02x13 - Can't Fight This Feeling

[bunniefuu]

[classical piano music playing]

Almost go time.

How you feeling?

I'd feel a lot better
if the bride would show up.

[Sean chuckles]

We're supposed to start any minute.

Yeah. Okay.

[Johnny exhales]

- Hi. Good to see you. Thanks for coming.
- Hi. How are ya?

Hi. [clears throat]

[knocking on door]

[Tully] Come in.

Aren't I the one
who's supposed to be late, Aunt Tully?

I'm ready, just tweaking the hair.

Okay.

- Can you help me put on my veil?
- Mm-hmm.

Okay.

You look beautiful.

I'm so nervous.

- You're gonna do great, honey.
- [Marah exhales]

I am so proud of you.

[Marah inhales]

[classical piano music continues]

[seagulls cawing]

[Tully chuckles]

Oh, I finally have a plan
for your bachelorette party.

Tul, no.

Just two words.

- [Kate exhales]
- Male strippers. Penis straws.

- No.
- Sex toy party favors. Vegas.

I'm in. What time we going?

No boys allowed at the bachelorette.

Tul, no. I already told you I do not want
a bachelorette or a bridal shower

or any of that nonsense.

The wedding is spectacle enough.

[sighs] But I'm the maid of honor,
and the maid of honor has to plan stuff.

Oh.

- Um...
- What? What's with the looks?

I forgot to mention
Marah's actually my maid of honor.

- Oh.
- I've been meaning to tell you.

It makes sense.

Well, you know, it's just that
she's my daughter and...

Kate, please, you don't have to explain.
I get it. I'll just be a bridesmaid.

I don't get to be a bridesmaid?

Of course if I was having bridesmaids.
It's just Johnny only has one best man.

Yeah, it'd be asymmetrical.

So because he doesn't have
any f*cking friends,

- I don't get to be in the wedding?
- Hey! I have friends.

You have Mutt.

Mutt is your best man.
You guys don't even hang out.

We just hung out the other night.

At Carol's retirement party,
and that was weeks ago.

And we are gonna get lunch next week...

[clears throat]
...if we are both free, and we'll see.

Yeah, okay.
'Cause that's just like me and Kate. Same.

[grumbles] "Same..."

Tul, you are a super important
part of the wedding.

Like, you're the most important guest
who's not actually in the wedding.

Oh yeah. So important.

Yeah, in fact, henceforth you'll be known
as the official guest of honor.

- What?
- That's dumb. It's not a real thing.

Yeah, if we put it in the program, it is.

- Really?
- Really?

Yes.

[Tully] So...

what are the official duties

of the guest of honor?

Oh my...

[teen Kate sighs] So many bullshit tasks.

Why do we have to count the straws
every night? It's just busy work.

Can I tell you a secret?

I just make up a number.

What?

, , .

- [chuckles]
- Boss never even checks.

Lisa-Karen, who knew you were an outlaw?

I have many layers. [inhales deeply]

So are you still coming over on Friday?
My mom's really excited.

Yeah, yeah, um, next Friday.

Yeah, the Friday coming up.

- No. Friday after the Friday coming up.
- Ah, okay. Gotcha.

- I can't wait. We'll have so much fun.
- Me neither.

- [doorbell chimes]
- Ugh!

No! [chuckles]

Oh, I just remembered
I have to go check on the urinal cakes.

Kate, your customer.

- [Kate] Hello, sir.
- [chuckles]

What can I get ya'?

[Coop] I think I'm in the mood
for something...

sweet...

and dangerous.

Well, there's leftover milkshake

that's been, uh, sitting
on the counter since noon.

It's probably both.

I meant you.

I wanna take you somewhere cool...

private.

[Kate] I'd love to, but I'm probably not
gonna be off for another hour.

I gotta clean the grease traps
and take out the trash.

Bummer.

[Lisa-Karen] Kate,
can you help me with something?

Yeah. [exhales]

Go, now, or you're fired.

We still have to close.

I'm fully capable of doing it myself.

It's my day to clean the grease trap.
You hate cleaning it.

You can clean the grease trap next time.
And the time after that.

Really?

Yes, but you have to make sure
you tell me everything,

so I can live vicariously through you.

Deal. [inhales]

Uh, this Friday after school?

Yeah, next Friday.

Yeah, and this Friday, if you want.

[exhales] Double deal.

Now, go have fun.

[both chuckle]

- [Kate exhales]
- [Lisa-Karen chuckles]

["Blinded By the Light"
by Manfred Mann's Earth Band playing]

- ♪ Blinded by the light... ♪
- [thunder rumbles]

♪ Revved up like a deuce... ♪

[Kate] I had no idea
that Make Out Point was a real place.

- Well, I'm honored I get to introduce you.
- They actually named it Make Out Point?

[chuckles] No, it's... it's actually called
Evergreen Lookout.

Oh. [chuckles]

There's nothing to see when it's dark.

["Blinded By the Light" continues]

♪ Madman drummers bummers
Indians in the summer... ♪

You're getting good at this.

- You're a good teacher.
- [Coop chuckles]

[thunder rumbles]

You know I've had a crush on you
since the ninth grade.

Seriously?

Yeah. I have.

But you're Coop, and I'm...

The foxiest girl in school.

[thunder rumbles]

[thunder rumbles]

Oh my God. [breathes shakily]

Come here, scaredy-cat.
I'll keep you safe. Don't worry.

♪ She was blinded by the light ♪

♪ Revved up like a deuce
Another runner in the night ♪

♪ Blinded by the light ♪

♪ Revved up like a deuce
Another runner in the night ♪

♪ Blinded by the light... ♪

[thunder rumbles]

[both chuckling]

♪ Revved up like a deuce
Another runner in the night ♪

♪ She got down, but she never got tired
She's gonna make it... ♪

So, Theo, what do you think
of the tuna casserole?

Ah.

It's an American classic.

Mmm.

- I'll have to say...
- [chuckles]

...it is quite the culinary delight.

- Right?
- Mm-hmm.

- The secret is the special crispy topping.
- Mmm.

Is it crazy that I want to serve this
at our wedding?

- [chuckles]
- Really?

Did I tell you
we're doing a story on bridal trends?

Mm-mm.

Inspired by me.

- Oh yeah?
- I'm very trendy.

See, I've always seen you
as more timelessly elegant.

- [Kate] Mmm.
- [Theo chuckles]

[thunder rumbles]

- [Kate inhales]
- [Theo] Mmm.

[Kate exhales nervously]

[gulping]

Are you okay?

Mmm. Oh yeah, of course.

I think I'm just a little stressed out,
you know, with work and wedding planning,

and planning work weddings,
working wedding plans,

and picking out invitations,
and then looking at dresses,

and finding a redheaded groom cake-topper
is surprisingly difficult.

So, I think I'm just, um...

just getting a bit overwhelmed.

You know, it doesn't have to be a redhead,

the cake groom.

[Kate] Yes, it does. It has to be perfect!

No, it doesn't.

Forget about perfect.

You know, this time... this time
is meant to be joyous, Kate.

Like, right now, this is the time
before all of the hard stuff of life.

- Yep.
- You know, when we build our foundation.

That's all... That's all I want to do
is build a really strong foundation

with you.

We are.

So don't stress so much, okay?

But do go to work tomorrow.

Look at those wedding dresses,
and, I don't know, maybe pick one, right?

Because you are running out of time,
my darling.

[thunder rumbles]

Perfect, gorgeous. You are ready to go.
Uh, send the next model in, please.

How's my model wrangler?

Everything is going smoothly, Mr. Ryan.

Mr. Ryan?

Is my father here?

Boundaries are important.

I mean, I'm an almost married woman.
We need to keep things professional.

Oh, lose the candles, please.

Yeah, yes, no, of course, sorry.
Yeah, I... I understand and agree.

[Kate] Great.

Kate, we have a problem.

One of the models got pooped on
by her pet parakeet,

and now she has pink eye.

Seriously?

Okay. I guess we could just
showcase four looks instead of five.

No! We've been promoting
the top five bridal looks for weeks.

We can't just advertise five
and show up with four.

Oh, Carol could do it. We could squeeze in
a "Carol Tries It" segment.

I asked. She said,
"I've already been married three times."

"The only way I'll put on
another wedding dress is

if David Hasselhoff calls."

Okay, so who can we get instead?

[gentle music plays]

Oh no.

No, no, no, no, no, no. Mm-mm.

No.

[breathes nervously]

Okay, time for last looks.

Mularkey?

One of the models
got pink eye, apparently, so... [inhales]

...yeah.

I... I look stupid, don't... don't I?
I... I feel...

No.

No, no, you look...

perfect...

for the segment.

I can barely see through this thing.

[chuckles]

Oh, here, let me, um...

Let me just...

[tender music playing]

Hey, you know, if you... if you don't have
a wedding dress already,

I'm sure the station could probably
get you a discount on this one. [chuckles]

Oh. Well, I saw the price tag.

I think it would have to be
a pretty big discount.

[Johnny chuckles]

Well, Theo's rich, right?

I mean, yeah, his family is,
but, um, that is not why I'm marrying him.

No, yeah, no,
I... I... I would never think that.

I just... I just meant, you know,
you deserve a great dress

and a... and a great... life.

Thanks.

[woman] Kate!

- [Kate] Yeah?
- You're on.

Great.

[music continues]

[enchanting music playing]

[all] Surprise!

[all chuckling]

[Kate] What?

What... What about lunch?

Oh, well, I had to get you here somehow.

There's plenty of food. Don't worry.

Welcome to your bridal shower.

Just relax, enjoy.
We're all here to celebrate you.

And I promise, there are no penis straws.

[Kate chuckles]

I hope you like it, Mom.

Course I do. Thank you, sweetie.

Thank you... Thank you, everybody.
Thank you so much for coming. Wow.

What are best friends for? Now, come on.
Have some fun. You deserve it. Come on.

Isn't this a wonderful surprise?

Isn't it decadent?

Tully had everything flown in
from New York.

Here, here. Try one of these.

I'm so glad
that we have a chance to celebrate.

Well, we'll also celebrate
at, you know, the wedding.

Oh, not just your marriage, you.

I'm so relieved that you're okay,

and we can
put all this cancer business behind us.

Tully secretly was
planning this for weeks.

I can tell how much she missed you.

I'm just so happy
the two of you are friends again.

[Kate coughs]

And now, if I can invite you
to join me in the living room

for a little walk down memory lane.

Oh! [chuckles]

[indistinct chatter]

[Marah] Mom, you were such a dork.

[Tully chuckles]

Oh, yikes.

Yeah, I really was.

Well, I will have you know
your dorky mother was dating the BMOC.

- [Kate chuckles]
- What's BMOC?

- Big man on campus.
- Oh.

His name was Coop,
and we didn't really go out.

No, that's right, they just made out.

- Gross.
- Nice.

What's with the hair, though?

Oh, that's the Dorothy Hamill, dear.
That haircut's very becoming.

[Tully chuckles]

Who's the girl with you?

Uh, Linda-Karen?

It was Lisa-Karen.

She looks like a bigger dork than you.

I remember her.

Didn't she die...

like, a crazy death?

She d*ed?

- [Kate] Mmm.
- Mmm.

[young Tully] Someone's in a good mood.

Who knew bad weather
could be so romantic? [chuckles]

What did I miss?

Did you know Make Out Point
is a real place?

Technically it's called Evergreen Lookout.

But to me, it will always be
the place where I went to third.

You went to third!

Yes, yes!
But you just have to be quiet, okay?

- I'll tell you at work.
- [Tully] Okay, come on, come on.

- Cloud, I'm gonna take the van to work!
- [sighs] Girls, work's canceled today.

They're closed.

Oh sh*t, the health department
finally shut us down?

- I told Mike we have a cockroach problem.
- [Cloud] No.

There was an accident last night,

and a girl was struck by lightning,
and she is dead.

No, that doesn't make any sense.

I was working there last night,
and I'm fine.

Uh, clearly, that was
a phony phone call, Cloud.

- Yeah, that's really not funny.
- No, that was Mike, the owner.

And he said that Lisa-Karen
was struck by lightning

when she was taking out the trash,

and she was k*lled just instantly. Poof.

That doesn't... I mean, I can't believe that
'cause I just saw her,

and Kate worked there yesterday,
so there's no way she could be...

[somber music playing]

[inaudible]

This morning, I had to pee really bad,
and so I went out to the garden

'cause, you know,
I like to nourish the plants, and...

[sighs] ...when I was peeing,

this butterfly,
it just hovered over my face.

And instinctively, I knew it was trying to
tell me something, but I didn't know what.

But I know now.

It wanted me to tell you
that she's okay. [chuckles]

That doesn't make any sense.

Why would a butterfly pick you
to tell us about Lisa-Karen?

[Cloud] Mike picked me.

[Tully] No, you just happened
to answer the phone.

Just like I happened to be
out in the garden peeing

when the butterfly came.

Look, girls,

she's at peace now.

She is a free, free, free bird.

I gotta go change out of my work uniform,

and I've got a paper due Monday
that I haven't even started yet.

Plus, we have the play rehearsal later.

Kate, are you okay?

I'm fine.

[somber music continues]

[man on TV] They say I couldn't have
picked a more perfect person

to share my life with.

[woman] I feel the same way.

[knocking on door]

[sighs]

[TV playing indistinctly]

[mutes TV]

[Kate sighs]

- Hi.
- Hey.

What are you doing here?

I, uh...

I don't know. [clears throat]

I was just... I was just driving,
and I... was here.

[Kate] Oh.

Why?

[Johnny inhales]

Uh...

I... I don't know. I actually don't know.

[chuckling]

I guess because I, uh...

I still love you.

You still love me?

Well, you know what? Um...

I don't care.

God, you're such an assh*le.

You don't get to just come here
and tell me that you love me.

I'm getting married.
I... I have wedding invitations,

and a... and a gift registry,
and a f*cking venue.

Yeah.

Yeah. No, you're right.
I'm... I'm... I'm sorry.

Theo is a good man,
and... and he wants to be my husband,

and you and I broke up because you didn't.

So...

you don't get to just come to my doorstep

and tell me that you love me

and expect that
I'm just gonna fall into your arms.

I'm so sorry that you're lonely, Johnny,
and I'm sorry that you're sad,

but we're in this position because of you.

God damn it, it is too late.
I am with Theo.

And I am happy now. I'm so f*cking happy!

Okay! I get it!

I'm happy for you!

- Good! [breathing heavily]
- [rain pattering]

[gentle music playing]

[thunder rumbles]

This is Tully Hart bringing you
a breaking weather update.

Heavy winds and rain are expected to
continue in the Seattle metro area today.

Hey, Tuls, so we kinda have a situation.

Oh my God, it's a rainstorm.
It happens in Seattle all the time.

- Why is everyone being so dramatic?
- There's this lady over in the lobby.

She's kinda acting a little crazy.

- She wants to talk to you.
- Why would I want to talk to a crazy lady?

She says she's your mother.

I know you said your mother's dead,
but she's pretty insistent.

- I can call the cops.
- No. No.

That's okay. I'll take care of it.

- Jesus, Cloud. What are you doing here?
- You tell people I'm dead?

I haven't seen you in forever.
I guess I just assumed.

[Cloud breathing heavily]

Tully, I need your help.
This is important.

- All right. Calm down. What's going on?
- Okay.

So I was... I was down
at the... the Spring Street Diner,

and those f*cking fascists,
they refused to serve me.

[Tully] Okay.

Is it possible they wouldn't serve you
because not only

are you high as a f*cking kite,
you have no shoes?

My civil rights are being trampled
by the yuppie f*cking agenda,

and you're worried about shoes?

Okay, okay, please, please, calm down.

- I told them who you were.
- Uh-huh.

I told them
that you were gonna go on the news

and tell the whole f*cking world
what they're doing!

Okay, or I can order you some food
and you can sober up.

Are you f*cking serious?

Yes, you need to eat.

- f*ck you.
- [Tully sighs]

f*ck you.

You're f*cking useless!

Useless!

f*ck you.

[somber music playing]

You okay?

[exhales] Yeah. [chuckles]

[scoffs]

She's an informant, or at least,
I thought she was an informant.

Turns out she's just a f*cking junkie

having some crazy episode
where she thinks she's my mother.

It's bizarre. [chuckles]

sh*t.

- Intense.
- [murmurs]

Come here.

- Mutt, I told you she's...
- I know.

[woman gasps]

You're all a bunch of corporate puppets!

Have fun putting on your
little puppet show, you f*cking sheep!

Bah! Bah!

You f*cking sheep.

Bah!

Bah! Bah!

I mean, I know this white dress sh*t

is just the patriarchy
exerting its dominance, but...

- I look damn good.
- [laughing]

[Cloud] I should wear clothes
made out of toilet paper more often.

[all chuckle]

I don't know. I still think
it could use a little bit of tailoring.

That's exactly what the patriarchy
would say, Tallulah.

[Tully] Mmm.

[Tully chuckles]

I left my present for Mom in the trunk.
Can I get your keys?

- [Tully] Yeah, in my purse in the kitchen.
- Awesome.

[indistinct chatter]

- [Cloud] I like that. Perfect.
- [Tully chuckles]

- Did you and Marah drive here together?
- [Tully] Yeah.

She needed a ride.
You gotta get that kid a car.

Okay, I just really wish that
you would've asked me before you did that.

It would've ruined the surprise.

But I didn't want a surprise.
I told you that.

[Tully sighs]

I don't believe this.

Do you... Do you really think
I'd ever, ever put her in danger again?

You can't blame me for being concerned.

[Tully] Actually, I can.

It's the middle of the g*dd*mn day.
I was driving her to your bridal shower.

Yeah, I didn't want
a f*cking bridal shower, Tully!

I told you that, but you didn't listen.
You never listen.

You just do whatever the hell you want.

So excuse me for being a little concerned
about you getting behind the wheel again

after you got in a drunk driving accident
with my daughter in the car.

[Tully breathes shakily]

[Kate exhales] I'm sorry.

[Tully sighs]

I'll take those, honey. It's okay.

- Thanks. I'm just gonna...
- [Margie] She just needs a minute.

She had a year.
Obviously, it wasn't enough.

- She's just a little upset. That's all.
- I don't know what I was thinking.

She doesn't need me anymore
now that the cancer's gone.

She only wanted me back
because she was scared.

What? Tully? No.

She abandoned me,

and I still came running back,
and now she wants to pull this sh*t!

Fine. Have at it, but I am leaving.

She hasn't really forgiven me anyway.

[Tully sighs]

Have you forgiven her?

[Mr. Waverly] It can be hard to let go.

That's why
I didn't cancel today's rehearsal.

We all could use a space to come together
and talk about what happened,

and try and make sense
of this senseless tragedy.

If you feel moved to speak,
I want to encourage that,

or you can just sit with your thoughts
and your memories of Lisa-Karen.

[tender music playing]

There's no right way to go about this.

And I know that we're still all in shock.

Shock is right. [grunts]

[students chuckle]

- [Mr. Waverly] Yes.
- [sniffles] Ever since I heard,

I haven't been able to stop crying.

[inhales]

Lisa-Karen was a really special person.

[exhales] Like, the way
that she used to load the filmstrips,

and...

uh, push the AV cart in the hall. [sobs]

We were partners
on a science project last year

where we made a volcano,

and I felt like...

I felt like we really connected
around the volcano,

making it...

together.

And...

she was, like,
the best volcano partner ever...

[inhales shakily]

...and I just never thought she would die...

like that.

One day in the fourth grade,
I forgot my lunch,

and she gave me half her sandwich,
tuna fish, my favorite.

[sighs] She was real cool for that.
It meant a lot to me.

"I see your red hair everywhere..."

[girl ] And that's why
I am going to organize a memorial

for the whole school,

and I'll sing "Imagine"

to honor her and how special she was.

Oh, and I can play the piano.

Oh my God,
you guys are such f*cking phonies.

None of you were nice to her.

The only reason that you want to do
this stupid memorial

is so that you can show off and sing,
but she hated that song.

And you all hated her.

You called her Raggedy Ann...

[exhales]

...and freckle-faced dork.

And devil pubes.

- [Tully] Hey, come on.
- [Kate] No! No!

Every single one of you
treated her like sh*t,

and now you want to use her death
to feel deep and important.

But all of you
are just a bunch of f*cking posers.

No, and you know what?

She never gave you a tuna fish sandwich
because she was allergic to tuna fish.

Maybe that's why she gave me the sandwich.

[sniffles]

[breathes deeply]

Oh my God,
I hate them all so f*cking much.

- Easy, Mularkey.
- [Kate] No.

I was the only person
who was really friends with her.

They all hated her when she was alive,

and now... and now she's dead and they all
just want to pretend to be sad.

It's so... it's so gross.

[Tully] Can you just shut up
for, like, half a second, please?

- I don't think that they're full of sh*t.
- Oh my God.

[Tully] No, listen!

I wasn't friends with her either,
and I'm still sad.

And I bet you that they are too

because we're in high school,

and people in high school
aren't supposed to die.

And it's hard,

and it's scary, and it's sad.

And I don't think they're pretending.

You know what?

I'm not surprised you don't get it
because you were a total bitch to her too.

[Kate sighs]

[somber music playing]

[Cloud] You want to help me with this?

Party's over.

No, party is not over until we eat cake.

[Marah sighs]

- [Marah sighs]
- Those two can really fight, huh?

You should've seen them
when they were kids.

Oh my God, the yelling and the drama.

One time they got into it
over a Bee Gees record. [exhales]

They sound like one of those birds.
You know, the really screechy kind.

"You were the one who lost it."
"Oh no, no, you were the one who lost it."

The truth is I was the one who lost it
in the trash because f*cking disco sucks.

Am I right?

Anyways, that one was my fault,

but this one right now,

it's not your fault.

You know that, right?

I don't think it's my fault.

Yeah, you do.

[scoffs]

I mean...

they are fighting over me.

- No, they're not.
- Yes, they are.

I'm the reason
they didn't talk for over a year

and I'm the reason
they're fighting right now.

It's not about you, babe.

I know it must have been hard growing up
the daughter of a Firefly Lane girl.

It's always Kate and Tully forever.

That sh*t cast a pretty long shadow.

- I don't mind. I love Aunt Tully.
- I know.

Still kind of sucks the air out
of the room for the rest of us.

Those two,
it's a classic codependent dynamic.

And don't get me started on boundaries.

Oh, wait, you can't,
because they have none.

[chuckles]

And that fight that they had,
the one about the accident...

it wasn't about the accident.

After years of too much intensity,
they just needed to...

They needed to break free. Reset.

- But they're still fighting.
- There's this phrase I heard once in AA,

I think it's Jungian psychology,
that "what you resist, persists."

Pretty sure old Carl Jung would say

those two haven't sorted
the roots of their issues.

But either way...

it ain't about you.

Also, you should know...

this cake is incredible.

It's like an orgasm from heaven.

Mmm.

[thunder rumbles]

[Johnny] That was transcendent!

[both panting]

Oh God!

I think I blacked out there at the end.

Whew!

[exhales]

- Hey, do you mind if I jump in the shower?
- Oh my God.

I gotta get back to the station.
I told 'em I was ducking out for some gum.

[Kate] Mmm.

Holy sh*t, I'm an adulteress.

I just committed adultery.

Well, I think, technically, you have to be
married for it to count as adultery.

It's not funny, okay?
I'm a terrible person.

You're... You're a wonderful person.

You're, like, the best person.

No, I'm a total d*ck.

What... What? Hey, Kate. Kate. Come on.

No, you come on.

I am sick, and I'm crazy,
and I gotta get off this roller coaster.

I'm marrying Theo, okay? End of story.

This was great. This was goodbye,
and you need to move on, Johnny.

Well, I think that we both know
it's not that simple.

And it gets more complicated
every time we're in a room together.

And it's bad enough that you and I
are constantly hurting each other.

But then I'm gonna go risk hurting Theo.
And for what?

I don't care that you love me, and I...

[sighs]

...love you.

We don't have a future together. Okay?

It was a huge,
ridiculous, colossal mistake.

[phone ringing]

Oh f*ck.

Just take your shower and go.

[Kate sighs]

Hello.

Oh, hey, Mom.

Yeah, everything's fine.

Yeah, it's just we're about to pick out
wedding invitations. Yeah.

Right, I just don't really want to invite
people that I've never met to my wedding.

You can see it when it airs tonight at...

Well, they said they'd give me a discount,
so that's kind of cool.

Why would that be bad luck, Mom?
It's a really nice dress.

- [inaudible]
- [door opens, closes]

[Theo] Kate!

Hey, babe.

Babe?

Oh.

...public to stay indoors
as the storm is expected to worsen.

This has been Tully Hart,
reporting live for KPOC.

Kate, you home, love?

[shower running]

Hello.

Ah.

Perhaps my dirty girl
would like a sexy surprise.

[chuckles]

[groans]

[suspenseful music playing]

Back for round two, Mularkey...

Tell him that is ridiculous.

There's no such thing
as raising the baby British.

[agonizing scream]

Mom, I'll call you back.

[screaming]

Oh my God, what happened?

- He... He, um, slipped and fell.
- [Theo coughs]

And I heard something pop.

[Theo continues screaming]

[exhales]

[Kate] Is he gonna be okay?

He'll probably lose a testicle,
but he'll be fine.

How is that fine?

[sighs] Theo, I am so sorry.

Is there anything I can do?

[scoffs] Yes, yes, give me back
my granny's ring.

Oh. Of course.

[breathes heavily] You know, my mother,
she only pretended to like you.

What?

[exhales]

Please leave.

Mularkey...

I can't believe
I used to think I was a good person.

You are.

- You're... You're... You're an amazing person.
- Stop it.

I cannot even look at you. Just leave.

- [somber music playing]
- [thunder rumbles]

[Kate sighs]

[knocking on window]

Uh...

[Coop groaning]

- [Kate] Oh. Jesus, Coop. What the hell?
- [Coop grunts]

Okay. Okay.

And we're in.

- [Kate] What?
- [Coop exhales, clears throat]

- [Kate] Uh...
- Sorry, didn't want to use the front door.

What are you doing here?

I don't know.

Just seemed like you needed to talk.

I... I don't want to talk.

Um, should I go?

Um, could you just, like,

hold me?

You... You want me to hold you?

Yeah, just, like,
lay on the bed and hold me.

Yeah, sure. Sure, yeah.

Okay.

[gentle music playing]

[Coop exhales]

[Coop exhales]

- Let's...
- Yeah, um...

[Coop exhales]

[Kate exhales]

- Is this good?
- Yeah, it's good.

Do you...

have a boner?

[Coop sighs]

I'm sorry. I can't... I can't help it.

- No, it's... it's... it's okay. Um...
- Okay.

[Kate sighs]

[knocking on door]

- Oh sh*t, that's my mom.
- sh*t.

[Kate] You gotta go.

- [Kate exhales] Uh...
- [Coop grunts]

[Kate] Okay.

- Ow! Oh! No, no, no, no, no!
- [Coop thuds]

Uh, come in.

Hey.

[Kate] What are you doing here?

Nothing, I just wanted to hang out.

- You're not mad at me?
- No.

- I yelled at you and called you a bitch.
- [Tully] I know.

But then I talked to Mr. Waverly,

and he said you were angry
because it made you feel in control.

He said you were yelling

so you wouldn't have to face
what you're really feeling,

which is helpless and sad.

Oh God, your thing with him is so creepy.

Do you want him to be your dad,
or do you wanna have sex with him?

You know what? Fine, I'll just go.

Good. I don't care.

Okay, good. Great, bye.

[sighs]

[scoffs]

[sighs]

[tender music playing]

[sighs]

[knocking on door]

Come on in.

What?

I thought you left.

You're not that lucky, Mularkey.

Why are you still here?

[sighs] I'm here because you need me.

You also need to stop being such a bitch.

You don't get it.

No one's ever gonna get it.

I'm really f*cking mad at you.
You know that?

[chuckles] Why would you be mad at me?

Because when you got sick, I came back.

No questions asked.
Nothing was gonna keep me away.

I was willing to put aside everything

because you needed me,

and I thought I could just ignore
how I felt about what you did to me.

What I did to you? Are you kidding me?

I know I was wrong.

I know I put Marah in danger,

and it is the biggest
f*cking regret of my life.

I can't imagine what it must've felt like
for you and Johnny, and I am sorry.

I will never stop being sorry,

but you just...

you just abandoned me.

All of you,

Johnny, Sean, Margie, Bud.

You all just threw me away
like I meant nothing to you,

and I thought...

I thought you were my family.

I thought I was an honorary Mularkey,
but it was all just bullshit.

[young Kate] You don't get it.

No one's ever gonna get it.

It's my fault she's dead.

- Kate...
- It's my fault.

I was supposed to
take out the trash that night,

but then Coop came, and I left.

- [Tully] It doesn't make it your fault.
- Yeah, it's my fault.

If I'd just stayed
like I was supposed to, but...

And now...

And now she's never gonna go to prom,

or college.

She's never gonna get married

or have a baby. [sobs]

And it's all my fault.

It should've been me, Tully.

It should've been me.

If Johnny or Sean had done what I did,

you would never have shut them out

because they actually are family.

And I am not,

and I never was.

And it was all just a lie.

And I don't know
how to forgive you for it.

[Kate sobbing]

I am so sorry I shut you out.

You are family,

but when I heard that you two
had come here together, I just...

I wish you could see
that I am not the same person I was

when I got in that accident.

[Kate] I know you're not,
but neither am I.

But we keep acting like it is the same.

You're acting like
when I say I don't want a bridal shower,

that means throw me
a f*cking, g*dd*mn bridal shower.

Yeah, you're right.

I'm sorry, I should've listened.

And maybe somehow,
I'm just lording it over you

that you f*cked up and I'm
the bigger person for forgiving you.

But you haven't.

Well, it's a process, okay?

- Well, could you speed it up a little?
- I'm trying. Jesus.

[Tully sighs]

[Kate sighs]

[sucks teeth]

I really am trying.

[Kate sniffles]

Do you think we can ever really be
Firefly Lane girls ever again?

[chuckles]

[breathes deeply]

We still are, you assh*le.

[both chuckle]

If that sh*t couldn't break us up,
then I don't think anything will.

[Kate sniffles]

[inhales shakily]
Thanks for not leaving. [sobs]

Of course.

What do you think
"Firefly Lane girls forever" means to me?

[sobbing]

[door opens]

[Tully] Kate, I'm home.

You're never gonna believe what...

You okay?

Theo lost a ball.

- What?
- The engagement's off.

I'll get the wine.

[thunder rumbles]

And then they just wheeled him away,
and he gave me the finger.

Are you laughing?

- No.
- This isn't funny.

He broke off our engagement.

Well, can you really blame the guy?

I guess I just thought
if I focused on how great Theo was,

I could just ignore
my feelings for Johnny,

but it's like the more I was pushing away,
the more it was just, like, coming at me.

How hard were you really pushing, though?

With all my might, Tul.

Sure. Yeah. I mean,
that is how I like to push people away.

By having sex with them.

I actually do do that.

This is a nightmare, okay?

I don't want to love Johnny.
It's a dead-end street.

- Are you sure about that?
- [Kate] Yes.

Well, now it's ruined forever.
We're cheaters. We're terrible people.

No, you're not. You're just in love.

We want different things.
I want marriage and kids, he doesn't.

So love or not, we're doomed.

[Kate sighs]

What did you want to tell me before
when you came in?

Oh, it's nothing. I saw Cloud today.

- Seriously? Where?
- Doesn't matter.

What matters is my best friend is sad
and she needs cheesy, doughy goodness.

So, what is taking this pizza
so long to get here?

If it doesn't get here
within the next three minutes, it's free.

- [phone ringing]
- Oh.

- Hello.
- [Kate sighs]

- [whispers] It's Johnny.
- [mouthing] I'm not home.

She's not here. May I take a message?

Okay.

[whispers] He says he knows I'm full of it
and he wants to talk.

Well, tell him I have nothing to say.

She has nothing to say.

[Tully sighs]

He says,
"I'm done with the bullshit, Mularkey."

Good. Me too.

It's time to stop pretending
we don't belong together.

[scoffs] Yeah, a little late for that.

We can't undo what happened to Theo.
It was awful and wrong.

But so is being apart.

[phone chimes]

[Johnny] When I lifted up that veil today,

all I could think of was that someone else
was gonna get to do that for real,

that some other bloke
was gonna get to be your husband,

- and the father of your children...
- [Kate sighs]

...and that would be
the biggest regret of my life.

Kate, God damn it, say something!

- Johnny. Listen, I just...
- [line ends]

- [dial tone]
- Johnny? Hello?

What the hell?

He just gives up. You see what I'm saying?

He just talks a big game, and then click.
"Bye, Mularkey."

[knocking on door]

Well, at least the pizza's free.

[gasps] Oh sh*t. Kate!

[Tully exhales]

Hey, Mularkey.

[Kate breathes heavily]

- How did you...
- I was at the pay phone outside.

So, what do you say?

[Kate exhales]

Will you marry me?

[continues breathing heavily]

Yes.

Yes! [chuckles]

- ["Landslide" by Fleetwood Mac playing]
- ♪ I took my love, I took it down ♪

Thank God. Finally.

♪ I climbed a mountain
And I turned around ♪

♪ And I saw my reflection
In the snow-covered hills ♪

♪ 'Til the landslide brought me down... ♪

Oh my God. It's so beautiful.

[Johnny and Kate chuckle]

[screams] I love it!

- Whoo!
- [all chuckle]

♪ Can the child within my heart
Rise above? ♪

♪ Can I sail
Through the changin' ocean tides? ♪

♪ Can I handle the seasons of my life? ♪

♪ Mmm ♪

♪ Well, I've been afraid of changin' ♪

♪ 'Cause I've built my life around you ♪

♪ But time makes you bolder... ♪

- I'm so sorry that I yelled, sweetie.
- It's okay.

- I'm sorry that I drove with Aunt Tully.
- No, no, it...

You did nothing wrong.

It's okay.

[Kate sighs]

I had forgotten how pretty she was.

- [Tully] Danny.
- [Danny] Oh!

- Oh.
- [Tully chuckles]

[Danny] There you are.

How was the bridal shower?

Ugh. Disastrous... [exhales]

...and beautiful.

- A beautiful disaster.
- Oh. [chuckles]

- What's going on?
- [Danny exhales]

I wanna ask you something,

um, and it's...

[sputters, exhales]

...kind of weird.

Um...

Uh, we... we have this history, you and I...

[sputters]

...but you're so important to me,

and...

you're... you're just
such a big part of my life.

What are you trying to say, Danny?

Tallulah Rose...

will you be my...

best woman at the wedding?

Oh Jesus, Danny.

- You scared me.
- [Danny] What? I'm sorry.

What did you think I was gonna say?

I have no idea, but yes.

- [Danny] Yes?
- Of course I will be your best woman.

Oh!

Oh, thank you so much!

♪ The landslide bring it down ♪

Hello, fiancée.

[Kate chuckles]

[Johnny exhales]

I've been thinking about it.

I don't want some judge to marry us
that we've barely met.

It should be someone
who knows us, who knows our history,

and who loves us, and we love them.

You know?

Yeah, I agree.

She's the only choice.

Really? You don't think that she'll make
our whole wedding all about her?

- Of course she will.
- [Kate chuckles]

[Johnny] But she will also make it
about us.

And there's no one who knows us better
or cares about us more.

For better or for worse.

Okay, but can you call and tell her later?

Let's take a shower.

[phone ringing]

I'll be right there.

[Johnny] You better be.

[exhales] Hello.

[chuckles]

I'll be right there.

[on phone] Kate. This is Dr. Ackerman.
Sorry to call you so late.

- [shower running]
- Oh, there's no problem. Um...

My back is feeling so much better.

I did the stretches you suggested,
and I'm so sorry I bothered you with that.

[Dr. Ackerman]
No, it's a good thing you did.

Kate, I'm concerned
about what I'm seeing on your x-rays.

I'd like you to come in for a PET scan
as soon as possible.

[tender music playing]

[music fades]