02x06 - Help Me

[bunniefuu]

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[Alma shivering]

[Alma] Try not to try.

Be like the sky.

Damn it.

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Hi.

Help me, please.

[panting]

[festive music playing]

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[Becca] Good luck.

[Alma] Becca. Becca.

Sister.

Please.

Come on.

- Breakfast.
- I'm not hungry.

Hey.

No! No, no, no, no, no, no, no.

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Becca...

I'm stuck here.

I need you. I'm sorry.

[footfalls]

Becca?

[elevator bell dings]
[doors open]

[girl] Ich darf
az dee zolst mich gefinen.

[piano playing]

Geraldine?

You again.

Stop following me.

What?

Alma.

I'm your granddaughter.

I don't care who you are.

I won't let you take me down.

Hey, listen,
I-I'm not who you think I am.

Get away from me.

What's going on?

Nothing. Everything's fine.

Isn't it?

Yeah.

Everything good.

If I get extended
because of you...

No, don't worry.
I'm here to help.

Well, at least I think I am.

I don't know
exactly why I'm here now.

My sister opened up this time
for me to come to you.

But I was actually trying to get
to a different time later.

- Right.
- Well, later for you.

Like, years later
when you say to my mom

not to adopt her son.

You don't know why you say that.

Would say that.

- Will say that?
- Listen.

I have three young boys
who need me.

I cannot get stuck here.

- Do you understand?
- Oh, my God.

We're supposed
to do this together.

- Do what together?
- Go to your future.

And stop your future self
from telling

my mom not to adopt Alejandro.

No, I-I-I can't do
anything like that.

Oh, sure you can. I mean...

I know your abilities weren't
properly developed.

- I don't have abilities.
- It's okay.

I got abilities,
my sister has abilities.

- My dad had abil...
- No.

I stopped all of that.

What?

What did you stop?

Did she send you here?

- Did she get to you somehow?
- Who?

What are you talking about?

What did you stop?
Did something happen

- to your abilities?
- Stop pestering me.

[exhales]

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[man] Okay.

Let's see what you made.
Geraldine?

I made this circle.

And it's all the parts of me.

You keep making those.
I saw them in my dad's office.

No, I've never made
anything like this before.

Maybe not yet, but-but you will.
You-you do.

What about the other piece?

Oh.

Uh...

That... is...

for my children.

Who I miss.

[man] I see.

What else could it be?

Maybe it's something you're
trying to forget or hiding.

Someone else's turn.

Maybe that's why you told my mom
not to adopt her son.

I don't know
what she's talking about.

And she won't stop harassing me.

No, I'm not harassing you.

- I'm trying to help.
- Leave me alone.

Come on, man.

[Alma groaning]

Guy. Guy. Come on.

[shivering]

Damn it.

[humming]

Mama.

Ah, Jacob.

My boys.

I made you something.

Oh, my goodness.

It's beautiful.

It's a bracelet.
It has special powers

to make you feel happy
so you don't have

to ever come back here.

I love it.

I always knew you'd save me.

Okay.

Who wants to go outside and look

- for lizards?
- [cheering]

Let's do it.

Come on, come on.

[playing "Rainbow Song"]

[humming]

Why are you playing that?

Are you asking
because you heard it in a dream?

How do you know that?

It's also an ancient Nahua song.

A shaman once sang it to me
on a pyramid in Mexico.

What does it mean?

Maybe something.

Maybe nothing.

I don't know.

If you're trying to get to me,
it's not going to work.

I'm playing it for my sister.

We made up lyrics with our dad
when we were kids.

I'm hoping she'll hear me

across time and space...

and get me
the f*ck out of this place.

I'm not crazy.

I don't belong here.

Neither do I.

I'm just trying
to help my family.

Even though it seems
like they don't really want it.

[playing piano]

Will you teach me your song?

That you made up
with your sister?

Um, sure.

It goes like this.

♪ Just what is ♪

♪ A rainbow? ♪

[Geraldine] ♪ Just what is ♪

♪ A rainbow? ♪

♪ It is light refracted ♪

♪ Through a raindrop ♪

♪ It is light refracted ♪

♪ Through a raindrop ♪

[rumbling]
[whooshing]

Becca.

- [chuckles]
- Alma?

Oh, my God. We did it.

We're doing it.
Becca, this is Geraldine.

- This is our grandmother.
- Geraldine?

- Look what we can do together.
- No. This isn't happening.

[stammering] I didn't...

- I'm not...
- No, wait.

f*ck.

[off-key notes play]
[Alma grunts]

Okay, first of all,

the time you sent me to
was the wrong year.

- And I forgive you.
- Thanks.

But I still found Geraldine.

Listen, in her past,
there is something

that made her tell Mom
not to adopt Alejandro.

Maybe if we go
back to that day...

Come on, why can't
we just go find Mom and Dad

and work things out between us,
in this time?

Right here. Right now.

[Camila] I made a mistake.

I'm sorry.

I lied about Alejandro
because I thought it was

the best thing for our family.

I was wrong. I don't know
what you want me to say.

You can say more than that.
Why didn't you trust me?

There were times
I tried to tell you.

But it would mean
reliving all my pain.

- And you didn't seem interested.
- You're right.

I knew something was wrong,
but I didn't want to upend

everything, so I ignored it.
I shouldn't have.

Can we stop talking about this?

My chest feels
like a broken window.

I don't want you to be in pain,
but I don't think

not talking about it
is the answer.

You have no idea what it's like

to live with something
heavy like this.

[Farnaz] No!

I think I can...
imagine what that's like.

Look, I just want
to fix everything,

so we can move forward.

Some things are
too broken to fix.

That can't be true.

Jacob...

if we're honest...

this marriage was over
a long time ago.

And let's be honest, huh?

I'm going to stay
with my mother.

I need to clear my mind.

[phone ringing]

[Alma] Who's that?

Reed.

Is that what you call
dealing with things

"right here, right now"?

I just don't know
what to say to him.

Why don't you just
change reality,

and you never have
to know Reed?

- Stop it.
- Becca.

- I...
- No. Let's just go.

Where have you two been?

Where's Mom?

She went to stay
with her mother.

I think our marriage
might be over.

I'm booking flights home.

Jesus Christ, Alma.
You're ruining our family.

- There's still a way to fix all this.
- When's the next flight?

- The soonest is, uh...
- Listen, Dad.

I was just
with your mom in the past.

And I saw you as a little boy.

You gave her this bracelet.

You said it was to protect her.

That was a long time ago.

[Alma] I know you want
to help your mom.

And she's definitely
haunted by something.

Something involving
her abilities.

Something that she wanted
to forget.

Do you have any idea
what that was?

She would never
tell me about it.

Well, if we figure it out,

we can know why she said
what she said to Mom.

And then if we can fix that,
then we can...

Alma, this is like an insane
rabbit hole that never ends.

You're making everything worse.

- Leave it alone.
- Do you know exactly when

Geraldine told Mom
not to adopt Alejandro?

I know she was pregnant with me,

but do you remember
a particular day?

Maybe we can go there and find
out what Geraldine said.

Maybe she told Mom
what happened to her.

We're not doing this, Alma.

Okay, so we're not
gonna do anything?

We're just gonna do nothing?

When we know what's possible?

You're speaking from a place
of what's possible, Dad.

You wouldn't even be here
if it weren't

- for what's possible.
- Alma, enough.

No. I want to know.

What is possible?
What did you change?

What is this other life

- you won't tell me about?
- It doesn't matter.

Yes, it does.

She needs to know.

She needs to believe
in the potential of this.

- Tell her.
- Tell me, Dad.

Please.

It'll change the way you see me.

No, it won't.
It won't, I promise.

Remember...

the car.

When I was in the car

driving towards the edge
of that cliff?

It was your fears.

Something about your fears?

No.

No, it was real.

That was another life,
the one that Alma and I changed.

I had lost my mind

researching these abilities.

And I was in that car...
[clears throat]

...with my assistant Farnaz.

I took my life and hers.

I can't believe that.

Well, it's true.

We were just kids
when it happened.

We had to grow up without Dad.

But I can't imagine

my life without you in it.

And I love this life, too.

And I want to keep it.

[sobs]

We have to do this.

Yeah, we do.

You know, it doesn't always
work out the way you want.

- What do we have to lose?
- Our minds.

Our relationships.
This good life.

You could help your mom.

You could heal your marriage.

Alejandro could be our brother
from the beginning.

[Alma] Come on. We'll be fine.

The three of us together?

We're unstoppable.

Okay, we can try.

[sighs]

There was a time

that I remembered recently.

It was the last time
that your mom visited my mom.

[smacks lips]

And when I picked her up,
something was off.

She was rattled.

And that was the last time

she visited my mom on her own.

Geraldine.

[gasps] You're here.

[chuckles]

Good news, Jacob.

The doctor says I should be able
to go home soon.

Sure, Mom. Listen,
I just stopped in real quick.

I have to get into work.

- Just wanted to say hi.
- I'm glad you did.

And I'm especially glad
you brought Camila.

- Look at that belly.
- Oh, oh.

You won't believe
how much she's kicking today.

This one is going
to be a handful.

- [Geraldine chuckles]
- [Camila] I brought lunch.

[Geraldine] Oh, wonderful.

All right, well,
I'd better get back to work.

Love you, Mom. Love you, hon.

Why didn't you stay?

She sees us.

Hey, Mom.

Is everything okay?

Yes.

- Fine.
- Okay.

I didn't realize
they were so close.

They were... for a while.

They hit it off
the first time they met.

My mom saw herself in Camila.

A young immigrant
making a new life.

Your mom was estranged
from her family.

And my mom had no family.

So they took care of each other.

So your dad just left her there?

He couldn't handle her breaks.

And my brothers couldn't handle
the shame of having

a mentally ill mother,
so they ignored her.

[sobbing]

Even I got busy
building my career,

researching ways to help her.

Camila was the only one
who spent time

with Mom regularly.

They became
like mother and daughter.

And Camila really needed
a mother who approved of her.

Sure, after her own mother
rejected her.

Is something on your mind?

[chuckles softly]

I'm afraid to ask, but...

...do you think
Jacob would be okay

with adopting a child?

This is the moment.

[Geraldine] You're
having a child.

[chuckles] I know.

But... another one.

What do you mean?

I had a son.

Years ago.

And I-I couldn't tell my mother.

I couldn't tell anyone.

Where is he?

In an orphanage in México.

There's a chance
a good family could adopt him.

But I would like to.

I... I don't know.

- I have a photo I can show you.
- Oh. Oh.

Like you said, a, uh...

a good family could adopt him.

And you're about
to start your own family.

A new life.

We both know how hard that is.

I think it's better

if you leave him.

I just thought,
since I'm starting a family,

he could join it.

This baby is a blessing.

She will brighten your future.

But you have
to let your past go.

That was a different you.

Forget her,

forget everything she did,

and allow yourself
to start this new life.

I speak from experience, Camila.

It's best to forget it.

Move on.

Oh. Wow.

She's dancing on my bladder.

Excuse me.

[sighs]

Hey, Mom, can I sit with you?

I know you're not really here.

Yeah.

That's right.

I'm sorry I got it wrong.

What did you get wrong?

I should have
just been here with you.

Instead of trying to solve you

like a problem.

It's okay, Jacob.

You're a good boy.

You did fine.

Mom, could you do me a favor?

Would you tell Camila
that it's okay

for her to adopt her son?

No.

I can't do that.

I'm helping her.

It's for you, too.

But it doesn't help her.

Or me.

It's not really good for anyone.

Especially the kid.

It's better to leave it.

[sighs]

What happened to you, Mom?

What are you running from?

I don't know
what you're talking about.

[Alma] Grandma Geraldine?

You again.

What's this smaller piece?

This thing you don't want
to look at?

It's nothing.

It's just something

I make when I'm not thinking.

What just happened?

We're inside the collage.

I was accessing her memory.

Well, I think this might be
deeper than memory.

- Oh, my God.
- What is it?

Oh, my God.

[Jacob] What is it?

It's Alma's door.

It, it must be
a memory of Geraldine's.

The memory
she doesn't want to access.

The memory she wants to forget.

This is where we've been heading
all along.

[child sobbing]

That's not Alejandro.

The child I've been hearing.

That must be Geraldine
when she was little.

- Geraldine?
- Hold on.

Geraldine wasn't her name
when she was little.

Ruchel.

We're here to help.

Can you open this door?

[lock clicks]

[door creaks open]

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