03x04 - Moments in Love, Chapter 4

[bunniefuu]

[garbage truck beeping]

-[alarm beeping]
-[sighs]

[woman exhales deeply]

[woman sighs and turns off alarm]

[opens faucet]

[water flowing]

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[door opens and closes]

[indistinct chatter]

[woman crying]

[receptionist] Kate Forbes?

I don't appreciate her talking
about my vag*na like that.

She's very condescending.

[door opens]

-[Alicia] Hi.
-Hi.

-[Alicia sighs]
-Take a seat.

Thank you. Hi. I'm Alicia.

I'm Dr. Perkins.
Make yourself comfortable.

[Alicia] Hmm.

So, Alicia, what brings you here today?

Um, I wanna have a baby.

Uh, I'd like to carry,
preferably as soon as possible.

Okay. Well, hopefully,
we can help you with that.

[Alicia chuckles softly]

So, a woman's fertility peaks
when she's in her 20s,

and then it slowly starts to decline.

When she gets to about 37,
the decline becomes more rapid.

And after turning 40,
it's very difficult to become pregnant

even with the most
aggressive fertility treatment.

We're talking less than 5%.

[inhales deeply]

-You are 37.
-Yes.

So you are on the declining part
of this graph here.

So time really is something

that you should factor into
any decisions that you make.

Given your medical history,

in vitro fertilization
is your best option.

With IVF,
the goal is to stimulate the body

to create as many viable eggs as possible.

We then retrieve those eggs,

inseminate them
with the sperm, grow the embryos,

and then we choose the best embryos
to implant into your uterus,

and hopefully, achieve pregnancy.

[exhales] It's a lot of… information.

Um, okay, uh,
what are the chances of it working?

Uh, with someone of your age and profile,

on average, 30% to 40%.

But every woman's body is different,
and we could hit roadblocks at any stage.

-[softly] Okay.
-One thing we need to factor in is cost.

Yeah.

Your insurance company does cover IVF…

-Mmm-hmm.
-…but it's complicated.

We have to prove that you are infertile,

and that you have been trying
to conceive with a partner for six months.

What does that mean
in regards to me and my sexuality? Uh…

Well, the insurance company
doesn't have a policy for that.

What do…
They don't have a policy for q*eer people?

The insurance company
needs a diagnosis code

in order to confer benefit.

The majority of American
insurance companies

do not have a code
for "gay and desires pregnancy"

or "single and desires pregnancy."

They have a code
for being att*cked by an orca,

and they have a code
for being sucked into a jet engine,

but not for "gay and desires pregnancy."

But my office, uh, has dealt with this
a number of times. We'll do our best.

The fact that
your fallopian tubes are blocked,

we can use that as an argument
with the insurance company.

But they may not cover
some of the embryology,

and they may not cover
some of the medication.

So you would still be looking at spending
between seven and ten thousand dollars

out of pocket.

Uh, what about the fact that
I'm using my friend as a donor?

Doesn't that make it cheaper?

No, it makes it more expensive

because we would have to
test and screen his sperm.

If you were using an anonymous donor,

that would have already
been through the process.

Okay, so if I'm straight
and I have sex with my partner,

they don't have to get their sperm tested?

No, because you've already
been having intercourse,

and therefore, assumed the risk of,
uh, transmitting an infectious disease.

That's what the screening
is there, to reduce that risk.

That's mad. That's… [scoffs] so unfair.

[chuckles] It's mad.

I will write up everything
that we've talked about,

and I will send that to you,
so you have it clear.

You can take your time
to read it, go over it.

There's information on the website,

and you can call the office
anytime if you have any questions.

So, you don't think
you wanna do it anymore?

Yeah, I'm not sure.
I don't know. After all of that, um…

I'm just a bit freaked out, to be honest.

Like, it's more expensive than I thought.

It's more complicated than I thought.

After all of that, it might not even work.
I might not even get a kid out of it.

[boy screaming]

It's too spicy, it's too spicy!

I can't take it! It's too spicy.
I can't take it, Dad.

[man] I understand it's too spicy,
but you can't scream in a restaurant.

[boy] Oh, I can't take it!

[man] Cameron, please.

[both laughing]

I really want that. [laughing]

You… That's what you want?

-A kid that can't handle spicy food?
-Yeah. [sniffles]

[chuckling] I want a kid who can't
handle spicy food. It's adorable.

[sighs] I just…
I don't know. I don't know.

Okay, so, hypothetically…

Yeah?

-Uh, if you did do it…
-Mmm-hmm.

…would my role be the same?
Just swing by the house?

Yeah, like…
Okay, hypothetically, if I were to do it,

you would, this time, go to a clinic.

So I just need to go to
the hospital and jerk off into a cup?

[chuckles] Yeah. Maybe say it quietly
in a restaurant, but, yeah.

And, you know,
they would have videos for you…

[groans] I feel like the p*rn they have
in hospitals is always kind of weird.

-Oh?
-I'll bring my phone.

You go to hospitals a lot
and check out their p*rn?

Well, you know…

[laughing] That's funny.

[chuckles] Well, look, I'm still
really honored to be a part of this.

You're a great person,
and you'll be a great parent.

I'm happy to help in any way that I can.

Thank you.

Do you want me
to be involved beyond the donation?

Do you want me
to come to the appointments,

or help with the injections, or anything?

[sighs] No.
No, I think I got it, you know?

If I do this, I wanna do it by myself.

You just have to do your thing in the cup,
and then I'll… I'll sort out the rest.

I'm here however you need me.

[chuckles] Thank you.

-Yeah, I guess, like…
-[clears throat]

…one of the things
I'm worried about is the money.

You know, like…

I could borrow some money
from my mom, get out a loan.

I have savings, but…

Oh, my gosh, the other day,
I saw this amazing retail space.

It's like…

Still thinking about opening up
your own antique shop?

Yes! 'Cause the pop-up is going so well,

and to have
a physical space would be so cool.

Where is it?

-It's in Boerum Hill.
-Hmm.

It needs a bit of work and stuff,

but it would just be… I don't know.

[chuckles]

Are you gonna be able to afford both?

I think so.

But that's the thing, like, I could…

I could spend all that money,

all that time,
and all that energy, like, and…

Mmm.

And then have nothing.

So… Don't know.
Do you know anyone who's gone through it?

-One of my friends did it back in the day.
-Mmm.

It was an ordeal.

Yeah? What do you mean?

It's pretty life-consuming.

It was exhausting, it was expensive.

Mmm.

It's not easy.

[Alicia exhales deeply]

So… okay.

"Injections must be
administered three times a day."

"All medication must be taken
within a two-hour window."

And, "So that the…"

Okay. Two hours.

Two…

[whispering] f*ckin' hell.

Okay.

Now, let me take this off.

Okay. Swish it around.

And then, pull this upside down.

And then, you pull it out again.

Hmm?

And get rid of you.

Because you are f*cking huge.

And then…

Is this the one?

Okay.

[sighs]

Okay. [exhales]

Oh, okay.

[exhales deeply]

[inhales deeply]

I guess you take this, then you put it…

in…

Oh, my God. Oh, my God.

[sighs]

Okay, put it in your belly.

Oh, my God.

Ooh, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck, f*ck.

Oh, yeah.

[exhales deeply]

Okay.

Come on, Leesh.

Okay, okay, okay.

You just…

You just call…

your f*ckin' mama.

[line ringing]

[exhales]

-[Sharon over phone] Hello?
-Hi, Mom?

Hello, darling. How you doing?

Um… I'm just trying to do this, um,

this injection thing, and it's like…

It's like really hard.

[Sharon sighs]

f*ck.

Can't somebody from the hospital
come over to do it?

No, Mom. If I ask them to come over,

I got to spend
two hundred quid every visit.

It's, like, ridiculously expensive. Um…

I'm not being funny,
but it just feels like…

[exhales] There's just so much stuff.

Like the universe is trying to tell me
that I'm not meant to have a kid.

I don't know where I'll get all my money
from to pay for this kid for daycare,

let alone clothes,
nappies, and sh*t like that.

Sorry to swear.

-I'm sorry, Mom, but…
-Oy-oy-oy.

Sorry.

-[chuckles] Sorry. It's just a lot.
-All right.

Look. Let's just take a deep breath
'cause you're giving me anxiety already.

-[chuckles]
-And the child ain't born yet.

-All right?
-[laughs] Yeah.

Let's take this one step at a time.

Mmm-hmm.

Now, you need to just focus
on jabbing the needle into your belly.

Mmm-hmm.

Okay, look.

Thousands upon thousands
of women have done these injections,

and you're not trying to tell me that
you're weaker than all of them, are ya?

-'Cause I don't believe that, love.
-[chuckles]

-All right?
-No, I'm not.

-Furthermore…
-Yeah?

I've got a down payment
on this grandchild,

so you can't give up now
and use up my money.

[laughing]

Mom, that's dark.

[both laughing]

-Okay?
-Okay. All right.

-[exhales]
-Let's do this together, yeah?

Okay. Yep.

You ready?

Yeah, just gotta get my belly out.
One second. Okay.

Mmm-hmm.

Okay, I'm ready.

Right. Good. One…

[chuckles] Yeah. Oh, my God.

-Two…
-Two…

Three.

[whispers] Oh, my God… [inhales deeply]

-Come on.
-It's do… Ma, it's done. I did it.

-It's not even that bad. [laughs]
-Ah!

[both laughing]

-Mom, it wasn't even that bad.
-See?

-[laughing]
-Got 154 of them to go.

That is so many. I'll call you
in a few hours when I gotta do it again.

All right, darling.

-Love you, Ma.
-Don't worry, okay?

-All right.
-Love you, too.

-Okay, bye. Love you.
-Bye.

[sighs]

One down.

[exhales]

-Oh, really?
-…duo situation, yeah.

-It's perfect.
-This is adjustable.

[cell phone alarm chimes]

Um…

I'm really sorry. Um…

[chuckles] That's my alarm, um…

Uh, Phil? Can you help this lady out?
She's really interested in this light.

-[Phil] Yeah, sure.
-I'm just gonna be one second.

[alarm continues chiming]

[alarm stops]

[Alicia] Be back in just a minute.

[classical music
playing faintly over speakers]

[Phil] Alicia,
can you come up for a second?

[Alicia] Yep. Yeah, yep. One second.

No, no, no. I'm not paying no damn bill.

You better go cross-check
and double-check.

-Mrs., I--
-Open your eyes and go find my details.

-I can't afford it.
-I double-checked with billing.

-Sorry.
-You think I put the money up my ass?

I can't afford it.
I can barely pay my damn rent.

-I understand…
-Anyway, I ain't paying sh*t.

My insurance has covered me.
So you can kiss my ass.

Please have a seat.
We have other patients to see.

Alicia Jackson?

Yeah.

-Hey.
-[receptionist] Hi, how are you?

I'm good, thank you.

Are you here for your
monitoring appointment?

-Yes.
-Great. Let's just see.

[knock on door]

-[Cordelia] Alicia?
-Yeah?

[Cordelia] You ready?

Yeah, yeah. I'm ready.

[Cordelia] Okay. You all right?

Yeah. A bit nervous. [chuckles]

Okay, so, as I explained,

we're gonna be doing…
Checking the follicles.

-Mmm-hmm. Yeah.
-Yeah?

All right.

Is it gonna hurt?

-It's… It's not gonna hurt.
-Okay.

But it might feel uncomfortable.

-Okay.
-All right?

All right. Deep breath in.

-[inhales deeply]
-Ready?

Okay. We're going… All right.

There's enough gel on it,
so it shouldn't be too uncomfortable.

-You all right there?
-Yep. [chuckles]

All right. It's looking good.
It's looking very good.

-[exhales]
-All right.

-Going on the next side now.
-Mmm-hmm.

-Yeah? You all right?
-Mmm.

Okay. Next time,
you bring someone to hold your hand.

-Okay?
-[chuckles] Okay.

All right. All right.

I'm counting the follicles now.

-All right.
-Mmm.

Everything is looking great.

-Okay, that's good.
-Well done.

-I'm about to take it out now, yes?
-Okay. Yeah.

-Yeah? All right, deep breath in.
-Mmm-hmm.

-[laughs]
-All right.

-Okay. Well done.
-[sighs]

-Well done.
-Okay. Thank you.

So, I'm gonna give you
some tissues to clean up yourself.

Yeah.

Then, I'll come back in
and take your blood. It's all right?

Yeah. Okay. That one…
That one's gonna hurt.

-[chuckles nervously]
-Just a sh*t.

[grunts] Yeah,
a pinch or something, right?

-Yeah.
-Okay. [chuckles]

You'll be all right. Okay.

Okay. [chuckles]

Clean up, I'll be back soon.

-Sure, sure.
-All right.

[exhales deeply]

[machine drilling faintly]

["Danza Kuduro" playing over speakers]

[monitor beeping faintly]

[knock on door]

-[Cordelia] Alicia?
-Yeah. Yeah.

Oh, dear, I don't like
how you're sounding.

What's wrong? You're looking so tired.

Um… Yeah, I'm just,
like, really bloated and…

-[clicks tongue] Is that…
-That's natural.

It's because you're coming
towards the end of your stimulation.

-Yeah?
-Okay. Yeah.

-Yeah? Cheer up. [chuckles]
-Mmm.

-Something wonderful is coming.
-[exhales deeply]

All right, so, you know the routine.

Yeah. Let's do this.

Yes, let's do this.

I don't like how you're looking today.

Sorry. Just been a bit…

I know. Okay. Here we go.

-All right, breathe, breathe.
-Mmm-hmm.

[breathing deeply]

Breathe. Yeah?

Yep.

-You want me to stop?
-No, no, just…

-[groans softly]
-Okay. All right.

All right.

I'll be as quick
and as gentle as I can be, okay?

-Okay.
-Okay.

[Alicia sighs]

[keys thud]

f*ck's sake!

[man on TV] She's an expert
in pretty much nothing.

-[girl on TV] Hey!
-[man] Ooh, sorry.

She's an expert in one thing…
Buttered noodles.

Because it's the only thing
she'll actually eat.

To have her eat a little bit better,

Candy's mom decided to try
new Country Crock plant butter.

[sniffles]

[man] Now, Candy likes two things.

Buttered noodles
and plant-buttered noodles.

[Candy] Mmm.

[man] New Country Crock plant butter,
cooks, bakes and tastes…

-[turns TV off]
-[cell phone vibrating]

Hello?

-[Darius] Hey.
-Hey.

Are you okay? Are you crying?

[sniffles] Yeah. Um…

I'm watching this, um…

this margarine ad. [sniffles]

-Okay.
-Yeah.

What was so sad about the margarine ad?

Oh… [sniffles]

It's a little girl, she's…

she's eating pasta.

She's got a family and stuff.

So…

I don't know. [sniffles]

-Well, uh, how's it going otherwise?
-[sniffles]

[sobbing] It's hard.

It's hard. [sniffles]

It's like the world is just,
like… [sniffles]

moving without me.

Um…

Yeah… [sniffles] Uh…

Sorry, sorry.

No, you don't have to apologize.

-You know I'm here for you, right?
-Yeah.

If there's anything I can do,
that's what I'm here for.

[sniffling] Yeah. You know,
I was gonna order some food.

And then I'm gonna be okay. [sighs] Okay.

-You sure?
-Yeah, yeah, I'm gonna be fine. Um…

I can come over, you know.

[exhales] No, it's snowing,
it's cold. It's really fine.

I'm just gonna order some food,
and we're gonna be good.

Uh, um… Uh… Uh…

Um, yeah. Sorry, my brain is just so…

-[sighs]
-Okay. I'll check in on you.

Yeah, okay.

-Okay. You take care.
-Okay, take care.

-Bye.
-Bye, bye.

[sighs]

[Dr. Perkins] Bring the bed
up a little bit, please.

-[Kat] Sure.
-[Dr. Perkins] Thank you.

[monitor beeping]

[Dr. Perkins] Okay.

Can I have the speculum, please?

Thank you.

I'm just gonna pass the speculum now.

Hand this off.

Thank you.

Gotta get that clean inside.

Thank you.

Is the patient doing okay?

[Kat] I'm just getting her to relax.

[Dr. Perkins] Great. Good.

-[Shevon] There you go.
-[Dr. Perkins] Thank you.

All right, so,
we're just gonna have a look around.

[clears throat]

All right.

-Could you prepare the needle, please?
-[Shevon] Yes, Doctor.

Needle ready.

[Dr. Perkins] Thank you.

[Shevon] Preparing the needle.

-[Dr. Perkins] Great. Thanks.
-[Shevon] Preparing the tube.

Tube ready.

[Dr. Perkins] All right.
Kat, are we ready to retrieve?

[Kat] Yes, Doctor.

-[Dr. Perkins] Thank you. And Shevon?
-[Kat] Yes, Doctor.

[Dr. Perkins] Great. All right.

[Shevon] Preparing the second tube.
Ready, Doctor.

[Dr. Perkins] Thank you.

-[Dr. Perkins] Hey, Alicia.
-Hi.

-How are you?
-Yeah, I'm good.

How many eggs did we get?

We got five eggs.

Okay, is that a good thing?

It's a little lower than I was hoping for,

but, uh, ultimately,
it's about quality rather than quantity.

[Alicia] Hmm.

My office will call tomorrow
to talk about fertilization.

Okay.

-You'll still be feeling groggy.
-[sighs]

Rest, and then
when you're ready, you can get dressed.

And is someone coming to pick you up?

I'll get a car when I'm ready.

-Right.
-Hmm.

-Well, good job today.
-Thank you.

[sighs]

[Alicia] Sorry.

Hi.

-Tommy for Alicia?
-[driver] Yes, ma'am.

Yeah, cool.

[operator] Thank you for calling
Hope and Heart Fertility.

-[exhales]
-Our patients are our priority.

We want you to achieve
all your fertility goals

in the safest,
most effective, most affordable way.

Please continue to hold.

[sighs]

[operator] Thank you for calling
Hope and Heart Fertility.

Our patients are our priority.

We want you to achieve
all your fertility goals

in the safest,
most effective, most affordable way.

Please continue to hold.

Thank you for calling
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Our patients are our…

[Cordelia] Alicia, hi, it's Cordelia.

Hi, Cordelia, you all right?

I'm fine. Thank you. How are you?

[spluttering] No, I'm good.
I'm just at work, so, um…

Okay, okay. I understand.
I'll get straight to the point.

Okay.

Yesterday, we had five eggs.

Three are fertilized.

Unfortunately, we lost two.

-You okay?
-Okay, yeah…

Uh, so, um, those three,
they definitely have a chance, right?

[Phil] Alicia,
can you come upstairs one minute?

Yeah, one second.

Um, sorry. Um, so those three
are definitely viable, right?

Not necessarily.

But we're gonna
keep on monitoring you, yes?

Yeah.

-[Cordelia] Alicia?
-Hi.

Alicia?

Yeah? Hi, Cordelia. You all right?

How are you, Alicia? You all right?

Yeah, I'm good.

You got any news?

Alicia… Alicia, I'm… I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. It's not good news.

It's not good news.

The embryo,
we're not gonna be able to transfer it.

Yeah, I feel like
I had a feeling that might be the case.

It's just too fragmented,

so we're gonna have to discard this one.

Because it's not
going to achieve a pregnancy.

Okay.

Alicia, can I make an appointment,

a follow-up appointment,
for you to come in and see Doctor?

-Would that be okay?
-Can I actually call you back, please?

Yes, of course, you can, my darling.

-Whatever you want. All right.
-Okay. Yeah.

I'll talk to you soon, okay?

Okay. Okay. Bye. [breath trembling]

All right, baby. Bye.

[sobbing] Bye.

[crying softly]

[sniffling]

So, Alicia, we need
to make some decisions here.

If your goal is still the same,

then our only option
is to do another cycle.

Now, we can use
a more aggressive treatment plan,

but we could end up
in the same place that we are now.

Can't you just tell me what to do?

I can't do that.

I can only tell you the options.

Yeah, I'm just… I'm just not sure
whether it's something…

Financially…

whether it's something I can…

[sighs]

I'm just realizing I just might
not be able to afford my own child. So…

[Sharon] I don't know, Leesh.
[inhales deeply]

It's a lot for you to go through again.

I know. I know.

What about waiting
until you've got a partner,

so at least
you're not doing this by yourself?

Mom, I'm tired of waiting for someone
to make something happen in my life.

Know what I mean?

Not everyone's life
is about finding someone,

then falling in love,
then getting married and having kids.

That's a fairy tale,
those fairy tales are f*cking sh*t.

Why does it have to be my story?
Know what I mean?

And I just… I wanna make my own choices.

I want… I don't wanna wait.

I don't wanna wait for someone else
to fulfill the goals I have for myself.

I don't…
I can't do that to myself anymore.

Listen, if you wanna do it,
I'll support you.

If you decide it's too much,
I'll support you.

-[softly] Yeah.
-You all right?

Yeah, yeah, I'm okay.

Hmm.

Everything will work out, you know?

Whatever way you go, whatever you decide.

[Alicia sighs]

You know what, f*ck infertility.

I know my body can do this. Okay?

You know why I know that?
It's because I'm a bad bitch.

And you're gonna be a bad bitch with me.

Yeah? Right, I'm gonna focus up.

I'm gonna eat right, exercise,
do the yoga, the vitamins.

I'll even do the spiritual sh*t
I read about online, yeah?

But we're doing this,
we're getting this done.

-Are you with me?
-[Dr. Perkins] I'm with you however you--

No, you've gotta be a bad bitch.

-Oh. [chuckles]
-Yeah?

Dr. Perkins, you help women create life
when the world tells them that they can't.

All right?
You, my darling, are a bad bitch.

Together, we're gonna harvest these eggs.

And it's gonna be
so many eggs in that petri dish

that you're not gonna have
enough space in your lab. Yeah?

All right, we're getting this done.
I just… I just came here to tell you that.

[cell phone vibrating]

[Alicia] Cordelia?

[Hudson] No, sorry.
My name is Hudson Clay.

I work for Dexhart Real Estate.

You'd inquired about a retail space
we have over in Boerum Hill?

[Alicia] Uh, yeah. Um, actually,

I'm not in the market
for a retail space anymore.

But thank you.

Oh, okay. Well, no problem.
If anything changes, just let me know.

Yeah, will do.
Thank you, though, for the call.

Take care. Bye, bye.

[exhales deeply]

Okay.

[gags]

Okay, bitch, round two.

♪ Baby girl, baby girl, I'm stuck ♪

♪ You got me ♪

♪ Oh, you got me ♪

♪ In your power ♪

-♪ I can't decide ♪
-♪ Baby, baby ♪

-♪ Which way I'm stuck ♪
-♪ Which way I'm stuck ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

-♪ Well, you got me in your power ♪
-♪ You got me in your power ♪

-♪ I can't decide which way I'm stuck ♪
-♪ I can't decide which way I'm stuck ♪

♪ Stuck
Ooh, ooh ♪

-Okay, here we go again.
-[laughs]

-I like your socks, very pretty.
-Thank you.

Do you see the little…

-Yeah. Very pretty.
-[laughs]

-Thank you.
-How have you been?

-I'm okay.
-Good.

I'm okay. How are you?

-I'm good. Thank you for asking.
-Okay, good.

-Okay, so, same procedure as normal.
-Yeah.

-Nothing changes. All right?
-Mmm-hmm.

-Here we go. Ready?
-Yeah.

-Deep breath in.
-[inhales deeply]

All right.

[knock on door]

[shakily] Yeah.

[knock on door]

Yeah. Yeah.

[Cordelia] Oh, dear.

-Aw…
-[softly] I'm so tired.

You're nearly there, Alicia.

You're nearly there.

[sobs] What if it doesn't work?

It is going to work. Why will it not work?

This is a different time, Alicia.

It's going to work.

You're a strong woman, Alicia.

[sighs]

It's going to work.

[whispers] I just
don't wanna do this again.

No, you've come this far.

Yes?

You've come this far.

-It's going to work.
-[sobbing] Okay.

-Hold on.
-Okay.

It's going to work.

[sighs]

Look, you're causing me
to do so much work.

[chuckles]

Okay.

I'm just scared. I just…

That's understandable.

-It's understandable.
-Okay.

Big, brave girl like you…

-Yeah?
-[sniffles] Yeah.

-It's going to work.
-Okay.

-Just positive thoughts.
-Okay.

-Positive.
-Yeah.

-Yes?
-Yeah.

-We're in this together.
-Okay.

Okay? You ready?

-You sure?
-Yeah.

-Or should we leave it for today?
-[chuckles] No, come on, let's do it.

-Let's do it.
-Let's do it.

Okay.

[exhales deeply]

You're working me out today.

-I'm not as slim as you are.
-Sorry. [laughs]

-Okay.
-[sighs]

Here we go. And then,
we have the blood test after.

Okay.

-Okay. Right, ready?
-Yeah.

-Sure?
-Hmm.

All right.

Okay.

Things are looking good, Alicia.

Okay.

-Looking very good.
-Okay.

Oh, very proud. That's it.

-Happy tears, happy tears.
-Okay. [sobs]

Yes, everything is looking lovely.

[crying] Okay.

-All right. Ready to come out now, yes?
-[sniffles]

Mmm-hmm.

-Well done, sweetie, okay?
-[sobs] Yeah.

I don't like to see you like this.

I'm sorry. [sniffles]

-Sorry. [sighs]
-Oh, no need to apologize.

Okay, do you need a drink of water?

-Yes, please.
-Okay, I'll get you that.

I'll give you this tissue to clean up.

I'll bring you the water.

-Then we'll do the test. Yes?
-Thank you. Yeah.

Okay. Well done, darling.

-Thank you.
-Nice, pretty green socks.

-You buying them for me?
-I'll get you some.

-Yes.
-[chuckles]

[sighs]

[monitor beeping]

-[Shevon] Needle ready.
-[Dr. Perkins] Great.

[Shevon] Prepping the tube.

[Dr. Perkins] Kat, are you ready to go?

[Kat] Yes, Doctor.

[Dr. Perkins] Great.
Shevon, are you ready to go?

-[Shevon] Yes, Doctor. Tube ready.
-[Dr. Perkins] Great.

Let's do this.
And it's Alicia's second time,

so let's get as many eggs as possible.

[Shevon] Next tube.

Tube ready.

Next tube.

[Dr. Perkins] Thank you.

[Shevon] Ready.

[Dr. Perkins] Alicia.

-Hi.
-[Dr. Perkins] Hi.

How are you doing?

Good. What's the number? Tell me.

Well, I was hoping
that we would get at least five…

Yeah.

We got 13.

[gasps]

-Thirteen?
-Yes.

That's good.

-That's excellent.
-Wow.

I'm very happy.

I'm so happy.

So, it's the same process as last time.

My office will be in touch
with updates about the fertilization.

Okay.

-Okay, let's… let's enjoy this.
-[chuckling]

It's really good. You should be happy.

I'm happy. You know I'm happy.

It's 'cause I told you we're bad b*tches.

[both chuckle]

Sure. All right. I'll see you later.

Thank you. [laughing]

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-[Cordelia] Alicia, it's Cordelia.
-Yes, yes.

Hi, Cordelia. You all right?

I'm all right. You okay?

-Yeah, you know, I'm good…
-Alicia, sorry.

-Yeah?
-It's good news.

It is?

Yes. We have five good quality embryos.

Oh, my gosh, that's brilliant.

Unfortunately, we lost four.

-Four in progress.
-Okay. Okay.

-But we have five…
-[mouths] Five.

…good quality embryos, Alicia.

[laughing] I love you so much.

You love me, don't you? I know you do.

I'm so happy for you, darling.

-Thank you.
-I'm so happy.

-Five! Remember, five.
-Wow.

-Five good quality embryos. [laughs]
-Embryos!

I know you're at work, but scream anyhow.

I know. I'm waiting for my boss to come.

-Thank you so much.
-You are so welcome.

-Uh, I'll talk to you soon?
-Tomorrow.

-Okay, tomorrow.
-Okay.

-Bye.
-Have a good evening.

-Thank you, darling. Bye! Bye.
-Bye!

[chuckles]

The good news is that
we are ready to implant the embryo.

But there is a bit of a problem.

What's wrong?

Well, when we retrieved the eggs,
we found some polyps in your uterus.

Polyps are growths that could impede

or jeopardize
the implantation of the embryo.

[sighs]

So, we can freeze the embryo
and remove the polyps,

but it does involve surgery,
and we should do it soon.

[whispers] Oh, God.

Would my insurance cover the surgery?

Yes.

And I checked,
we can do it next week on the 16th.

Is there not any other day you can do?

I'm afraid not. And we should
really do this as soon as possible.

Okay. I'll make it work.

[Dr. Perkins] Is everybody ready to start?

[Kat] Ready, Doctor.

-[Dr. Perkins] You ready, Shevon?
-[Shevon] Ready, Doctor.

[Dr. Perkins] Great.
All right. Here we go.

[monitor beeping]

-Alicia?
-Hmm?

How you feelin'?

Yeah, I'm good.

-Yeah?
-Yeah.

-You up for a visitor?
-Yeah.

There's a handsome young man outside.
Could I let him come in?

-[chuckles] Yeah. Hmm.
-Yeah?

[Darius chuckles]

Hey.

-[gasps]
-[Darius] Happy birthday.

-Oh, my God!
-[Darius chuckles]

I'll give you a chair.

-Thank you, nurse.
-You're welcome.

-[grunts]
-I love cupcakes.

Just put that there. How're you feeling?

-Yeah, I'm good.
-You okay?

Yeah.

-Oh…
-Good.

[monitor beeping]

I'm so glad you're here.

Of course. I'm glad I'm here, too.

Mmm.

[chuckles]

[sighs]

Okay, so I'm just gonna put
some gel on. It's a little bit cold.

Just so that we can see the…

All right.

Now, we are ready to implant your embryo.

Okay.

[Alicia groans softly]

-Oh.
-[Dr. Perkins] All right. Okay.

[monitor beeping]

[Alicia sighs]

[breathes deeply]

-[Dr. Perkins] And we're done.
-[Alicia] Okay.

Wait, wait, wait. Is that it?

That's it.

I'm just gonna check that it's clear.

-[whispers] That's it.
-Okay.

It's clear.

-[Kat] It's clear.
-Okay.

So, let me take that for you.

[speculum rattling]

You can let go.

-[all laughing]
-Sorry.

I want you to go home and rest,

and we'll do a blood test in 11,12 days.

Hopefully, we'll have some good news.

-Okay.
-All right.

-[exhales] Okay.
-You did great.

I'm just gonna
clean you up a little bit, yeah?

-Okay. Take care.
-Thank you. Thank you.

-Well done. Well done.
-[exhales deeply]

[sighs]

[cell phone vibrating]

Hello. [sniffs]

[Cordelia] Alicia?

Yeah. Hi.

-Hi, it's Cordelia. How you doing?
-Hi. I'm good.

Thank you. I'm good.

-Alicia?
-Yes.

Your results have come back.

Tested positive.

[exhales and laughs]

Congratulations, Alicia, you is pregnant.

You're pregnant, darling, you're pregnant.

[laughing]

You did it. Well done, you've done it.

-[sniffles] Wow. Thank you so much.
-Okay?

-Yeah.
-Well done.

-Congratulations.
-Thank you so much.

So, someone from the office
is going to call you

with the follow-up appointment, okay?

[crying] Okay.

-All right?
-Yeah.

Congratulations, darling.
I'm very happy for you.

Thank you, Cordelia.

-Thank you so much for everything.
-You're so welcome.

Thank you.

Oh, you are so welcome.

Now you go and celebrate wisely.

I will. [laughs] Yeah. I will.

-All right.
-Okay.

-Okay, then. Take care.
-Okay. Take care, bye.

Bye-bye. Bye-bye.

[sniffling and crying]

[sniffles]

[laughing] Oh, my God.

[breathing deeply] Oh.

[sniffles] Okay.

[sniffles] Okay.

Okay.

[line ringing]

[Sharon] Hello?

Mom?

[laughs and sniffles]

[operatic song playing]