04x15 - Two Steps Back

[bunniefuu]

Well, she said that the dean
of admissions called her

"perfect columbia material."
which makes me proud,

But do-- do you want
olivia a plane ride away?

No, no. Olivia's not going anywhere.

Mnh-mnh.

What do you hear from addie?

Uh, archer left.

She's gonna stay a few more days

And help the captain get ready
to move out. She holdin' up?

Sounds like it, yeah.

How about you?

Well, things have been a little crazy

Between addison and me lately, so...

Some time apart might be good.

But it's good. I'm good.

You're lonely. I have olivia.

yeah, I bet when you're
feeling sorry for yourself,

You keep her up later
than you're supposed to.

You do. You know you do.

I exercise the grandfather's prerogative,

Uh, from time to time.

Well, since one baby needs her sleep

And the other one needs some company...

why don't we pick a night,
and I'll come back,

And we'll put her down on time,
and then I'll cook dinner?

What if we keep her up a little later

And order in?

Deal.

okay.

You got it?

Uh-huh.

Mm.

Hey, I can finish up if you
want to get ready for work.

We're fine.

You can't still be mad.
Oh, that's where you're wrong.

Come on, pete.

you know I had to rewrite the manuscript.

The publisher asked me to go deeper,
and to do that,

I had to share all my stories and--
and the people in them.

Going deeper into your life is fine.

But completely exposing mine is not.
But you're a part of my life.

My first marriage isn't.

And neither is the fact
my mother's in prison.

But you-- you overcame all that.
Which makes it my story, not yours.

♪

Okay. Well, um...

I gave the revision to
everybody else in the practice

When they got back from bizzy's funeral,

And no one else has had a problem with it.
I don't care what anyone else thinks.

I hate your book, violet.

♪ hey, hey ♪

♪ hey, now, now, now, now ♪

♪ ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

We were cooking dinner together with jack,

That's my fiancé,

And it just-- it happened.

She got quiet and she seemed confused,

And then her voice changed.

And I asked, "andi,
are you okay?" and then...

Gina responded.

Gina? That's one of her others.

That's what my sister calls
her alternate personalities.

Was that the first time that's happened?

Andi was diagnosed with
multiple personality disorder

When she was 7.

We were, uh, driving to
dinner with my parents.

It was raining.

A car barreled through the intersection.

Our parents d*ed. We survived.

And it took a lot of therapy,

But I'm-- I'm with her everyday.

I haven't seen another personality in...

Almost ten years.

I had already tucked tanya in

And was getting ready for bed myself

When I heard these noises
coming from her room.

Sometimes she likes to stay up,

Playing with her stuffed animals,
but when I went in... It was just ricky.

Who's ricky? My friend.
We go to school together.

Yeah. they were having sex, dr. Bennett.

He comes over sometimes.

apparently, it's been going on for a while.

Don't tell your mom. Oh.

she'd been complaining of stomach pains.

I didn't know why, and now...

I think she needs a pregnancy test.

Oh, well, stomach pains could mean anything.

It could be the flu,
it could be appendicitis.

Please.

Okay. All right.

Tanya, why don't you lie back for me, okay?

I'm gonna check your belly.

You're not gonna check my heart?

I know I normally do check your heart,

But today, I'm gonna look inside your belly

With a special machine.

This may be a little chilly. You ready? Mm.

Yuck. I know.

You know how closely I watch her.

Erin, you are a great mother,
and of a teenager,

Which means hormones and...

What's in my belly?

Oh, god.

Lara's been taking care of
me since our parents d*ed.

She had just turned 18, and suddenly,

She was looking after a
7 year old full-time.

Which is how she still treats me.

She's a big sister.

Yeah, but it's almost 20 years later.

I have a job. I pay my bills.

She can't worry about me forever.

Losing your parents at such an early age

Is a significant trauma.

And I think she's worried
about how you're coping.

Meaning, she's worried about my others.

She mentioned them.

But she also said

That they had gone away for a long time.

Yeah.

It's okay, andi.

It's not your fault.

Lara said that you were having dinner

When one of your others appeared.

Do you remember anything about that?

no. I black out.

I- I don't know what they say or do.

It's awful.

So you can't remember anything?

Not really.

Nothing at all?

Andi?

She answered the question, jackass.

My name is gina.

And you need to back the hell off!

I think shrinks are good.

I think talking is good,

And charlotte and I as a couple, we're...

good.

But here you are, so I have to
assume there are some issues.

We don't have issues.

Well, no big ones.

Uh...

She won't wear her engagement ring.

It was broken, and I had
it fixed and polished.

How did it break?

I was r*ped.

The attacker broke my left hand.

They had to cut it off at the hospital.

Well, that must have been
very difficult for you.

The ring's a reminder.

Why didn't you tell me?

I'll buy you another one.
I don't want another one.

You can't wear the one you have,
but you don't want another one?

What does that even mean?

Well, it seems we do have
something to talk about.

I mean, one minute, she's talking calmly,

And then bam. She's yelling
obscenities at me. Andi?

Gina. Her alter.

What was she mad at?

Me. She thought I was attacking
lara and her fiancé.

I mean, gina's very protective.

And how did you know it wasn't andi?

The transformation was remarkable--

The-- the inflection,
the-- the change in her posture.

And you're sure she wasn't faking it?
Every woman does.

No, that's... We're talking

About a patient with multiple
personality disorder, not, uh...

Orgasms. Gotcha.

Is that even real-- the whole sybil thing?
Gina's very convincing,
and she was not happy

That I was poking around in andi's head.
Well, can't blame her for that.

Oh, says the girl who delights
in drilling holes in skulls.

Well, at least what I
do is rooted in science.

There is pet-scan data
evidencing neurological changes

In the brains of patients with m.P.D.

One. One study, and it is
right up there with that wacko

Who said that vaccinating
your kid causes autism.

I am not saying I don't believe
in dissociated behavior.

I- I-I've had patients with
borderline personality disorders

Who-- who act out,
who-- who try to manipulate.

But it's usually for, uh, for personal gain.

You... okay, no.

I'm sorry. I know this is
totally uncool of me to ask,

But, um...

Have either of you read my manuscript?

The one where you basically call me a whore?

Yep, I read it.

That's not what I-I-- no.

Y- you have a certain sexual confidence,

Which-- which is great.

And I was trying to
contrast that with the fact

That I had some, uh, issues
with intimacy after the att*ck.

Ah. Well, y-you understood that, didn't you?

I haven't gotten to that part.

I'm still enjoying the section
where you're discussing

Cheating on pete with me and
then chucking me overboard.

Not that I don't enjoy being
described as "rebound sex."

Sheldon, I never said-- I believe
"sexual leftovers" was your phrase.

I mean, honestly, violet,
if you're gonna go down that road,

The least you could have done

Is discuss my more positive attributes.

So if you have any more books in you,
I would appreciate it

If you'd refrain

From any and all discussion
of our sexual history

As well as any failure

I might have had in
pursuing you romantically.

What he's really saying-- "filter."

Tanya can't safely carry a baby

Let alone deliver one, can she?

Well, because of the cardiac issues

That are secondary to down's,

It would be a high-risk pregnancy.

But with proper monitoring,
yes, she could do it.

Yeah.

I mean, tanya has down's,

Ricky has severe learning disabilities.

I just-- I don't know how
they could raise a child.

Well, they'd need your help.

And if the baby has special needs, too?

Well, I-it may not.
Yes, there's a 50% chance

That the baby could be born
with down's and could be

At greater risk for other
kinds of complications, but--

Please, dr. Bennett.

I appreciate how supportive
you're trying to be.

I- I love tanya

More than anything.

But after I had her,
I couldn't have another child.

I wanted to keep her at home,
raise her myself,

And it was so much work.

Tanya couldn't do it, and I'm...

I don't know if I can do it again.

So you're prepared...

To abort the baby?

I'm not sure I have another option.

Well, how would tanya feel about that?

Erin has power of attorney for tanya,

So it would be her decision.

Okay, well, at this point,
it's-- it's a procedure.

It's not a pill.
So what would you tell tanya?

Well, I wouldn't want to lie to her.

But...

Why don't you take some time
to really think this over?

And, uh, in the interim, we can do c.V.S.

Genetic screening?

If you are serious about this abortion,

Tanya is already 11 weeks.

A couple more days,
it becomes a bigger procedure.

But if we do the c.V.S.,
you'll be able to know

Whether or not the baby has down's

Or any other abnormalities
or if the baby is fine.

Well, then...

let's-- let's do the test.

Great.

You know what I don't understand?

Why can't people just be happy for me?

I wrote a book. It's a big deal.

When sam published a book,
we threw him a damn party.

Why aren't you looking up at me?

Oh, not you, too.

"man-child"?

Okay. Uh, yes.

I did call you that once.

Maybe twice.

But-- but that isn't all
that I said about you.

I- I-I repeatedly refer
to you as my best friend.

Man... Child.

Oh, come on, coop.
I need someone on my side.

Man-child!

You guilted erin into taking that test.

No, I am just trying to make sure

That she understands the situation

Before she makes a decision
that she and tanya might regret.

You just didn't want her
to have an abortion.

No. No, I don't want her
to have an abortion.

But you're not the one
that's gonna have to raise

That child-- her grandchild.

I know what it's like to
help raise a grandchild.

What are you hoping for here, nai--

A healthy baby and for erin to
decide that tanya can keep it?

Yes. And if that baby has down's, then what?

I know you're not gonna advise
her to have an abortion.

The catholic in you
couldn't tolerate the sin

While the doctor would worry
it feels like eugenics.

Look, if erin has the responsibility

Of raising two children
with down's, how good

Do you think that's gonna
be for tanya and the baby?

What's gonna happen when erin's gone?

The longer this goes on,
the more aware tanya's gonna be,

And the harder it's gonna be for erin

To explain to her daughter
that she doesn't want

To have another baby that's like her.
Maybe the baby won't have down's.

Maybe the baby won't have anything.

That's the hope you're selling her--
of having the baby

She didn't get the first time around.
I never said that.

You didn't have to.

She does seem to be dissociating.

I've known andi for five years,
dr. Wallace--

Almost as long as I've known lara.

Not once have I seen any of
these so-called personalities.

I know this disorder can
be difficult to understand.

Disorder? Is that what we call
it when my future sister-in-law

Decides to go crazy cakes
a week before we move?

Calling her crazy is not
helping the situation.

I'm sorry. You're right.

So... where are you moving?

Arizona. Jack got promoted.

I'll be managing a new plant in phoenix.

We're supposed to go down this weekend

And look for houses. No,
you're gonna have to go without me.

I'm gonna have to stay here.

We talked about this at dinner,
before your sister started-- stop it.

Look...

I'm not going without you.

I can't leave andi. I'm sorry.

Thank you.

Hey.

You can stop being all moody moose now.

I'm wearing it.

I don't want you to wear it.

Yes, you do.

No, I...

You were wearing it when he r*ped you.

I was also wearing my skin that day.

There's nothing I can do about it.

If you don't want to wear the ring,

You shouldn't wear it.

Why can't I get you another one?

It's a waste of money. It's just a ring.

It's an engagement ring.
It says you're mine.

It makes it official.

We're official because we're
committed to each other.

There are steps in people's
lives together, charlotte--

Sex, moving in, ring, marriage.

We're on the ring.

Which I'm wearing.

"and then the woman I thought
was my friend and confidant

Told a judge I shouldn't be
given custody of my own child."

paging addison montgomery.

"it was hardly an impartial opinion

"since at the time,

She was basically living
with my son's father."

Oh, man. I better hide addison's
copy of this manuscript

Before she gets back.
Anything can be made to sound bad

When it's taken out of context.

Like the part where violet
says she reconsidered

All of the parenting advice you gave her

Once your 16-year-old daughter got knocked
up? She did not drag maya into this.

Mm-hmm. You know what
part I thought was a hoot?

The section where she hinted
that I don't know my fiancé

As well as she does. That's no hint.

She dragged maya into this.

don't look at me.
I didn't write the damn book.

You need to sit her down, pete.
And say what?

That she needs to take us out
of the book. tell her own story.

Don't drag the rest of us through
the mud. What makes you think
she's gonna listen to me?

She has to, 'cause you're the only one

Who's still talking to her.

Okay, we're almost there.

This feels funny. Hang in there, tanya.

And...

We... Are done.

You did a great job. right.

Are you okay?

I'm okay, mom. Did you get rid
of the dot we saw in my belly?

Uh, that's not what this was, honey.

I didn't like it.

I- I-is tanya here? I- I'm ricky.

Ricky! ricky, could you
give us just a minute?

Uh, tanya's almost done.

No, come in.

A- a-are you okay? I'm okay.

Uh, wh-wh-wh-what-- what were you doing?

We were doing a test.

It was a test on a baby.

You and tanya made a baby,

And it's in her belly.

We-- we-- we made a baby!

We made a baby?!

I remember art therapy.

My last shrink was a big fan.

It's just another way
of expressing yourself.

I met your sister's fiancé yesterday.

Jack? He's a good guy.

So you two get along?

Why wouldn't we?

He told me about his new job in arizona.

Are you planning on moving there with them?

No. It's just gonna be the two of them.

Are you okay with that?

Sure.

Does this look like jack?

yeah.

You'll be alone for the first time

Since your parents d*ed.

How do you feel about that?

I think I can manage without...

♪ ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ ooh ♪

♪ ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ ooh ♪

♪ ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

Andi?

they don't care about andi.

♪

Is this gina?

My name is maggie.

♪ I saw you in a dream ♪

How can lara just walk out on her like that?

They're sisters.

Don't you think lara has the right

To live her own life?

♪...Beneath the stars ♪

you sound like jack.

He's not nice.

I hate him. He's taking her away.

♪ sway, sway ♪

Well, why would he want to do that, andi?

I told you.

I'm maggie.

♪ yeah, we'd sway ♪

♪ sway ♪

Do I get to draw, too?

♪ the feelin', think 'bout how all... ♪

If you'd like.

♪ change ♪

♪ ooh ♪

♪ ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ ooh ♪

♪ ooh ♪

♪ and you ♪

♪ ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ ooh ♪

I've always treated tanya with respect

And couldn't not tell her.

Well, no one's blaming you.

I know that-- that raising
a child is a challenge,

But they have so much love to give.

And if their abilities were
anywhere near their enthusiasm,

It would be different.

But as wonderful as they are,

Would-- would you trust
your grandchild with them?

I'd have to take care
of their baby and them.

Well, uh, if you'd like for
me to arrange a termination--

Uh... And tell them what,

That I'm scared their baby
will be just like them,

Or that even if it isn't,

Everything they've spent
their whole life hearing--

That they're special,

They can do anything
they put their minds to,

It isn't true? I'm-- I'm gonna
learn how to change a diaper.

His mom's gonna show him.
I- I can do hard things.

I got here all by myself on a bus.

My-- my mom wrote it down,
and-- and I did it.

That's great, ricky.

But you know if you're gonna be a father,

You need to do more than just change
diapers, right? We can
write everything down.

Guys, I want to explain something to you.

The baby that you made,

You do not get to have it for sure.

Wh-wh-why-- why-- why--
why don't you want us to have a baby?

She didn't say she didn't want
you to have a baby.

You think we're dumb, but-- but we can
have a baby. It's not that simple.

You're not being nice.
None of you are being nice.

You'll let us have the baby, right, mom?

♪ how it used to be, sway ♪

♪ sway ♪

♪ ain't no rhyme or
reason going to tell us ♪

♪ why the good goes away ♪

I see you're wearing the ring.

Apparently, it's a step--
post-sex, pre-wedding.

what? You wanted to come here.

Might as well be truthful with the lady.

Are steps important to you?

♪ and you ♪

We keep going back.

What?

Well, like, one step forward,
two steps back.

Every time we get to a good place,

Something tears us apart.

I'm sorry I was r*ped.
Charlotte, that's not what I meant.

So you think the ring can
cement your relationship?

Well, when you put it that way,
it sounds, uh...

Ridiculous?

Cooper,

We've been through...

We hated each other.

Then you pushed,

The sex was life-altering,

And it started to work.

♪...Time ♪

But I slept with archer,

I didn't tell you I was married before,

I was r*ped.

♪

And after all that, here we are.

Cooper, we are forward.

There is no more back,

No roadblocks, no hiccups.

I have no secrets. You have no secrets.

♪ sway ♪

♪ sway ♪

Cooper?

♪ it's dizzyin' the feelin' ♪

What don't I know?

♪ all good things change ♪

this is the place to talk about it.

♪ ooh ♪

♪ ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

♪ ooh ♪

I...

I kissed amelia.

♪ ooh ♪

♪ ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

When?

After you were r*ped.

♪

You will be happy to know you're not alone.

Everybody hates my book.

Look, we're all proud of you for writing it,

We just don't want to be in it.
Everything I wrote is true.

And if you took all of us out,
everything that's left

Would still be true,

And we could go back to being proud of you.

But it's a better book now, pete.
You have to see that.

And-- and this is what the
publisher was looking for.

It'll sell, and-- and I want that.

N-- not because I am selfish,

But because I think this
book will really help people.

It'll help people.

What if it alienates the
people you love in the process?

I don't want to have to
choose between the two.

Well, that's where we are.

You know how everybody feels, violet.

What you do with that is your call.

I screwed up.

I am so...

So, so, sorry.

Unbelievably sorry.

How can I make this better?

You won't even look at me?

You know, in the past, I have forgiven you

Because I could see beyond

What you've done in a moment of crazy

To who you really were, who you are.

Don't I get the same courtesy?

Oh, my god. Charlotte, look at me.

Come-- glare, scowl, yell.

Punch me.

Come on. You have to fight back.

Mm.

Cooper, you told me something.

Now I get to process.

Let me.

Hey.

Either andi's meryl streep
or this thing is real.

So it's true multiple personality disorder?

I started art therapy with
her during our last session.

When-- when she shifted
from andi to maggie--

Maggie? I thought it was gina.
No, gina's the older, angry one.

Maggie is the emotional, little one.

It was her this time.
Anyway, when they switched,

Maggie continued to draw, right?

But this time with her left hand. Look.

This is andi on the right,
and maggie on the left.

Her different personalities

Draw with different hands
with the same ease.

You know, only 3% of the population

Is ambidextrous.
So you've made your diagnosis.

Well, yes, and...

No.

I- I'm not-- something's not right.

I know this disorder
presents strangely, but--

Well, does it really matter? I mean,
whatever the reason,

This woman is profoundly disturbed.

And whatever you want to call it,

You have to keep treating her.
Well, if andi is faking it to stop lara

- From moving on with her life, I
- I need to know that. Well, just... Be careful.

If-- if you push too hard,
she could collapse emotionally,

And then... Then everybody loses.

I didn't mean to make this harder on erin.

I know. But I did.

Yeah. Yeah.

God, I just, you know,
I just keep thinking about olivia,

And if we had encouraged maya to terminate.

Well, you did.

I know I did.

But she didn't.

And I'm so grateful.

Of course, but... It's different with erin.

You know, she's alone raising tanya,

And with another baby, down's or no down's,

It's-- it's a lot. Oh, sam.

What are we gonna do if
maya gets in to columbia?

Ugh. I've been thinking about that, too.

Oh, it's... It's not easy
to be a student and a mom.

Well, we'll figure it out.

We always do.

Yeah, well...

It's-- it's not the same...

You and me.

What do you mean?

Well, I mean, it's just--

It's not just you and me anymore, you know?

Wait. Ad-addison isn't-- she--

Addison is my best friend.

And, uh...

Well, the fact that you chose her...

I- I could pretend that it doesn't hurt,

And I think I do a pretty good job--

Not all the time,
but given the circumstances.

It...

Still hurts, sam.

And as much as we have a history

And maya and, uh... I love you.

I just...

I don't trust you.

Well, not like I used to.

Uh, uh, but I can try.

And I-I will try. I mean, I am.

I'm trying. I'm trying. It's just...

It's-- it's just not the same.

Okay, look, uh, I know you've
all read the manuscript.

And, um, I know that in
this latest revision,

Some of you feel-- mischaracterized?

Betrayed? Blinded by near-murderous rage?

Um... No, I was gonna say

That some of you feel like
I took some cheap sh*ts.

Okay, so here's what we're gonna do--

Everybody in this room, right now,

Say the ugliest thing you've
ever thought about me.

The thing you never
thought you'd say? Say it.

Violet, do you really think that's a good
idea? Absolutely. Let
her rip. Whatever you--

You're condescending. Sorry.

I just really wanted to be first,

Because if you tell me to filter again,

I am gonna bludgeon you to
death with a reflex hammer.

Okay. Okay. Good. Looks like we've started.

You're cheap.

Never once have I seen
you reach for the check.

Well, I-I prefer "frugal," but--

You can't dance.

I know you think you can, but you can't.

Well, that's not terrible--

And you still play air guitar.
That is terrible.

Yes. Yep.

So anything? You?

Man-child.

okay.

I'm sorry.

Truly. I- I probably should've

Gotten your permission
before I started all this,

But I'm new at this, and, uh, and it's hard.

And I-I tried to, uh,
sketch a full picture of each of you.

And I tried to be harder
on myself than anyone else.

But if there is anybody in this room

Who is honestly saying that
they can't get past this,

If what I wrote is gonna
cost my relationship

With even one of you,

Then I'll tell the publisher I can't do it.

So you decide.

Andi, you can see

That your sister and jack
are worried about you.

But you don't think they
need to be. I'm fine.

See? We don't need to stay. She's not fine.

You told me your sister still baby's you.
Andi, you said that?

I told him it was out of love.
She plays both sides of the fence.

She tells everybody she's fine,
and then when she's with us,

She freaks out. Why would I do that?

To keep your sister here. Is that true?

She has always resented the time
lara spends with me. Jack, please.

No, no. Just let him talk. Please.

We are building a life together.

That could include your sister,

But she doesn't want to share
you with me. She never has.

I've put up with it because I love you,
but it's enough. Jack, leave her alone!

Open your eyes! Don't yell at my sister!

Gina... Please calm down.

Okay, enough with the craziness--

I hate you. I've always hated you.
That's not true, andi.

My name is gina. No, it's not.

It was maggie, not gina,
who told me she hated jack.

You got them reversed.

Andi...

After everything we've been through,

Why would you lie?

Because...

I love jack.

And you're going to take him away from me.

Hey. I got the results of
tanya george's c.V.S. Test,

But I can't get erin on the phone. Oh,
well, I'm-- I'm sure she'll call you back.

Yeah, I know, but I-I feel
like I want to tell her now.

Will you drive with me to her house? Okay.

Okay.

♪ following steps like water in lines ♪

Did you kiss him back?

♪ I can walk through the streets ♪

Did you kiss cooper back?

♪ I imagine the life ♪

♪ that I'm starting to lead ♪

It doesn't matter.

I beg to differ.

♪...To believe ♪

I'm still mad at you. I want to
make that clear right up front,

But I need to talk, so time-out,
okay? You can't talk to charlotte?

Charlotte's not talking to me...

Because I... Kissed amelia.

You what?

And I told her about it. You what?

I was a blow-up doll, charlotte.
Don't try to downplay what happened.

I- I don't have to. Nothing happened.

He was a scared, lost man

Who felt powerless and alone.

Look, I could've been anyone.

But it didn't matter

Because I wasn't you.

That's a load of crap.

I'm a lot of things.

Dishonest is not one of them.

Cooper was hurting

Because he tried to take in all of your pain

And because he was consumed by his own.

Charlotte, he is a good man...

Who almost made a mistake,

Which is where you are right now

If you turn a cry for help
into something that it wasn't.

We're in therapy.
What am I supposed to do, lie?

Well, no, not lie, but there are times

When full disclosure is
not the best idea. Really?

Really? Man-child.

♪

I don't like people.
It's rare that someone comes along

I can even tolerate.

But going to meetings with you...

That's...

It's big.

I trusted you.

You still can.

But if that is hard,

Trust this--

Cooper loves you.

♪ wanna feel, wanna learn ♪

Only you.

That is a gift.

♪ which way should I turn? ♪

I'm sorry. I did get your messages.

But we had a hectic morning, and--

Tanya's baby doesn't have down's

Or any other genetic abnormality.

We understand this might only be one factor

In the decisions that you have to make,

But we just thought you, uh, should know.

I took tanya for an abortion this morning.

I told her it was a
different kind of checkup,

And she was sedated anyway,
so-- how could you do that?

Naomi. What choice do I have?

They're not capable of
raising a baby, and I can't.

I can't do it again.

I don't know how I'll explain
what happened to her baby,

But it's done now.

mom?

I don't want to rest anymore.

Are you here to check my belly again?

♪ what came from the heart ♪

♪ can never be wrong ♪

well, she won't look at me.

She won't talk to me.

I mean, we were great, and now--

Cooper, you wanted to come
here so that you could

Tell charlotte about the kiss.
You were afraid

That if you told her outside
the safety of counseling,

That the damage would be irreparable.

Well, I should've just
told her in the office

Because now we're here, we're 42 steps back,

And, uh...

No.

We're not.

I forgive you, cooper.

I understand why you did it.

And I forgive you.

You are the first man...

The only man,

To know all of me

And to love me anyway.

I know the r*pe wasn't my fault.

But the lying...

And the cheating...

It came from fear.

Fear that I'd lose you.

Fear that...

I didn't deserve a man like you.

It's no excuse, but...

It's the truth.

You made one mistake

When you had nowhere else to go...

And everyone was so worried about me.

I forgive you.

I told you we were good.

From the time I can remember,
it was just me and lara.

It never felt like anyone else...

Really understood.

It was just the two of us against the world.

But then she found jack,

And he understood.

He loved her so completely.

I guess...

I wanted that, too. I wanted him.

And as-- as long as they were here...

I'm sorry I wasted your time.

I shouldn't have lied.

Well, people lie.

But the important thing is, you're here now.

And if you want, we can start over.

I'd like that.

yes.

I thought you and jack left.

What you did was so incredibly screwed up,

And I am so mad at you.

but you're my sister,

And I still love you.

So we're gonna have to figure this out,

Because I want you in my life.

Jack and I both do.

I want that, too.

Why don't you join us?

Hmm?

♪

♪

So?

We took a vote.

And?

Everyone thinks you should publish it.

♪ too much ♪

Really?

Really.

♪ patiently wait ♪

I'm gonna publish a book.

You're gonna publish a book.

♪ watching the time roll by ♪

You want to fool around

With a soon-to-be-famous
best-selling author?

♪ on a train that never leaves ♪

Very much.

♪ and you try to hop on in san francisco ♪

♪ when do we walk in memphis? ♪

♪ when do we ride the train ♪

♪ all the way across the state of texas? ♪

What was that for?

You're a good man,

And you love me.

I do.

And I'm in this...

Forever.

I mean, you're right.

It's not about a ring.
It's not about a wedding.

It's just about us.

Maybe you were a little right, too.

Spring barbecue?

What?

Next step-- our wedding.

I'd like a barbecue in the spring.

We'll make it kosher for your parents.

♪ an old train whistle ♪

♪ cries for me ♪

♪ you're too late, once again ♪

Uh, olivia's stirring.

If you want an illicit cuddle or two,

You'd probably just have
to walk by her room.

Oh, I sh-- we should--

We should just let her sleep.

That's true love,

Passing up baby therapy like that.

♪ all the way ♪

Was I so wrong about ricky and tanya?

I mean, maybe they could've
helped raise that baby.

Maybe, but...

Erin had to be involved, and...

Yeah.

She wasn't ready to make that commitment.

♪ passed down from the last guy ♪

Hey, I'm-- I'm trying to tell you

That it's-- it's not your fault.

Well, it's not helping.

♪

Why, because you don't trust me?

♪ dead-end jobs ♪

♪ so we seek another dream ♪

Could you...

♪ the only dream I see ♪

I need-- I need a hug.

♪ that never comes ♪

Well, come here.

♪ who you are ♪

♪ and you still try to hop on ♪

♪ in san francisco ♪

♪ when do we walk in memphis? ♪

♪ when do we ride the train ♪

Okay?

Okay.

♪ across the state of texas ♪

♪ hop on ♪

♪ in san francisco ♪

♪ when do we walk in memphis? ♪

♪ when do we ride the train ♪

♪ all the way ♪

♪ across the state of texas? ♪

♪ whoo! ♪