01x14 - That's a Secret

[bunniefuu]

There's no such thing
as a memory to be forgotten.

Not a single one.

Shigure.

I have a question about May nd.

Is it okay if I go out in the afternoon?

Yes, of course.

I'll be away that day too.

Are you going out with your friends?

It's the anniversary of my mother's death.

I'm visiting her grave.

I see.

It's already been a year, huh?

Yes, but I'm not planning
to do anything special.

Sorry I can't make it.

Please, don't worry!

Can I come with you?

But…

I want to visit your mom, Honda.

Thank you! You'll make her happy.

Kyo, would you have time?

If you do, you should go too.

Really?

The Prince is coming too? What about Kyo?

Oh, I'm not sure.

He didn't say.

But I think Kyoko
would love a kid like Kyo.

I can see her picking on him.

Big Orange, let me eat you!

LIKE THIS?

And once Kyo reaches his maximum anger…

She would squeeze him
until his back breaks.

That's so wrong in so many ways!

It's already been a year
since your mother passed away.

But I could see her suddenly appearing
out of nowhere even to this day.

Smiling and saying,
"Oops, sorry about that!"

Sorry, am I being a downer?

It only proves how much
Kyoko meant to everyone.

Just like the legendary Red Butterfly.

RED

Tohru!

-Hide me!
-Momiji?

We're playing Cops and Robbers,
and I'm a robber.

Momiji, found you!

You're working today, right?
See you later!

Wait, you robber!

Everyone, I found Momiji!

Momiji, watch where you're going!

So which one of his parents is German?

Speaking of, the Somas don't speak
too much about their parents.

I've never laughed like this
even in front of my parents.

Coming through!

-Wait, Momiji!
-Momiji!

Please watch where you're going!

Tohru has come so far.

I'm sure she was kicking herself
every time she got sad,

until she was able to
smile like that again.

If Tohru were to die today,

I don't know if I'd be able to
do the same.

I might even wish that we had never met.

I'm so proud of her.

Are you done after this?

Just one more trash can in the break room.

-I'll get it!
-Wait!

Don't worry, I'm having fun!

Here.

Thank you for helping me.

I said don't mention it!

-Is Yuki picking you up?
-Yes!

Kyo should pick you up for once.

He's so stubborn!

Oh, by the way…

What?

Which one of your parents is German?

My Mutti!

Um…

Mutti means "Mom."

-Your mom is German?
-Here's her picture.

Ta-da!

She's so beautiful!

Momiji takes after her.

Daddy and she…
Oh, Daddy is from the Somas.

I heard they met in college
and got married.

I can't believe Daddy was able to marry
someone so pretty.

And guess what? I have a little sister.

Her name is Momo,
and she looks just like Mom!

-I didn't know you had a sibling!
-Ja!

She's in second grade now.

She's not one of the Zodiac, though.

She acts like a little baby!

She follows Mom like a chick.

-She's not good at Japanese.
-He seems happy.

I feel like I have to help her.

I love her so much!

Usually, Mom and Momo
come to pick up Daddy.

I think it's just about time.

Are you going to go home with them?

That would be nice.

But Mom doesn't know about me.

Momiji?

Is that you, Momiji?

What are you doing here so late?

Speak of the devil! It's her!

I'm hanging out with my friend
who works here.

Oh, really?

But this isn't a place for fun.

I know. I'm sorry.

She must be Momo…

-Momiji looks more like their mom.
-Besides,

your mother will worry
if you stay out too late.

It's okay, I was leaving anyway.

Make sure to go straight home, okay?

Okay!

All right, let's go now.

Daddy is waiting.

Thanks for your work here.

Come on, Momo.

What ill luck!

Well, that sucks!

They saw me.

I better apologize to Daddy later.

Momiji…

Mom doesn't know about me.

She forgot about me.

Her memory's been erased.

She thinks I'm someone else's child
from the Soma family.

The cursed children are born
two months before the actual due date.

Meeting and marrying someone you love,

and giving birth to a child
of that someone.

But imagine if that child turned into
a beast in your arms.

To those mothers
it must be a devastating experience.

Some mothers with cursed children

will become overprotective,

or will simply not accept the fact.

My mom falls into the latter category.

She rejected me with everything she had.

She never even looked at me. 

She was anxious all the time.

She would scream nonsense.

Now that I think about it,
she was completely broken.

Just like Kana.

Momiji…

Mom is in trouble.

But she might get better
if she forgets about you.

I know this will be hard for you,

but I promise I'll make it up to you
by giving you all my love.

If you love Mom,

let's help her.

Are you sure?

Are you sure you want to forget about him?

Are you sure you won't regret this?

The biggest regret of my life…

is giving birth…

to that thing!

And that's how…

I was erased from Mom's memory.

She recovered quickly after that.

She was even able to laugh again
after two months.

Do you think I helped her, saved her?

He was looking after her all this time.

From afar…

so she wouldn't find him.

It's the reason why he was here
the first time I met him…

He was here to get a glimpse of his mom.

But you know what?

I want to live with all my memories.

No matter how sad the memory is.

Even if it only brings me pain.

Even if it's something I wish to forget.

If I don't run away from those memories…

Someday, I will…

I will be strong enough to accept it.

I believe the day will come.

I want to believe that it will.

I want to believe that
there's no such thing as…

a memory that deserves to be forgotten.

That's why…

I wish Mom hadn't chosen to forget.

I wish she had tried harder.

But that's just me being selfish.

Don't tell anyone, okay?

I believe in that too.

Whatever it is,
I want to accept and carry my memories.

Hey.

I'm going too.

To visit the grave.

To become a stronger me.

And someday, I'll be even stronger,

and the past will become
a precious memory.

I'm glad the weather cleared up today.

I was worried seeing
a streak of bad weather lately.

I think it's because my mother is happy.

She gets to see both of you.

Tohru!

Uo and Hana!

Yo! What a good day to visit the grave.

Yes!

What the hell are you wearing?!

What's the big deal?

-We're underdressed, aren't we?
-No!

Uotani, is that a biker g*ng jacket
you're wearing?

Oh, I'm glad you noticed.

This very jacket was
passed on to me by Kyoko.

An authentic Red Butterfly jacket!

Red Butterfly?

That was Mother's code name.

Code name?

We're all here, so let's get going.

How unseemly.

They stand out way too much.

Huh?

Why is it all clean?

Has someone else been here?

Must be Grandfather.

He knows what Mother liked to eat.

-That old man?
-Yes!

Which side is your grandpa from?

He's my father's father.

Kyoko was estranged from her parents.

What happened to your father?

He was taken by what they thought
was just a cold,

is what I was told.

I was still very young,

so I don't remember much.

That's why she was so worried.

Mother, we're here.

Hello.

There's not much left for us to do here,
since Grandpa tidied everything up.

Her father d*ed…

Then her mother.

So how is she…

How is she able to hide her sadness

and smile at all times, no matter what?

I remember the day of the accident.

A teacher came
to call her out of the classroom.

I saw them chat a little,

then she hurried away.

Following her were her two friends.

The class didn't understand what happened.

I just sat there…

Thinking, "Maybe there was an accident
in her family."

And that's as much as I cared.

She was just a part
of my vacant contemplation.

That was who Tohru Honda was to me.

But now…

she's such a close person to me,
who lives under the same roof.

Yuki!

Aren't these flowers great?

And we're here smiling together.

It's so strange.

Oh, that's weird.

I don't know how to arrange the flowers.

Let me do it. Prince, hold that side.

Sure.

Hanajima.

Can you…

Can you see… ghosts?

no reason.

-But you can read--
-Waves and ghosts are different.

Don't bundle them together.

Waves are more like human thoughts.

There are words without sounds
that ring directly from the mind--

I don't need you to explain.

What made you ask me anyway?

I was just curious.

No other reason.

Living humans are the most powerful.

Same for the waves.

Waves of the dead are very subtle.

The strong waves of living creatures…

They will drown out the sound of the dead.

Just like now…

Your waves are ringing extremely loudly.

Why are you feeling so sad and regretful?

Chaos…

Kyo. Hana.

What's going on here?

Nothing.

Yes.

Okay.

Both of you, please come this way.

Don't have picnics in front of the graves!

Kyoko would be happy to have a party here.

What if we get caught?!

Then we apologize.

But this is wrong…

Just sit down.
You're making me feel uncomfortable.

Okay, fine, jeez.

What would you like to eat?

-Anything's fine.
-Okay!

Were you two close to Honda's mother?

She was good to us.

I looked up to her even before we met,
because she was a legend.

A legend?

Yeah, the Red Butterfly legend.

Her motorcycle's tail lamps…

She was like a red butterfly
when she rode the bike.

You know what?

The three of them seem to be
getting along better lately.

The Prince acts less defensively now.

He would never admit it,
but I can tell he cares about Tohru.

I could see him falling in love with her.

Oh please.
I won't approve of that so easily.

You'd be the worst mother-in-law.

I was kind of joking…

So you're kind of serious.

Both Yuki and Kyo are still showing
confusion and chaos.

I can't identify what it is exactly,

but some very dark thoughts
are invading their minds.

Everyone possesses things like that
one way or another,

but theirs are especially bad.

As long as these thoughts infest them,
they won't be ready to fall in love.

And not to mention
they seem utterly unaware of that.

It's true for Tohru as well.

That said,

some people fall in love
without knowing that they are.

I just can't…

I can't stand the thought
of Tohru marrying away some day.

It makes me want to cry.

You're being melodramatic.

Oh…

Tea at the end of a long day is great.

I had a great time visiting the grave.

I was glad to introduce
Yuki and Kyo to Mother.

Mother, they're the ones
who have been looking after me.

I hope you'll meet Shigure too, someday.

Mother, I'm having a great time
living in this home with everyone.

So don't worry and keep watching over me.

HONDA FAMILY

Mother.

What the hell is she doing
falling asleep here?

Hey, wake up. You'll catch a cold.

She's like a child.

Did these get blown in the wind?

A hat?

I'm sorry.