01x06 - Tess

[bunniefuu]

If you're not happy, Ruth here

has offered to make
those changes for you.

It's my book.

I'm not changing it and I
won't let any of you change it.

[HAT] I'm the reason Trevor went down.

[WHISPERS] If I find
out that this was you...

[HAT GULPS]

... all of your lives is gonna
become miserable from now on.

You have to get the kids now

and you have to take them
to your sister's in Sydney.

Why did Trevor go down and Joey didn't?

Why didn't you?

Where does one go to
request the application

on a historic search warrant?

I don't care how many doors you slam,

- you still can't see him.
- [DOOR SLAMS]

[TESS] You have no idea how
f*cked up that family is.

[MARY] I've had an offer.

[JOEY] What do you mean? What offer?

The pub.

Who made the offer?

I'm not living here and running a pub.

We're not gonna run a pub, Vic!

We're gonna buy it

and then burn it to the f*cking ground!

[WAVES CRASH]

[BIRDS TWEET]

['YOUNG GIRL BY THE DISTILLERS]

♪ We were young girls ♪

♪ In a strong world ♪

♪ I'm on your doorstep, man ♪

♪ Ringing your bell again ♪

♪ Ringing your bell again ♪

♪ Well, here I am ♪

♪ On your doorstep again ♪

♪ I let the winds of time
pass through my life ♪

♪ Oh, maybe there's an end ♪

♪ Who the f*ck protects you? ♪

♪ Who the f*ck is gonna resurrect you? ♪

['ANHEDONIA' BY CHELSEA
JOY AND EMMA RUTH RUNDLE]

♪ I know it all comes back times three ♪

♪ That human ♪

♪ That demon showed me ♪

♪ So don't come looking ♪

♪ For me ♪

♪ I've got my walls up now ♪

♪ Anhedonia ♪

♪ Ahh ♪

♪ Ahh. ♪

[VICKI] Do you know how insane this is?

Your abusers walk away with our savings

so you can f*cking burn down a pub

and probably the whole state

in the height of
summer and go to prison.

We'll wait for winter.

I'm not letting you put
our money on a bonfire

for the sake of your
revenge, warranted as it is.

OK, then, we'll board it up,

leave it as a stinking carcass

on the side of the road
like a f*cking eyesore.

- You're better than this, Tess.
- Am I?

'Cause I feel like I'd like
to be much worse than this.

They can't have my money.

And neither can you. End of story.

All your cold, secretive behaviour,

the phone calls,

vomiting,

it's all part of your addiction,
and I get why that's there,

and I am very understanding
about that, I really am,

but you are just fuelling it.

It's not good for you to stay here.

It's not good for me.

Or the kids.

And I booked tickets for us to fly home.

I've put deposits on
the school in Sydney.

We won't be able to afford school

or the mortgage or a
f*cking box of crackers

if you go through with this.

Don't look at me like that.

It's patronising bullshit, Vic.

I'm going home and I'm taking the kids.

And I've already put a
freeze on the accounts.

They're in my name too.

Why are we leaving?

- We're not.
- Yes, we are.

- We're going home.
- [LILY] But I can't go home.

I've already told all my
friends that I live here now.

- Is this my fault?
- Oh!

No, darling.

[ART] So are we packing or unpacking?

- [TESS] Unpacking.
- [VICKI] We're packing.

I'm packing.

You do what you want, Tess.

Can I do what I want?

[YOUNG SIMONE SIGHS]

Trevor was arrested.

Just Trevor?

For the dr*gs.

Oh.

[SIMONE] Just so f*cked up.

Joey's still out there.

Come on.

We should leave here.

[BLEAK MUSIC]

Tess.

[AIRY, UNSETTLING MUSIC]

[UNSETTLING MUSIC]

[YOUNG SIMONE] Simone.

[ECHOES] Simone, wake up.

[KNOCK AT DOOR]

[HAT] Mon!

[HAT CONTINUES KNOCKING]

Simone!

[HAT CONTINUES KNOCKING]

Mon, it's Hat.

I'm sleeping!

[HAT] Can you open up?

I don't want to talk to you!

Don't worry, a very nice assistant

is gonna amend my book to suit you.

Please speak to her if there are any
further changes you'd like to make.

Well, there's no point,
because Trevor's read it.

He walked into my house
and threatened to k*ll me.

Oh, sh*t!

f*ck!

Are you OK?

There's something else.

The detective who arrested Trevor Calley

applied for a surveillance
device warrant on the pub

two days before the party.

Probably to catch him moving dr*gs.

What do you mean? Like, a camera?

I don't know.

But if it was a camera,

then the police would have
known what happened to Tess.

Which is so much worse than them

not giving a sh*t about
us in the first place.

Right!

But also, if they did record the sale,

they would have seen me and Joey

helping Trevor move
the kegs into the van.

So why... why weren't we arrested?

Maybe they weren't
f*cking recording, Hat.

I don't f*ckin' know.

Or they're protecting somebody.

Like who?

[SIGHS]

What if it's Joey?

What, you really believe
Joey worked with the cops

to get his own brother sent down?

Trevor always bullied him.

And you always protected him.

If the cops were watching him,

- they're as guilty of r*pe as he is.
- Oh, Mon.

If he knew the cops were watching him,

he could not have r*ped her!

Nobody's ever gonna admit anything.

What if I just confront
him, just ask him?

How is this gonna help Tess?

What if there's this whole other story?

Tess would want to know.

We need to know.

- [WAVES ROAR IN DISTANCE]
- [BIRDS CAW]

[SIMONE] You think I haven't
got a voice in my f*cking head

saying, "You've got it wrong"?

My instinct says that
what I saw was what it was.

[HAT APPLIES HANDBRAKE]

Where were you

when you dumped the
beer on that guy's head?

- By the bar.
- By the jukebox.

No, we were dancing by the jukebox,

and then I went and bought a beer.

Nah, mate.

Where did I kiss Tess?

- That actually happened?!
- Ha!

You don't know everything.

[SCOFFS]

Look, all I'm trying to say

is if we both remember different things,

then neither of us really
knows what happened.

And just because you turned

what you remembered
into a book and I didn't

doesn't make your
memories the right ones.

God.

I don't think it's
wise that Joey sees you.

I think you should stay in the car.

- I'm not letting you go in there alone.
- Mon,

we have one chance at this.

Stay in the car.

Please.

OK, call me if you see Trevor.

['WHOLE WORLD TURNS'
BY CROW PLAYS SOFTLY]

I thought it was me,

all these years.

If you can believe it.

I really did.

What? [CLOSES CASH DRAWER]

But now I'm pretty sure it was you.

What the f*ck are you talking about?

You colluded with the police.

You got your own brother sent to prison.

Not that he didn't deserve it.

You really want to keep your
voice down saying sh*t like that.

I know you think you're
smarter than everybody, Hat.

But you really got the wrong
end of the stick this time.

No. No, I am not wrong.

When a cop wants a warrant,

they have to make an
application to the court,

and even if the operation is covert,

they have to have a sworn affidavit
to support the application.

It's bureaucratic, it's boring,

but it's also the only piece
of paper that slips through

when they think they've
redacted all files.

This signed copy of the affidavit

submitted to the on-call
registrar at 2:00 in the morning

for a surveillance
device warrant on your pub

two days before the party.

And if there was covert
surveillance down here,

then why weren't we all arrested?

Everyone goes down in those networks,

even the smallest ant on the pile.

Why not us?

Did you protect me?

You're out of your f*ckin' mind.

No. He was cruel to you,
he never respected you.

- I really get why you did it.
- Stop saying that, OK?!

I made no f*ckin' deals!

So you left me alone on the bar

on the busiest night of the year

to come down here and
sexually as*ault my friend

in the middle of your shift?

It doesn't make any sense, Joey.

I do not think you r*ped Tess,

but I do think you know
what happened to her.

[MARY] Hey.

I told you you're naw welcome here.

Who are you sat waitin' fer?

You've had to live with this
hanging over your head for 20 years.

This is your chance to come clean.

Give Tess the truth.

[UNSETTLING MUSIC]

Right.

Well, the police have to
report to the magistrate

if the warrant was used.

How it was used,

whether the device was
mounted on a wall or a person,

and the name of any persons it recorded.

And I've applied for that information

and I'll have it back within a week.

You trying to get me k*lled, are you?

Trevor thinks that I dobbed on him.

He's threatening my kids.

And that'd be on you, Joey.

It wasn't a camera.

[UNSETTLING MUSIC]

You tell me what you're doin' here!

Why don't you ask your r*pist sons?

- Oh, you...
- [SIMONE DIALS PHONE]

You're the abuser here.
You're the only one.

You f*cked off and all went away

and now you come back and you
make everybody's life miserable.

- [HAT] Oi!
- [JOEY] Mum!

What's wrong with you?!

f*ck off! Go on! f*ck off!

Just get out of here or I'll scalp you,

you skinny waste of space!

Get out!

That's what you deserve, you slut!

Filthy sluts!

Alright, alright.

[ENGINE ROARS]

Whew.

You think I didnae ken
what that book says you did?

You f*ckin' know me, Ma?

You look me in the eye
and tell me she's lying.

f*ck off.

- Turn your f*ckin' head and look at me!
- Just f*ck off, Ma!

Alright, go on. Donnae look at me.

Get away. You make me sick!

[UNSETTLING MUSIC]

I'm f*ckin' selling
up and I'm going home.

[SIGHS]

[SOMBRE MUSIC]

[FLAMES WHOOSH]

[FLAMES ROAR]

I'm not letting go of this.

[TESS SIGHS]

If I go back home...

... I've done nothing.

I've achieved nothing.

I've gone backwards.

It's like I'm...

... stuck back here,

back in time. Because...

... she's still down there, Vic.

I still see her every day.

And I can't save her.

I can't pick her up off that floor.

And I can't let that
happen to anyone else.

Do you not think that that's important?

Yes!

But I do feel...

that you're stuck.

And it's somewhere else.

You aren't with us.

But this is the first time
I've had an image in my mind

that feels like an antidote.

There are other ways.

What would happen if
you spoke with them?

- No, no.
- It might help.

I wouldn't trust myself. I don't...

I don't want to be
weak in front of them.

I don't want them to see me like this,

needing anything.

Because they wouldn't be weak.

They would just...

ignore me, or worse, laugh at me.

I don't want to look at their faces,

I don't want to be in
the same world as them,

I just want them gone.

If that's how you feel, OK.

But you don't need to
live where they live.

You don't need that.

[SIGHS]

Darling...

- [TESS SNIFFLES]
- ... let's just get out of here.

[WAVES ROAR]

[SOMBRE MUSIC]

Who's gonna tell her?

- You.
- [GROANS]

It's massive for me too.

I mean, I thought I got Trevor put down.

Turns out I did nothing.

And maybe I could have been...

... more understanding...

... how hard it's been
for you to carry all this

sh*t around in your head.

On your own.

I'm really sorry that I
couldn't take that from you.

Oh!

[CHUCKLES SADLY]

But you both left and I never did.

And it's been hard, you know,

always being the one
that you don't want.

Hat!

You're the truest.

No, I'm not. I'm very talented

at deceiving myself and everybody else.

Mm.

What happened to you?

If you can...

... talk about it.

A man

at my mum's wake...

... while I was sleeping...

... sat on my feet and rubbed himself.

And it woke me up. I couldn't move.

And I think I keep putting
myself in Tess's position.

Because I couldn't...

Because I couldn't do
anything to help her either.

Oh, Mon.

I'm actually fine staring right
at the f*cked-up sh*t I've done.

The hardest part is seeing
everything that might have been.

[GIRLS SQUEAL]

[WATER RUMBLES]

[WAVES CRASH]

Are you gonna put
your name on your book?

I can't even talk about my book.

They made me sign an NDA in
order to give me my royalties.

I don't even want them.

It feels like blood money now.

No, it's your money.

You earned it.

And it could help pay
for your dad's care.

Yeah.

Ohhh.

[PHONE RINGS]

Hey, what's up?

[LILY OVER PHONE]
Mum's making us go home.

She's not even letting
me say goodbye to anybody.

Where's Tess?

[LILY] She's packing the car right now.

OK, we're coming.

Whoa.

- [UNSETTLING MUSIC]
- [FROG CROAKS]

[INSECTS CHIRP]

[JOEY] Yeah, I understand that.

- [PUB PATRONS CHATTER]
- [MUSIC PLAYS SOFTLY]

[JOEY] Please.

Hey, what's he up to out there?

[JOEY] I know it's not
protocol, but I need...

[JASON] Dunno.

He better not be f*cking
around with my share of the pub.

Well, he doesn't want to sell it.

It's not up to him, is it?

It's Ma's pub.

Hey.

You and me, we could... we could
buy ourselves something else.

I gotta go.

Gotta go see Lily. Her mum's
making her move back to London.

Oh. sh*t, mate, why?

Well, Tess still hates our family.

She, uh...

... won't let me and Lil see each other.

Tess, eh?

Tess.

f*ck.

- [PHONE RINGS]
- I just want to do something.

I want to do something
right for you, for once.

[TESS] Like what?

- Like protect you.
- Mum!

Before I don't get another chance.

You're yourself, it's fine.

I don't want to be myself.

Has anybody seen my red bag?

[HELEN] Arthur.

There's a box for you.

From Amazon Prime.

I didn't order anything.

[ART UNWRAPS BOX]

[ALL LAUGH]

Oh, that's really
going to fit on a plane.

- Oh, stop it!
- I'd love to keep it, Helly.

[TESS] Mum's scheming
to keep you kids here.

- Hey!
- Hey.

This is gonna be hard to hear.

- OK.
- Maybe we should...

- [TESS] OK.
- Yeah.

[HELEN SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY]

What are you saying?

I'm saying that Joey was wearing a wire.

The cops are never gonna admit it.

They're gonna protect Joey

and that information at all costs.

So you're telling me they
know what happened to me,

but I'm not allowed to know?

I'm telling you that Joey
knows what happened to you.

Please talk to him.

He's not gonna tell Tess
anything if he hasn't already.

Well, I told him I'd out him to Trevor

if he didn't tell her the truth.

[SOMBRE MUSIC]

Nothing anyone is ever gonna tell me

will make an iota of difference.

I will always carry it.

Should I not have told you what I saw?

It kills me sometimes, wondering.

I would have known.

I needed to know.

Well, now you should
know the whole story.

So you can tell it.

For the both of us.

[PENSIVE MUSIC]

[PENSIVE MUSIC CONTINUES]

I'm with you.

Whatever happens.

But this has gone on too long.

[DELICATE MUSIC]

[SIMONE] "What do you remember?"

[PUB PATRONS CHATTER]

[SIMONE] "How every
moment felt like forever...

... because you forgot there
was a future or a past...

... just this glorious present.

How you wanted to kiss
her lips all night...

... and watch the sun rise together

and go for an early swim,

the cool, blue waves
enveloping your skin.

And then go on with your lives.

Together."

"What do you remember?"

[INSECTS CHIRP]

[FROG CROAKS]

He's out the back.

He's got glasses.

[MAN] Thanks, mate.

- No, no. He came back up.
- Did he?

[INDISTINCT CHATTER CONTINUES]

You may listen to this
on the understanding

that it otherwise does not exist.

You won't be told how the
device got into the room,

only that it was
lawfully installed on site

and the local police
did not know about it.

A warrant for the
surveillance was obtained

only for the specific
reason of capturing

a major drug importation crime

and for no other purpose.

When we heard the recording,
we had a moral dilemma.

Kicked it upstairs to the boss who
made the call that unfortunately,

it would have interfered
with a major prosecution

and potentially put our
informant's life at risk.

Which, I'll add, is again the case.

You should know this
is all his own doing,

against my better advice.

I need a drink.

[DEVICE BEEPS]

Do not look at me.

[MAN] I'll leave you to it.

[CHILDREN LAUGH AND SHOUT NEARBY]

[UNSETTLING MUSIC]

[SOUNDSCAPE DISTORTS]

[SOUNDSCAPE THICKENS]

- [TESS SOBS]
- I'm sorry.

You! [SOBS]

- You...
- I'm sorry.

- I f*ckin' hate you!
- I'm sorry.

You left me!

You left me in there!

You could have stopped it!

- Joey, why didn't you stop him?
- I'm sorry!

Why did you leave me there?

- Shh, shh, shh.
- Why did you leave me there?!

Why did you leave me there?

- I'm sorry.
- [WAILS]

Joey, why did you leave me?

[SOBS]

[SOBS]

[WATER BURBLES]

[BIRDS SQUAWK]

[PEOPLE CHATTER INDISTINCTLY]

It's kinda funny, I saw what, um...

[JASON CONTINUES INDISTINCTLY]

[LILY] Oh, yeah?

- Here.
- Thank you.

Cheers.

[ALL OPEN CANS]

Jase says you're leaving us.

[LILY] Yeah.

It sucks.

At least I got two more days.

Your mum doesn't think much of us, then.

Oh, she just...

She hates being back here.

I once heard her say she'd buy
the whole town and burn it down.

Not very nice.

She must have done
alright for herself, then?

If she can buy a whole town.

Both my mums work for banks.

Both mums?

[LAUGHS]

Carpet munchers?

That's not very nice.

What about your dad?

[SIGHS]

I don't have one.

That's what they told you, is it?

Come on. Seriously?

She must have a dad.

Well, it's impossible
otherwise, or last I heard.

Why don't you just
f*ckin' lay off, then?

I'm gonna go up and charge my phone.

Mate...

... you need to get another girlfriend.

You can't f*ckin' say that sh*t.

And where the f*ck have you been?

I guess someone put me in
prison for a f*ckin' long time.

And now that someone's
gonna wish they hadn't.

Wanna go and k*ll somebody and
put yourself in prison again?

Nah.

No, no, mate. Son.

I might just take away the thing
they hold most precious to them.

Whatever they love the most,

you find it...

and you ruin it.

Can you ring Vicki?

Uh, she's taken my mum out.

What do you want me to say?

Tell her to come here.

I'm gonna put on a cuppa.

Please stay with me.

Ah!

[CRUSHES CAN]

Do you need a lift?

I'm fine.

[TREVOR] Can you walk on it?

[DARK MUSIC]

Hey.

I'll sort you out, eh?

OK.

This way.

Good girl.

[KIDS CHATTER INDISTINCTLY]

[UNEASY MUSIC]

[LILY] Hey, it's Lily. I
don't use this. Text me.

I know that Joey got you out of there,

but he let those men get in his head.

He kept quiet.

I could hear them talking about me.

Makes me realise I wasn't there.

I always wondered if...

... maybe I'd...

... gone along with it...

... myself and forgotten.

[PHONE RINGS]

Hey. Can I ring you back?

[ART] She's always leaving me.

What are you talking about?

[ART] Lily went out again to see Jason.

She said, "My motto is 'You
must always go to the party'."

And then she turned off her phone.

Hey, have you seen Lily anywhere?

Nah, mate.

Well, she came up from the
beach about 15 minutes ago

to charge her phone.

We were down there talking to Dad

and I haven't seen either of them since.

[UNSETTLING MUSIC]

[LILY] I thought we were
going back up to the pub.

Why so antsy?

Jason will be wondering where I am.

Hey.

Come on. I just wanna ask
you a question. Come here.

- That's it.
- OK.

Look at me.

Look at you?

Yeah.

Look me in the eyes.

I don't want to.

I just... just said, "Look at me."

How old are you?



No. No, you're not.

You must be 20.

[LILY] I'm not.

I don't believe ya.

[UNSETTLING MUSIC]

You look just like Tess.

No. I look like my mother, Vicki.

Maybe you're better off
without a father, then.

'Cause I would have been.

[JOEY] Stop! Get away from her!

What did he do to you? You OK?

What are you, a dog?

You're the f*ckin' animal.

Oh, you wanna do what
Dad did to me, huh?

- I'm not like you.
- Nah?

You always belonged.

I'm not saying we're good.
We're not f*ckin' good.

Joey always has to be the good guy!

[SCOTTISH ACCENT] "My sweet, sweet Joey.

My little angel."

Nah, you b*at the sweetness outta me.

[TREVOR] Had to get what I could.

Why don't you open your
mouth and sing for me?

And I'll piss in it for old time's sake.

It's too f*ckin' late, mate.

I already sang like your f*ckin' canary.

You alright? What's happened?

I've gotta get out of here, OK?

- [GRUNTS]
- [PEOPLE SCREAM]

Stop it! Oi, get off of him!

You, ya f*ckin' snake!

Dad, stop! Get off him, alright?

- Get off!
- f*ckin' coward!

- [GRUNTS] f*ck off!
- [MARY] Oh, stop it!

[BOTH GRUNT]

[MARY] Oh, God, no!

[ROARS]

[MARY] For God's sake!

[BOTH GRUNT]

[GROANS]

Tell Ma what you did!

Tell her it was you.

[SHOUTS] Tell her it was you!

[TREVOR] f*ck you.

Guess you're gonna have to
k*ll me first, aren't ya?

[MARY] Joey, please, stop it!

Or I'll lose you too!

[GRUNTS]

You carry it.

You can carry it.

He needs to go.

Or I will.

[DARK MUSIC]

[TESS SIGHS] Thank God.

Lily.

You OK?

What happened? Are you hurt?

- [LILY] I'm OK. I'm OK.
- [DOOR CLOSES]

[TESS] I'm sorry.

- [LILY] It's not your fault.
- I feel like it is.

I know I'm...

... emotionally unavailable
and that must hurt.

I don't wanna... scare you...

... about what's out there.

Or make you avoid people.

I don't want you to flinch

when someone touches you or...

... comes up and tries
to give you a hug.

I don't want you to
be scared of sleeping.

I don't want you to...

... be pulling out your hair

or stopping eating or vomiting
up every bit of nutrition.

I don't want you to hate your skin.

Or yourself.

And I don't want you to
avoid falling in love.

But I don't wanna lie to you either.

I just want to protect
you from the world.

But I don't know how to do that...

[LILY SOBS]

... and...

... still let you be free.

[LILY SNIFFLES]

[TESS] I love you. I f*cking love you.

[LILY] I love you.

[TUMBLERS CLICK]

[METAL CLUNKS]

[GATE SQUEAKS]

Take that.

And dinnae come back.

[SPARSE MUSIC]

Will I have to be your
bodyguard at school in Sydney?

Everybody's gonna fall
in love with you again.

No, I'm gonna be your bodyguard, OK?

So they've picked all
the stuff up for storage

and the tenants are coming in on Friday.

And you don't mind letting them in?

- I already said I would!
- I know.

I know! [CHUCKLES SADLY]

Ohh!

Oh, Mum.

I've never not lived here.

It'll all still be
here when you get back.

But what if we leave
and everything changes?

[SIGHS]

That's OK.

[CHUCKLES]

[PHONE BUZZES]

- Mon?
- [DON] Not like that!

- What are you doing?
- Is that you, Don?

- [SIMONE] I'm bringing the chair out for you, Dad.
- Simone,

it's Tess. You rang me.

[SIMONE] Careful! Don't
want you to break a hip.

[DON] Good thing we
don't have too many hips.

[SIMONE] Just take my
arm. We can go slow.

Sometimes we just have to take
the time, but we get there.

[DON] I was a hare. Now I'm a tortoise.

[SIMONE] Listen to that wind, Dad.

[WARM MUSIC]

[BIRDS CHIRP AND TWITTER]

[SIMONE] "One part of you must remember

but one part of you must forget.

You have to write it with one hand

while erasing it with the other.

That's the only way to tell it,

as though you have written
it only for yourself.

Your younger self.

And for her.

And for her."

[STIRRING MUSIC]

[MUSIC ENDS]

[WAVES CRASH]