01x04 - Episode 4

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So, Sir Jimmy Savile,

will you come through the keyhole?

Hey, marvellous! Welcome.

"I am an animal

and I will eat you if I have to."

My goodness.

Yes, you must give

You must give them all fair warning.

No, victims. Victims, yes.

Hope springs eternal

in the breast of the single man.

When you're full up with fear

..you flight, you run,

or you freeze.

Mine was always freeze.

So everything, for me, in time

..when I was being hurt,

was real slow.

So I don't know

I always used to try so hard

to gauge it,

that I went into that room

just so I could take seconds

to go into the room,

but I always felt

like I messed that up.

I think my feeling

of being uncomfortable

..was me me repeating myself

and saying, "I did pay for my

ticket, I did pay for my ticket."

In my own way, I was trying to say,

"Please let me go,

please let me go."

Two men had taken me in there,

and two men were standing

outside the door,

and I knew that.

Playing to a script, and he knew

exactly what he was doing,

knew how to groom people,

how to persuade me

to go in the house.

I never thought

about it being dangerous.

It didn't occur to me

cos I never thought of him

as a as a predator.

I tried to push him away a lot,

he was a very, very strong man.

His upper body strength

was incredible,

and I don't know why he stopped,

I don't know what made him stop,

actually.

You're just chucked in,

you're trapped, you can't move,

you can't do nothing, you're

..you're just the prey,

ready to be captured.

Hello.

That doesn't make sense. I-I cycle,

I run, I've run marathons.

You're also a heavy smoker.

Your diet consists of

takeaways and fry-ups.

So sort me out.

It's not like I haven't done enough

for the hospital.

We know how much you've done for us.

The only remedy

is a quadruple bypass.

Don't like the sound of that.

For a man of your age,

it is a very serious operation.

But I'll get better?

We'd do our best for you.

Hello, ladies!

What's going on?

What's it to you, grandad?

Hey, any more talk like that

and I'll tell the head. Old cow!

Yeah? Good friend of mine.

I come to the fete here every year.

They're shutting this place down.

They're sending us all

back into the community.

Yeah? Nobody told me.

And who are you, anyway?

Who am I?

I'm Sir Jimmy Savile.

You're him! Yeah.

They said you used to come here a

lot.

Many jolly japes were had

by me and the naughty girls.

What do you mean japes?

We'd go for a drive.

Stop at a shop, ciggies, some pop,

and there'd be fun, fun, fun.

So you could get us ciggies?

I'd get you a bottle of that,

if you behave yourself.

Come on, all aboard!

"Clunk, click"!

Why are we stopping?

What about the ciggies and booze?

You'll get 'em!

Scenic spot. No rush.

Budge up.

So, let's get acquainted?

What's your? What are your names?

Amira. She's Emily.

Yeah? Right.

Are you sad about

the home closing down?

I'd sooner be there

than be fostered again.

My last foster parents said

they didn't know what to do with me.

I'd know what to do with you.

Come nearer, Amira?

What are you doing?

You know what to do.

What are you doing? Come on, you

don't get summat for nothing.

Get off! Come on! Get off! Just make

it harder. Stop! Let go of her!

Don't make a fuss!

It's nowt she hasn't done before!

f*ck off! Leave her alone!

We should tell someone. Like who?

The old cow?

What, you think she'd believe us?

OK, then, the police -

it's not like you're even 16.

What, you think

they'd be any different, yeah?

Come on, let's go back.

How's life in the cardboard box?

Well, I said I was living

out of boxes, not in one, Jimmy.

I think we should carry on -

finish our work.

Well, you told me to f*ck off.

I was hasty.

There is a story

that needs to be told.

What's brought this about?

I'll explain when I see you.

Well, I'm not schlepping

all the way up there

just to hear more evasions

and riddles.

You and I are on a journey, Daniel,

and the destination's the truth.

God willing, we'll get there.

Right, I've got to go.

So, I'll call you.

I can put them on myself, Victor.

All right.

You've seen the priest?

No.

Surely you want

the Sacrament of the Sick?

It's a massive operation, you know?

Get everything off your chest.

I would.

Most Catholics would.

I'm not most Catholics.

Veteran broadcaster Sir Jimmy Savile

is in intensive care

in a Leeds hospital this morning

after having major heart surgery.

The operation had been planned

for some time,

and the former DJ, television

personality and charity worker

is expected to be moved

to a general ward later today.

A keep-fit fanatic,

71-year-old Sir Jimmy Savile

has been a regular marathon runner

for several years.

It's official -

Sir Jimmy Savile is indestructible!

Nice to see you, Jimmy!

Heart bypass! He told us he was

going on a cruise, he lied to us.

And he calls me his best friend.

You know what I think

about that man

and I doubt we even know

half the story.

What do you mean?

You know what I mean.

No. Rumours aren't fact, Beryl.

You know, all I ever saw were

a bit of messing about with nurses

and teasing and flirting

and kissing their hands.

And up their arms and on the lips

if they don't stop him.

Well, they probably didn't mind.

Or they pretended they didn't!

I used to say to them,

"Don't let him do that!"

But they were either

..too embarrassed or scared

to resist.

And you know, with some, it didn't

stop at kissing them on the lips -

he'd stick his tongue

in their mouths.

Beryl, that's disgusting.

He gets away with it

because no-one else sees it,

only the woman knows.

I mean, it's sexual as*ault.

Well, it's not proper

sexual as*ault.

You say that because you're a man!

For a woman, it's a violation.

And if he's sticking his tongue

down women's throats

in full view of other people,

what's he doing

when he's alone with them?

Did he ever try owt on with you?

Once.

And he got very short shrift.

Why didn't you tell me?

Because you're a decent man, and you

like to think the best of people.

I reckon that's what most people

think of Jimmy Savile

because they daren't let themselves

think about what the truth might be.

Quadruple bypass, for a man of

your age to come through that

It was God's will.

Your own willpower must have helped.

When you set your mind on something,

you tend to get it,

as with that knighthood

you wanted so desperately.

I've told you,

that was an unsolicited honour.

Yeah, you also told me

that you and I were on a journey

toward the truth.

Well, I haven't been

twiddling my thumbs

since I last saw you.

I've been speaking to people,

sitting in libraries,

reading everything that's been

written and said about you.

Yeah? You seem to have forgotten

that I'm a journalist,

and I have no doubt

you wanted that knighthood

because you thought

it would make you invincible,

but it didn't. The rumours grew.

More and more people thought

that there was something in them

and, at the same time,

your career started to t*nk,

and from being a puppet master,

you were losing control

You are dreaming, Daniel.

The public were

falling out of love with you

and then they cancelled

Jim'll Fix It.

You must have been furious, Jimmy.

Not at all.

Not at all.

It was all very amicable.

f*ckers!

They've mountains of Fix Its

stacked up in the office,

enough to last another decade

at least

..and still the highest ratings

on the box.

Look, I'm as upset as you are.

I mean, fortunately,

I have been offered another show.

Not now, not now.

Well, bully for you!

19 f*cking years! I agree, I agree,

they should have let us run for 20,

then let us bow out

with tributes and fanfares.

So why didn't they?

Artistic and programming reasons.

That is f*cking bullshit.

You know, Bill Cotton would never

have let this happen -

he understood talent.

What are you suggesting?

You and I know

there are people in this building

who like to talk about me

behind my back.

Perhaps you're one of them.

You are being paranoid.

Now I have never been part

of the Jimmy Savile rumour factory,

not least because I've never

actually seen anything myself.

Cos there's f*ck all to see, pal!

Well, maybe I should have

looked harder.

What do you mean?

I don't know what goes on

in that bloody van that is

forever parked out there, curtains

drawn, whenever you're here.

I kip in it!

The BBC is changing, Jimmy.

Yeah. Well, f*ck the BBC

and f*ck you!

They wanted Fix It to run forever.

I decided it was time to to move

on and I managed to retain

my productive relationship with the

Really? When did anyone from the BBC

last call you?

I sense the gloves coming off.

You're still being evasive.

What is this?

New heart, same old bullshit?

Bring it on.

You've not seen me in a real fight,

have you?

I don't f*ck about.

It's shirt off and bare knuckles.

I want to ask you about this man.

Ray Teret, you shared a flat

with him in the early '60s. Yeah.

Till I found out he was

a lying, ungrateful low-life,

told him to f*ck off,

never set eyes on him since.

Really?

Never?

Hello, stranger.

There better be a good reason

for this.

There's an age of consent problem.

As you always said, if they don't

show you their birth certificate,

how can you tell?

You don't touch 'em.

You make sure you're careful.

Leave no marks, no witnesses,

and make f*cking sure

they keep schtum.

Always have

..until now.

She was 15.

Johnnie Law got involved.

For f*ck's sake.

In the old days,

the coppers wouldn't have

given her the time of day, but

..times are changing.

It's going to Crown Court.

My brief says I'm looking

at six months.

I don't understand why I need

to know about any of this.

People know about the connection.

What connection?

I'm Sir James Savile,

you're some two-bit DJ

with a shitty little record shop.

We shared a pad

..stuff happened. Nothing happened.

But it did.

There's every reason

some smart-arsed barrister

would want to paint a murky picture

of my history with young birds.

Jimmy Savile Mark II,

they call me in Manchester.

Suppose they ask about my life

with Jimmy Savile Mark I?

You say nothing.

Yeah? Why's that? Omerta,

Sicilian code,

you say nowt to incriminate anyone,

including your worst f*cking enemy.

A code punishable, if broken, by

things you daren't f*cking imagine.

You look like a man who knows

he's running out of road

..Father.

So you weren't aware of

the charge of

..unlawful sexual intercourse

with a girl aged under 16

which was brought against him?

News to me.

He was never a friend of mine.

Well, you can't claim the same

about this man.

Peter Jaconelli.

Passed on now.

God rest him.

You were friends for years.

Inevitably.

I visited Scarborough often,

to see the Duchess.

He was mayor and ice cream king.

And also a paedophile.

That's an outrageous suggestion.

You're saying that he didn't

use his ice cream business

as a means of luring young victims?

All Peter wanted to do was put

smiles on the faces of kiddies.

People in Scarborough say

everyone knew.

Knew or heard rumours?

A young man went to the police,

charges were prepared.

It never came to court.

Flail away, Daniel!

It just seems striking,

flatmate and mentor to Ray Teret,

a convicted sex offender,

friend of Peter Jaconelli,

a known paedophile.

They say a man should be judged

by the company he keeps.

I kept the company of

queens, princes,

popes and presidents, didn't I?

Besides, there's only one judge

I'm bothered about -

and he's up there.

You've got a completely

clear conscience, then?

What's on my conscience

is between me and the boss.

But given the age that you are,

frail, patched-up heart

No-one lives for ever, Jimmy.

Do you not sense that

final reckoning approaching?

I have no f*cking fear of it.

And if I had my time over,

I'd do nowt differently.

Hey, Victor, cop this one for me,

will you?

Can't, I'm needed in A&E.

Just take this old bird

down to X-ray first.

Why can't you? Too old, too ugly.

That's not on.

Suppose she heard you!

It's nowt she doesn't know already.

You all right, love?

Need any help?

Not unless you can fix it

for a nurses' pay rise, Jimmy.

I can fix anything, love.

Hey, don't rush off.

I've work to do

and I've been told Told?

Not to be left alone with you.

And who told you that?

One of the sisters.

Yeah, some miserable,

sex-starved old crone.

Please let me past.

Told you, I can fix anything for

you,

I just need something in return.

That's not on!

Just a bit of fun.

There's no fun in being

propositioned by a dirty old man.

We're told to report

anything like this now.

Still won't go nowhere - never has.

There's always a first time,

it might come sooner than you think.

What do you want?

Come to see Charlie.

I heard he was ill.

He's poorly. He's very poorly.

Anyway, you better come in.

I make no bones about it,

I insisted on being here today.

Charlie Hullighan.

What can I tell you that

you don't already know about him?

And what a privilege it is

to pay tribute to him today.

Charlie was, er older than me.

He knew me from being

a babe in arms.

As a lad

..he was a young man

who my late mother, the Duchess

..told me to look up to -

and how right she was.

As head porter, he

..his priority was always

the patients.

He made people laugh.

When they were in distress

..he showed 'em kindness.

He trusted people

..and they trusted him.

He always wanted to

..see the best in

..in any of us.

Thanks for coming over.

I wanted to see how you were.

And there's something else.

What's that?

If anyone says anything about me,

down the infirmary,

you'd you'd speak up for me,

wouldn't you?

I mean, you must know

there's been talk.

Aye.

And I've always wanted to believe

that's all it were - talk.

It was never anything

more than that, Charlie.

Then why do I look at you

..and see a frightened man?

I'm the one that should be

frightened.

So, er

..farewell, old friend.

You'll not be forgotten in

this world.

Godspeed you in the next.

Are you afraid?

I'm worried for Beryl, of course I

am.

Seeing me go through this and

Scared for myself? Ha.

Death?

Damned if I know what's at the end,

Sav.

You do know

..devout fella like you.

It's heaven or hell, in't it?

Depending on the life you've lived.

One could talk a long time

about why you believe in God,

but, to encapsulate it,

I believe in God because,

if nothing else,

it's a good gamble.

If we went through life

thinking that when we die

and that's it, gone, finito,

er, that's all right Hello.

..but it's much nicer to go through

life

Dan. We have to carry on.

Thinking that maybe,

when we die,

we go on to an even better life.

What you don't realise,

as an atheist,

is faith conquers fear.

As Isaiah said,

"They who walk in the Lord's path

"will rise up with wings like

eagles."

But you kept falling.

That vice-like grip was loosening.

And there were no calls for help

from Tony Blair

That grinning twat!

You had to literally hand back

your set of keys to Broadmoor

I gave 'em back,

my mission was accomplished.

You left the place in chaos.

You'd become a persona non grata

at Stoke Mandeville

Never have, never will.

Then why have you

stopped going there?

Other fish to fry.

It's bollocks, Jimmy.

It's because you're in constant

conflict with the new management,

who banned you from wandering

the wards without let or hindrance.

I was putting smiles on faces.

I've spoken to people there.

You told one manager

who tried to rein you in

to, "Get your f*cking tanks

off my f*cking lawn."

Because it was my f*cking lawn!

You'd lost all control, hadn't you?

Just give me a f*cking break,

will you?

Hello!

And welcome to the very last

Top Of The Pops!

It's been going for 42 years.

It belongs to the world now,

part of TV history,

and we have a top line-up

of pop acts

to see us out tonight in style.

That it?

Yeah.

That's all you've used of me?

Well, apart from the very end.

Do you want to see that as well?

Of course I do.

Clever? The man who started it

ending it.

I'm barely on screen

30 f*cking seconds.

That decision was made in the

production meeting, so, you know

I wasn't at the production meeting.

This is bollocks, mate.

Sorry, this way, please.

No autographs.

Sign out as you go.

Isn't it the case

that knowing what you feared most,

on this earth at least,

had happened?

You'd become a nobody and you made

one last desperate attempt

to get back into the limelight.

If you're talking about

what I think you're talking about,

then, yes, that was a mistake

..but not for the reason

you're saying.

Euh-euh-euh-euh!

How's about that, then?

Goodness me!

Ladies, ladies, it's a good job I've

got such a sound ticker, I tell you.

Big Brother, thank you for bringing

me all these beautiful ladies.

How are you all?

Look, here we are.

Don't all mob me at once,

don't all mob me at once.

Kevin?

Form an orderly queue. I know who

you all are.

My word, I'm quite overwhelmed!

One at a time, ladies, please

You OK?

Form an orderly queue.

Didn't you once say you used to see

him around at Stoke Mandeville?

Mum?

You never told anyone

before you told me? How could I?

..let yours truly have first dibs

with the lady

You should go to the police.

It was over 30 years ago.

I don't care.

Go to the police.

I'd come with you.

I can't.

I just can't.

Hello, Crimestoppers hotline.

How can we help?

Yeah, I'd erm

I'd like to report a crime, please.

OK, can I have your name, please?

It's, erm, Amira Bhand.

OK, Amira, I am just going to take

a few details if that's OK.

Why do you say your cameo on

Celebrity Big Brother was a mistake?

Because it led to

certain complications.

What complications?

I'm not going to tell you.

Why won't you tell me

what the complications were?

Because I made them go away.

And you said it's OK

to call you Jimmy?

Jimmy, it is.

Everyone calls me Jimmy.

And your date of birth?

October 31st 1926.

And, er quite proud that,

in all the time since then,

I've never done anything wrong.

Lovely.

And thank you for letting us

use this office

here, at the Spinal Injuries Centre.

It's my second home.

Can I just stress, Jimmy,

that you are not under arrest

and you're free to leave

at any time?

I'm happy to help. Lovely.

But, before I make you aware

of what's been alleged,

I do need to read out the caution.

You do not have to say anything,

but it may harm your defence if

you do not mention when questioned

something which you later rely on

in court.

Anything which you do say

may be given in evidence.

I'll say everything.

So the reason for this interview

is that a young lady

who was a resident of Elmwoods Hall

has reported that, on a visit there,

you encouraged her

to perform oral sex on you.

Out of the question.

This lady claims that you invited

her for a drive in your car,

where the alleged incident

took place.

I used to go there to cheer up

unfortunate girls

and sometimes they would beg me

to go for a run in my Roller,

which I always did with

the permission of the head -

and they loved it.

But, you see, a few people

will always want to take

advantage of my celebrity.

How do you mean?

They'd see me on television,

BBC, Top Of The Pops etc,

and they would

throw themselves at me.

And when I tell them, "You can't

do that," they'd resent it.

And then, according to them,

I'd assaulted them,

which is the one thing a man

in my position would not do.

So you're saying

this didn't happen?

A flight of fancy.

So we conducted

further inquiries at Elmwoods

and we discovered

that there'd been other claims

of sexual interaction

with the girls there.

Out of the question.

Did you ever ask any girl

there to perform a sexual act?

Out of the question.

You never used your celebrity status

to seek sexual gratification?

I've never done that in my life.

Are you sexually attracted

to girls under 16?

The exact opposite.

But that doesn't stop some people

making allegations and threats.

What kind of threats?

To go to the papers.

And what do you do

when you receive these threats?

Some of the dafter ones, I actually

pass on to my pals in the police

and we have a laugh about it.

Er, others

I, erm

I have to resort to the law.

Bear in mind, I a doctor of law

and, er, if I see a genuine thr*at

to my reputation,

I use my own legal expertise,

and that of my solicitors,

to make it go away

..which it always does because there

is never a shred of evidence.

Right.

We will end the interview there.

Thank you.

You're welcome.

When I sit and I go through

everything you've written or said,

it's like you're constantly giving

hints that there's a dark side.

Please elaborate.

Erm

You did a game show

with David Frost

wearing a sweatshirt with

"I'm an animal" on the front,

and when he asked why, you said to,

"Give victims fair warning."

You spoke about being feared

in every girls' school in Britain

and about using wrestling holds

on girls in the back of cars.

And when Frost asked you

what you were going to do next,

you replied,

"Anyone I can lay my hands on."

You were basically

advertising to the world

that you're a sexual predator.

I mean, the truth is pretty well

staring us

in the face if only we'd look.

What's the point of committing

the perfect crime

..if nobody knows you've done it?

So, what you're admitting

to being a predator?

I'm admitting nowt.

Here we are, in the ring,

and I'm looking at a man

who has not landed a single punch.

And I'm looking at a man who,

behind the bullshit,

is terrified of what's to come.

If you're talking about death,

Daniel,

that holds no fear for me.

Need a lift, Vic? No, we're fine.

Who is it? 76-year-old lady.

What happened to her?

None of your business, Sav.

She's going straight in the fridge,

is she?

No, her family's asked

to view the body.

Right.

What are you doing?

Just checking she's all right.

What do you mean?

For the family to see her.

That's not for you to do.

Get out.

Don't you dare tell me what to do.

I'm telling you.

Show some respect.

Her family'll be here any minute.

Please, leave!

He was with the body, I don't know

why or what he was doing,

but he has no cause to do that.

I mean, a body has to be treated

with respect.

The dead can't look after

themselves, can they?

Their loved ones trust us to do it.

I don't know what you expect me

to do with this information, Victor.

He needs telling - don't go in the

mortuary, don't go near the bodies.

I can't say that to Jimmy Savile.

Without concrete evidence,

there is nothing we can do.

Well, it's wrong.

In this book,

you wrote about sitting for hours

with your mother's dead body.

The happiest of my life.

"She was all mine now," you wrote.

Why would you want to

possess someone in that way?

It's called love, Daniel.

Isn't it more that you were finally

in control of her

rather than she being in control of

you?

And doesn't that suggest

something deeply unhealthy

about your attitude to the dead?

In my work as a porter,

I've comforted the dying,

consoled the bereaved,

and I've never treated anyone who's

gone to meet their maker

with anything other than

humility and respect.

If that's the case,

then why have Leeds United fans

at Elland Road

been known to taunt their opponents

with the chant,

"Jimmy Savile'll f*ck you

in the morgue"?

That's a blow below the belt, lad!

And it's all f*cking lies!

What are you doing?

I've heard enough.

This has all been

one gigantic waste of time.

What about your book?

There are more important things.

Like what?

If you've done some of the things

that I think you've done

..you need to come clean,

not for my sake, but for the people

that you've done them to.

But you've no remorse whatsoever,

have you?

The only thing that bothers you,

or terrifies you, I'd say,

is whether or not you're going

to burn in hell for all eternity.

Good luck with it.

Wait, wait, Daniel.

We're, we're friends!

I'll tell you everything!

Please!

But I can't do it here.

What do you mean?

You'll get all of it.

All of it? All of it.

When?

I've got some business in Leeds

early next week -

I'll call you after that.

OK.

Beryl.

Catching a train.

Where to?

Leeds.

Appointment with my quack.

Mind if I?

As if you'd take any notice

if I said no.

I don't know what people'll think,

mind.

W-what do you mean?

I might as well be

sat next to a tramp.

Have you been drinking?

I've had a couple of brandies.

You never used to.

Look at the state of you.

You're lucky most folk

don't even know who you are.

Of course they do.

Anyway-anyway, how are?

I'm all right.

It's not much of a life

without Charles,

but he'd want me to make the

most of what there is, wouldn't he?

Aye, yeah.

Yeah, he would.

And so I try, for his sake.

Hello, sweetheart.

Come and have a little dandle

on Jimmy's knee.

Not allowed.

Mam says I'm not supposed

to sit on strangers' knees.

I I'm not a stranger.

I'm Jimmy Savile.

Cody! Come on!

Got to go.

Hurry up and be 16!

"Hurry up and be 16?"

What's that about?

Why would you say that

to a little girl?

Just a bit of fun.

Children?

You disgust me.

Father.

It's all happening very quickly.

It seems there's nothing more

they can do.

He wants to go home,

but he's asked for the last rites.

Really?

And you will know the importance

of a fellow Catholic

to bear witness to that.

I know that, Father.

So will you?

Can't really say no, can I?

Dear Jimmy, before you say

the prayer of repentance with me,

if there are any sins which have

sat heavy on your conscience

and about which

you have remained silent,

now is the time to confess them.

I have nothing of that kind

I want to confess.

Very well.

Through the ministry of the Church,

God grant you pardon and peace.

And I absolve you of all sins

..in the name of the Father,

the Son

..and the Holy Spirit.

You just couldn't do it, could you?

One last opportunity

to tell the truth

to your God and maker.

I'll take my chances, thanks, pal

..like I always have.

Er, Jimmy, it's Dan.

Erm, I haven't heard from you.

Can you call me to set up

that meeting in Leeds, please?

One of the country's

best-known broadcasters,

Sir Jimmy Savile,

has d*ed at the age of 84.

With a career that spanned 40 years,

he was famous for his show

Jim'll Fix it

and for being the first and

last presenter of Top Of The Pops.

Sir Jimmy was also well-known

for his charity work,

raising more than £40 million.

Well, many tributes

have been paid tonight,

and Prince Charles said

he was saddened by the news.

Nick Higham

looks back at his life

You hear someone dies,

emotions kick in.

My emotions were like

laughing, happy.

Happy cos you know,

but then that changed,

within a few days,

then I was mourning for him.

I was never going to get revenge.

The old showman

would have appreciated the sign

on the front of

the Futurist Theatre.

Yesterday, Leeds said goodbye

to Sir Jimmy.

Today, it was the turn of

his adopted second home

to bid him a fond farewell

I found the BBC and

other institutions extraordinary

for not actually talking about

the man who we all knew

and wanted to make him into a saint.

I think it was well-known

that there were accusations

against Jimmy Savile.

Welcome to Top Of The Pops!

He was a pop pioneer

How about that, then?!

..and a multimillion pound

charity fundraiser!

He made us belt up in the '70s

Clunk, click every trip!

Now, then

..and fixed it for thousands of

kids' dreams to come true.

For 60 years, Jimmy Savile has

been part of our lives -

a Great British eccentric.

I thought it was absolutely obscene

and I didn't watch it

on the television,

I couldn't bear to watch it,

cos I knew different.

I think, when the story broke, erm,

and I realised that

I wasn't the only one,

I wasn't pleased

that other people had suffered,

but I was glad it wasn't just me,

and I think that's what gave me

the impetus then to go forward.

Most

..children

..that are abused

..carry their guilt

..carry their guilt

for the rest of their lives.

It really messes with their lives.

This never stops for any of us,

whether you're crumpled in a corner,

or walking, being straight,

and this is what people

need to under

It never stops.

It is a daily fight to

..to be able to breathe

and to be able to try your hardest

to be your best person,

when, actually,

you always feel like a failure.

Now, if you speak about Savile,

it's in a bad way.

You know,

it's Savile the paedophile

and that's what

he'll be remembered for.

Don't let this ever happen again.

Don't

Please.