04x17 - The Graduate

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Previously on felicity...

I know you feel guilty about
ripping off some guy's thesis.

How will you feel when you confess
and you're without a college diploma?

Excuse me? I'm looking for my
boyfriend. He was in a car accident.

Says here he's in surgery.

Dear felicity.

Seeing you face your problems made
me think I could face my problems, too.

Just tell ben I'll call
as soon as I'm settled.

Lauren.

♪ Just when you thought
you'd found a reason

- You okay?
- Yeah. I am.

♪ It's gonna be a
long, hard season

♪ And there's things
you can't control...

This wasn't the way it
was supposed to end.

But you know that. At
least I know you used to.

Wait a second.

Stop. You're not telling
me anything. What happened?

It was just... God,
it was just surreal.

Professor carnes just
called me into her office

And I thought she was
gonna give me a whole talk.

- And she just said,
"happy graduation."
- So you passed?

She failed me on the
paper. But I passed the class.

- Can you believe that?
- No, I can't. I'm so excited.

Oh, god.

- So, we're graduating.
- Yeah.

- Both of us.
- Yeah.

- How did that happen so fast?
- I don't know.

It's weird.

And amazing.

It's like, all of a
sudden the net's gone.

The safety net.

You know, like this place.

College.

It sort of kept us together.

And we're not gonna
have that anymore.

Yeah, I've been thinking
about something.

What?

I don't know.

- What?
- I don't know. It's graduation, I guess.

Stop it. What were
you gonna say?

Have you ever thought
about marrying me?

I can't stop thinking about it.

I've been thinking about
it ever since the hospital.

- Are you... Are you serious?
- Yeah, I'm serious.

- Married?
- Yeah.

Married. Like husband
and wife. Yeah.

I didn't really ask, I
guess. I should ask you.

Felicity...

- Will you marry me?
- Oh, my god.

I don't... I don't
know what to say.

I'm...

Okay.

But that's more of a
yes than a no, isn't it?

It's more of a yes.

It's more of a yes.

♪ Can you become

♪ Can you become

♪ A new version of you

♪ New wallpaper

♪ New shoe leather

♪ A new way home

♪ I don't remember

♪ New version of you

♪ I need a new version of me

♪ New version of you

♪ I need a new version of me ♪

Hello?

Yeah, hi, this is
him. What time is it?

She is?

She is right now?

Okay, gimme me a number where I
can reach you. Hang on a second, okay?

What's going on?

Okay. Yeah. Go ahead.

Yeah.

Uh-huh.

Okay, I will be there as
fast as I can. All right, bye.

- Who was that?
- Lauren's sister.

Lauren's in philadelphia.

I guess she just
went into labor.

Are you gonna go?

I probably should, right?

- You kind of have to,
don't you think?
- Yeah, yeah.

Do you want me to go?

I want you to go to everything,
but I think I can do this on my own.

You know, I probably should.

Just take the train.

Okay?

- Are you gonna be back
for graduation?
- Of course, yeah.

Hey, what, uh, what happened
before? I mean, are we...

- We're engaged.
- We're engaged.

Bye.

It's not even a kitchen.
Forget the kitchen.

Maybe it takes place
somewhere weird.

Like a weird
kitchen. Like maybe...

Hey, guys.

- We got a great pitch for you.
- That'll have to wait.

Okay. Uh...

Wow, that's sort of a weird
shift of energy in the room there.

- We lost cgg group.
- What?

I got the call yesterday.
They're cutting back.

Oh, my god.

It's the economy.
It's k*lling everybody.

Well, okay, maybe there's a way
we can put a positive spin on it.

- We got great ideas.
- Absolutely.

Cgg aren't the only ones
that are cutting back.

Guys, your work here,
after a few bumps in the road,

Has been consistent
and outstanding.

Oh, no.

Without cgg, I can't
afford you guys.

No. Put us on another account.
We can do anything. This guy...

I'm really sorry, guys.

Thanks.

We're gonna be fine. We've
got contacts, experience.

- Right, right.
- I mean, people love us.

Yeah, the team's staying
together, right? So...

The team brought us this
far. We don't abandon the team.

- Right.
- Yeah.

You know what we need? Put
your box down. Put it down.

- Okay.
- All right.

Give me one of these.

- Sean...
- Come on. It's a team thing.

- Do this for the team. Come on.
- Put that guy away.

No, this guy is not going anywhere
until you give me a knock of defiance.

That's it. Right, stay positive?

So, where's ben?

Um, he had... He, um...

He's just busy.

Now might be a good time to
tell us what your plans are.

- Edward, this isn't
the best time.
- It's fine.

Let's talk about my plan.
I actually have a plan.

So, well, um...

I was thinking I would
come home for the summer.

- Uh-huh.
- And, um... Prepare...

- For what?
- For...

Moving back to
new york with ben.

Isn't four years of following
ben covington around enough?

- That isn't fair. I have a job.
- You're doing
the architecture job?

- Maybe, yeah.
- Maybe?

You know when might be a good time
to figure out what you're gonna do?

- Today.
- This will all work itself out.

Barbara, don't be so quick
to put a band-aid on this.

We're not here to
att*ck our daughter.

- There's no other
way to do this.
- Dad.

God. That was just mean.

I know this is not
what you want for me.

You think I'm throwing
my life away to be with ben.

- Not throwing it away.
- Throwing it away, yeah.

We're engaged. So ben
is going to be in my life.

And he's going to
be in my life for ever.

So, you should get used to that.

- Hey.
- Hey.

Are you okay?

I mean, I know ben
went to philadelphia.

Oh, yeah, that's...

Um...

Ben and i...

We're engaged.

Wow.

Yeah.

That's great.

Thanks.

My parents, however, do
not share that point of view.

Well, you know, historically,

Your parents have
been, um, overbearing,

Controlling, crazy people.

True.

And you're in love with ben.

I mean, it would make it easier, you
know, if they were more supportive, but,

This is what you wanna do.

In my eyes, it all makes sense.

You're the greatest.

Congratulations.

Thank you.

Hey.

Hey. Oh, my god.

- How did it go?
- Uh...

It was good. It's
hard to explain.

- Congratulations.
- Thanks.

No, I mean on the engagement.

Oh, right, uh, yeah. Thanks.

Does the baby have a name?

Yes. It's, um... It's andrew.

- Your dad's name.
- Yeah.

You wanna talk about it?

I don't... I don't know.

You just seem a little...

I mean, it must've
been overwhelming.

It was.

I mean, this baby...

Andrew...

He's such a little guy. I mean,
you should see his hands.

His hands are,
like, this big. Tiny.

But they look like my hands.

When are you
gonna see him again?

Lauren's gonna call me
when she gets to arizona.

- So, she's still going?
- Yeah.

It was hard to leave.

Philadelphia. It was
really hard to leave.

I didn't think it would be.

You want to move to arizona.

I was just, I was on the
train and I was thinking...

You could do anything there.

I don't know. It's
just seeing that baby,

And knowing that he's
gonna be 3,000 miles away...

I understand.

It would still be you
and me, starting out.

In arizona.

- Hey.
- Hey.

Oh, you figured out how
to open up those boxes.

I did.

Uh... Happy graduation.

- Noel...
- I know. Just open it. Okay?

Okay, since you're
gonna return it...

No, no, no, no. I love this.

- Yeah?
- Thank you so much.

Of course.

No, that reaction had
nothing to do with this book.

Uh... Ben, um,

Asked me to move
to arizona with him.

- Oh.
- Yeah.

That's where andrew is going
to be and he wants to be near him.

But, I mean, of course
he does, he should.

You don't want to go?

You know when your parents say
something, they give you their opinion.

Somehow it just resonates longer
and louder than anything else?

Don't do this to yourself.

My dad said, "isn't four years of
following ben covington around enough?"

When you said you
were getting married?

No, that's what he said that made
me tell him we were getting married.

Okay, this is gonna sound corny.

If it's meant to be, it'll be.

God, don't say that.
That means it'll never be.

No, it doesn't.
It doesn't. Okay?

And now that I've said that, let me
just be purely selfish for a second.

And state, as your friend, because we
have something of a history together...

Uh-huh.

- Don't move to arizona.
- Noel.

I'm not being 100% serious,
but all your friends are here.

You know, how can you
not be in new york next year?

Yeah. I don't know.

Right, when you say downsizing,
just how far down are you sizing?

No, no, no, I understand. Yeah.

Thank you. Mm-hmm. Bye-bye.

Well, riley's not hiring.
You know what we should do?

- We should call...
- I got a job.

You did? Where?

Uh, no, not for us. Just
for me. With mr. Rotundi.

Meghan's dad? Yeah, um...

You said you'd k*ll yourself
if you worked for him.

Who over-exaggerates
more than me, huh?

It's a great job. I'm gonna be
accompanying this elevator inspector.

He's the man. I'll be
his second in command.

And he gets around.
And there's some great...

- Sean...
- You know what?

This is a great
opportunity for you.

What about that
job you heard about?

- Wait a minute.
- You'd be stupid
not to take it.

Think about the cash flow.
That's what this is about.

Yeah, I mean, I guess... I guess
you're right. It's just sad.

We, uh, we were a
team. We banged fists.

We're still a team. We
are. We're still a team.

We're just doing whatever it
takes to stay alive right now.

That's what it is.

And when things get better
we'll be back together.

- A comeback.
- As long as
it's just temporary.

Yeah, yeah.

Think positive.

Stay positive, yeah.

All right.

- Good.
- Good. Yeah.

Hold the door. Thanks.

Sorry about that.

Felicity's padre, right?

- Yes.
- Yeah.

Congrats. You must be
psyched about ben's new kid.

I should be giving you
these flowers, huh?

I mean, you're the granddad,
right? Well, the half-granddad?

No, you'd be the whole
one. Yeah, good, good stuff.

Well, congrats.

Or what would that be?

Is that like your... Maybe it would
be like your bastard grandchild?

Or, no, that... Whatever.

Maybe you're just glad the thing's
gonna be taking place in arizona.

The baby'll be with its mom
and far away from felicity.

So, that's probably best
for everyone. Probably. Yeah.

Uh, I forgot something
downstairs. You go on in without me.

And, uh, this conversation
never happened.

- Who are you?
- Exactly.

Hey, dr. Porter. How you doin'?

These are for you.

You want to tell
me what's going on?

Uh, no, not really, sir.

Felicity says you're engaged and I
hear from a stranger in the elevator

You just had a child with
another woman. Is that true?

Yeah, it is.

I'm sure you have an
explanation for everything.

But I only care about
felicity. Does she know?

- Yeah, she's been
very understanding.
- Of course.

She doesn't know
what she's doing.

You might be underestimating
your daughter a little bit.

Don't try and make this a "parents
don't understand" kind of thing.

Marriage at your
age is ridiculous.

Mrs. Porter was our age.

And we're divorced now. And
you have a child. In arizona.

- And you live in new york?
- Yes.

- That won't work.
- It might.

- Tell me how it'll work.
- We're thinking
about moving there.

- To arizona?
- Yeah.

Let me explain
something to you, ben.

You're a father now. So we
have something in common.

As a father, you become
very protective of your child.

So much so, that if someone tries
anything to hurt them, anything,

You want to hurt them back.

I understand.

I hope so.

Hey.

What's wrong?

Arizona?

What?

It's clear you don't care what I
think. But this latest choice, this move,

Is a colossal mistake.

What did you say? Did
you tell him about arizona?

I just kept talking. I didn't know
what else to say. I'm really sorry.

Okay, ben, listen.
I can't just move.

I mean, I have a life here. I
have friends. I have a job.

What are you talking
about? You've decided?

I have been following you for
four years. It's your turn now.

You're gonna stay in new york.

- Do you not think that's fair?
- No.

What I'm dealing with
is more important.

Well, I don't think I
can go to arizona.

I think I have to.

- Can I come in?
- Sure.

I thought mom said we were
gonna meet at the ceremony.

I know.

Sorry about yesterday.

Thank you.

I thought it was gonna be black.

It seems like you just
graduated high school.

Really?

God, that seems like
so long ago to me.

You remember when I used to bring
you to my office when you were a kid?

Yeah, of course I do.

Angelika would let
me wear her white coat.

You'd follow me into
every patient's room.

And you'd show me how to
listen to people's hearts.

I keep doing this, don't i?

Trying to protect you.

And you don't have to
anymore. I'm gonna be okay.

I know.

I'm not so good
at letting go, am i?

No.

I love you, dad.

I love you, too.

♪ If I could fly

♪ I would go and tell
the world about you

♪ If I could fly

♪ I would go and tell the world

♪ If I had wings

♪ I would soar where
no one ever cries

♪ If I had wings

♪ I would go if I could fly

♪ And I would run
and I would sail

♪ And I would
cross a stormy ocean

♪ If I could be with you

♪ And I would run
and I would crawl

♪ And I would walk a desert

♪ If I could be with you

♪ And I would breathe you in

♪ I'd be whole again

♪ I would scream
out, "I love you"

♪ If I could fly

♪ I would go and tell
the world about you

♪ If I could fly

♪ I would go and tell the world

♪ And I would sing
and I would pray

♪ And I would write it in an
anthem if I could be with you

♪ And I would cry

♪ And I would beg

♪ And I would plead another day

♪ If I could be with you

♪ And I would live again...

- Hey.
- Hey.

- Congratulations.
- You, too.

- Can I talk to you
for a second?
- Yeah.

- Could you give us a minute?
- Yeah, sorry.

Thanks. No, that's all right.

Do you wanna sit?

God, this is really hard.

All day, all I've
been thinking is...

"Go with ben. Follow ben."

That's all I want
to do is follow you.

Sometimes I think I'd
follow you anywhere.

But I can't.

Yeah, I know. I know that.

I'm sorry for asking.

You should go to arizona.
That's what you should do.

Yeah, I think it is.

This is so sad.

I guess my dad was right.
Maybe this is a college thing.

We don't know that.

If it's meant to be, it'll be.

- You know?
- Yeah.

There you are. I got great news.

- What is it?
- I got a job. For both of us.

You're kidding. Where?

- It's a totally new firm.
- Okay.

- Who are the clients?
- They don't have any.

- And they're hiring?
- Yeah.

- What about the climate?
- They're gonna try
and weather it.

- Who are these guys?
- Blumberg-crane and associates.

- What?
- I rented us an office.

It's overpriced and
we can't afford it.

- Are you saying we're back?
- Now is the time.

- Stay positive.
- Yeah, man. Stay positive.

Can I get another one
of these? Another, um...

So how does it feel to
be a college graduate?

Great. I can't even
get a drink, but...

- It's totally anti-climactic,
isn't it?
- A little.

So, have you decided
about arizona?

Um, yeah, well,
I'm not gonna go.

Ben okay with that?

Uh, well, ben and i...

We're not gonna
be together. So...

Oh.

I decided something else. I'm not
gonna come back here next year.

What? No, no, you have to.

I don't know where I'm gonna
go instead but I just can't be here.

- Hey.
- Hey, congratulations.

Thanks.

I'm gonna take off.

- I will see you before I go.
- Yeah, yeah.

- Take it easy.
- Yeah, you, too.

- This is your stuff.
- Thanks.

That's it.

Faster than I thought.

You live in a place so long you'd
think it'd take longer to pack it up.

Yeah.

♪ We get so close it's
almost like touching the sun

♪ Girl, we got the
jump on everyone

♪ When I think I got you covered

♪ And the world is on my side

♪ That's when you begin to slide

♪ And I'd love to know
just where you hide...

♪ Holding hands, skipping stones

♪ Don't throw your
flowers in the dirt

♪ It's always the
best of friends

♪ That get the biggest hurt...

Hey.

Hey.

I gotta go.

You gotta go.

- Do you want me
to help with your bags?
- No.

No, stay in bed.

Just...

I know.

I love you.

I love you, too.

You guys, I haven't even
packed yet, so I should...

I got it.

I'm not gonna miss you at all.

- So.
- So.

I don't want you to go.

Oh...

- At least say goodbye to me.
- No.

I will call you
the minute I land.

This sucks.

Oh, no.

We're finished.

This is for you.

"Employee of the month."

Every month. I'm never
taking it down. Never.

So you better
visit it all the time.

Um, do you need any
help with your stuff?

I'm basically done.

- I can't believe this is it.
- I know.

This is like a t*rture
machine through the heart.

- How about a group hug?
- Yes, please.

- We're gonna miss you so much.
- Me, too.

If you don't come visit this
plaque I'm taking it down.

Well, not really,
but you know...

- Good-bye.
- Bye.

Goodbye.

- Hello?
- Noel?

Hey. I thought I'd missed you.

I wouldn't have left
without saying goodbye.

God, I'm not ready
to do this yet.

Don't. Let me take
you to the airport.

You okay?

Yeah. I am.

- Candy?
- No, thanks.

Do you ever wonder what
would've happened if you and i...

Never.

Now boarding flight 1242
for san francisco at gate 10.

- That's... That's me.
- Yeah. All right.

You okay?

- You have my numbers?
- Your cell phone, your e-mail.

I got everything. We're
gonna talk all the time.

- I don't know if I can do this.
- Yeah, you can.

- Promise we'll talk?
- Promise.

- Okay.
- Okay? Okay.

- Bye, felicity.
- Bye, noel.

- Miss, can I get you anything?
- No. No, thanks.

Dear ben. This wasn't the
way it was supposed to end.

But you know that. At
least, I know you used to.

It doesn't seem that long ago

I thought we'd be spending
the rest of our lives together.

But now it's six months
later and you're in arizona.

And I'm here in palo alto.

And somehow it's okay. I
mean, it's actually good.

Just so you know,
everyone's doing great.

Sean and noel have,
like, a real business.

They're happy.

And meghan, despite her issues,

Still wants to
be a psychiatrist.

She'll probably
be amazing at it.

I'll probably become
her first client.

It's ironic how sometimes the thing
you're fighting is actually yourself.

After everything,
despite everything,

I realized I wanted
to become a doctor.

Of course, my parents
couldn't be happier.

But now I know, I'm not doing
it for them, I'm doing it for me.

Because maybe I can
make a difference.

So, who knows, ben, maybe
we'll both be doctors.

Anyway, I know you're busy, but,
um, gimme a call or write me a letter,

Or send me a tape. I'd
love to hear your voice.

Love, always, felicity.

Hey.

What are you... What
are you doing here?

I was just at the registrar's
office. I was signing up for classes.

I, uh... I talked to lauren.

She's gonna move back here.

You were right.

It was my turn.

♪ I'm waiting here on my own

♪ I'm wondering

♪ If you're waiting for me too

♪ All the time I seem to wonder

♪ How all this is gonna end

♪ Will you stay with me forever

♪ And tell me that
you'll never go away ♪