01x06 - Remorse is The Poison Of Life

[bunniefuu]

[panting]

[exclaiming]

Help me!

Can you help me?

Anne!

Diana?

- Minnie May, she's sick!
- We need to wake Miss Cuthbert!

She's not here. She
went to see the premier.

- Did your parents go as well?
- Yes!

- What's wrong with Minnie May?
- I don't know.

She's choking and
coughing, and it's horrible!

- Croup.
- We need the doctor!

Matthew! Matthew, come quick!

Put this on before you catch your death.

Aunt Josephine's staying with us
but she doesn't know what to do!

She's never seen a cough like this.

I have.

Matthew, ride to Carmody
and fetch the doctor.

Minnie May is gravely ill.
I'll go home with Diana.

We'll see you there.

Oh, Anne, she's fearful sick!

[sobbing] She can scarcely breathe!

I need to fetch the ipecac before we go!

Matthew won't be back for hours. I
will do everything I can until then!

- I've missed you so much.
- I've missed you, too.

♪ First thing we climb a tree ♪

♪ And maybe then we'd talk ♪

♪ Or sit silently ♪

♪ And listen to our thoughts ♪

♪ With illusions of someday ♪

♪ Casting a golden light ♪

♪ No dress rehearsal ♪

♪ This is our life ♪

♪ You are ahead by a century. Yes ♪

♪ You are ahead by a century ♪

[coughing]

Lean her over. Make sure
she's right above the steam.

We have to loosen the
phlegm that's choking her.

[coughing]

[sighing] We've used
almost all the ipecac.

There's only one more dose.
I want to get by with steam

and night air until
we're forced to use it.

She's burning up.

Let's lift her up to the window.

Breathing cold air will help.

[coughing]

What on earth do you think you're doing?!

Do you wish her to
freeze to death as well?!

Cold air is a doctor's best friend
when it comes to treating croup.

You are not a doctor!
I do not condone this!

I know what I'm doing.

Sorry. If you could please
stay out of the way...

Well!

Dear God, please save this child.

It's all right, Minnie May.

Do you see the moon?

Oh, isn't she lovely?

She's watching over you.

I wish you had some peppermint or
eucalyptus so I could make a plaster.

- [coughing]
- I'll fetch an onion.

Pardon me.

How much longer will it be
before that blasted doctor comes?!

Oh, I hate the country.

Sorry! It really would help if
you could keep out of the way!

What would help would be
a medical professional.

I expect they'll be another
hour or two, if they come at all.

Why do you say that?

Almost everyone went to
Charlottetown to see the premier.

That is precisely why I left.

It remains to be seen if the
doctor went along as well.

Next you'll be brewing
eye of newt in a cauldron.

Raw onion on the soles of the
feet helps bring a fever down.

You haven't ever heard of that?

- Why would I have?
- Because it's an old wives' tale.

I might be one, but not the other.

Evidently, one doesn't have
to be either thing to know it.

True enough. In any
case, I believe it works,

and I'm not above a
desperate measure or two.

If I had a desperate
measure to offer, I would.

But I know nothing of
children or their illnesses.

[Minnie May coughing]

Mrs. Hammond had twins three times,
so I know quite a lot about it.

You were in service?

My whole life before
I came to Green Gables.

So the Cuthberts brought you on

to look after them in
their dotage, did they?

Oh, no. I was supposed to be a boy.

But when I wasn't, they
decided to keep me and raise me.

How extraordinary.

- I agree!
- Anne!

- Anne! Anne!
- [gasping]

Bring her over to the table! Hurry!

[gasping for breath]

Roll her onto her belly. Hold her feet.

Come on, Minnie May, cough!
Cough, Minnie May! Cough!

- She's slipping!
- Miss Barry!

Come on, Minnie May! Come
on! Cough, Minnie May! Cough!

She's not breathing!

[choking]

Cough, Minnie May! Cough! Come on, cough!

Come on, cough! Cough!

Cough, Minnie May! Cough!

- Please, please!
- [coughing]

- That's good. That's very good.
- [wheezing]

Oh, thank God.

Merciful Lord.

That's done it. Pull her up.

You are going to be all better very soon,

and you have been very brave.

- Oh, Anne...
- Oh...

Let's get her to bed.

I believe the worst is over.

I believe I need a brandy.

[horse nickering]

[owl hooting]

Your little redheaded girl
is as smart as they make them.

She saved that child's
life, pure and simple.

I must admit, she's
got a presence of mind

quite unusual in a child her age.

I guess... I'd best get her home.

Anne.

Anne...

It's time to go.

- [birdsong]
- [crows cawing]

Oh, Matthew...

isn't it a beautiful morning?

The trees look as if you could
blow them away with a breath.

Poof!

I'm so glad I live in a world where
there are white frosts, aren't you?

Yeah.

And I'm so glad Mrs. Hammond
had three pairs of twins,

or I mightn't have known what to do.

Life's funny... like that.

Won't Marilla be surprised
when she hears what she missed?

Won't she just.

Matthew?

Matthew, are you all right?

Oh... Oh, good.

You're back.

Um, how was Charlottetown?

Why are you sleeping in
the middle of the day?

Uh-huh. It's all right, Marilla.

I expect Anne will sleep
the day away as well.

What's happened? What's
wrong? Is she ill?

[mumbling] No need to fret.

How about I tell you
over a cup of coffee?

I could use some coffee.

[birdsong]

- You know what I...
- Oh, can I get you something?

You know...

what was the best thing
about getting sick?

Traveling west again.

I'll fetch you both some tea.

The train.

God, I love a train.

And those Rocky Mountains...

They're amazing.

Did my heart good.

It's a big world, son.

Remember that.

[knocking]

Good afternoon, Marilla.

Eliza.

I've come to apologize.

May I please see your
wonderful, remarkable Anne?

She's still sleeping,

but you're welcome to come on in.

- [whinnying]
- Good day, Mrs. Barry.

Thank you, Matthew.

[cattle lowing]

Afternoon, Marilla. We missed you.

Did you see the premier?
What did he look like?

Well, he never got to be
Premier on account of his looks,

but I was proud of being a Conservative.

Rachel, being a Liberal,
had no use for him.

Come along and let's get you
fed. I expect you must be hungry.

I'm starving!

Did Matthew recount the
events of last night?

He did.

I must say it was fortunate
that you knew what to do.

I wouldn't have had any idea myself.

I never saw a case of croup.

You know what was extra
wonderful about it all?

I got to spend time
with my darling Diana.

It's been an agony
not speaking at school,

an utter agony.

It's been a long month indeed.

I was so sorrowful to
leave her this morning,

knowing it'll all go
back to how it's been.

Take a few more bites.

Why?

Because when I tell you
who just visited here,

your reaction will lift
you clear out of the region

of such material matters as appetite.

Mrs. Barry paid a call today,

and she hopes you'll forgive her

and be good friends with Diana again.

[squealing] Oh, I'll wash it later!

I can't tie myself down to anything

so unromantic as dishes

at this thrilling moment!

Anne, take a coat!

[lively music]

Gilbert?!

[clanging]

Gilbert!

Gilbert!

Gilbert!

Anne! Anne!

[squealing]

Diana! Oh!

Oh, aren't you almost
nearly perfectly happy?

Our separation has been
an excruciating torment,

but I'm so relieved it's finally over.

Mother could hardly keep us
apart since you saved Minnie May.

Even Aunt Josephine said
she'd be glad to see you again,

and she doesn't like anyone.

Wasn't she only staying
while your parents were away?

No, no, she's come to stay
with us for at least a month.

I don't quite know how we'll
stand it. She's so very particular.

But she's suffered a
loss - she's grieving -

so she's disinclined to be
home alone in Charlottetown

- since her companion passed away.
- Her companion?

Her best friend forever and ever.

- [Diana laughing]
- [Anne sighing]

Aunt Josephine never
married. Neither of them did.

They lived with each
other their whole lives.

I'd live with you forever if I could,

but I know you'll leave
me the day you get married

to some wealthy and handsome gentleman.

I hate him already.

How's Gilbert?

You're not funny.

You see him almost every
day after school, do you not?

Not because I want to!
It's because I have to.

Mr. Phillips makes me go.

I've explained this to Ruby.

Do I need to explain it to you as well?

I want to b*at Gilbert fair and square

when he comes back to school. [sighing]

Is his father almost well?

I think I'm a terrible person.

What? Why?

I hadn't thought about it before.

Hadn't thought about what?

It's very likely Gilbert's father

isn't going to get well.

So it's more than
possible that when Gilbert

finally comes back to school,

he'll be an orphan.

[bell ringing]

"Let not your heart be troubled.

"Ye believe in God;

"believe also in me.

"In my Father's house are many mansions.

"If it were not so,

"I would have told you.

"I go to prepare a place for you.

"And if I go and
prepare a place for you,

"I will come again, and
receive you unto myself;

for where I am, there ye may be also."

[indistinct chatter]

Oh, no, thank you.

[woman laughing]

You laugh, but I think
it's a fine chapeau.

Cosmopolitan.

All the city folks are wearing them.

Why don't you like it?

Other than the fact that
it's too big for your head?

Room to grow.

I'm sure it'll fit better when
you acquire some more brains.

[laughter]

Oh, show me mercy, Mar.

Mercy, please.

Perhaps this might
persuade you to offer me

a morsel of kindness.

I make no promises.

I would expect none.

May I?

Marilla?

Are you all right, dear?

I'm sorry, what?

Oh, no, thank you. I-I'm fine.

[background chatter]

Gilbert!

It was a lovely service.

It seemed fitting somehow;

everything was so...

white and still.

I've always thought that the minister

prays quite mournfully,
so this suited him nicely.

Baptisms must be grim.

Being an orphan has its challenges,

but you already have so many advantages,

you'll be much better off than I was.

And I didn't know my parents...

they d*ed when I was a baby...

so I couldn't fend for
myself the way that you can.

And I don't remember my parents at all,

but you'll always be able
to remember your father.

And you know, when you think about it,

you're really very lucky.

You think I'm lucky?

Compared to me? Yes.

And why is this about you?

It's not. I was just trying to...

See you.

Ugh!

Don't mind me, Gilbert Blythe!
I was only trying to help!

Fine, then. Don't get the benefits

of my extensive knowledge
about being an orphan!

[sighing]

No matter how sad you look.

All right, no need to think
about him any more. Done.

I've wasted quite enough
energy on some dumb boy.

I'm not going to think about
Gilbert Blythe for one more second.

Brain: stop it!

- Romance is a pesky business.
- Oh!

[sighing] Miss Barry.

No sense to be made of it.

- Hello, Anne.
- Hello.

- Sorry to interrupt.
- No, no, I was... uh...

May I enter your humble abode?

Of course.

Ah... [groaning]

Ah.

Cozy little retreat.

I-I should let you know immediately

that what you heard just now
had nothing to do with romance.

- I see.
- Nothing whatsoever.

I couldn't be less interested in Gil...

that boy.

I've got much better things to do.

You certainly seem like someone
with many possible outcomes.

Oh, you've no idea how much it
heartens me to hear you say that.

My advice is to let your ambitions

and your aspirations be your guide.

But I have so many.

Oh, good.

Plenty of time yet. If you're lucky.

Right. Lucky.

There's more than enough
time for you to figure out

what you want and what you're good at.

I'd like to be very, very
good at something astonishing.

I don't seem to fit in.

All the girls I know are
preoccupied with becoming a wife.

And what do you think about that?

Well, I've always wanted to be a bride,

but I don't really expect to be a wife.

Interesting.

- So you see the conundrum.
- I do.

I have the following thoughts to offer.

First: you can get married anytime

in your life if you choose to do so.

That's true.

And two: if you choose a career,

you can buy a white dress yourself,

have it made to order, and
wear it whenever you want.

Oh. Why didn't I think of that?

- [Miss Barry chuckling]
- I love that idea!

I'm going to be my own woman.

I'm a proponent for making
one's own way in the world.

Shall we? [groaning]

A certain young lady
has impressed upon me

the many benefits of
taking the winter air.

[both sighing]

[Miss Barry groaning] Thank you.

- Oh!
- [both sighing]

- Miss Barry?
- Hmm?

You are an inspiration.

And I hope I know you all my life.

I hope so, too.

If you become a doctor,

perhaps you can discover
a cure for old age.

[chuckling]

And Miss Josephine Barry is
quite an intriguing character.

She's independent and never been married.

She's definitely my new role model.

She helped me see the light about...

my future.

You and Marilla are also my inspirations.

[Matthew]: You don't say.

I do say.

I'm going to be the
heroine in my own story.

- [Matthew]: Well, now.
- I am quite firm in my position

that romance need not be my goal in life.

Not that I'm thinking about boys at all,

because I'm not.

I choose myself.

And that way, I'll never be disappointed.

[sighing tearfully]

The key to a man's heart
is through his stomach...

- Which it is.
- Then we have to make sure

that this is the best shepherd's
pie that Gilbert has ever tasted.

Being a good cook shouldn't
be very high on the list

of romantic attributes, if you ask me.

If one was interested in
romance, which I'm not,

I'd like to be noticed
for me, not my dinner.

- [laughter]
- You're so funny, Anne.

- I wasn't meaning to be funny.
- Oh.

So what's on the list?

My brain, Diana. My personality.

As in, who I am.

I'd like to believe
that's what truly matters.

If romance matters at all.

Which it doesn't.

- Yes, it does!
- [laughter]

Don't you think Gilbert looks even
more handsome now that he's sad?

I didn't notice.

- He does.
- I know!

Ruby and Gilbert sitting in a tree,

- K-I-S-S...
- Minnie May, we're trying to work.

- I'm cooking.
- You're watching.

I told you that the only way
you get to be here with us is

if you're quiet.

Don't interrupt, or you'll have to
go sit with Great Aunt Josephine.

- No!!
- [laughter]

Excuse me, ma'am.

I'm being quiet.

Then you're the only one. Cackling hens.

- [girls giggling]
- Lord help me.

Take the boy the godforsaken pie

before I suffer a mental collapse.

[sighing] Sorry, Aunt Josephine.

You girls have been prattling
on for hours about nothing.

A parlour should be a quiet haven.

Instead, it's unbearable.

"It is weak and silly
to say you cannot bear

what it is your fate
to be required to bear."

I beg your pardon?

Jane Eyre. Don't you just love it?

Ah. I've yet to reach that bit.

Chapter six, I believe.

Oh, and the ending
makes me weep every time.

When Rochester...

For heaven's sake, didn't we just
establish that I've only begun it?

Sorry.

Oh, I love crying over
a good book, don't you?

Thus far, I find the prose...

- invigorating.
- [laughter]

More so if I could hear myself think.

We'll take the pie
straight over to Gilbert

as soon as we're done, Aunt Josephine.

Small mercies.

I'll report back on the ending.

- [laughter]
- Is she always so surly?

She's always scary. The surly part
just worsened now that she's sad.

[giggling]

It must be awful beyond measure

to lose someone that you love deeply.

In a split second, a heartbeat...

they're gone forever...

...and there is nothing
that you can do to change it

or bring them back.

Anne?

You're crying on the potatoes.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry.

[breathing shakily]

There's nothing wrong with saying
I'm sorry for your loss, Ruby.

And I'm going to say it because I am.

You'll just make it
worse if you say that!

His father just d*ed!

That's what people say when someone dies.

I don't want you to upset him.

He's already upset because
his father just d*ed!

Anne, please tell Ruby
that it's alright to say...

I'm thinking perhaps
I should get on home.

- What?
- Why?

I'm sure Marilla must
be needing my help...

with something.

Don't be silly. We're almost there.

Hold my hand.

I'm so nervous!

We're sorry to intrude,

but we wanted you to have that.

- We're sorry for your loss.
- It's a shepherd's pie.

We made it together especially for you.

Thank you.

We hope you like shepherd's pie.

Everyone likes shepherd's pie.

We hope it's a comfort to you, Gilbert.

Anne made the topping.

She's a good cook.

But I would make a terrible wife!

Well, um... thank you for stopping by.

[birdsong]

[chickens clucking]

Marilla, did you ever want to marry?

I...

There was a time when
I thought I would, but...

it wasn't possible.

Now come set the table, please.

That sounds rather tragical.

Why wasn't it possible?

Were you a woman scorned?

I was not.

I was needed at home.

Forever?

Well...

that's just how things worked out.

My mother never recovered
from my older brother's death.

She... [sighing]

I was needed here.

Now let me get the breakfast on.

I'll just add this on.

Now, you'll settle up today, Matthew.

- Hello, Gilbert.
- Oh, good day, Mr. Cuthbert.

So, uh...

bit of a cold snap, eh?

True enough.

Uh, the other day at the, uh...

I-I noticed you had to leave
a couple fields go fallow.

- I haven't decided yet.
- I'm sorry?

I'll let you know if I'm going to sell.

Oh.

No, no, no.

I just, um...

I only wanted you to know
that me and my hand Jerry,

we'd be real happy to help out.

We'll come on over in
the spring if you like.

Get you back up and running.

That's very kind.

Truth is, uh...

...I never really wanted to be a farmer.

Well, I'd best get to it.

As I was saying, I wonder
if you could settle up today.

Shame about that vessel.

Word on the street is,
you had crops aboard.

Vessel?

You didn't hear? Ship went
down on the way to the mainland.

Out of... Charlottetown?

Mm-hmm. The vendor didn't have insurance,

so there's no recouping the loss.

It's a cryin' shame, is what it is.

Now, that'll be $., Matthew.

What was the name of the ship?

The Dal Marie.

Hey, Gilbert!

How's it going, Blythe?

Fine.

You gotta come back to school, bud.

That ugly orphan's out of control.

What do you care?

We need a guy to show
her she's not so smart.

She's smart.

Deal with it.

Why you gotta be like
that, bud? [chuckling]

Why don't you bust out a book
and take care of it yourself?

Yeah, right. Good one, bud.

- I'll give you a tip, okay?
- Yeah?

I'm not your bud.

Yeah, right. [chuckling]

And if you ever hassle Anne again,

you'll regret it.

- Yeah, right.
- Yeah, right.

What's your problem?

Ask me that again.

No, seriously. Go ahead.

- Why you gotta be like that?
- Ask me!

Come on, bud. I don't get you.

Seriously, what's your problem?

[grunting]

[grunting]

- [crying out]
- [grunting]

- [grunting]
- [panting]

[wind whistling]

Gilbert.

I'm sorry to intrude.

Oh, no, not at all, Miss Cuthbert.

Please... take your time.

I wonder how he feels
about being so stationary.

John was a traveler at heart.

I believe the m*llitary moved him
around a lot in his early years.

He had the life he wanted, then.

Full of adventure.

I'd heard he'd settled in Alberta?

Um...

we were a... large family for a while.

I'm the last. The only.

I'm sorry.

No, it's okay.

We moved back here
right after I was born.

[chuckling] The prodigal sons.

That's what he used to call us.

He took me back there recently. Alberta.

He wanted to see it again.

It's beautiful.

In school,

back when we were acquainted,

John talked of big cities,

of other parts of the world.

It seemed...

impossible.

Sounds good to me.

You resemble him in many ways.

There was nothing he could
say to talk me into leaving.

I wish...

He... he asked you to go with him?

I'll always be grateful to him
for thinking I'd be brave enough.

Obligation...

...can be a prison.

I've always wondered...

I'll take my leave.

Please reach out to us if
you need anything at all.

Thank you... Miss Cuthbert.

[soft music]

_

_

[sighing] That is not what I meant.

[pounding]

Hello, Mary Joe. May I come in?

- Are you wanting Diana? She's gone out.
- No!

I'm sorry to bother you, Miss Barry,

but I have a pressing need to ask you

something and you're
my designated mentor.

Oh. I'm sorry.

Oh, it's quite all right, child.

- I should go.
- No.

No.

Oh.

[sighing]

Emotion is rarely convenient

and often intolerable,

but I find, at the moment,

that I don't mind it.

I'm sorry.

Grief is confusing.

Grief is the price you
pay for love, you see.

So... it's all right.

I miss my dear Gertrude very much.

And I loved her with all my heart.

She was your kindred spirit.

Yes.

I admire you, Miss Josephine.

You're my role model.

Oh, dear. [laughing and sniffling]

I aspire to utilize my intellect fully

and never succumb to
frivolities such as romance.

Then you wouldn't be much like me at all.

But you and I are not the marrying kind.

Ah, but I was, in my way.

And we had a full and
wonderful life together.

I have no regrets.

That's all you really
have to decide, Anne,

to live a life with no regrets.

[soft music]

[soft music]

[music swelling]

[soft music]

[music fading]

You took out a loan against Green Gables?

The dramatic season
finale of "Anne".

Do you at least know if
they're going to keep you?

What happened at the bank?

Sometimes you just have to
let people love you, Marilla.

It's the end of everything.