02x06 - Day 46 / 26

[bunniefuu]

[CHEERFUL MUSIC]

[GRETCHEN] So I just...

slide it and...

This is f*cking delightful.

[KNOCK AT DOOR]

Otherwise engaged.

[DOOR OPENING]

[FABER] Gretchen.

Rude.

You said you wanted to be
in on the next interview,

but I take it you're bowing out?

Uh, duh.

Maybe we should come back later.

No. Come on, Dean.

Nose-dive off the wagon with me.

Both of you, pull up a drink.

Let's toast to our demise.

Consider, if you will,
the myriad ways in which

we have f*cking blown this.

We've no idea what happened
to the control group,

which means our
research is a giant fail,

and we're totally f*cking f*cked.

This ship is sinking, sailors.

Rather than let it take us down,

shouldn't we just drown ourselves

the proper way,

from the inside out with tequila?

No, look, hey, take it easy.

- Take it easy.
- Mm!

Piss off, Dan.

It was you, wasn't it?

What are you talking about?

I hear there's mutiny in the ranks.

I don't know how, I don't know who,

but it's real, and it f*cking hurts.

Hey, okay, but look... Gretchen, look,

you're not defeated, okay?

We just... we hit a
speed bump, that's all.

Look, why don't we just
push this next meeting

and maybe just talk this
out a little bit, huh?

Right, Dean?

Yeah, we could put our heads together

and re-strategize.

- I want to be alone.
- No.

I want you to leave.

Uh, look, Gretchen...

Just get the f*ck out.

- sh*t.
- Yeah, I know.

Hey, hey, was that real?

All that talk of the end.

Should we be packing our bags now?

No, no, it's just safety valve behavior.

Yeah, just a little pressure release.

That's all it was.

Yeah, well, we'll remember.

Pulling that blanket over her head

and looking like E.T.
in the bike basket.

[CHUCKLES] E.T.

Nine o'clock still stands?

Uh, yeah. Yeah, why not?

I'll let the orderlies
know to bring him in.

[KNOCK AT DOOR]

[R&B MUSIC]

♪ ♪

Can I just tell you
that I really like this?

I wouldn't mind

if what we were doing right now

were just, like, my whole life.

You want us to be bedridden together?

No, you know what I mean.

Oh, like those
grandparents in Willy Wonka.

Oh, my God.

You know, it was kind
of a sexy poly situation

nobody even talked about, wasn't it?

Oh, my God, do you think
anyone's fan fic'd about that?

Where are you going?

I just thought you were moving on

to, like, phone time.

Yeah, no, but I want you in on it.

Mm. Boudoir video sesh?

- Yay or nay?
- Nay, I don't...

Oh, come on, the light
right now is chef's kiss.

Stop. Just stop.

♪ ♪

Turn it off.

[PIANO NOTES PLAY]

[RACHEL] You okay over there?

Yeah, yes. I think.

Wait, is this the normal way back?

Nah.

Thought we'd explore a little

since it's so damn beautiful out.

You know, I might actually
miss the smell of this place.

Might even miss the
quiet once we're home.

Wow.

Wow, what?

Just, I haven't heard that
from anyone in a while.

That belief

that we might actually get back.

It's just a feeling, you
know, like we're in good hands.

[RUSTLING SOUND]

Are you sure you're okay?

[LEAH] Um...

You know, I used to
think that I was, like,

deeply fatally boring.

So obviously, I would spend
all my time fantasizing of ways

not to be wishing for something,

anything to make me feel alive

and different and interesting.

I don't know. I guess
this is one of those

be-careful-what-you-wish-for stories,

because now there are two very
interesting things about me

that are also f*cking horrible.

I am stuck on this stupid island,

and I might... I might actually be...

Certifiably insane.

What did you just say?

I said, look, Leah.

[ELECTRONIC FANFARE]

♪ ♪

Wow, this is amazing.

It's a f*cking hot spring.

- Oh, my God.
- [RACHEL] What'd I tell you?

Good f*cking hands.

- Whoo!
- All right.

Yes!

Stop touching me and get to work.

[LAUGHING] I am.

You're the one that's messing around...

What'd I just say?

God, I thought you were meant to be,

like, a goal-oriented person.

You're a f*cking slacker over here.

Hey, you cannot say that word.

That is slander, all right?
And I will not hear it.

You know, for real though,
have you ever in your life

just let yourself be
a full-on lazy slob?

Okay, uh, this one time,
I was home with mono,

and I got really into playing
my brother's PlayStation.

Like, I straight up stopped showering

because all I wanted to do was play...

you ready for this... Mortal Kombat XL.

- Get the f*ck out.
- [SHELBY] I know!

It just sucked me in
with, like, the action

and the characters and the sound effects

that were all like, "Finish him."

You need to do that again.

Finish him. Finish him.

[LAUGHING] I'm gonna pee my pants.

[BOTH LAUGHING]

You pee, I pee, right, Rose?

[TOGETHER] Finish him.

Are you drunk right now?

I don't know, maybe a little.

I just love you.

[SOFT MUSIC]

I love you.

♪ ♪

[IVAN] Being vulnerable,

like, fully and truly
opening yourself up...

It's, like, a very tricky business,

isn't it?

And maybe not, like,
my... a personal forte?

Yeah, we're not asking

for an open book of
the soul, by any means.

Just specific details about
your experience out there.

[FABER] You know, actually,
I'm a little surprised

that you're being so
reserved with us today.

From what I've heard,
I guess I expected you

to be a little more verbose.

You thought you'd be
getting a one-man show?

Yeah, yeah, honestly, I think we did.

You know, being who I am

in this body, in this skin,

I've been living in a survival situation

for a lot longer than days.

Can't a bitch just be tired?

[KIRIN] Wake up, Taylor.

Did you just smite me with an antacid?

Was trying to do you a favor, dude.

Look, if we crash right now,
it'll be that much harder

to fall asleep tonight,
when it's even colder.

I got you.

Yo, it was just hot as hell yesterday.

Where is this polar vortex
sh*t coming from, man?

Well, the short answer to your question

is the south-southeast,

but the more accurate response

is that climate change is creating...

Fat f*cking yawn, Damien.

New rule.

No one's allowed to say or do

anything boring right now

while we're trying to stay awake.

You know what? I got this.

I'll be the, what you call it,

the entertainment.

Girding the loins.

So, there's a bunch of
super-hot nuns, right?

And they're all lined up
trying to get into heaven,

but there's one more thing.

They gotta do confession one last time.

First nun walks up to
Saint Peter, and he's like,

"Sister, have you ever touched a penis?"

And she's like, "Yeah, I touched a penis

with the tip of my finger once."

And he's like, "That's okay.

Just dip your finger in the holy water

and zip on up to heaven."

Next nun walks up, and she's like,

"Pete, I actually massaged a shlong

with my whole hand."

And he's like, "All good.

Just dip your whole
hand in the holy water

and get up to the pearly gates."

But then suddenly there's,
like, a jostling in the line,

and then this nun
emerges. and she's like,

"Well, if I have to gargle that stuff,

I just want to do it before

Sister Mary Thomas puts her ass in it."

[LAUGHTER]

Okay, no, no, no.

That is categorically not funny.

Oh, but isn't it?

It's not particularly funny

to tell a sex joke full of
potentially triggering words

when someone's just...

When we're trying to create a
safe space for everyone here.

Ah, that's bullshit.

He's f*cking fine. He laughed.

Yeah, yeah.

I definitely laughed.

No brag, but I actually
laughed the hardest.

Yeah.

- Okay, I'm just saying, I think...
- Yeah, but don't!

Don't say something for,
like, once in your life.

I don't need anyone acting different

and I don't need a f*cking safe space.

Yo, did it get even colder in here?

Fires out.

I'm on it.

Jay, where's the lighter?

I don't have it.

Bo, you've been organizing sh*t.

You seen it around?

We've been feeding the same fire

for the past couple of
days. Haven't needed it.

The pariah has it.

[KIRIN] f*cking assh*le.

Hold on. How do we know that he has it?

- f*ck that m*therf*cker!
- Wait.

What, Taylor?

You gonna tell me to chill?

You're honestly gonna
tell me to stand down

when that's sicko
fucko took what's ours?

Not even remotely.

Yeah, I guess the cold day in hell thing

is happening on, like,
several levels here,

'cause right now we're
on the same f*cking page.

[STUDENTS CHATTERING]

[STUDENT] Hail Kirin!

I want to die.

[SYMPATHETIC GROAN]

I wish I could offer you a
life-affirming onion ring,

but they're, like,
freakishly soggy today.

Ivan.

God, it looks even hotter on your phone.

You know what? If this is what

retina display is
serving, I need to upgrade.

Why did you post that?

I thought that was,
like, a just-for-us thing.

Wait, you're, like, legitimately mad?

Not mad, just... I'm not, like,

a super public person like you.

- It's embarrassing.
- Embarrassing?

We look like an Italian Vogue spread.

Okay, hey, hey, hey, hey.

Can I very quickly say my piece?

Insta is, like, wall to wall
with pics of white couples

doing white couple things,

and their PDAs outnumber
ours, like, a zillion to one.

And I don't know, things like this...

It just needs to be out there, you know?

Becoming a normal thing,

making us safer, offering hope.

I mean, right now there's
some scared little boy

hiding in his room,
logging into his alt,

scrolling for something
to make him feel okay

and this video of two
unapologetic men of melanin

tangled up in the duvet
that I refuse to cover

'cause it's too f*cking hard to put on.

This video is exactly
what he needs to find.

Okay.

Does this mean she's onboard?

I won't make you take it down,

but like next time, please ask me first.

- [STUDENTS SHOUTING]
- [STUDENT] You k*ll it, Kirin.

- [IVAN] What is this mess?
- [LUC] Oh, God.

Must be, like, re-enacting his
greatest hits from that video.

What video?

Just that lax team lip-sync
that's going around.

Here.

[CARLY RAE JEPSON: "CUT TO THE FEELING"]

♪ We crossed the line and it was on ♪

♪ We crossed the line
it was on this time ♪

♪ I've been denying how I feel ♪

♪ You've been denying what you want ♪

♪ You want from me, talk to me baby ♪

♪ I want some satisfaction,
take me to the stars ♪

♪ Just like ah-ah-ah, ah-ah-ah ♪

♪ I want to cut through the clouds ♪

♪ Break the ceiling ♪

♪ I want to dance on the
roof you and me alone ♪

♪ I want to cut to the feeling... ♪

[IVAN] The f*cking running man.

It's . We've moved on.

Speak for yourself.

♪ I want to play where you play ♪

♪ With the angels ♪

♪ I want to wake up with you ♪

[BOTH] ♪ All entangled up ♪

Okay, we've been
clowning the absolute f*ck

out of this video, but
we've also watched it,

like, times, so...

Maybe we love it?

Oh, my God. RIP to my taste level.

You know what the headline is for me?

Like, of this whole spectacle.

What?

It's that this Coach Metzger person

is, like, actually a
DILF. Look at his Insta.

[LUC] You're not wrong.

[IVAN] Great jawline, boyish good looks.

Maybe the most fuckable adult on staff.

I am about to do a deep
dive into these archives.

I want a peek at Metzger in his prime.

[LUC HUMMING]

Oh, my God.

[KIRIN] It's f*cking over for that f*ck.

What the hell are we doing?

Are we not gonna talk about this?

What's there to talk about, Rafe?

He violated one of us, then all of us.

It's zero tolerance from here on out.

Fine, but are we not
gonna take two seconds

- to figure out what we're gonna do?
- [ALL] No.

[KIRIN] Where the f*ck is it?

What? Where's what? Where's what?

The lighter, shitbag.

Yeah, did you think you were,
like, entitled to it or something?

See if it's around.

[SETH] Don't... no... I didn't...

- [JOSH] Check his bag.
- [BO] Got it.

Let me get up. [COUGHS]

It's not in his bag.

Kirin, Jesus.

Just say where it is.

[SETH] It's in my jeans.

It's right there. In my cuff.

Clever f*cking hiding spot.

It's not a f*cking hiding spot, man.

[YELLS]

[BO] Kirin, come on,
man. He's had enough.

Shut your f*cking mouth.

All right, we got what we came for.

Look, I'm f*cking sorry.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

Look, I just thought that Henry...

Henry. I thought that you'd be able

to make a fire without it.

We got it. Can we go now?

[JOSH] You guys, look. Huh, Kirin?

- Boosh!
- Josh!

Eat sand, you bitch.

- [KIRIN] Josh...
- [SETH] Josh, man, hey.

Please don't do it, man.

Don't go f*cking near him.

[SCOTTY] Yo, chill the f*ck out!

[BO] Kirin, come on!

Come here.

[BO] Kirin, come on, man.

Eat the sand, you f*cking bitch.

You're gonna k*ll him, man!

We already f*cking did this.

[GASPING] Please Henry, help me.

We got what we came for.
Can we f*cking go now?

Let's get the f*ck out of here.

Kirin.

[KIRIN GRUNTS]

[RAF] f*ck!

Raf. Raf!

[FABER] The divisions in the group...

Um, you care to shed any light

on what may have caused them?

Differences of opinion.

Regarding?

You know, issues.

We are just looking for
precise information, Mr. Taylor,

like a particular event or problem

that might've caused you
to split into factions.

Sorry, ladies, I don't have it in me

to, like, simplify
complicated narratives anymore.

Okay, the truth is, we
were eight different people

with eight different lives.

I mean, how could we
not f*cking fall apart?

Okay, I know I'm setting myself up

to get trolled right now,

but can you please just
tell me how bad this is?

[SIGHS HEAVILY]

No comment.

Shii... [LAUGHS]

Martha, can you please
come look at this?

It's, uh...

Okay Martha, for once in your life,

please just take off the gloves

and tell me the truth.

That thing's f*cked.

- [BARBARA] Well, I did ask.
- [FATIN] Damn.

We're back, b*tches. You miss us?

The hell?

Who left f*cking bottle right there?

That was me.

What kind of f*cking
idiot just leaves sh*t

- where we always walk?
- Toni, it was an accident.

[SHELBY] Come on, come on. Just come on

and f*cking think about it.

Maybe we should come and
sit down for a second.

No, it's fine. I should stay on my feet.

You know? Walk it off.

You guys good?

I'm honestly not sure.

Uh, just had sort of a weird moment.

[RACHEL] ♪ Jacuzzi queens ♪

♪ Now we're sharing all this heat ♪

♪ So let's get our spa day on ♪

sh*t, that's all I got.

She did not tell me
that was gonna happen.

Jacuzzi queens?

Yep, because that's what we are, baby.

We just found some
m*therf*cking hot springs

just over the rise.

Clear water, perfect
temperature for a bath.

Who's ready to go hot tubbing?

Me, as soon as I set some traps.

I love hot tubs. One day, I'm gonna get

a heart-shaped one with, like,
cool lights that change color.

Oh.

Let me help. I'll come with.

All right, Martha's on deck.

In the meantime, Barbara,

it's time for you to kick your feet up

and take a soak.

Oh, and get, like, a
hot compress washcloth

or something, 'cause that's a thing.

[SOFT MUSIC]

♪ ♪

Trying to do that thing you said.

Try to visualize better
things for myself.

Going well?

Something like that.

Hey, so, totally random.

But what if we really quick rewound...

[MIMICS TAPE RECORDER]

... back to the first night.

Remember when you
answered Jeanette's phone?

Do you remember if there
was, like, a caller ID?

Why do you ask?

No reason.

I think I was just thinking about it.

It d*ed, Fatin, right away.

Couldn't have been clearer about that.

Yeah, yeah, you're right.

Forget it.

And why would you
lecture me about moving on

and then just, like,
immediately claw me back in?

Leah, I'm sorry.

Don't cut the threads
that people are hanging by.

Wasn't that your f*cking advice?

[TENSE MUSIC]

♪ ♪

[KIRIN AND JOSH YELLING]

Ah ha ha.

[JOSH] Oh, no. Oh, no!

What are you doing?

I'm just trying to get some
of J's bougie-ass hand cream.

I knew this had bergamot in it.

You know, bergamot is extremely my sh*t.

You can't just put it
back with the sand on it.

You can't just f*cking do that.

Oh, Bo, just breathe,
man. You're all right.

You're probably just riled
up from what happened.

sh*t got pretty crazy.

[BO] It still kind of is.

Do you think he's frozen over there?

I mean, how cold do you think he is?

Sun goes down, he's f*cked.

- Yeah?
- You iced him out, bro.

You think I reached beast mode?

I mean, I don't know
what the criteria is,

but I feel like I did.

[KIRIN] No doubt, dog.

What the hell is happening?

Are we actually okay with this?

- Raf, he's coping.
- No, he's, like, bragging.

We just thrashed someone,
and he's f*cking bragging.

I think you might be
forgetting the context.

[KIRIN] Don't, Taylor.

Don't dress up what he's doing

with your big f*cking words.

He's still defending that sick assh*le.

Guys, this can't feel right to you.

Please, can you say something?

"Please, can you say something?"

Hey, Josh, casual suggestion,

but sitting down might be
a very cool move for you.

No way, bro. Beast mode's happening.

El diablo, .

You mess with the devil,
you get the sticks.

Oh!

Hell yeah, J-bird. Get after it.

So it's like an actual
circus up in here now?

Yeah.

Uh, yo, Josh. You might want to...

Don't break my concentration, bro.

- [SCOTTY] Yo, yo, yo, yo, yo!
- [BO] Fire!

Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

[BO] You're on fire, dog.

You're on fire!

J, you f*cking idiot. You okay?

- Huh?
- Yeah, yeah.

Yeah.

Up you go. f*cking hell.

You know what? Today's been a lot.

Maybe I should call Henry on over

and we do that cheer circle thing.

Yeah? Make sure we've
aired all of our...

Wait, where's Raf?

Hey, Ivan, stuff's missing.

[SOFT MUSIC]

♪ ♪

[YOUNG] Did you know where he had gone?

Yeah, I had, like, a
very educated guess.

[YOUNG] And where was that?

To do what he thought was right.

Doesn't sound like many of you

were too thrilled with that.

I think there's, like,
a guidance counselor

coffee mug saying I can refer you to

about what's right not
always being popular.

Although, as that long arc of history

drags its slow-ass feet towards justice,

I found that the stars will,
like, occasionally align,

and what's right will
also be very, very popular.

I took a stand, and
people are liking it.

Literally.

[LUC] I don't have enough.
Do you have, like, a dollar?

Thanks. I'll pay you back.

Aw, Mrs. Wozniak liked and reposted.

Sure, okay.

I thought she only cared
about differential equations.

Turns out she's a f*cking ally.

Hola, king!

Fighting the good fight, my man.

How do you feel right now?

I mean, I don't, like, hate it.

You know, I'm thoroughly
allowed to feel good right now.

Like, I'm permitted to feel

like I'm having a Malala moment.

'Cause if you do what he did,

if you buy some drugstore brand's

mochaccino-tinted
foundation and you slather it

on your white face in
the year of our Lord ,

which wasn't all that long ago,

just so that you and
your basic-ass girlfriend

can go as Kimye to some
dumb Halloween party,

you deserve to get
owned, and I, the owner,

deserve to feel f*cking great.

Whoa, whoa, whoa. Oh,
God, oh, God, oh God.

What? What?

Should we go back in for a sec?

Like, you don't actually
want to see this, do you?

Okay, like, for real,

can we not stand here
while this is happening?

Kirin O'Connor.

God, I knew it.

Knew what?

He's a sympathizer.

A f*cking shameless,
spineless, sympathizer.

Walking amongst us and
holding us all back.

[RAF] Hey.

Raf. Raf! Hey.

I brought you a hoodie and some food.

Thanks. f*ck.

Oh, shi...

Yeah.

Do the others know that you're here?

Are you okay?

Oh, yeah, yeah. Ten days on your own.

Who gets that kind of time to think?

Oh. [SHIVERING]

Oh, f*ck me.

Jesus.

No, no. It's okay.

I actually needed a
good kick to the spleen.

Come here, come here. Come here. Sit.

Come here. [LAUGHS]

Raf, Raf, you... you really,
like, know me, you know?

Maybe even better than
Henry does at this point.

You don't think that I...
you know, that I actually...

I'm sorry, it's not fair
for me to even ask you that.

You don't deserve what
they're doing to you.

f*ck, I can't... I can't tell you

how good it feels to hear that.

I mean, all this time on my own,

I was just certain that
this sh*t was my due.

[MELANCHOLY MUSIC]

♪ ♪

[MARTHA] Hey, hold on.

I told you to wait for me
while I set some snares.

Yeah, I did wait.

Maybe don't take so f*cking long,

and I won't leave your ass behind.

♪ ♪

Come on.

God, f*ck.

You know, I've actually
been, like, the solid one.

Between me and her, you
know, I've been, like,

less scared, more chill.

I've noticed.

That's actually been blowing my mind.

She said something to me today.

It was good thing. It was a nice thing.

Something that I'd heard
before and said before,

but had never really made last.

And I don't know, all of a sudden,

I just felt like...
like it wasn't for me.

You know, like...

you know, she can't really mean that.

God, I know where it comes from.

You know?

Sat across from enough social workers

to know where it comes
from. I guess I just...

I just want it to go away, Marty.

That feeling that, like...

Say it.

You know, that I'm not worth sh*t.

I don't know if this will
make you feel any better,

but my parents are still around,

and I still...

I don't not feel like that too.

♪ ♪

Sorry. Making it about me much?

No, no, stop it.

You know, your parents
are great and all.

That's not your fault
that you feel like that.

Okay? sh*t happened to you.

You know, that f*cking
guy, I can't even...

I shouldn't have said that.

Lots of things make us who we are

and even makes us feel like we're not...

Makes us question everything.

I know one thing.

You are the most worthy person I know.

♪ ♪

And you deserve every
good thing in this world.

You deserve that.

♪ ♪

Can't believe you had
the balls to come back.

Where's the stuff you
took off with, Rafe?

Not that we don't already know,

but still,

would love to hear
from the horse himself.

From the horse's mouth.

What?

We're waiting.

He could starve or freeze or both.

God, who gives a sh*t?

He's a f*cking felon.

How do you feel, Josh,

knowing this one fed
and watered that bastard?

- Josh, I'm sorry...
- Ah, da, da.

I'm sorry. I didn't mean to...

He could f*cking die out there.

Does nobody give a sh*t?

Exile him, fine.

But you can't just sentence him to death

with... we're not a
f*cking court of law.

Get out and don't come back.

[BO] Kirin, come on, that's
not what we said we'd tell him.

Yeah, bro. I mean, when did...

when did kicking him
out end up on the table?

Hey, okay, okay.
Tensions are running high.

Everyone's a little
powder-keggy right now.

[TENSE ELECTRONIC MUSIC]

Kirin, we didn't actually discuss,

like, an expulsion scenario.

Hey, you're the one that said

zero tolerance, did you not?

That's, like, your whole
f*cking life motto, Taylor.

You honestly gonna throw it

out of the window right now?

♪ ♪

Josh, tell me what you're thinking.

Josh, hey.

This doesn't need to happen, okay?

I want him out.

I want him out of here.

I want him out of my sweater.

Get him out of my f*cking sweater!

- [HENRY] Kirin...
- [SCOTTY] Yo!

[IVAN] Kirin, Kirin, what are you doing?

[IVAN] Get off of him.

I'm going. I'm f*cking going.

Hey, Henry...

Don't.

[DRAMATIC MUSIC]

♪ ♪

[IVAN] Wait, where are we going?

I wanted to show you
my gallery for the show.

Will it take long?

I don't love hanging
around after school.

More than eight hours in
any institutional space

and my life force
starts to, like, shrivel.

[LUC] This way.

Ceramics. Represent.

Come on, right over here.

Oh, my God.

You haven't shown me these.

Oh, my...

[IVAN] Oh, Luc, this is, like...

It's flawless.

[LUC] And there's one more.

Stop.

You like?

I love.

I'm actually not finished
with your shoulders,

so maybe we could go to yours
and you could live model?

Oh, God, yes. Very Kate and Leo.

- [LOUD BANG]
- [GLASS CLATTERING]

Where are you going?

To have a look.

Ivan, don't.

Ivan, let's just go home.

I like to turn over stones.

[KIRIN HUMMING TUNELESSLY]

[UNEASY MUSIC]

♪ ♪

Kirin?

[LAUGHS]

Are we doing okay here?

Oh, sure. Happy f*cking happy hour.

I'd offer you one, but I
can't f*cking stand you.

There it goes, the inevitable hostility.

Ivan, let's just go.

Why can't you stand me?

Is it because I dared to protect myself

and the school from a bigot?

Just get the hell out of here.

No, you see, you can't actually order me

out of here, all right?

Occasionally running
around with a jersey

and a little stick doesn't give you,

like, jurisdiction over the space.

God, you are such a know-it-all f*ck.

And you don't, by the way...

You don't know sh*t,
is the f*cking reality.

Oh, really? Enlighten me.

He was a good f*cking guy!

He was a good guy,

wife, kids,

and they f*cking...

they f*cking watched out for me.

Meals, Thanksgiving.

He was my family.

Ivan, we need to go now.

My f*cking family.

He was my f*cking family,
and now there's nobody,

all 'cause your ass
couldn't shut the f*ck up.

I was waiting for this, the
white rage boiling point.

I'm not... this isn't white f*cking...

You absolutely wish that locker
had been my face, don't you?

No, I didn't. f*ck!

Oh, come on, let it out, O'Connor.

Say all those things
you want to say to me.

Shut the f*ck up, Taylor.

I'm so serious. Cleanse yourself.

Call me all those names
you've been dying to call me.

Just get the hell out of here!

Do it, call me a f*g.

No, I'm not. I'm not gonna f*cking...

Call me a woke cock-sucking f*gg*t.

- Get it out of your system.
- Ivan, what are you doing?

Fine!

You f*cking f*g.

You f*cked with my whole life,

you woke cock-sucking assh*le f*gg*t.

They say everyone you
meet is fighting a battle

you know nothing about.

[TRANQUIL MUSIC]

Some are trying to feel deserving.

I didn't think you'd be back.

I should've said it before,

but at least I can say it now

and tomorrow,

and every single f*cking day after.

♪ ♪

I love you.

I love you.

[IVAN] Some are trying to find peace.

♪ ♪

Or failing that, an escape.

Still, there's others who are
up against a level of darkness

I can't even, like, name, or imagine.

A darkness that won't go away.

♪ ♪

[MARTHA GASPING]

[IVAN] And then there's
the hidden battles

that don't stay that way.

And the ones that break
out of their vaults

and make themselves known.

Seth, he, like...

he, like,

used to have these insane night terrors.

My mom... she had to, like,
hold him till he stopped.

The dark...

The dark is what makes them worse.

So Mom put, like, a little shoji lamp

in the corner of his room to sleep with,

and they never happened again.

And I... I can't stop
thinking about him.

There's not even a moon,
and he's just in the dark.

Just scared and in the dark.

♪ ♪

[YOUNG] And what was yours? Your battle?

The one people didn't know about?

Well, there's two, always two.

At first, you fight not to let them win.

Then you fight not to let the fight win.

[LINE RINGING]

[LUC] This is Luc. Leave a message.

[IVAN] Hey.

I was just calling you, of all things.

Nuclear option, since
you fully left me unread.

What's that?

Okay, there's definitely,
like, an atmosphere here

that we need to unpack.

I'm... uh...

My family's going to
Vancouver for, like,

President's Day weekend.

I wasn't gonna go, but now I am,

so I won't be around, FYI.

Luc, what's going on right now?

- You got him expelled, Ivan.
- Oh. [SCOFFS]

You're kidding, right?

You're not honestly in your feelings

over a verbally abusive h*m*.

You didn't, like, not provoke him.

The things he said about his life...

they weren't lies, you know?

And I'm not trying to excuse anything,

but you didn't, like, score one

for the cause, Ivan.

You just kicked a kid when he was down.

He's a cis, het, white,
three-season athlete.

When is he ever down?

No, I get it.

I'm not getting everything right here.

It's not even about him, anyway.

It's, like,

I know who we are, Black, gay,

the things that we're always fighting.

I know that we have to be guarded

and mad and hard a lot
of the f*cking time.

But with you, it's like...

It's like what?

[MELANCHOLY MUSIC]

It's like you keep forgetting
how to be anything else.

♪ ♪

- Luc, look, can we...
- I have to go.

♪ ♪

[KIRIN] Arts and craft hour, huh?

Just, um... trying out
some pointers from Henry.

What is that for?

Taylor.

Tell me that sh*t is
not what it looks like.

Yes, Kirin. It's for them.

Gotta be kidding me.

Look, it'll get them a fire,

and we won't even have
to part with the lighter.

And it's not... it's not
like a peace offering.

- Then what the f*ck is it?
- [IVAN] I don't know.

A tool, a gesture,

the most negligible thing

I could possibly do to make
the absolute bowels of hell

at least one minor notch easier

for a couple of lost f*cking children.

Easier.

Since when do you go
easy on people, huh?

I don't know.

Like, at least six months too late.

I never told you how sorry I am

for what I did to you.

But are you, huh?

Or are you just sorry your
boyfriend ratted on you

and you went down too, huh?

No, it's real.

It might be too late to
mean anything, but it's real.

Kirin, I'm sorry.

[MELANCHOLY MUSIC]

Do I even need to say it?

No, I know.

I won't come back.

[SOFT INSTRUMENTAL MUSIC]

♪ ♪

[FABER] Maybe this is presumptuous,

but I wonder if there's a part of you

that might characterize your ordeal

as maybe a learning experience.

It's just it seems that, I
don't know, this may have led

to a... what should I
call it? An act of mercy

that may not have been
in your repertoire before.

Mm-hmm, and it might not be now.

[FABER] How do you mean?

How do you know I
didn't live to regret it?

Did you?

You know, on the island,
you might choose to do right.

But that doesn't mean sh*t

won't go absolutely f*cking left.

[TONI] Maybe you should name it.

Dot Junior?

- f*ck off, Shelby.
- [SHELBY] Sorry...

That was low-hanging fruit.

[SHELBY] Sorry.

[FATIN] Is that toothpaste?

Dorothy, are you squandering
precious resources

in the name of vanity?

Yeah, yeah, I am, okay?

And I am not going to apologize for it.

Wow.

[MARTHA] Please.

[TONI] Marty?

- [MARTHA] Please.
- Marty, what happened?

I hurt...

- Hey.
- I hurt it.

It wanted out of the trap, so it chewed.

And now it's out there. A rabbit.

It has its babies, and it's bleeding.

It's not your fault.

I'm not hunting, I'm
f*cking hurting things.

And it didn't do anything.
I'm a f*cking monster.

Marty, Marty, Marty, Marty.

Come here, come here.

Come on, come here.

Okay, sit down.

Okay, breathe in. Breathe out.

Okay, it's okay.

It's okay. Come lie down, Marty.

What do you need, Marty?

- [MARTHA] Just find the babies.
- Yeah.

Just find the babies, please.

Yeah, yeah, I know,
we can do that, okay?

I'm gonna go tell the others the plan.

I'll be back in five seconds.

Have you ever seen her like that before?

Like, maybe once, yeah.

This can't be about a
f*cking bunny, right?

Can we just look for her?

Can we just go out and try

and find something, and can we...

[RACHEL] Martha!

Martha! Martha!

[PERSON] Leah.

[ECHOING] Leah.

Leah?

Leah...

Leah.

You thought I was him, didn't you?

Your writer boyfriend.

sh*t, I didn't mean to disappoint.

How can I rebound here? Will this help?

♪ A man in my shoes runs a light ♪

♪ And all the papers lied tonight ♪

♪ But falling over you ♪

- ♪ Is the news of the day ♪
- [LAUGHS SOFTLY]

So that was, quote,
unquote, your song, huh?

Great tune, really.

Rude, you didn't pick
one of mine, but I get it.

You're...

Ben Folds, your first crush.

Patient zero of your
obsessional attentions.

- You're not real.
- [BEN] No, not really,

but that's not to say
I don't mean something.

Everything your head stirs
up ends up meaning something.

I mean, for f*ck's sake,

you're the only one who knows
the truth about this place.

I'm losing my mind.

Or you're just doing
what you need to survive.

[TONI] Martha!

Okay, those voices are real.

[RACHEL] Martha!

Go, Leah.

[RACHEL] Martha!

- [DISCORDANT NOTES]
- [ECHOING] Go!

[DRAMATIC ELECTRONIC MUSIC]

[TONI] Martha!

♪ ♪

Martha!

Martha! Martha!

- [RACHEL] Martha!
- Martha!

Martha! Marty...

Martha.

[RACHEL] Martha!

[LEAH] Martha?

[TONI] Martha! Martha!

[RACHEL] Martha!

[TONI] Marty?

You found her. Martha.

[DRAMATIC MUSIC]

♪ ♪