can't afford any waste.

Right. So your menu needs
some shared ingredients.

Okay, for example, you're
only using the burrata

for the burrata and tomato toast, right?

But what if you use it as an add on

for your crispy pancetta points,

and the pizza pie toast?

Make yourself at home.

Oh, I had to take my heels off

and the floor looked, well, like that,

so I figured you wouldn't mind.

Well, considering those
are Mariana's, I don't.

So what did Tweedledee and Dumb

think of my disappearing act?

Oh, not amused.

So did you talk to Ken Sung?

No.

Why not?

I mean, you made good on your end.

You got Tommy acquitted.
All we need from him

is proof that his sister's alive

and... and the FBI gets off your back.

Except things are a little
more complicated now.

Why?

I took money from
Albert Chen's retainer,

and I gave it to Denise

to help her disappear
and get a new identity.

And "sack of sh*t"
Sackolov from my old firm

gave my books to the FBI.

So in order to keep me out of jail,

we are going to need
more than proof of life.

We need Denise to give the
FBI something that they can use

to help put her husband away.

And we need Ken to
convince her to do that.

And by "we," I mean you,

because, obviously, I can't
show my face right now.

You promised me you
wouldn't lie to me again.

I didn't lie.

I omitted facts that, until
now, were not relevant.

Don't try to litigate this with me.

I'm sorry.

You're right.

To be honest, I didn't tell
you the truth because I...

did something illegal and stupid,

and I didn't want you
to lose respect for me.

If the FBI gives my books to the DA,

Rothman will make sure
that I go to prison.

I'm scared.

And I need you.

("UNFAIR" BY RAYANA JAY PLAYING)

♪ This what we come to? ♪

ANGELICA: Hope you had a
great first day on the job.

Guess the next round
of drinks are on you!

XO, Angelica.

♪ You make me undone ♪

♪ I really want some ♪

♪ I wanna get reckless ♪

♪ Wear your hands like a necklace ♪

♪ Woah, roll me with no effort ♪

♪ Man, that sh*t's so impressive ♪

♪ But I get possessive ♪

♪ Say it's mine or I'm jealous ♪

♪ Say it's yours like you own it ♪

♪ Yeah, it's yours ♪
♪ You can own it ♪

Hi.

It's good to see you.

It's good to see you too.

- How are you?
- What's new?

Oh, sorry. You first.

All right. (CLEARS THROAT)

I adopted a pet turtle.

Well, turtles are often
marketed as low-maintenance pets,

but the truth is they need special care

and a lot of room to grow.

Also, he can live decades.

So it's a... big commitment.

You can tell he's a he?

There are eight ways, yes.

No way.

Proof of life was one thing,

but asking my sister to get
back in bed with the FBI?

It's like signing her own death warrant.

She won't have to
reveal her whereabouts.

She just has to give them something

to put her husband away.

And he'll have her k*lled.

He hasn't found her,

and the best way to
ensure that he doesn't

is to put him in prison.

Kathleen kept her end of the bargain.

Your son was cleared of m*rder.

I'm sorry.

I have to protect my sister.

DAVIA: Hey! How was your first day?

Ugh, I spent it all in
HR filling out paperwork,

so not really a first day yet.

Hmm. You want some tea?

Yes, please.

And... some advice.

Isaac showed up last
night out of the blue.

He...

wants to get back
together and be monogamous,

just like I offered
before he up and left.

I know you probably think
I should feel grateful

that he's willing to
give me a second chance

after I ruined everything.

No. Not at all.

You don't need to be grateful
just because a man loves you.

Look, you have every right to
explore what you want and need.

You didn't kick Isaac to the curb.

You were honest about
how you were feeling

and asked to open up your relationship.

(KETTLE WHISTLING)

I would never judge you for that.

Thank you.

See, I mean, I get that he was hurt,

but I felt abandoned.

Yeah, I know the feeling.

But speaking from experience,
Isaac's timing might suck.

But if you do still love him
and you want to be monogamous,

then the real question is, can
you forgive him for leaving?

Did you forgive Dennis?

I did.

Here you are, sir.

And for you. Enjoy.

So you said that you
needed to talk to me.

- CLAIRE: What about?
- I don't know.

He just texted me that he gave me
a glowing recommendation to Jackie

and that he needs to talk to me.

I think I just don't respond.

Right?

What if he has some intel
on Jackie or Revitalize?

You shouldn't go in there blind.

I agree.

I think you should
hear what he has to say.

If it's not too hard to see him.

No. It... It's fine.

EVAN: Yes, I needed to
talk to you because...

Jackie wanted me to find
out if you could be trusted.

But I didn't ask you
here to do her bidding.

I asked you here because...

I'm curious as to why
you're betraying your friends

to work for the competition.

Um... I'm curious.

Were you aware that Jackie
was ripping off Bulk Beauty?

No. No, I had no idea.

And I don't approve.

And knowing you, I would've
thought that you don't either.

Well, I don't.

But, you know, the Bulk
Beauty girls pushed me out

because I was dating you,

and, you know, they're taking
all my good ideas with them.

So... the way I see it,

I have every right to take
my good ideas elsewhere.

Okay.

Is that the only reason
you needed to talk to me?

Is there something else that
you wanted to talk about?

No.

Um, but you're welcome to tell Jackie

that she has nothing to worry about.

Thanks for the drink.

♪ Don't got much time ♪
♪ So what's it gonna be? ♪

♪ Make up your mind ♪
♪ You stay or wanna leave ♪

♪ Don't want this to be
the end of you and me ♪

♪ But if we could then we should ♪

♪ And I'm not asking for much ♪

♪ Just a little QT ♪

♪ Just a little you and me ♪

♪ Just want your time and some love ♪

You still got game?

What do you think?

Show me.

When did you get that?

After you left.

Does it mean anything?

It reminds me to love myself.

Oh! Okay!

I don't know why you
thought you could do that.

I see you've learned a few things.

I mean, you know... Oh, yeah.

- Oh, you ready now?
- Just know a thing or two. Yeah.

Okay. So you... you... you...
getting there or something?

I'm getting there. I'm getting there.

- You're getting there. You're getting there.
- Okay. (YELPS)

(SCREAMS)

("ROLLERCOASTER" BY BLOOKAH PLAYING)

♪♪

♪♪

Aaah!

Thank you very much.
And the crowd goes wild.

- (YURI SCREAMS)
- Jesus!

YURI: You don't get married or divorced

or have a kid with a crazy woman!

I haven't seen my
daughter for two years,

and just now, she bails on
coming to see me for the summer.

She wants to spend it with her friends.

I should never have let her
mom take her to Australia.

I missed out on so much
of their life already.

Can't imagine not seeing my kid.

If Isabella moves away,

I don't... I don't know what I'd do.

She's talking about moving

until she is closer to her due date.

You can't let her do that.

You don't know if she's even
gonna come back to have the baby.

Whatever it takes,

if there is a way, you've
gotta make her stay.

I owe everything to you and Kathleen,

the... the whole team.

I really appreciate all you did for me

and that you always believed in me.

Yeah, it's easy to believe
in someone who's innocent.

To not guilty.

I, um, I know it's...

It's hard to celebrate
when Zack's still gone.

And nothing will bring him back.

It was just like a terrible accident.

And I know how much you loved him.

I need to tell you something.

And you're the only person I trust.

Yeah.

That night, I tried to get
away from Zack after we fought.

I went to the drop-off
and... and he followed me.

He was pretty drunk and still pissed.

I tried to walk away,

but Zack started
shoving me and swinging.

And, finally, I shoved him away,

and he stumbled and
fell back over the edge.

And I tried to grab him.

It all happened so fast.

And I didn't think
that he'd be that hurt.

I was just so...

frustrated.

I didn't wanna deal with any
of it until he sobered up,

so I left the party.

And I couldn't believe it
when I heard he was dead.

I k*lled Zack.

I didn't mean to, but I k*lled him.

Whatever.

I thought you were done with me.

Nah, I just...

needed some time to think.

Well, it felt like goodbye.

You know, uh, I asked you straight-up

if you had feelings for Dyonte,

and, uh, you told me no.

I was confused

because I was learning
new things about myself.

And I'm still learning.

And I'm...

I'm so sorry that I hurt you.

I'm sorry that, uh...

that I left.

But I'm back.

I'm here.

To be with you.

I miss you a lot and, uh...

I miss you too.

MARIANA: Surprise!

We didn't get to celebrate
your not-guilty verdict.

This is so sweet.

- Here you go.
- Wow.

What's wrong?

You look lower than a gopher hole.

Where did you hear that?

Oh, um, I was watching a
Dolly Parton documentary.

But, for real, what's wrong?

Uh, I can't tell you.

The story of my life.

No, I really can't. It's privileged.

Well, whatever it is,

don't let it spoil your victory.

It's not just that.

Lately, I... look in the mirror

and I just don't know who I am anymore.

I'm just not where I thought I'd be.

Well, where did you think you'd be?

Not here.

You're just tired.

Here.

How about a foot rub?

Really? Why?

Because you're my sister and I love you.

Jeez, stop being so suspicious.

Oh, good.

Here, I have money.

Don't worry, it won't bounce.

It's not that.

I said end-of-day yesterday,

and when I didn't hear from you,

I leased the loft.

Sumi, seriously?

Why didn't... Why didn't
you check in with me?

I did... I need this.

I'm so, so sorry.

sh*t! What am I gonna do now?

Actually...

I might have an idea.

Wait, so...

Alice is letting me stay here for free?

Good news, you are $ , richer.

What? How? Why?

Where did you go?

Do you know you have a veritable fluffle

of dust bunnies under your bed?

Why are you under my bed?

And what's a fluffle?

A large group of bunnies.

And I sublet your loft.

ALICE: I didn't tell
you to sublet my loft.

You had a money problem, and I fixed it.

You shouldn't have to go into debt

to pursue your dream.

Okay, yeah, but I
don't want some stranger

sleeping on my bed.

Uh, it's not a stranger. It's Isabella.

What? That's worse!

I don't wanna take money from a friend.

It's a business transaction.

This is why you get taken advantage
of around here, by the way.

You are too nice,

but not on my watch.

Absolute power truly
does corrupt absolutely.

You'll see, this is good for you

and for Isabella and Gael.

It's good for everyone.

ALICE: Tell that to the
fluffle you're about to evict.

Oh, and by the way, Gael
doesn't want Isabella to know

that he paid to sublet your loft.

- So mum's the word.
- Great!

Yep.

Yeah. Yeah, you can stay here for free.

Wow! That is so nice of Alice.

And now you don't have to worry
about putting me out of my loft,

so... you can stay.

I really appreciate this,

but I still need a job.

You can't be the only one
working and saving for the baby.

And Santa Barbara's not that far.

It's really not
worst-case scenario, okay?

("PRETTY FACE" BY YUKI
DREAMS AGAIN PLAYING)

♪ Yeah, she got a pretty face ♪
♪ Pretty face ♪

♪ That I cannot take away ♪

♪ But I heard she's pretty fake ♪

♪ And she's too cool for everyone ♪

♪ One, two, three ♪

♪ I'm out of here ♪

♪ Keep me far from her spell ♪

It was amazing to see
you laughing today.

And excited about the food truck

and the fact that you went
to the children's ward.

It just...

It all made me realize

that you're ready to live again.

(SHAKILY) And it also
made me realize that...

you don't need me anymore.

And need was the foundation
of our relationship.

You were broken,

and I was intoxicated with
the idea of saving you.

But you saved yourself.

And there's a big difference

between being needed and wanted and...

I want to be wanted.

I love you so much.

And I will always be here for you.

I love you too.

♪♪

Well, your truck looks
good enough to eat.

- Yeah, that's the idea.
- Mmm-hmm.

You okay?

Yeah. Have fun and get some toast.

Okay.

♪ I must confess ♪

♪ I think they call this happiness... ♪

Now, you know, this
toast is hella bougie.

Yeah, it's extra but it's free.

And delicious.

Girl, you are glowing tonight,

and it is not the French toast.

Oh! Excuse me, is that a new tattoo?

- It is.
- Oh, boy. Now what?

What?

- Isaac came back.
- ALL: What?

He wanted to get back together.

ALL: What?

Okay, what did you say?

I miss you... a lot.

I miss you too.

So much.

But...

Isaac...

I moved on.

I have other relationships
I'm invested in.

I love you...

and...

I wanna always be a part of your life.

If you let me.

Listen, that's what I'm talking about.

- Good for you, Malika.
- Amen.

So does that mean that
Isaac is up for grabs?

- Now, girl?
- I was just playing. Y'all think I would do that?

- Excuse me.
- I don't know, now.

(PLAYFUL CHATTER)

Be right back.

Hey!

Okay, he's cute.

Um, hold on one second.

- Hey!
- Hey!

Okay, she cute too.

I'm glad you both could come.

I've been wanting you to meet.

Dyonte, this is Angelica.

Hi. I've heard such
great things about you.

Me too...

about you.

KENDY: Look at her owning her world.

Yeah, like a damn goddess.

Maybe we should get tattoos.

What?

Wait. Who is that guy?

I have no idea.

Sumi.

Who's that guy over there?

SUMI: Joaquin.

He is our newest Coterie member.

He's an independent
investigative journalist

who just did a five-piece
exposé on deputy gangs

in the Sheriff's Department.

And best of all,

he has a high credit score.

Nice! Good job, Sumi!

Thank you.

Well, I should probably
go introduce myself

since he doesn't know anyone, right?

Yeah, 'cause he doesn't know anyone.

- MARIANA: Exactly!
- Right.

- Hi, Joaquin, right?
- Yeah. Hi.

I'm Mariana. I live at the Coterie.

We have family dinners like once a week.

Well, we're supposed
to. Everyone's so busy.

But I'm sure you're gonna love it here.

I'm sure I will. Thank you.

I heard that you're a journalist.

That's the rumor. What do you do?

- I'm in tech.
- Ah.

I heard you just did a
big exposé on deputy gangs

in the Sheriff's Department.

Yeah. What kind of tech you do?

App development.

So were you afraid at all to
write about law enforcement?

Apps, huh? Like what? Like games?

No, it's like, uh, in the beauty
area, sustainable shopping.

So did any of the deputy
g*ng members thr*aten you?

Well, they definitely don't love me.

What's, uh, sustainable shopping?

Do you always answer a question
by asking another question?

I thought we were just
having a conversation.

Okay, never mind. You're
obviously into playing games.

Or, maybe I just don't like

sharing what I do for work
with perfect strangers,

and my way of politely messaging that

is to redirect the conversation.

Okay, well, do you think that
that was polite or patronizing?

What would you like me to say,
"It's none of your business"?

Yeah, actually, I
would prefer the truth.

Oh, okay. Well, the truth
is I'm seeing someone.

(SCOFFS) Oh, my God. Okay.

Well, I mean, if we're
being completely honest,

didn't you come over
here to flirt with me?

Wow! You really are
in love with yourself.

No, you were standing
alone, and I came over here

because you obviously don't know anyone.

Oh, okay. Well, thank
you. Now I know you.

So I'm gonna go get some
toast. Do you want anything?

No.

Okay.

So what do you think of the new guy?

I think he's a d*ck.

Never mind, I take it back. Sumi?

Bad job!

Huh? What did I do?

ANGELICA: It's nice to meet you.

Nice to meet y'all too.
Heard so much about you.

- DYONTE: Oh, yeah?
- Great things. Yeah, yeah.

I didn't know y'all had dimples though.

- KENDY: That's cute.
- TOLU: That's real cute.

- GAEL: Hey.
- Hi.

Did, um...

Did Dennis tell you he offered me a job?

- Um, that's fantastic!
- I know.

So, um, does this mean...

Yes.

This means that I'm saying.

I can't believe how kind
everyone's been to me.

But, of course, that's just a testament

to how much they love you.

Oh, they all love you too.

And they're gonna love the baby.

And, you know what they
say, it does take a village.

Yeah, I'm really lucky
to be a part of this one.

Thank you.

I owe you one.

She knows her stuff, man.

She's good. She'll save my ass.

How's that going?

She was right.

I need to get my sh*t
together, but when I do,

who knows what's meant to be?

("BACK & FORTH" BY
EMOTIONAL ORANGES PLAYING)

(ALL CHEERING)

♪ I said I'm done, but
still you act like that guy ♪

♪ I can't believe we're in this deep ♪

♪ Let me remind you ♪

♪ On and off and way too often ♪

♪ Wasting all our time ♪

♪ You and I ♪
♪ We ain't been talking ♪

♪ It's all on my mind ♪

- So you're the new guy?
- Yeah.

I have a rule, new guy.

I don't sex where I eat.

Then again,

rules suck.

- Let's dance.
- Oh, I don't know about that.

I'm not really...

I'm not really a dancer, but okay.

Wow, I'm... Wow!

♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪

♪ Said it once, said it twice ♪
♪ But you don't remember ♪

♪ Hope to get it back
but you won't forget me ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪

Come here.

♪♪

- MATT: Hi.
- Hi.

How's the conference going?

Boring. Uh, but San Francisco
is a... a big upgrade

from last year in Bisbee, Arizona.

Yeah, I'll say.

So, uh, I was gonna
wait until you got back,

but I just really wanna tell you.

I'm not confused about Dennis anymore.

I know what I want.

And I want you.

(CLEARS THROAT) Am I on mute here?

No, sorry. Um...

It's just...

I... I've had some
time to... think here.

And I've seen you with Dennis,

and... I really believe

that you don't want to...
still be in love with him.

But I'm just not
convinced that you're not.

And I don't wanna be your rebound guy.

I care about you so much that... that...

I don't want to set myself up
to maybe get my heart broken.

And if I'm honest,

I want someone who doesn't
need to take weeks to figure out

if they wanna be with me.

I want someone who just knows.

It's strange, right?

After everything we've been through,

we end up on opposite sides

in a m*rder case of all things.

Yeah.

Kinda seems like the universe
keeps pushing us together.

Um...

I've been thinking about how I can be...

a little "my way or the highway."

And I've held everyone up to
this black-and-white standard.

But... I think we all really
just exist in the gray.

TOMMY (OVER RECORDING):
And I couldn't believe it

when I heard he was dead.

(SOBBING) I k*lled Zack.

I didn't mean to, but I k*lled him.

You recorded my son.

Why?

There was a moment in the trial,

Kathleen said something to the jury,

they looked at Tommy and he welled up,

like he was coached.

And I don't trust anyone
who can cry on cue.

Good boy. He's really selling it.

It doesn't matter.

Tommy's already been found not guilty.

He can't be tried again,
it's double jeopardy.

That's true.

But if you don't help Kathleen,

I'll send this to Zack's family.

They'll sue in civil
court for wrongful death.

Tommy's life will be destroyed.

He'll be branded a m*rder*r.

No college, no job prospects,

and you'll end up financially ruined.

So the ball is, as
they say, in your court.

I guess, um, what I'm trying to say...

is I've learned that sometimes
when you represent a client,

you have to do things you
may not feel good about.

And I judged you for that,

with the Anwei situation,

and I betrayed your trust.

I'm sorry.

I have also learned...

that betraying your personal ethics

isn't always justified,

even in the pursuit of
representing a client.

And that sometimes, you need
someone to keep you accountable.

(SIGHS)

I still love you, you know?

I still love you too.

♪♪

I...

I can't keep jumping from one
relationship back to another.

I need to...

figure out who I am and
what I'm really doing.

Yeah, I understand.

I support you with that.

- I got my own soul searching to do.
- (LAUGHS)

I've been... I've been thinking like

that all of this is as good as it gets.

For me, you know?

Maybe it's not.

Yeah.

No, maybe... maybe I can have like...

Maybe I can have the moon and the stars,

if I just...

find the courage to reach for them.

Maybe to do that, I...

need to make some big life changes.

How big?

Big.