03x03 - Awakenings

[bunniefuu]

What did you do?

What did you do?!

We need Dawn and Melanda in here right now.

Hey.

Nurse!

Alex. You okay?

Who are you?

It's me. Alex, it's-it's Charlie.

How did I... where am I?

Joel: You're in the hospital, Alex.

You're at Hope Zion.

You were hurt, Alex. It's okay.

I don't remember.

Okay.

Okay. You just need some rest, all right?

No, no, no. I-I-I don't know how I got here.

Alex, lie down.

Alex, listen-listen to me.

That's the anesthetic wearing off. Just relax, okay?

[breathing heavily] I don't...

[weakly] I don't remember... I don't remember...

Hey, Alex.

Brought you some breakfast.

Not hungry?

[sighs] No.

So, I hear that you're having some recall problems.

[telephone rings in distance]

You don't know who I am, do you?

No, I d... I don't.

Well, I'm Gavin. I'm a staff psychiatrist.

And we've known each other for a while.

[sighs]

We can do this assessment later, if you want.

You know what? Let's... let's just do this.

All right, Alex, try telling me something that you do know.

My chest hurts. [chuckles]

And th... I know that this is a hospital and I supposedly work here.

And there's this, uh... this guy that keeps coming to see me named Charlie.

Well, we were all pretty scared when you got stabbed, but him especially.

Why him especially?

The you two were engaged.

And, uh, I'm not really sure if you still are, and I don't even know if you know that, either.

Oh. Okay.

Okay.

Look, you seem to have no trouble forming new memories, and that's a good sign.

Postoperative retrograde amnesia is common and temporary.

I hope so.

It's strange.

I know exactly what postoperative retrograde amnesia is.

[sighs]

But I have no memory of where I met you.

It was in the doctor's lounge.

It was my first shift.

You were nice.

Okay.

Charlie: Well, let's wait till he comes out.

We'll see, but...

She just needs time.

Well, is there anything we can do to help, to...

Move her memory forward?

We can't rush this, Charlie.

Okay, well, we can't coddle her.

She's at high risk for thrombosis where we harvested that vein, so she needs to get up and she needs to walk today.

[cellphone vibrates]

Oh, mass casualties en route. I need to get to the E.R.

Charlie, she's fine.

Hey, Jackson, do me a favor. Keep an eye on Alex.

You want me to keep Dr. Goran out of her room, it'll cost you.

[sobbing]

[cellphone vibrating]

[sighs]

Doing okay in here?

I'm having my first period since I had the miscarriage.

I have zero control over my emotional state.

That can happen.

I thought I was over all this.

Then someone cut in front of me at the coffee shop, and I've been crying ever since.

[laughs] The laughter just started.

Well, laugh or cry.

Pick one, and then stop doing both.

Thanks.

[elevator bell dings]

How is she?

Good. She's good.

Good.

Yep, I mean, she, uh... she has a little amnesia, and she, uh, needs to get up and walking.

Then I'll get her home.

Yeah, I mean, it's probably best not to rush these things, anyway.

What?

I said it's probably best not to rush these things, anyway.

Oh, that's-that's-that's good advice.

I hadn't thought about that before.

Thank you very much, Joel, for that very helpful advice.

Quite welcome.

[siren wails]

[indistinct conversations]

Zach: expl*si*n at a condo construction site caused the building to collapse.

Burn units took what they could.

Hope Zion's got the spillover and the orthopedic trauma.

Yikes. Okay, let's get, uh... let's get a chest tube in him, Maggie.

Is this all of them?

I wish.

We got more coming by ambulance, helicopter, apparently even a few coming in cop cars.

Oh, wow.

What do we have here?

Guys, stop the cart.

Charlie: I don't even know what I'm looking at.

Some genius hit a gas main.

t*nk of insulation foam blew up on these two guys in the heat of the expl*si*n.

Zach: Let's get them to the trauma bay.

So, it's stuck to the skin?

Stuck to the skin, stuck to the clothes, it's hard to tell.

Does not look like it's coming off easily.

Joel: Let's get in there and see if anything's broken.

Man: Well, they're alive. That's lucky.

This is not lucky.

[sobbing] Please... please help us.

Give me two large-bore I.V.s!

And give them each a litre bolus of ringer's.

And stat trauma panels. Cross-match them both.

Four units of blood.

[sobbing] Please.

It hurts s-so much.

Can you describe your pain for me?

[groans]

It hurts when I breathe.

Is it in your throat or in your chest?

[gasps]

My chest, my side... it just really hurts.

And what about you, sir?

[groans]

I think some...

I think something hit me in the expl*si*n when we fell.

Can you feel that?

What? Yeah.

Okay. How about that?

Yeah, yeah, I feel that.

That's actually a good sign.

So, how do you two know each other?

Uh, we-we were working onsite.

I'm an electrician. She's the architect.

I'm Marshall.

Anna.

How did we end up like this? I'm kind of a little foggy.

We were talking, and the place just blew up.

What's the plan, you guys?!

Anna, listen to me.

We're gonna separate you as soon as possible.

Fortunately, we have all the equipment we need to do that right here.

You talking about a saw?

Yes, I am.

Uh, okay, that's one option, but solvents would be another, less violent option.

Oh, I'll take the less violent option!

Solvents are not gonna dissolve this.

Thank you very much for your input. I got this one, mate.

Charlie, I got an open fracture on bed two. I need you right now.

Plenty of patients to go around.

I'm gonna leave you guys in the all-knowing hands of Dr. Joel Goran.

Thank you so much.

Charlie. Joel, what's go...

Dana.

We're gonna need some solvent.

No, I just told Charlie... it's not gonna work.

All of it.

It's not gonna get through there, Dana. Trust me.

You want to use the saw.

Yes, I definitely do.

Well, start with the solvent.

If it doesn't work, we can always escalate.

[siren wails in distance]

How's your pain?

[sighs] Not too bad.

Good, 'cause you're gonna get walking today.

Oh. I... [groans]

I don't think I could do that.

Well, Alex, patients who aren't mobile in recovery don't do well, so I could either rattle off a list of postsurgery complications, or you could suck it up and do as I say.

[sighs]

I thought doctors are supposed to be nice.

You really don't remember me, do you?

Good.

You're gonna get walking today... at least to the nurses' station.

I don't know where that is, okay?

I-I don't know where anything is.

And everybody keeps talking to me like I should remember, but I don't.

Just go out the door and make a right.

You can't miss it.

Okay.

Let me know if you need a nurse to help you get out of bed, okay?

[breathing heavily]

Dr. Reid, you'll do fine.

Hey. First try?

Pardon me?

They make you walk up and down this damn hall.

Took me almost 10 tries to make it.

What are you here for?

Heart.

Me too.

Hey, don't let your first time get you down.

If I can do it, you can do it.

Yeah, I'll, uh, remember that.

Now they're taking their sweet time discharging me!

But I look good, right?

Uh, you do to me.

And, uh, I'm a doctor, or so they keep telling me.

Hey, then... maybe you can sign me out of here, keep it on the down low?

[chuckles]

Yeah, I really...

I really can't. I mean, I-I wouldn't even know where to find my white coat.

[laughs] Yeah, yeah. Worth a try.

[breathing heavily]

[panting]

Hang on! Hang on! Hang on! I got you. I got you.

Hey, hey, hey.

[sighs]

Up his oxygen for me. Thanks.

Hi, again. It won't be long, promise.

Maggie, can I have a word?

Yeah.

I, uh... I just got imaging back from a patient you assessed.

Carl Palansky?

Yeah, he had some hip pain, but he seems okay.

This isn't from the building collapse.

So, better let him know. Have fun.

I... I'm not sure...

I got to go. Thanks.

[sighs]

Hey, Dr. Lin. What's the word?

The good news is that you managed to escape the building with nothing more than a few cuts and [clears throat] bruises.

[voice breaking] But...

But... but what, Dr. Lin?

Uh... I'm sorry.

I'll be back.

Dr. Lin? Dr. Lin?

Hello?

[sighs]

Maggie, are you okay?

[clears throat] It's nothing.

It doesn't look like nothing.

[crying] It's just a fallout, you know?

Like, my hormones are... at w*r, and my emotions are caught in the crossfire.

I can't stop crying.

I hate crying.

My ex was the same after her miscarriage.

Do you want a hug?

No. I just... I don't want a hug.

[sighs]

You know, something that helped us was, um... we did something together that, um, helped her purge emotionally.

I don't know if I want to hear about your ex-wife's purging, Zach.

No, no.

Laughter yoga. It's really good.

You'll like it. You start with fake laughter.

It turns into real laughter, and it helps suppress all of your stress hormones.

[sighs]

We'll do it right now, okay? I'll start.

[chuckles]

[laughs]

Could you just stop?

Sorry. Sorry.

Just try it.

It's not working.

Solvent needs more time to break this stuff down.

[sighs]

We have to stop this.

Joel, if you have somewhere else to be, please go ahead and be there.

W-what, is it not coming off?

Please, tell me we're not stuck like this.

No, no, we just need a little more time.

Listen, listen, i-it's my kid's birthday today, okay?

And I wasn't even supposed to be onsite, okay?

Oh, no, someone has to pick her up from school!

No, it's-it's gonna be okay.

We'll have a nurse call her mother.

No [groans] no, she's not in the picture, okay?

You got to... you got to try my sister, okay?

And her number... it's in my phone, okay?

And... which is under all of this, all right?!

All right. All right. Don't worry. We're gonna find her.

Anna, anyone you want us to call for you?

Anna: I was supposed to meet my boyfriend, but don't call him.

He's... I don't want him to see me like this.

Are you sure?

I'm sure!

Will you stop playing operator and just get him off of me?!

Just, please... just do what she says, okay?

Okay.

We have to get the saw, okay?

[knock on wall]

Hi.

Hi.

Just, uh... I had a minute, and thought I'd come by to see you'd been for a walk.

Well, I was up, but it didn't go well.

Well, that's okay. There's no rush.

I just want you to get better.

Yeah, me-me too.

So, um...

Anything... coming back to you yet?

No. Not yet.

No, uh, epiphanies, no dreams, no visions?

Sorry.

It's okay. [cellphone vibrates]

[sighs]

Okay. I got to go.

Um, I'll come back, and I'll see you when I can.

Listen, Charlie.

Yeah?

[cellphone vibrates]

I-I'm trying to remember my life. I-I am.

I mean, I'm-I'm just trying to get up and-and walk.

I need to-to focus on that, so could you... could you please just give me some space?

Yeah, of... course.

[saws whirring]

[both panting, gasping]

That's really hurting, guys! It's really hurting!

That's the vibrations. It's like it's on fire again.

Okay, let me just change it to a lower speed.

[button clicks]

There you go. Let's try this.

[saw whirs]

[screams] No, that's worse!

Stop! Please stop! [saw stops]

Guys, I wish I could make this easier.

Unfortunately, I can't give you any more pain medication.

Wait, wait, what is that? What is what?

My... my legs are warm, and they're wet.

Is one of us bleeding?

It's not blood. It's urine.

Marshall, can you not feel that happening?

What? What? Yeah, um... yeah, I'm just gonna sit here, and I'm gonna wet myself.

I'm-I'm sorry. I'm so embarrassed.

No, don't worry.

[weakly] It's... it's okay. It's okay.

Marshall, talk to me. Can you feel that?

Can you still feel that?

No.

And what about this?

Uh, yeah, a little, a little.

Can you please tell me what's happening?

Loss of bladder control could signify spinal-cord injury.

So, m-my back is broken?

We don't know that yet.

But we can't risk making it worse until he is sure.

I'm sorry, guys. I can't cut you apart.

Anna: [sobbing]

I just can't.

No. No. No.

So, if we're gonna jog your memory, you want to check out the E.R. first?

It's crazy today. You'll love it.

Seems like a strange thing to love.

Nah.

Here we go. You see her up there?

Who's that?

[sighs] I have no idea.

That's Melanda, a friend of yours.

She's been on-and-off sleeping with Zach from the E.R. they think people don't know, but everybody does.

Melanda: Hey, lady.

Great to see you're rolling around.

Don't go pushing her around too much, okay?

We're good.

What about him up there? No, right there.

Tall, skinny latte in the blazer.

That's, uh, Gavin. He came to see me.

Oh, see? You're progressing.

Hey, Alex.

Hi.

He just broke up with Maggie, so it's gonna be crazy awkward around here, but I did make 50 bucks in the breakup pool.

There's a breakup pool?

Hey.

Hey.

Are you getting tired of doing laps?

They just... they told me to rest, but just I'm feeling all worked up, you know?

I just want to get out of here, but that awful blonde robot won't let me go.

Oh, she means Dr. Bell.

Oh.

Marisol here is ready to go home.

Maybe you should sit down, relax.

I'll get one of the ward nurses to check on you, okay?

Would you?!

Because I'm about ready to bust out of this place!

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

So, is there any gossip about me?

Oh, we don't got enough time for that.

[sighs]

Well... it's like two vacation slides on top of each other.

This... what is all this?

Debris from the collapse.

It's all mixed up in the foam there.

I mean, I thought I...

I might be able to make out a fracture in there.

It's... it's not conclusive at all.

Yeah, that is a conundrum.

It certainly is, Dr. Harris. Do you have any suggestions?

Well, you knew better than me before, Joel, so what happened?

Didn't say I knew better than you before.

I said to you the solvents would not work.

They did not work.

Actually, your exact words were, um, "I got this one, mate."

The fact remains we still have a job to do.

Okay.

Forget it. I'll work it out with Dana. Thank you.

Ah. Hey, Dr. Lin. Where you been?

'Cause you kind of just left me hanging here a little bit.

I know. I know.

I'm sorry, Carl. That was unprofessional.

Yeah.

Uh, as I was saying, you sustained no serious injuries from the collapse, but... but, yeah, see, that's where you left off last time.

I got that part, so... but what?

Uh, but we found something.

Oh.

Something kind of...

Oh, god. Oh, no.

No, no.

How long do I got?

And what... are you smiling?

[snorts]

Uh, no. I'm, uh... I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

It's not you. It's, uh... it's my stuff.

Please, just a moment.

But you got... hey!

Dr. Lin, you can't do this to me!

[sighing] Oh, my god. Please make it stop.

Please, please, make it stop.

[sighs, sniffles]

[sighs]

Uh, are you okay?

Apart from completely crapping the bed in the E.R. today?

Okay. Good luck with that.

Do you know how frustrating it is that the only person who can help me with what I'm going through today is the last person I can talk to?

What are you going through, Maggie?

Don't you dare be sympathetic.

Okay. How do you want me to be?

I don't know if you've heard, but there was a major catastrophe today.

People are very upset down here.

So if you're done with cuddle therapy, or whatever it is you do, maybe you could actually do your job and come down here and give us some backup.

That's why I'm here.

Well, don't inconvenience yourself.

You broke up with me, remember?

Okay, Marshall, because we couldn't get a decent image of your spinal column there, unfortunately, we don't truly know what's going on with it.

Uh, okay. So, what now?

Dana: Well, we're gonna play it safe.

I'm gonna take you up to the O.R.

I'm gonna peel the foam away from your skin slowly and carefully.

Quite honestly, it's the safest way for us to assess your injuries.

Okay. How long is that gonna take?

I'm not gonna lie to you.

It's, uh... it's gonna take a while.

And it's gonna be uncomfortable.

Okay, well, let's just get it over with.

[gasping]

Anna, this is gonna work.

I kn... I know, but... can you just do me first?

Please? I'm feeling... I just... it's very painful and claustrophobic, and I just... I just need to have this off me now!

Okay, Anna. Anna. Anna. Anna. Hey.

It's gonna be all right, okay? Do her first, please.

Quite honestly, Marshall, that can't happen.

Anna, hey. Hey.

Look at me. Look at me. Anna, hey.

We're gonna get out of this. Okay, real soon, okay?

The both of us.

And then you're gonna be back with your boyfriend.

[sobbing] Marshall, don't do...

It's okay. It's okay.

[sobbing] Dana: He's right.

You know, you've got strong dr*gs and the best surgeons in the business, so you're gonna be sleeping in separate beds in no time.

[breathing heavily] Okay. Okay. Okay.

Marshall, what is it?

You okay? What is it?

I can't feel my hand.

What do you mean, you can't feel your hand?

Why can't I feel my hand? I can't feel my hand.

What... what...

Hold that.

What about the other one?

Can you feel this hand, Marshall?

W... a-are you touching it?

Yes, I am touching it right now.

Well, I can't feel it, okay?

I can't feel either one of my hands!

[groans]

I mean, it could be ascending paralysis.

The swelling is compressing the spinal column.

Marshall: Okay. I can't feel my hands, okay?

Doesn't that mean... does that mean I'm a quadriplegic?

Okay, we need to operate on this gentleman straightaway, please.

L-like this? How?!

I'll find a way.

[both whimpering, groaning]

So, I believe Marshall has an epidural hematoma tracking up his spine.

Based on?

Well, we have sketchy imaging.

I'm going off a neurological exam.

Well, if we don't move fast, he's gonna be paralyzed, Dawn.

Can I ask why he's part of this conversation?

We're not seeing any progress with these patients.

I think we need to look at all the options.

You had your sh*t, Joel.

Listen to me.

I need to operate right now, while these patients are still attached to one another, okay?

It's an extremely difficult operation.

I'm just the more flexible surgeon.

I didn't realize this was yoga.

Okay, you know what, Charles?

Right now it kind of is, okay?

I have to rig that O.R. table and tilt the patients down in such a way that I have access to Marshall's spine.

I wouldn't waste time with the rig.

I'd operate on him right now, as he is, in the lateral position.

Okay, have either of you done anything even remotely like this before?

No. I didn't think so.

He's a single father.

He needs his mobility to make a living.

I'm the more senior surgeon.

And while that might be the case, you're just not as good as I am, mate.

I'm sorry. There, I said it.

Recently deceased patients would disagree.

Do you want to have another go at me, Joel?

You know what? I'd actually love that chance.

Is that right?

Yes.

Boys!

Don't make this about Alex.

It's not about Alex.

It's not about her.

Put away the tape measure.

Charlie, it's your surgery.

Thank you, Dawn.

Well...

You're making a huge mistake here.

Joel, it's nothing against you.

You asked me to make a call, and I made it.

[sighs]

Zach: He's still feeling some pain in his lower arm.

We're just going to up the fentanyl dosage, okay?

I need you to do this for me.

Do what?

Carl Palansky.

You haven't told him yet?

I tried. I can't. I can't do it.

Maggie, I don't have time for this, okay?

You wanted me to laugh.

For Pete's sake. I told you it worked.

Hi.

Hey.

You know what?

This woman should be medicated, straight up, okay?

[laughing]

Okay, Maggie. Thank you very much. Thank you.

Seriously?

[snorts]

I am so sorry, sir.

Um, we got your imaging back, and, uh, it appears that you have something lodged in your rectum.

A what, now?

We don't know what it is, but it is something with a battery... maybe an oddly shaped vibrator, some kind of toy?

Anything like that ring a bell?

[chuckles] Of course not.

[laughs]

Maybe you had a few drinks one night and just sort of... misplaced something.

Oh. Okay. Okay. Yeah.

Okay, so, listen, we're just gonna, um, sedate you.

Okay.

I'll take care of it now, if, uh, you know, you promise to be more careful in your recreational time.

Oh, uh, okay.

Um... it's... but I'm not... I'm not dying.

No, sir, you are not dying.

I th... I thought I was because of that woman.

I... I started to write my will.

And my... my brother's coming in from Kingston.

Okay, well...

You know?

You've, uh...

I...

Got a couple hours to come up with a good story.

Can I have my picture?

Hey, Alex. How you doing?

Good. Uh, thanks.

Uh, who was that?

Dr. Reycraft.

Uh, is he a friend, too?

He's a mystery.

Okay. [chuckles]

Okay, don't move. I'll be right back.

[sighing] All right.

[moans weakly]

Alex!

Alex!

Hey!

You okay?

Uh, yeah. I'm-I'm fine.

I'm-I'm okay.

No, I've got you. I've got you.

I'm just gonna sit you down.

Charlie, I'm-I'm fine.

I'm just gonna sit you down.

Okay.

Okay?

Okay.

I'm gonna check your stitches. Did you rip them?

No, just don't, okay? I...

[sighs]

Charlie, I-I know that you feel like you need to take care of me, okay?

But I asked you to give me some space, and...

I need you to respect that.

[sighs]

[monitors beeping]

Anna, we're gonna sedate you, and you won't feel any pain.

I'm gonna be awake?

Yes, we don't put patients under unless we need to.

I'd rather you knock me out.

I know.

But, um, we need to hear from you if you start feeling worse.

You guys have been stuck together for how long now?

Feels like forever.

So, you're basically old friends.

Maybe now's a good time to wish each other luck.

Hey.

I'll see you on the other side, I guess.

Aren't you afraid?

Terrified.

About today... what you asked me before the expl*si*n.

Forget it. It was stupid, okay?

Let's just-just pretend it never happened.

It's okay.

Okay. If you say so.

Hey, hey, hey, hey.

You're gonna be okay.

So, what's it like being a patient in this place?

Well, I-I hurt all over, and everybody keeps prodding me and telling me what to do, and I'm so tired that I can't even make it to the end of the hall.

What, to the end of that hall?

You're not missing much.

Well, I'm pretty much missing everything.

Just saying.

Well, maybe I could help you with that.

How?

Idea.

Why don't I tell you three things about yourself, and two of these things will be true.

One will be less than true.

What do I get if I'm right?

How about I write down for you, on a single piece of paper, everything... everything you need to know about yourself?

All right. You're on.

Number one.

You and I prevented a viral outbreak from going pandemic by spending an afternoon in quarantine.

Mm-hmm. Next?

Number two.

You and I once saw a cashier get sh*t in a gas station, and you personally transfused your own blood directly into this woman's arm, thus saving her life.

Oh, come on. I did not do that.

Number three.

In medical school, we entered a dance competition and came third place out of over 100 entrants.

The gas-station transfusion... that-that is total B.S.

Is that your final answer?

Am I right?

You are not.

What?! Come on.

Sorry. Correct answer was number three.

We never entered a dance contest?

We did, but you're a terrible dancer, so we came in second to last.

Well, at least we finished ahead of one couple.

That's interesting. I never said we were a couple.

You didn't have to.

But we are not one anymore.

No, we are not.

Okay. You didn't win.

But, um...

[sighs]

I will write this down for you anyway.

And I will leave it in the lobby so that if you feel like stepping out for a walk, your prize awaits you.

I like you, don't I?

Are we there yet?

I'm just relieving the pressure on his spine so the damage doesn't become permanent.

Just try to relax, Anna.

Hey, you sure you don't want us to call your boyfriend?

Always nice to wake up to a familiar face.

No.

[gasps]

There's someone else.

Oh!

So, uh... so, who's the other guy?

You're operating on him.

When the building fell on us, he tried to protect me.

Sounds like a good dude.

He is.

I'm getting really tired.

It's okay to close your eyes.

Thank you.

[monitor beeping rapidly]

Dr. Harris, we got a problem.

Check the leads. That can't be right.

Charlie.

Mm-hmm?

It's not him.

It's her.

Anna? Anna?

Anna.

Stet.

[beeping continues]

How's she doing, Reycraft?

I don't know. Give me a sec.

Charlie, your patient's bleeding.

What?

ABD.

George: She's hypotensive.

But he's the one who's bleeding.

What if it's not his blood?

What are you saying, it's hers?

How?

She's got a puncture wound somewhere.

Yeah, where?

Look, we need to separate them right away or she's gonna bleed out.

We can't separate them or we risk paralyzing him.

If we don't, we risk her life.

[beeping continues]

Okay, get the saw ready.

Let's have some bodies standing by for when we separate, and...

Somebody page Dr. Goran.

[monitor beeping rapidly, saws whirring]

Okay, once we've got them separated, we're gonna need all hands to log-roll them.

The spine is vulnerable until he's instrumented.

[beeping, whirring continues]

[grunting]

Okay. Okay, they're separated.

Now let's just roll him enough to get her free.

Bring the stretcher in here right now.

Okay, hold that.

And on three with me, okay, buddy?

One, two, three.

[grunts]

Tom: Okay.

Oh, there's the bleed! There's the bleed!

ABDs. ABDs. I got it.

Hand me the towel. Hand me the towel!

Keep pressure.

All right, let's get her to another O.R.

And tell Dr. Lin I need some hands, okay?

Let's move it.

Your eyes are red. You been crying?

Crying, laughing, angry outbursts.

That's 'cause you're all bottled up, Lin.

Hey, primal scream. Try it.

I scream into my pillow every morning.

Wakes me right up.

And explains why you don't have a girlfriend.

Huh.

Thanks for answering the page.

You got it, man.

You're in a good mood.

I saw Alex.

You know, she still has the memory loss, but I... her spirits are really up.

I think... I think she's gonna be okay, you know?

Yeah?

Mm-hmm.

Probably best not to rush her.

What is that?

Well, what do you know?

What do you know?

[indistinct conversations]

[telephone ringing]

Hi. Did somebody leave something here for me?

Thank you.

[sighs] That's great.

Hey, Marisol. They're letting you go?

Yeah, I finally got my walking papers.

And now I'm not feeling so good.

Really? What's the matter?

I don't know. My neck is k*lling me.

And I'm...

Marisol?

[echoing] Marisol.

Alex: She's exhibiting signs of anxiety.

She's got distended neck veins, and her heart sounds are muffled.

We need a crash cart and a needle for an emergency pericardial centesis.

And get Dr. Bell down here now.

You're right about your hormones being out of whack.

So far out of whack.

You're blaming everything you're going through on body chemistry, but you know you have some actual human emotions in there, too, right?

Yeah. [clears throat]

These feelings you're having... it's better to feel them than to fight them.

You didn't just lose a baby or a partner.

You lost a life you'd already started living.

I just broke up with a shrink, so...

So you've had your fill of talk.

Okay, well, we don't need to talk.

What do you want me to do, curl up with a ball of tissues and not come in to work for a week?

Probably. But you won't do that.

Probably not.

There's this ritual.

It's given a few of my patients some comfort.

Yeah, I'm not big on rituals.

You big on crying in public?

Point taken.

This is what you do.

You take all the hopes you had for your baby, all the fears you have about life moving forward.

You write all of that on a piece of paper, and you read it out loud in front of a burning candle.

Is this something I do alone?

You can do it however you want.

Or you can not do it at all.

But, like I said, it's up to you.

Pulse is still fast and thready.

All right, prep her. I'll be down in five.

Let me check your incision.

It's... it's fine, you know. I just... little sore.

Hospital is full of people who could have done that, Alex.

You could have opened that right up.

I know. It was just reflex.

Well, thank you.

You wouldn't remember, but that's not something that you hear from me very often.

I remember you, Dawn.

[tape tears]

There you go. I was gonna take your I.V. out anyway.

[chuckles]

You know, you had us all pretty worried there for a while.

I've heard that a lot today.

Well, you won't hear it again from me.

You saved my life.

Well, I...

Thank you.

Welcome back, Dr. Reid.

[breathing heavily]

Where is he? Where is Marshall?

Dr. Goran and I operated on his spine.

It went well.

[exhales deeply] Thank god.

Burns from the foam weren't as bad as they could have been, but, uh...

But he'll live.

Yes.

He'll walk.

Yes.

[sighs]

He's with Dr. Kinney right now.

You're next.

[sighs]

Um, in surgery, I told you about us, didn't I?

That may have slipped out.

We found this.

I'm guessing that's what you said no to.

Yeah.

Mind if I ask why?

[chuckling] I was scared.

I didn't know what scared really was until today.

Yeah. It changes things.

It changes everything.

Do you want me to give that back to him, or... or do you want to do it?

Yeah.

I'll do it.

What do you want?

I need to know.

You need to know what?

That she'll be all right.

She's all right.

And she'll be all right, so you can go now.

Look for the big bright light and run like hell straight towards it.

She's not all right.

What?

She left something behind.

What the hell are you talking about?

[sighing]

♪ and I'll use you as a warning sign ♪

[chuckles]

♪ that if you talk enough sense, ♪
♪ then you'll lose your mind ♪

Dr. Reycraft.

♪ and I'll use you as a focal point ♪

Dr. Bell.

Apparently, I don't have a girlfriend.

♪ so I don't lose sight of what I want ♪

No, you don't.

And that's how I like it.

♪ and I found love ♪
♪ where it wasn't supposed to be ♪
♪ right in front of me ♪
♪ talk some sense to me ♪
♪ and I'll use you ♪
♪ as a makeshift gauge ♪
♪ of how much to give ♪
♪ and how much to take ♪
♪ oh, I'll use you as a warning sign ♪
♪ that if you talk enough sense, ♪
♪ then you'll lose your mind ♪
♪ oh, and I found love ♪
♪ where it wasn't supposed to be ♪
♪ right in front of me ♪
♪ talk some sense to me ♪
♪ and I found love ♪
♪ where it wasn't supposed to be ♪
♪ right in front of me ♪
♪ talk some sense to me ♪

So, I hear you got your memory back.

Yeah, all at once. It was kind of intense.

I... yeah, I can imagine.

Um, you remember I see things, right?

[chuckles] Yes.

Okay.

Well, when you were in your coma...

We were together.

Huh.

More together than we've been... in a long time.

You don't remember any of that?

I-I remember our life together.

♪ oh, and I found love ♪

I just... I don't, um...

♪ where it wasn't supposed to be, oh ♪

You don't what?

♪ right in front of me ♪
♪ talk some sense to me ♪

You know what, I'm... I'm tired.

♪ I found love ♪

Do you think we could talk about this later?

♪ where it wasn't supposed to be, oh ♪

Yeah. Of course.

♪ right in front of me ♪
♪ talk some sense to me ♪

I love you.