05x18 - Never Say Never

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Almost ready.

All right. All right.
Lily, I love you to pieces,

but you're the most
high-maintenance dog ever.

Is that because your owner indulges you?

There he is.

- Hi.
- Catch.

Oh!

- It's a game ball from last night.
- Really?

Is that heavenly smell breakfast?

- Um...
- 'Cause I've been driving all night

on turkey jerky and cold coffee,

and this belly could use a real good meal.

Oh, yeah, a-actually, that...

Beautiful girl, you are a
sight for these tired eyes.

Oh, yes. I missed the
hell out of you, girl.

- Oh, yes.
- Ooh.

Well, um, I'll let the two of you

get reacquainted.

- Hey, thanks for taking care of her.
- You're welcome.

It's great to see you.

I mean it.

Um, if... you know,
if... if you're hungry,

I could... I could,
you know, I could...

You okay?

Oh, yeah. Yeah, absolutely.

- You've been, you know,
driving a long time. - Yeah.

I bet you... you'd like to, uh...
you know...

- Have a shower.
- I was thinking that.

Yeah, well, the water pressure
in the R.V. isn't so hot.

Come to think of it, neither
is the water. Yeah.

Uh, so I've got showers.
A lot of... up there.

- You know, you can use Kitty's room.
- Oh.

- It's the first door on the right.
- Thanks.

- Yeah.
- I'll go get some clean clothes.

- Okay.
- Yeah. All right.

Lily.

Sarah, quick question.

How long do you think it'll
be until the auto industry

introduces a flying car?

Kevin, I do not have time
to listen to you

have a psychotic episode this morning.

Now that we officially
have custody of Olivia,

I'm perfectly healthy, thank you.

I've just been reading the
" things to do by " list

that Justin wrote when he was ,

and number four...
"have sex in a flying car."

I can't believe our little
brother is turning .

Yeah, I don't think he can either.

I'm at his place right now
hoping this list will help.

You know he canceled
his trip to Mammoth

with Dan and his friends?

I'm sure the ski bunnies

- in hot tubs will be devastated.
- Yeah, I know,

but we can't let Justin
blow off his th birthday.

Justin is blowing off his birthday?

- Mm-hmm.
- Oh, hey, Luc. Yeah.

I feel so old.
I-I can barely remember my th.

You don't remember your
th 'cause you were

- ripping Tequila sh*ts and then you
threw up on Joe. - Okay, Kevin,

it was my last hurrah before
babies and breast-feeding.

Number ...

"jump into the chocolate
river at Hershey Park."

I'm guessing somebody wasn't
sober when he wrote that.

I'm gonna call mom.
She'll know what to do.

Hold on.

What?

Wow. You sound like you're
in a good mood, mom.

I'm in a fine mood.
What do you want?

Justin canceled his ski trip,

and we've been left holding
the birthday bag. Any ideas?

I don't know.
How about a dinner at my house?

What, another dinner party?
Come on, mom.

Start thinking outside the wine box.

And hello to you, too, Kevin.

Since when is dinner at
my house not good enough?

- What about a dance party?
- Oh, yeah.

Perfect. Scotty could
shut the restaurant,

and we can get a deejay.

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
What about a disco ball?

- You must get a disco ball.
- You're out of control.

Stop right there. Justin hates dancing.

Look, honestly, I-I'll just do
a fabulous dinner at my house.

- Where are the towels?
- Is somebody there?

- No.
- Never mind. I found 'em.

- Is Brody back?
- Yes.

How long's he staying?

Oh, I don't know. Not long.

That's it? You're just another
doggy day care to him?

- That and a laundromat. - Oh, please,
tell me you're not doing his...

Not doing his what, Sarah, his laundry?

Don't be silly.
Why would I do his laundry?

I gotta go. Bye.

- Kevin.
- Hey.

Hey. Who were you just talking to?

No one.

We were just planning your birthday party.

No. I told you, I don't
want a birthday party.

That's why I canceled the ski trip.

Oh, come on.
You're just saying that now.

No, I'm not just saying that.
All right?

Turning is gonna suck.
And you know what?

Kitty skipped her th,
so I'm skipping this one.

Look, freaks everyone out.

I developed a crippling
self-tanning obsession

just to cope with mine.
It was a sad orange time.

Look, I'm sure it was really sad.

But you know what?
I just worked a night shift,

and I'm going to bed.

And please don't break in to my home.
It's creepy.

Wait. Look, I have coffee

and something I think
will make you very happy.

What are you talking about?

Ta-da.

Oh, my God. I gave this to you?

Isn't it amazing?
We're gonna do every item on this list.

You know someone with a flying car?

Every item that doesn't
require time travel.

"Tell mom what I really think of her"?

Oh, yeah, remember?
She confiscated your discman.

Oh, yeah. Wait. Why...
You're doing this with me because?

Because you're my brother
and I love you.

You're lying to my face.

Okay. Scotty's mom
is coming to stay.

- Oh. - And I have to be around her
as little as humanly possible.

So what about...

a little "street fighter",
old-school style?

- Wait. That's on the list?
- Yeah.

"b*at 'street fighter' in one session."
You in?

Uh, yes. Let's do it.

Do you like this one?

Uh, yes, I love it.

But how could I not? It's of me.

- Okay, bag, phone, computer,
keys... - What are you doing?

- Uh, going to work.
- What about Benoit?

He's coming in a few minutes.

I know. I just got a text.
I've got a situation at work

I've gotta deal with. Can we postpone?

Hey, you're not
the only one who's busy.

This is my first solo show in Los Angeles.

We need to focus.
We have a wedding to plan.

- And Benoit is our only hope?
- You told me this morning was okay.

- Yes, I'm sorry. I just...
This can't wait. - I can't believe

you're leaving me here all
alone to deal with this.

I'm a guy. I don't know
what I'm doing.

Just listen to his ideas

and get the Benoit ball rolling.

- Fine.
- Thank you. I love you for this.

I have a proposition.

No, I am not taking ballroom classes

with you, Jonathan.

I had a horrendously humiliating experience

with the waltz in junior high, so...

Speaking of junior high.

It's my mother.

Mom, I'll talk to you later.

I swear, I will never
make you dance in public.

This is about a house.

A house?

Now don't worry, Saul.
I'm not asking you to move in with me.

I'm buying a house in Palm Springs.

It's beautiful, mid-century, great views.

It needs a lot of work, but, um...

So you want to restore a
house in Palm Springs?

Yeah. I thought we could do it together.

You know, go there on weekends
whenever you want, uh, holidays.

You could even invite your family.

You know what?

Things are going along
so well here with us.

I-I just...

I just don't want to tempt fate.

You know, like my mother used
to say, "kein ayin hara."

Beware the envious evil eye.

Well, if you're worried about the evil eye,

I'm giving you guys fair warning.

My mother's coming
in a matter of hours.

Well, maybe I have to call Ida back

- so the two of them can entertain
each other. - How about that?

She called this morning and said
she's "popping by" from Arizona.

You seem a little, uh, anxious.

Oh, no, this isn't anxiety. It's dread.

There's a big difference.

She's meeting Olivia for the first time.

- And where's Kevin?
- Hiding.

- What's with the tablecloth?
- Oh, well, last time she was here,

she said our dining room
table was too modern.

I didn't want to spend the next
couple of days discussing it.

Not that we ever discuss anything.
I open my mouth

to say something, and she
goes completely deaf.

Well, just don't take the bait.

You know, I used to think it
was all about me being gay,

but I realized,

she doesn't approve of
anything I've done, ever.

I can't wait to hear what she
has to say about my parenting.

All right, wait a minute.
So she's judgmental.

What's the big deal?
If you had grown up with my mother,

you would've learned very quickly

that the only way to survive
is to be proud of who you are.

That's easier said than done, Saul.

You still haven't told
your mother you're gay.

Your mother doesn't know you're gay?

Yeah, well...

Why would I tell her something like that?

Because that's who you are.

No, it's nothing like that.

Anyway, it's too late now.

She's just... she's not all there.

Well, neither are you...

If you're carrying around
a secret like that.

Oh, thanks. That shower felt good.

Well, you clean up nicely.

Hopefully your clothes will do the same.

What do you do, play in the dirt?

Actually, I do. That's my job.

- Oh.
- Whatcha doin'?

Well, I-I'm planning a
th birthday for Justin,

and then Sarah is getting married, so...

How about dinner and a movie?

It's the least I can do
after you took care of...

Oh. It's my mother.

I was supposed to visit her
and I didn't.

That's Ida? Don't tell her I'm here.

- She always hated me.
- I know.

Hi, mom.

Oh.

I see.

Could I call you back?

No, I just need to call you back.

Good. Thank you. Bye.

Is everything all right?

She d*ed...

This morning.

She d*ed?

My mother d*ed.

I guess I have to plan
a funeral now, too.

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This is delicious.

- You should definitely go with the lemon.
- I don't know, Kevin.

Wait. Is that marzipan?

- Yeah.
- Oh, good. You're all here.

Yeah, we, uh, we came as soon as we heard.

Okay, this won't take long.

- I gotta get back for a conference call.
- You okay?

- Yeah... Oh, my God. Please tell me
that's dead. - No, it's synthetic.

Feel the feathers... unbelievable.

Yeah, it's an inspirational piece.

We will have live ones at the wedding.

You're kidding.

- Okay, Benoit got a little carried away.
- You think?

- Bad timing.
- Kevin, what are you eating?

- Cake samples. This one's marzipan.
- Would you please stop?

I doubt that's appropriate at this time.

What? I'm drowning my grief.

- In what, icing? - Okay, guys.
Can we please talk about this?

How's, uh, how's mom?

I can't really tell.

I mean, she's thrown herself
into organizing the funeral.

Don't worry.
It won't be on your birthday.

- Uh, I wasn't worried, Kevin.
- You know what?

You should get mom to call Benoit.

He could hook her up with this baker.

What? People eat cakes at funerals.

Okay, listen,

we've got some things to
discuss and to decide.

Firstly, Tommy and Kitty
won't be making the funeral.

- What?
- How did they get out of it?

- Uh, Kitty's in Boston with Seth.
- That's lame.

Agreed. And Tommy can't get
leave from his new job.

Well, that... that's not right.

It is what it is.
Anyway, mom would like the rest of us

- to say something at the service.
- No way.

- Are you kidding me? - No, Justin.
I'm not kidding you, okay?

Ida hated me.
In fact, she went out of her way

to tell me what a disappointment I was.

Kevin, stop it, all right?

She was our grandmother and she d*ed.

- Show some respect.
- Justin is right.

You guys have to put your
differences aside now.

You know what? She didn't.

Okay, listen, whoever wants to
say something, say something.

If you don't, please
explain to mom yourself.

- Fine.
- All right, next...

Somebody's gonna have to
go to the nursing home

and clean out Ida's stuff.

- I'm sorry. I do not have time
in the next... - I'll do it.

- Thank you. - Justin, you
want me to come with you?

Yeah, sure. That'd be great.

Okay, good. That's it. I gotta get back.

Um, do you think we could get Benoit

to get rid of all this stuff?

Okay, Sarah, I get it.
You don't want swans.

But you should definitely
go with one of these cakes.

They're delicious.

Hi, mom. Good to see you.

Hi, honey.

Ah.

Oh.

It is much nicer up here
than I expected.

I can't believe you live
above the restaurant.

It must get noisy.
How does Olivia sleep?

Well... well, it's a... it's a caffee.
It's not a nightclub.

I am just so grateful
it hasn't closed yet.

Restaurants are such
notoriously bad investments.

Actually, we've doubled our profits

in the last six months.

- Well, that's good.
- Mm.

Especially with Kevin doing the pro bono.

He must have a lot of time on his hands.

But that's nice.
He can be the stay-at-home mom.

Actually, it... it...
it's stay-at-home dad.

And, you know, second,
we share the parenting,

so... what... what is this?

Oh, that's a gift for Olivia.

All the Mexican kids love piñatas.

Oh... wow.

Y-you know, we just had a piñata
at Evan's birthday party.

Maybe we should save this for later.

We wouldn't want to spoil her.

Oh.

Well, when is she gonna be home?

I have so many things planned for us to do.

In a few hours.
Look, um, I should give you a heads-up.

It's a bit of a weird time right now.

Kevin's grandmother just d*ed.
Well, thank goodness I came.

You boys are gonna need
all the help you can get.

Well, actually, we're doing fine.

Not to worry. I'm here now.

I wasn't worried.

Until now.

I need the biggest room,
I'm telling you.

All the children are speaking, as am I,

so I just simply need the bigger room.

Don't let there be a problem.

Just... call me back.

All right, great.

Who are you calling now?

Saul. I've been trying him for two hours.
He doesn't pick up.

Nora, why don't you sit down
for a second, okay?

You've been running around
like a housewife on meth.

- I can't sit down. I have
too many things to do. - Nora, stop.

Your mom just d*ed.

- It's okay to stop.
- I know that.

Okay, good.

So then talk to me.

How are you feeling?

I feel fine.

Really?

Look, it's tragic.
But it was her time.

The circle of life...

Oh, God. Did I just quote
"The lion king"?

I don't know. I never saw it.

Nora. Nora.

Oh, this is gonna be hard.

- Nora, where is he?
- Hi. - Hi, hi, hi.

Saul, I need to talk to you.

Brody, I can't believe I recognize you.

- Saul...
- I know. You were calling me

because you wanted to
tell me Brody was here.

- He's here.
- Yes, no, I need to talk to you.

- Actually, Scotty's so crazy...
- Saul!

- What?
- Saul, mother d*ed.

Mother d*ed.

. this morning, a heart att*ck.

No.

Hey. Hi.

I just thought you might like
some chocolate chip cookies.

Got a stew going, too, if you'd
like to have a little dinner.

Oh, well, thank you, but I'm...

I'm... I'm really not
very hungry right now.

Okay, how's the speech going?

It's not.

I-I googled "eulogy," and it... and it said

- I should start out with
an... with an outline... - Mm-hmm.

Put the person's name at the top, and then

just put down any thought
that comes to my mind.

- What do you have so far?
- "Ida Holden."

Well, maybe the problem's not
coming up with thoughts,

it's you don't like the

- thoughts you're coming up with.
- Obviously.

I'm speaking at a funeral, though,

not... not in a shrink's office.

Hmm.

What would you say if
you were being honest?

Well, I'd say...

Thank you all very much for coming.

My mother never really liked me.

I was a constant disappointment to her.

- Mm, that's a start. I like that.
- Oh, Brody, stop.

You don't really live your
life like that, do you?

You just say whatever you want?

You don't care what's right
or what people think?

I just don't want to see you stuck

trying to write a stirring tribute

to a woman that we both
know, sometimes, was not...

Uh-huh. Thank you so much.

And when your mother dies,

please feel free to write
whatever you want.

This is my mother.

I...

I-I don't know.

I-I just would like to say something nice,

be a little more appropriate.

Maybe you're too appropriate, Nora.

Look around you. Everything's perfect.

Well, pardon me.

Maybe I should ride around in an R.V.

And get other people to do my laundry.

No, just admit what you're feeling.

Take care of yourself for a change.

Well, that has clearly been
your game plan, Brody.

Yeah, you just take care of yourself,

follow your dreams.

That's what you did years ago.

You went off to be a
big-league baseball star.

- And how did that dream work
out for you... - Not very well.

- Uh-huh.
- But I can live

with what I ended up with.
At least I tried.

Don't try to use my mother's life

to indict mine.

You left mine a long time ago.

I'm sorry.

Just so you know,

I'm still trying to follow my dreams.

That's what I'm doing here.

Good-bye.

Isn't this one beautiful?

It's... ooh.

It's really lacey.

I'm... I'm just not sure
if it's Olivia, though.

Nonsense. You boys have no
idea how to dress girls.

They want dresses and pretty shoes.

Show 'em your new shoes, honey.

- Oh, w-wow.
- Ooh.

Okay, well, you know what?
Lunch is ready. Let's eat.

- Great. - Well, Liv and gamma want
to sit next to each other,

- right, honey bunny?
- Mm.

Oh, you know what would be so pretty?
A French braid.

I could teach you.

Oh... well, maybe after lunch.

Actually, I was thinking Olivia and I

could go to Griffith Park after lunch.

- Maybe ride a pony?
- Um, I don't like ponies.

Every little girl likes ponies.

Uh, well, maybe not every little girl.

You know what?

Olivia has a lot of homework.
Right, O.?

Yeah. I have a huge math test
to study for.

Yeah, that's a... that's a big test.

Yeah. May I please be
excused from the table?

Of course.

You know, I got all A's in math.
Maybe I should go and help...

Bertha, go to the movies.

You know, spend time with Scotty.

- Enjoy your vacation.
- I think what Kevin means is...

You need to stop trying so hard.

You're overwhelming her.

Well, excuse me

for trying to spend time
with my only grandchild,

- who lives a million miles away.
- That's not what I mean.

I had to invite myself to
even come and meet her.

You know how that makes me feel?

We were gonna invite you once
the adoption was finalized.

When did Nora meet her?

I'm sorry.

I think I've lost my appetite.

Justin, are you... you okay?

Yeah, yeah.

Um... yeah, start on the dresser.

I'll start over here.

You know what? Can we just...
can we talk about something?

Um, how... how are your paintings going?

Good. It's going good.

Come on, Luc. Just work with me.

Talk about something else.

Okay.

Well, we are planning our wedding.

Well, I am.

Your sister, she wants
me to plan everything,

but everything I plan, she hates.

I-I guess I'm... I have
terrible taste or something.

I don't know.

Oh, my God.

What? What is it?

I think this is my grandfather.

He looks just like you.

Yeah, I never met him.
He d*ed before I was born.

I'm sorry.

I guess she never got over him.

Um...

What should I do with this?

What's this?

A letter to Saul.

Hi.

Hey.

How's she doing?

Oh, the woman's a whirling dervish.

She hasn't stopped planning the funeral

since the moment she got
the call yesterday.

Where is she? She, uh, she asked me

to pick up the programs she
designed for the service.

- She's looking at gravestones
with Saul. - Oh.

He didn't want to go.

Jewish tradition

doesn't have you place
the thing for a year.

Well, at least they're doing it together.

I guess that's important.

Yeah, so is taking a breath.

Saul took it pretty hard.

Yeah?

Your mom's just powering through,

knocking off one task after the next.

Yeah, that's her m.o.

Yeah.

How are you doing?

Me? Oh, I'm fine.

Ida and I were not close.

I'm beginning to see a pattern here.

Yeah. She wasn't the easiest
woman in the world.

Well, I think Nora is trying
to make up for bad times.

She's, uh, got quite a send-off planned.

What is it about weddings and funerals

that makes us all want to
put on such a big show?

We're planning our wedding.

Or Benoit of Beverly Hills is.

You know, it's my second marriage.

To be honest with you,

I'd be happy at the courthouse.

My second marriage was in Vegas.

- It's the courthouse, but with cocktails.
- That sounds like fun.

- If only the marriage was.
- Oh, really?

- Oh, please.
- Okay, I won't ask.

Are you taking off?

Yeah.

I think it's time for me to go.

Brody, you can't just show
up here, drop your dog off,

come back, and then leave,

and pretend that nothing is happening.

I think it's best if I just

- get out of her hair.
- All right, listen to me.

She may not be able to express this,

but she needs you.

Her mom just d*ed.

Fine, leave if you want,

but don't pretend
you're doing it for her.

Sarah, I'm telling you,
I don't know how to help her.

Then figure it out.

Wow.

I barely even recognize her
looking like that... happy.

Well, by the time we met her,

- she really didn't have much
to be happy about. - No.

- Here. - Oh, come on. Seriously?
We're... we're not even religious.

Grandma was, so everyone
here is gonna wear one.

I gave that letter to Saul.

I think he's scared to open it.

You find anything else in that room?

No, not much.
Just a, uh, an old picture of grandpa.

Grandpa Bernie?

I didn't think they were
exactly the perfect couple.

Well, they weren't, but she
never found anyone else.

She had plenty of time
to find someone else.

You know what, Kevin?

Not everyone's as lucky as you are.

I mean, if you hadn't met
Scotty, you'd probably still be

some corporate lawyer,

hooking up with a different
guy every night.

Wow. Is that what you think of me?

Look, all I'm saying is,
I know what she went through.

All right? When my marriage ended,

- it felt like my life stopped.
- You're nothing like Ida.

How do you know?
I'm about to be years old,

and I'm a single divorcee,

- Kevin.
- Yeah, and look what you've achieved.

You served your country three
times, you b*at addiction,

you save lives for a living.

Kevin, I don't care what I've achieved.

I'm alone, just like grandma.

And she ended up in a-a sad empty room

with an old photograph.

Not everyone gets the life they want.

Welcome. Thank you for coming.

Of course, dear.

You're still here. I'm very glad.

I came to pay my respects.

Why did mom book the big room?

- There's hardly anyone here?
- Ask your mom.

- Hello. - Oh, you must be
the lucky French guy.

Mm-hmm. Nice to meet you.

- How's the wedding going?
- Well, right now we're stuck

somewhere between the royal wedding

- and Vegas, baby.
- Ooh.

Vegas? That's new.
Now you want to elope?

- No, I was kidding.
- Yeah,

you've been kidding quite
a bit about this wedding.

- Luc.
- You skipped Benoit's meeting.

You mock everything I bring home.

No, I only mocked the swan.

Guys, maybe we should take our seats.

- Luc. - You know what?
I don't want to talk about this now.

Well, I don't want to go
into a funeral angry.

And I don't want you to go
into a wedding unhappy.

Do you even want to get married?

Luc, that is ridiculous.

I'm sorry if I've been cracking jokes,

but I don't care about a big wedding.

It's my second marriage.

I don't want to put on
some overpriced dress

and pretend I'm a princess.

It doesn't mean anything.

Like this.

You think a big send-off's

gonna change how any of us
felt about Ida?

Sarah, maybe it doesn't
mean anything to you,

but this is my first wedding.

This will be my only marriage.

I'm not trying to change how
I feel about you, Sarah.

I'm just trying to celebrate it.

Saul.

To the cemetery after.

I think they're ready to start.

Thanks, Scotty.

What's the letter say?

I don't know.

Well, don't you want to read it?

No, Scotty. I don't want to read it.

My mother told me a while ago

that she wanted to write me about...

She couldn't even say it out loud.

Neither of us could.

So she finally gets to say...

What she wanted to say...

That she's ashamed of me for being gay.

And I don't want to read it.

Come on. Let's go inside.

Today, of course,

is a celebration

of the life of Ida Holden,

beloved mother and grandmother.

Her family would like to share
some of their memories now.

Please.

Hello, everyone.

Thank you so much for coming.

I'm Nora Walker.

Ida Holden was my mother.

My mother...

My mother was...

The truth is...

I can accept the things that she was.

It's the things...

It's the things she wasn't
that breaks my heart.

I, uh...

I can't do this.

I have nothing to say.
I can't do this.

I can't do this.

Nora, come on. Let's go home.

It's okay.

I'm sorry.

I have nothing to say.

I have nothing to say.

Hey.

Thank you.

What is that?

Bourbon.

Oh. I thought I asked for tea.

You looked like you needed
something a little stronger.

Thanks for driving me home, Brody.

I just didn't feel like talking to anyone.

Well, I don't know why.
I thought you were fantastic.

For once, you weren't perfect.

Well, great.

Thanks.

Brody.

I'd like to say something to you.

- Am I gonna need my own mug of bourbon?
- No, just...

- Huh?
- Listen.

I did try to live a good life.

I tried to make this house a home.

And in many ways, I succeeded,

and in many ways, I failed.

You don't have to do this.

No. My marriage was a failure.

It was built on lie after lie,

and... I never wanted to see it.

I tried so hard to just look away.

When you...

Showed up on my doorstep

years later,

it was deeply upsetting...

Because...

I remembered.

I had a choice back then.

You.

And I never told you how I felt...

Because I didn't think it was right.

And now I am the way I am,
and you are the way you are,

and so just keep going, Brody.

Get back into that trusty old R.V.

And... never look back.

I got fired.

What?

The game ball I gave you?
That was my last one.

Yeah, I...

I benched our star player

after I caught him taking steroids.

And after I got the old boot,
I headed straight here.

And I didn't come back
just to get my dog.

I came back to get you..

Future's wide open...

For both of us.

To do what?

Just close our eyes...

And jump.

Hi, mom. How's Olivia?

Sleeping like an angel.

Oh, great. Oh, thank you
so much for watching her.

I don't think she was quite ready

for the Walker grief parade,
and she never met the woman.

Seems like there's a lot of family

- you've kept away from her.
- That's enough.

I told you, we just got custody.

I can't listen to this.
I'm going downstairs.

Well...

I think I'll probably be
leaving tomorrow.

No, you don't have to do that.

It's pretty clear I do.

No, you just need to learn to zip it.

Excuse me?

Bertha, Olivia is our child,
and we're gonna make mistakes,

but you have to let us make them.

Y-you know, Scotty and I,

it has never worked with us.

It's like everything I say
comes out wrong.

Well, then say something else,

because he wants you guys
to have a good relationship

- as much as you do.
- When I came here,

I think I felt, if I could
be the perfect grandmother,

somehow I could heal Scotty and me.

It's idiotic, I know.

Bertha...

I buried my grandmother today.

She doesn't have the chance to
fix what was wrong with us,

much less her own children.

You still do.

Oh.

You look like you could use a refill.

I don't want to fight anymore.

Me, neither.

Look, you can wear
whatever you want...

a black dress, a white dress.

One of Kitty's pantsuit.

I don't care.

Why do I feel like I'd be robbing you

of some childhood dream?

There's a picture in Paige's room

of you at your first wedding.

And, uh... you were glowing.

You looked perfect.

I guess I was trying to compete.

Oh, God, Luc.
You don't have to compete.

My wedding was far from perfect.

But more importantly...

My marriage was far from perfect.

You've got that b*at, and we
haven't even said "I do."

So what are we gonna do
about the wedding?

I know what we're not gonna do...

princess dresses,

bridesmaids in matching taffeta,

and live animals.

Okay. Agreed.

But...

The guest list is ...

- What?
- And I'm not negotiating.

- .
- .

- Deal.
- Done.

- No more demands?
- Just one.

- Which one?
- Fire Benoit.

- Done.
- Deal.

We need another case of red.

Oh, I'm glad to see things
finally getting back to normal

- with the Walkers. - Well the Irish
drown their sorrows in whiskey.

The Walkers prefer a full-bodied cab.

Well, it's not just our family, you know?

Those old ladies out there?
They're doing just fine.

What about you, Saul?
How many sheets to the wind

do you need to be before
you read that letter?

I don't know. At least a few.

You know, the longer you
wait, the harder it gets.

Why don't you just rip it off,
like a band-aid?

Okay. Here we go.

Read it, Scotty.

Me?

Yeah. I don't have my glasses.
Just read it, please.

Okay.

"My dear Saul,

"it breaks my heart to write this letter.

"I've known since you were a young man

that you've been keeping a secret."

Okay. Okay. All right. Give it to me.

I'll read it. I don't need my glasses.

Maybe.

Okay. "...Keeping a secret.

"But I know there was a reason.

"At first,

you probably didn't even want
to admit it to yourself."

Good, mom.

"And I never thought that I
could be the one to ask you.

"So now I cnn only hope that
you've had a beautiful life

"and someone to share it with

even if you didn't share
that part of it with me."

"You deserve"...

"All the happiness in the world"...

"My Saul."

"I trust you found it.

Love... mother."

I told you I shouldn't read it.

That was beautiful, Saul.

What was beautiful?

Nothing she wanted for me happened.

I have spent all of my life alone.

It's funny.

The only thing I was able
to hide from my mother

was my loneliness.

But you're not. You're not alone.

I'm sorry it's too late
for you to tell her that,

but it's not too late
for you and Jonathan.

Hey.

Are you coming inside?

Uh, yeah, yeah. In a... in a minute.

Do you really think I got
here because of luck?

No, I do not.
And I apologize for saying that.

Thank you,
because I've worked very hard

to be good enough
for someone like Scotty.

And you know who gave
me the hope to do that?

Oh, God, Kevin.
Please, please do not say me.

All right?
You guys do this all the time.

It's insulting.
It's, "Justin was such a screw-up.

- "Look how far he was able"...
- Okay,

let me put it like this.
You're right. Life isn't fair.

Sometimes good people live sad lives.

You're not gonna be
one of them, okay?

Because any kid who writes a

- list like this isn't gonna...
- Give me that list.

No. No. Kevin, give me the list.
It's my list.

- No, no, listen. Listen.
- Kevin, it's my l... it's my list.

I know. Listen to this.
"Ride a wave on bells beach.

Go streaking. Have a threesome."

Well, you can check one
of those off the list.

- How big was the wave?
- Not big enough.

You're a dreamer, Justin.

And you still are.

Yeah, most of this list
is impossible, but...

You have more determination
than anyone I know.

And luck didn't get you here. You did.

So write another list.

Come on.

"Dye my hair"? What was I thinking?

It was the ' s.
Bleached blonde was in.

We did what? What?

You told him so many incredible

- things about her...
- Oh, no, no. Well, I just...

I can't believe that everyone
else is gone but us.

Who? Who are you talking about?

Oh, come on, mom. They're all pretty old.

I think they had to get home
to the retirement village

- before lockdown.
- Is the wedding still on?

- Oh, yes, yes.
- Oh, yeah.

- It's gonna be quite a party.
- Mm-hmm. But no swans.

- No, no swans. - Great.
Oh, what are you gonna do about the cake?

- You going with the marzipan?
- Listen to him.

Kevin, you should plan our wedding.

I'd love to.

- Are you serious?
- Yeah.

You're on.

- Great.
- You know what?

I happen to know a-a
florist who is available.

Is she short?

She's short and older,
but she works hard.

- Wait, wait, whoa, whoa.
Who's doing the bachelor party? - We are.

- No, excuse me. We are.
- Us?

- Yeah, we are, in Palm Springs.
- What?

- Yes, we're gonna buy a house there.
- We are?

That would be incredible.

That would be brilliant.

- Brody could drive you all down
in his R.V. - Oh, really?

I mean, if... if he's around.
Are you gonna be around, Brody?

I might be. That could happen.

Actually, I'd like to make
a toast, uh, if I could.

- Um, Ida never really liked me very much.
- I'll say.

Hey. Oh. Sorry.

She didn't think I was good
enough for her daughter.

She was probably right, but,
uh, I have to say this...

people do change.

Hmm? I-I never thought I'd see the day

where I'd be sitting around
this family's table...

a family that Ida helped create.

So, uh...

Come on. Here's to Ida.

To Ida.

Hmm. Actually, now it's my turn.

Mother...

- Mother, I'd like you to meet
the love of my life... - What?

- Jonathan.
- Aww.

Sweetheart.

Oh. Never say never.

Okay, wait, wait. It's my turn.

- Guys, I'm turning in less
than minutes. - Your birthday!

- Oh, my God! I completely forgot.
- Stop it. Stop it. Stop it.

I don't want anything
from anyone, but there is

something that I have to
do by the time it's : ,

which is soon.

My lovely brother Kevin, um,
informed me

that I had made a list many,
many years ago

of things that I wanted
to accomplish by now,

and... at the top of the list is,

"tell mom what I really think of her."

The first thing I want to
say is, I'm really pissed

- you took my discman.
- What?

Mom... I love you.

And we all do, and you
did a great job today.

- And that's all I wanted to say.
- To mom.

- To my sister.
- You're awesome.

- Nora.
- Hear, hear.

No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

To Ida.

- Hear, hear.
- To Ida.