01x19 - I'm So Sorry!

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Hello, hello!
I'm here to pick up the draft!

Please hurry up and get the door.

He must be pretending he's not home again.

Hello!

Hello!

I know you're in there! Hello!

Hi there!

Where the hell are you?!

Funny story…

TAKOYARO

I got this sudden craving
for takoyaki from Takoyaro.

But the draft is due today!

Did you say "today"?

That fool!

Just let me catch him,
I'll boil him alive!

Oh! I'm sorry!

No, I'm sorry for getting in your way!

-I'm sorry!
-No, I'm sorry!

-I'm sorry, there's a foolish writer…
-I'm sorry I stood in your way…

I'm sorry, I must away now.

I'm coming to get you, you idiot writer!

-Just you see!
-Oh, is that Micchan?

Oh no!

The bottom of my bag fell out.

Let me give you a hand with that!

Oh, I got it.
I don't want to be a bother.

It's okay.
Kindness makes the world go round.

I'm so sorry.
Trouble follows me wherever I go.

Oh… I shouldn't even be breathing
the same air as others…

I'm sorry I dragged you into this.

I am so sorry!
Let me apologize to the entire world!

I am deeply sorry!

I will apologize to the entire world!
I am sorry!

Are you Ricchan?

You are a stranger, but you know my name!
I see my notoriety has preceded me.

-How much have I made myself known?
-Um…

-I've been so ignorant!
-I'm sorry…

-I'm really sorry to all my namesakes!
-What's Ricchan doing here?

I'm so sorry for visiting you!

I am deeply sorry!

What a pleasant surprise!

You came all the way here
to visit me in my humble den.

Yes, and I'm sorry about that.
I caused Tohru a lot of distress.

You were no trouble at all!

I'm happy to meet you!

Ricchan of the Monkey.
I finally get to meet her.

I didn't know she would be a girl.

So why'd you come?

Oh, I'm sorry if I'm intruding…

Yes you are.

-I'm sorry, I'll leave right now!
-I'm just kidding.

But really, what's the reason you're here?

I've heard that most of the Zodiac circle
have met Tohru.

So I wanted to see her,
introduce myself too.

Hello, my name is Ritsu Soma.

Thank you for looking after my mother
the other day.

It was a pleasure. I'm Tohru Honda.

Oh, I brought a little something.

Really? What is it?

I thought about bringing fruit, but…

I didn't know what you'd want,
so I got you books on fruit instead.

Don't you like them?
Did I presume too much?

No, no, don't worry about it.

-I'm sorry! I'll go get some real fruit!
-I'm just kidding.

I should never have come here.

-That's not true.
-He's right!

I've wanted to meet you!

The fact that you came to see me
makes me very, very happy!

Thank you so much.

She's even prettier when she smiles.

Well, anyway…

Much like your mother, you are too anxious
and prone to panic att*cks.

Also, you're almost of legal working age.

You're right. I'm sorry…

You do realize
you'll need to work on those issues?

Yes, of course!

I wish I were more confident.

I hope that one day I'll be like Ayame.

Someone who exudes confidence.

Sorry, that's impossible.

Why?! Is it an unrealistic dream?

Ayame's confidence is a thing out
of this world. It's not for normal people.

That really sucks…

First of all, you apologize too much.

-I'm sorry…
-Case in point.

As your first step on the path
to growth and confidence,

you must stop feeling sorry
and excessively apologizing.

Tohru, will you back me up?

Of course!

They're doing all this for my sake…
They're being so nice to me!

I will do my absolute best!

I'm home!

Good timing. Yuki's home.

Ricchan, it starts now!

Oh, but I don't know if I'm ready…

Ricchan, you got this!

Huh? Ritsu, what are you doing here?

I know I shouldn't be here!

I don't care…

Ricchan!

Hello, Yuki.

You look more and more like Ayame.

-Make yourself at home.
-What?!

Was that improper?!

Not at all.

No! I'm so sorry!

Hey, Kyo's home.

Ricchan, let's rewind
and go back to square one.

What?

What the hell is Ritsu doing here?

I know I shouldn't be here at all, I know!

But I came to meet Tohru.

So, Kyo…

I'm happy for you.

To think that you and Yuki get along
well enough to live together.

We do not get along!

I'm so sorry!

I take back what I said about you two!

I'm sorry! I'll just go away.

I'm a fool, and I should never
have come here.

If you'll excuse me, I'm about to leave.

I'm sorry for overstaying my welcome!

Wait!

But how? She's a girl…

Wouldn't she transform
only if she was hugged by a guy?

Huh?

I'm so sorry!

Listen, Tohru…

Ricchan is actually a boy.

But he always dresses as a girl.

Now it makes sense…
But why do you dress this way?

I feel more comfortable
in women's clothing.

I was just trying it out at first.

But ever since I realized
how it made me feel,

I couldn't go back to men's clothes.

Kagura, can I have these clothes?

Huh? Are you going to wear them?

I'm sorry. I'm embarrassed about that.

You shouldn't be! You look beautiful!

Tohru, I'm not sure you're helping…

Soon, you need to get out there
and look for a job.

Will you do it as a woman?

Do you think that I shouldn't?

But anyway…

Why don't you first go get out
of those uniforms?

Yeah, let's go change.

Please excuse us for a bit.

I'm sorry, Shigure.

I said that I was going to do my best,
but I ended up embarrassing myself again.

Idiot writer!

Someone is calling out.

Close the door behind you!

-What?!
-Hurry!

Okay!

Idiot writer!

I know you're in there! Come out already!

Come out or else!

Shigure, who is this woman?

She's basically my stalker.

What? A stalker?

Yes, and now that she knows where I live,
I don't know what to do.

So Ricchan…

Can you go turn her away?

What?

Ricchan!

This could be your best opportunity!

If you confidently keep the stalker away,

it's a major step forward for you!

Shigure…

Understood.

Let me go handle this!

There you go!

Hehe.

Hello?

Uh? Oh…

Sir?

Hello.

So he's hanging out with some hussy?

No, I'm a relative!

A relative? Yeah, right!
A hussy and a liar!

I'm not lying!

Sir, come out here!

We're done here!

-Sir, come out!
-Please stop!

You better be done!

But he's not!

Oh no…

How could he not have the draft?

What draft?

Hello…

Dear Mother and Father.

Forgive me for my untimely demise.

-What are you doing?
-It's my will.

If the draft isn't finished,
I have no choice but to die.

I hope I'll get to see the draft
from the other side.

-Micchan?
-Huh?

Hey, Micchan! How's it going?

Wait a second!

Why won't you just come to the door?!

Why indeed.

The draft? Where is it?!

It's ready.

Here.

Thank you so much!

-It's completed!
-Um, hello?

-Who is she?
-I can't believe it!

Micchan is Shigure's editor.

I had no idea! I'm so sorry
for getting in the way of your job!

I'm so sorry!

Micchan! Get hold of yourself!

No!

Hey! What are you doing?

O God, O Buddha.

Something unforgivable has happened,
and I am the reason.

-Ricchan!
-Oh boy.

The precious draft was never finished,
the editor lady will be devastated.

It's because I got in the way.
I have no money, so I'll give my life.

-Oh no, oh no!
-Relax, Honda.

I'm a disappointment and a failure.
I didn't live up to anyone's expectations.

So many chances passed,
so many opportunities lost.

Why must I always be a trouble magnet?
I spread distress anywhere I go!

For example, right now.

Ricchan! We don't care about those things.
Please, come down from there!

I've always been like this,
ever since I was a child.

The Zodiac curse alone is trouble enough.

But I'm also weak and clumsy,
and a coward in the bargain.

My parents were always apologizing for me.

I'm sorry… I'm sorry.

Mom, Dad, I know this isn't
what you'd rather to be doing.

I wish you could be proud of me,
not apologetic for my mishaps.

The world is better off
without the likes of me.

But I don't have the guts to end it.

I'm good for nothing.

And yet I hang on, too afraid to let go,

and I hate myself for it.

It's not about being afraid.

-Honda!
-When'd she get up there?

What's wrong with hanging on to life?

Sometimes life means being sad and crying,

but sometimes it's being happy.

All I do is just… live.

I don't think my existence has a purpose.

You're still in the process
of finding your purpose!

You yearn for it, and subconsciously
you're always looking for it.

Your life's purpose.

You're searching for it yourself!

I'm so glad.

So glad that I have you.

You're the reason why
I can smile every day.

I must have been born
to enter your life, Mother!

I really hope so!

Because… not everyone is born
with a purpose to begin with.

Some of us have to discover it on our own.

Honda!

Tohru!

For some, it's their dreams,
for others the work they do,

but it's inside every one of us.

It isn't always clear or reassuring.

And it's often confusing.

And you might even lose it…

But as long as you're alive,
you will always want a purpose.

As I do.

And if at all possible,

I'd like to find
other people's purpose too.

To live for someone else…

To be someone like that.

So…

So, it's perfectly okay
to hang on to life.

If you keep at it, sooner or later

you will live to meet someone
who will accept you as you are.

One day it'll definitely happen.

You think so?

Even for me?

I really hope so.

If it's possible, I also want to…
live… for someone…

And one day…

-Micchan!
-Are you okay?!

The draft!

I'm working on it as we speak.

Thank you!

Give me another hour or so.

-Can you get me some takoyaki?
-Yessir!

It's late. Ricchan,
won't you keep her company?

Huh? Oh. Sure…

TAKOYARO

Thank you for your custom!

I'm so sorry about what happened today.

The apology is mine.
I really embarrassed myself up there.

Don't you think calling me a stalker
was a bit too much, though?

Is he always like that?

Yep, he's always teasing me,

and he misses his deadlines
and disappears al the time!

That's terrible…

I'm not good at this job.

Huh?

I'm always worried and prone to panic.
And my judgment is usually way off.

I end up causing problems for others.

Sometimes, I really hate myself.

Well,

I always caused problems for others
ever since I was little.

And I've always hated myself for that.

I didn't understand why I keep hanging on.

I used to think the world
would be better off without me.

But even so,

I decided to live.

Because even someone like me
might find life's purpose one day.

I might meet someone who needs me.

I didn't come up with this
on my own, though. I had help.

Your story really inspires
motivation in me.

We should get going.
The takoyaki's getting cold.

Okay!

That's good!

-So, about that draft…
-Look! Here comes a morsel!

No time! Hurry up and finish the draft!

Use your takoyaki power
and complete the draft!

Yes, focus your takoyaki energy
and write it up!

I'm just teasing you.

It's done. Here.

Thank you so much!

I'm happy for you, Micchan!

Ricchan, thank you for your support!

Well, I kind of caused all this
to begin with…

Would you like to be my friend?
Of course, only if you want to.

What?

Are you sure you're okay with me?

Yes, of course!

Will you teach me to wear a kimono
the way you do?

-I want to be feminine like you, Ricchan!
-Micchan, listen…

Ricchan is a boy.

-I'm sorry for mistaking you--
-I'm sorry for looking like this!

-I'm so sorry!
-You're so pretty, so I thought…

Oh please, you don't have to say that!
I'm so sorry!

-They're so loud.
-Don't apologize!

This is so dumb.

If you're truly okay with the way I am,
why, I'll do anything with you!

Thank you! I'm looking forward to it!

I'm looking forward to
our long-lasting friendship!

I hope one day I can tell someone
I'm happy I was born for them.

In earnest.

To someone I have yet to meet,

someone waiting for me out there…
just as I am.