01x10 - Kiss from a Rose

[bunniefuu]

RADIO HOST: So we understand
you're on a crusade

about the radiation of food.

CALLER: Uh, yeah, they
have this new process

running gamma rays
through vegetables.

It kills off everything
alive, every little microbe.

And then they assume it's
okay for us to eat it.

Now, how would you like
eating radioactive broccoli?

RADIO HOST: Well, it's not
radiated... it's not...

[car door slams]

[bell rings]

[melancholy guitar music]

♪ ♪

Bye, Dad.

[car door slams]
[engine turns over]

[school bell rings]

[students chattering]

[soft music]

♪ ♪

That was a perfectly
good fruit roll-up.

Hi, Liz.

I really... I just wanted
to say that I'm so sorry.

For my mother.

Like, she was...

She did so much damage.

You know, she was
so destructive.

I appreciate that.

I mean, our friendship
was my whole world.

Me too.

BETH: [laughing] Yeah.

I still miss you.

[chuckles] I don't know.

Tell me

what-what happened after that?

Wh-what has your life been?

Um, let's see.

My dad came back.

And, um, we just
sort of, like, lived

inside, like, a
simmering hostility.

- [Beth laughs]
- That was fun for a few years.

And, uh, I don't know.

I have two kids.

I like one of them.

The other one's just kinda,
like, a hole in the team.

And, uh, I have a
husband, and he's...

I mean, I don't
know, I have one.

I have a husband. [Both laugh]

So your... your dad, I mean,

you forgave him?

I mean... it wasn't easy.

Like, my mom asked
us to forgive him.

And, uh, then he came
back and then I just,

like, punished him for
a really long time.

And then one day, I
just tried to, like,

focus on everything
he was doing right

instead of everything
he did wrong.

And he actually did a
lot of things right.

Like, he's, like, a
weirdly good grandpa.

Oh, that's nice.

Wait, did you get married?

No, no.

I... I was engaged

for like, an hour, but...

[scoffs]

You would ha... You would
have hated this guy.

I mean, really.

Did he wear, like,
layered necklaces?

BETH: Oh, worse. Worse.

You remember Maximino?

Oh. BETH: He's like...

- Dis... that's disgusting.
- BETH: Yeah, it was...

Why would you bring that up right
now? BETH: No, it was like that.

- Oh.
- I'm seeing someone right now.

He's, like, a farmer.

I... I don't think it's
gonna work out, though.

It's like, everything
is telling me it's not.

All the signs are already there.

Like, in the beginning,
it should be easy, right?

LIZ: No. God, like, no. [Scoffs]

It's not easy, ever.

I mean, like, yeah,
my husband was,

like, an active nightmare
the day I met him.

I mean, like, and I just
sort of zoomed past,

like, every red flag.

[laughing]

- Yeah.
- But, uh, I love him.

He's, like, my favorite person,
but he's, like, infuriating.

[Beth laughs]

- Yeah.
- Not okay.

BETH: I don't know,
I've just spent,

like, a lot of time on men

and jobs

and, uh, just things that
I knew weren't right.

You know, so I'm,
like, trying to...

I mean, the first
time I met this guy,

he was covered in blood.

[laughing]

He was covered in
blood? [both laugh]

It's... I mean, I'm pretty
sure it was animal blood.

Like, I just have
to hope. LIZ: Kay.

I just don't really want
those details, but...

Okay, well, that's...

Actually sounds like my
friend Katie's boyfriend.

Well, I should go.

Um

Can I, like, call you,

or do we hang out sometime?

I don't really know.

I mean, it's not realistic

that you and I are
gonna be friends.

No, I know.

I know you're right.

Yeah.

But can I give you some advice?

Yeah.

Just let your old sh*t go.

Let it go.

Like, your mom wasn't the person

she should have been for you.

My dad wasn't.

But you're gonna be 40.

Wait, wait, are you gonna be 40?

Yes. LIZ: Oh, my God.

Your birthday... wait, I
still know your birthday.

It's September 20th.

April 19th.

[soft music]

I'm really glad
I got to see you.

Me too. Can I...

♪ ♪

Hey, Liz, I wanted to ask if...

BETH: Hey, Coach.

Oh, God.

Ah, f*ck you.

- MAYA: No, no, no, you gotta breathe.
- Ooh!

MAYA: Breathe.
Just let it go, B.

Vickie's the sh*t. She
know what she doing.

Let her work.

This is a scar treatment.

You can feel it right here.

- The needle lit right up.
- Ooh.

Your MRI shows that
you have ruptured discs

in your lower back at L5 and S1.

Yeah.

And that's connected
to this girdle vessel

- that wraps around the waist...
- Girdle?

And brings circulation
all the way down the leg.

BETH: Yeah.

So all that pain in my
back came from here.

VICKIE: Yes.

Oh, God.

It's just...

Ooh, it's a lot.

- Yo, what's...
- Girl, what's going on?

Are you okay?

It's... I think it's
mostly the needles

that are making me cry.

- It's not, like...
- Oh, okay.

But yeah, I just... I saw Liz.

- I saw Liz today.
- You talked to her.

Was it... Was it
good at least, or...

Yeah, it was so good to see her.

You know, we have so
much love for each other.

Yeah.

BETH: But... I don't know.

I just wish I gave my
mom a better funeral.

- Oh, my God, Beth.
- No, I know. But it's just...

- Beth, you gotta...
- You gotta let that go, okay?

You know, you annoying
everybody with that.

I didn't wanna say nothing.

But, like, even Grandpa
Don's sick of your sh*t,

and he's dead.

[laughing] Stop.

Get some more needles
in there, girl.

- Oh.
- [gasps]

[exhales]

[somber music]

♪ ♪

[distant dog barking]

[door creaks]

You sure Mom's not home?

I'm pretty sure.

It's the same.

When's the last
time you were here?

I don't know, like, 2000

um

What's-his-name
was hosting "TRL."

- Carson Daly.
- Carson Daly.

- Yeah.
- Wow.

Um, I saw Liz.

Oh, wow.

Yeah. She's good.

She's the same.

They, uh

they wound up, like,
completely forgiving her dad.

[chuckles] Yeah.

And he came home and everybody

really just moved on.

Um, yeah. That's insane.

[pans clanking, thudding]

I'm hungry. [Sighs]

BETH: I'm always hungry.

Think it would be good for
us to let go of it all too.

It's really harmful
to keep it in.

I mean, I pulled
all my hair out.

I know you did, babe.

I'm worried about you too.

You've spent so much
energy hating her.

That's not good.

Yeah, like,

I'm not happy that she d*ed.

Like, I hated her,
but I liked, you know,

knowing she was there.

BETH: Yeah - Yeah, I got it.

I just... I can't get over...

I just wish I had done
more when she d*ed.

The funeral you did was fine.

For Mom.

For Mom.

Yeah, but I want... I
need it to be fine for me.

You know, and you, for-for
us, for... for our loss.

You know, it's...

Yeah.

She's our mom.

It's not like you
can do it over,

so you need to move on.

Let's do it over.

What?

The funeral.

- You want a do-over funeral?
- BETH: Yeah.

I want to have a
do-over funeral.

All right, I'll get the shovel.

[sighs]

I'm pretty ready
for a new start.

How 'bout you?

I guess so.

Part of that is me
saying goodbye to John.

Oh, my God, you are so annoying.

Okay, um... I'm just...

I'm finally listening
to my instincts.

It's all right in front of me.

It's very clear to me.

Yeah, I'm gonna
talk to him today.

I'm not gonna be a
passive passenger

in the car of my life anymore.

What the f*ck does
that even mean?

I don't... I don't
know what that meant,

but you get it.

He-he already has
too many red flags.

He has too many red flags?

He does? BETH: Yeah.

You are a red planet.

Oh, my God.

Oh, my God.

No one likes you. This is why.

Wow, that's not a
kind thing to say.

Okay, well, just
go if you're going.

Go break up with him right now?

Go break up with him
right now if you're so...

O-okay.

I... okay.

ANN: Good luck.

Okay. Um, yeah. ANN: Yeah.

BETH: Will you
save me some pasta?

No.

BETH: Okay.

♪ ♪

SINGER: ♪ You think you
know where I'm going ♪

♪ The truth is, I
haven't got a clue ♪

[The Wild Reeds'
"Where I'm Going"]

♪ One thing I know,
where I'm going ♪

♪ There won't be another you ♪

♪ And that don't mean
that I found another man ♪

♪ ♪

♪ And that don't mean that
I'll fall in love again ♪

[chickens clucking]

♪ ♪

John?

♪ ♪

SINGER: ♪ Where this
ship is sailing ♪

♪ It don't need a
captain of the crew ♪

BETH: Cesar, you seen John?

CESAR: He's not here.

You want me to help
you look for him?

BETH: No, no, no, it's fine.

Hi, Bruce.

SINGER: ♪ The tracks lead
me far away from you ♪

♪ ♪

John?

SINGER: ♪ And that don't mean
that I'll find another man ♪

♪ And that don't mean that
I'll fall in love again ♪

Oh, sh-sh*t. Okay.

♪ ♪

Oh, sh*t. f*ck, f*ck,
f*ck, f*ck, f*ck.

♪ ♪

SINGER: ♪ 'Cause
I'm not running ♪

♪ From a home we built for two ♪

♪ ♪

♪ I'm chasing the winds,
I'm leaving on whims ♪

♪ And I'm learning
a thing or two ♪

♪ ♪

♪ You see, I'm not running ♪

♪ From a home we built for two ♪

BETH: Oh, come on, you
stupid f*cking boat.

SINGER: ♪ I'm
chasing the winds ♪

♪ I'm leaving on whims ♪

♪ And I'm learning
a thing or two ♪

Ew! What are you?

Ew, something touched me.

Ew, ew, ew, ew, ew!

[grunting]

SINGER: ♪ The truth is,
you haven't got a clue ♪

♪ And I never needed
your company ♪

♪ But I surely longed for you ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Yeah, I surely
longed for you ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Yeah, I surely
longed for you ♪

Why didn't you tell
me you were there?

You looked so focused.

I didn't... I didn't
know what you were doing.

Here, take my shirt.

Your-your boat was...

Thank you.

Your boat was drifting
off the shore,

so I went out and got it.

Okay.

- Yeah, it's... it's safe now.
- I t... I tied it up.

Guess I know how to tie a knot.

Thank you.

- [sighs]
- I don't like that boat.

I don't like that boat either.

I mean, that's not
my boat or anything.

- What are you talking about?
- Yes, it is.

I just tied it up.

I just swam out there
and I tied it up.

I mean, I think Skyler will
really appreciate that,

because that's Skyler's boat.

My boat's in the shed
because of the weather.

Came to check on Skyler's boat.

Beth?

[sighs]

Can I have my cardigan back?

Yeah. Can I have my shirt?

It's a little buggy.

It's a little wet.

I came here to
break up with you.

Oh.

BETH: Yeah, but then I
saw... your boat out there,

and I couldn't stand the
idea of you coming here

and seeing that it was gone.

JOHN: Thank you.

If we're

if we're gonna do this, like,
I mean business with you.

I mean business with you.

Yeah?

'Cause I don't really
know what to do

when you're repeating yourself.

I...

We can figure it out.

- Really?
- Yeah.

I-I know I don't always act
the way I'm supposed to.

Like, I know when
someone shows me

a picture of their kid,

I'm supposed to act like
I'm looking at fireworks

even if the kid is
unattractive to me.

You're attracted to kids?

No, not...

Not romantically.

- Do you want kids?
- Yes.

Cool, I'm just
asking for a friend.

Can we go back to my house?

There's something
I want to show you.

Yeah.

Is this where I get m*rder*d?

No. No, no.

That's later. BETH: What?

[inaudible]

JOHN: Okay. Now just wait.

And there we go.

[Beth gasps]

JOHN: Right, and then
you can also... nine.

BETH: You get nine? JOHN:
I think there's up to 13.

[sentimental music]

You happy? BETH: I'm so happy.

JOHN: Let's go back down 'cause I
feel a little more comfortable...

BETH: Yeah, I think
I'm too high up.

- JOHN: Five is good.
- [Beth laughs]

Oh.

JOHN: How long do you
normally watch for?

BETH: Just, like,
four to six hours.

JOHN: Okay.

[people chattering]

[sentimental music]

Good to meet you. Gerald.

Oh, hi, Gerald, I'm Shlomo.

Nice to meet you.

- I'm Shlomo.
- We know.

We met you the other day.

- Now, these are beautiful.
- We got these today.

- Yeah. What are these called?
- They're heirloom tomatoes.

- Heirloom, right.
- 'Cause they're old.

- Can we start?
- 'Cause they're old.

- No, it's...
- Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Okay, 'scuse me, thank you.

PERSON: Here we go. Here
we go. ANN: Your attention.

Thank you, thank
you. BETH: Attention.

So thank you,
everybody, for coming.

Um, or to some of you
for coming back, Rabbi.

Mm-hmm.

Let's... just no
social media right now.

Okay, powering down.

So our mom had a few
requests for her funeral.

Uh, you need me to sing
"Kiss from a Rose"?

No. Please, please.

We have it covered. DJ?

What's up, Three Trees?

DJ Trev in the funer-izzay.

[DJ scratching]

RIP, Jane. She's
in a better place.

BOOMING VOICE: Rest in peace.

- Bring the fire.
- Feel the expl*si*n.

[loud boom] Welcome
to Club Trev.

[record scratch]

- That was cool.
- That guy's awesome.

He's good. Very good, right?

- Good work.
- It's good.

Happy to have you.

[thunderclap]

Um, anyway

it's weird that we, uh...
We put so much thought

into every other aspect of life,

but when it comes to death,
uh, we forget to make a plan,

so we're doing it over so that
Beth will shut up about it.

[air horn blares]

Okay, so... [clears throat]

[sighs]

- sh**t.
- You got it. You got it.

Sorry. So our mom loved us...

Excuse me. Sorry.
As best she could.

And, um, she wanted to
be a really good mom.

And, um... and
sometimes she was.

[clears throat]

- Yeah.
- [clapping]

Yeah. Yeah, yeah.
That's really good.

That's really good.

ANN: Um, okay, well, let's
hear from Jane's family.

- John, you wanna...
- Yeah.

Oh, yeah, well, Beth
told me to wear a...

You're supposed to wear a
suit when someone passes away.

So I am, and...

No, just pass her the mic.

- Oh, yeah.
- Oh, sorry.

Yeah, no, I actually just wanted

to tell everyone about the menu.

It's braised lamb from
the Heinzerling farm

with baby carrots and
fennel from our garden here,

and an heirloom tomato salad,

and the bread is
from Amagansett,

which we're gonna pass around.

So enjoy.

- Sorry.
- Thank you. You look so good.

And, of course, wine
from Three Trees.

Okay, I'm going.

[chuckles] Um...

Okay.

Uh...

So our-our mom,

Jane Jones...

[somber music]

She could be ornery and mean,

in a way that women aren't
really supposed to be.

She was funny.

She could make you
laugh with just, like,

one little expression.

And she was beautiful.

So beautiful.

She, uh... she made our meals

and-and... and put
our Band-Aids on us.

She picked us up from practice.

We had fun.

We had a lot of fun,
too-too much fun,

probably, too much of the time.

But, uh, she lived

in her own idea of reality.

She lived in her daydreams.

And that's how she survived.

That's how she got by.

And... and I loved her.

Always, I loved her.

Her warmth, her smell,

her skin,

and I miss her.

♪ ♪

Um, and I actually
had the honor of going

to Maya's grandfather's
homegoing service.

And what that is...

- No, no, no, no, no. No.
- Mm-mm, don't.

That's for Black people...
Let us have that, okay?

Keep doing your white sh*t.

Oh, right.

Okay, got it. All right.

People aren't perfect,

and parents are people.

And, you know, I just
knew her as my mom,

but she wasn't just my mom.

She was a woman and a
little girl before that,

you know, with her
own heartbreaks and...

And school dances
and her own parents.

Are you almost done?

Are you serious?

I'm scared the
food will get cold.

Well, is it okay
to eat during this?

I think that will
solve both problems.

- Okay, no...
- I'm-I'm... this is for me.

Okay? I'm finishing this.

I'm... let me... you know, I
want to get through this, okay?

Maybe we should vote on it.

BETH: What... we
don't have to vote.

- Put your hand down.
- Put it down.

I would have been done by now
if you'd just let me finish.

It's... really, it was
just another, like, second.

Okay?

This is the point, okay?

This is what I wanted to say.

[sighs]

I was just gonna say
that no one loves you

like your mom,

and no one hurts
you like your mom.

And, uh,

and finally, I-I realized
what I wanted to say to her.

After all of this, I
just want to say...

♪ ♪

I love you.

Thank you.

Thank you, Mom. PERSON: Yes.

- Thank you, Mom.
- GERALD: There's your girl.

Beth's starting to understand
that her mother's complex life

may have reflected the
difficult relationship

a lot of daughters
have with their mother.

And just the
intrinsic challenges

that a woman faces in the world.

[air horn blares] [clapping]

Now, can we eat?

Yes, eat, eat.

[people chattering]

[children laughing]

♪ ♪

[upbeat violin music]

♪ ♪

[people chattering]

♪ ♪

- Oh, hi.
- Good night.

I'm gonna split. Is that okay?

- Of course it's okay.
- ANN: Okay.

So this is Kylie, and it's new.

- Hey, Kylie and it's new.
- [laughter]

- That's... I said...
- That's okay, right?

- Yeah, it's... it's new.
- Yeah.

Okay, Annie, I'm not mad at you.

Okay, thank you.

I love you and I want
to be closer to you.

I know.

I have something for you,
'cause I know you work hard.

- Was is this?
- You don't have to share it.

It's up to you.

Bye.

I really love you.

- Bye, bitch.
- I love you. I love you. Bye.

What is this sh*t?

- Oh, sh*t.
- Oh.

SINGER: ♪ I'm 'bout
to get f*cked up ♪

♪ Wanna get f*cked
up, f*cked up? ♪

♪ I'm 'bout to get f*cked
up, wanna get f*cked up? ♪

♪ f*cked up ♪

♪ I'm 'bout to get f*cked
up, wanna get f*cked up? ♪

♪ f*cked up ♪

♪ I'm 'bout to get f*cked
up, wanna get f*cked up? ♪

♪ f*cked up ♪

[Miley Cyrus' "Slab
of Butter (Scorpion)"]

[romantic pop music]

♪ ♪

♪ The only laws ♪

♪ I obey ♪

♪ The ones I'm
makin' for myself ♪

♪ ♪

♪ So why you make me play ♪

♪ On the rules of
something else? ♪

♪ ♪

♪ Self-control is not ♪

♪ Something I'm working on ♪

♪ ♪

[Beth clears throat]

JOHN: Ready?

- It's my serve, right?
- Yes.

Okay. Let's go.

SINGER: ♪ Just the light
that leads me back again ♪

Four serving four.

SINGER: ♪ Changed my mind ♪

♪ When I fell for you ♪

♪ I wanna know what is right ♪

♪ But I can't pull through ♪

♪ So I'm wide awake ♪

♪ And the day is done ♪

♪ Just the light
leads me back again ♪

[cheering, clapping]

JOHN: You were there for it.

SINGER: ♪ Ooh, never
going back again ♪

There for it.

SINGER: ♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Never going back again ♪

♪ Changed my mind ♪

♪ Just to see what's new ♪

♪ I wanna do it first
to make it through ♪

♪ Till I'm wide awake ♪

♪ And the feeling's gone ♪

♪ Just the light that
leads me back again ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Never going back again ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Never going back again ♪

♪ ♪

It's so easy.