01x03 - Eva's Secret

[bunniefuu]

[children giggling]

[woman] I don't know where we are going
when we are no longer here.

When our feet will no longer carry us,
are we going to be one with the sea?

[Eva] Sonja, please, calm down.

Careful, the waves.
Don't get your brother wet.

-[Sonja] Mommy, I want to take him.
-[Eva] That is too wild for him.

[folk music playing]

-Hi.
-Hey.

-Merry Christmas.
-Merry Christmas.

Is it okay with you
if we don't make a big deal out of this?

Well, not now, I mean...

I don't want them thinking I hop into bed
with the first guy that comes along.

Know what I mean?

No.

I'll call you tomorrow, okay?

Yeah? Please?

[Peter brushing teeth]

Who are you?

Peter.

It's me, Peter.

I don't know.

[Peter] Yes, you do.

We have met before.
Back then, at Christmas.

Oh, my God.

-[door closes]
-How did you get in?

He let me in.

You let strangers into house?

It was the middle of the night,
and really cold outside.

You get out. Out, out, out.

[Sonja] Who needs to get out?

[Peter] Hello, Sonja. Merry Christmas.

May I introduce to you... Peter Weiland.

What's going on?

-Mauschitz let him in.
-[Moritz] Moritz.

What are you doing here?

I didn't know where to go.

The last time I was free I was here,
and it was Christmas.

Hello.

You're Vivi.

I remember you as a little girl
from the pictures.

How do you know who I am?

Mom, why does he have pictures of me?

Uh...

Merry Christmas.

[door closes]

Well, this is, ahem,
just too much for me right now.

I'm going down to the beach,
and when I get back, you are gone, okay?

[Peter] Sonja.

[Ljubica] You heard what she said.

Away. Go away.

No, he's staying.

But, Vivi, he is a t*rror1st.

Oh, you're still not ready yet?

You've been wearing that jacket
and nightgown for days.

It's Christmas.
I laid this dress out for you.

I'm not putting that on.

Don't make life difficult.

Ljubica, can you come help me?

Ljubica,
can you get my mother into this dress?

Sometimes, she likes to resist.

-Don't talk like that. I'm not a child.
-Then don't act like one.

[Alma] You don't talk very much.

You're a woman with a secret.

Every woman should have a secret.

Nonsense, Mother.

It's a good thing
even if you have nothing to hide.

-[man on tv] ...the Red Army Faction...
-There, there he is.

...Peter Weiland
and his accomplices are still on the run.

[Alma] He just shaved off his beard.

The police are asking the public
for assistance.

Any information is of utmost...

[Alma] You have to call the police.

The RAF members...

[Olaf] Call the police? Why?

...are considered violent
and very dangerous.

Alma's just talking crazy.

It's nothing.

Okay.

I'm taking a bath.

Can you do that, Eva? Right now?

Please?

Yes.

[Alma] I knew he was a m*rder*r.

Merry Christmas.

Peter is here...

and he knows everything about Vivi and...

We had an agreement.

Mom, are you listening to me?
You promised.

I wanted...

Vivi and Lara to...

to see a completely new me this year.

And now he's here. It sucks, Mom.

Soni...

Beautiful.

Wow, Mom. It looks great.

Can I help you?

Sonja, do you know what this man did?
And who he is?

-[banging on floor]
-[Olaf] Eva!

[Moritz in English]
♪ We wish you a Merry Christmas ♪

♪ We wish you a Merry Christmas ♪

♪ We wish you a Merry Christmas
And a ha-- ♪

[Lara sighs]

Was I supposed to let him freeze outside?

No, it's not your fault.

Not a single minute can go by
without some sort of drama around Vivi,

or my mother, or someone
getting out of prison. I'm so sick of it.

Sorry about yesterday.

You have to try
to not let it all get to you.

Huh?

What if you found out your father had
three other children? How would you feel?

Nothing like that would ever happen to us.

-Sorry.
-You're no better than us.

If it's too much for you,
you should go back to your own family,

where the worst thing that happens
is someone sitting too close to the tree.

You just said yourself,
they're all crazy here.

I'm allowed to say it,
because it's my family.

[Lara] Where's Peter?

In the shower.

He won't be blowing anyone up.

sh*t.

Maybe you're right about Moritz.

Nothing's been going right between us
ever since we got here.

I don't know if I should feel
more ashamed of him or of you all.

That must have been what Grandma
wanted to tell me.

That Peter would come,
that he's still alive.

Hey, didn't you hear me?

What?

[bed squeaking]

Grandma. Lie back down. No.

Grandma! Oh, God.

[Eva coughing]

Call Hans.

Grandma? Grandma? Oh, God. It's okay.

And?

It doesn't look good.

I should've taken her with me
two days ago.

I just keep thinking
she'll just get right up again and...

tell me my jeans are too tight, or...

Or ask me if I want some cake, or...

ask me when I'm finally coming home again.

Hey, come here.

[footsteps approaching]

[Peter] Oh.

Excuse me.

Hans, this is Peter.
Peter, this is Hans. You met before.

[bike squeaking]

There are no more buses today.

It's Christmas Eve.

[bike continues squeaking]

She wanted to die here.
She always said that.

Nobody's dying here.

Grandma?

Grandma, we're all here.

Ah.

[whispering] I have to tell you something.

Grandma, everything's okay.

Peter is here. You wrote to each other.

We know everything.

You have to find it.

[Vivi] What do we have to find?

The hiding place.

Outside. Vivi.

Promise me.

I promise.

Something's out there.
We are going to look.

-What, now?
-Yes, now.

Do they need us out there?

Oh, Hans.
You can't always take care of everything.

Come on, drink. It's Christmas.

Do I get one, too?

No, not you. You are a t*rror1st.

I know, I was quite the assh*le back then.

I didn't mean to take anything
away from you.

[scoffs]

She's really something special.

Even if it doesn't last long.

No one ever loves you as strongly
and as passionately as Sonja.

[door opens]

Mauschitz.

No more buses today.

Then let's just stay here.

Here. Where it's warm and cozy.

Come on, Hans, have another.

[Lara] Did you find anything?

[Vivi] There is nothing here.

[Lara] Nor in the house.

-What are we looking for?
-[Vivi] No idea.

Then let's just go back. It's Christmas.

Stop all that Christmas stuff.
No one cares about all that.

You're the only one here
who doesn't care about it.

Really?

Since when did you want
to celebrate Christmas?

Last year, you were rescuing stray dogs
and then they all suddenly got sick.

The year before, we were supposed to see
you in Ibiza, but the basement flooded.

You're not Little Miss Sunshine, Vivi.

I'm no expert,
but I'd definitely say you're depressed.

-Me?
-Yes.

You hear that?

What?

I think she's right.

I'm not depressed just because I don't
act as if everything is great between us.

Say what's on your mind for once, Lara.

Stop standing there
with your lips sealed and spit it out.

You're always saying everything revolves
around Mom, her problems, her life drama.

But you're just like her.
Do you even realize that?

You never listen to me, Vivi.

You don't see me. Neither of you do.

You're like Mom. You take dr*gs.

I am not like Mom,
and I do not take dr*gs.

I have to say, I find it hurtful you're
both using your mother as an insult.

God.

Vivi.

Vivi, wake up.

Vivi.

Mom? What is it?

Shh. Not so loud.
I don't want to wake anyone up.

Want to do something crazy?

What?

Want to come with us to Ibiza?

Juliana has a little house on the beach.

I live there now.
I mean, we live there now.

-Yes.
-Yeah?

-Yes, yes, yes.
-Shh, not so loud.

Then get packing.

-Now?
-Yes.

But it's Christmas.

Sure, Christmas.

We'll celebrate on the ferry or plane.
It'll be a big adventure.

Okay.

We have to tell Lara we are skipping
the presents. It's better if I do it.

Vivi.

It's just you and me this time, okay?

Can we leave tomorrow?

Sure. Sure, that's fine.

[Sonja] Don't run like that.

Maybe you could just give me
a chance for once, Vivi?

People can learn from their mistakes.

I learned that from the steps.

Oh, God.

Cut it out with your f*cking steps.

You abandoned me here.

Us, Vivi. I was here, too.

You know what?

When I was little,
I always wanted to be like you.

Eva wouldn't let me take you with me.

Why?

Why didn't she let you?

-[opera music playing over speakers]
-Whoa!

"Flirting for Shy People:
From Wallflower to Man-Eater."

That's from me. Because of Walter.

Good luck with Walter, Ljubi.

Thank you.

Now my presents.

My presents, my presents...

Here we go.

Lara, this is for you.

Thanks, Mom.

And this is for you, Mom.

Oh, Sonja. Thank you.

An iPod?

An iPod!

[Lara laughing]

How cool. Awesome.

Oh, God, Sonja.
This is way too much for me.

[Sonja] You can take some decent pictures.

We all look like sh*t
in the ones up on the wall.

Sonja, this...
I don't know if that's right for me.

Take it back if you don't like it.

-Mm. No, that's not...
-Vivi, it's your turn.

-Sonja, I just...
-Close your eyes, Vivi.

-Are your eyes closed?
-[Vivi] Yes.

[Sonja] Okay.

-I can start, right?
-Yes.

[Sonja humming]

Hold out your hands.

Okay... Warm, warm, warm,

hot.

Mom!

You can't use that. It's dumb, right?

This is the best present I ever got.

What a beautiful guitar.

Haven't you had enough for today?

It's Christmas.

I'm going to take Vivi with me.

Where?

Where?

To my place, on the island.

No, Vivian stays here.

She's my daughter.

Yes, but do you know what it means
to have a daughter?

It means getting up every morning
at : to get the kid to school,

cooking every day,

and no traveling, no parties, no dr*gs.

I don't take dr*gs.

You don't know either of them.

Vivi and I, we're kindred spirits.

I'm ready now, Mom.

And Lara?

What about Lara? What do I tell her?

[Sonja] I'll come back for Lara.

They're both staying here,
where they belong.

Or what?

Will you call the police? Like before?

You always act like
you can take care of everything

and look after everyone.

You, the ultimate mother,
and me, the bad mother.

You know what, Mom?

You're a weak person.

You couldn't leave my father,

the man who humiliated you half your life.

You couldn't manage to leave him.
And as for me...

You couldn't take care of me.

Look at me.

Or my little brother, either.

Get out. Get out of my house.

The girls think you're a hero, okay?

Should I tell them that you
don't work for Greenpeace?

That I don't have the slightest idea
what you do or with whom you do it?

Do you want them to know
who you really are?

Who you really are?

[sighs]

[door slams]

I wanted to be there for you, but I...

I wasn't strong enough.

I thought that I'd...

become a better person for you both
as more time passed, but...

at some point, it was just too late.

[car approaching]

[Eva] Sonja.

Vivi!

Mom!

Oh, God.

Mom!

[sobbing]

Vivi.

[sobbing]

[Lara] You said
you wouldn't leave me alone.

You promised me.

I'm not a monster, Vivi.

I just kept f*cking up, over and over.

And still...

Look at you. You both...

You both turned out so great.

So much better than me.

[Vivi] I don't have a record deal.

My boyfriend, who isn't my boyfriend
anymore, gave the demo to his boss,

and he found it boring.

And "boring" means

it's crap, or even worse than crap.

I don't...

have a job, any money...

and no talent.

Hey.

Hey.

Marry Moritz, don't listen to me, okay?

I've never listened to you.

Or you.

I'm certainly not going to start now.

Come on, let's go back inside.
There's nothing hidden out here.

I don't know what your grandma means.

Your hiding spot, Vivi.

Maybe that's what Eva meant.

Merry Christmas.

No idea. I don't know.
I don't know why that's here.

Maybe Eva hid it?
Too dangerous in the house?

Then why did Eva want us to find it?

The things Eva talks about...

No idea. She's old, she's confused.

You know everything, Ljubi.

[sobbing] It's Christmas.

I'm taking the fur coat if you don't talk.

Fine, then.

But you have to promise me
that I can stay here...

if Eva dies.

But also if Eva doesn't die.

This is my home.

Promise.

To see all three of you here...

all together...

No fighting.

Sticking together.

Mother, daughter.

Ljubi, please.

All right.

Come with me.

Come on, one more time. One, two, three.

Oh, God.

Good, good.

Out of the way.

All right.

What is that?

That's Olaf.

It happened Christmas ' .

["Silent Night" playing]

[Olaf] To Christmas,

cheers.

It's really good, Mom.

[Alma] Tastes like sh*t.

It's really delicious, Eva.

[Alma] What are we eating next?

What's wrong with you?

You wanted us to get all dressed up,
and now you're not talking.

Hmm?

Everything's fine.

Yes, everything's good.

You're both going to miss food like this
in Cameroon, for sure.

Colombia.

What would you get there?

Cocaine.

Police! Nobody move!

[all shouting]

-Sonja!
-You're hurting me!

Peter Weiland,
you're under arrest on suspicion of m*rder

and being a member
of a t*rror1st organization.

Sonja Jester, you're under arrest
for complicity and covering up a crime.

You called the cops?

No.

[shouting indistinctly]

You are such a coward!

[officer] Let's go.

Sonja.

[sobbing]

I blew the candles out.
It got a bit dangerous.

You call the police every day,

and today of all days, they believed you.

Mom, is any of this getting through
that drunken head of yours?

It was me.

-No.
-Yes, it was me. I called them.

Oh, God. No.

The thing that really hurts...

is that you think I'm stupid.

That I'm seriously sick,
and nobody can put up with me, fine.

But I am not stupid.

No, you're not sick, Olaf.
You're just a cowardly bastard.

And you?

What have you ever done for me?

Huh?

One kid is dead,

and the other one, Eva, is in jail!

Bravo, Eva.

[g*n cocks]

[thud]

I'd understand
if you want to look for a new job now.

He was already broken when he came to us.

Don't go blaming yourself now.

I thought he drowned.

[Ljubica] Nobody would've found him there,

not in a hundred years.

But then two years ago, we had to...

Well, I had to...

I had to dig him up.

Excavators everywhere.

The ring-billed gulls.

What?

Yes, exactly.

Ring-billed gulls nature reserve.

They cleared away the dunes.
I was afraid they'd find Olaf.

So, I hid him here.

Or, I guess I should say,
what's left of him.

Hey. Everything okay here?

Anton. What are you doing here?

[Anton] I heard about the emergency call.

Hans wanted an ambulance. What happened?

[Ljubica] I confess. I confess everything.

Take me to the police station.
I'll tell you everything, Anton.

Poor Ljubi,
she's completely out of it because of Eva.

I've said it a hundred times,
there's something weird about all of you.

[Sonja] Anton, you're really funny.
Had no idea how funny Anton is.

What's in there?

[Ljubica groaning]

Sonja?

I can't believe you did that.

[sighs]

Which hand?

Oh, sorry, no.

That's not fair.

Merry Christmas.

Wow, it's beautiful.

You like it?

Yes.

Your dad gave it to me when you were born.

Now I'm giving it to you,

and someday,
you can give it to your own daughter.

I'm starting to forget Daddy.

That's okay.

Your father will always live within you.

Everyone that came before you
lives within you.

And we will live on within everyone
who comes after us. Do you understand?

Your heart won't forget anyone.

Merry Christmas, Mom.

Merry Christmas, sweetheart.

-Everyone got some?
-Yes.

-To Eva.
-To Eva.

-To Eva.
-To Eva.

I'm happy you came back.

Me, too.

[Anton] Water?

-Thank you.
-My pleasure.

-Enjoy, everyone.
-[all] Enjoy your meal.

I am sorry,
but I think I should start heading out.

No, no, no... Um...

I... Well, we...

We haven't even had the chance
to talk to each other yet.

Yes, Peter, stay. That's why you came.

Come on, it would be such a shame.

We still need to clear something up.

I'm not your father.

How so?

[Peter] I was never able to have children.

What?

I didn't know where to go.

Eva's letters
and the pictures of you all...

I just held on to that.

Sorry.

Take care. Bye.

[Sonja sighs]

[door closes]

If it's not him, then who?

Are you going back to this Ibiza island?

I don't know.

It's Juliana's home, not mine.

You have a home.

You want me to settle down here with you?

Like Eva?

Like two old cats?

I don't think so.

Maybe for a couple of weeks?

Until I know what to do with myself?

Yeah, but you have to learn
how to do the dishes, Sonja. Look...

Okay.

[woman] My grandmother said the women in
this family are like the waves of the sea.

They repel and attract each other.

Maybe that's because
we're not that different after all,

but are only parts of a whole.

Each one of us is a wave
on the very same sea.