01x22 - Because I Was Happy

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When I was little,
I didn't like being outside.

Tsk… She's so annoying.

He's got to be kidding me.

I'm so tired. I want to go home
and take a nap.

Why did I marry him?

I'm bored. When can we leave?

Damn this old pervert.

He's so dumb…

This is lame.

You don't get it.

She's so annoying.

Saki.

-Saki?
-Saki!

I'm sorry… I thought you'd be okay here.

Let's go home, yeah?

So much noise…

So noisy…

The voices…

They're so loud.

I know it's what she was born with,

but as her parent, I wish
there was something I could do to help.

The hospital is not an option.

They might hurt Saki even more.

But I'm worried about her.

Think of her future…

She's going to continue to suffer
because of her special ability.

It's not something
people would understand.

Caring family members.

Caring voices.

I didn't want to trouble them
just because of my ability.

So I tried my best to hide it.

-Hey, witch!
-It's the witch!

Hey witch, say something!

Guys, stop it!

But she's like a real witch!

All sad and quiet!

How does that make her a witch?

Eat it.

You're a witch, aren't you?

My sister told me that
witches gobble up newts.

I don't eat stuff like--

Shut up! Hold her down!

-Shove it in her mouth!
-Guys!

Gross! She ate it! She actually ate it!

This witch is scary!

She's a witch!

-She's so gross!
-Shut up…

She's so scary!

If I'm a witch…

What are you?

How do you get away with
treating others like this?

I hate you… I really hate you.

I wish you would die.

Die…

Die…

Die, die, die…

Die!

I heard he finally woke up this morning.

But then his mother collapsed
from exhaustion.

Do they know why the kid collapsed?

Not yet.

It's because I wanted him to die.

It's because I really wished him dead.

Saki, you can't!

When do I get turned over to the police?

When do I go to jail?

I have committed attempted m*rder.

But…

There's no proof that your ability was--

But there's no proof
to the contrary, either.

Saki…

And I…

I thought that I had really k*lled him.

So I might really k*ll someone next time.

I'm scared.

Since that day, I only wore black.

Don't come to school anymore!

You're creeping us all out!

The kids started hating me for real
and shunned me even more.

I thought I deserved all that
for what I did.

Ouch!

Hanajima, you did this, didn't you?!

No way! It's the curse of Hanajima!

It hurts!

He'll stay the night at hospital
to make sure everything's okay.

And how did this become Saki's doing?

They said it's because
Saki put a curse on him.

Unbelievable. That's absurd!

Megumi… Why are you
reading a book like that?

CURSES & HEXES

Granny said it might help me understand
your ability more.

Saki, why are you so quiet?

Why do you keep letting those kids
bully you?

Is it because you think you deserve it?

If the police won't punish me,

then there has to be another way for me
to pay for what I did.

For wishing someone dead
so strongly and deeply.

I deserve to be punished.

Your view on people is that
they're there to punish you,

and they're no more or less than that.

Is that what you'll believe in
for the rest of your life?

I'll pray for you.

I don't agree with you living
such a lonely life.

In today's overcrowded world

there has to be at least one person
who will value you for who you are.

There has to be someone.

So please…

Please come to her.

If you're in a faraway land,
fly here by airplane.

Please hurry.

As much as possible.

Come by Saki's side.

Please…

It felt like a far-fetched wish.

A wish that could never be granted.

You emanate toxic waves
when you're mad, right?

Come on, show us how you do it.

Hey, are you sure this is safe?

It'll be fine. Hold her down.

I heard it could actually k*ll us.

Stop being such a wuss.

I'm not afraid of death.

All right…

Here come a fiery one!

No!

Ooh, that looks painful!

Poor girl!

Don't think anything…

Just focus on the pain…
Blank everything else out.

-Absolutely not. No one is going to die!
-Come on, be angry!

-I don't want to k*ll anyone!
-It stinks!

No way!

Please…

I don't want to…

Hey, what are you guys doing?!

Oh sh*t!

Sir, Hanajima was playing with fire.

We tried to stop her, though!

Good…

No one's… hurt…

Let's move.

I understand that
you don't want to punish those girls.

But as your parents, we don't want you
to be in this environment…

any longer.

You should move without me.

I'm tired of being a problem to you.

Oh, Saki…

Saki…

Don't assume that you're a problem.

Parents are always
concerned about their children.

We love and care about you so much.

Saki.

We love you, Saki.

It's too soon…

Don't give up.

Ms. Hanajima.

Explain your fingernails!

This is your first day here.
Take that varnish off.

It's because the uniform isn't black.

What are you talking about?

Do you expect me to lose
the symbol of my sins?

What an unreasonable adult you are.

Miss! Her nails are black.

Apparently, it's the symbol of her sins!

Even in a new environment,
I still distanced myself from others.

I didn't want to act as if I was innocent.

I didn't want to forget what I did.

It's too soon to give up.

But…

What was it that
you didn't want me to give up on?

Father…

There you are!

You get extra from me today, Ms. Hanajima!

My name is Tohru Honda. Nice to meet you!

I think we have the best lunches here.
I hope you--

Honda!

We're all waiting here.
Can you guys talk later?

Oh! I'm so sorry!

Naturally unaware…

And why is she so formal?

I'm a little surprised

that someone was willing
to talk to me so casually.

Hey there, transfer student.

You're going to eat alone, aren't you?

I can't stand to watch that.
Take a seat here.

Another person so unfazed.

You know, your weird persona
really puts people off.

Tohru, over here!

Thank you for waiting!

Ms. Hanajima! Will you sit with us?

I was just hitting on her.

Oh, boy! How wonderful!

Is that how she talks to everyone?

We shall eat together at once!

Please take a seat, Ms. Hanajima!

Hanajima, huh?

If I were Kyoko…

You are Hana!

That's so true!
You would be Hana, Hana!

What strange people.

I'm sorry, but I don't intend to
eat with you two.

You shouldn't get involved with me either.

I'll be nothing but trouble for you.

I don't know if I'll be any good either…

And I'd probably be twice
as troublesome as you!

This isn't anything
to be sad about or amused by…

Are you listening?

You're right!
I'll do my best to be helpful!

I'm not asking you to make it a goal.

Just be quiet.

It's not worth worrying about.

You happened to transfer here today.

It's nice outside, and we have lunch.

And you're going to eat it
with these two weirdos.

Let's eat!

You are indeed weird.

We get that a lot.

We'll see you again tomorrow, right?

Why wouldn't we? She's a student here now.

Then see you tomorrow!

See ya.

"See you tomorrow…"

No one has said that to me before.

Will they greet me tomorrow?

Good morning, Hana!

We have P.E. today.
I hope the pool is open.

Um, sorry…

What's going on?
Did you confess your love to her, Tohru?

Oh no. No, it wasn't like that…

I was just happy…

I told myself to stay away so many times.

But I found myself
being around them anyway.

I was so happy.

Wow, the sunset is so red.

Yes, it is!

A gentle light…

You're right.

Yes!

Nice weather tomorrow.

-You're right.
-Yes!

Then I was reminded of what I am

even now, two seasons after.

So…

I heard about the boy who was
in your class in elementary school.

That you had almost k*lled him.

Is it true?

What was it…

With your toxic waves or something.

Toxic what?

We don't know the details either.

We heard that you were a real rebel,
like, smoked cigarettes and stuff.

That you b*rned a girl's arm
when she got in the way.

Almost k*lled him….

And that's why you had to transfer school.

Almost k*lled him…

-Ouch!
-What's wrong?

-Ow…
-Oh my God, are you okay?

I just felt a sharp pain in my head.

Hana…jima?

Was that…

Hana!

Wait, Hana!

I'm scared…

I'm scared.

Did I… did I use my ability again?

Hana!

No!

You have to stay away from me.

I'm sorry that I didn't tell you about it.

So…

So you can't…

You can't be around me anymore.

It's true… about my ability….

I almost k*lled him.

So…

You can't…

The sin that can't be redeemed.

The spot that won't be out.

I don't want to hurt anyone any more.

I must suffer for my sins.

I must be punished.

We're so close to each other.

Look how close we are to each other now.

I don't want you to go away.

I might not know anything about you.

But please, don't distance yourself
from me.

Hana!

I love you!

I care about you a lot, Hana!

But I…

I could hurt you too.

I shouldn't be forgiven.

You make your own decision.

Just don't make assumptions.

Is isolating yourself truly what you want?

That's all I care to know.

Don't assume that you are the problem.

Back then…

The sky was so vast and cold and bright
that it made me feel… so alone.

How strange, though…

It looks so warm and gentle now.

It wasn't just one shadow
stretching out in front of me anymore.

It was as simple as that.

It really is… as simple as that.

I…

I want to stay.

I want to…

I want to stay with you.

I'll pray for you.

There has to be at least one person
who will value you for who you are.

There has to be someone.

I'll pray for you.

So please…

Don't give up.

Oh… huh? What?

I didn't hear that.

I have control over what I hear.

Really, Saki?!

That's great!

How did you do that?

It was like… boom and bam.

Did you understand that?

She learned the trick to do it.

It took a while for me
to be able to control my ability.

Did the peace of mind in my new life
make this breakthrough possible?

I never abused my ability again. That goes
with the whole concept of control.

-I feel something coming!
-But I could nip them in the bud.

That was nipping us in the butt?!

Are you going to wear all black
for much longer?

Well…

I've gotten used to black by now.

Any other color doesn't feel "me."

By the way, you don't have to wear black
on my account.

I also feel more comfortable in black.

Besides…

Imagine the confusion people would feel
if they saw us in bright clothes.

That's true…

-She's pretty, in a dark sort of way!
-I'm a little curious.

-Why so dark?
-About the confusion.

I'm so grateful.

For our parents' sake… and for yours.

Hana! Megumi!

We should get going!

Or we'll leave you behind!

There are times when my heart aches.

I had family and friends
who cared about me.

But it didn't feel it was enough.

We, the human race,
will always want someone, no matter what.

No matter how badly we're treated,
or how disappointed we become…

No matter how loving your family is,

we want to be accepted by others too.

That's my two cents.

You know the thing about parents.

They want their children to be happy.

And that's really all
that matters to them.

So…

No matter where your lives' paths take you
in the future.

You'll always have someone who cares
about you, and you'll never be alone.

And this'll always be true

no matter what

in your life.