06x05 - Pick Up the Pieces

[bunniefuu]

♪ Hey, it's a mess out there ♪

♪ They can leave,
but we don't care ♪

♪ We'll stay, I'm good right here ♪

♪ I've been waitin' for
you all year ♪ Banana.

♪ Come play, make
a mess right here ♪

♪ Do whatever I like ♪

[LAUGHS] That's it!

- I love this one!
- No. You think it's too much?

- No, no, no, no, no, no!
- Don't you?

I mean... maybe for a first date?

[LAUGHS] So, which guy is it tonight?

- The self-defense instructor?
- That was Mateo.

Tonight, um, is Roland, the masseuse.

Mija, I'm so proud of you

for dating outside of
the firehouse, but...

- you have a type.
- Yeah.

Yeah, sure, but I know what I need.

And those other guys just
feel, I don't know, "squishy."

Like, I need a guy who can handle me.

I get it. I remember when your
father would walk into a room,

and he had this swagger, and
he has this strong, thick...

Okay, hey, hey, hey, hey!

Too much, too much. Por favor.

All I'm saying is that
maybe you need a guy

who lights up your body

but also your brain and
maybe, eventually, your heart.

Someone who challenges you.

I'm a firefighter. I don't
need any more challenges.

Like, the last thing I need

is some skinny jerk with a fancy accent

and degrees who thinks he
can win every conversation

with a wink and a smile.

Does he have a name?

There's this Eli guy who's trying to run

my friend Travis's campaign.

- You like him, don't you?
- No, no, no, no.

I actively dislike him.

My point is, that's the type
of guy you're describing,

- and I'm gonna go with no.
- [LAUGHS]

I mean, when you can
date a massage therapist

who does his talking with his
hands, then that's what you do.

- You mean like this?
- No, no, no, no!

That's too much! No!

♪ Come play, make
a mess right here ♪

- ♪ Do whatever, I like it weird ♪
- _

♪ Okay, let 'em disappear ♪

♪ Say whatever you want to hear ♪

- ♪ Just stay all night ♪
- _

♪ Come on and stay with me ♪

- ♪ Let's take flight ♪
- _

- ♪ Come on and stay, baby ♪
- _

♪ We could fly away, girl ♪

- ♪ Come on and stay with me ♪
- _

♪ All night ♪

- ♪ Come on and stay with me ♪
- _

- ♪♪
- _

♪♪

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

CARINA: What are you
doing in the guest bedroom?

Do you need something?

Do you remember the
first night we hooked up?

I remember everything about that night.

Sharing small breaths between kisses.

I remember the smell of your hair

and the lavender flowers nearby.

I remember you were
trying to make a weird joke

about CPR and your
breath being taken away.

Hey. I was nervous.

Is there a point here?

And there she is.

The jerk that tried to push
me away the following morning.

I was happy to walk away
and never see you again.

But you didn't let me.

You kissed me, and... And
you told me you were sorry

and that you wanted to see me again.

And look how far we've come now.

I mean, I know everything
feels like a lot right now,

but... we're past that.

You don't have to push me away anymore.

Sorpresa.

What is this?

It's everything from
our first night together.

It's the same lingerie,
the same lavender flowers.

It's...

I love you.

And whatever we're going through,

we'll get through it together

because our love story is beautiful,
and I don't want to lose it.

I don't want to lose us.

♪♪

Hey.

I missed you.

I missed you.

♪♪

♪♪

Hey! What's up, ladies?

It's your girl Vic, uh, Hughes.

Um, I'm just inviting you all
to join our girls' fire camp

where you to learn life-saving tips

and moves from the women of Seattle FD.

Uh, it's gonna be fun. We're
gonna be out in the park,

just running around,
we're playing catch.

We're not playing
catch. Why... That's...

Did you start talking to
the girls like puppies again?

Why am I so bad at this?

- Nah, I wouldn't say bad, but...
- Well...

- maybe stop offering them treats.
- Ugh. What are you up to?

Oh, you know, checking smoke detectors,

sprinklers.

Oh. Usual inspection stuff.

Look at you, staying on top of things.

Yeah, well, we sure don't
have a captain who is.

Okay. Um, do you need any help at all?

No. You have enough going on today.

Don't you have to meet Travis
about his union thing later?

Oh, God. See, you having
to remind me of that

is probably not a good sign, right?

- [SIGHS] Thank you.
- [DOOR OPENS]

Whoa! It's a whole feast.

What, did somebody lose a bet?

I'm not sure what got into Bishop,

but we need to bottle it.

I'm going for seconds,
but if I were you,

I'd make a plate before Ruiz
or Hughes come walking in.

Ooh, that's a fair point.

Today's a clinic day, and this might
be my last chance at a good meal.

So, it looks like a couple
of days off served you well.

- I enjoyed my time off, yes.
- [CHUCKLES]

- Hey, Bishop.
- Yes, sir?

Nice breakfast.

Thank you for being such
a... An asset to your team.

♪♪

- [DOOR OPENS]
- Who was that?

That may be the first time
I could use the word "casual"

to describe Beckett without
adding the word "misogyny."

This bacon is so good.
You should try it.

I like my smoothies.

In the mornings and at night.

I mean, what if you just
make yourself a plate

and then throw it in the blender?

Sounds good.

[CELLPHONES CHIME]

- No. No, no, no!
- Oh, my gosh.

"Travis Montgomery was
arrested for public intoxication

and the as*ault of a fellow firefighter."

Oh. That is low.

I mean, that is low even for Dixon.

Is it? Because ruining my life

before breakfast seems pretty on brand.

I can fix this! I can fix this.

Where is he? I can fix this.

Hey, Travis, Travis, I got this.

- We got this, okay?
- Okay, great.

You have a contingency plan
for this kind of situation?

Vic? Please tell me
there's any kind of plan.

Okay. Okay. So we're gonna, um...

I think we should make a
video statement, and then...

we're gonna do a-a press conference.

I think we should just
be honest about it, okay?

That drags my name through the mud

as well as the entire FD.

We're lucky that it
didn't include you, too.

And this drops right before I
have to meet the Union Board?

We should've seen this coming.

How did we not see this coming?

- [KLAXONS SOUND]
- DISPATCH: Crisis One,

respond to the Caldwell Shopping Center.

Individual on the top
of a parking structure.

That's you and me, Sullivan.
SULLIVAN: Thank God.

- Empathize and, uh, connect.
- Got it. Erratic behavior.

He's intoxicated on a
seven-story parking structure.

We may need to bring
a harness for this one.

Yep, copy that.

Are you having lady problems?

- Lady problems? What...
- Because I... The way

you were staring at your phone
was like a heartbroken teenager.

Or like someone told you the
gym was closed for renovations.

No, no, I... Look.

Alright, well, there
is a particular woman

- that I do really like.
- Mm. Okay, I...

I went on a date with a
massage therapist last night.

Because you need a massage?

- Because I needed a massage.
- [LAUGHS]

I mean, I... I hinted at
it all night, and finally...

He tells you what he charges.

- Yeah, bucks an hour!
- bucks?!

- Can you believe that? Right!
- So... So...

Well, you need to
break up with this dude.

So, what I learned is,
if I want a massage,

- I need to book a massage.
- Yeah.

Okay. All I'm saying is,
if you really like this lady

and you want more, you should tell her.

You... Ask for what you want.

Yeah, well, that's...

good advice.

And you've been stepping it up, too.

- Oh.
- Yeah.

Squashing the gossip and
lifting the morale in the house.

- Don't think I didn't see that.
- Mm.

Shoulda made me captain
when you had the chance,

- is what you're saying?
- [CHUCKLES]

- Something like that.
- [LAUGHS]

[SIREN WAILING]

[BRAKES HISSING]

Aw, man, you brought the cops?

- And why are they so attractive?
- , right?

Yeah, Lieutenants
Herrera and Sullivan.

What's... What's the situation?

I'm Clarke, Crisis One volunteer.

This is Raphael. We got a report
from staff saying that he was pacing

and yelling and talking to himself.

He's calmed down a bit,
but I don't think he's gonna

let go of that liquor bottle.

Um, hey, Raphael?

I'm Andy. I'm not a cop.

I'm with the Seattle Fire Department.

Can you talk me through what's going on?

I'm sick. [CHUCKLES]

I'm... I'm... I'm really sick.

I'm sorry to hear that.

- Can we take you to the hospital?
- They can't help me. [CHUCKLES]

No one can help me.

I'm just going to live a life of misery

and suffering until, one day,
I die slowly and painfully.

[CLICKS TONGUE]

[CHUCKLES]

Unless I die on my own terms.

So that's what I'm gonna do.

I'm going to die on my own terms.

♪♪

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATION, ALARM CHIRPS]

♪♪

Oh, man.

♪♪

♪♪

- [DOOR CLOSES]
- [SIGHS]

- MAN: Hey, good morning, Ben.
- Hey.

Hey, Grey-Sloan came through
with a donation of gloves.

Oh, good. Did any of
the saline bags come in?

Yeah, we'll just have to make do today.

Okay.

Is Jack Gibson volunteering today?

- Yeah. Sure, let's call it that.
- Okay, good.

Because I got us some volunteers, too.

Do you remember Peggy and Dayna?
Peggy was my patient, and...

- And Dayna's her wife, yeah.
- Yeah.

I remember how
accident-prone they are.

Gonna have to put cones
around their table.

Okay, they are my friends,
and they're wonderful,

and they really want to help.

- Yeah, cones and yellow caution tape.
- Stop it.

Yeah, and don't let them bake anything.

You have enough there? , , , , ...

Hi! Welcome to the Station Clinic.

It's the Dean Miller Memorial Clinic.

- Is it?
- Babe, there is a ginormous sign

that is screaming it behind you.

Oh. Sorry. First-day jitters.
Um, how can we help you?

- Let me guess... it's your wrist.
- Ooh. Ouch! What happened?

Didn't you used to work here?

Sorry, uh, doctor-patient
confidentiality.

- Uh, I get it.
- Fill out these forms,

and then you will be seen in
the order that you arrived.

And there might be a wait. Sorry.

No, I-I'm... I'm
sorry. W-What the hell?

T-This clinic doesn't h-have forms.

Uh, it does, according to Dr. Warren.

- Awesome.
- Thank you.

- Sorry.
- Do you think I should

help him fill out those forms? Maybe.

I can write faster than him.

Montgomery, thank you for
helping with the clinic today.

Okay, what's... what's going
on with you today, Captain?

Please, just... What stage
of mind games is this?

It's because I'm here today.

- Chief.
- Yeah.

Montgomery, drop those off.

Come see me in the
conference room, please.

This is just a perfect day.

[KNOCK ON DOOR]

Chief, I'm very sorry.

I know you are very busy and
you don't need any of my mess,

and you don't need
any more managerial crap.

Montgomery, I'm here
'cause today's the day

that I start my new pilot program

where I rotate stations to monitor

their units reporting to incidents.

It's just a coincidence
that I'm starting out

in the same house as a local celebrity.

Right, and I... I-I'm...
I'm gonna make things right.

I've already started strategizing
about a publicly apologize...

I don't care.

- I-I'm sorry?
- Montgomery, this is politics.

You're not gonna walk
away with your hands clean.

Do you know how much mud I
get slung at me every day?

- No, ma'am.
- More than what should be allowed.

I have to keep a
composure that is pristine

so that that mud slides right off.

You and I both know from the
backgrounds that we have that

to be half of anything is never enough.

You got to be double.

That's right.

Now, you are an exceptional firefighter.

But you are still only
half a mayoral candidate.

You want to b*at Dixon, you cannot hide.

You cannot let the mud stick.

You gotta throw some of your own.

Or you find someone to do it for you.

- [KLAXONS SOUND]
- DISPATCH: Ladder on scene,

Arkine battery recycling plant,

requesting additional resources.

Hey, Raphael, let's try
and center ourselves, okay?

We're gonna take some deep breaths.

If you exhale longer than you inhale,

it helps calm down your nervous system.

I don't want to take deep breaths.

Okay. That's okay. How 'bout we talk?

Do you want to talk?

I, uh [CHUCKLES]

I used to come here all
the time with my dad.

I mean, we would... We
would watch fireworks here,

listen to concerts nearby.

He used to call this
place the cheap seats.

We would have picnics on the car,

and we had the whole place to ourselves.

C-Can you guys leave me alone?

Like, t-this is my place.

It's... It's my place.

- Crisis One to SFD One.
- Leave me alone.

Subject Raphael is a potential jumper.

Got the harness ready.

Keep additional aid on standby.

[SIREN WAILING]

A good campaign manager
would've seen this coming, right?

I mean, every time I think
I have a grasp on this,

something happens that
makes me look like a kid.

You know, honestly, I've
never seen you be bad

at anything you really
wanted, so is that the problem?

- What do you mean?
- Well, do you really

want to keep doing this?

Travis would be
devastated if I quit now,

and he really needs the
help, so I'm not gonna...

No, no, I'm not
asking about Travis.

I'm asking what you want.

- Okay. Well, how about you don't?
- [CHUCKLES]

Why don't we talk about
what's going on with you?

- With me?
- Yeah, I saw you check

that one smoke detector three times,

and it wasn't even beeping.

Alright! Look alive back
there! We've arrived!

[HORN BLARING]

[SIREN WAILING]

LIZ: Here! Here! [BREATHING HEAVILY]

Oh, finally! Thank God! Did
you put the call in, ma'am?

Yes... eight of my co-workers
are trapped in the smelting room!

That's where they melt the
batteries down for recycling!

A giant chemical furnace room, right?

Why haven't you shut the equipment down?

We can't shut it down!
The lab and the vent system

are both electronically sealed.

Please, the heat and the
sulfur are only getting hotter!

Alright, team, we're gonna
need forcible entry on this one!

Everyone in breathers!

Bring gas meters and entry tools!

Dispatch, requesting a
Hazmat unit to our location.

Crisis One, this is SFD One.

What's the status of your situation?

ANDY: SFD One, Crisis One is on scene

and engaged with subject.

Male, late s. Raphael.

Showing signs of self-harm.

It seems like you have
a great relationship

with your dad, Raphael.

- [CHUCKLES]
- Where is he now?

Um, he's with God.

Yeah, that's what my Mom
says is, "He's with God."

He... He d*ed when I was .

Just... dropped right in front of me.

It's... It's crazy. I-I would...
I would shake all the time.

I mean, in... in class.

And... And, you know,
kids are the worst.

But I just... I could
never stop shaking.

And my mom, she would...
She would always say,

"It's okay, baby. Your
Papa's with God now."

Like that was supposed
to make me feel better,

but I was !

I didn't want my dad with
God. I wanted him with me!

My mom faked her own death

to get away from me and
my dad when I was a kid.

And I'm not... I'm not
saying that to compete

with your story or to
compete with your pain,

but I'm... I'm... I'm saying I get it.

I feel you, Raphael.

I know what it feels like to survive,

and I sure as hell know what
it feels like to miss my dad

and to want to see him again.

But I also know that if I was sick,

my dad would want me to
fight for my life, not...

Not get wasted at his favorite
place and throw it all away.

There's nothing left to fight for!

I'm not even , and
I'm in heart failure

'cause of the toxins in my blood,

the toxins that I was
exposed to at my job.

- I'm sorry...
- Every day!

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

Did your mom even...
even fake her own death?

I wish I could say I was making that up.

Get back!

Get back! Everybody get back!

Okay, okay! No, no, no!

MAN: Sir, it's just a
preliminary screening.

DAYNA: Hi. Over here.

Welcome to the Dean
Miller Memorial Clinic.

How can we help you?

Um, actually, I'm just here to...

CARINA: Jack Gibson?

[CLEARS THROAT]

I get dragged in here,
and then I have to wait.

How rude is that?

You're sitting in a familiar place

with a stable roof over your head.

Oh, what a tragedy. Come on.

- Come on!
- Mm-hmm. Yep.

He's a looker, isn't he?

- He used to work here.
- Mm-hmm.

Sorry, um, what can we do for you?

Um, lately, I notice
it burns when I pee.

Oh, yeah, been there.

Um, I'm not a doctor, but
if it is what I think it is,

- it's not a big problem.
- [CHUCKLES] Thank you.

Can you explain why the
machines can't shut off?

Our new owners digitized
all of our systems,

from the ventilation
to the smelting engines

to the door locks.

It requires our engineer's
palm print for emergency access.

- Where's your engineer?
- I don't know.

He didn't show up this morning,
and I called management,

and they said the process
was "basically automated"

and we should do it without him.

So they threw them in with no exit plan?

I guess they think a few
lives are worth a quick buck.

It's right here. It's right there.

Good, they're still conscious.

But how thick are these doors?

It's reinforced to
protect everyone outside

from the chemical and heat exposure.

It can get to over
, degrees Celsius.

How long do we expect
their gear to hold up?

Their gear isn't great.

I mean, they have filtration
systems, but no oxygen.

And this is a green company
that put them in there?

I'm ready to breach the window, Captain.

That's layers of polycarbonate
glass. You'll never get through.

- There's acid!
- Acid in the air!

No, he's saying acid!

- Stop, there's acid!
- There's acid in the air!

Hughes, Ruiz, get on the roof!
Cut me a hole for ventilation!

Copy, Captain!

If we don't get to them
in the next minutes,

they're done!

- [ALARM BLARING]
- _

It is a super simple test,
just like Dr. DeLuca explained.

So here's the cup.

- When we were in college... and...
- Peggy, don't.

The unofficial slogan of our college was

"q*eer in a year or your money back."

Neither of us got our money back,
but do you know what we did get?

- The clap.
- No, it wasn't the clap.

We got chlamydia.

- Isn't that the same thing?
- No, the clap is gonorrhea.

We were just comforting
her through storytelling.

Yeah, and I'm sure she appreciates it,

but what I really need you to do

is to help sorting our inventory.

- Yep.
- Thank you.

Did we just get fired
from talking to patients?

I think she did what she needed to do.

Hi, Brooke. So the bathroom is
gonna be down the hall to the right.

- Thank you.
- Yeah, no problem.

- Come on through.
- Come right over here.

[SIGHS, CHUCKLES]

You really wrapped
tape around the brace?

It became loose in a heated exchange.

I say this with brotherly love

and all the respect in the world...

Please do not do a Warren
speech right now. I can't take it.

So you are sleeping in your
truck right outside of

because you don't want help?

- Got it.
- I parked my truck there

because I know the parking laws there

and I can't afford another ticket, so...

You need to pull it together, alright?

Because you made the
mistake of showing up here

on Halloween and reminding
Pru that you exist,

so now it's "Uncle Jack
this" and "Uncle Jack that,"

and "When is Uncle Jack coming over?"

and "Why is Uncle Jack
dressed like a boxer?"

She loves you, man, alright?

And she has lost enough,
so when you disappoint Pru,

you disappoint me, and I
get to give you a lecture.

- You know what's disappointing to me?
- What?

What you've done to this clinic.

Yeah, it was supposed to be
accessible, bare bones, you know?

But what you've done is added
intake forms and white coats,

which basically makes
it another hospital.

Yeah, Peggy and Dayna would never
be allowed to work in a hospital.

Okay, fine, Gibson. Look, i-i-if
you think that we got it wrong,

then come back and help us get it back

to what it used to be,
'cause I'm not gonna do it.

Hey, that's manipulative.

Nope, that's the truth.

Because I was trained as a
doctor, and so was Carina.

With you gone, we
reverted to what we know.

You were the one with
the lived experience

of growing up on the streets

and fearing the medical establishment.

If you think that we've
gotten away from your vision,

then come back.

But in the meantime, why
don't you get a shower

and a shave and take
a nap in your old bunk?

I can't. It's against the rules.

Screw the rules. It's doctor's orders.

- I'm sor... sorry.
- I'm...

- No, it's my... My fault.
- Fault... My... Sorry.

Oh, hi. Do you have your sample?

No. I... forgot where you
told me the bathroom was.

To the right.

- Thank you.
- Yeah.

[WHIRRING]

Bishop, check it again!

Please tell me it made any kind
of hole we can put air through.

Nothing! Let's go again!

Whoa! Wait!

Hey! What's happening to them in there?

LIZ: It must be the
sulfuric acid rising!

If it's increasing in the air,
it can eat through their suits!

- Hey, hey!
- Hey, get down!

- Get down!
- Lay down on the floor!

[MUFFLED SHOUTING]

This is evil. These owners are evil.

Yeah, evil or incredibly stupid.

Either way, let's go.

Ladder to SFD! O
concentration's at %!

Sulfuric acid levels
are almost critical!

Do we have any word on shutting
down the power to this plant?!

Negative, Ladder .

I'm still waiting for a
response from the power company.

Hughes, Ruiz, what's the status
on that ventilation system?!

Captain, we've popped three vents,

but there's still a
metal seal underneath.

This room is a fortress, but we're
prying down to the next level.

Pick it up, Ruiz and
report back with progress!

Dispatch, we need another Hazmat unit!

- The acid levels are increasing...
- LIZ: I can't do this!

- And we don't have much time before...
- I don't know.

- Ma'am, who are you talking to?
- I'm sorry. I just...

It's my manager! He said he can't help!

I don't know what to do!

I need you to put him on speaker.

Put him on speaker.

NATASHA: Captain, what are
your latest exposure readings?

Dispatch, stand by! This is
Captain Beckett with the SFD.

If you don't come down
here in the next minutes

and give us access to this room,

you will be criminally liable

for the deaths of your employees!

Is that understood?!

MAN: No, I don't have
access! I don't need to!

This is a foolproof
process with an engineer!

Rafi was the one who abandoned his post!

You ordered them to start
the process without Rafi!

- You are going to prison!
- Rafi.

♪♪

Rafi.

- Let's think this through.
- Look, I don't want to think about it!

What do you want?

- I-I want to be a person.
- Okay.

I want to not be a thing
that a company can just use

and then throw away
when it doesn't work anymore.

- [BOTTLE SHATTERS]
- I get that.

I had a co-worker,
man... No, a friend...

Who got me this job when I was
down bad and I needed it the most.

I mean, he was such
a stand-up dude, man.

I-I saw what the
contamination did to him.

I-I-I watched him deteriorate.

And the company, they
just... they just shrugged.

Told him to make sure his
replacement was properly trained.

You have every right to be angry.

I just said goodbye to him a
week ago. I watched them k*ll my

- friend and I did nothing.
- NATASHA: Herrera, come in.

- Listen, I-I'm sorry about your friend.
- ANDY: I read you, Chief.

I need you to back out of
earshot of the scene, please.

Copy that. Clear.

Herrera, what's the
name of the individual

you're speaking to on this call?

Raphael, ma'am.

Is he a battery plant engineer?

Did he leave his job this morning?

Yeah, he works at a
factory that has chemicals.

What... What's going on?

is on a call at a
battery recycling plant,

and their engineer didn't come in today.

That man may be the key
to saving eight other lives

on another call.

Raphael, I know what
it's like to feel like you

belong to an institution.

I-I know what it's like
to feel like you're being

used and discarded.

It's hard. I-It's scary.

But listen, you quit them.

You quit those institutions,
you don't quit on yourself.

Look, you deserve to live.

You... You deserve to figure
out who you are outside of them.

You deserve to reclaim your life,
not just your death,

- brother, your... your life.
- Sullivan...

What... What are you whispering?
Don't whisper about me!

- Hey!
- No, no, no, no!

Raphael, are you an engineer
at a battery recycling plant?

- How'd you know that?
- Your... Your people are in trouble.

They're locked in.

- Wait, what?
- Hey!

[GASPING]

ANDY: No!

[DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYS]

No!

Clarke! Clarke, I need your help!

- Okay, I'm coming!
- Pull, hard!

- I'm not trained for this.
- Pull.

- I'm not trained for this!
- Just dig deeper!

[GRUNTS]

I don't want to die.
I don't want to die.

- Sullivan, you got him?
- SULLIVAN: Lower us down a few feet.

Listen to me. I'm gonna go downstairs.

What I need you to do

- is open up this clamp when I say so.
- Okay.

- It's gonna give the rope some slack.
- Okay.

When I say close it,
I need you to shut it.

- Okay. Okay.
- Alright?

- You got it?
- I got it!

- You sure?
- I got it!

I don't want to die like
this. Please. Please!

I got you. Okay? I got you.

Hold on.

Alright, start lowering
it, Clarke! Go ahead!

I'm not trained for this.

SULLIVAN: Just a few feet.

I don't want to die, man. I
don't want to die like this.

- I got you.
- Please, please.

- ANDY: Sullivan, I'm right here.
- Yeah.

Okay, Clarke, that's enough! Stop!

I got you.

- Grab his legs.
- I got his legs.

♪♪

[GRUNTS]

Dispatch, this is Crisis One.

We're responding Code to Fremont.

DISPATCH: Copy that, Crisis One.

♪ I wore my heart paper thin ♪

It's gonna be okay.

♪ Felt these walls crumbling ♪

♪ Always questioning the high ♪

♪ Never felt quite right ♪

♪ I'm reaching out
like a satellite ♪

♪ I lost myself into the night ♪

- What's your status?
- ♪ Chasing sorry with goodbye ♪

♪ Why do good things die? ♪

♪ Good things die ♪

♪ Running from all of
the thoughts in my head ♪

♪ I'm fighting my way to the end ♪

♪ Underneath the cold,
underneath the rain ♪

Okay, okay.

♪ There will be a way,
there will be a way ♪

- One, two...
- ♪ There will be a way ♪

♪ Just another storm,
just another flame ♪

♪ That will be the day,
that will be the day ♪

- ♪ That will be the day ♪
- Front line, move!

- Can you put your arm around me?
- Okay, bend down.

- Yeah, let's go.
- I got you.

- Ready?
- Let's go.

♪ Meet me on the other side ♪

♪ Underneath the cold,
underneath the rain ♪

♪ There will be a way ♪

♪ There will be a way ♪

♪ There will be a way ♪

♪ There will be a way ♪

♪ There will be a way ♪

♪ There will be a way ♪

♪ Underneath the cold,
underneath the rain ♪

♪ There will be a way,
there will be a way ♪

♪ There will, there will be a way ♪

The results are negative.

No UTIs and a negative pregnancy test.

Great. Yay, me.

Hey, are you sure this is
the real reason why you came in today?

Because usually when college girls

find out they're not pregnant,

they're a lot more relieved
than you are right now.

No.

No.

Have you ever thought
that even though someone

has made it very clear they
want nothing to do with you,

that you could change their mind?

Like, if they could just
see what they were missing,

but, like, you could show them,
that then they would just...

See how different things could be?

I'm sorry. I'm lost.

Uh, did you maybe come in
for mental health services?

Because we can help.

- No.
- Okay.

No.

No, if... if you love someone,

you honor their boundaries, right?

- Huh.
- Don't answer that.

I know I'm right. I wasted your time.

Thank you, and please thank
your over-sharing volunteers.

- I will.
- And here.

Would you deliver this, please?

Sure.

To who?

- I'll be okay.
- Okay.

Okay, got you.

[INDISTINCT CHATTER]

- Is he gonna be okay?
- Liz?

We're giving him O now,
and we're gonna transfer him

Grey-Sloan Memorial, okay?

Oh, he's having a seizure!

We need to dose him
with benzos immediately!

He must have breathed
in too many chemicals.

Ma'am, hang back.
We have to let them work.

LIZ: No, no! No! No, no, no, no, no.

- No, this... this is my fault.
- Hey, hey, hey! Wait, wait, wait.

What's going on, Dev?!

Alright, buddy, we got you. We got you.

- Please do something!
- Okay, he's stabilizing,

but we got to get him out of here now!

Now, now, now, now, now!

Devin!

♪♪

Liz, I'm so sorry, okay?

I didn't mean to hurt
anybody except me today.

I didn't know that
they were gonna make...

Liz!

[ENGINE STARTS]

[SIREN WAILS]

Hey, miss.

I shouldn't have started
this process without you!

It's my fault! This is
my fault if Devin dies!

Hey, it is not your fault, okay?

Do you hear me? It is their fault.

It's their fault. It is not your fault.

It's not your fault, I promise, okay?

Look, I swear to God, I'm
gonna spend whatever days

I have left making
sure these bastards pay.

Okay? It's not your fault.

I'm taking it back. I'm taking it back.

It's not your fault.

BEN: You know what?

Don't get me wrong,
I am grateful for the help,

but Peggy and Dayna are
like a two-headed bull

in a china shop in here.

Hey, I don't even have the energy

to translate that expression right now.

- Is Jack still here?
- Yeah, yeah.

He's taking a nap in his old bunk.

- What's that?
- I don't know,

but a patient came in to
drop this for him today.

Okay, so, they just came by
to drop it off for Gibson?

Actually, she came in for
a UTI and a pregnancy test.

Okay, I-I don't know if he
can take any more bad news.

- He's...
- They were both negative.

- Oh, well, okay, then.
- Uh...

What...

Hey, uh, Travis? Can I
grab you for a second?

- Look...
- Uh, no, I just wanted to say,

I should have anticipated
this move by Dixon.

- No, you shouldn't have.
- It was not...

You shouldn't have
because it was disgusting.

It was a disgusting move.

Yeah, I should have anticipated

this disgusting move by Dixon, but I...

Um, I think that would have required me

to unearth some of my Ripley stuff,

and I have been compartmentalizing
that far away

from my thinking mind, so that...

What someone should have done was locked

Travis' records since day one.

Yeah, that is what I
should have thought of.

And what you need now is a spin.

- Okay, I'm sorry. Who are you?
- Vic, meet Eli.

Eli is, uh, trying to
be my campaign manager.

Trying, but I told him.

Okay, so how exactly do
you spin aggravated as*ault?

He's trying to appeal
to firefighters, right?

I read the arrest report.

Travis got into that fight standing up

for another firefighter...
after disparaging remarks

were made about a recently
deceased fire chief.

Yeah, um... He was
defending me, actually.

That's even better.

So he's wiling to fight
for women in the field.

A sobering perspective that'll
have you praised by firefighters

and the union alike.

This might be the
first time you've

actually done something
they can relate to.

Okay, well, he's good.

I'm only as good as you allow me to be.

I can't do that much from the sidelines.

TRAVIS: Yes, and thank you.

Thank you, Eli, for all of this.

Truly, thank you.

- But like I said, I did...
- You know what, Travis?

Actually, I don't think I will have time

to manage your campaign anymore.

I'm gonna be busy recruiting the future

female firefighters of Seattle.

- No, Vic, no, no.
- No, I'm serious. You're fired.

I'm fired?

I'm fired. I'm fired.

I don't care.
- I'm just saying you need... him.

You need him.

Whenever you're done with
this, we should talk strategy.

♪♪

I am so happy that you are still here.

How was the call?

It was almost really awful
and really devastating,

and then it wasn't.

Kinda like us.

Did you take a pregnancy test?

No. I wouldn't do that without you.

Good. So what's wrong?

I still need you to get help.

I want us to be in love and...
And have sex and make a baby,

and I need you to be getting help.

I'm holding on to this boundary,

and I'm just asking you to honor it.

My love, I think that
growing up with your dad,

you developed some control issues.

And I feel like you're using the truth

in a way that makes it
impossible for me to argue.

I don't want to argue anymore, okay?

I want you to understand
that I'm helping myself

in a way that works for me.

Talking doesn't work for me, okay?

I'm working through my
anger and my pain in my way.

And if that makes you
angry, if that hurts you,

then you should work on that your way.

But trying to control me

that's, not gonna work for either of us.

♪♪

[SIGHS]

What Dixon did is
just a normal politics.

In fact, he respected you
enough to take the kid gloves off

and get his hands dirty.
So now, we return the favor.

Oh, Travis, did you let
this guy talk you over

to the dark side?

Yeah, about that.

How... dark side are we talking?

Nothing illegal or unethical.

Ha. Define "unethical,"

because I think your
standards may be different.

Do you see the boost in Dixon's ratings?

It's time to get serious.

Yeah, but serious doesn't mean

Travis starts twirling his little
mustache behind closed doors.

Yeah, if we hit the point
where we're tying Kitty Dixon

up to railroad tracks, I think I'm out.

Sounds like a deal.

A deal with the devil.

You can think what you
like, but I don't intend

to sit idly by while Michael Dixon

runs this city into the ground.

This city? Wow. This city is our city.

We grew up here.
This... This isn't your city.

Oh, I see. So you're a fan of Dixon?

- Don't do that?
- Do what?

- Spin me.
- Wouldn't dream of it.

[SCOFFS]

This station has taken
too many hits lately.

I'm not gonna watch you turn
Travis into someone he's not.

You mean a winning candidate?

Wow, you really don't quit.

Correct. It's why I win.

Mm. That's why I walk away.

You're probably better at diplomacy
when you're working, right?

[ELEVATOR BELL DINGS]

- [CELLPHONE CHIMES]
- _

- [LAUGHTER IN DISTANCE]
- BEN: I-I can't believe that

you just dove off the side
of that building.

That is something you
would have yelled at me for.

- Hey Chief.
- NATASHA: Hey.

- Chief. How you doing?
- Gentlemen.

Sounds like you had a rough
one out there, huh, Sullivan? Yeah.

But the way you
connected those two dots,

that was, um... impressive.

I appreciate that.

Hey, Chief.

Can I walk with you?

Yeah, what's up, Ruiz?

I assume you know my history.

I was a captain.

I made a bad call that cost
my best friend his life.

I do. I do.

Well, is my home now.

It's my family, and I
refuse to see it at risk

because of a captain who has
no interest in seeing us united.

Those... Those are some
major accusations, Ruiz.

We had a rough call, Chief.

- Today wasn't on Beckett.
- Well, maybe not.

Maybe not, but we've
had a lot of rough calls.

You know, morale is low,
and it's making me itchy.

You know, I'm checking
batteries on the smoke alarms.

I'm double checking his work, you know?

'Cause I don't... I don't
want to go through it again.

- I don't want to lose anyone else.
- Ruiz, listen.

I'm not saying he's a bad
firefighter, okay? I'm not.

But he's a crap leader,
and in this house,

when everyone has big
personalities and big opinions,

we need a leader.

I don't like coming to you,
but I got a bad feeling.

♪♪

[SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE]

♪♪

[SIGHS]

Well, well, look at you.

- Look at you.
- Warren wanted me to give this to you.

It's not another lecture, is it?
'Cause he's been on fire today.

No, no, it's not a lecture.

But it might be a paternity test?

Are you serious?

Yeah. Some gorgeous lady dropped it off.

There's a betting pool downstairs.

This house has missed
you. I've missed you.

You are... so loved.

And no, this is not a lecture.
It's just... a welcome home.

I'm not quite home.

Yeah, but you could be.

I mean, you could talk to Chief Ross.

- I will.
- You will?

- You will?
- Yes.

I could cheer or... I could cry,

but, um [CLEARS THROAT] I had
a really intense call today,

so I think I'm just
gonna... go downstairs.

Unless you wanna open the
envelope and settle the bet.

What'd you bet?

A grown daughter you never knew about?

I'll keep you posted.

[CHUCKLES] Okay.

♪♪

♪♪

[CELLPHONE RINGING]

♪ Tell me that I'm right,
even if you're lying ♪

♪ Tell me what I wanna hear ♪

♪ Mm ♪

♪ Same four walls closing in ♪

♪ Lost at home as these days go by ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ I can't keep you safe,
but I can keep you warm ♪

♪ Mm ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ I can't stop the rain,
but we can ride the storm ♪

♪ Mm ♪

♪♪

Mmm.

♪♪

♪ Living in a dream,
ripping at the seams ♪

- ♪ Only so much we can bear ♪
- _

♪ Mm ♪

♪ Till the truth
comes spilling out ♪

- ♪ All the kings are humbled now ♪
- _

♪ So we look for the good
as we try and make sense ♪

- ♪ Of the lessons we learned ♪
- _

in the wake of our sins ♪

♪ But the closer we
get, the harder it gets ♪

♪ To hang on, hang on ♪

- ♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
- _

♪ I can't keep you safe,
but I can keep you warm ♪

♪ Mm ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ I can't keep you safe,
but I can keep you warm ♪

_

♪ Mm ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪

- ♪ Keep you warm ♪
- _

♪ I can't stop the rain,
but we can ride the storm ♪

♪ We can ride the storm ♪

♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Ohhh ♪

♪ Ohhh ♪