01x06 - Episode 6

[bunniefuu]

[birds chirping]

[streetlight clicks]

[rooster crows]

[Meryem] Yasin.

Yasin.

Yasin, wake up.

- What's wrong?
- [Meryem] It's Ruhiye.

What happened?

- [Meryem] She's gone.
- What?

She's gone.

I looked upstairs,
I looked in the garden, everywhere.

You're kidding me.

- I swear.
- Meryem, what are you saying?

I'm telling you, Ruhiye's left.

She's gone. [sniffles]

The kids?

Esma?

[Esma sobs]

İsmail?

[Esma sobbing]

- [rooster crows]
- [Esma continues sobbing]

[Peri] Do you have any idea
where she might have gone?

Ruhiye doesn't have
anywhere that she could have gone.

She just doesn't. [sniffles]

[Peri] Did you go to the police?

Yasin said he would call them.
But I don't know what happened.

[sniffles]

I told him I'd go check at the hospital.

Did you check the hospital, Meryem?

No, I just told him that because...

Well, he's forbidden me to see you again.

And I probably shouldn't be here.

[Peri] Why?

[sniffles]

Eh...

I'm afraid you're going to say
that I'm cured or something

and I don't have to come anymore,
and I really don't want that to happen.

Why's that?

I like coming
and spending time with you this way...

talking things over, just one-on-one.

[sniffles and exhales]

And, of course,
you're a really good listener.

But there are times I tell myself,

"You'd better stop
talking, talking, talking like this,

or you're going to end up
driving her crazy, the poor woman."

Well, that's my job, Meryem:
to listen to you.

Sure, I know.

Yeah, of course, it's your job.

When you're done with me,
then you see someone else.

You know, I think I'll leave early,
if that's okay with you.

How come?

I'm just sort of feeling a bit restless.

We could talk about that, if you want.

We don't really talk, though.
I just tell you everything and...

- Meryem...
- My sister-in-law's gone missing.

My brother is a wreck.

And really, I shouldn't even be here.

So...

[sniffs] I think I'll just go.

Thank you.

Have a nice day.

[door opens and shuts]

[exhales]

[breathes heavily]

PSYCHIATRIST

[indistinct chatter]

Meryem.

- No, that's not what I thought...
- Meryem?

Oh, I'm sorry.

Meryem?

Is something wrong?

Since you're still here,
there's something I forgot to mention.

Really? What?

Well, the pastry
that you brought me once...

Pastry?

You remember,
the savory pastry you brought,

that I couldn't accept due to the rules?

I remember.

Well, it occurred to me...

if you ever felt like making something
else like that and bringing it in...

as long as it's not too much to ask,
I'd love to try it.

I really would.

Uh-huh.

Without meat, if possible.

No meat.

If you could.

I was thinking...

Well...

I took a big risk coming here today,

without even telling my brother
or the Hodja I was coming.

And you know about my situation at home.

Someone has to watch the kids.

So, I'm not sure
I can make it again next week.

But if I can get away, I'll come.
Though, I doubt I will.

I hope you'll come back, Hazal.

Wait, "Hazal"?

Did I just call you that?

Meryem, oh my God. I'm so sorry.

Meryem, I don't know where that came from.

It's just one of those days
where everything...

[Meryem] No, it's okay.

Well, goodbye again. Have a nice day.

[sighs]

[heaves] I am so...

[sobbing] ...tired of this.

[sniffles]

These feelings inside of me...

[sobs]

[heaves and breathes heavily]

[sobbing] Oh god, I'm so tired of it.

I'm so sick of the whole thing.

Having to sit in that room all day,
listening to them talk...

going home alone
to an empty place every night,

and worrying about my age,

and how to keep myself presentable
by dieting and yoga,

and going to the gym five times a week.

I'm sick of it!

And I'm sick of the way
I let this stupid girl get to me!

I don't know why I called her that!

It's not like I'd forgotten her name.

Meryem, that's it.

But no...

Something just comes over me.

I know I should be able to control it,
but I can't.

I'm just so helpless.

Almost like there's someone behind me
who's pushing me, forcing me to do it.

I'm tired of pretending
to be someone I'm not.

And pretending to feel something
when I don't feel anything.

I'm tired of going out
to ridiculously expensive restaurants

in the hopes of meeting
a halfway decent man,

and then coming home
covered in the stink of him,

and waking up alone again in the morning.

I can't...

take it anymore.

And I don't care
if something has f*cking gluten in it.

[Peri continues whimpering]

I'm sorry.

[Peri sobbing]

Peri?

I'm fine.

I was, um...

Well, once you started,
I didn't want to interrupt you.

But we need to talk. Alright?

About what?

About the other day...

[exhales]

[Peri] Which day?

When you saw my sister.

When she came here to the office.

Remember what we said when we started?

About how our personal relationship
might complicate my supervision of you?

I've been thinking a lot about it lately.

And with the other day...

[exhales]

So we should stop, you're saying.

[breathing heavily]

I think it might be best.

[gasps]

You're serious.
You'd really do it? Just like that?

- Right now? Today?
- Wait a minute.

We talked about this.

It's not like this is coming
totally out of the blue, right?

I've thought it over

and I honestly think you'd be
much better off seeing someone else.

It doesn't mean we can't meet
and talk as friends, but...

But...

Two years ago.

- What?
- [Peri] That's when we talked about it.

That's right.

Just before we got started.

And you think we should stop right now?

Today?

How about this?

Let's finish our session.

[exhales]

And then, if you're up for it,
maybe this weekend or whenever...

let's go out.

We'll grab a cup of coffee,

maybe get something to eat, too.

Sound good?

Okay, I get it.

Peri, don't.

[Peri] No, no, I understand.

But I...

I just need to get some air.

- Come on, will you stay for a second?
- No, I won't.

[footsteps receding]

[door opens and closes]

[exhales]

[sighs]

[gulls cawing]

[dog barking]

POLICE

Yasin?

[TV playing]

Yasin?

Yasin?

[Yasin] Any sign of her?

No?

It's like the earth has swallowed her up.

I'm sure we'll find her.

I looked down the road,

I've been to the shopkeepers,

I've been to the mosque.

I've searched the entire neighborhood,

and nobody's seen her.

How does a girl just disappear like that?

[Meryem] What did they say?

The police?

They took fingerprints.

[Meryem] Fingerprints? Why?

How should I know? That's what they do.

I guess it's to see if anybody else
has been in the house.

Yasin?

I'm afraid if I say it, you'll get mad.

Say what?

Did you make someone angry?

There was that rock through the window,

with that note on it.

We thought it was all a mistake, but...

now this with Ruhiye...

The police will look into it.

- [knocking on door]
- [Meryem] It's her. She's back.

[dogs barking]

[woman talking on TV]

[spoon clinking]

[clinking continues]

[man talking on TV]

[Hodja swallowing]

[Hodja slurping]

[Hodja swallowing]

[Hodja] Hilmi here told me
about what happened.

I thought I'd bring my daughter
to see how you were doing.

God bless you, Hodja.

Hayrunnisa has been studying in Konya.

She's come to stay with us
for a few months, right?

Sorry for your loss.

Thank you.

[woman talking on TV]

[Hodja swallowing]

[Hodja slurping]

[man talking on TV]

Hodja, I am so grateful that you came,

especially considering everything...

you're going through.

You really didn't have to go
to all that trouble.

It was no trouble at all.

We had a nice little stroll.

Hodja, can I offer you some coffee?

Would you like something to eat, Hodja?

I'd be happy to get you something.

No, no, don't get up.
This tea is all I need.

So, how long has she been gone, Yasin?

- Since last night?
- That's right.

And she took your youngest?

Our son.

- You're sure he's with her?
- I'm sure.

God willing.

That's right. God willing.

[Hodja slurps and swallows]

God willing.

[pensive music playing]

[ominous music playing]

You look good with a child.

[baby coos]

I thought I'd find you here.

How are you, Semiha?

Is this a joke?

After ten years, you just show up
as if nothing has happened?

Semiha.

Is this a joke?

Is this one yours?

Who else's?

Why are you here now?

Why shouldn't I be?
I'm not asking for anything.

- Just thought you'd stop by, then?
- How come you're angry, Semiha?

So, I'm going to go visit
the old rock quarries again.

I thought you might want to come.

Now I know you must be messing with me.

I am not, Semiha. Stop talking like that.

Are you not even going to invite me in?

I've come all this way with my son.
Really, Semiha?

Not even a glass of water?

Semiha?

Why do you want to go to the quarries?

I wouldn't.

And you shouldn't.

Where's this coming from?

After all these years.

Why did you come here, Ruhiye?

Look at me.

I'm not well, Semiha.

What's wrong?

You know.

- You're not saying you're...
- It's not like that.

[Semiha] What, then?

I'm losing my mind, Semiha.

What do you mean?

When I heard he'd d*ed...

Who?

Who d*ed?

You know who d*ed.

Two years ago,

when Yasin came to sell the land,

that's when I found out.

- When who came?
- [Ruhiye] My husband.

He lost his business.

Then he couldn't find a job.

So, when he suggested
that we sell my land, I said,

"Fine.

Do whatever you have to do.

You've got to pay the bills."

So, that's why he was in town.
Remember the olive grove my father had?

He sold it.

Yeah?

I told him all about it.

When we first met,

I told him what happened.

- Don't, Ruhiye.
- [Ruhiye] I thought he should know.

- I wasn't a virgin.
- Stop it, Ruhiye.

[Ruhiye] He made me tell him who it was.

And when he got here,
he was going to find him and b*at him up.

But the villagers told him he d*ed.

What do you want from me, Ruhiye?

I don't want anything.

I did mean it, though.

I'm not well.

I haven't been able
to get it out of my head.

Since I heard he d*ed,

at first, I was relieved.

"The bastard's dead,
let him burn in hell."

But after a week or two went by,

I felt this weight on me.

It was like one of those rocks
from the quarry pressing on my chest.

[Ruhiye inhales]

It starts in my head.

It's like I go away...

and someone else comes and takes my place.

Even the kids see it.

I spend the whole day sleeping.

That's... That's why I came.

But I didn't tell anyone at home
where I was going,

except my daughter, Esma,
because I didn't want her to worry.

But I made her promise
she wouldn't tell her dad,

or he'd come after me.

He's seeing someone else.

I can see it in his eyes.

I think I've lost him.

He hasn't smoked in years.
Now he's started again.

I can see what's coming.

Either he kicks me out of the house,
or I go completely out of my mind.

[sobs] It was his idea to come here,
but he went and turned the car around.

[whimpers] I thought he was going
to leave me here and go home without me.

[gasps]

I really need
to take care of this, Semiha.

I'm losing my mind, my family,

everything.

I barely found the strength
to get this far.

So, I'm begging you
to please come with me.

- [Semiha] Where?
- To the rock quarries.

☺But why?
What do you plan on doing there, Ruhiye?

I don't know, Semiha.

I don't.

- I thought if I went, then...
- [Semiha] What?

Then what?

Maybe going back there now,
when I'm older,

I could finally get it out of my head...

[sighs] I don't know.

Maybe not.

Just don't make me do it by myself.

Won't you come with me?

Won't you come and hold my hand
like you did back then, Semiha?

I guess we're all a little crazy.

Having to keep it bottled up
all these years...

Did you ever tell anyone?

Do you remember that crazy old man...

who'd wander through town
with a copper bowl on his head?

I'm going to end up just like him.

He's not dead.

He's alive.

He can't be.

That guy?

He must have been ancient
even back in those days.

Not him.

[ominous music playing]

Go home, Ruhiye.

Don't go to the quarries.

What good will it do anyway?

I'm asking, if you care about me at all...

go away.

Forget about it.

Let it go.

You were always looking for trouble
when you were a kid.

Don't do this.

[ominous music continues]

[dogs barking]

[Hilmi] I mean,
someone who truly wants to believe

will always find a way.

If you try and tell him
to suppress these feelings, he will.

But they'll come back in another way,

quiet possibly in a way
you might find even more alarming.

Personally, I don't think
we should suppress our feelings.

Whatever those feelings are,
any feelings that we have,

we should be allowed
to experience them to the full.

You see, our spiritual world is so vast,

so rich.

It would be a shame
if we missed out on any part of it.

[Hilmi] Forgive me.

I'm sure when we sat down,

you didn't think
you'd be getting a lecture on this.

I know it can be a little confusing.

But it's important.

I honestly believe that,

especially nowadays.

I mean, here we are in 2018
and everything is so complex...



Of course.

What I mean is we live in a crazy world.

Sure, we can just live our lives
and carry on.

But if we want to find meaning,

a purpose to life,

without having to rely on institutions,
or religion or other people,

then we must sometimes let ourselves
be guided by our feelings.

And the best part of it is...

living your life that way
makes everything seem... a lot...

Well, a lot more fun and exciting.

You know, it's like you're living
in an endless festival.

That's how I look at it.

You're living life on a higher level.

Anyway...

I can't recall. How did this start?

The coffee, of course. That's right.

It's good coffee.

We have it sometimes at home.

Or at the mosque.

But this is much better.

- Glad you like it.
- Thank you.

Well, you've got it now. So...

Yes, I've got it.

I don't know how I left it here.

- Well, it was very nice to see you again.
- Yes, very nice.

Oh.

Yeah.

Right.

Well, I'll be...

on my way, then.

So, will you please be sure
to tell your brother for me, Yasin...?

He's welcome to join
our discussion group any time.

- And my name...
- Hilmi.

Hilmi. You got it.

Thank you again for the coffee.

It was perfect.

Well, I don't know about that.

May God bless you.

- Thanks, I...
- [Hilmi] And your brother's wife.

We're praying for her.

- Inshallah.
- [Hilmi] As you are, I'm sure.

Thank you.

But don't forget to pray:

twice in the morning and twice at night.

Hmm.

Alright, then.

Oh, do they still make
this kind of chocolate?

Where you scratch off the...

Wow. We used to get those all the time.

Well, alright, then.

[Meryem] I'll see you out.

- They're tight.
- You need a shoehorn?

No, no. I'm fine.

There we go. [laughs nervously]

- Have a blessed evening.
- [Meryem] You too.

- I could recite a prayer for the children.
- [Meryem] No, there's no need.

Thank you. Good night.

[lock clicks]

[sighs]

Lecturing me when
he doesn't even know what year it is.

I was stupid not to see that coming.

Like I could ever like him.

What a nutcase!

[piano music playing]

[inhales deeply]

[gulls cawing]

[door opens and shuts]

[footsteps approaching]

[gasps]

[exhales]

[Sinan] Meryem?

[exhales]

[water boiling]

[exhales deeply]

Come on. Don't ask me to do that.

Look,

I need you to stay here
while I go to the police station.

So, just write him a note
and tell him that you're sick.

It's my job. It's not like
I'm just going out for a walk.

Did I say you were, Meryem? Did I?

Did I say
you were going out for a walk, hmm?

- I'm asking you a question.
- Stop it, Yasin.

You're suffocating me. I can't breathe.

Esma!

Why's the water on?

I'm going to take a bath in the sink.

It's for tea.
Why do you think it's boiling?

How about that Hodja?

What?

You know...

coming here to see us.

Coming all the way out here.

It's because he is a very good
and holy man.

We are truly blessed
to know that man, Meryem.

Truly.

Think of it...

His wife's been dead, what?
A week or less?

And he still comes way out here
to see how we're doing.

Just when he was about to go,

you know,
when he put his hand right there...

I started trembling,

I swear to God to you.

There was, like, some kind of energy
coming out of him.

And then,
I felt like everything was alright again.

One touch. That's all it took.

I swear, I'd do anything for that man.

I just wish that I had told him, you know.

[sniffles]

COLLECTION BOX

[prays in Arabic]

[in English] Hodja, the boys
are going to order a pizza now.

Would you like them
to order you something?

[Hodja] Amen. [sniffles]

Forgive me. From behind, I didn't realize.

I'm okay, Hilmi. That sounds too heavy.

One of the girls already brought me
some soup, which was very nice of her.

I don't think
I'll have anything else till tonight.

I'm going for a little walk now.

I could come with you, if you like.

No, stay and have your kebab.
I'll be back soon.

I could order you kebab, if you want.

I already ate.

I'll see you later.

[sighs heavily]

[exhales]

[sighs]

[techno music playing]

[treadmill whirring]

- [Ayse] So, you ended it, huh?
- [Gülbin] Yeah, it wasn't going anywhere.

At least not anywhere good.

- It sounds like that guy was kind of a...
- A d*ck.

Hey, come on, now.

Well, he kind of was, wasn't he?

I know you were seeing him
for a while, but...

[Gülbin] No, I don't care. But you
shouldn't trash the guy behind his back.

- [Ayse laughs]
- It's kind of tacky.

[Ayse] Aw, let's gossip a little.

[all giggle]

- [Melike] His name was Sinan, right?
- [Gülbin] Sinan. Yeah.

- [Ayse] He didn't talk much, right?
- Hardly ever.

I'd share stuff with him,
all kinds of stuff,

and he'd just sit there
with his eyes glazing over.

- [Ayse] How was the sex?
- The sex? [sighs]

Okay.

The worst part was,
when I got lazy and didn't go home after,

I'd wake up the next morning wondering,
"What the hell am I doing with this guy?"

He doesn't have anything to say.

The guy runs out of steam
after mumbling a couple of words.

It's pathetic. [laughs]

[all laugh]

[Gülbin] And he's got this

"I'm-gonna-f*ck-you look"
he does all the time.

- [Ayse] What is it? Do it.
- No way.

- [Melike] Come on, you have to show us.
- Well, okay.

- [Gülbin laughs] No, no. I can't.
- [Ayse and Melike giggle]

[Melike] That's horrible.

[women continue laughing]

He does this thing with his fingers,
the "sexy tickle."

[women laughing]

[tense music playing]

[sighs]

[door closing]

Papa?

[cell phone buzzes]

- How are you?
- Good.

- You?
- Good.

I came out when I saw your message.

Great. [chuckles]

[gasps]

- [Burcu] Son of a bitch!
- [Yasin] I'm looking for Ruhiye.

[indistinct conversation outside]

[Burcu] What are you talking about?

- [Yasin] Hey!
- [Burcu] Son of a bitch!

- [grunting]
- [slap]

[Burcu shouts] Get off me!

[panting]

[woman in Turkish]
The musician we are going to welcome now

has been
a Turkish music maestro for years.

In 1978, he made a record

and created the key
to light music with Turkish lyrics.

He then stepped into the area
of polyphonic Turkish classical music,

which is widely performed today.

With his own unique style,

he is one of our country's
most popular musicians.

Yes, please welcome
our dear musician friend,

Ferdi Özbeğen.

[audience applauds]

[upbeat music playing]

[singing in Turkish]

[audience applauds]