04x05 - No Regrets

[bunniefuu]

- No.
- No?

- No.
- [INHALES DEEPLY]

- Dad?
- No.

So, I can safely take that
as a no, can I?

- [BOTH] Yes.
- Okay. Fair enough.

Sorry, Paul, but it
really is a straight...

Mm. Dad, I heard. Thank you.

How's the revision going, girls?

We can still study
and look at our phones.

No, I... I know. I wasn't being sarky.

I'm just impressed you started so early.

Have you had any breakfast, Grace?

- Ava made me tea and toast.
- Classic.

Right, my first day at
my new gig, so wish me luck.

Good luck. See you later.

Thanks. Have a good revision day.

Are you gonna do anything fun as well?

Might go shopping and get some chips.

Hmm. That's also classic.

And are we gonna meet Holly
this half-term?

- Not sure. We'll see.
- Okay. Right. See you later.

- Bye.
- Bye.

[FOOTSTEPS DEPART]

Hasn't Holly been to your house yet?

No, I see her at her place
or at her dad's,

or at Granny and Granddad's
sheltered housing

when she's working.

The whole "meet the parents"
thing gives Holly the ick.

[CHUCKLES] What about
the "meet the friends" thing?

How do you mean?

I still haven't met her yet.
Really like to.

She obviously means a lot to you.

No, sure. Yeah. Let's do that soon.

Great.

Oh, hey, Keysha.
How are you this morning?

Well, if you're asking as
my boss, I'm great, thanks.

And if I'm asking as your friend?

- Hangover from hell.
- Ah.

Can barely function.

Probably have a little sleep
at lunchtime.

Well, I won't tell your boss.

Thanks. He can be a real tool.

So I've heard, yeah. [CHUCKLES]

[ROS] Morning, Paul. How's it going?

Uh, pretty good, thanks.
Yeah, anything I need to know?

Oh, you already know everything, Paul.

You're like the Borg.
Is it the Borg? Star Trek?

Oh, Christ, I don't... I don't know.

I don't really know science fiction.

- I've never seen Star Wars.
- [GASPS]

- I've never seen The Godfather.
- [LAUGHS] That's f*cking mad.

Oh, uh, by the way,
the new kid in the office?

- He's pretty good.
- Yeah. He's... Ah.

Actually, no, I'm not a fan,
really. Hello, mate.

Ah, thanks, Luke. You're a star.

And the rest of these
are for the boardroom?

Yes, there's a meeting going on,
but you can just knock and go in.

Right. Okay. Just sort of knock?

And sort of go in, yeah.

- [EXHALES]
- Um... hey, you're doing great.

- What's this? Day three?
- Yeah.

- Yeah.
- Yeah. Good to have a half-term

- job that actually pays.
- Yeah.

Feel like a proper working man.

- Good.
- Grown up.

- [INHALES DEEPLY]
- Like a dad, almost.

Maybe. [CHUCKLES] Um...

[MUFFLED, INDISTINCT CONVERSATION]

So, just a knock, and then I go in?

Yeah, yeah.

Okay.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATION CONTINUES]

[PAUL] No, trust me, Luke.

You're gonna get into somewhere great.

I'm not even sure
I wanna get in anywhere.

You know, I'm gonna be a dad.

Maybe I should just get a job
and not go to uni.

No, get some offers in first,
mate, then decide.

Don't... Don't rush into anything.

[EXHALES] Dad, can I tell you
something I've noticed this week?

Yeah, go on.

I've been watching you
at work, and you seem...

happier.

Than?

- Than you are at home.
- Oh.

[EXHALES] You know,
everyone really likes you,

and you seem really up
and sort of "on" all the time.

Yeah. That's... [CHUCKLES]

I don't love everyone at work, do I?

Good, because that would be weird.

No, but you know what I mean?
I... I love everyone at home,

and so things can feel
hugely... [INHALES]

important, and I can
get stressed and angry.

At work, the stakes are much lower.

I mean, I'd... I'd be sad
if one of them d*ed, but...

[CHUCKLES]

It's just nice to see you happy.

Hmm.

I'm not in misery
all the time at home, am I?

No, but...

Haunting the kitchen
like a f*cking Dementor.

[CHUCKLES]

Right. We should get back.
I'll ask for the bill.

- Oh, no, I'll get this.
- No, don't be silly.

No, no, no. I'd... I'd like to.

I'm earning money now, temporarily.

- Yeah?
- Mm.

Okay. Thank you.

This is the first time
I've bought you a meal.

Yes, it is. Finally...

Finally a return
on my f*cking investment.

Thank you, mate.

- Mm. Not enough salt.
- Too much salt.

- How are we even friends?
- It's a mystery.

Can we quickly go back this way?
I just realized...

- Yeah.
- I forgot to get any shampoo.

- Sure.
- Ava!

Hey! Hi.

- Is that Holly?
- Yeah, yeah, that's Holly.

- Hi.
- [CHUCKLES]

- This is Grace.
- Hello, Grace.

Ava talks about you all the time.

- Can I nick a chip?
- Sure.

[PACKAGING RUSTLES]

Thanks. Now we're friends.

Ooh. Not enough salt.

- [CHUCKLES] Exactly. See?
- Let's get some more.

- Well, we like our little flat.
- You don't, Mum.

You're always going on about
how much you hate it there.

The lifts don't work.
You can't use the stairs.

You don't feel safe. There's
kids out front smoking weed.

We don't want to go into a home.

No, it's... but it's not
a home, Dad. It's...

It's an apartment in a sheltered
housing complex, right?

You live independently,

but there's people there
to look out for you.

We get by quite all right as we are.

No, you don't. Sorry, Dad,
but you... you just don't.

You've both had falls.

But not proper falls.
We've always got back up again.

That shower of yours...
Impossible to get in and out of.

You... you were scammed quid

- by that twat over the boiler.
- They caught us unawares.

Look, I do what I can, right,

but it's just not practical
for me to look after you.

Well, we're sorry to be such a burden.

- Oh, f*ck off.
- Oi!

Sorry. I'm sorry, Mum.

But this... this place
won't be available for long.

Think about it, please.

If you don't do this now,
you're gonna regret staying put.

[GLASS THUDS]

[SIGHS]

- [GLASS THUDS]
- Do you want another one?

- Ta.
- Thanks.

Mm.

We're not movin'.

No, love, we're not moving.

Ava's grandparents are the best people

at the sheltered housing place.

How long have they been there, Ava?

Six months, just over.

Oh, I love 'em, but there's
so many amazing people there.

- Have you met Len?
- No, I don't think so.

- He drove Bob Marley.
- [GASPS]

f*cking Bob Marley.

He drove him in London
in, like, or something.

- That's incredible.
- [CHUCKLES]

There are so many amazing people there

with such amazing stories.
You just have to listen.

Right. I mean, although, presumably...

Oh, a lot of them do
talk total sh*t, yes.

- [LAUGHS]
- But don't we all sometimes?

I do. When I get nervous, I feel
I need to fill the silence

- [CHUCKLES]
- and just talk rubbish

until everyone just walks away.

[LAUGHTER]

Ava always knows the right thing to say.

Do I?

Yes. You're a genius.

What's it like being
best friends with a genius?

[LAUGHS] What's it like
going out with a genius?

Amazing.

- Hey.
- Got a uni offer.

- Oh, wow. Where from?
- Um, Stockwell Park College.

It's a part-time media studies
course. I'll be in London.

I can work evenings and weekends
and be with Maya and the baby.

- It's ideal.
- Right.

I'm so relieved I know
what I'm going to do.

Honestly, I was...
I was quite worried. [CHUCKLES]

You're accepting the offer?

Yeah.

Right. Is it a good course?

- It's fine.
- Mm-hmm.

Fine, but not good or...

It's what I want.

I'm gonna say yes, Dad.
I'm . It's my decision.

Yep. Yes.

- I'm gonna text Maya and Mum.
- Okay.

[EXHALES DEEPLY]

[ALLY] So, I've looked it up,

and I don't wanna be too negative,

but it does look like

quite a shitty course
at quite a shitty college.

How could that be negative, hmm?

Well, he's settling for something

- because it seems easy.
- Well...

he says that he... he wants to be

with Maya and the baby and earn money.

I get that, but he needs
to keep his options open.

He's grabbing at this
because he's feeling anxious.

No, I agree. I agree,
but, you know, he's an adult.

- No, he isn't.
- No, he's not really, is he?

Look, we should try and be
positive about this offer.

Take him for a meal or something.

Maybe if he thinks we're onside,
then we can persuade him

to look elsewhere in a couple of months?

No, I liked it better when
we could just shout at him

and he did what he was told.

Yeah, that always
worked out great, didn't it?

[EXHALING]

- How's your new gig?
- Pretty full on.

- Mm-hmm.
- I'm not the oldest here though.

So, that's a bonus. There's
a tech guy here who's .

[LAUGHS] Wow. God bless him.

[SIREN WAILING IN DISTANCE]

[EXHALES] Excuse me.

[MONITOR BEEPING STEADILY]

- Hey. [EXHALES] Mum.
- It's all right.

- What's happened? You all right?
- Yeah, love.

I... [STAMMERING]
I couldn't lift her, Paul.

I couldn't get her on her feet.

Okay, Dad. Don't... Don't worry.
It's all right now.

- So what happened, Mum?
- Well, I had a fall.

- Mm-hmm.
- I don't know what happened.

One second, I was
on the way to the sink,

and the next, I was all perpendicular.

You mean vertical?

She... She means horizontal,
doesn't she?

So, um, did you faint
or black out or something?

Oh, God knows, but I didn't
half hurt my arm.

I couldn't lift her.

- She was in so much pain.
- Yeah.

I think we should have a look at that
sheltered housing place, Paul.

Oh. Uh, yeah, okay.

Yeah, just have a look, though.

Okay, then. We'll have a look.

Good.

So, your... your parents
sick of him yet?

No. No, no. Dad says that Luke's like

- The son he's never had.
- Mm-hmm.

- [CHUCKLES]
- But nicer because he reckons

that his son would have turned out to be

- a little bit of a prick.
- [LAUGHTER]

Oh, it's such a treat
to actually spend time

- with you both.
- Yeah, so lovely to see you.

I... I keep telling Luke that
it's really good for the baby

- to hear your voices.
- Oh, mm.

- Oh. Well, to the new baby...
- Yes.

to the new college course,

to the new road layout next to Asda.

- And that one.
- So much change. Cheers.

- Cheers, all. Cheers.
- Cheers.

[INHALES] So, you still getting
morning sickness, Maya?

- Oh, yeah, a little bit.
- [CELLPHONE CHIMES]

But if I have breadsticks and crackers,

- it usually calms down.
- [LAUGHTER]

Hey, you all right, love?

Um...

I've been offered an interview
at Manchester Institute.

- Oh, my God.
- What?

Luke, you said it was
impossible to get in.

Do you mean the music
production sound thingy?

- Yeah.
- [GASPS]

- [PAUL] Great.
- Well, this is incredible!

- Luke!
- I'm so proud of you!

- [LAUGHS]
- Jesus.

- Yes.
- That's great.

So, applicants in places,
and... and you're in the what?

Um, well, they're...
they're down to the last ,

and I am one of them.

Christ alive.
Well, congratulations, mate.

- Thank you.
- [PAUL] What?

Um, well, well, I'm... I mean, I'm...

I've already accepted
the Stockwell Park offer, so...

No, no, mate, no, that...
that's a whole other thing.

You have to go to this interview.

- [MAYA] Yeah, you have to, Luke.
- Yeah.

- Yeah, you really do.
- I thought we were celebrating

me getting the Stockwell Park offer.

No, we were, but like...
like I say, that...

that's its own thing. It's great.

But this is an amazing opportunity.

But I... I need to be where
Maya and the baby are.

Manchester's miles away.

Okay, but we'll be able to work it out.

- Look, you have to try this.
- [PAUL] Yeah.

You really have to.

Uh... no.

- It's this one, Luke.
- [WHISTLE BLOWING]

f*cking hell.

Ahh.

[SIGHS] Jesus Christ. Uh, cheers.

Excuse me. Sorry, do you
mind if I just, uh...

Can I... Thanks. Ta.

- [EXHALES DEEPLY]
- Oh, sorry.

- Oh, sh*t, it's packed.
- Yeah, and that...

That's why I booked seats
like a genius. Excuse me.

Uh... Uh, I think
someone's in our seats.

It's all right. I don't mind standing.

What? All the way to Manchester?

Uh, excuse me.

All right. Excuse me.

- Uh, yeah, you're in our seats.
- Who says?

That would be me saying that.

So, could... could...
could you move, mate?

- No.
- No?

- We're in these seats.
- Yeah, I know. I can see that.

That's my problem with this whole setup.

- Dad, why don't we just...
- Please, Luke.

Can you move, please?

We'd like to sit down
in our seats. M , M .

- This is Coach L.
- I know.

[MANAGER] The kitchen has
everything you might need.

Oh, it's lovely. Gas.

Can't abide electric.

- Can't turn the heat down.
- [CHUCKLES]

And there's a nice, big dining table.

Ooh, Jim, I can do my jigsaws on that.

What jigsaws? You don't do jigsaws.

No, because we've only got
a little pull-out table.

But I like jigsaws.

How... How often do your staff check in?

Oh, as little or as often as required.

- [PAUL] Mm-hmm.
- There are wardens on duty

hours a day, seven days a week

and emergency alarm cords in every room.

Oh, right, great.

We have a thriving community here

of people living entirely independently.

But who sometimes just need
a bit of help or support.

[JACKIE] Mm.

It sounds ideal, Jim. Do you like it?

No. But I'm not going through

that whole palaver of you
having a fall again.

Can I put a dartboard up?

- [MANAGER] Of course.
- Good.

I'll fill in any holes when I miss.

Mm. How's your sandwich?

Tastes of cold.

I wish you hadn't confronted that bloke.

Mate, sometimes you've got
to stand up to bullies.

But you were bullying him.

So he's learned
a valuable lesson, hasn't he?

[OVER P.A.] Good morning,
ladies and gentlemen.

This is your train manager speaking.

We're currently running ...

- that's - minutes late...
- [GROANS]

Hopefully, we can make up
some of this time

during our onward journey.

- We won't be late, will we?
- No, no.

We've got plenty of time, mate.

Does that mean you're keen to get there?

I am not bothered
if I get a place or not.

- Ah.
- I just, I don't like

being late for anything.

If I was gonna get sh*t
by a f*ring squad,

I'd want to be there with
at least minutes to spare.

[CHUCKLES]

Uh... yes, great.

Wow. Impressive, isn't it?

Like a haunted library.

[ROCK MUSIC PLAYING IN BACKGROUND]

Oh. Looks like this is me.

Okay, well, um, good luck, mate.

And, uh, just text me when you're done.

- Mm-hmm.
- Right.

[DOOR OPENS]

[ROCK MUSIC CONTINUES PLAYING]

- No, not jealous.
- No?

Well... yes, I was, but...

We just got on really well.

No, I know. It's just...

you seem to get on with her
better than I do.

You were really laughing,
and I felt weird about it.

But we were just having a laugh.

[POP MUSIC PLAYING IN BACKGROUND]

I guess I'm...

just scared...

of losing Holly.

- [MUSIC CONTINUES PLAYING]
- [GRACE SIGHS]

I think I love her.

Wow. Okay.

Uh, and are you gonna tell her?

I don't know.

Such a huge thing to say.

It's the most important thing
you can ever say to someone.

I think...

you'll know when you
need to say it, Ava.

You'll just... know.

[INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS]

Blimey.

- Hello.
- Oh, hey.

Sorry, I was just, um...

Yeah. What an amazing space.

Yeah. It's not too shabby, is it?

Sorry, I'm... I'm Paul.
My son has an interview today

for the music production
and sound engineering course.

Wow, congratulations.
Amazing even to get

- an interview for that.
- Bloody hell.

Loved to have studied art
somewhere like... here.

Just would have loved it.
Three years of this.

I should have kept
the drawing up. [CHUCKLES]

I'm so sorry. Uh, is...

- Paul Worsley?
- Yeah. How's... Do we...

I was the year below you at
St Edmund's. Andrew Moseley.

Jesus Christ. Yeah.

You were a really good artist.

Well, thank you. I was...
I was all right, I suppose.

I was, uh, for a bit.

Then it all kind of
fizzled out, you know?

I guess I didn't love it
enough or... something.

- But obviously you...
- Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.

- Yeah.
- I went on to St Martin's.

I did fine art and all that.

- Bloody hell.
- Yeah, I thought I'd make

a living as a painter,
uh, which I did...

- Brilliant.
- for about three years.

- Oh, right. [LAUGHS] Right.
- [LAUGHS] Um...

and, um, and now I am a teacher.

- You're a teacher. [LAUGHS]
- [LAUGHS]

Yeah. But you enjoy it, though?

Yeah. Uh, yeah. I mean, it's not
where I thought I'd end up.

- Okay, yeah.
- You know? Sometimes think that

just having that little,
brief taste of your dream

is worse than never tasting it at all.

- Yes. Yeah.
- You know?

What about you? What do you do?

Uh, boring. Third sector.

Mainly working with young people
from deprived areas.

Um, no, I wouldn't say that's boring.

- That's important, isn't it?
- Mm-hmm, maybe. [CHUCKLES]

- And do you enjoy it?
- Um... yeah, apparently.

Yeah, according to my son. He...

He's been doing some
work experience with us.

He reckons I'm the life and soul.

Oh, well, good for you, man.

Yeah. I... I hadn't really
thought about it properly,

but, um, it does all seem to have

worked out in a way
that I hadn't planned.

Manchester does look amazing.

Oh, yeah. I was here a lot in
the early ' s, and I loved it.

You... You said the course seems good?

- Yeah.
- Uh-huh?

And they say that pretty much all of

their graduates get
a job in the industry.

- Wow.
- [CELLPHONE CHIMES]

sh*t. Uh, Maya's got spotting.

Huh? Spotting?

Uh, bleeding. It's... It's common.

And the doctor said
that it's nothing, really,

and that she doesn't need to go
in, but she's going in anyway.

Okay, well, that's good if...

And I'm miles and miles
and hours and hours away.

Yeah, but, mate, if...
if the doctor said there's

- nothing to worry about...
- Yeah, but they might be wrong.

I... I've read up on this.
Spotting can mean that

there's something wrong
with the placenta

or that she might have
a miscarriage, or...

Luke, mate, calm down, okay?

- Come on.
- [CELLPHONE CHIMES]

Maya's saying it really is nothing.

It's just a few drops of blood.

Good. That's good.

Dad, I need you to tell me what to do.

Do I... Do I go to Manchester?

Do I stay in London?
Do I go to uni? Do I get a job?

I'm sorry, mate. That's a bit
of parenting that I can't do.

I... I need you to do it.

Well, I... I can't, so...
[CHUCKLES] tough luck.

It has to be your decision, Luke.

You choose a path, and you follow it.

And you might love it,
and you might regret it,

but it has to be your choice.

Yeah.

- I'm going for a wee.
- Have one for me.

- Hello, love.
- Hi, Granny.

Just waiting for Holly to finish
cutting Granddad's hair,

- then we're going to see a film.
- Lovely.

I've just been doing some line dancing.

Fantastic.

I had no idea what it was,
but Carol, who runs the class,

she had me doing "Cotton Wall Joe"

like nobody's business.

"Cotton Eye." Sounds like fun.

Mm. I love it here.

I was thinking, in some ways,

it's a good thing you had that fall.

Between you and me and the gatepost,

I didn't have a fall.
[WHISPERS] I faked it.

- Faked it?
- Shh!

I wanted to live here all along,
but Jim was dead against it,

so I pretended I was as well.

I thought a fall
might get things moving.

This place wouldn't have
stayed empty for long,

and we'd have kicked ourselves
if we hadn't taken it.

Wow. [CHUCKLES]

You only ever really regret
the things you didn't do.

[FOOTSTEPS APPROACH]

Right, that's me done.

Jim's looking like a young Jon Hamm.

Oh. More like an old boiled ham.

[LAUGHS] I put a bit of sky
in the jigsaw, Jack.

Ah, thanks, love.

What film are we seeing?

I'm not bothered. Whichever's emptiest.

Just an excuse to sit
in the dark with you

and eat Maltesers.

We could just watch
the adverts and the trailers.

And wait till they ask us
to switch our phones off,

- then leave.
- [LAUGHS]

If we do stay for the film,
I have some paper cups

and a bottle of red wine in my bag.

- Brilliant.
- Oh. I like to treat a girl.

[CHUCKLES]

- [MOTORBIKE APPROACHES]
- I love you.

- [ENGINE RUMBLES LOUDLY]
- What did you say?

I like your jacket.

Oh. Thanks. It was my mum's,
and it will be again

if she finds out I nicked it. [CHUCKLES]

Oh, um...
Mum said that she really doesn't think

we need to spend
too much money on a pram.

She said that they're only in it
for a tiny amount of time

and then we could just
put them in a cheap buggy.

- We need a cot, though, right?
- Yeah, yeah.

Even if the baby's in bed
with us, we'll still need a cot.

- [CELLPHONE CHIMES]
- Oh.

- Hmm?
- Oh, it's just Jacob

wanting to know what kind
of change mat we're buying.

- That boy is obsessed.
- Obsessed.

[BOTH CHUCKLE]