03x06 - It Was So Foolish

[bunniefuu]

[HATSUHARU]

Good for you.

You made a true friend--

one who really cares about you.

You must be so happy.

[ISUZU]

Stop crying!

Sorry!

[HATSUHARU]

Definitely happy.

I can tell from the

way you're blushing.

Well, you seem to be unusually

energetic today, Isuzu.

[TOHRU]

Master!

[KAZUMA] I suppose that it

must lift your spirits,

a friend visiting.

Oh. Did you say "a friend"?

[TOHRU chuckles]

They get along so well.

Yeah.

Minus the v*olence, maybe.

[YUKI] Will she be staying

here to recuperate, then?

[KAZUMA]

For a while.

She prefers it to the hospital

or the main estate.

[YUKI] She was locked up

by Akito, wasn't she?

Rin doesn't want us to

tell Honda what happened.

And the thought of

having anything more

to do with Akito frightens her.

Me, too. I want them kept apart.

[YUKI]

Okay.

Awful. Poor girl.

Can you tell me, Hatsuharu,

where Isuzu was being held?

[HATSUHARU]

The Cat's room.

[KAZUMA]

I see.

The same cage that's

meant to hold Kyo soon.

[KYO] Don't know for sure,

but I get the feeling Master's

gonna let Isuzu

move in with him.

[TOHRU chuckles]

[gasps]

You have nothing to worry about!

You're still number one

in Master's book!

He lives for you, Kyo!

I'm not worried about it at all,

so quit sayin' weird stuff.

Plus, to be honest,

I think her staying there's

actually a good idea.

With someone else

around the place,

he's less likely to get lonely.

Miss Honda?

What's up?

[YUKI] The anniversary of

your mom's death is this week.

Could I come with you

to the gravesite?

Of course. I would love that!

I'm going on Saturday morning

with Uo-chan and Hana-chan.

[KYO]

Sorry. I can't go.

Oh... 'Kay.

[SHIGURE]

Well, that was a disaster.

Not only did your search for

a way to break the curse fail,

you wound up in

trouble, as well.

You acted recklessly

and paid the price.

I talked to Ren.

She said that she would tell

me how it could be done.

She promised.

Yeah, about that...

she lied to you.

Huh?

[SHIGURE]

Ren has no idea how to break it.

Smart money says

she was using you.

Another pawn in her

feud with Akito.

And you were desperate

enough to fall for it.

You're wrong.

I don't blame you for being

less than willing to trust me.

But I promise, I know Ren

much better than you do.

She and I are close,

you see. Very close.

Rin, the thing is, the zodiac

curse is going to break.

On its own, without help.

It will break.

No need to work yourself

to death over it.

Things are already in motion.

Those ancient ties

have begun to fray.

Eventually, all of

us will be free.

We are the generation invited

to the final banquet.

What? Don't just make stuff up!

[TOHRU] What do you

mean... "eventually"?

How long is that?

When will it finally happen?

Years from now? Decades?

That's not good enough.

It has to be broken

by next spring, or...

Or Kyo will--!

Wait, Shigure. All this time...

did you know it would break?

You give me too much credit.

I didn't know for sure.

I simply had a feeling that

we might be nearing the end.

Apparently, this is the first

time the whole zodiac

has been alive at once.

Such a momentous occurrence.

The attendants were

positively thrilled.

But I came up with

my own theory.

It's all about the

banquet, remember.

What if everyone's attending

because this is the last one?

Would you like further proof?

Take a look at good old Kureno.

His curse broke without

him even trying.

What? So, you mean he--?

[SHIGURE] Shall I spell

it out further for you?

Very well. Simply put,

Kureno isn't one of us anymore.

And his thinking

aligns with mine.

He says he also believes

the end is drawing near.

One change follows another,

and before you know it,

it all comes tumbling down.

Of course, as things stand,

Kyo will still be locked up.

[TOHRU gasps]

Oh, yes, Tohru, we know.

Every member of the zodiac knows

just what will happen to him.

And in the not-too-distant

future, at that.

But we won't do or say anything.

He'll get no help from us.

Why not?

Because... he's serving

his purpose as the Cat.

[gasps]

We zodiac members are monsters.

So, it's a relief to

know there's someone

more monstrous out there.

"Thank God," we think.

"At least I'm not like him."

The Cat is a gift to the

rest of us, you see--

an other creature

for us to exclude.

You may not have realized,

but Kyo knows--

[TOHRU]

Shigure!

Mad at me?

The Cat's burden will end,

too. Sooner or later.

It's not that I believe Kureno's

story without question,

but it matches what

my gut tells me.

However, you said "eventually"

isn't good enough.

Are you hoping to save him?

Do-Do you love--?

[ISUZU gasps]

[ISUZU]

Kyo? Does she really?

[ISUZU] What is it that's

most precious to you?

Tell me.

[TOHRU]

That question.

I should've said my mom

without even thinking,

but I couldn't.

What came to mind instead was...

Why? Why?

That day... I made a

promise and I meant it.

Tohru, dear.

You ready to go?

Anything else to pack?

[TOHRU] It was like...

I could feel her disappearing.

She'd been there so recently,

bright and alive.

Looking at me, smiling

that smile of hers,

warm and comforting.

But that, too, was

starting to fade.

[GRANDFATHER]

Kyoko, dear, it's time to go.

[TOHRU] So I swore to myself,

no matter what happened,

no matter how much time passed,

I would always put

Mom first in my heart.

I believed as long

as I did that,

I could keep holding

on to all of it.

My memories of her...

The promise we made....

"Always together."

I had to believe,

because if I didn't,

I knew I would collapse.

And now... she's going again.

Someplace far away.

It feels so wrong, but...

[KYO]

Tohru?

[gasps] What's wrong?

Why are you crying?

[TOHRU] Because I...

I don't know what to do.

[TOHRU]

I'm lost!

[KYO] Well, in that case...

just don't do anything.

[gasps]

[KYO]

Give yourself time.

Wait until you have to do

something, then act.

And, uh, well,

it's okay, you know.

You can cry.

[TOHRU]

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry, I know it's selfish,

but I wanna stay here

just a little longer.

[TOHRU]

Because eventually I really will

have to do something.

And when that time comes,

I think... I know

what I'll let go of.

[GRANDFATHER]

Oh, my! I know you.

You're that boy.

I remember your hair!

[KYO]

You're Tohru's--

[GRANDFATHER]

That's right.

I'm Kyoko's--I mean,

Tohru's grandfather.

She's been living at your

place for some time now.

[KYO] I don't mean to be rude,

but why are you sitting here?

It's quite all right.

I was walking along,

and wouldn't you know it,

I strained my back again.

Huh? Are you okay?

[GRANDFATHER] I'll be fine.

I'm just waiting for my ride.

I suppose you came out here

to pay your respects

to Kyoko, as well.

Thank you for that.

Kyoko--I mean, Tohru is

doing well these days, I hope.

Hey, um, do you always

call her "Kyoko"?

[GRANDFATHER]

Hm? Yes, I do.

You don't think that's

a little messed-up?

Yes, perhaps.

But you see, I wanted

to keep her alive.

There had to be some way

to tie them together.

Some sort of reminder

or proof I could offer

that Kyoko really had existed,

even if she was gone now.

Without that, I feared

Tohru would break

in a way that could

never be mended.

I'm curious, young man,

do you have any idea

why my granddaughter

talks the way she does?

[KYO]

Uh. No, I don't.

She's imitating Katsuya.

Uh, that's her father.

Started doing it when she

was still a little girl.

It was after his funeral.

Some nasty relatives

had said nasty things.

"She doesn't look a bit

like Katsuya," they said.

"Are we even sure

that she's his?"

"Such a child won't be of any

comfort at all. What a pity."

Young as she was, maybe

they thought they could say

whatever they wanted because

she wouldn't understand.

How stupid of them.

Children absolutely understand.

They know contempt

when they hear it.

Playing hide-and-seek, Kagura?

Shh! Sensei, please just

pretend I'm not here.

I hope I'm not intruding.

[KAZUMA]

Not at all. Come on in.

I take it you've dropped

by to see Isuzu?

Yes, I was on my way home

from visiting my mom's...

You're welcome to head

on up to her room.

Well, what's wrong?

Are you avoiding her

because you had a fight?

Not a fight. It's more

complicated than that.

I don't think I can see

her after everything.

I haven't figured out

how to move on.

I know that'll show on my face.

I'll feel like she's the

winner and I'm the loser.

And understanding that about

myself is the worst part of all!

Ugh, this is so frustrating!

You're right, that does

sound awfully complicated.

[KAGURA] If she'd just get

together with Kyo already,

I could at least be

resigned to it.

What do you think?

Does she love Kyo?

Yeah, why wouldn't she love him?

That's like the stupidest

question ever!

And anyway, I know he's

head over heels for her.

[gasps]

[KAGURA] Sensei? I thought

it would make you happy.

I'm just a bit worried,

I suppose.

I hope she loves Kyo

for the right reasons.

For the person he is.

And not just out of

compassion or pity.

[ISUZU] So, any special

reason you're here?

Well, I felt bad.

It was so rude of me to run

away like that last time,

and it's been several days now.

You taking off didn't

bother me, but...

Why Kyo? Of all people.

I mean, he's the Cat.

Do you pity him?

[KAZUMA]

You may not have known this,

but the previous Cat

had a companion.

The woman in charge

of looking after him.

She conceived his child.

Stayed with him till his death.

One day, someone asked her,

"How could you devote so

many years of your life

to a creature like the Cat?"

Poor thing. I couldn't help

but feel sorry for him.

[KAZUMA] Perhaps that sentiment

is a laudable one.

And perhaps my

grandfather was happier

than he would have been

spending his days alone.

But still...

Hm?

[TOHRU]

This feeling.

It's cruel and greedy.

All-consuming.

Can it really be pity?

It sounds noble, saying I wanna

protect the zodiac members.

Free them from the curse.

But those are just... excuses!

I'm hiding from

my true feelings.

Tricking you, like a coward.

The truth is...

[TOHRU] I put Mom first in

my heart before, but now...

What I want is him. I want Kyo.

I can't let him be

taken from me.

Not by the curse, or the

Somas, or anyone else!

Because more than anything,

he's what's precious to me!

[KAGURA]

Why are you telling her?

Idiot! You should

be telling him!

Dear Tohru took their

cruelty to heart.

It was like she lost them both.

Katsuya was dead, and Kyoko

was withering before her eyes.

[TOHRU] Daddy went

someplace far away, right?

What about Mommy?

Is she going to go there, too?

She seems sick.

And she won't talk to me.

Maybe it makes her sad that

I don't look like Daddy.

If I start acting just like him,

will she get better?

Will she stay with me?

[GRANDFATHER]

Not long after, there was a time

when Kyoko was away from home--

from Tohru--for a long while.

It started then.

[KYOKO]

It started then.

Katsuya... She sounded like him.

[KYO] She never

finished that sentence,

but I think I finally know

how it would have ended.

[KYO] One time, Kyoko had to

stay out all night for work.

Tohru was home by herself,

so I thought I'd sneak over

and get a look at her.

The Tohru I saw that night,

sitting all alone,

is that who Tohru really is?

[KYO] Even now, is she still...

that lonely girl?

[TOHRU yelps]

Uh.

[TOHRU]

Oh, you startled me.

I didn't realize you were home!

[KYO]

Yeah.

You came back early too, huh?

Yeah, a bit.

I mean, I heard that it was

supposed to rain this evening.

But I guess there was

nothing to worry about!

Hey. I was just wondering,

what did your dad look like?

[gasps]

[KYO]

You don't remember him well,

but do you resemble him?

At all?

No. I, um... I don't.

Not in-Not in the way I look.

Oh, but you know,

there's one thing.

People say my way of speaking

is a lot like his.

Even Mom thought so.

She told me that it was similar.

[KYO] Oh, yeah? Well, that

probably made her happy.

[TOHRU]

No. That's a lie.

I'm actually nothing like him.

I started imitating him so I

wouldn't seem so different.

[TOHRU]

It's awful, but the truth is...

...in my head, I made

my dad the bad guy.

He wasn't, of course,

not at all.

I remember his kindness,

and the presents

he would give me.

I really do remember them.

But... back then...

...I thought he might take

Mom away with him.

I had to find some way

to make her notice me,

so she wouldn't leave

and go to him.

I wanted to keep her alive.

I couldn't bear

to be left behind.

I'd do anything to feel safe.

To keep the person I love

from being taken from me.

So I did it.

I pinned the blame on my dad

because it made it easier.

That's how selfish I am.

I'd break any promise

for my own sake.

I'm horrible.

[KYO]

It was... so foolish.

She must've thought

hard about it.

She didn't want her mom

to go and leave her behind,

so she needed to

figure something out.

She chased the image of

her father in her memories.

[TOHRU] And the answer

she came up with was...

[TOHRU]

"W-Welcome home."

"I'm glad you're back."

"Did you enjoy yourself?"

"I'm glad to hear it."

[KYO] It was off the mark

and totally absurd,

but it was what she had.

It was so foolish,

watching her stubbornly

keep at it.

[KYO] Watching her do her

best to hide her loneliness...

Seeing her t*rture

herself like that...

It was so foolish.

And it made my heart ache.

[KYO] I'm sure that your mom

realized what you were doing.

And guessed the reason why.

But I'm also sure...

that it helped her.

That it gave her strength.

[TOHRU]

I hope that's true.

[KYO]

It is. Believe it.

[TOHRU] I'm sorry.

I must sound so pathetic.

--[TOHRU] I shouldn't say--

--[KYO] It's fine.

Say it. Whatever you need.

[KYO]

You won't disappoint me.

[KAGURA]

I refuse to apologize.

Tohru and I communicated

with our fists.

You're the only one

who did any hitting.

[KAGURA] Some people can

easily trust others

to do what needs to be done.

And honestly, I kind

of envy them for that.

But maybe I can do it, too.

Because what she was feeling

definitely wasn't pity.

All right, it's settled!

I'll leave it to her!

Give me a break.

You're so annoying

when you get like this.

Stop complaining and hug me!

[TOHRU]

This is him, my father.

[KYO] So, you do

have a photo of him.

I kinda figured.

[KAGURA] Idiot!

You should be telling him!

I--

[gasps]

[gasps]

[KYO]

Hm?

What's wrong?

[TOHRU]

Nothing.

[KYO]

I remember.

I locked it away, but...

I won't forgive you.

[TOHRU]

Kyo. Your face.

Is something the matter?

What's wrong?

Kyo, please...

[KYO]

I remember now.

[TOHRU]

Kyo!

[KYOKO]

I won't forgive you.

[AKITO]

"That's right, it's empty."